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anaalnathrakhs · 2 months

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mental health facilities looooove to only have inpatient available when it would make things worse

#''you have to be proactive and search for treatement'' I DID #I SHOWED UP A MONTH AGO AND ASKED TO BE HOSPITALIZED #DONT TELL ME NOW ''ooh the only thing we can propose is hospitalization why are you here''#IT'S MY LAST RESORT OKAY #everything else is blocked off #i have no idea what i'm supposed to do #i absolutely do not trust any of your sections to handle eating disorders in a way that's adapted to my case #this system is fucking hostile to anybody who doesn't have the exact same priorities than the official ones #or who has slightly unusual problems #or who doesn't want to sacrifice all happiness to appear healthy #jesus fucking christ #i'm gonna do it. i'm gonna try to get an appointment for the fucking. psychological center or whatnot they gave me #im gonna try to get back in contact with the hospital nutritionist #but my question is fucking: what for #the plan is like: complete this program of painful things for this goal you don't want and then you're allowed back into human life #okay sorry i can't live without hurting literally everybody around me have you considered euthanasia instead perhaps #i'm not interested in achieving your goals #i just want to be okay and live an okay life just let me go back to school #post cancelled actually i just remembered again the problem is me #the problem is me the problem is me and as long as i live i will be me with me #broadcasting my misery #vent

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kicktwine · 6 months

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oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

#say one thing wrong to me and you will have a wonderful few days with the rock #if angry silly girls have 100 fans etc if they have 0 fans i have died #sorry i saw a YouTube meme i vehemently disliked on principle and got mad at the only child behavior-#kipspeak #she is just short tempered and uses anger to mask other more ‘shameful’ emotions!!! alphy did the same thing with just deciding not #to express them. which is still not good and I think why he breaks and ends up teary so often now #this shortness does not translate to actually being mean to people. she only uses being mean as a shield for herself and being snarky #Is just fun for her. it’s fun for Me. you have to inconsequentually tease people or they’ll never learn to laugh at themselves #the twins and thancred 🫵 do this thing where they have big emotions but they don’t want anyone to SEE they have big weird emotions #so alphy pretends he doesn’t have them under a veneer of dignity and alisaie pretends the emotions are Something Else. thancred is #just so emotionally constipated he has trouble expressing anything. he’s got enough baggage for a flatbed #anyways. alisaie is such a compassionate and kind girl and she learned how to make snarky jokes and went ham. and she hates appearing sad o #weak or vulnerable so she blocks it off with an unapproachable emotion so no one pities her and they maybe get on with the plot #it is in fact also great at getting ppl to move away from the sad or embarrassing topic. even if the tradeoff is being more offputting #she would never (grabs youtube meme) she would never seriously bully her brother. this is sibling ribbing only. Cain instinct #just leave her be she is learning how to snark humor and she loves it she loves being sharp. alphy has wit he just keeps it close #my brother didn’t learn how to tell or receive a joke until he was 14 he took everything so seriously. he can do it now though and he’s #HILARIOUS. Don’t tell him I said that. my man knows exactly where the funny points are even if he hasn’t learned when to stop yet #too many tags. Whatever. jokey snark alisaie who sometimes compliments is happy alisaie grouchy snappy angry alisaie is way too stressed #very easy way to tell between the two. even alphy can tell between the two I believe! He tends to rib back in protest if they’re having fun #and try to stop her if they’re not having fun. case in point ‘what is that supposed to mean?!’ vs ‘alisaie ryne was only trying to help.’#I know they’re twins but that’s such an intensely older sibling thing to do that it reels me #LONG TAGS AND THREE EDITS TO ADD ON SHORT I resent this stereotype taken too far into ooc behavior. it happened with nya #It will happen again and as a postscript let me regale you with Things U Can Notice About Character Motivation and Actions—#I’m not done let me s #she and raha are friends now I decree. ‘haha you like me’ SPUTTERING PROTEST FROM BOTH

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rattkachuk · 12 days

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poor you having anxiety attacks because people don't like the way you're fetishing Matthew's best friend getting possibly concussed as a way to fulfill your fantasy of him and that trash dude he hates fucking

lmao ok i'll publish this since u want the attention, but next time come off anon so i can block you <3

#or just block me? literally why take the time out of your day to be rude af #fuck off #not that i have to justify myself to YOU #but the anxiety is nothing to do with shipping actually??#i watch hockey cause i think the sport is fun above everything else #and usually i have a good time on hockeyblr #but the vibes are not it rn for me #its just not a fun enviroment?? to be in???#and i already just generally wasnt having a good time so excuse me for distancing myself from negative shit #wowww #first direct terrible hockey fandom experience #surprised its taken this long tbh lmao #turning off asks now !!#also i've said like nothing about this series? how tf do u know what i think about anything??

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gootube · 5 months

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opened a small shop on my ko-fi to sell $5 prints of these linoleum block stamps i carved :3

i'm willing to ship internationally as well!

#i havent heard back from the job i applied to and got interviewed for. here are my wares for you to peruse (eye twitching)#it took me forever to do this idk why. i was putting off getting the measurements of the paper haha #traditional #linoleum print #block printing #fish #centipedes #baby cats very cute #centipede was my first one (at least in a while) if u cant tell lol #looking for ways to improve it ngl #the eggs at least #trying to find more ways 2 get funds while balancing everything else. this is simple and fun! (i love block printing and making packages)

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comfortcomes · 10 days

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i’m depressed☹️

#i feel like i’m putting so much effort and dependence on this thing thatll never work out #like i dont even have any objective way of knowing if im any good at it really? and i kinda blocked off the avenues where i could get that #so now im just like idk floating around #idk now that writing bestie is going to grad school it feels like i’m stupid for not doing that or something cuz everything else i try isnt #working out #and theres other things that add insult to injury #idk :/

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arctic-hands · 1 year

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The subject came up today and I can't decide so I'm throwing it out there because I don't give a fuck and also having survived all of this kinda makes me sound like a badass

#my life sounds exciting here but between the exciting parts it's really quite boring #ages:#8. 9. 10? 16. 17. 18. 21 I think. 23. 27. still living #near death experience #also it may have been category one but Wikipedia described Isaias as devastating so there #i want to say it was the dogs because even as scary as the too-close tornado was I really felt like I was staring down death that moment #but also is that fair in the face of everything else I've survived?#fuck it why not set it for a week I'm curious about what other people think of my life #also that tornado was less than a block away but mostly stayed in the soy field. ripped off some of the roofing of the house tho #it was either EF0 or EF1 I forget but obvs I didn't know that while hunkering down #turns out tornadoes really DO sound like trains and the air gets a bit thin #or maybe I was just panicking lol #also when my heart nearly stopped I was forced to watch while unable to speak as they readied the shock paddles which. uh. wow #luckily (?) my heart shot back up to two hundred plus beats per minute #but I lived bitches. thru everything #mecore #i don't feel awkward asking about this bc I'm p sure I've talked about all of these at various points here

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theclosetedskeleton · 5 months

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THINKING ABOUT HOW AT SCHOOL SOME BORDERLINE ONE OF THOSE “🥶🥶🔥🔥💯💯” KIDS IN MY CLASS SAID HE LIKES MY OUTFITS???? HELLO

#like erm WHO ARE YOU #but thanks ig 💯 he said he also liked my doc martens (even though i havent worn them in like a while. ig he noticed them someday)#idk me when i forget that other people fucking perceive me #esp the people my age at my school #and that they can have opinions over me and everything. ewwwww #only saying thyat because i HATEEEE HOW i act at school #like i just. shut down??#i basically just go on autopilot and (as 🖤⛓️🥀 as this sounds idk how else to describe it) block off a LOT of my expressions #i just look like the 😐😕 emoji ALLL DAY #and barely say anything 🔥🔥 so (AGAIN as 🖤🥀⛓️ as this sounds) you get used to people like NOT perceiving and noticing you after years of it #so THAT was a first #the whole compliment thing #i have no idea what truth there was to that but you know #might as well somewhat believe the compliment even if he was lying #closet rambles again on tumblr

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captainshadowshifter · 4 months

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Today apparently I will be fuelled by pure rage. Noted.

#so. so you remember a while ago there was that person who was using a bunch of ppls art for...#lets say. inappropriate. stuff without permission?#WELL. they found the (granted now kinda abandoned) vex ask blog i used to do #and sent in some. very not pg asks #which is like. its in the fuckin bio? no nsfw??? fuck off?????#anyway i vaguely recognised the name and couldnt quite place it so i went to go on the blog that asked it (the name had been changed a bit)#'this user is blocked' ... ok? so i view anyway bc im like oh why did i block u (no recollection im v stupid)... yeah.#they still dont seem to have learned to credit or ask permission AND THEYRE STILL USING SOME OF MY OLDER STUFF #and all the nasty shit using both corruption vex AND also oc shadow (!!! that wasnt there before) as well as everyone elses stuff #its still there.#so that on top of everything else this weekend? ayo. not it. ive been existing in a state of constant rage since friday

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cassiiia · 1 month

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AP Psychology notes + Resources and stuff

notes + flashcards that I used 2 study (not all my resources, found online)

Notes

Summary of every unit (16 pages)

A longer summary of every unit (53 pages)

Knowt AP Psych Guide

Doc for Notes

Unit 1 Notes - Intro to Psychology

Unit 2 Notes - Biological Psychology

Consciousness/Drugs Notes

Unit 3 Notes - Sensation/Perception

Unit 4 Notes - Learning

Unit 5 Notes - Cognitive

Intelligence Notes

Unit 6 - Developmental Psychology

Unit 7 - Motivation/Emotion/Stress

Personality Notes

Unit 8 - Disorders

Clinical Treatment Notes

Unit 9 - Social Psychology Notes

Flashcards

Quizlets

Important People

Domains of Psychology

Terms

Experiments

Knowt

AP Psychology Ultimate Guide

AMSCO AP Psych Chapters

Ch. 1 - Intro to Psychology

Ch. 2 - Research Methods

Ch. 3 - Statistics

Ch. 4 - Understanding the Brain: Its Structures and Functions

Ch. 5 - Neurons, Neural Communication, and Behavioral Genetics

Ch. 7 - Perception

Ch. 13 - Motivation

Ch. 15 - Infancy and Childhood

Ch. 16 - Adolescence and Adulthood

Ch. 17 - Personality Theories, Approaches, and Assessment

Ch. 20 + 21 - Abnormal Behavior

Ch. 22 + 23 - Treatment of Abnormal Behavior

Ch. 24 + 25 - Social Psychology

Websites

Fiveable Study Guides for each unit

Youtube - Tim Steadman

Youtube - The School of Ireland

Youtube - Crash Course Playlist - Psychology Playlist

Youtube - Mandy Rice

Youtube - College Board - AP Psychology Playlist

Youtube - Social Science Simplified

AP Psychology Reddit

Other Tumblr blogs with more resources!

@ap-psych-ology

@nuroscience

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phantom-does-a-thing · 2 months

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It’s almost worse knowing they hurt me unintentionally because I don’t have any right to hate them. It was an accident, they didn’t know, but still I have breakdowns at the mention of them and they don’t even know.

#I haven’t talked to them in months #and by god I don’t want to talk to them again #because it hurts So Bad #and I’m not even in the right to hate them bc they didn’t do it on purpose #I’d rather them do it on purpose because then I could hate them #because I’m angry and upset and I had a panic attack last night about it #this person who probably doesn’t even think about me for a second #and they’re constantly in my mind making me feel like crap #that’s not fair #I hope my name is never in their thoughts again and I hope they always wonder why I stopped talking to them #I wanted closure before but it’s too late for that because it’s been long enough that #wtf would I even say?#you hurt me. you abandoned me? but I’m the one that stopped talking #it felt like you abandoned me and I didn’t have the energy to keep up a one sided talk #when I know there were people who would talk to me #I know you’re busy. but at least something would be nice #I’m needy. and clingy. and I KNOW that #but still. it hurts because it’s like everything I always get left behind and they’re the PRIME example of that #I don’t even know why they hurt me so bad #maybe it was because it was someone I trusted completely #someone that I was closest to above all else above everyone else #I trusted them. I loved them. we talked about getting to meet up one day #but I hope that when they come up here I am Long Gone and they never think of me again #I trusted them enough they knew my state. I trusted them with parts of myself I barely trusted anyone else with #and the absence hurt like hell #and there wasn’t even one big event to break it off #just a slow deterioration in anxiety and stress that sometimes bubbled up in a message #but I always kneecapped the conversation because never was a good time to have it #and then just no more messages #I should block them. but I don’t want to ruin all the messages we had

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knifesxedge · 9 days

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i’m going to kill myself

#delete later #why are people so mean. why is everything in the entire world so fucking hard.#work all fucking day eat my dinner in five minutes while driving to try and get to this fancy event my parents friends are throwing #meanwhile my parents and sisters are eating out at a fancy restaurant that i can’t go to with them because i have to work #and anytime i try to call to figure out where the fuck i’m going i either get ignored or dad picks up in the world’s loudest #restaurant environment and tells me to just call him when i get to stupid pike and rose #i get there. i call dad. he’s like why did you call me in this condescending ass tone like he didn’t tell me to call him when i get there #i say i’m going to park. i drive around the parking lot for twenty five minutes and every time i almost get a spot someone else takes it #then my dad calls me and of course my ringtone goes off screechingly loud and i’m crying because finding parking is so hard and some lady is #telling me through my window that i’m blocking the way for other people and i literally can’t take it anymore and snap like a twig #and scream WHAT? when i pick up the phone because i know dad is asking where the hell i am and i cannot deal right now #and dad starts screaming back at me and tells me i’m a bitch and not to talk to people like that and that he won’t be helping me anymore #with my brand new apartment that is a money vacuum if i talk to people that way and then hangs up on me #so now i’m. not going to the event because i can’t get in and no one wants me there.#and i dressed up and sped over from work and wasted gas all for nothing and i don’t want to be alone right now because otherwise i probably #will actually kill myself but none of my friends are picking up and i can’t reach my one friend to see if she wants to watch movies together #or something #and i’ve been sobbing in my car for about a half an hour. i just want to go home #but if i do i’ll probably kill myself. for real. so i don’t know what to do #i just want a hug. but nobody can give me one #i’m so so lonely living by myself but i don’t want to live with anyone other than my family #but they kicked me out of the house.#i’m not coping well with life at this point i guess. maybe i should just kill myself. it would be cheaper

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shearah · 11 days

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u kno what really sucks

when self proclaimed toxic friend (friend A) catches wind of a conversation you had with another person (friend B). in which B says A is "kinda toxic".

A then comes to you upset about it. and asks why you didn't defend them.

there's no kind way to say "bc they right"

#girl you have literally been BLOCKED by FRIENDS for toxic behaviour #we have told you TO YOUR FACE to stop doing toxic shit and you just keep going because you think it's funny #“I know I joke about being toxic all the time but it's not like it's true!”#it literally is you may not be toxic to your friends but we see what you do/say to/about randos??#she's the kind of person to teabag people in pvp and start arguments in df #but I know I can't say she IS toxic because she'll just brush it off like everything else I say to her :)#“I can't believe you'd talk about that to group B instead of coming to me :(”#I d i d #and you brushed me off saying “noooo it's not like that!!!! they're super nice I promise!!!!! they didn't mean it!!!!!”#I like to talk to group B about this shit because they actually validate my feelings instead of just telling me what I think is wrong #if it's not how she sees it doesn't count #I may be autistic as fuck but even I know things aren't black and white. everyone is going to see a situation from a different perspective #you can disagree with the perspective you're being told and still be sympathetic/work towards a solution

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peri · 1 year

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the urge to contact everyone youve ever cut off is so strong all the time 24/7

#log date.txt #ive been really sad about the people who arent in my life anymore recently #specifically the ones i cut off #i mean i guess i just never stopped being sad about them?#the last time i spoke to the most recent one i cut off was in like early 2021 #and i forced myself to be and act detached in the moment #but as soon as i blocked them i sobbed #luckily theres One (1) thing they said thats stopping me from contacting them again #and its stupid and very bpd of me to feel the way i do about that small thing they said #but i mean it keeps me from contacting them so.. whatever works #i just wish i could have them back in my life without ..... without everything else #i miss when things didnt get so complicated between us

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youremyonlyhope · 2 months

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why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much.#but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this.#and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not.#and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine.#but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad.#because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that.#but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent.#and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried.#and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over.#i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.

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icewindandboringhorror · 10 months

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... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#why the next poll adventure and everything else has taken so long lol.. I straight up have just not done anything #the past few days... staring down my todo list and sweating hopelessly #AT LEAST it;s relatively low humidity. the highest it's been up to is maybe 65%. but is usually around 50 or 40ish #There is one small window air conditioner in a roomate's room that can KIND OF be shared by nailing a sheet up to block off the hallway #with the rooms in it so the cool air goes into the other bedrooms but doesnt flow out into the kitchen or etc but #wjhen it's the time of day that the sun is directly hitting the window & it's like 102F outside even that doesnt help much. to cool 3 rooms #and I always feel like we're going to explode the air conditioner or something running it too much with direct heat on it. sometimes it #smells like hot plastic or whatever ghj.. so it's mostly just.. block off all windows with 5 layers of blankets and cardboard #starting at 10am (meaning.. no indoor light for days basically.. no natural lighting.. time passes weird. hard to determine time of day).#throw water on the bed every night so you sleep in wet sheets and keep your clothes and hair wet at all times. ice. cold drinks. keep a #little fan running pointed directly at you nearly 24/7 even when sleeping with a fan blowing air on you makes your eyes and throat painfull #dry. etc. etc.. and i KNOW people have it worse in plenty of places blah blah. i am just complaining on my little blog that is about me lol #I think the biggest thing about lack of adequate/central air conditioning for me is just the LACK of productivity!!! I am working on games!#and novels!! and so many other crafts. costumes! sculptures!!! things I want to do!!! we all have a limited amount of time on this planet a #nd I have so many goals!! To lose basically 4-5 days straight or producivity - when if I had been able to temperature #control my environment better I could have easily gotten more done because I wouldn't be laying around nuseous and too hot #and sick to do anything all day etc. -- is like.... GRRRRRR... it just feels so senseless.. i could have USEd that time...#Every CEO who has contributed to global warming owes me 1million doallrs to fund my art projects and make up for all the time #I've lost on them due to their stupid bullshit.. also they should be stoned to death in a public square. but redistribute the money FIRST #to everyone on the planet. but especially people who have been affected by floods. fires. etc. etc.#poor people who have limited choice in housing and access to air conditioning. homeless people in cooling centers. people with disabillitie #and health issues that are worse in the heat so the entire future just seems increasingly terrifying for them. etc. etc.#ANYWAY.... eughhhgh.... It can cool down SLIGHTLY at night but the past few nights I have been sleeping in an 81 degree room and I wake up #and first thing in the morning its like 82 by then and I'm so nauseous and nasty feeling... just so so tired of it.. I NEED SNOW #literally not even joking.. snow would heal me. .. oughffff...#AND i got the new nasty stinky poo poo pee pee tumblr dashboard update lol.. e v i l

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risingsunresistance · 1 year

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cant do it anymore sorry, unfollowed literally everyone except for a very VERY small handful of blogs, mostly ppl i know irl or im very close to like on priv or something. i will still post but it's Just Me jfhdk there's probably not gonna be any new art reblogs or anything... just reminiscing on old stuff, i cant deal with the new stuff anymore

i did keep all the smplive blogs in my following tho on the off chance someone decides to come crawling back lmao

#chat #i also kept one (1) buddy who i've been following for way too long #i dont even know your name but you're such an integral part of the dash for me #so you might get art from them if it comes across my dash. assuming i dont cave and unfollow them too #ugh everything is just. too much. i get way too mad way too easily. i HAVE to step back #this is officially the skyblock and the rambling zone. there's nothing left. sorry ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#hey watch this *throws away my chances at keeping any friends here*#i do recognize that im the problem. no one is doing anything WRONG necessarily #the littlest things just keep ticking me off. even if it's ccs i dont watch or anything #like i know the issues is ME and MY discomforts. not anyone else really. but it makes me wanna block everyone kjfgdh it's so bad #getting mad at them for still being able to have fun amidst all this. very normal 👍#hhhhhh #grief cw #??#idk man

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