#doing my best with the tags it’s 7:30 am and I have t slept and I will probably have a continuous nervous breakdown until season three

[archerdork]

all aboard the clown car keep your giant shoes and rainbow wigs clear of the closing doors honk that nose and hang onto something we’re going to see neil gaiman and john finnemore for a friendly little chat

[cha-lyn]

Milk & Eggs - Thirteen

Farmer!Bucky x Reader

Words: 2434

Summary: Small Town /Farmer Bucky AU // Reader leaves the city to go live with her grandma. She meets an attractive farmer and, no, they don’t hit it off.

Warnings:  fluff and some angst. tiny baby farm life.

A/N:  It’s been a minute..... 🙃 thanks for sticking around guys..  As always I love the feedback/likes/reblogs 💛 i have the next the next two chapters done so it won’t be another 6 months lol

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The next morning you wake up naked and alone, much to your disappointment. You shiver and pull the single sheet around you. You inhale his smell as you nuzzle into the pillow. On Bucky’s pillow is a sticky note. 

Choring. Be back soon.

You grin, curling up further and deciding to wait for your man in the warm bed instead of venturing out into the cold. Of course, you fall back into a light sleep, the shifting of the bed stirring you awake.

“Good morning beautiful,” Bucky smiled down at you, pieces of his hair falling down around his face.

“Join me,” you yawn, lifting the sheet and waving him in. 

Bucky shakes his head. “If I get in there who will eat the huge breakfast I just made?” He kisses your forehead and gets up going to his chest of drawers. He tosses you a blue long sleeve t-shirt and starts back downstairs. “Hurry up, it’s gettin’ cold.”

Bucky had indeed prepared a feast. Bacon, pancakes for him, waffles for you, orange juice, hash browns and scrambled eggs. You sit down across from a grinning Bucky, crossing your bare legs, wearing only his t-shirt and your panties.

“That shirt looks good on you.” 

You grab a piece of bacon and grin. “I agree. You might just never see it again.”

Bucky rolls his eyes, “Oh, I almost forgot, the livestock fair is next weekend. You still wanna go with me?” You nod, mouth already full of waffle. Bucky grins, stuffing his face, too.

As you rinsed the last glass, Bucky traps you in his arms, “Do you have to go bake now?” He sounded pitiful.

“I have a few minutes before I have to leave… Why what were you wanting to do?” You couldn’t suppress your smirk. Bucky’s rough hands slip under his own soft t-shirt. “Stop teasing,” you whine.

He scoffs, “You’re the one the that’s teasing. Skippin’ around my house in nothin’ but my t-shirt. Not even any pants on,” his lips brushing your ear, making you shiver. 

You turn to face him, “Well. What do you want to do about it Buck?” 

He snaps your hips towards him, “Just take you back upstairs. Ya know.. Help you change outta this.” 

“Yes, that does sound like a two person job. What are you waiting for then?” 

Bucky wasted no time dropping his hands to your thighs to pick you up and carry you straight back to his bedroom, giggling and kissing the whole way up.

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The next week went by fast. You were busy at the bakery and Bucky was busy training the already hired Sam at the ranch. There had been some logistical issues--Sam accepted the job, but was struggling to find a place to live. You talked Bucky into letting Sam stay at his house while he looked. The pros of that were that Sam is absolutely hilarious and a great cook. The con was that you didn’t get to walk around with no pants on anymore. 

Friday rolled around and as you rolled out fondant at the shop, the front bell rang. You peek around the corner, eyes falling on a gorgeous man covered in dirt.

“Hey slick.”

“Hey stranger.”

“Stranger? You saw me this morning.” Bucky leaned on the counter.

You leaned in to meet him, giving him a kiss, smelling the faint smells of dirt, sweat and coffee. “Was that this morning? Feels like days ago.”

“We didn’t get much sleep last night. Which is why,” out of nowhere a coffee cup appears, “I thought I’d stop by and bring you some caffeine.” Your face almost broke from smiling so hard. “And to remind you that we have to leave at 7am tomorrow.”

Your face fell and your eyes narrowed. 

“You don't have to go, doll, really,” he reasoned. “It’s just a bunch of stinky animals.”

“Ugh, no I want to, I just want to go later,” you whine as you put a bear claw in a bag for him.

Bucky laughed as he stood to leave. “Sorry, no can do. We will stop for coffee on the way, though, promise. Bring your chorin’ boots when you come tonight, auctions tend to be muddy places.”

“Look at you assuming I’m coming over tonight.”

Bucky raised his eyebrows. “Damn, lack of sleep makes you sassy. Don’t worry, I'll sleep on the couch-- let you get plenty of sleep tonight to make up for the last.” You scoff at him as he wiggles his eyes, hand already in the togo bag. “Thank you! See you tonight,” he leaves with a wink. 

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Bucky has you up at 6:30 am the next morning. You're dressed and upright, but not really awake. Sam was up, cracking jokes at the ungodly hour and trying to break your scowl as he flipped pancakes and scrambled his eggs. You and Bucky don’t actually leave until 7:08 because of your sluggish ass. (You’d forgotten where you left your boots and then misplaced your rain jacket. Miraculously, Bucky fought the scowl threatening to invade his face because you’re fuckin’ cute when you’ve just woke up.)  Despite your moody slowness, Bucky kindly lets you sleep most of the way, waking you up when you're one town away.

“Hey wake up doll,” he reaches over, gently rubbing your shoulder. “C’mon, wake up. We’re close.” As you rub the sleep out of your eyes, Bucky pulls into the drive through of the only Starbucks in a hundred mile area. “You want your usual?”

You nod, “And an extra shot please.” 

Bucky chuckles, ordering your drink perfectly, “I’ve never seen someone sleep so soundly on the road.”

You smile, “I trained myself to sleep in almost every car ride. I used to get really car sick as a kid. Road trips sucked, so I just slept through it. Still do.”

Bucky smiles, handing you a hot coffee and immediately sipping his. “So, the game plan for today is to buy three goats--one billy and two does.” 

“Mmm and a dog.” Bucky raises his eyebrows as he merges back onto the interstate. “You said you might get one to help the herd or something.”

“Yeah, but now I have Sam to help with that.”

You roll your eyes. “If you get a dog maybe I’ll come over more,” you joke.

Bucky laughed, “You’re over all the time, slick. You come over anymore and you’ll have to move in.”

You choked on your sip, hot coffee burning your nose. Bucky’s eyes cut your way, watching you pick at your fingers.

“Uh… That was a joke…” he says unconvincingly. 

You cough out a laugh, just as unconvincing. “Oh good. ‘Cause we barely know each  other…” 

“What do you mean?”

You blink at him, “There’s a lot we don’t know about each other Buck. Like a lot.”

“What better way to get to know each other than living together? Hypothetically,” Bucky shrugged.

You looked at him incredulously. “Whoa. Bucky. We are nowhere near that step,” you scoff.

“I’m just saying hypothetically, but whatever. We’re almost there. To the auction… not where ever you say we aren’t,” he said, voice clipped as he stared straight ahead.

You sense the shift in the truck. You’re not sure how to recover from this, but you don’t have to just yet.

Minutes later, you see a field full of pickups and trailers and behind them, tents and pens and more farm animals in one place than you’d ever seen. Bucky pulls into the field, driving the aisles until he finds a spot.

He turns off the engine. Sighing as he takes off his ball cap, running his hand through his hair and replacing the hat. “Ready?” He shoots you a half smile.

You nod returning it as best you can, “Let’s go find some goats.” But no fuckin’ dogs, you scold yourself mentally.

Turns out you love livestock auctions. Bucky loves them more, of course. He’s giddy at the sight of the first four-legged creature he sees. The awkwardness is forgotten quickly and soon it’s all smiles and rows of baby goats. One in particular that caught your eye.

“He was so cute though! I think you should get him.”

“Well, yes, but you’ve said that about all of them, slick. We’ve got to look around--get the best deal. This is an investment,” he said, finding your hand and pulling you on. The two of you patrolled the aisles, looking for the best goats the place had to offer. You passed several tents with pens of hunting and herding dogs and though every fiber of you wanted to stop and oogle over them, you refrained. You hoped Bucky didn’t notice.

After a while your stomach growled, “Stay here a minute doll.” Bucky disappeared into the crowd leaving you to pet a brown and white speckled kid, who bleats at you everytime you let up. You coo at him and rub the little nubs where his horns are barely sticking out. 

Minutes later, it had begun to mist and Bucky returned with a basket of fries and two hot dogs. You surrender the baby goat back to the pen and find some hand sanitizer.

“Food! You read my mind,” you grab a crunchy fry. 

“Actually, I just heard your stomach,” Bucky notes, chuckling and motioning you under a makeshift pavilion, picnic tables lining the inside of it. The two of you sit across from each other sharing the fries and eating in content silence. Bucky watches you as you happily munch on the fries. Your hair’s adorned with dew beads, some dropping unbothered onto your rain jacket. 

You catch him staring and grin, fry midway to your mouth. 

He grins back. “Do you like it?” he asks, looking out to the acres of animals.

“It’s awesome. I think I’m a goat person now.”

Bucky chuckles and finishes his hot dog. Once you’ve finished yours the two of you do a couple more rounds, Bucky finally choosing the goats he wanted to take home. The goats are paid for and led back to the truck bed where you help Bucky load them into travel crates. They bleat affectionately at you and Bucky.

“They’re so cute,” you sat rubbing one on the forehead. It nuzzles into your hand. 

“Yeah, they are, aren’t they?” Bucky closed the crates. “You ready to go?”

“Of course. I mean you’re in charge. I’m just tagging along.”

Bucky nods. “Let’s go then.” You immediately stretch out when you get in the truck and he chuckles. “Gonna take another nap, slick?”

Your eyes roll. “Now I won't, just to prove a point,” you grin over at him. It’s just eye contact at first, and then it’s not. Then it’s Bucky leaning in and you’re meeting him halfway. His hand creeps up to caress your cheek as he kisses you. He pulls you closer, you bite his lip just hard enough to earn a grin so big it breaks the kiss. 

“You’re something else, Y/N. Truly.” 

“Not me,” you blush. 

His eyes searching yours, looking for an answer. “You really think we barely know each other?” 

You sigh, shaking your head, “No, I just--It’s just early in this.” You motion between the two of you. “It’s still new.”

Bucky nods slowly, pulling at a string on his jacket, “Doesn’t mean I don’t know you though. Or that you don’t know me. You know things about me nobody else knows…” he absent mindedly scratched at his left arm, pausing as the rain picked up outside, tapping away at the roof of the truck. “I know your Starbucks order, for hot days and for cold days. I know your favorite wine. I know you hate baking those mini eclairs but you love eating them.” 

You’re blushing deeply now. “It’s just really soon, Buck. I don’t know if we’re ready for that.” 

Bucky sighs, starting the truck, but leaving it in park. “We might not be completely ready, but I mean… we’re on the way right?”

You bite your lip, blinking at his question. “I don’t--I can’t see the future…” You trial off, extremely unsure of what to say.

Bucky somewhat aggressively shifts into reverse and pulls out of the spot. It’s quiet and tense as he pulls out onto the main road. Neither of you speak for the first 30 or so minutes and you can feel the tension building. You dread this kind of confrontation. 

“If you can’t see a future with me, why do you want to get a dog with me? What are we even doing?”

You scoff, which irritates Bucky, “Maybe the dog thing was an ill-timed joke… I never said I don’t see a future with you, I just said I can’t see it. Like right now. I like you a lot, but this also feels like it’s gone so fast and I--”

“I didn’t think you had a problem with how fast it’s going?” Bucky counters. 

“I never said I did, Buck.” You rub your temples. You recognize the scenery around you, meaning you’re getting close to not being trapped in his truck. “I just like where we are right now. I don’t wanna overthink what we have.”

Bucky is silent for a long while, until he turns into his driveway. “Can you see it changing one day?”

“Bucky…. Why the sudden need for future plans?”

Bucky puts the truck in park as his fingers beat on the steering wheel. “I think about that kinda stuff I guess. Wanna know what we are doing in this… relationship.”

“I thought we did.”

“We do… I just-”

“It’s fine. I need to get home.I haven’t seen Grams all weekend and we gotta get ready for the week.” You hop out of his truck, digging in your purse for your keys.

He rounds the truck as you find them. “Are you mad at me?” 

You look up at him, blue eyes wide with concern. “No.. no. It’s just a lot to think about.” You reach up to fidget with the collar of his shirt, just an excuse to touch him really. It seems to diffuse some of the tension between you. 

Bucky looks down at you, “Okay...”

A small smile breaks. “Well, why don’t you come over for dinner tomorrow? Grams would like to see you.”

Even though it’s not quite what he wanted to hear, Bucky’s eyes brightened. “Tell me when and I’ll be there.” Though you kissed him goodbye slowly, some tension still lingered in his chest. He waved as you pulled away, missing you the moment you were out of sight. 

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[lilikags]

Oh, To Communicate With People Who Don’t Like You

ೃ‧₊› a b o u t  t h i s  p o s t° ➮ Pairing: Kenma Kozume x fem! reader ➮ Series: Back to Me ➮ Tags: fluff, royal au, reincarnation au ➮ Part: 7 ➮ Word Count: 1649

You woke up just a couple hours before you would arrive home. The ride home was rather peaceful; nothing noteworthy happened as you were sleeping, as much as you were aware. The only thing you were concerned about was that your butt ached, from sitting in the carriage. It didn't have the best seats, you had to admit. While it was very good compared to some other ones, car chairs were definitely 1000% better, really.

When you arrived home, you were still kind of tired. Well, it was only natural, as you slept in the carriage for only a few hours. So, you went back to your room and took a nap, and you awoke in the evening.  It was just about time for dinner, and the chef had prepared (favorite food) for you, which you thoroughly enjoyed. It was a pretty calm day, and it was nice to have.

You spent the rest of the days studying and enjoying your time, doing some of both. There was definitely stuff you could touch up on better, but you didn't want to spend your time cramming again. Ya gotta live while you're young, y'know? Work hard, play hard, that kind of thing. It's important to do both, your parents would always say.

A few days after you arrived back home, you received a letter telling you that the results will be announced in a few days at the palace. So, a few days later, you went to the palace to receive your results.

-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-

When you arrived at the palace, you were led to a small room with exactly enough chairs for all the candidates. You were told to sit at whichever chair you wished, so you sat in the back as to not gather attention. Most of them were already there, though by all means you weren't late at all. People always liked being early, but everyone really had to be so early, huh. Many of them had small talk between themselves while waiting, but you stared out the window, watching the workers below.

Lots of interesting things happened within the workers. That was probably why gossip was so common among them. Or perhaps that was just a general hobby, you didn't know. You saw a garden worker cut his fingers on a shear, a young boy who probably was just hired. You wondered why such people were hired; wouldn't the royal family have only the best workers to maintain their property? Around the same time, a maid rushed through the diameter of the garden, seemingly in a big rush. You had no idea what that was for; she wasn't holding anything to hint at it. That would be a topic of gossip among them, for sure.

"I apologize for my lateness. Please excuse me," someone said as they entered the room. You looked towards the door, and you found Langelica there. It was very unlike her to be late; she was usually quite early to any sort of meeting or party. "Langelica, may I inquire as to why you are late?" her highness asked. "Your majesty, a fight had broken out between two of the guards by the gate; I could not stand there and watch. I had them both disciplined and they would not cause such a ruckus again. They are both in the infirmary for the day and are being taken care of. The incident has been closed," she answered. She literally had to make that more dramatic, huh.  

"You are excused," her majesty said, as she turned to face all the girls gathered in the room. "You have been called here today to discuss the results of the first stage. The top three scores have been given to: Langelica-" There was a round of applause for her, very expected. "Daphne," there was another round of applause, and she curtsied for the crowd. "and Amalia." There was a last round of applause for Amalia, and the excitement died down within seconds- or perhaps the "excitement" was all fake.

Her majesty continued, "The people I am about to list are those who have passed." All the girls listened intently, hoping to hear their names. "Asimina, Ismene, Melissa, Faye, and..." All the remaining girls looked at each other, as if saying, "It better not be your name that she calls next."

"(y/n)."

Everyone but her highness was surprised. You could practically read their minds; it was so obvious. Some had the (y/n)?! I thought she was planning to flunk the test on purpose. I thought she didn't care for the throne? What's the change of heart? face, others had the The rumors... they must've been true. But why would (y/n) ever just start trying now? Isn't that strange? look.

Her highness looked pleasantly surprised at the girls' reactions, then  moved on to the next point that all the girls who passed needed to hear, "In the next test, you will be assigned a date at which you will meet with diplomats from different countries. I have chosen them carefully, and I will send you all of those who passed a letter which describes the topic and date for the meeting. You will also be assigned partners for this stage, and you will be informed of them in the letter as well. You are dismissed."

She nodded and scanned the room for any questions, then left to attend to other things. Everyone soon started leaving too, either their dreams crushed or thinking about the next stage of the competition.

-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-

The day after the meeting, you received the letter. It described that your day would be in exactly one week, and the topic was the disputable western border. Your partner: Langelica. You wondered why she paired you with Langelica. Did she take pity on you? Or was she being harsh and having you compete with Langelica in the same meeting?

You didn't know, and that didn't matter. All you needed to do was pass. You sent a  letter to Langelica, asking to meet, so that you both would be on the same page when you went to the meeting. She agreed, and you met at a café in town for a lighter mood. The two of you discussed the details and some arguments you could make in favor of the kingdom.

Langelica was like the perfect student; she had basically flawless ideas on paper, and she was known for being good at public speaking. You definitely didn't have a reputation for any of those, sadly. You would probably be ignored while she debated with the delegates. Well, if it's a free carry, it's good right? If it was not, then, well, you didn't know what you would do.

After a couple of meets, the two of you decided you were alright with what you had worked out and waited for your day to come.

-ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-

Langelica was there first, probably a couple minutes earlier. You were pretty early, and it would probably be a waste of time to be any earlier. You sat there with her and went over the details a little bit, then sat in a silence other than the sounds of tea being sipped. You looked at the clock in the corner of the room maybe a little too often, which showed your nervousness. "Lady (L/n), don't be nervous," Langelica said, and you nodded.

They were supposed to arrive at 2:30; it was 2:28 and there was no sign of the diplomats. You waited another 5 minutes; no one arrived. Then another 5 minutes, and two old men in suits came through the door.

"Welcome, diplomats of Riles," Langelica greeted. "I am Langelica of Barswald, and this is lady (f/n) of (l/n)." The two diplomats greeted the two of you as well, then the negotiation began. It was a bit more intense that you imagined. Arguing wasn't exactly your forte, but you managed. Langelica seemed to carry most of it, presenting many of her ideas she had written down earlier. They all seemed very good compromises in favor of the kingdom, while still letting Riles benefit from it a little. Still, the two old men continued to argue. They wanted it more in their favor; that was only natural. The one to back down first forfeits the upper hand in the deal.

With these strangely stubborn customers, you felt you had to help out a little. They told Langelica that she was all paper and no experience, which caught right on. Langelica froze, knowing that this hit very hard to heart. She knew everything by textbook, everything on paper, how everything should go to plan- but she didn't know how to adapt. Sure, she had several options to go with, but she still figured things had to go her way since they worked out on paper. That's where you stepped in. You started talking a bit more sense, than some fancy terms you hadn't really studied that much.

You boiled it down to the simplest thing: they wanted to extend the border to land that was "rightfully theirs", while the kingdom currently holds it. You presented the history over that land, which you had discussed with Langelica, in the most common sense possible. Instead of using strategies used by famous figures in history that you didn't understand, you thought cause and effect; if you did this, what would happen?, and you explained it. You told stories of how you thought what would happen to the people living there if they extended the borders, how they would react, etc.- you put them in the people's shoes. Human emotions are a powerful thing, and people respond to them accordingly.

With that, you and Langelica gained the upper hand in the deal and you went home after dinner. Since the palace was a bit far from both of your estates, you decided to get dinner in town, nearby the palace. You called over a carriage and the two of you found a nice restaurant and ate there. The two of you felt a bit closer now; you had seen Langelica's weaker side, and she saw a side of you no one else had seen. Langelica seemed a bit more human; you seemed more up-to-standard than others thought. There's always a side hidden from everyone else.

『••✎••』 Extra Info * ˚ ✦ ⇢ If you haven’t read the other parts, find them here!

A/N: Hey guys! It's Lili here haha. I put this off for like, what, 2? 3 days? Then I wrote it all today hAhA whoops. Anyways, I hoped you liked this! I would really like to hear your opinions/comments; it really warms my heart when I see someone comment <3 Of course, if you don't feel like it you don't have to of course. I love ya all!

[piratequeen-queenofgames]

Separate! Ch.1

Before I start posting this, I just want to say that this my first Seonghwa story and I hope you guys like it and I will try my best to post chapters, Snice I have another story I'm working on so here we go. *nervous due to stress*

Parings: Seonghwa X Charlie.

Word count: 1293

Warnings: Swearing, Blood,

Tag list: @pastelpinkelfie , @shibermilkio

I woke up groning due to the sunlight beaming through my room curtains, while I was  brushed my teeth my eyes landed on the engagement ring that was in my ring finger, after washing my face my brother Hongjoong who was already dressed told me that Adam was here waiting but I can’t do anything to call off this stupid engagement.  “Curse you sun, five more minutes please. I was pulling the bed sheets over my head until I groaned. “Ugh, fine. I get up. To start my day.” “Sis, are you awake or dressed yet?” I spit out my mouth wash and step out. “I’m still in my pajamas, but was up brother.” He looked at me and he told me. “Adam is here, and waiting. He’s talking with our  father.” He said to me while doing my bed and I told him while taking out a pair of jeans, and a T-shirt from my closet. And told him. “I really, really don’t want to see him at all brother. Plus he’s nothing but a baster.” “Believe me I hate his guts as will, but as an older brother, I only wish there’s someone for you sis.” I smiled and then held his small hands and I went down sighing only to see him. “Ah, good morning my beatuiful.” “hello Adam, thanks for the roses but I already have a lot from you. What brings you here?” I told him until he told me. “What? I can’t eat breakfast with my fiance's family and her at the same time.” I sigh and sit next to my brother, but my father told me to sit next to Adam. “Charlie, sit next to Adam please. I am glad that I have my family here. Cheers to family.” I drank my orange juice without cheering. Until Adam cleared his throat.  “I would like to make a toast saying that. I hope that Hongjoong accepts me to this family.” “How about no, you can’t make people like other people by force.” I lean back in my chair smiling, then my father slams his hand on the table. “Enough?! Adam, Hongjoong is 8 O’clock in the morning. Let’s have a nice peaceful breakfast.” “excuse me father, my appetite went away.” I looked at him leaving his small studio in the house to reveal his stress, while I was eating Adam kiss my cheek making me gag in my mouth. “I love you Charlie.” “Yeah thanks. Excuse me father.” I got up and bowed to them both and withdrew back to my room where I slept a bit.

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After a long well rested nap, I check my phone only to see 4 missed calls from Adam then place my samsung  phone down until I look at the text message. 

“Hey love, I didn't get the chance to tell you that I’m picking you up for dinner today at 7:30pm. Wear that blue dress I love.”

I sigh and look at the time that it was 5:30 pm then went to shower after showering. I did my hair and applied a little bit of makeup. I didn’t wear the dress that Adam wanted me to wear, I put on a one piece black  jumpsuit and grabbed my bag and waited for him to pick me up.  When we reached the restaurant the server took us to our reserve table after we ordered our drinks he looked at me. 

“You look pretty, Charlie. I’m glad that I got to take you out. Today in the morning was a mess.” “yeah, cause you made it into a mess. You know it was your fault to call out to my brother, he hates your guts so why provoked him more.” He clinches his fits then grabs my left hand, preventing me from moving it. “Listen here Charlie. One You're going to be my wife soon, and two is your fault because if you didn’t love me why accepted my engagement ring? Answer me that question.” I looked at him and I was beyond mad. I was pissed off and told him. “I didn’t accept I was forced! Beside Adam you and your father just want to save your asses. We both know that you're only in to boost up your shitty record company which I call in any minute that it will shut down.” Our food arrived and then ate after a long slinet dinner and car ride, he dropped me off making me get off and saw him driving off in full speed and when I opened the door I went to my room change, removed my makeup and before I turned off the lamp light I said. “I hate you Adam, you don’t deserve no one in your life! NO ONE!” 

(I will make a college for each chapter related. Also if you want to be tag in this fic. Just shoot me a comment.)

[lightanddarklove]

Connverse Week Day 2: Singing

Singing while Sloshed

Rated: Teen  | Tw: Drinking/ Drunkenness

Connie Maheswaran/Steven Universe | Connie Maheswaran & Steven Universe Read on Archive of Our Own | Day 1 prompt |  Day 3 Prompt | Day 4 prompt  | Day 5 prompt |  Day 6 Prompt | Day 7 prompt | My Writing Masterpost

This is obscenely long for what was supposed to be a drabble so I'm just going to link @susoftjockau, they’re incredibly wholesome and cute.

Edit: I may have gotten a few things wrong because I posted at 3 am, & this is an unbeta’d work. Also, being that I am not affiliated with the SJ AU, I don’t know if Fiona’s personality at all fits within its standard. If there’s another cheerleader character that her actions would make more sense for, I can totally change it. Its Connverse focused after all.

The first song Steven's riffing on is "It's Only Love" (though you may know it as Michelle) by The Beatles. The second song is "Love Like You," Steven Universe's extended credits theme.

I am continuing this for thursday’s prompt, together, as I orginally wanted them to have a conversation in the morning but at 3 am I had to call this done. I wrote over 4k words in one day that I was off from work and I can’t be doing that again, or staying up later, haha.

Lastly, the idea that Steven only likes sweet alcoholic bevs is hardwired into me, as someone who hates beer and wine, I think he wouldn't like them either. I mean he doesn't like energy drinks for stars sake (he makes a face when drinking one in Kevin Party), what about beer would be appealing when he can have wine coolers and ciders?

Anyway, feedback makes me smile, even if you tell me about typos or that I could be doing something better. Please let me know of I neglected any tags I should mention. Thanks for reading!

Edit 2: Tumblr mobile ate this post so when I got back home and tried to fix i the format didn’t have my readmore, so if you reblog it won’t be as much of a wall of text anymore. Sorry!

A night at a party for College-age Steven and Connie results in one too strong drink, a clumsy walk home, and embracing each other through the tears. Hurt-Comfort in the Soft Jock AU. Established relationship, but no significant physical intimacy. Rated T for drinking and one use of mild language. Some depression talk and self esteem issues too. Teen.

Steven had been sitting at a table, enjoying the music and sipping a soda in a red plastic cup until all that was left was ice. He was waiting for Connie to finish her conversation with Natalie across the room. He bobbed his head lightly to the music playing from the speaker by the doorway. He was smiling at Connie until Fiona came to sit down in front of him. He sat up a bit straighter and looked at her.

“Hey Fiona,” he said.

“You sticking around, Universe? Or you itching to get out of here,” asked Fiona.

“I wouldn’t say I’m itching to get out of here,” he replied. “But Connie and I were looking to leave soon.”

“Do you want another drink before you go?”

“Well, I did already have 2 wine coolers earlier, so I think I’m done for the night.”

“Really,” she asked. “I mean, how long ago was that? Like 10?”

“10:30,” he replied. “But I have to get home soon, anyway.”

“That was almost 2 hours ago.” She said. “You can have another drink. I’ll be right back, wait here. You like soda and orange flavor, right?” She began to stand and he tried to wave her back.

“Don’t trouble yourself for me, Fiona.”

“If you like soda and fruit juices, you’ll like it. You can barely taste the alcohol, the way I make it. Don’t go anywhere, I’ll make one for each of us.”

“Well, ok.”

She disappeared into the kitchen, just past the speakers. He tapped his foot and glanced back to Connie, who had leaned into Natalie as their conversation continued. Natalie had on a wry expression as she finished telling Connie something, and Connie threw her head back and laughed. It was nice to see Connie be more comfortable with herself after a few years in college. To see her laughing at a party and not have himself be the cause of it was a good feeling. Steven can’t help but feel his chest swell with pride. He smiled at her but didn’t try to get her attention yet.

With a clink, a glass was set down in front of him, Fiona sliding in from his peripherals. The drink didn’t look bubbly, a brown-orange tone with a few ice cubes and a lemon wedge hung over its rim. The glass looked like a juice glass, not designed to hold over 10 ounces, and it wasn’t full, so he assumed it was about a 6 to 8 oz drink. Fiona had her glass in her hand as she sat next to Steven with smirk.

“Ready to try something new, Steven?” Fiona asked. “Take a sip without the lemon first, then squirt it if you want it more sour.” She raised her glass, waiting to have him give her a cheers with his.

He lifted the drink and clinked hers, quietly saying “Cheers,” before bringing it to his lips. Sweet and sour was the first flavor he noted, and then mostly orange, with some cola blending in and a minor alcoholic tang. He was pretty sure the base of the liquor was tequila, but there were other flavors he couldn’t identify, since he was pretty new to trying drinks. He nodded and smiled after the first sip. “It’s good.”

“You like?” Fiona replied, voice coy.

“Yeah,” he said, and with two gulps his drink was almost gone. She snorted, seeing how quick he had downed the cocktail. He gasped quietly, the burn in his throat stronger than the flavors had made it out to be.

“Careful there, Universe, or you’ll be on the floor,” Fiona remarked. “You aren’t a lightweight, are you?”

“Its fine,” he replied, downing the last sip. His eyes drifted back to Connie who was quickly approaching from across the room, brows knitted in concern, and Natalie behind her. He moved to stand from the stool and stumbled slightly, not expecting to be feeling the alcohol so quickly. Connie moved her arms to steady him.

“You ok?” she asked, eyeing him over. Steven gave a dopey smile and leaned on her slightly.

“Heeeeeyyyy Connieeee,” his voice turning sultry and mellow. His lowered pitch sent a chill up her spine, but she pushed the feeling that thrilled her down and rounded on Fiona, glaring.

“What did you give him?” Connie barked.

“It looked like a Long Island Iced Tea,” Natalie said from behind Connie.

“I call it…” Fiona replied, pausing for effect and waving her half-finished drink in one hand, “a Strong Island Iced Tea. It’s got more tequila and sours than the standard.”

“A Long Island Iced Tea,” Connie half-shouted, exasperated. “Are you kidding me, Fiona? That has 5 kinds of alcohol in it!”

“Whoa,” Steven remarked quietly but with his lowered tone it made Connie feel warm in the pit of her stomach. “I didn’t know that. You’re so smart, Connie.” Her cheeks burned with blush as he said it with such adoration.

“He’s hammered,” Natalie crooned, half-way hiding a chuckle, before straightening up and gesturing her hand out. “Gimmie his keys. He shouldn’t be driving anywhere tonight.”

“I’m not hammered, jus’ a lil’ tipsy.” He slurred. He swayed slightly as Connie fished through his Jacket pocket. “Gimme an hour and I’ll be fiinnneee.”

“Definitely not,” she replied firmly, but not harshly. She handed Natalie Steven’s car keys. “You can stay with me tonight, ok? Sleepover?” He gasped with excitement.

“Sleepover!” he warbled hazily. “With Connie. You’re so sweet.” Her face felt hotter, as she gripped his hand in hers.

“Thanks for this, Fiona,” Connie said, voice dripping with sarcasm. “See you later.” Fiona grinned and waved.

“Don’t dare take advantage of him,” Natalie called, starting to walk back toward the party-goers. “I’ll find out. And make sure he hydrates.” She took out her phone and sent a group text to Steven and Connie, I have your keys, come get them after you’ve slept it off.

“I got this,” Connie replied, exasperation clear in her tone. She looked back in his face at his reddening eyes and put on a plating smile, trying to speak more kindly. “Let’s go get some rest, ok? You look tired.”

“You’re the best, Connie.” He said, glowing with inebriation. She began to lead him out when he started to serenade her, causing her mild blush to spread to her ears, face beet red. The tune was recognizable, a reworked Beatles cover.

“Connie, my sweet

You have made my heart feel joy complete

My Connie.”

“He doesn’t normally do this in front of others,” she called, voice slightly shaken with embarrassment to the partygoers as she led him through the entryway. “Please ignore us and have a good night.” They passed through the main doorway of the off campus housing as he continued his song.

“Connie, my sweet

Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble

Tres bien ensemble”

His French pronunciation was faltering. She knew he was at an intermediate Italian level. But in trying to speak French, it sounded like he had tried Duolingo for an hour and was making a fool of himself pretending he had been doing it his whole life. He pitched forward again and she had to nearly dive to keep him upright. She hoisted as much of his broad shoulders and chest over her smaller frame without attempting to carry him outright as he sang sweetly in her ear, legs stumbling behind her.

“I love you, I love you, I love you

That's all I want to say

Until I find a way

I will say the only words I know that you'll understand”

She lead him on sidewalks, trying to take the most direct route to her dorm and avoiding uneven surfaces as best she could. Her blush had died down, mainly because other people weren’t watching them. The way his warm frame leaned against her dragging the thrilling feeling out of her again, making her heart pound firmly against her ribs. Still, she tried to keep focus and lead them out of the chill night air as quick as she could.

“Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble

Tres bien ensemble

I need to, I need to, I need to

I need to make you see

Oh, what you mean to me

Until I do, I'm hoping you will know what I mean

I love you”

“You’re so sappy,” Connie replied, voice quiet. “I know that you would do his sober, but I just wish this kind of thing was just for the two of us, you know?”

“I want you, I want you, I want you

I think you know by now

I'll get to you somehow

Until I do, I'm telling you so you'll understand”

She leaned against him as she held his hand outside of her dorm, fumbling with her keys as she kept her left hand gripped tight to his right.

“Connie, my sweet

Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble

Tres bien ensemble

And I will say the only words I know that you'll understand

My Connie.���

He faltered a bit as they came through the doorway, smacking his left arm just above his wrist as she lead him upstairs to her room. Connie winced at the sound. She was grateful her roommate Carly was out of town for the evening. She still probably will hear about it, the rumor mill ran strong on this campus, but at least Connie was spared from more embarrassment this evening.

“You done now?” she asked. She sat him down on the bed and dug through her closet for his spare pair of sweatpants she kept there.

“Uh-huh,” Steven replied, voice thick and alluring. “Thanks for takin’ me back, Strawberry, I know you always lookin’ out for me. I’m lucky I have someone like you. Love you.”

She shivered at the praise, avoiding his eyes as she set the pants down on a clean patch of floor.

“You need to drink some water and take some aspirin before bed.” Connie ordered. “Stay put, I’m going to get both of those things.” She pulled her own pajamas from the corner of the bed and closed the bathroom door behind her. She grabbed the aspirin bottle from the cabinet and set it on the counter. Glancing back to ensure that the door was fully closed, she peeled her outfit off quickly and tugged her PJs on. Grabbing her hairbrush and two pills from the bottle of medicine, she backed outside. Steven still sat on the bed, swaying lazily.

“Hiiii Connnniiieeee.” His voice had drawn back up to its usual tenor as he greeted him. She smiled.

“Hi Steven, stay here for a minute, ok?” She replied. “I’m going to the kitchen, and I want you to wait because I don’t want to risk you falling on the stairs.” She placed the brush on the pants she had set out and kept the pills clutched to her palm by her ring and pinky finger.

“Yooooouuuu got it!” He gave a thumbs up.

She darted out of the room after he confirmed he would stay, and hurried down the stairs. She pulled 2 water bottles from the fridge, both eco-friendly bottles that she and Steven had shared before. After grabbing clean reusable straws from the drying rack to put in the bottles, she marched back upstairs. She left her door open and found Steven had taken his shoes and jacket off in the time she was gone. He laid on his stomach, feet crossed and head propped up on his arms across her bed diagonally.

“You’re cute in your PJs, Connie.” He caught her off guard with that compliment. But she crossed the room anyway and sat next to his head. Despite how lucid he sounded, it was best he got some water in him before going to sleep.

“Thanks, but can you sit up for me? I have some medicine I need to give you and then I’ll brush your hair.”

“Yay! Sleepover activities!” He propped himself up onto his elbows and stuck his tongue out, leaning his head back for the aspirins. She was glad he trusted her this much, but it was a bit worrying that he was so lax. She hoped he would always keep himself safe as he dropped the two pills into his open mouth and pressed the straw of the bottle to his tongue. He leaned on one hand as he took the bottle from her in the other, sipping the water through the straw. If he was always this trusting while drunk, someone could take advantage of him, and that thought scared her. She wanted to think about anything else, so she gently took his curls in her hand and gave them a gentle stroke. A chill went along his back and shoulders and he made a little excited noise.

“I want to brush your hair,” she offered. “Can I take your hair tie out?”

“Mmm-hmm,” his response came around the straw. With a gentle tug the hair tie was out and his curls came loose, framing his maturing face. She stood, watching him as she moved toward the brush on the floor. He finished his sip and let out a contented sigh. “I hope I haven’ been too much trouble, Berry.”

“What?” she asked as she got the brush and came back to sit next to him.

“I’m all loopy, an’ you’ve been takin’ care of me.” His response was quiet but mostly coherent.

“I know you would do the same for me, drunk, sick or whatever, Biscuit,” she replied. “I’m not upset that you need help. It’s ok to ask. Now I’m gonna ask that you sit in front of me so I can brush your hair.”

“Kaaay.” He called, setting the water down on her end table. She gasped as he suddenly rolled off the bed and landed on his left forearm and knees, not reacting quite fast enough to catch himself with his hands. It was still impressive he hadn’t fallen onto his face.

“Steven-“Connie scolded.

“Huh?” he sat up and scooted his back up against her knees.

“Don’t be so careless,” she replied. “You scared me. And drink your water, please.”

“I can do that,” he said. He leaned over to grab the bottle and then rested his head touching her knees. She flipped his hair up onto her thighs, accessing the ends and began brushing. He hummed contentedly. “You’re great, Connie. I’m glad that this all didn’ go badly.” Her brows furrowed with concern as she worked through his tangles. “Was scared, ya know? If you weren’ keeping me calm, I might’ve been the angry drunk type, an’ made a mess of things.”

“I-“ Connie felt her hands shake slightly as she tried to muster a response. “That could happen to anybody, you shouldn’t worry too much…”

“Buh my powers, if ‘m not careful, I could hurt somebody, then I’d get expelled, or arrested, fer sure.” She gripped the brush tightly and accidentally pulled back on a knot. He hissed quietly through his teeth and she dropped the brush. His shoulders trembled slightly and she heard a sniff. She dropped down onto her knees, hugging him from behind.

“No Steven,” she replied, her voice thick with emotion. “I know you wouldn’t intentionally hurt anyone.” He sniffed again, putting his water down and scrubbed at his face.

“Turns out… I’m actually a sad drunk,” he joked, and turned to face her. Her eyes were shining with unshed tears and he gasped. “Oh nooooo… now I’ve made you sad. I’m sorry. ‘m so sorry. So so sorry.” He turned around fully, kneeling and held her tight to his chest. Fat tears dripped down his cheeks. She clutched to his shirt, resting her head on his shoulder and let her own tears fall.

“You don’t- you shouldn’t feel like it’s- it isn’t your fault,” she stuttered.

“I made you cr-cry,” He bawled. “I’m always hurting people, even wh-when I don’t meeean to.” She took a steadying breath, trying to defuse his turbulent emotions.

“You’re allowed to forgive yourself, Steven,” she replied, looking up. Her eyes still shone with wetness, staring into his face as he looked away.

“I- I- embar- rrassed you, I made you cryyyy, and- nd I burdened you with my prob-blems,” he hiccupped. “I shouldn’ be here- I need to-“He moved to stand but Connie held tight.

“No.” she ordered. “You should stay. You’re upset and you’re allowed to be. You can talk to me about anything. Please don’t go. I’ll worry if you leave.”

“B-B-but…”

“Please,” she repeated.

That was convincing enough. He wilted into her touch, resting his head on her shoulder. Any sign of resistance melted away into fatigue. A few trace sobs shook his frame before they quieted. She kept one hand on his shoulder and grabbed Steven’s water with the other. She pulled away long enough to press the drink into his hands. He nodded, sitting down fully and drinking quietly. She sat in front of him and ran one hand through his hair, and gave him gentle strokes on his upper arm with her opposite arm.

“You look like you’re stewing.” She remarked gently. “Having a few drinks doesn’t make you a bad person. Asking for help doesn’t either. I’ll gladly have a few embarrassing stories about me if it means you get to go home safe tomorrow. Letting you leave by yourself and get hurt would have been far worse than anything else that could have gone wrong. You deserve to be safe, ok?” He nodded meekly, finishing the drink with a loud slurp. “You aren’t asking too much to be here. You don’t deserve to feel like a burden, and no one I know would ever say that about you.” He quietly leaned forward, dropping the empty bottle to the space between his thighs and went to press his forehead to hers. She obliged him.

“Thank you,” he half-whispered.

“Now, are you steady enough to stand, or will you need help getting changed?” she leaned over to where the sweatpants she had put out for him earlier sat and pulled herself close to him after grabbing them. He opened his palms to her and let her place them in his hands.

“I think I got it.” His face was tinged with blush at the suggestion. He pressed his right palm to the floor, moving to stand. She pulled herself to her feet first and offered him a hand up. He threw his pants over his shoulder and took his hand. She smiled gently at him. He fondly returned the gesture, steadily making his way to the bathroom door.

“Oh wait, I just want to grab something out of there,” she called, hurriedly stepping in front of him. She snatched the aspirin off the counter and put it away, grabbing makeup wipes and a compact mirror from her medicine cabinet. She stepped out, gesturing behind her. “It’s all yours. Please be careful, maybe sit on the toilet to get changed? I don’t want you to fall.”

With a sigh he nodded. He stepped through the doorway and closed it behind him. She leaned against the wall next to the door and took a make-up wipe out, swiping her mascara streaked eyes before opening the compact. As she worked the wipe across her face she herd Steven’s gentle singing come through the door, just over the sounds of him changing.

“If I could begin to be

Half of what you think of me

I could do about anything

I could even learn how to love

When I see the way you act

Wondering when I'm coming back

I could do about anything

I could even learn how to love like you”

She recognized the song as being something he had said the gems had sung for him when he was young. It stung that he might think these kind of thoughts about himself. She swallowed hard.

“Love like you

I always thought I might be bad

Now I'm sure that it's true

'cause I think you're so good

And I'm nothing like you”

“Steven, I promise that isn’t true…” She called through the wall. She heard him stand and move toward the door.

“Look at you go

I just adore you

I wish that I knew

What makes you think I'm so special…”

She stood as the door opened and embraced him. He leaned forward into her and sang quietly into her neck. She held him close and rubbed soothing circles into his shoulders. He swayed gently into her touch as he crooned.

“If I could begin to do

Something that does right by you

I would do about anything

I would even learn how to love

When I see the way you look

Shaken by how long it took

I could do about anything

I could even learn how to love like you

Love like you

Love me like you…”

They stood in silence for a moment and just enjoyed being held by each other. After a bit, she lowered her hand and took him by the wrist, leading him to the bed. After he sat, she took her garbage and placed it near the head of the bead and cleared her night stand.

“You’re going to be on the outside of the bed tonight.” She remarked quietly. “I’m the big spoon this time. Just let me know if you start to feel sick. I don’t care if I’m sleeping, I will hold your hair back.” He nodded. “How do you feel right now?”

“Not great, but, better than before,” he muttered.

“Well, I’m going to try and make it better. Lie down, ok?”

“Mmm-hmm.” He obliged without protest. She grabbed the comforter, tucked him in and crossed the room, shutting the light off. She stepped over him and lied down by his left shoulder. She untucked that side of the bed to get herself firmly snuggled into the weighted blanket, and nimbly re-tucked them both in.

“Night, biscuit.” She murmured. “Love you.”

“Love you too.” He replied. “Night.” He turned to face away, pointing his face toward the trash bin in case his stomach lurched in protest while sleeping. She rubbed few more gentle circles into his back and let herself be comforted with his warmth beside him. He heard her breathing even out before long, hoping that sleep would come easier with her beside him. It wasn’t long before the heaviness in his heart was outweighed by heavy eyelids, and drifted into slumber.

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Morning came, as it always did, a bit too soon for Connie’s liking. She gave a quiet sigh through her nose and lifted her head to check on Steven, who she could hear was snoring quietly. He had turned in the night to lie on his back, and his calf draped over her lower legs. His expression looked peaceful, but dark circles still showed on the pale skin beneath his eyes. Craning her neck, she could see the bathroom had looked as she had left it, as did the trash bin. It was unlikely seeing these two things in place that he had gotten sick in the night and not woken her.

She laid back down, pressing her face into the soft skin of his upper arm. He smiled contentedly but stayed asleep. It was a Sunday, so no pressing commitments for either of them. She could let him rest and deadlines for Monday be damned. She draped her arm across his torso, and let herself melt into the bed. She told him he deserved to be safe, and she never felt safer than with her next to him. Hopefully, the reverse was true, and she could help him to feel safe and loved. For now, what he needed was sleep, and she wouldn’t deny him that peace. He gave her joy and that was precious to her. So she would help however she could, and that meant staying in bed. She would take it any day.

[etspera]

@ Tagging Game

i was tagged by @hitsuaya who is fantastic!

rules: tag 10 people you think would like to be tagged, and copy/paste the asks into a new post. Answer all/as many of them as you want!

1. do you prefer writing with a black pen or a blue pen? meh, i don’t mind either: writing with my hand is what makes it special! 

2. would you prefer to live in the country or in the city? i love Budapest, don’t get me wrong, but as @hitsuaya mentioned, living by the sea together is an absolute Goal. Hitsu could decorate our walls with their drawings Jean Cocteau style (https://www.atlasobscura.com/places/la-villa-santosospir)

3. if you could learn a new skill, what would it be? i am learning knitting at the moment, don’t at me... also, i would love to know how to use photoshop!

4. do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? no. 

5. what was your favorite book as a child? Baráth Katalin, a Hungarian write, had this book where a girl gets lost in Greek Mythology, cause HERMES asks her one day after school. It basically shows Jason’s story with the Golden Fleece through a Hungarian teenage girl’s eyes.... AMAZING. Also. Hungarian Shaman book: Gergő and the Dream-Catchers!! Meg Cabot was also a fave, I remember eating her books.

6. do you prefer baths or showers? showers, cause they energize or sooth me. I can feel actually clean after them idk; it’s not a rational thing. 

7. if you could be a mythical creature, which one would you be? Vampire - why be dead when you can continue to be funny and sexy. 

8. paper or electronic books? there is nothing like paperbooks, though i understand the pain of not knowing where to store them. 

9. what is your favorite item of clothing? i have a long cotton dress that is covers me BUT lets air in and since it’s a simple beige thing, i can accessorize boldly :-) 

10. do you like your name? would you like to change it? i love my name, thank You. 

11. who is a mentor to you? a what. 

12. would you like to be famous? if so, what for? not famous, but i want to have something to be remembered by. :-) A book or several. 

13. are you a restless sleeper? depends on my moods: when there is a lot of work, i sleep like a baby, when something has upset me, i find it hard. also, many mock me cause i can fall asleep VERY easily. 

14. do you consider yourself to be a romantic person? i know i am, it is my hybris.

15. which element best represents you? water - last year and this year taught me humility and how emotional i really am. i fought a lot over the years to hide this part in me, or “correct” this sensitivity, but what i learnt that it’s a core part of my personality and who i ultimately want to be. 

16. who do you want to be closer to? i want to be loyal and supportive of the friends i have, and be much stricter who i let in close. 

17. do you miss someone at the moment? yes.

18. tell us about an early childhood memory. i remember memorizing floor tiles at my grandmother’s house with my brother. It was summer, the window was open, my grandmother slept in the afternoons and we connected imaginary dots and names different shapes through the tile geometry. it’s a good memory. 

19. what is the strangest thing you have eaten? Bayou stew with alligator tails in it.

20. what are you most thankful for? every opportunity to learn something new, and also that fate (however you call it) let me meet loving people whom i can freely love too!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

21. do you like spicy food? YES. Hungarian cuisine is also more than ideal for this purpose.

22. have you ever met someone famous? i’ve seen them from afar and that was enough.

23. do you keep a diary or journal? continuity?? in this brain??? less likely than you believe. 

24. do you prefer to use pen or pencil? pen

25. what is your star sign? libra sun, cancer moon, capricorn rising... control freaks united.

26. do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy? I love CRUNCHY cereal, but imma be honest with You, i usually forget i have breakfast ready and it gets soggy. 

27. what would you want your legacy to be? i would like teenage/ young adult/ adult girls from a modest or abused background in my present and my future feel understood and represented; to make them feel and make them know it gets better and we are not alone. i would like to teach a lot of children and teenagers about the absolute humanity and joy and selflessness and cruciality of art. 

28. do you like reading? What was the last book you read? Yes! I reread Joseph and His Brothers by Thomas Mann. That book series fucks. 

29. what are you afraid of? being shamed and misunderstood. 

30. what is your favorite scent? cinnamon; the air before a great storm. 

31. do you address older people by their name or surname? nicknames, though i check with them. i rarely use people’s first names in person, it is a very intimate act for me. 

32. if money was not a factor, how would you live your life? “in a small house near the ocean in Italy of course” :-) 

33. do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? T H E    D E P T H   O F  T H E   O  C  E  A  N.

34. what would you do if you found $50 in the ground? i mean. i would search for its owner a bit, but otherwise keep it and buy myself and/or someone a gift? 

35. if you were to get a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? have already a scale sign on my left arm; i’m thinking of tattooing a quote too. 

36. what can you hear now? cars outside and some music from my brother’s room. 

37. where do you feel the safest? when i am alone. but that can also bug me or take me down in the long run. 

38. if you could travel back to any era, what would it be? i am not that interested in time travelling - human nature remained and remains as terrible and terrific as before (though i’d check out 16th century Europe). 

39. what is your most used emoji?  🙃 🙃 🙃 🙃 🙃 🙃

40. describe yourself using one word. wistful.

41. what do you regret the most? cruelly and very suddenly cutting one specific person out from my life in fear of intimacy and as a remnant of deep-seated childhood issues.

42. last movie you saw? Mother/Madeo (2009) superb film. 

43. last tv show you watched? Santa Clarita Diet, netflix you fucking coward.

44. invent a word and its meaning: hypatheon - a sense of dread actually paralyzing you. 

if the following people have time and energy and are in the mood, please don’t hesitate: @trulytheoretical @neverfeedthesarcophagi @mybrainishealthy @niquesse @wolfhalls @woman-wolf-witch @vividfantasy7 @via-whitmore @merfaerie @sovietspies 

[haztobegood]

💜Digging Deeper💜

@newleafover and @alienfuckeronmain tagged me to answer these interesting questions! I tag @himynameiszayn @beelou @evilovesyou​ @jaerie​ @runaway-train-works​ @oopsandhiforever​ if anyone wants to answer these too. 

1. Do you prefer writing with a black pen or blue pen? black in my lab notebook at work and blue on loose paper, and in college I always had a rainbow of colored pens to take notes with

2. Would you prefer to live in the country or city? It changes all the time. I want to live close to the city for concerts and restaurants, but I also want a little farmhouse with wildflowers all over the yard.

3. If you could learn a new skill what would it be? I want to be fluent in so many languages. 

4. Do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? yes I prefer sweet drinks

5. What was your favourite book as a child? I loved the Amelia’s Notebooks series by Marissa Moss so much when I was little. They were written like diaries and looked like composition notebooks. I loved the idea of keeping a diary with doodles all over and a bunch of keepsakes taped to the pages. 

6. Do you prefer baths or showers? Showers

7. If you could be a mythical creature, which one would it be? Werewolf

8. Paper or electronic books? ebooks! I used to always carry a book with me, so it’s great to be able to carry hundreds in my phone where ever I go

9. What is your favourite item of clothing? my collection of concert t shirts

10. Do you like your name or would you like to change it? I have a love/hate relationship with my name

11. Who is a mentor to you? I never thought I would have a mentor, but one of my colleagues has become one and it is really helpful to have someone with so much STEM industry experience to help me in the early stages of my career.

12. Would you like to be famous and if so, what for? Nope

13. Are you a restless sleeper? I don’t move hardly at all when I sleep

14. Do you consider yourself a romantic person? Yep

15. Which element best represents you? Earth

16. Who do you want to be closer to? So many people, but I am a capricorn so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

17. Do you miss someone at the moment? always

18. Tell us about an early childhood memory. When I was around 5 years old, I wanted to be a radio DJ on the local country radio station when I grew up, because I could think of nothing better than to spend your whole day at work listening to music. That dream was short-lived  because I hate public speaking and hearing my own voice on recordings.

19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten? It’s not weird to me because I grew up with it, but in theory it sounds like a strange food, so I will say pickled fish

20. What are you most thankful for? Family

21. Do you like spicy food? No

22. Have you ever met someone famous? Other than when I’ve gone to meet-and-greets for bands, I once met Halsey at a Catfish and the Bottlemen concert. It was a super awkward encounter 😬

23. Do you keep a diary or journal? I’ve never been able to keep a journal despite numerous attempts, but I do keep a monthly planner where I track habits and goals with stickers. Right now I have some holographic dinosaur and glittery flower stickers!

24. Do you prefer to use a pen or a pencil? For most things, pencil. At work pencil is not an option, so I tend to be really particular about how smooth a pen writes. 

25. What is your star sign? Capricorn

26. Do you like your cereal soggy or crunchy? somewhere in between.

27. What would you want your legacy to be? That I was kind

28. Do you like reading, what was the last book you read? I love reading! I omstly read fics now, but the last book I read was Canotras by Carolina de Robertis and it was a very good book, 10/10 would recommend.

29. How do you show someone you love them? I make things or give gifts.

30. Do you like ice in your drinks? I am indifferent to ice 

31. What are you afraid of? failure

32. What is your favourite scent? campfire by the lake

33. Do you address older people by their name or surname? Usually just their first name, unless they were a teacher.

34. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life? I would buy a little house in a suburb and travel a ton

35. Do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? When I was little I spent so many days at the pool that it wore out its appeal. I’ve only seen the ocean once and it wasn’t somewhere I could swim, so I don’t know if I would like swimming in the ocean

36. What would you do if you found £50 on the ground? Finders keepers

37. Have you ever seen a shooting star? yes, one summer my friend had a birthday party sleepover where we slept in a tent outside during a meteor shower 

38. What is the one thing you would want to teach your children? To be willing to try new things 

39. If you could get a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? I already have a snail and a hummingbird. I want a set of three triangles on my wrist next. 

40. What can you hear now? The 40 year old air conditioner unit in my apartment (why can’t it just stop working already so I can get a quieter, more energy efficient one 😩)

41. Where do you feel the safest? at home

42. What is the one thing you want to overcome/conquer? My anxiety of talking on the phone

43. If you could travel back to any era, what would it be? The sixties for the music

44. What is your most used emoji? 😂

45. Describe yourself using one word. Cryptic

46. What do you regret the most? Believing the person that told me there would be available parking in the lot at the radio station for the meet and greet I won at a radio station. I am usually very anxious about parking in the cities, but they said there was plenty of space, so I didn’t plan for any extra time. My friend and I ended up parking nine blocks away and missed half of the event and I’m still pissed about it. And now I’m even more anxious about parking any time I go into the cities.

47. Last movie you saw? Titanic was playing on tv, but I only saw the second half after the ship had already hit the iceberg so I missed all the good romantic bits 😢 and the last one in theaters was Spies in Disguise

48. Last tv show you watched? I started watching Golden Girls this winter and I’m on season 4.

49. Invent a word and it’s meaning. Coronastalgia - the longing for events that were cancelled because of the pandemic 😩 rip to my 4+ concerts I was looking forward to

[kagehinataboke]

it’s here earlier than expected, but the first chapter of my kagehina message board fic is officially posted! ;v;

i have @lareah to thank for the great AU idea, as well as tons of help storyboarding! 💕

***

should i sign ‘xoxo’?

Rating: T

Tags: normal high school AU, mutual pining, unrequited love, confessions, awkward romance, drama, humor, feels, misunderstandings, bad flirting, light angst

Major characters: Hinata Shouyou, Kageyama Tobio, Yachi Hitoka, Yamaguchi Tadashi, Tsukishima Kei, Oikawa Tooru

Relationships: kagehina, minor tsukkiyama, minor daisuga

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Hinata gets up at the same time every single day, and he has for the past three years: 6:30 AM, no earlier and no later. But today his alarm goes off exactly forty minutes late. By the time he realizes he’s slept in, another ten minutes have passed and the clock now reads a dismal 7:22. His mother and sister are already long gone, so there’s nobody to hear his yelp when he stubs his toe on the edge of the bed, or to see him trip his way down the stairs while tugging on his school uniform. This malfunction just has to happen today, of all days. He wanted to watch the volleyball team practice. He has morning cram school every day except Thursday—today—so he won’t get another chance for a whole week. But nevermind the volleyball: he’ll be late to his first class. Drooling over the captain Kageyama Tobio’s messy morning hair will have to wait for another day. He was so looking forward to it, too... Of course, not to say his little crush—okay, big crush—takes priority over school. Obviously not. But who wouldn’t be inspired to do their best work after tattooing the image of a sweaty, muscled volleyball player all over the inside of their eyelids? Okay, stop it with the desperation, Hinata scolds himself, catching the mental image before it can get too far. Yachi made him promise not to be too pathetic with his crush, yet he’s already lovesick so early in the morning. Then again, he did want to wake up on his day off just to see Kageyama practice.

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[amalthemir]

OC Interview!

I was tagged by @nuka-nuke (luv u bab) for this, so here I go!

1. Choose an OC.

2. Answer them as that OC.

3. Tag 5 people to do the same.

I’ll tag @scarecrow-forest @lamorellenoire6 @chibikinesis @ryu-no-joou and @beetleboo

1. What is your name?

Would be sitting comfortably in a chair, whiskey glass in hand

"We'll aren't you straight to the point. If you've got to know, name's Texas, doll~."

2. Do you know why are you named that?

"Dunno, mama once said somethin' about her ancestors bein' from a place called Texas back before the world went t' shit. Might've all jus' been some bullshit for all I know."

3. Are you single or taken?

Smirks

"Well that answer depends on if I find ya interestin' or not. But for t' sake of time, I'm seein' someone, well, a few someones. That satisfy yer curiosity yet, doll?"

4. Have any abilities or powers?

Laughs

"Sure do princess! I've got a this cute lil' trick where if I say someone is dead, they'll show up dead the next day! World works in strange ways, darlin'."

"Aside from that, I'm killer with an automatic rifle, you'd be dead in a secon' if I wanted it. The rest of my talents are... well, let's just say I'm good with a rope."

5. Stop being a Mary Sue.

"Who t' hell is that Mary Sue lady? You better not be playin' me for a fool if you know what's good for you..."

6. What’s your eye color?

"Brown, plain an' simple. Mama said I had papa's eyes, always said that his were like chocolate- or caramel or some shit. Don't rightly give a fuck to be honest."

7. How about your hair color?

"Brown again, dark brown to be frank, but you can prob'ly see the color better in good lightin'."

8. Have any family members?

"No, mama got sick and died like a dog, and papa left and never came back, fucker probably got himself killed years ago, wouldn't be surprised if he's still in a ditch somewhere back in Vegas."

9. Oh? How about pets?

Sits up a bit straighter

"Well... don't rightly have one unless you count that quantum deathclaw egg I stole- rescued from an empty nest after its parents were... killed in an unfortunate hunting expedition. The thing hasn't hatched, but it hasnt rotten yet either, so don't know what's gonna happen with it."

10. That’s cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don’t like?

"Well now that you mention it, havin' someone waste my time askin' stupid questions is pretty high on my list of things I don't like."

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?

"You mean besides tying people up, takin' people's shit, or getting myself a new "toy" to play with? Dunno, all that takes up most of my time."

12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?

"You... are you fuckin' serious? I had a feelin' you were a dumbass but boy, you're somethin' else. Yeah I've hurt people, sometimes they even like it when I do it."

13. Ever… killed anyone before?

"Well sorry to disappoint, darlin', but you don't get t' where I am without poppin' a few heads. If it makes ya feel any better, I prefer playin' with my toys rather than breakin' 'em... at least at first."

Chuckles

14. What kind of animal are you?

"What kind of- the hell kinda question is that? I don't fuckin' know, a damn coyote for all I care."

15. Name your worst habits?

"Do you really want me to? There's a lot of 'em. Off the top of my head I'd say maybe drinkin' on the job, not bein' able to stop myself from wanting to... get a taste of something I find interesting, and dunno, maybe, just maybe, I like to stay a bit too clean sometimes, old habit really."

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?

"Nope, nobody at all. Other people are just pawns, though I like to play with some more than others."

17. Are you gay, straight or bisexual?

"I'm whatever you want me to be, baby doll."

18. Do you go to school?

"Do we fuckin' look like we have a damn school here at Nukaworld? Or do I like like a damn brat that should be sittin' on a desk takin' damn notes about some bullshit? Yeah, thought so."

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?

"Hell no, don' wanna get caught up in any of that business. Like hell that I'm ever gonna allow myself to get tied down to one por sod for the rest of my life. That's what mama did, and look at her now, six feet under cuz she was sure papa would come prancin' on in like nothin' happened. No thanks. As for kids that's another can of blood worms I ain't touchin' anytime soon."

20. Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?

Laughs

"Sure do, people line up to see me every day, all eyes on me whenever I walk in the market, real ego booster if you ask me."

21. What are you most afraid of?

"Dying of boredom, so right now I'm pretty much on death's row."

22. What do you usually wear?

"A suit. I know, I know, you must be wonderin' why the hell I wear a suit, well, to be the best you gotta look the part, don't cha' think? Plus, it's catches people's attention, makes it easier to lure them in. Guess keeping it all clean is a hassle, but I've got people for that."

23. What’s one food that tempts you?

"Hm.... maybe some mirelurk cakes, damn things are pretty good when you find someone to cook 'em right."

24. Am I annoying to you?

"Nooooo of course not. I'm having the time of my life, can't you tell?"

25. Well, it’s still not over!

"Christ sake... this better be worth it."

26. What class are you (low/middle/high)?

"High and mighty, darlin'."

27. How many friends do you have?

"Yes."

28. What are your thoughts on pie?

"Pies? Why fuckin' pies of all damn things? I don't know, them pre-war ones looked good I guess, never had one. Might try to get someone that knows how to make one."

29. Favorite drink?

"Whiskey, plain and simple. Used to have Susnset Sarsaparilla back in Vegas, but they don't have those over here. Nuka-Wild comes close enough I guess, doesn't quite taste the same though."

30. What’s your favorite place?

"Anywhere that's mine, that's private, and a place that I can drag a new toy into in order to have some fun."

31. Are you interested in anyone?

"You could say that... there's a certain pup that I'm training into being more... well behaved. Gotta say, I'm hooked so far."

32. That was a stupid question…

"I'd say the same for all the other questions you've asked, but sure, whatever floats yer boat."

33. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?

"Neither."

34. What’s your type?

"Hm... guess I like a challenge. Don't get me wrong, being able to do what I please with someone from day one is always fun, but there's something about breaking them and making them mine that turns me on intensely."

35. Any fetishes?

"Yyyyyup, let's see... domination, bondage, being rough, puppy play, being very physical, etcetera, too many to name."

36. Camping or outdoors?

"Pretty much everyone has slept outdoors before in their lives, how else you think I traveled from the west all the way to the east?."

[dontgiveasheet]

Rules: answer these 86 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

1. drink - tea~

2. phone call - my friend called me when she was leaving my house bc she wanted to make sure that chickens walking around on the sidewalk was normal

3. text message - "yes" to my dad, thrilling conversation

4. song you listened to - common man by caamp

5. time you cried - today (when is the last time you didn’t cry is the better q, because i cry when i laugh too)

ever

6. dated someone twice? - only dated one person and it lasted like 5 days so no

7. kissed someone and regretted it? - that requires ever having kissed someone (don’t laugh @ me ok)

8. been cheated on - nope

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed -  yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - nope

fave colors

12. forest green

13. lavender

14. autumn-y shades of orange

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes 😍💗

16. fallen out of love - nope

17. laughed until you cried - all the damn time

18. found out someone was talking about you - yes

19. met someone who changed you - i guess? not really

20. found out who your friends are - yes but not this year

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - nope

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - all of them

23. do you have any pets? - 2 cats & a dog

24. do you want to change your name? - i’ve changed my alias so many times online ider some of them? but irl everyone gets my name wrong anyways so it’s just like what’s the point

25. what did you do for your last birthday? - i went w my two friends to an orchard + went apple picking, and then we went back to my house and had dinner + cake 😊😊

26. what time did you wake up today - 6:50 a.m. is when my alarm went off but lbr i only slept for like 20 minutes last night

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - watching videos on fb and crying tbh

28. what is something you can’t wait for - to be done w uni

29. when was the last time you saw your mom - within the hour

30. what are you listening to right now - where you wanna go by graham colton ft. emily hearn

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom - yes

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - myself

33. most visited website - probably tumblr

34. hair color - it’s dyed blonde but tbh my roots have grown out like 4 inches @ this point and that’s a v mousy brown

35. long or short hair? - short-ish!! just cut it the other day, i have a lob/medium bob atm

36. do you have a crush on someone - after today’s events, probably 😂😂😂

37. what do you like about yourself - next question pls

38. want any piercings - nope, i let the ones in my ears close

39. blood type - good question, your guess is as good as mine

40. nicknames - grace, sarah/stephanie/shannon/rachel/meghan (used interchangeably or strung together all at once)

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - libra

43. pronouns - they/she

44. fave tv shows - bob’s burgers, stranger things, the good place, nailed it (that baking show on netflix, go watch it!!!!), fullmetal alchemist, i’ve gotten into america’s got talent over the past few years too

45. tattoos - nope

46. right or left handed - right~

47.  ever had surgery - tonsils & adenoids

48. piercings - nope

49. sport - i did marching band in hs that counts 

50. vacation - i really want to go to iceland tbh + then i would love to go to greece, italy, japan, south korea, there’s loads more tbh. 

51. trainers(shoes?) - i love like, converse + similar shoes, or anything tennis-y because i need to wear sneakers at work and those are easier to match w outfits

52. eating - i just ate a breakfast flat

53. drinking - water

54.  I am about to watch - food network is on but i’m not paying attention

55. waiting for - nothing

56. want - to be out of debt t b H

57. get married - not really?? never been interested in it

58. career - i would L O V E to have a little bookstore/cafe (right next to/connected to my friend’s record shop) + be a writer, but rn social work is the actual path

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs

60. lips or eyes - eyes def

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - idk if i could date anyone under 21/22 ?? so older

63. nice arms or stomach - arms i guess? idk

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant w troublemaker tendencies i guess ?? 

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - nope

67. drank hard liquor - yes

68. lost glasses - sunglasses, yes

69. turned someone down - ugh yes

70. sex on first date - nope

71. broken someone’s heart - i think so ?? it’s a v long story that just proves how clueless + unobservant i am

72. had your heart broken - kind of? not really. at least not in a relationship sense idk if that’s what this is asking

73. been arrested - nope

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend - nope

do you believe in

76. yourself - nope

77. miracles - not really? i do believe in karma tho

78. love at first sight - ehhhhhhhhh

79. santa claus - nope

80. kiss on a first date - mb? probably not bc i am a hopeless awkward mess

81. angels - idk tbh ?? mb not in the like, traditional~ sense ? idk honestly

other

82. best friends name - carleen

83. eye color - hazel

84. fave movie - the nightmare before christmas, hocus pocus, star wars, moana, frozen, the princess and the frog

85. fave actor - tbh i really love the rock ?? i’ve never not enjoyed a movie he’s in even if it’s a terrible movie i have never seen any of the fast & furious movies tho

86. fave actress - the ladies in ocean’s 8 🔥🔥🔥

tagged by @smolboogara (ty omg ;~;)

tagging: @seonggwoo / @hcneybaby / @shitewrites / @yuukimuras / @anagonycs / @inurarea / @astrolgcy / @buckyyrps 

feel free to ignore this if you don’t want to do this/hate being tagged ^^;

[thespectacularspecter]

85 statements about me

i was tagged by @qiuu-tong ty i love shit like this

last 1. drink - blueberry tea beer 2. phone call - i called my uni because i'm panicking about paperwork 3. text message - to my friend to answer a question about schoolwork we have 4. song you listened to - all i have to give by the backstreet boys IT'S ICONIC AND CLASSIC DON'T @ ME 5. time you cried - lowkey i watched the greatest showman recently and when they all performed as a circus for the first time i kinda maybe started crying ever 6. dated someone twice - nope 7. kissed someone and regretted it - nah regrets aren't my thing 8. been cheated on - probably not 9. lost someone special - yes, unfortunately. RIP gma nancy and jack you guys were amazing parts of my life and still amazing parts of my heart!!! 10. been depressed - lordy yes, been in some dark places 11. gotten drunk and thrown up - lmao yeah i drank an amount i knew i could handle BUT forgot i was totally sick not two days ago so my body was outta wack. it was nasty but my mom found me and was a complete pal about it fave colours 12. PINK 13. BLUE 14. UHHHHH GOLD OR LIKE SPRING SOFT GREEN in the last year have you… 15. made new friends - yes!! 16. fallen out of love - no!! 17. laughed until you cried - yes!! 18. found out someone was talking about you - my memory blows but i think so, yeah 19. met someone who changed you - not in any highkey way, maybe in some little ways but that's just life man 20. found out who your true friends are - i know who my people are 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - nope general 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - i don't really use my fb and i don't feel like looking forgive me. the amount that there is -2 or 3, probably 23. do you have any pets - YES i have my baby boy SIGMA, A SNAKE; i have my PUPPY, GUILDENSTERN; i have a collection of FINE, LARGE CHICKENS; and i have a cat with a serious bitchface, RAMSES 24. do you want to change your name - mmMMMMMMmm nah, like, i'd like other names better probably but my name is really tied to who i am for better or for worse. i'd totally change out my last name if i got married though 25. what did you do for your last birthday - i went to the zoo with my friend from northern ireland who visited me!!! at least i think that was last year lmao 26. what time did you wake up today - 9am I think?? i slept in 27. what were you doing at midnight last night - schoolwork. i'm working a lot these days... 28. what is something you can’t wait for - I'M GONNA GET TO DO AN ESCAPE ROOM WHEN I GO TO GENCON THIS YEAR I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO ONE 30. what are you listening to right now - siuil a run by celtic woman : D   31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - YES the father of my best friend growing up was named tom. he recently (ish, over a year ago?) passed away from his parkinson's so rest in paradise to him, too uu 32. something that’s getting on your nerves - someone i know no shade. if you're reading this don't worry it's not you lmao 33. most visited website - probably reddit or tumblr 34. hair colour - brown 35. long or short hair - short!! i've been loving having shoulder length hair 36. do you have a crush on someone - i carry no real thirst at the moment 37. what do you like about yourself - i'm really patient when handling people i think that's a good thing. stuff that'd get a rise outta a lot of other people i can deal with pretty well, i think 38. want any piercings? - i WISH i used to have some actually but i'm dangerously allergic to a common metal and i learned the very hard way that slipping up on that when you have piercings leads to bad experiences in a hospital!! 39. blood type - i actually don't know 40. nicknames - rae is actually a nickname teehee. people pretty much just call me that except my dad calls me lil bro i guess. 41. relationship status - wonshades 42. zodiac - gemini 43. pronouns - she/her 44. fave tv shows - fIREFLY and pushing daisies and a lot of others 45. tattoos - none right now but i'm planning to get one since my mom is a tattoo artist and somehow i still haven't had her give me one 46. right or left handed - SOUTHPAWS REPRESENT 47. ever had surgery - nope! 48. piercings - see #38 heehee 49. sport - i did gymnastics for a few years, i do martial arts now 50. vacation - i'm not a vacation person but i'd love to go to japan. last time i left ohio, i went to chicago for the monsta x concert. last time i went out of country was canada for a study abroad program in the same year 51. trainers - my running shoes are expensive but less expensive because i got them in an ugly wanted color that i think is perfect (H O T P I N K). i'm a runner so the shoes are imPORTANT, MAN more general 52. eating - i had pizza tonight i really want cheap chinese food right now 53. drinking - still drinking my blueberry tea beer want another but it's 11:40pm so that's not happening 54. i’m about to watch - series of unfortunate events s2 once i find the fuckin netflix password i wrote down 55. waiting for - the BBMAs i need to support my boys live (also it's a blast to watch them with my sister-in-law who i'm tagging <3) 56. want - attention and clothing 57. get married - yes yes yes i'd love to get married someday 58. career - i'm an english teacher which is exactly where i wanna be which is better 59. hugs or kisses - attention 60. lips or eyes - eyes but both are great 61. shorter or taller - somehow i always end up dating shorter people. i like my men sturdy. but i have no real preference on height 62. older or younger - close to my age in either direction 63. nice arms or stomach - sweats 64. hookup or relationship - relationships i'm not much of a hookup person 65. troublemaker or hesitant - trouble teehee have you ever 66. kissed a stranger - nope 67. drank hard liquor - yes 68. lost glasses - yes and i'm too blind to find them once i do 69. turned someone down - yep 70. sex on first date - nope 71. broken someone’s heart - yes 72. had your heart broken - oh god yes lol 73. been arrested - nope 74. cried when someone died - i don't actually remember for one instance but i know i didn't in the other. i was crushed though don't get me wrong the tears just done didn’t happen 75. fallen for a friend - oh god yes lol do you believe in 76. yourself - i try to! 77. miracles - yeah 78. love at first sight - it's never happened to me but i won't say i don't believe in it, it might be real for other people and i can't invalidate that 79. santa claus - THE SPIRIT OF SANTA CLAUS 80. kiss on a first date - if it seems like a thing to do why not 81. angels - yes, in a sense other 82. best friend’s name - L I S S A MY GIRL 83. eye colour - very brown 84. fave movie - the lotr trilogy 85. fave actor - probably tim roth i love tim roth like a lo t and i don't really know why but shoutout to tatiana maslany for being the actual goddess of acting

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i’m tagging @freohrdatia, @pyrrhesia, @roymblog, and @pastelroseprincess and anyone else who sees this who wants to!! 

[flyswhumpcenter]

A to Z meme!

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better.

I got tagged by the lovely @swiggity-swump ages ago, but lmao Tumblr notifications what is that??

a - age: 19 (and a half)

b - birthplace: North of France

c - current time: 8:30 AM

d - drink you last had: Iced tea lmao

e - easiest person to talk to: My best friend! He’s put up with my bullshit and I’ve put up with his for 7 years and counting haha

f - *current* favourite song: “El Tango Egoista” (or “Kill the Lights” by Britney Spears bcuz I’m 10 years late)

g - grossest memory: ...I’d rather not talk about it.

h - horror yes or horror no: I’ll go with “maybe”

i - in love?: Nope

j - jealous of people?: Who can assert themselves easily in discussions.

l - love at first sight or should i walk by again?: Love at first sight is bullshit and a friend of mine got it and the girl was a complete bitch so nah thank you.

m - middle name: I... don’t have one? For the need of this very Americaney question, I’ll go with the 2 other names I have on my ID card, Monique and Marie.

n - number of siblings: 1! My younger sister.

o - one wish: For I7 to get more known in the West. Okay, more realistically, my wish would be to enter the ENS of Lyon.

p - person you called last: My dad

q - question you are always (often) asked: How I can draw/write so well. (this isn’t me trying to kiss my own ass it’s legit the thing I get asked the most)

r - reason to smile: People telling me they love my writing! It really means a lot to me.

s - song you sang last: Literally from this morning, “Novocaine” from Fall Out Boy

t - time you woke up: Can you actually wake up when you haven’t really slept? Otherwise, 6:30AM.

u - underwear colour: Blue.

v - vacation destination: Anywhere where I don’t burn to death.

w - worst habit: Talking to myself and/or doing playback as I forget to notice people around me staring.

x - x-rays: For my teeth.

y - your favourite food: Cannelés, a Bordeaux pastry flavoured with rhum. A shame I don’t live anywhere near Bordeaux.

z - zodiac sign: Sagittarius.

It probably won’t be 10 people but I’m gonna tag a few followers and people I’ve met I don’t know very well yet: @feverish-and-delirious @shelikescolds @l-buki-mio-da (like I know you follow both this blog and my main lmao show yoself) @sf-trash-tm

[vestedbeauty]

Go Outside and Play! (Yes, YOU)

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Go Outside and Play! (Yes, YOU)

How many times did we hear it as kids? “Go outside and play!” (possibly followed by, “and don’t come home until the streetlights are on!”)

As a kid growing up in the seventies, getting to go outside and play - especially during the summer - was a huge part of life. We lived in a neighborhood with lots of kids. Many of the moms stayed home or were just easing they way back into the workforce. It was a different time.

Looking back, it’s no surprise that the moms wanted us out, out, out! In prior generations, parents didn’t really play with their kids. Kids played with kids. 

It may not have been perfectly safe. (OK, it was definitely not perfectly safe.) We did a lot of stuff that seems dangerous now:

Playing unsupervised in other kids’ homes

Tromping through the woods until we got lost

Skating on the little pond at the end of the street… even if the ice wasn’t thick enough

Riding our bikes (helmets? ha!) all over creation, usually without even telling anyone where we were going

We got sunburnt, ate junk food whenever the opportunity presented, and drank Kool-Aid made with a whole cup of sugar. I literally dreamt of bubble gum, packs of watermelon Bubbalicious and grape Bubble Yum so real I could taste it.

"Dangerous" But Fun

And at the end of a long, hot summer day, we slept like babies.

I don’t know how we learned so many games to play. There was no internet, of course, and I can’t imagine finding a book full of games at the library. Still, we played all the usual games (hide and seek, kill the guy with the ball, and kickball). But somehow we also found out about Red Rover, TV tag, freeze tag, SPUD, and four square. And we made a bunch up, too, like bicycle shop (turn it upside-down, crank the pedal as fast as you can, pretend to fix stuff using blades of grass and sticks). 

It’s like there was some invisible network between children, where vital information traveled without the assistance of media or adults. There was always some kid who knew stuff. That’s the one who gave everyone else the scoop on current events, like when “Mikey” ate pop-rocks and drank a Coke at the same time and died.

Friendships started because of proximity. Not everyone got along. There was the girl who cried way too much, the boy with the hair-trigger temper who was always fighting, the kids whose parents wouldn’t let them play with anyone in the neighborhood. Of course, there were the kids who were too little, who were dying to be invited to play. 

And there were the “big kids” who never seemed to come outside. Well, unless they were hanging out on the porch or by their pool (so jealous!) with their high schooler friends. We held those big kids in reverence. It seemed impossible to even imagine the same girl I saw kissing her boyfriend (ON THE LIPS!) ever sitting in the grass, trying to find the perfect blade to use for a whistle.

Playing Outside Isn't Just for Kids

And then, one day, we were the big kids. Outside wasn’t for playing - it was for transportation or chores, if anything.

Actually, it didn’t happen all at once. We had a few years’ span in our ages. But somewhere around the seventh-grade mark, our friend groups shifted from the neighborhood to the classroom. I remember discovering that I could have school friends come over to hang out. We might walk home from school together, but we’d spend our time indoors - or maybe walk to the 7-Eleven store up the road to buy a Diet Coke. Then back to the house to listen to records, make prank calls, watch General Hospital, and gossip. We got part-time jobs working indoors, at least all mine were. 

Then it was off to college. I went to Rutgers University, which is spread across five campuses (there are satellite campuses, but I never saw them). That meant lots of bus rides and tons of walking. At the time, I didn’t mind walking miles and miles each day - unless I was running late for class. It was just part of life. 

The yellow, orange, and red leaves on the trees in the fall semester were a stunning welcome to the first semester. I remember feeling especially alive and connected to… something… as I’d kick my way through piles of fallen leaves. The winters felt harsh, though. Duck boots were great for navigating ice, and they probably did wonders for thigh muscles because they were so heavy. But snow in New Jersey is really only nice for a few hours before it gets dirty and slushy. Not that fun to be outside then.

In graduate school, I only remember being outside to walk to class - or walk to work if I didn’t have a ride. At some point, I took up early morning walks to clear my head. It was South Hamilton, Massachusetts, and there may be no more beautiful spot than New England - especially in autumn.

Yes - that's NJ! The Delaware Water Gap is gorgeous, especially in autumn.

Adulting Is Better with Outside Time

After my ex graduated, we moved to Jackson, New Jersey, and I took a job at an accounting firm about an hour away (unless traffic was really bad). With two hours of commuting and eight hours in the office, plus weekends taken up by my role in his job (another post, another time), outside time became a memory. 

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Well, unless you count sleeping outdoors in our backyard on blankets because without air conditioning, our house was unbearable! (I always wondered if the neighbors knew - they had air!)

But I remember one day feeling like this entirely indoors existence felt like a rip-off. I bought some plants, seeds, and seedling trees, and started a tiny garden. I set an alarm to get up thirty minutes earlier and spent the extra time kneeling in the grass, hands in the dirt. 

The results shocked me. It felt like I had a life again. My mind wandered - even frolicked! - as I played in the soil. Something therapeutic happened as I pulled weeds. That outdoors time was mine alone.

Out with the Kids - But It’s Not Quite the Same

Soon, we started a family. I went part-time with my job, which meant two ten hour days in the office each week, plus several hours at home. On the days I was home, I loved nothing more than bundling my first baby up and going for a long walk in the neighborhood. We had an incident with some dogs that might have ended that practice (I love dogs, but this was scary). But I just switched routes. Then, a few months later, there was a truly horrific crime in our neighborhood. Never again would I feel safe letting my son (and my daughter who was born just a couple years later) play outside without my eyes on them.

I’d made some girlfriends who also had kids at the same time (there was a pregnancy pact - maybe a post for another day!). We loved taking the kids to parks, petting zoos, and a nearby lake. They’d play, we’d talk. These were some of my favorite days. 

But the world had changed. We moved a bunch, and there never seemed to be many kids in the neighborhood - certainly not playing outside. There were playdates, but they weren’t spontaneous. Kids never seemed to come calling, ringing the doorbell and asking if my kids could come out and play. I saw them becoming indoor-dwellers, and while it felt sad, it also seemed like the logical course.

Along the way, we’d moved to Florida. It’s hot. It’s humid. Most people seem to stay indoors unless they’re at the beach or poolside. I learned to take early morning walks with my dog. If we didn’t get home by about 6:30, it felt like walking in a steam bath. 

Freelancers Don’t Go Outside and Play

We needed money. I needed something creative to do - especially while the kids were at school. So, I started a freelance writing business. It took off quickly. Soon, I was working every minute the kids were at school. Then, the workload expanded and I worked when they got home, too. Then weekends. “Outside” was nothing more than the few feet between the front door and minivan door. “Playing” felt like frivolity. Working “all the time” was both a burden and a point of pride for me. I’d set my prices too low, and was too timid to raise them. For several years, I was the primary breadwinner. I felt so tightly-wound that I could barely remember feeling lighthearted, playful, or relaxed.

Let’s just fast-forward about a decade. Kids are grown. (I am astonished to learn my love, respect, and enjoyment of them has somehow gotten 100x deeper with time - didn’t think it was possible.) I’m in a new marriage, living in a little town outside Huntsville, Alabama. The freelance writing business is now an agency, and while I help steer it, I have a team who takes care of my clients. I also work full-time as the editorial director at Capitalism.com - a “job” I love with people I adore. 

Life gets busy. But having reached 53, I have gathered at least this piece of wisdom, which I practice daily: Go outside and play.

Playing no longer looks like choosing teams, running around, and flopping onto the grass. 

It looks more like sliding into my funky little rubber boots  tending my flock of backyard hens. It’s moving piles of mulch and preparing garden beds. It might be mowing. Or it could be an after-lunch walk with my hubby and the dogs. Sometimes, it’s just sitting outside on the porch, admiring the sunrise and sunset. When I miss a day, something is off. My best ideas come from time spent outdoors. I call it puttering. It’s good for the soul.

Go play outside. See what happens. I'd love to hear what you like to do outside, what joys you've discovered out there, and how often you make outside play part of your day.

Also...

I’ve been reading this book by Trevor Blake, called Three Simple Steps. (Trevor built and sold multiple businesses for hundreds of millions - starting in midlife! He also only works a few hours a day, and is a huge proponent of spending time outdoors.)  It’s one of the best things I’ve read in a long while. 

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[too-many-kpop-hubands]

30 Day Fandom Challenge

Welcome to day 6 Ladies and Gentlemen. As always I am gonna tag the amazingly talented @domsberto and then head back over into the world of the spooky and supernatural for this next one.

Day 6- True Blood

1) Favorite Character: Lafayette Reynolds

Reason: Lafayette was freaking hilarious and a badass boss bitch. He had the funniest lines in the show and was savage at times. He was a very flamboyant character and I adore those types of characters. He trusted only a few people but was loyal as hell to the select few he let in his circle. When he actually had lover he was faithful and devoted to them, even in death in the case of Jesus. He had his demons but he handled them with grace and a sense of humor, not to mention lots of alcohol and weed. He was a medium which was pretty cool but it also lead to some disastrous situations (like stealing babies and killing the love of his life). I adore his relationship with his cousin, Tara, that borders more on that of siblings than cousins. He has no tolerance for ignorance or bullying, as seen when he put a table full of rednecks in their place for their gay slurs, and he backs up what he says. He is fully capable of handling himself in a fight and is just an all around amazing person.

Rest in Peace Nelsan Ellis! You are missed still to this day! ❤❤❤

2) Most Relatable Character: Hoyt Fortenberry

Reason: Hoyt reminds me alot of Matt from Vampire Diaries, honestly. He is sweet and kind-hearted and according to Sookie, who can read minds, his thoughts are consistently kind and open compared to everyone else around her. He is also remarkably progressive toward vampires and other social outcasts. This is in stark contrast to his mother, Maxine, who was extremely prejudiced and judgmental of most people, humans and vampires alike. His lack of experience with, and high respect for, women makes him extremely shy around them. Unlike his best friend Jason Stackhouse, he has no desire for frivolous hook-ups, and remains a virgin until he meets and falls in love with the vampire Jessica Hamby. Whem we first meet Hoyt in the first season, he is bossed around by his mother, but begins to assert his independence as the show progressed. Throughout the series, his character development shifts from happy-go-lucky to a much more serious and emotional young man. I can relate to Hoyt because I tend to he shy around men and women I am attracted to because despite having been married for the past 13 years, I didn't really have much experience before I met my husband and I was really self conscious. I also get what it's like to have an overbearing mother and having to eventually put my foot down with her. Hoyt is also one of the most genuine and "normal" of all the characters in the show. This is why he is the most relatable.

3) Most Underrated Character: Godric

Reason: Godric was only alive for one season and the fans grew to love him so much that after his suicide on the show, they wrote him into the show in later seasons as hallucinations and dreams that Eric, Sookie and sometimes Nora had. He is one of my favorite characters, quite possibly tied with Lafayette honestly. During his time on the show, Godric (who happens to be the maker of Eric Northman) was the Sheriff of the Dallas vampires and one of the oldest living vampires to date. He was a badass, as seen when he saves Sookie when she was almost raped and when he comes in to put an end to the fighting between vampires and the Fellowship of the sun. He was ruthless and a very capable leader, putting people in their place when need be (as seen when he banished Lorena from Dallas for causing trouble). He once lived by a moral code of "There is no right or wrong, only survival or death.", seeing humans as disposable and caring very little for human life. Humans were a means to an end until he grew older and began to relate more to humans. He came to realize that the human race's fear and hatred of vampires was well founded, and that he had contributed to it. He evolved over time and his wisdom and compassion grew. He is perhaps the best-natured vampire seen on the show.

He cared deeply for his progenies, Eric and Nora, and he was one of the few people who could turn Eric into an emotional mess (as seen when Godric decided to end his life). Godric was compassionate and kind but if you crossed him, he could snap your neck without even blinking or thinking twice. He was such an underrated character but I adored him so much.

4 & 5) Most Overrated Character & Least Favorite Character: Sookie Stackhouse

Reason: So Sookie is the main character and honestly she annoys the hell out of me. She acts like your stereotypical trailer trash, you know the type. The kind of girl that gives us Southern girls a bad name? Yes that type. She had every guy in the show that wasn't gay or family chomping at the bit to try to get in her pants. She constantly found herself knee deep in trouble at every turn, "Must be a Thursday." to quote her. She toys with the boys who fall in love with her unintentionally and honestly she isn't the most attractive on the show to warrant so many male suitors. For a fairy with special powers, she has no idea what she is doing half the time and like Elena in Vampire Diaries, she often makes things worse and ends up having to be saved by someone who knows what they are doing. She is overrated and my least favorite character in the series, despite being the main character. While she has a few good qualities and some decent scenes sometimes, I really can't stand her.

Pam made a comment once that stands out “I am so over Sookie and her precious fairy vagina and her unbelievably stupid name! F*ck Sookie!”

6) Favorite Canon Pairing: Hoyt Fortenberry & Jessica Hamby [Close 2nd Honorable Mention- Lafayette Reynolds & Jesus Velasquez]

Reason: Jessica and Hoyt were perfect for each other plain and simple. They both lost their virginity to each other (granted since Jessica was a virgin when she turned she never truly loses her virginity because her hymen keeps growing back) and had a sweet and loving relationship. When they ended things and she slept with his best friend, Jason, Hoyt was so distraught that he asked Jessica to glamor him into forgetting they had ever met and fallen in love before leaving town. They found their way back to each other in the final season and fell in love all over again as if they had never fallen apart to begin with and eventually got married before Jessica's maker, Bill, died. They had a beautiful and pure love that surpassed even memory wipes and I love them so much together.

7) Favorite Non-Canon Pairing: Eric Northman & Pamela "Pam" Swynford de Beaufont

Reason: While Pam tended to lean more toward women most of the time it was implied time and time again that she and Eric had a romantic or sexual history together prior to him turning her into a vampire. The chemistry between Eric and Pam is amazing and goes well beyond that of the typical sire/progeny bond. They loved each other on a deep level, one could possibly consider the love that Eric and Pam had for each other agape which is the highest form of love that surpasses traditional romantic and sexual feelings toward a person. They had an unbreakable bond and even when Eric released her as his progeny, Pam still stayed at Eric's side no matter what the cost. I wish that they could have been a romantic couple in the canon universe but sadly that never happened. Their love for one another still lives on in the hearts of us fans to this day.

8) Least Favorite Pairing: Sookie Stackhouse & Bill Compton

Reason: Besides the fact that I really can't stand Sookie, I loathed Sookie and Bill as a couple on the show. They were back and forth so much with their relationship that it made my head spin half the time and when they actually stayed together, the relationship itself was pretty boring compared to some of the other relationships on the show. Sookie could never make up her mind on exactly who it was she wanted to be with and that left her juggling Bill, Eric, Sam and Alcide before ending up with a faceless and nameless man by the end of the show. They had their good moments, don't get me wrong, that made me actually like them but then one of them would do or say something stupid and I would go back to loathing the ship as a whole. Though I will admit it was both heartbreaking and poetic when Sookie ended Bill's suffering in the end. I still feel like there are better couples on the show.

I will admit though that outside of the show I think Anna Paquin and Stephen Moyer have a beautiful marriage and beautiful children so my opinion doesn't reflect on the actors personally but rather their characters on the show.

9) Favorote Part/Moment: The Aids Burger Incident AKA Lafayette Vs The Ignorant Rednecks

Reason: This scene is my favorite scene because first of all Lafayette was a savage and proved that he will not tolerate ignorance from anyone. He put the rednecks in their place when one of them sent back their food because they refused to eat it because "The burger might have Aids.", directly referencing Lafayette who was cooking that night who is openly gay. In that scene he took the burger back out to the customers and confronted them for their gay slur in one of the most epic manners possibly before shoving the "Aids Burger" in the man's face. He proved that he could handle himself in a fight when he kicked his friends' asses before delivering a final quip of "Tip Your Waitress" before walking away like the boss ass bitch he was, fist bumping and impressed Jason Stackhouse on his way back to the kitchen to finish his job. Lafayette was amazing in this scene and I have to give the late Nelsan Ellis credit for such an epic performance. I post a video of this once a year during Pride Month to show one of the most epic scenes of an openly gay man standing up for himself and fellow gay men against ignorant bigots. It was amazing. I will post the video directly following this post.

10) Least Favorite Part/Moment: The Entire F***ed up Billith Situation [Honorable Mentions: Godric's suicide- it was sad as hell but hauntingly beautiful, The Witches induce Amnesia on Eric, Marnie Possesses Lafayette and makes him kill the love of his life Jesus, Tommy Dies to Save Sam]

Reason: My least favorite part was when Bill merged with the mother of all vampires, Lilith, to become this super powerful and equally psychotic vampire deemed "Billith". The entire situation was just stupid and you could tell that during that season the writers ran out of ideas for what to add into the show. It was far-fetched and pretty OP and that's why I consider this one of the worst parts of True Blood.

Back at you soon with today's post since I'm behind by a day.

[monochrome-in-madness]

30 Questions Tag

Tagged by : @doreishounen

1. Nicknames : Ci

2. Gender : ♀   

3. Star sign : Sagittarius ( or going by the recent studies :  Ophiuchus )

4. Height : Unknown

5. Current Time : 10 PM

6. Birthday : 10th of December

7. Favourite bands : Nirvana, Acid Bath, Billy Talent, Cradle Of Filth, Lana Del Rey, BOO!, Slipknot, Nokturnal Mortum, Bauhaus, Iggy Pop, Pezz, Black Sabbath, 21 Pilots, The Sex Pistols, Marilyn Manson, Specimen, Bad Religion, Electric Wizard, Bonobo, Sumo Cyco etc 

8. Favourite solo artists : Read above ↑

9. Song stuck in my head : The Voice of God is Government - Bad Religion

10. Last movie watched : Valarian & The City Of A Thousand Planets

11. Last show watched : Gravity Falls

12. When did I create my blog : 2013

13. What do I post : art | space | manga | animals | quotes | mental health | minimalism | psychology | minor gore | biology | skulls 

14. Last thing I googled :  @psychoticnun89  

15. Do you have other blogs : @dardarthepupper @support–group

16. Do you get asks : Indeed

17. Why did you choose you url : When one has vomited up all the contents in the stomach, only digestive tract secretions remain. This is connected to my blog name ( white-vomit ) in an emotional & a minimal manner. 

Emotionally : I have expelled all negative things in my metaphorical & mental stomach, yet I am still throwing up. Even when nothing is left, my spiritual body continues to excrete the things that have scarred me.

Minimally : My blog contains only the best posts in my opinion. I post quality content and therefore my blog has ‘vomited up’ all the so called ‘worthless’ posts. It is also literally minimal.

18. Following : 229

19. Followers : 1,193

20. Favourite colours :  Black etc

21. Average hours of sleep : 10 - 11

22. Lucky number : 69 ( I have been seeing it every where the past few years and according to the internet it is an ‘ angel number ‘. Meaning my ‘guardian angels’ or ‘spirit guides’  are trying to tell me something. You can Google the meaning. It is NOT sexual in any way.)   

23. Instruments : Guitar - acoustic & electric + clean vocals

24. What am I wearing :  Black t-shirt, tight black pants and black socks

25. How many blankets I sleep with : Summer - 0 or 1. Winter - 1 or 2

26. Dream job : Forensic anthropology, psychology, biology, interior designing, SFX make-up or something where I don’t have to physically work with people / leave my house.   

27. Dream trip : Into a black hole  👌

28. Favourite food : Anything ultra sweet 

29. Nationality : South African - Caucasian

30. Favourite song of the moment : Cradle Of Filth - Beauty Slept In Sodomy

Tag : @psychoticnun89 @kojikushh @akiveckufaber @whydoeslifegoon @bloobiscuit @controlled-by-depression @misty-mio-night @croquetasytetas

Thank you!  ❤️

[jukesboxblues]

tagged by @moreraquetball

i tag uhhhh @malo-melons @alonsimo @21centurykerplunk @shrek-is-drek and that's it 1. drink? some juice that lowkey looks like wine?? 2. phone call? my mom hah 3. text message? uhhh one of my s/os 4. song you listened to? //whizzer going down from in trousers hahah 5. time you cried? the last time i finished the falsettos soundtrack so,,yesterday??? have you ever 6. dated someone twice? no p e 7. kissed someone and regretted it? mmm yea 8. been cheated on? noooooo,,,t exactly???idk it's a Long Story whoop 9. lost someone special? no 10. gotten drunk and thrown up? gotten drunk,,,somewhat. thrown up because of that??nope favorite colors: 11. purple 12. black 13. green/pink idk I can't decide in the last year have you 14. made new friends? yup!! 15. fallen out of love? nah 16. laughed until you cried? i don't think so 17. found out someone was talking about you? hnnng no 18. met someone who changed you? i'd like to think i change myself so 19. found out who your friends are? i found two new am a zi in g friends 20. kissed someone on your facebook list? i don't have a facebook lol general: 21. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? see above^^ 22. do you have any pets? one dog but i Highkey want a cat 23. do you want to change your name? my legal name???ye i wanna change it but my name is wonderful so 24. what did you do for your last birthday? hung out with some friends and slept in 25. what time did you wake up? 5:45 am 26. what were you doing at midnight last night? fuckin sleeping thank god 27. name something you can’t wait for? pbs to show the falsettos pro shoot on oct 27th at 8 pm 28. when was the last time you saw your mom? 13 hours ago 29. what are you listening to right now? in trousers!! 30. have you ever talked to a person named tom? uhhhh,,,i don't think so 31. something that is getting on your nerves? the fucking trump presidency tbh 32. most visited website? ao3 or google docs tbh,,, 33. hair color? died blonde, natural red(ish) 34. long or short hair? s h o r t 35. do you have a crush on someone? always,,,i'm polyamorous gu ys 36. what do you like about yourself? uhhhhh that i'm rlly good at English and can write O K I guess??also i'm a Pretty Boy and i like that abt myself so 37. piercing? my ears are pierced but i lowkey want more piercings Eventually 38. bloodtype? who actually knows this tbh 39. nickname? queer nerd????idk jules is technically a nickname cause my full name is julian but whatev 40. relationship status? i'm in a relationship 41. zodiac? gemini (ik ik the most hated of the zodiac) 42. pronouns? they/them or he/him 43. favorite tv show? criminal minds 44. tattoos? Eventually!! 45. right or left handed? right handed 46. surgery? maybe top surgery Some Day but idk 47. sport? i take karate!!!//whizzer voice: i was trained in karate 48. vacation? universal studios/orlando 49. pair of trainers? uhhhh I wear boots or converse more general 50. eating: nothing but I may make dinner soon??idk 51. drinking: again, nothing 52. i’m about to: hopefully make some dinner 53. waiting for: death tbh,,,but uhhh the weekend 54. want: a will to live and some love 55. get married? naaah,,,i'm Good unless my partner(s) wanna get married 56. career? uhhh politician, professional musician??? which is better 57. hugs or kisses? mmmm hand holding 58. lips or eyes? E Y E S 59. shorter or taller? i'm always the shortest so,,,taller i guess 60. older or younger? a Nice Mixture 61. nice arms or nice stomach? ????idk i haven't rlly given it much thought?? 62. hook up or relationship? a lil bit of both thank 63. troublemaker or hesitant? ,,,uhhh it depends on who you ask i think have you ever 64. kissed a stranger? nope 65. drank hard liquor? ,,,i've had some whiskey before 66. lost glasses/contacts? my life in a nutshell tbh 67. turned someone down? no,, 68. had sex on the first date? maybe??? 69. broken someones heart? no 70. had your heart broken? nahhh 71. been arrested? thankfully, no. but i have broken the law 72. cried when someone died? y ep 73. fallen for a friend? ye a,,i've fallen for quite a few friends do you believe in 74. yourself? for the most part???i mostly hate myself but i get moments where i get rlly self absorbed but uhhhhhhh 75. miracles? oh ye 76. love at first sight? love at first sight???no ,,lust at first sight??ye 77. santa? hhhahha,,,i wish 78. kiss on the first date? yea sure why not 79. angels? maybe??i'm not particularly religious but i think angels could exist other 80. current best friend’s name: mmmm mali or sarah 81. eye color: blue/green???i think idk 82. favorite movie: captain america: the winter soldier