#evan and kayleigh

[admireforever]

The Butterfly Effect

[livejournallegacy]

Frank Iero and The Future Violents - Young and Doomed (2019) dir. Steve Pedulla

[girlandherfandom]

Frank Iero and The Future Violents - "Basement Eyes" | Rooftop Riots (X)

[pedroam-bang]

The Butterfly Effect (2004)

[anewnewcrest]

New Newcrest News - Spring 3, Part 2

WEDDING NEWS

After more than forty years together, Gwen and Anders Bell celebrated their love and their everlasting commitment in front of the Watcher with a vow renewal! Congratulations to the happy couple, who are such a blessing for everyone around them and such an inspiration for young couples in our church!

We're all sad to see Lily Miller move to Strangerville with her new husband, because she's such a sweet and precious young lady, but we're still happy for her and congratulate Mr and Mrs Baker Graham!

BABY NEWS

Kayleigh and Nathan Bell have welcomed babies #2 and #3 in back-to back pregnancies! Welcome to the congregation, Elisha Bell and Simeon Bell! Simeon's pregnancy was difficult for her, so please pray for mom Kayleigh so she'll bounce back quickly!

Alyssa and Jacob Payne were blessed with their first set of twins after eight singletons, and little Avery and Brianna Payne now round out their family size to ten children! Congratulations!

Martha and Michael Matthews welcomed their tenth child, little Meredith Matthews, who joins their large and boisterous crew with all M names! Praying for you!

Acton Miller has graduated from the Newcrest Police Academy, and he's now ready to protect our community from the Enemy and making sure that good people can sleep soundly at night! We're so proud of his service and are praying so the Watcher will guide him safely through the dangers of his occupation!

PRAYER REQUESTS

Now in her thirties, this woman is still not married and fulfilling her Watcher-given destiny as a wife and mother. Please pray for her contentment and that she'll find a worthy man soon. (Donna Bell)

This young lady has been tempting men at church with her curves, and she needs to learn to be responsible and not to make good men stumble in their walk with the Watcher. Please pray for her to dress more modestly! (Rose Miller)

[tastedapocalips]

¬ FRNKIERO ANDTHE FUTURE VOILENTS

Crescent Ballroom

Phœnix, Az

08/06/19

[spogo1]

I need to tell someone my gay Tommy theory for the butterfly effect (2004)

[myheadphonesareneverloudenough]

this WILL get changed soon so might as well immortalize it while i can

future violents homescreen :)

[invisibleicewands]

We, the undersigned, come together as creatives and artists, recognising the immense power held within each voice, especially those often underrepresented in our society. 

Art and creativity shapes and reflects the diverse experiences of our communities. It’s vital that politics does too, and that everyone’s voice is heard in our democracy. 

But in Britain today, as many as 8 million people are not registered to vote at their current address. Turnout of younger voters has been falling considerably.  New rules requiring photo ID risk excluding hundreds of thousands of citizens, and disproportionately affecting poorer people, those with disabilities and people from minority ethnic backgrounds.

We, the undersigned, stand united in our belief that participation in elections is not just a right, but a profound responsibility—one that should extend to everyone, at the heart of a vibrant democracy. 

That is why we urge you to join us in registering to vote for the upcoming local elections before the deadline of 23:59 on Tuesday 16 April, at https://qrco.de/giveanx. Remember, you are also eligible to register if you are a qualifying EU or Commonwealth citizen. 

We join hands with the young people leading the Give an X campaign in emphasising the importance of young people shaping the future, and we urge each and every citizen to claim their seat at the table.

Voting is not just casting a ballot; it is narrating the stories of our communities and painting a vision of a better tomorrow. In the face of huge challenges nationally and globally, that has never been more important.

Let’s all of us write the next chapter together. We Give an X – will you?

Signed,

Michael Sheen - Actor

Paapa Essiedu - Actor

Meera Syal CBE - Actor and writer

Armando Iannucci - OBE Writer, director, producer and performer

Amelia Dimoldenberg - Comedian and presenter

Billy Bragg - Singer and songwriter

Samuel West - Actor and director

Sharon Gaffka - TV personality

Es Devlin CBE - Artist and designer

Ahir Shah - Comedian

Ralf Little - Actor and writer

Sir Stephen Frears - Director

Misan Harriman - Photographer and Chair of the Southbank Centre

Mei Mac - Actor

Sally Lindsay - Actor

Siobhán McSweeney - Actor and presenter

Sir Alistair Spalding CBE - Artistic Director, Sadler's Wells

Alice Aedy - CEO, Earthrise

David Lan CBE - Writer, producer and director

Georgia Harrison - TV personality

Timothy Sheader - Artistic Director, Donmar Warehouse

Henny Finch - Executive Director, Donmar Warehouse

Paule Constable - Lighting designer and Associate Director of the National Theatre

Daniel Lismore - Sculptor and designer

Luke McQueen - Comedian

Elliot Levey - Actor

Joseph Henry - Architect

Charlie Condou - Actor

Seeta Indani - Dancer and actor

Ania Magliano - Comedian

John O'Farrell - Author and scriptwriter

Emily Berrington - Actor

Rebecca Hendin - Illustrator

Jack Guinness - Writer and founder of The Queer Bible

Michael French - Head of Games London

Joseph Zeal-Henry - Director, Sound Advice

Sacha Lord - Co-founder of The Warehouse Project & Parklife festival Sam Evans - Musical Director

Estelle van Warmelo - Director

Bernard Donoghue OBE - CEO, Association of Leading Visitor Attractions

Stephen Skeet - Director of Impact, Volunteering Matters

Kayleigh Wainwright - Director of Youth Sector Innovation, UK Youth

Joe Bailey - CEO, Brighten the Corners/Out Loud Music

Jack Gamble - Director, Campaign for the Arts

Mete Coban MBE - CEO, My Life My Say

Lauren Kay-Lambert - Co Managing Director, Shape History

Sami Gichki - Co-Chair of the #iWill Movement

[admireforever]

The Butterfly Effect

[classic80sand90smovieloves2]

have you seen my boyfriend's back (1993)?

it's one of my fav movies, i feel like it's so bad but so good at the same time idk... i just find this trope cute of like guys loving a girl so much they would do really insane stuff for them (i don't know how to say it without spoiling anything)

it kind of reminds me of how donnie darko goes back to fix everything bc of gretchen and

(maybe huge spoilers?) evan treborn from the butterfly effect jumps back to change events just to see kayleigh happy in the future

they don't make guys like this anymore 💔

This one’s been on my list for a while actually so maybe I’ll use this ask as an excuse to finally watch it lol.

I also really love the insanely devoted boyfriend trope: that’s probably why I developed an interest in Yandere content at an alarmingly young age. 💓

[artisticlegshake]

THE DANCE AWARDS ORLANDO RESULTS 2023

JP! awards that didn’t place in the top 10 Teen Solos:

Regan Joyce - STUDIO 412 JP!

Christiana Owen - STARS JP!

Jacqueline Piles - G-FORCE JP!

Jasmira Bush - G-FORCE JP!

Tanner Grace Coutsos - SOUTHERN STRUTT JP!

Kayleigh Atterton - SOUTHERN STRUTT JP!

Mollie Mikkelson - CAROLINA COLLECTIVE JP!

Caleigh Proulx - WOODBURY JP!

Michelle Aizenshtadt - VLAD’S JP!

Hannah Beatty - THE VISION JP!

Sasha Chernous - VLAD’S JP!

Lexi Blanchard - P21 JP!

Erin Kirk - INSPIRATION JP!

Lilly Traylor - SPOTLITE JP!

Katie Couch - P21 JP!

Madelyn Brecklin - ARTISTIC EDGE JP!

Ava Lee Kaufman - DWDE JP!

Zoey Straka - ARTISTIC EDGE JP!

Kalina Thephavong - SPOTLITE JP!

Mckenna Elliot - SPOTLITE JP!

Mila Shultheis - TRUE DANCE JP!

Hope Grainger - LEGACY JP!

Carter Lewis - UPSTATE CAROLINA JP!

Ivy Gang - EVOLVE JP!

Jonathan St-Onge - ECOLE DE DANSE JP!

Stella Vince - JEAN LEIGH JP!

Sam Evans - EVOLVE JP!

Lilliana Rubiera - WEST FLORIDA JP!

Cyrihn Leonard - WEST FLORIDA JP!

Mikayla Bellmore - WEST FLORIDA JP!

Molly Kavetz - THE NINE JP!

Ashley Schultz - THE NINE JP!

Kameron Couch - P21 JP!

Lauren Bayes - VLAD’S JP!

Makayla Mariah Dillett - STARS JP!

Zoe Zielinski - WOODBURY JP!

Yuli Shimonov - VLAD’S JP!

Demetria Guzman - STARS JP!

Serena Battaglia - VLAD’S JP!

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Kylan Wright - STARS JP!

Jady Risman - VLAD’S JP!

Ellie Rabin - STARS JP!

Sofia Rosella - PDA JP!

Gabrielle Carvalho - THE VISION JP!

Alyssa Phillips - PDA JP!

Grace Reisinger - ARTISTIC EDGE JP!

Diana Drias - DANCE EXPLOSION JP!

Olivia Granic - CDC JP!

Anya Inger - P21 JP!

Lila Caruso - WESTCHESTER JP!

Emmeline Gerardi - WESTCHESTER JP!

Kelsie Conti - DANCE SPECTRUM JP!

Luanna De Iacovo - PDA JP!

Lily Kravetz - THE NINE JP!

Mia Venerio - DANCE UNLIMITED JP!

Melanie Kalogritsas - PDA JP!

Shayla Blair - STUDIO 412 JP!

[hazel-mckat]

Characters I relate to by the personality database

Personality type: Infp

Legoshi ( beastars )

Darwin watterson ( tawog )

Joker 'Arthur fleck' ( Joker )

Butters Stotch ( South Park )

Lapis Lazuli ( Steven universe )

Peter Parker/Spider man ( Marvel comics )

Bubbles ( the powerpuff girls )

Edward scissorhands ( 1990 )

Charlie brown ( Peanuts )

WALL-E ( 2008 )

Jaiden animations ( Artsists & Animators )

Victor Van Dort ( Corpse bride )

Sykkuno ( Gaming )

Napstablook ( Undertale )

Panda bear ( We bare bears )

BMO ( Adventure time )

Asriel Dreemurr ( Undertale )

Noelle Holiday ( Deltarune )

Eeyore ( winnie the pooh )

Carrie Krueger ( Tawog )

Jack stauber ( Musicians )

Nikki Maxwell ( Dork dairies )

Vex ( League of legends )

Yellow guy ( dhmis )

Cinnamoroll ( sanrio )

Pyro ( tf2 )

Alec benjamin ( pop & contemporary )

Evan afton/crying child ( Fnaf )

Licorice cookie ( cookie run )

Bob ( despicable me )

Kermit the frog ( the muppets )

Totoro ( Tonari no Totoro )

Mimikyu ( Pokémon )

Ghast ( Minecraft )

White crewmate ( Among us )

Aled Last ( radio Silence )

Candy Chiu ( Gravity falls )

Mew ( Pokémon )

Salad fingers

Bingo heeler ( Bluey )

Resasuke ( Aggretsuko )

Frisk [Pacifist Route] ( Undertale )

Celeste ( Animal crossing )

Flick ( Animal crossing )

OMOCAT ( Game development )

Daniel Middleton/DanTDM ( Gaming )

Christopher Robin ( Winnie the pooh )

Kayleigh Smith/Wolfychu ( Artists & Animators )

Niko ( Oneshot )

Bonnie Anderson ( Toy story )

Blue pearl ( Steven universe )

Bastion ( overwatch )

Toxic morty ( Rick and Morty )

Baby groot ( MCU: The heroes )

Shirokuma ( Danganronpa )

The Hollow Knight ( Hollow Knight )

Pochacco ( Sanrio )

Po ( Teletubbies )

Frog ( Peppa pig )

My melody ( Onegia My Melody )

Maddie Flour ( Amphibia )

Marshmello ( Pop & Contemporary )

Pusheen ( Pusheen the cat )

The Iron giant ( 1999 )

The little prince ( 2015 )

Ivor ( Minecraft story mode )

Sherb ( Animal crossing )

Ravenpaw ( Warrior cats )

Andrew Tsyaston ( Artists & Animators )

Audrey ( Bendy and the dark revival )

Bendy ( Bendy and the dark revival )

Cuptoast ( Artists & Animators )

Owlbert ( The owl house )

Squid ink cookie ( cookie run )

Sarah ( Sarah's scribbles )

Depressed stereotype ( Gacha life )

Clumsy smurf ( Smurfs )

Penny ( Bolt )

The living tombstone ( Musicians )

Henry stein ( Bendy and the dark revival )

Tack ( The thief and the cobbler )

Lloyd Garmadon ( The Lego Movie )

Ghosts ( Among us )

Nightmare Fredbear ( Fnaf )

Piu Piu ( Molang )

Graphite Raven ( Teen Titans 2003 )

Squid ( Minecraft )

Antfrost ( Gaming )

Pichu ( Pokémon )

Pinga ( Pingu )

SCP-1471 "MalO ver1.0.0" ( SCP Foundation )

Shy imaginary older brother ( dhmis )

Katzun ( Artists & Animators )

Bonnet ( Fnaf )

Timid Raven ( Teen titans Go! 2013 )

Manatreed ( Gaming )

Arts and Crafters ( baldi's basics in education and learning )

Sophia ( stardew valley )

Jay ( The lego movie )

Jack Russell ( Bluey )

Shannon Gurr/Shgurr ( Artists & Animators )

Skittle ( Beluga's Discord Characters )

Alolan Vulpix ( Pokémon )

Clancee ( Ninjago: Masters of spinjitzu )

1 ( Numberjacks )

Softie stereotype ( Gacha Life )

Oz ( Monster Prom )

Kyle ( Animal Crossing )

Angmar ( the owl house )

SCP-2521 "••/•••••/••/•" ( SCP Foundation )

Cappuccino ( Sanrio )

Teddy ( Mr. Bean )

Winnie the pooh ( Christopher Robin )

White Puffle ( club penguin )

Chipflake ( Artists & Animators )

August "Auggie" Pullman ( Wonder )

Norton ( Spongebob SquarePants )

Meowstic - Male [Nyaonix] ( Pokémon )

Claire/Opal ( Jack stauber's OPAL )

Espurr ( Pokémon )

Whimsun ( Undertale )

Bryan Jacobsen ( Inside job )

Mincy ( OMORI )

Tails ( Sonic the hedgehog )

Panda ( Minecraft )

Jesus ( Family guy )

Grim Matchstick ( cuphead )

Clara Buhalmet ( Fran Bow )

Rococo ( OMORI )

Turniphead ( Howl's moving castle )

JAMIErighrmeow ( Artists & Animators )

Spifey ( Gaming )

Honeycute ( Sanrio )

Puddle Slime ( Slime Rancher )

Sarah ( Sarah and Duck )

Bebepine ( Artists & Animators )

Dream ( Heat Waves (Fanfiction))

Hummingmint ( Sanrio )

Shyren ( Undertale )

Calum Bowen "bo en" ( Electronic and Experimental )

Invader Skoodge ( Invader Zim )

Alfie ( Bluey )

Sad Larry ( Cyanide & Happiness )

Pure Vessel ( Hollow Knight )

Die ( Homestuck )

Po ( Slendytubbies )

Donald Duck ( Duck Tales )

Boggo ( The land of Boggs )

Withered Cupcake ( Fnaf )

Glare ( Minecraft )

The Diamond Minecraft "DanTDM" ( Minecraft Story Mode )

Kit ( Ratchet & Clank )

Rusty the Dalek ( Doctor Who )

Beau ( Helluva Boss )

Pat ( Later Alligator )

Melotune ( Sanrio )

Milkeemimi ( Sanrio )

Mr. Nobody ( Mr. Men )

Oldmin ( The Henry Stickman collection )

Axo ( Fortnite )

Doll ( Murder Drones )

Qbert ( Pixels )

Blue-Haired Girl ( OMORI )

Sharleen ( OMORI )

Costume Bob ( Sr Pelo )

Dana Cardinal ( Welcome to Night Vale )

Googuy ( The Henry Stickman Collection )

Yogurt ( Dream SMP )

Pain Demon ( Yandere Simulator )

Nyoko ( Sanrio )

Z ( Alphabet Lore )

Shmipper ( Gravity falls )

The Bin ( Don't hug me I'm scared )

Pooky ( Garfield )

Phoodu ( Gaming )

Callahan ( Gaming )

SOUL ( Deltarune )

Duncan ( Don't hug me I'm scared )

The Lost ( The binding of Isaac )

Nuetral Good ( 5x5 Alignment chart )

Emma ( Sanrio )

Tubbo ( Passerine ( Fanfic ))

Phantom Mangle ( Fnaf )

Voss ( Beastars )

Megan Holmes ( Sally Face )

Lucas Ryan ( Solitaire )

Can't let go ( Geometry dash )

Amaura ( Pokémon )

N ( Alphabet Lore )

Foxy ( Fnaf )

Polargeist ( Geometry Dash )

Henry Fisher ( Sally face )

Lost ones ( Bendy and the ink machine/dark revival )

Boris ( Bendy and the ink machine )

Idek why i did this-

[anewnewcrest]

From David Johnson's Simstagram

What a season! So many highs, so much change for our home church community that is not a home church anymore! After thirty years of faithful gatherings at my home every Sunday, we're now New Newcrest Church, with a wonderful church building and a thriving congregation of over 70 people! I couldn't be more humbled and honored to be chosen by the Watcher to pastor this flock for the next thirty years, and lead many more souls to the wonderful well that is the Watcher's love and grace!

(I got one good crowd picture out of the ordeal of making every single fucking sim pose and I WILL use it again, DAMMIT!)

[glampire-rockstar]

JOE ANOA'I - Roman Reigns/Joe Leakee

GALINA BECKER - Zoie Jordan/Sierra Moore

JONATHAN GOOD - Jon Moxley/Dean Ambrose

RENEE PAQUETTE - Faye Wayland/Renee Young

COLBY LOPEZ - Seth Rollins/Tyler Black

SARAH ALESANDRELLI - Kourtney Scott/Danielle Morono

FERGAL DEVITT - Finn Balor/Jonah Arsene

VERO RODRIGUEZ - Amy Grayson/Jane Sharp

DANIEL GILLIES - Gavin Powers/Travis Dawson

ASHLEY FLIEHR - Charlotte Flair/Ashley Diamond

IAN SOMERHALDER - Hayden Evans/Brendan Smith

SARAYA BEVIS - Saraya Calaway/Paige Knight

JOSEPH MORGAN - Elijah Gonzales/Hunter Prince

REBECCA QUIN - Becky Lynch/Rebecca Knox

PAUL WESLEY - Isiah Alister/Zakai Danger

APRIL MENDEZ - AJ Lee/Mey Zodiac

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I've found the best characters for my AEW/WWE Fan-Fiction stories, I got the main boys from the Vampire Diaries and the Originals, and got the three married wives and a former girlfriend turned friend.

We know that most of the wrestlers here will be faces or heels, but I want them as the baddest bosses while the good guys are gonna be portrayed as sixteen newcomers who's shorter.

I got Jordan "Dan" Sweeto, Kayleigh "Wolfy" Smyth | Wolfychu, Patrick "Patty" Walters, Dorothy "Dottie" Martin, Johnnie Guilbert, Alexandria "Alex" Dorame, James Tyler Hagen, Shannon "Shan" Taylor, Nathan "Nate" Owens, Leda "Monster Bunny" Muir, Damon "Dee" Fizzy, Carson Fanikos, Luke Jeydon Wale, Samantha "Sam" Rochelle, Kyle David Hall, and Meghan Marie Hogan for the OC portrayals cause I like people within the goth/punk/emo/scene style.

I figured that modern day of straight history meets attitude era for their bad influence; my sixteen OCs doesn't care for the rules and are the most rebellious people in WWE.

This takes place from SummerSlam 2012 for the Fallen Angels and their first victory in Night of Champions: Gold Rush; Survivor Series 2012 for the Shield and their first victory in TLC; Royal Rumble 2013 for the Dark Gods and their first victory in Elimination Chamber; WrestleMania 29 for the Resistance and their first victory in Extreme Rules; they're known as the Pack of Lone Wolves.

For each OC stable...their names are the following; the Unholy Circle for the girls, the Genesis for the girls, the Blood Order for the boys, and the Demolition for the boys; they're the Pride of Wild Lions.

Comment down on ring names for my OCs and follow me at Wattpad on GlampireRockstar...sayonara guys!

[callmeblake]

Transcription of Frank’s article in kerrang #1773 from May, 2019

from mixtapes and regrets.com

Frank Iero

There is no resolution. There is no meaning. There are no neat bows tying up errant strands or loose ends. Because real life rarely pans out how it does in movies.

Sometimes, all that’s left is a festering pit of anxiety in the stomach – gurgling, acidic and debilitating. Because if you’re brave enough to question the apparent entropy of the universe, be prepared to end up with anything but satisfactory answers. That’s where Frank Iero finds himself in 2019, still recovering from the fallout of the day that changed his life forever.

“Thanks for not making me cry and not treating this like a fucking Oprah [Winfrey] interview,” he says, gently chuckling as we get into the heart of a lengthy, often heavy and sprawling conversation. It’s the kind of laugh that belies a very real gratitude, or perhaps relief, at not being forced to yet again retell and relive the garish details and still-raw horrors of the road accident that he and his touring party were lucky to survive in Sydney, Australia on October 13, 2016. Two and a half years on from that brush with mortality, his physical convalescence may be complete, but the psychological and emotional scars endure.

“I think about it every day,” Frank confesses. “I still have nightmares about it. That moment, I will never forget – it’s still there. It’s not like an experience that shall-not-be-named, nor do I have to shy away from it, but there are certain elements of that day that I don’t know if I’ll ever be okay with. I just have to accept it and move on, but it’s like nothing’s been settled. That’s a horrific feeling.”

It’s a chilling insight into Frank’s state of mind as the release of his new album edges closer at the end of this month. Barriers will be his debut release on UNFD, and it’s also his first with new band The Future Violents, which sees him once again joined by long-time collaborator, fellow survivor and brother-in-law Evan Nestor on guitar, alongside former Murder By Death bassist Matt Armstrong, multi-instrumentalist Kayleigh Goldsworthy from Dave Hause And The Mermaid, and Thursday’s Tucker Rule on drums. On an album full of firsts, though, chief among them is that this is the first one written since that life-changing event. Understandably, there’s a lot of pain sewn into the seams of the songs – the kind a psychologist could have a field day pulling apart and analysing. Ask the man himself what he thinks a professional might make of the lyrics on Barriers, however, and he’s got little but exasperation left in the tank. At least, right now.

“I’m fucked if I know,” Frank shrugs, with a typically stoic, good-natured smile. “Every psychologist I go to, I don’t have a good relationship with them. We don’t get along, it’s weird. I remember as a teenager going to see a psychologist for the first time ever and he told me that I should think about doing acid. So I was like, ‘Well, I guess I have to, it’s doctor’s orders,’ but that’s probably not the best advice. It opens doors, but I don’t know if that’s the advice that I would give to my kids.

“Maybe I just haven’t found the right therapist yet,” he concedes, “but I seem to end up finding people who rub me up the wrong way and give me advice that I disagree with. As if I know better…”

Maybe in this instance, Frank Iero does know best. It’s clear from talking to him alone that he is still very much in the grip of the trauma that naturally comes as a result of a near-death experience, and he readily admits that is indeed the case. But it’s one thing knowing the theory and received wisdom of how to deal with such trauma, and yet another entirely being the person who is left to pick up the pieces in the aftermath; to put that theory into practice every day. It has, understandably, changed his whole outlook on the world.

“I know this probably stems from what I experienced, but I started thinking about how violent, and sudden, and abrupt life can be,” he explains. “Elements of this world, they aren’t always the prettiest things, and they’re not always the things that we expect. Living violently, for me, means to be active in living; it’s the action of causing a ripple in a stream. To live passively, to just be a passenger, to be someone who’s just kind of observing is a very… When I think about the world being the same place it was before and after me, that feels like a sad existence. I feel like there needs to be a change caused by every life, and change is inherently violent. So when I named the band, I thought of not just the people involved in making the music, but the people who are involved in listening to it and being affected by it as these elements or conduits for change – the ripple…”

Frank talks about the ripple effect a lot now. In that respect, Barriers is something of a first creative wave on his part – the thinking being that its very existence might encourage and inspire change elsewhere, in ways which are as yet unforeseen, even to him. That comes with a lot of pressure, self-imposed or otherwise. Not that he felt that he had any choice in the matter, regardless.

“I knew what I wanted to talk about on Barriers, I just didn’t know how to say it at first,” Frank admits of the imposing challenge he faced going into the album in earnest last March. “I felt like the things that I needed to get out on this record were so enormous that every time I wrote something down, I was like, ‘That’s just not good enough, it doesn’t cut through to the heart of it.’ Sometimes you try to be too clever and it ends up blurring the magnitude of what’s being said. So it took a while. And I’m glad that it did. There are songs on this record that I’ve wanted to write for years and years and years.”

Frank Iero has been ruminating on a theory of late. It’s one that’s as disconcerting as it is complicated, but in the aftermath of the confusion and existential reflection caused by surviving a near-death experience, he’s often wondered if he’s really here at all. Imagine for a second – as he finds himself doing a lot these days – that he didn’t actually make it that day. Or perhaps that he was supposed to meet his end in the accident, and yet he somehow avoided that fate – that he’s cheated death, Final Destination-style. It sounds like classic survivor’s guilt – when a person who has experienced something tragic or catastrophic subsequently feels so unworthy that they believe they should no longer be alive – although he insists it’s something much more than that. These are the kinds of complex questions currently swirling around inside Frank’s head – an illustrative example of just how profound an effect the events of October 13, 2016 have had on him.

“There are a lot of elements of it that are really fucking weird,” he gasps, holding his hands up as if acutely aware of how ‘out there’ he sounds as he tries to explain his frame of mind. “You start to feel almost like, ‘What if that was your path and you were cheated out of it?’ And yeah, you’re happy to be alive, but at the same time this trajectory that you could have possibly been on, maybe that was your time? So, why are you here? Is there something you’re supposed to do? What if you’re not supposed to be here, and you’re just fucking everything up?”

He takes the edge off the weight of that grim thought by adding in a touch of gallows humour – something he does a lot nowadays – by suggesting that maybe it’s his fault the current president is such an abject failure, as if somehow his own survival that day has had the knock-on, chaos theory-like butterfly effect of creating that disastrous ripple in the wider scheme of things.

“I don’t know if it gets any easier with time,” he frowns, considering the possibility that this eternal questioning of everything may be his reality now. “This [event] has absolutely, 100 per cent changed my life. When you watch movies and people have these kinds of experiences, they’re usually like, ‘Oh, but now I feel great about it, because I could have died and everything’s awesome.’ I mean, I’d like to think that. So you’re left wondering, ‘Why don’t I feel like that?’”

It doesn’t help that he’s since had to return to Australia for a doctor’s appointment, bringing the ordeal back to the forefront of his mind – a “really fucked-up experience” which resulted in a week-long panic attack from the moment he stepped off the plane. But while he says that everyone involved in the crash is doing much better now and they chat about it occasionally, they all have days where it’s still as frightening as it is difficult. It’s a struggle captured ultra-poignantly on the song Six Feet Down Under. ‘There’s a part of me that’s not sure if I’m here / Yeah, there’s a definite part of me that don’t believe in the now / And that’s just the start of it, ‘cause I ain’t convinced you’re all real’ Frank sings, laying out the full extent to which he is wrestling with the weight of what’s happened to him and trying to make some sense of why.

“Not to get all weird and metaphysical,” he begins by way of a jocular disclaimer, before indulging those very tendencies, “but like, is it possible that there’s these crossroads or branch-off moments where things could have gone one of two ways? And maybe there are different planes of existence where we didn’t make it. And this one where we did. And am I currently living in that one? I don’t know. Even in my therapy sessions, no-one can really answer all the questions that I have. Did I actually come out the other end? Am I still alive? Or is this all just a weird figment of my imagination? No-one can truthfully answer that question, or tell you that this is real.”

It puts into stark focus the scale of the task Frank Iero faced in writing Barriers. It makes you wonder how he managed to get through it at all, when his mind was plagued with demons and dilemmas much bigger than the average human being ever faces, let alone an artist trying to express such thoughts and feelings creatively.

“I came to a resignation,” he explains of the process of rebuilding himself from those depths. “Whether I believe it or I don’t, or I question it or not, I’m here, and I have to live in the world that I perceive to be the real world. You can’t just be like, ‘Oh well, this isn’t real. So, I’m gonna just start fucking going off, snorting rails and betting the house, because it doesn’t matter.’

“You have to accept this life and I’m thankful for this life, because I have my wife and my kids and my family,” he continues, gripping on to the only tangible sources of comfort and reassurance he can muster. “I’m making music that I really enjoy and I’m very lucky. If this is a figment of my imagination and I wake up at some point, I’m going to be so bummed.  I listen to this record and I go, ‘Wow!’ but I think, ‘Well, this is the kind of record I could only make if I was actually dead and I did it all in my imagination!’ That’s where I’m at right now.”

Admittedly, where Frank Iero is at right now seems like a place of tremendous pain and darkness, but in the process of rebirth and finding himself again via Barriers, he’s happened upon a path that may yet be marked ‘enlightenment’, ‘peace’ or at the very least offer some form of contentment.

Incredible as it is to think, given all that has come before, this is the most personal set of songs that Frank Iero has ever been involved in. It will also, he claims, be his last album. But then again, he says that every time he makes a new one. This time, however, he has good reason to believe in his own fatalism, given the close-call nature of the cards life has dealt him in recent years. It’s why a record he believed would be his last one needed to be filled with firsts. After all, if there’s a possibility that you’re not going to ever get to do this again, why not give it everything you’ve got left, right? That’s why he’s stepped outside of his comfort zones in ways he could scarcely have imagined before now. That’s why his face appears on the cover artwork for the first time ever. That’s why a lot of the stuff that’s made the final cut are actually first takes (“Shit’s unforgiving, so you better be on”). That’s why Frank has written in a much more direct and personal way than he has ever done. And it scares the crap out of him.

“There are a lot of things on this album that, oh man, they just freak the fuck out of me,” he admits with a nervous grin, bearing in mind the imminent prospect of sending it out into the wider world. “On the first record [2014’s frnkiero andthe cellabration’s Stomachaches] I feel like you can hear a lot of me trying to hide behind stuff. I don’t fault myself for that, because it was right for that time, plus I don’t think I really knew that the record was ever going to come out. I made it to put in my drawer and maybe play it for my kids one day. I swear I never expected to be doing this. You can probably listen to that record and tell, ‘This person doesn’t think anyone’s going to hear this music!’

“This time, there’s stuff about my relationship with my parents, and my mom especially,” he says of this new, open and more transparent version of himself. “That stuff’s been touched on before, but this was a pretty raw time to do it. Each song is about a moment in time, where there was either a wall being built up or broken down.”

Hence the record’s titular thread and theme. It’s a sentiment echoed in the words of the artwork’s inscription, too. For that, Frank enlisted his father’s handwriting. It reads: ‘Everything from nothing, with nothing to prove, destroy the walls they built around your heart, keep the faith’ underneath the ever-significant and recurring digits 1-3-1.

“They’re an important grouping of numbers for me – one and one being my wife and I, and the three in the middle being my kids. But also, when I first started playing guitar, my friend John had this Telecaster that he had 13 inscribed on, which he gave to me and I used it a lot. So when I made my own guitar, the Phant-o-matic, I put a 13 on it and then when My Chem ended I started this new chapter, so I reversed the numbers to 31. It’s also my birthday [October 31]. So these numbers keep coming into my life.”

The breakthrough moment apparently came with the fittingly-titled, Stax-like soul of A New Day’s Coming, which opens the record and acts as a vessel for “wiping the slate clean and starting anew”. Ironically, it’s a song that he’s been trying to nail for years – existing in nascent form first as a lullaby that he used to sing to his children, and later as a demo that he’d challenge anyone to recognise now.

“Sometimes I feel like songs are like relationships,” he begins, explaining the extended gestation period for that one. “You meet people along the way and you’re like, ‘Oh wow, this could be really great. But we’re not at the right time in our lives for each other.’ They’re all like little love affairs. New Day… is like saying, ‘Forget everything you know, let’s start from here,’ which works in your own personal life, but also in your sitting down to digest the record.

“That really captures what I’m trying to get across with the name of the record, too,” he adds. “We’re so concerned with protecting ourselves that we build up these obstacles and these barriers that we think are going to keep us safe, but they end up holding us in, stopping us from experiencing new things, and we miss out on so much. So there’s that duality to it.”

Duality is key to a lot of what Frank has committed to record on Barriers. In pouring his soul out on these songs, he’s had to expose parts of himself that even he feels uncomfortable with. It’s a cleansing of sorts; expelling all that he’s had bottled up inside and exploding into full view for the first time – a kind of recorded caterpillar metamorphosing into a butterfly.

“You have to remain hopeful, to wipe the slate clean and start anew,” he reflects on the process. “Because not every day is going to be great. Some days are gonna fucking suck, but you have to get back up, brush it off and fucking try again. You have to. Quitting is not an option. There are so many things in this world that are designed to bring us down, that’ll make us bleed and hurt. We don’t need to be an extra thing on top of it all.”

Despite all of the evidence to the contrary in the world around us, Frank can, however, see a distant silver lining in the clouds above.

“I do feel like, as far as times are concerned, it’s cyclical,” he offers by way of a hopeful parting message. “There is going to be a rain to wash this all away. Not to say that we need to take a passive backseat to it – we need to be violent and active in doing things to create that change – but we can’t just say, ‘Oh, everything’s fucked, it’s over. Burn it down.’ We have to turn the hose on and wash the scum off the streets.”

And that lack of resolution gnawing at the back of his mind all this time? All part of life’s great mystery. That’s as much as he’s got for now, and maybe that’s just fine.

“Sometimes you just end up with more questions in life,” Frank admits, wryly. “I like that dialogue of ‘what if?’ That search is not about finding answers. That searching and asking those questions? That’s the growth. It’s like life – we don’t know why we’re here, but all we can do is keep asking questions…”

(See my posts about his article, including the posters, here)