#dream smp

[boygirlctommy]

i saw someone do the miku from my culture trend with ctommy so im stealing it. ctommy if he was from new jersey 🔥🔥🔥

[waddei]

your brothers not too good at taking care of himself but that's ok

[simplepotatofarmer]

top ten images you can hear

[sethdomain]

michael: It's so sad y'know... when uncle tommy gonna.... yknow...

puffy who's babysitting michael: what

michael: you know how he keep smoking... cancer...

[peeco]

Dream smp doodles ^^

[tobi-smp]

I don't want to hold anything against this specific person, because I Remember the discourse that lead to this and I know exactly how it could get passed around and warped (either through telephone or someone's own memory shifting with time).

that said, I never liked that discourse specifically Because it was a clear misreading of the text, and what better opportunity do I have to talk about it now.

the context was the bench trio therapy stream. tommy had been beaten to death by dream, sat in limbo for months, and then revived and told Explicitly that dream was planning on escaping prison and tormenting the rest of the server.

the mindset that tommy is in is that he Has to do something, but he's deeply traumatized by what's happened to him. he's Scared to go back to the prison, but he has no choice but to do it for the safety of everyone else in the server.

the "therapy stream" was bench trio Trying to do exposure therapy on tommy to help him work through his trauma in the lead up to attempting to infiltrate the prison. and the entire point is that they Absolutely Were Not actually helping.

what they were Actually doing was triggering tommy by exposing him to things that he was traumatized by, because they didn't actually know how to do exposure therapy and what they were trying to do wasn't healthy in the first place.

so the Context of this conversation is tommy desperately trying to just, Get Rid Of his trauma (something that is absolutely not possible) while entering a worse and worse mindset because he was intentionally triggering himself.

Likewise, the context for Tubbo's half of the conversation is that he Very Intentionally represses his own trauma, both from Himself and from other people. he puts himself in a little box that he buries under the floorboards and asks people to ignore the way the boards creak when they walk on him.

there's a million ways you could cut Why he does this. part it is his people pleasing, willingly pushing himself down for the sake of everyone else no matter how painful. seeing Himself as an accessory to the people he cares about, rather than a whole complete and important person. and in part because it feels Safer, it's Safer to pretend that nothing hurt him.

and Why that is is complicated. part of it is External. he doesn't Get to be angry about what he's been through, because the people he's angry At will just hurt him again. and if he thinks about how he's hurt then he Will get angry, so he just Won't Think About It.

and part of it is that I don't think he wants to process his trauma any more than tommy does. because it's painful, because he doesn't have the tools to actually work through it, because they aren't Safe so he can't afford to break down now (trouble is, there never Seems to be a "safe" time to think about himself).

they're the Repression Brothers. the difference being that tommy's at a different stage of it. not a Healthy One, but different.

tommy spent months not being able to put into words what exile was, what pogtopia was, was the final control room was. and he still won't be able to put it in plain words for some time from here.

but he's reached the point where he Can't ignore it anymore, but he still doesn't know what to Do about it. he's still frustrated with an (to an extent) Ashamed Of his trauma. he feels Lesser Than he was before and wants it to all just go away and go back to Normal.

he's doing this because he Has To, because he Has to be strong enough to fight dream. because if he's too scared to do it then he'd be sacrificing everyone else's safety.

he and tubbo are doing the Same Thing in different fonts, sacrificing their well being for the people Around Them, including Each Other.

so, lets go back to that moment that started all of this.

the exposure therapy was on the final control room section, with tommy working through having been killed by dream.

tubbo mentions that he died that night too, and tommy says something to the effect of "you did, but you have thicker skin."

this has been taken out of context to mean "you did, but I have it worse than you," when IN CONTEXT it means "you did, but you're stronger than me," or more accurately "you did, But I'm Worse Than You."

tommy does not see his trauma in the context of stupid apologist discourse. he sees his trauma as something that makes him Worse, as something he Shouldn't Feel. as something that makes him Weaker than everyone else, who Obviously are so much more put together than he is.

when he says this he's not saying that he's more important than tubbo, he's putting himself down in comparison TO tubbo.

and this is absolutely still harmful ! This is legitimately one of tommy's character flaws ! but it is Not the selfishness that people make it out to be.

it's tommy accidentally hurting other people by seeing Himself negatively. it's an unhealthy relationship with mental health, and a Realistic one considering the circumstances and setting.

likewise, it's Just As Much born from tubbo's own unhealthy coping mechanisms. tommy assumes that what happened didn't bother tubbo the way it did him because Tubbo wants him to think that.

Tubbo doesn't let tommy see how much he's hurting, which in turn feeds into this cycle.

tubbo assumes he Has to shove his trauma down for tommy's sake (for the sake of Everyone he cares about), and so tommy assumes tubbo was just Stronger than him and wants desperately to just shove his own trauma away the way tubbo seems to be able to.

this moment IS tragic, it IS an example of the two of them hurting each other. but it's BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER !!!

Both Of Them are trying to be strong enough to protect the other, and it's Hurting Them. it's unhealthy, but it 's not Malicious. it's self-sacrificial not Selfish. it's not something they've done to each other but what's been done To Them by the world they live in. what they've done to Themselves trying to live in it.

this shouldn't have been a discourse moment, it should've been clingyduoers tearing each other apart in the street at the tragedy of it

[zom-tom]

Hello everyone!

This is an interest check for a little project I've been thinking about doing for a little while now! It's called Dreamers for Palestine!

It's a multi creator zine that I want to make that will support multiple mediums of creation and fanwork, and all proceeds will be going to networks doing relief and connection for people on the ground like ESims For Gaza, and any other on the ground relief funds I can find that are helping people with things like menstrual products, baby formula, medicine, food, water, toiletries and more! A lot of these funds are getting way less traction than people think they are, and it is important now more than ever to keep the Palestinian people connected to the world and to support them with day to day living needs, especially with the closure of the Palestine/Egypt border. This fanzine aims to donate as much of the received funds as possible to organizations on the ground and to the esims group!

The link to the interest check form is here!

Please make sure to answer all the questions as honestly as possible, and please rb this post so I can reach as many people as I can! Thank you! 🩷

Taglist: (Please let me know if you'd like to be removed! I'm just tagging dsmp bloggers I know that also support palestine ^^ 👍)

@the-home-of-innovation @t4tpumpkinduo @ramnonymous @transbeeduo @possuminnit @metfell @rebelpeas @boygirlctommy @crimeboys @wetchickenbreast @cyani07 @waddei @clingyduoapologist @clingyduofan @dsmpdaily @fenteii @syndicatedsystem @cquackity @bugflies00 @ctommy @ctommy-chileno @cloverstellar

[plaguethewaters]

of naps, braids, and impromptu pijama parties

[dunkarporshop]

Mr Underscore

[diooni]

Just a silly man and his crooked OC

[boygirlctommy]

OKAY! OKAY THERE WAS A LOT MORE INTEREST THAN I THOUGHT THERED BE!! so here is the DREAM SMP IN SEA MAJOR MAP!!!! 

This is a Multi Animator Project to celebrate the 5th anniversary of the Dream SMP! 

Not an animator? That’s great! I think it’d be fun to have a mix of animation, drawings, cosplay, scenes reenacted using little figurines, whatever you’ve got! What better way to celebrate than showcasing all different kinds of art together :D Don’t worry about your skill level, just apply! 

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[mioakem]

say what u want abt the dsmp but u gotta admit when ctommy said “tubbo the discs, the discs were worth more than you ever were!” everyone was at least a little gagged

[sethdomain]

cranboo have barbed tongue

[ctommy]

[ctechnoapologist]

[prisonpodcast]

been thinking about them lately