#except the math stuff

[bettsfic]

so i recently finished reading a book called Fragments which is a collection of Marilyn Monroe's correspondence and journal entries, lovingly curated and transcribed.

this is from a section (a whole section!) called "kitchen notes." this note in particular is a shopping list (see: "buy"s on the left). and i thought, my god, how awful would it be for someone to publish your scratch notes? for biographers years after your death to interpret and contextualize things you didn't even remember writing down?

anyway i was clearing off my desk just now and found this scratch pad:

here we have:

a list of structural craft concepts (top)

a relatively normal to do list

the equation 20x50=1000, then the unsolved equation 1000/5

a list of tom hardy films and their respective streaming services (middle), during which i apparently discover that the second venom film was not made by disney

another to do list, this one titled "could do" with the advisement to "eat something"

a list of furry conventions and their locations (right)

a list of tags (presumably) including sub drop, suicidal ideation, come eating, mild daddy kink, and degradation (left)

i'll probably never do anything noteworthy enough to be written about, but if i do—good luck, future biographers

[anghraine]

About a month ago, I found copies of Morgoth's Ring and The War of the Jewels in a local used bookstore after many years of looking for used editions, and immediately snatched them up to go with the copy of Peoples of Middle-earth and the LOTR drafts I've had for years.

I don't have The Fall of Gondolin, but even so, I was kind of fascinated by the different variants of the story Tolkien was coming up with until very late in his life. Christopher Tolkien could pretty authoritatively date some of the revisions to the 70s based on the typewriter his father was using, and iirc it was the last First Age material (JRR) Tolkien worked on, and he seemed to really think he could get it done after not touching it for 20 years.

But between the different texts that I do have, there are so many different versions and ideas for the Maeglin backstory that it's pretty wild.

Eöl was captured by Morgoth at some point and his skills made him useful enough in Angband that he got some limited privileges among the slaves and prisoners there, and also he learned some of his craftmanship because he was there. He either escaped because of this or """escaped""" (unconsciously a tool of Morgoth still). JRRT really liked this idea on a narrative level but rejected it for being too similar to Maeglin's own story.

Eöl was a Sindarin relative of Thingol's but had always been a hater in general, and left Doriath out of some mixture of personal antagonism and not wanting to be limited by the Girdle of Melian. His incredible craftmanship had nothing to do with Angband; he advanced his skills through his friendship with the dwarves.

Or maybe he was never one of the people of Doriath, actually, but akin in a looser sense of the broader Sindarin kinship group. He was, incidentally, wrong about the Noldor stealing Sindarin lands; the Sindar weren't occupying those particular lands in the first place.

Eöl was actually a Noldo who refused the final step of the journey and trapped/misled a young Aredhel before the Noldor ever even got to the Undying Lands (thus denying her the sight of the Two Trees). The Valinorean Noldor look down on him for being personally a loser, but there's no racial subtext to it.

Separately from any of this, Tolkien keeps confusing the exact generations that the Nolofinweans and Fëanorians belong to, so there's a draft where Aredhel is accidentally moved up a generation and Eöl regards Curufin and Celegorm as his shitty nephews.

JRRT wrote a whole passage about Curufin's motives in his interactions with Eöl, what he knew or guessed at what point about just who Eöl's mysterious wife was, and the importance of showing the better side of Curufin's character (given how awful he usually is, esp in Beren and Lúthien's story) in his relationship to Aredhel and his distaste for Eöl, even if he remains arrogant. Although Curufin unfortunately doesn't choose murder on that specific occasion, his annoyance with Eöl does cause significant delay that buys some time for Aredhel and Maeglin's escape.

There's more, but those are things I found interesting!

[unnonexistence]

one of my friends is a biologist & i was really amused hearing some of her stories yesterday because they put into context just how believable newt's kaiju drift is as Shit A Biologist Would Do. like my friend has personally met both a guy who got infected with a botfly larva and didn't do anything to remove it (because he just didn't mind), and another guy who identified a tapeworm species by intentionally exposing himself to it (he had it narrowed down to 2 species and needed to know if it was the one that would infect humans) (it was)

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

studying Philosophy is really like

you think this is going to help you understand the world and your place in it better,

but actually all it does is confuse and befuddle you farther than ever before

and also you make friends with the most annoying (read: great, smart, lovely, kind, but argumentative as ALL GET OUT) people in the world and then you realize you've BECOME one of those people and you kind of want to just curl up in a nice quiet little hole in the ground with all your books and read and think until a complete and total understanding of the world falls out of your noggin and everything makes sense; but actually you just want to take a walk in the woods with a friend and not think about anything for at least a year.

[comas-are-for-sleeping]

WHAT THE FUCK IM SEEING MCR FOR THE SECOND TIME I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT IT WOULD HAPPEN A SINGLE TIME

[grayscale-blep]

looks like Frisk took a wrong turn

Would it be called ProdigyTale or UnderMath? Eh, who knows, but this was fun- might include some other characters later as well

[project-catgirlpillar]

very important psa

[transgenderer]

good enough at computers that "computer toucher" is kind of my job, bad enough at computers that im mostly just blindly following tutorials like a dumbass

[the-star-and-the-smols]

Being a g/t person and watching g/t episodes of cartoons is a wild experience because either the sizes of the characters will be visibly SUPER inconsistent or there will be a line where they're like "he's a hundred feet tall!" When I have to come in and yell at the screen with my dork analysis like " 🤓☝️uhm achshoeally. If you compare the size of his hand to the size of the average person it would be more like fifty because-" and blah blah blah and then that's when I start to do math

[watery-melon-baller]

lads it's so fucking frustrating when you desperately want to learn and understand something but u just can't fucking get ir

[primrosebitch]

I wish I could believe in like anything supernatural or like witchcraft or the greek gods because it's so interesting and fascinating and cool but my brain is very like scientific(?) in that without real evidence i can't believe anything like that, evidence as in i personally see or experience it not like hard evidence that like scientifically proves it exists, i just need to see it for myself.

I was also raised catholic and idk if i ever believed in god, like it's hard to remember how i felt about god when i was in elementary school because of how long it's been but from what i can remember i think i kinda just went along with it and didn't really think to hard about if god exists but i also remember that i never really believed that praying would do anything and i never really took being religious or god too seriously so i think that although i never really thought about it back then i didn't really ever truly believe in god

[strawberrydykke]

i hate writing emails ):

[rei-does-stuff]

I have exams next week so you know what that means! Me having 20 breakdowns and crying in class from stress!

[unhonestlymirror]

...I didn't know that South Slavic are Balkans minus (Romania + Moldova)

[mauxanhduong]

they should invent an anxiety that doesn’t make you want to hurl every time you do something slightly important

[boopidyboopidyboop]

Aw man i was always so bad at math because in theory a lot of it was super interesting and i loved physics for that reason because it made it possible to put forces in a quantifiable manner but also i was like, as close to having dyscalculia without actually having it as possible so i coudlnt solve for shit lmao. Once did a whole 100 item test and i got every part right from analyzing the formula and all forces at work and identifying all the factors in play and then my final answer was always somehow physically impossible lmao. I scored a 95 on that because i got everything except the actual calculation right. Talk math at me, just dont make me calculate please i will understand it and still get it wrong B)

maths enjoyers and bug enjoyers and horror movie enjoyers and so forth all need to come together and unite against the common enemy of people telling you how much they hate something as soon as you mention you like it