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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Gerard Keay/Michael | The Distortion Characters: Gerard Keay, Michael | The Distortion (The Magnus Archives) Additional Tags: Haircuts, Happy Little Accidents, Cancer implications, Surgery mentions, Hair mourning Summary:

A happy little accident with Michael leads to Gerry finally deciding to prepare his new look before surgery. He finds comfort in getting his partner to help.

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So, I wrote this a while back when the attacks on Ukraine started

If I say dolphins are like marbles, it's because in the vastness of space, the water on their skin is as round as the plaything in children's pockets, and so is life, vast and impossible in our current conflicts, like the root we call a carrot or a beet, brightly-coloured and nourishing even when we pull ourselves out of the earth and gnaw on our young in wars like we're cooking a dinner with friends. Who are we to question the dogs of the army, when water flows just like the blood we spill and they run swift like dolphins, who jump and spin creating marbles of sky in the center of their coil, our little frame of space in a universe where love for the fellow human can never reach a border. And that is tragic. And that is beautiful. And empty. For we all die.

I was angry but was also trying to stay strong and not let myself falter into a state of "I can't do shit so let's all give up". So I turned to one of my loves. Water, the ocean.

I was using this to exemplify a style of writing to a friend, and my explanation turned into another one. Now filled with the chest tightness of seeing both the ongoing attacks at Ukraine and the Palestinian genocide.

I can't do much in my current situation except keep talking about them. So I'm gonna share this too.

Often, when you're feeling strongly about something, you can focus it a bit better. For the poem I was thinking about the wars going on, and the loss of childhood innocence through violence because of it, and how it's become commodified, turned into a spectacle people want to go watch movies about. It's something happening in one place, and we're all aware of it, but at the same time, people not in that place are just, having an evening with friends. And that doesn't mean it's not seen as wrong, but that it's become background noise with how much input about it we get and how little we can do individually from our homes without major power.

All that mixed with my love for the sea. Dolphins are capable of committing horrible things to each other and yet we always see them as these pure and fun animals, free of all.

Marbles are round, like the earth, spheres are associated to protective figures, to something easy to embrace because it doesn't have edges or points, it can also be seen as containing something, encapsulating it. Round and perfect and beautiful to look at.

Dolphins making circles in their jumps look like ouroboros, ouroboros represent constant cycles.

Cycles that we repeat.

Society repeats cycles if violence.

And we come back to war now.

Because every few years we get a new war, it's a circle, and every time the head neets the tail, it explodes and kills and you're in a wild sea that throws you side to side and it's violent.

But there comes a calmness every now and then, and you can just float. And it looks beautiful.

And the animals, the fish, come back when the sea is calm. And it's comforting, and I feel like embracing it even when I can't because I can't embrace water, it spills over.

But then you get back to the state we're in, because blood also spills over, when bullets and bombs break the bodies open. And you try to hold that sign of life that is supoosed to be contained, like in the sphere I mentioned, but it keeps coming out and it's a child's life and you panic because they're pulling the children out of their homes and they have no food, no comfort, nothing.

But you have food, and you're eating it, but sending it to them from here would take so long and the food rots and it's a cycle because you use the rot to plant new things but the food is not for then anymore it's for new food and it's a circle and it's beautiful and it's violent and we can see our siblings in it and yet we're total strangers.

I know this doesn't do much. But keep talking about Palestine. Keep talking about them. Be loud. BE SO LOUD.

And don't forget Ukraine.

Be loud about them all. Be outraged.

Free Palestine.

Free Ukraine.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Gerard Keay/Michael | The Distortion, Gerry Keay/Michael | The Distortion Characters: Gerard Keay, Michael | The Distortion (The Magnus Archives) Additional Tags: Post-spiral Michael, Post-Distortion Michael, Genderqueer Character, Genderqueer Michael, Trans Gerard Keay, Transfeminine Gerard Keay, Gerard Keay Needs a Hug, Domestic Fluff, Fluff, Comfort No Hurt, Your Honour they have been through so much. Let them have this, Makeup as a relaxing hobby for goth people, She/her Pronouns for Gerry Keay, She/Her Pronouns for Gerard Keay, They/Them Pronouns for Michael | The Distortion (The Magnus Archives), No beta we die like archival assistants Summary:

After a series of weird events, amongst which she came back to life, Gerry finds her, presumed-lost, partner completely severed from the Spiral. She decides to take the ex-monster home and think about what to do later.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Gerard Keay/Michael Shelley Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Sexual Harassment, Fawn Response, Fawning, Beating up a creep, Emotional Baggage, Sexual Assault, implied past sexual assault, Implied Past Sexual Harassment, Miscommunication, Yelling, Self-Worth Issues, Mary Keay's A+ Parenting, They're gonna be okay. Just need to be careful and learn from each other, Implied Georgie Barker/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist - Freeform, Georgie and Gerry know each other, Georgie and Gerry drag their boyfriends to the club, Michael has never been to a club before Summary:

Gerry takes Michael to a goth venue for the first time. Michael's first time at the club turns very uncomfortable. Gerry can't stop blaming himself.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Gerard Keay/Michael Shelley Characters: Gerard Keay, Michael Shelley Additional Tags: Mentioned Gertrude Robinson, Head Archivist Gertrude Robinson Era, Seizures, Cancer implications, Hiding Medical Issues, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, He/Him Pronouns for Michael Shelley, He/Him Pronouns for Gerard Keay, Lonely mention Summary:

Michael finds about his boyfriend's situation. Panics. There's very tired fighting. And hugs. And crying.

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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Gerard Keay/Michael Shelley, Gerard Keay/Michael | The Distortion Characters: Gerard Keay, Michael | The Distortion (The Magnus Archives), Michael Shelley Additional Tags: Mentioned Gertrude Robinson, Head Archivist Gertrude Robinson Era, Implied Mary Keay, Partially poetry, Partially narrative, Pre-Established Relationship, Grief/Mourning, Angst, Hurt and probably comfort? Summary:

A poem about when someone all too familiar with tragedy finds the greatest tragedy of them all.

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About and pinneds

Hi! I'm Max/Maxxie I am a queer 20-something. I go by it/its, he/him, they/them pronouns.

Please don't tag me on tag-games. They stress me out :'(

I am chronically ill and cannot afford my full treatment. This is my ko-fi where I am taking commissions/donations if you want to help me buy my monthly medication that I need to stay alive.

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Reblogs of my posts are much appreciated! Likes are nice but reblogs are what actually help my art reach more people.

My other blogs:

@spiralingnoodle (my reblog blog for mostly TMA art but also monster-adjacent fandoms/characters and monster stuff in general. Will include horror media, gore, and nsfw.

@simpin4rockppl (my band/rock blog. Mostly Led Zeppelin and MCR but other artists too)

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Full-time interests:

Dinosaurs

Sea animals

Queer stuff

Language and linguistics

Witchcraft

Cryptids and monsters (lore and design)

Autistic and queer characters (canon or coded)

Musicals

Current fandoms:

The Magnus Archives / Protocol

Led Zeppelin

Welcome to Night Vale

LotR

(will list as they come to mind. For now those names are the ones I can remember)

Notes on this blog's content:

I am an adult, this is my personal blog, it will feature NSFW content, either reblogged or posted (mostly art/fic) every now and then. Be warned and don't be weird. Kids/teens/anyone under 18, don't interact with any of my nsfw posting. You may interact with my posts and even talk to me and all. Just do not interact with my nsfw posts. I am not your parent and you're not in school or at a kid's event. I am not responsible for any kids here so I probably won't check if you're a minor or not whenever you interact with my posts because that's not my job and I have a life, but I also don't want any awkward situations, so please, respect the boundary. I do care about child-safety, but I also cannot be obssessively checking every single time and kid-ifying my personal space for others who can perfectly choose to just not look in here or avoid mature posts (I tag any explicit ones).

Given the new act of people feeding fanfiction to AI systems such as Chat-GPT, I have privated my Ao3 account. I am deeply upset by this but I genuinely don't want to risk my hobby to be chewed up and spat out for corporate. Any reproduction of my work is therefore strictly prohibited, especially in regards to AI generators. This also goes to usage of my art in general, if you want to use my art in any form for personal use, do ask me first.

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