#differenteras

[tokiokaulitz483]

[italiangiftsforyou]

Italy. A Short Trip Through Italy.

[leonieswiftie]

... #taylorswift #differenteras #throwback #throughtheyears #moonfilter #thenvsnow https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxkmv00iCIl/?igshid=1qasxddhgv141

[azizdogdu]

I❤️🇩🇪 . . repost @berlin.explore ・・・ Different eras! . 📸: @urbanberlin ——————————————— #berlin #berlingermany #berlincity #berlin🇩🇪 #germany🇩🇪 #germany #deutschland #deutschland🇩🇪 #berlinerfernsehturm #berlintower #tvtowerberlin #berlintvtower #differenteras #history #historicberlin #modern #differentperspective #differentworlds #timetravel #berlinlife #berlintravel #exploreberlin #berlinphotography #berlinphotographer #berlinblogger #travel #travelphotography #traveltheworld #wanderer #explore https://www.instagram.com/p/B9HdndpgiFq/?igshid=12hpzjtntx8b

[nsideoutoreo]

Updates of my LYFE

I just turned 31 a few weeks ago... Yep, getting up there in the old age haha. I guess.... I feel as If I was born in the wrong era or just wrong time period. As i’m sure a lot of other people that feel the same way. I have 2 kids, Kaylin who is 17 almost 18 and Riley who just turned 5 a few days ago.... Kaylin is my stepdaughter but still my kid no matter what. I joined TikTok, well Musical.ly before it turned TikTok. Figured maybe that was I needed in my life, to make others laugh, a way to vent or have fun. It worked for a while. Decided to take a break from it to figure out whats wrong with me or whats going on with me.

I get angry so much quicker than normal, I am hating life right now, the fact that I’m STUCK up in the boonies. I MISS MY CITY, I MISS being able to WALK to stores or take buses, having places that I can actually go to without it being so far. I am not happy here, I’m not happy with my life, as much as my son should make me happy, and as much as it pains me, its not enough. I know, shitty dad, why doesn’t my kid make me the happiest person in the world.

My parents are back to drinking, yippee, should’ve known better that they would change for Riley. Ha, what a joke to believe that shit. I’ve always thought I was meant to do something better.... But in which direction was I meant to be better in. Alive or death? As my son is outside with my parents driving his little electric car, Kaylin in her room. I’m sitting on here venting or whatever it is I’m doing. All I can think of is, what life would be like for Leah ( My lady ), Riley and Kaylin.

Leah, i’m sure would get over it, probably call me a coward for ending my life, Kaylin, maybe cry for a bit but forget about me quickly, as I’m really not important to be in her life, even though I been in it since she was 6 years old. Riley is the one I worry about, what would he think of me as he grows up. That I gave up on him and me? That I don’t love him enough to stay alive. My parents, well who knows what they think. Maybe that I’m a coward, or the reason that I did it was an over exaggeration, I was making a bigger deal that it should be. Or that whatever reason I did it for was not the truth, as I hear all the time with how I grew up, how I got abuse, but yet they deny it. They Just want the past to be the past, let it go. I can’t let it go if they act like it never happened.  

I love Riley so much, that Id die for him, just so he has a chance in life. Id do it infinity times over just to make sure he succeeds in life.

DO NOT WORRY!! I’m not gonna take my life, but I guess I’m stuck in a rat race right now. Can’t seem to get out of it, Like I’m being held back by something. Not sure what it is. I’m trying, like really trying to get a better job that would allow me to get out of this hellhole town and move towards the city. 

Its funny though, I’m typing this as if anyone is gonna read this and send me a message and ask me, are you okay, i’m here for you, talk to me. or give me advice or maybe tell me something that might make me happier than I am now.

Sometimes I wonder.... If my parents died, would I be emotional over them? Would I feel that relief of weight from my shoulders? Would I be pissed because they died before owning up to their mistakes in the past. They drove Mike away, They drove Rachael away. They both left me with them. My drunk abusive father and mother. The different between my parents was the my dad was physically abusive, while my mom was mentally abusive.

My siblings..... I’ve always wondered, why didn’t they take me away when they had their own place. why wait till I graduated High School? Why wait till I was further damaged of Physically and Mentally abused. Probably why I am the way I am. But Leah says that no matter what, whether I was raised that way, If I keep the cycle going, I’m choosing it, that while I’m blaming them, I should be blaming myself for continuing. If I am to break that cycle of my past, I need to choose to go another route. As I’m typing this, I’m getting pissed off, because she is right but I can’t help it because THAT IS ALL I KNOW!! 

Although, I don’t drink at all, maybe a celebratory drink, but other than that, Nope, nothing. Now, getting high off of Marijuana, that is different, I like that, cause I feel it calms me down. I’m not mad at anything or at least not thinking about it. Sometimes makes me think bout it, but in a way that makes me see it in a different view. 

I don’t BEAT my son, now I may spank his butt for his behavior. But unlike how I grew up, I wouldn’t punch or headbutt or kick my son. That will happen when hes an adult. :D ..... Not funny? Too Soon? Y’all Snowflakes? 

Well I should get off this now. type way to long, probably have more to talk about... Maybe I’ll publish this and write another one.

[riudesign-blog]

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[seanmcmenomy]

Cruz in the #Jensen #interceptor 3 #london #warm #wether #V8 #440 #mopar #70sporn #differentera #smiles

[wildloveflower]

||| 2012 ||| 21•7•2017 💭✏✏✏ #MiaUnRuLy . . . . . #piecesofme #journalentry #deardiary #write #express #create #words #differenttime #differentera #lifetimeaway #muse #writing #journaling #backtobasics #pentopaper #kaleidoscopedream #wildheart #wildloveflower #fridayfeels #musictherapy #selflove #selfheal #reflect

[nicholassechaud]

#differentera #thatmini #vs #eskate #eskateboard #allontheboard #djlife #modellife #chocolover #séchaudlikes https://www.instagram.com/p/Bye5OxNCn77/?igshid=19q0h3ta6s4g9

[aaburrimiento]

Tf we wont. #differentera https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs-ahu0hqt707pFQHSE6R_bJQ8XV9UfY1FrSvY0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kpuptlo7nf0s

[oryginality-blog-blog]

@kobebryant with #props and #diplomacy. Man is enjoying retirement and still analyzing and enjoying the game. It's human nature but #DontAlwaysHaveToCompare #JustEnjoy . . . . . . . . . . #MJ #Kobe #LeBron #Legacy #NBA #Playoffs #Champions #Championship #AllIDoIsWinWinWin #DifferentEras #ItsActuallyImpossibleToCompare #ButTheDiscussionIsFun #BlackPanther #Lebranium

[leonieswiftie]

#taylorswift #differenteras #taylorswiftyellow #burningyellow #troughtheyears #throwback https://www.instagram.com/p/BxkCkU0iON1/?igshid=1xmapd2uwg0un

[therealrueckert]

Prague 7: Five Ways ========== We are looking at 700 years between the oldest and newest bridges in this shot. One of my favorite things about Europe - the ancient and modern right next to one another... ========== #Bridges #Prague #VltavaRiver #Arches #Centuries #DifferentEras #DailyPhoto (at Prague, Czech Republic)

[ricciardo3fanpage]

I was forced to make one more of these today 😜 so I hope you enjoy this little glow up 😁 #danielricciardo #gogoricciardo #dr3fans #ricciardo #motorsport #f1 #racing #renaultf1team #renault #rsspirit #smile #2020 #formula1 #glowup #transformationtuesday #transform #growup #sidebydside #redbullracing #sameguy #samevibe #differentera (bij Somewhere Over The Rainbow) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-q_LmQBKjw/?igshid=1ulzq34nzgbtb

[stylewithsusaninaus-blog]

Huge throwback today - 50 years. . Love how Facebook pops up memories such as this one......so thought I’d share. Mum was 29 here....I love seeing her dress - so stylish - the umbrella, me in little shoes - just a different era. #throwback #50yearsagotoday #1967 #differentera

[almarb79]

Hace 110 años....... #fridakahlo #poesía #sameproblems #differentera #sunday #inlove