hi! idk if you're still doing the prompts but if you are #47? whatever pairing you're vibing with atm đ -đŚĽ
HELLO! first of all, the pairing bot gave me malum after it gave me cashton twice but i didnât feel like doing this for cashton so i wrote it malum, hope thatâs cool. ALSO. one day i am going to write a real proper epistolary fic, mark my words, but for now this is all i have to offer you. i know itâs rather different from like. a Normal fic. but i had fun writing it so :)
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Dear Calum,
My mum suggested I write you a letter because of the whole data thing in Brazil. I donât know what that really means but apparently calling would be extremely expensive so Iâm doing this now. Maybe itâs weird. Donât really care. Deal with it.
So how is Brazil? I donât know the time difference. Wait, I can look it up. Google says 13 hours. That means youâre a day behind me half the time. Iâm in your future! It doesnât look good for you, Cal. Future is pretty grim. If I were you I would stay in the past. Although by the time you get this it will be way in the future for both of usâŚoops. Oh well. I tried.
Anyway. What was I saying. Brazil? How is it? Hot, I bet. Probably playing loads of football. Luke and I have been playing FIFA but itâs so not the same. He sucks at it and he doesnât even cheat because heâs boring I guess or has âmoralsâ or whatever (his words not mine). I miss playing FIFA with you. Always beating Luke is not fun. Okay itâs a little fun. But I still miss you. As soon as youâre back youâre reclaiming the player 2 controller. Did I mention that I miss you? You probably get it.
What can I update you about here? Thereâs not a lot to say. Nothing has really happened. At least not in my life. Oh! I can tell you a secret but donât tell Luke I told you because he will definitely kill me. Not that you have any way to reach Luke. Donât go behind my back and write a letter to Luke telling him I told you this. Anyway: Luke fancies Ashton! I totally got him to admit it during one of the FIFA games I mentioned. It was almost cute if Iâm honest. He turned really red and got all blushy and stammery. I am now wondering if I should meddle or not. On the one hand, Ashton must like him back, right? Have you seen the two of them? I donât want to deal with intra-band sexual tension. Unless itâs ours. Weâve already claimed the âinsufferable band boyfriendsâ role though, so do we really want this to happen? I donât really know what Iâm arguing anymore. I donât think Iâll do anything for now. Will keep you updated in case anything dramatic happens. Then again I have no idea how long itâll be before you receive this. Something very dramatic might happen while this is in the post. Let me ask my mum. Okay she says it could be two weeks. Thatâs fucking long. You might just have to come back and get the Luke/Ashton updates in real time.
Besides from that there isnât much to report. Everything is the same. Except Iâm a lot lonelier now. This is what youâve done to me Calum. Iâm returning to my natural introvert state. I need you here, Cal!! Otherwise Iâll just have to become a turtle and by the time youâre back it might be too late.Â
Iâm joking by the way. I hope youâre having a good time at football camp. Making new friends and learning Brazilian(?) Portuguese and kicking everyoneâs arse and showing them up. Iâm sure you are. I just miss you lots. :( Counting down the days!
Sending you lots of kisses and cuddles through the post,
Mikey
~
Dear Michael,
I donât care either! I think writing letters is cool. Weâre like lovers at war. Except neither of us are going to die. Probably. (Some of these footballers are CRAZY good. You never know!)
Actually, Brazil is pretty nice. Itâs winter so the days have actually been not too hot, thankfully. Itâs exhausting enough playing as it is. If it got any hotter, I might actually pass out. Forever. Theyâd have to ship me home in a body bag. (Are those only for dead people? Maybe not a body bag.)
Itâs been almost two weeks since you sent your letter (I assume you sent it soon after I left?) which means thereâs a good chance this one wonât get to you until I do, but in case it does Iâm going to write and post it anyway. I hope by now youâre getting on better with Luke. If Iâve said it once or a million times, you guys have a lot in common and I really think you could be best friends if you werenât both such stubborn shitheads. Which I say in the nicest way possible!
Of course Luke fancies Ashton, heâs liked Ashton sinceâŚhonestly I donât know when. Months and months at least. And Ashton clearly likes him back. Iâve never seen two people less capable of hiding their feelings. Iâm surprised you didnât notice before. Please tell me you decided to meddle in the end. Youâre right, we canât handle more sexual tension in the band. Donât worry, they canât possibly be more insufferable than we are. We are the most annoying boyfriends on the planet. Weâre writing each other letters. Basically, itâs best for everyone involved if they get over themselves. Suck it up and kiss already! My friend Gustavo agrees with me. Also he says hi. (Well he says âoiâ but I translated for you. See, I can do stuff like that. Kinda cool, right?)
I miss you too, you know. Very much. This might sound weird, but I keep having dreams about you? LikeâŚIâll be dreaming about whatever (usually football these days) and then youâll just be there. Clearly my subconscious also knows I miss you. You know Ashton says that when you dream about someone, itâs because theyâre thinking about you, so I hope thatâs true. Itâs kind of a cute idea. I hope youâre thinking about me. Iâm thinking about you. Obviously. A lot. A lot.
There is one thing I want to tell you, though. Iâve been doing a lot of thinking about this, and the more I think about it the crazier it feels, but also more right. SoâŚI think Iâm gonna do the band. Not football. This is cool and all, but everyone here is so scary good, andâŚI donât know. Maybe this is stupid but I donât like the idea of a future without you when I could have a future with you. Like with the band, I mean. And I know itâs not the most practical dream, but imagine how cool it would be if it actually worked out. You know I like a challenge. So, anywayâŚthatâs kind of where Iâm at now. Iâm going to keep thinking about it for the last two weeks here, but I donât think Iâll change my mind. Donât tell anyone, please. I just wanted to tell you as soon as I knew. My parents are going to be soooo mad. Not excited to tell them, but this feels like the right decision.
AnywayâŚthis got weirdly deep. Sorry. Hereâs something super not-deep to make up for it: one of the football coaches here has a dog whose name in English is pasta! PASTA! (It might be apple. Apparently theyâre the same word just spelled differently and the Brazilians here can clearly tell the difference. I cannot. But I think itâs way funnier if the dogâs name is pasta so Iâm going with that. Not that apple is much better? Imagine seeing any dog at all and thinking, âYou know what this dogâs name should be? A common food item.â LOL.)
This letter is so long and Iâm running out of space on the page and I also really need to go to sleep! The boys are telling me to turn off the lights. I miss you so much. Football camp is fun, but I canât wait to be back. Counting down the days!
Thank you for the cuddles and kisses I am sending them right back to you,
Cal
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âOh my God,â Michael mumbles into Calumâs shoulder, âyou smell.â
Calum laughs, but he doesnât loosen his grip on Michael. âSeriously? I havenât seen you in a whole month and thatâs the first thing you say?â
âUgh, I missed you so much, but thatâs boring to say, you already knew it,â Michael says, drawing back to kiss Calum for a second. Then he buries his face in Calumâs neck. âSeriously, Iâm not joking, if you ever leave me alone for that long again, I will die.â
âYou had Luke. And Ashton.â
Michael groans loudly and overdramatically. âAshton is busy with family stuff all the time and donât you dare compare yourself to Luke.â
âWeâre going to talk about this,â Calum says. âYouâre going to be friends with him if it kills me.â
âThen prepare to die,â Michael says. Calum laughs, pressing a kiss to the slope of Michaelâs neck. âI tried, okay? I promise I did. I said in my letter we were playing FIFA! Did you get my letter? I didnât know how to check if it ever actually arrived.â
âI got it,â Calum says, stomach lurching with nerves. Ignoring them for the moment, he squeezes Michael and then steps back to give him a full once-over. âI loved it. It made me laugh. God, I really missed you, you know?â
âJoin the fucking club,â Michael says, smiling. Heâs been smiling this whole time, Calum realises; heâs just good at sounding like heâs whining even when heâs smiling. Thatâs probably the most Michael thing Michael can do.
âAlright, boys,â Mali says from a ways away. âCome on. Letâs go. And seriously, Calum? You hug Michael but not me?â
Calum throws his arms around Mali, and Mali wraps him in a hug. âMissed you,â Calum says sweetly in her ear. âThank you for coming to get me. And for bringing Michael.â
âYouâre welcome,â Mali says drily. They separate and Mali just gives him a small smile. âAnd I missed you too, you punk. Come on, you both. Baggage claim awaits.â
Mali takes off and Calum lingers behind until he can throw an arm over Michaelâs shoulder. Michael leans heavily into him. Itâs been so long since the last time Calum had Michael in his arms, but itâs so immediately familiar that it almost knocks Calum off his feet.Â
âSoâŚâ Calum bites his lip. âDid you get my letter? I sent it just after yours arrived, but I donât know if it got here before me.â
Michael shakes his head. âNope, nothing.â Something in his voice tells Calum heâs making no mistake. Heâd probably checked the mail every day, just to see. Thereâs a pang in Calumâs chest, all mixed up with the anxiety flitting out to his fingertips from inside his rib cage.Â
âOh,â Calum says. âWell, there was something in there that I wanted to tell you, but I guess Iâll just tell you now. Um.â He drops his voice to a half-whisper, clears his throat. âI donât want to tell Mali or anyone yet, butâŚI decided Iâm not going to do football.â
Michael jerks. âWhat?â
âI want to be in the band,â Calum says quietly. His heart is racing, but at least itâs racing towards the finish line instead of away. This is the right decision. HeâsâŚninety-five percent sure. Thatâs enough to know. It has to be enough to know. âI just, you know, football is fun, but music is more fun. To me. And anyway, um.â He rubs the back of his neck. âIf I have a choice between a career that has you in it or one that doesnât, I choose you. Obviously.â
âYouâre gonna be in the band?â Michael repeats lowly, looking over at Calum like heâs seeing something heâs never seen before. âSeriously? Youâd give up football?â
Calum shrugs, nods. âYeah. I know my parents are going to kill me, but I donât care. This is what I want.â
Michael stares at him. âI love you,â he says, and then kisses Calum too fiercely to give Calum adequate time to process that.Â
By the time they break apart, heâs processed it. And as he inhales to catch his breath, licking his lips, he knows with one-hundred-percent certainty that this is the right choice.
âI love you too,â Calum says, like itâs the easiest thing in the world. Where Michael is concerned, it usually is.
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Long Road Ahead (Chapter Fifteen)
Estelle Finley has been friends with Ashton Irwin and Luke Hemmings for three years. When the boys bring her along on a jam-packed road trip to Cape Cod with the rest of the band, their adventures are just beginning. Through long hours driving, exploring cities, and hidden secrets, something more is bound to happen on this journey. How will this road trip change Estelleâs friendship with the friends sheâs come to love so dearly?
Word Count: 2,560
{Chapter One} {Chapter Two} {Chapter Three} {Chapter Four}{Chapter Five} {Chapter Six} {Chapter Seven} {Chapter Eight} {Chapter Nine} {Chapter Ten} {Chapter Eleven} {Chapter Twelve} {Chapter Thirteen} {Chapter Fourteen}
The sound of my phone buzzing jolted me from my sleep. My eyes slowly adjusted to the bright sunlight shining through the windows of my room. There was a text from Luke.
L: Hey little dove. We gotta head out soon.Â
E: Okay. Iâll be out in 5.
I blinked a few times, the memory of last night ebbing back into my mind.
âI love you Lu.â
He kissed me with all of the passion and love he could muster up. It felt like I had been away from home and this was the moment it was finally coming back. His hands pulled me closer, desperately grabbing as if Iâd fade away. My fingers tangled in his hair, gently tugging. He let out a small moan. Before I had time to think, Luke lifted me up. I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist. It felt slightly weird how needy we were since we had kissed already.Â
âYouâre mine,â he almost growled, gently dropping me onto his bed.Â
I nodded in agreement, pulling him back towards me. We kept kissing for what felt like hours until Luke sat up and moved away from me.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â I asked.
âWhat changed between getting back and now?â he asked.Â
I sighed, unsure how to phrase the thoughts that had been causing a storm inside my mind.Â
âIâm tired of fighting. I want to be happy and pretending to be that perfect daughter again made me feel disgusting. I used to do that all the time before college and before I met you and Ash. It doesnât feel right or even remotely okay anymore. I watch Mikey and Crystal all the time and theyâre so happy together, and deep down I know we could be that happy too. Iâve dated plenty of guys and none of them make me feel the way you do. I just want to be with you, Luke. Is that so horrible?â I asked.
He nodded, needing a moment to process my words. I pressed a kiss to his cheek before getting up. I felt his eyes on me as I walked towards the door.Â
âI want this little dove. I really do, but Iâve got to take care of some stuff first okay?â he asked as I reached for the door.Â
âTake your time. Iâll wait.â
A smile came over my face. It felt easier to breathe now that everything was out in the open. I checked over my outfit in the mirror, adjusting my black crop top and green sunflower shorts. As I pulled my denim button up over my shoulders, I felt secure. Once again, it was in Lukeâs hands and I was putting all of my trust in him. He was it and I just hoped heâd feel the same once he handled everything. I grabbed my stuff and headed over to his room. He opened the door a second later.Â
âGood morning,â I said with a smile.
âMorning. You look beautiful as always,â he said.Â
I felt my cheeks flush from the compliment. He took my bag out of my hand and gestured towards the elevator. There was a weird tension between us, not exactly sexual or nervous, but just unsure. We checked out and headed to the car.Â
âDo you want to drive again?â he asked after putting our stuff in the trunk.
âNo, you can.â
I climbed into the passenger seat and moved it so I could relax. Luke turned the radio on, handing me the aux chord. It was simple, but meant that he wanted me to tell him what I was thinking. I scrolled through some playlists before I found the perfect one. The soft acoustic guitar from the beginning of âHesitateâ by Jonas Brothers started to fill the car. My nerves kept me from looking over at Luke as the chorus hit. As the second verse started, he put his hand on my thigh. I glanced over still nervous and caught the goofy smile on his face. Maybe this feeling wouldnât last, but right now, it was me and Luke in the little happy bubble of our own.Â
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Ashton was running after Calum when we pulled up. It made me wish even more that we didnât have to leave.Â
âMy lady,â Luke said, opening my door for me.Â
âWhy thank you good sir,â I said, taking his hand to get out.Â
âThere they are!â Crystal yelled from the porch.Â
âI brought her back in one piece as promised,â he said.Â
I laughed at them, feeling grateful Crystal had us go in the first place. Ashton came running around the corner with the familiar playful smile on his face.Â
âBugs!â he cheered.
Before I was able to tell him to slow down, he was wrapping me up in one of his bear hugs.Â
âDonât break her!â Crystal yelled, now coming down the stairs.
âSheâs fine!â Ashton said, releasing me and gesturing as if he was Vana White.Â
âGood, because we have lots to discuss,â she said.Â
âLots and lots,â I said, smiling.Â
Girl talk was much needed right now and talking about almost having sex with your best friend after being into him for three years was not exactly Ash territory.Â
âDonât keep her too long. I missed her,â he called.
âNo promises!â she said.Â
We sat down on the side porch in one of the bench swings I felt her watching me.Â
âSpill.â
âIt went well okay?â I laughed.Â
Her look intensified as she analyzed my face.
âI donât see any hickeys so clearly not that well,â she said.Â
âOh my god Crys! That didnât happen.â
âSo what did?â
âI told him about the threat from my dad and after we got back, we kissed.â
âThatâs it?â she asked, sounding shocked.Â
âYes! Why are you so surprised?â I asked.
âYou had post-sex glow so I was hoping things had gone extremely well,â she said with a shrug.Â
My laugh rang in my own ears. I hadnât realized that we looked so glowy.Â
âWell, are you two at least together?â she asked.Â
I felt a sudden unease wash over me with the question. Even I had no real answer to that one. I looked at the ocean, hoping in some way it would magically present the answer.Â
âI donât know. He said he had to figure some stuff out,â I said.Â
âThatâs not a no though right?â she continued.
âRight, but I donât know what those things are.â
âIâm sure heâll tell you once heâs done,â she said, putting a comforting arm around my shoulders.
âI hope so.â
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LUKEâS POV
âWhat was the name of Estelleâs real estate agent again?â I asked, pulling out my laptop.Â
âJunie. Why?â he asked.Â
âIf her dad can take her dream home away, I want to know why and how, and if I can prevent it,â I explained.Â
Ashton looked at me with surprise. My fingers flew as I searched for the officeâs number. Once I had it, I dialed without hesitation.
âHi there. I have a few questions regarding finances on your properties,â I said once someone answered.
âOf course. How may I help?â she asked politely.Â
âOnce a property is purchased and finalized with a move in date, can anything happen to change that?â I asked.
âLogistically speaking, no. However, we have had instances of the bank of a client deciding to back out of mortgage financing which lead to the client scrambling to find a new one,â she said.Â
âIn the event of a client using a trust fund, would that change that process?â I continued.
âMost likely, no. Typically, we take trust money right away just for financial security and then we require the client to obtain a mortgage through that bank still.â
I asked a few more questions before ending the call. Ashton kept staring at me as I finished up some research.Â
âWhat?â I asked.
âWhat are you trying to do?â he asked.
âEstelle worked her ass off to get that house and I donât want that to get taken from her for wanting to be happy.â
âDude, Iâm moving in with her. Iâve got that handled,â he said.Â
âWhat about the threat to our career?â I asked.Â
âI believe our record label wouldnât let that happen.â
âSo what does he have that makes him think he could?â
âDonât worry, Iâve got our publicist on it,â he said with a wink.
It still felt like I was missing something. Maybe I was being paranoid, but the pit in my stomach told me otherwise.
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ESTELLEâS POV
My heart was beating extremely fast, the nerves about what I was going to do sinking in. I was hovering over the call button, just waiting on the courage to call.
âElle?â I heard Calum call from my door.
âWhatâs up?â I asked, tucking my phone away.Â
âHowâd it go yesterday?â he asked.
âGood. Tiny bit unresolved right now.â
âAre you going to be together finally then?â he continued.Â
âI donât know. Iâve gotta make a phone call though. Can we talk later?â I asked.Â
He nodded, giving me a small smile. I locked the door after he left. My hesitation from before was gone, leaving me to just click my dadâs name. The ringing felt longer than normal causing my nerves to rise.Â
âEstelle,â he said upon answering.
âHello father,â I said.Â
I felt my leg starting to shake, anxiety growing the longer the pauses were.
âHow was your art gallery opening?â he asked.Â
âIt went well. Only one reporter asked me about you,â I said, getting to the point.
âAnd how did that go?â
âI said exactly what you wanted me to and gave her some winks so sheâd write up something nice for you.â
âAnd how did your friend react to that?â he continued.
âHe was surprised, but as you said, weâre just friends,â I said, trying to hold back the bite in my words.Â
âGood.â
âDo you mind explaining why I canât date him? I would have assumed youâd be thrilled by the press it could bring,â I said, slightly hoping to angle it better.
âWe both know how you and the press interact,â he said, his tone getting sharper.Â
âAnd we both know that Iâve gotten more mature since then. The college mistake was not entirely my fault and after that passed, I did everything you asked. Iâm media trained, have my own job, and rarely ever do anything that would reflect bad on the company,â I argued.Â
âDo you honestly believe the life of a musician is suited for you?â he asked, changing the subject sort of.Â
âLuke is not every musician that parties all the time,â I said, gritting my teeth.Â
âReally? Is that why a photo of him kissing someone who isnât you was all over the internet five days ago?â
The memory came back full force, images swirling around as I took a deep breath.Â
âHe reacted badly to the news of the inability of being together because of you,â I said, digging my nails into the palm of my hand.
âWhat makes you believe he wonât react badly whenever something doesnât go his way?â he pressed.
âBecause weâve been friends for three years! While you were out producing Inked and sticking your head farther up Wesleyâs ass in the hope that heâll be the promise child, I was working hard to gain my spot as a teacher. Unlike my brothers, I have listened to you and kept my head down. I am an adult now and if you canât understand that enough to let me love who I want then youâre no better than when Mom left you,â I fired off, feeling how heavily I was breathing.Â
âEstelle Rose Finley!â he yelled.Â
âHarass Wes or Parker, but stop treating me like her,â I said.Â
âWatch your tone,â he warned.Â
âI love Luke and if I want to see what a relationship with him would be like, I can do that without needing your permission.â
âWeâll see about that,â he said, angrily before ending the call.
I took a few deep breaths to calm myself down. I hadnât meant for the phone call to go that way or end in a big argument. My hands were shaking and there were nail marks indented on my palm. A tear fell onto my leg causing me to wipe at my cheeks. There were plenty of tears that had fallen from the anger that my father caused. It was rare for me to lash out or let him get under my skin. I felt exhausted from the conversation and it was only midday. There was a knock on my door, making me pull myself together. Ashton was standing there, concern all over his face.Â
âI heard you yell. Everything okay bugs?â he asked, stepping in and gently putting his hands on my shoulders.Â
âYeah. Just another phone call with my dick of a dad.â
âWere you crying?â
âA little. I got really angry,â I explained.
âDo you want to talk about it?â
âIt was just about Luke. He keeps trying to control my choices when Iâm an adult. Itâs frustrating,â I said with a shrug.Â
âI donât mean to pry, but your mom left?â he asked hesitantly.Â
âOh, um, yeah. She left him when I was in my first year of college after the whole party incident,â I explained.Â
He moved to sit on my bed, nodding as if to say go on.Â
âWhen she found out about him threatening to move me, she lost it. I was already away for a couple months, so I didnât know he was being mean and controlling towards her. I guess it was the final straw.â
âWhere is she now?â
âShe lives in England and has her own design house. We donât really talk that much,â I said.
âAnd Wes and Parker?â he continued.Â
âMy brothers. Wes is three years older than me and Parker is two years younger.â
âYouâve never mentioned them.â
âI know and Iâm sorry. My family isnât the best at doing family stuff. They probably donât even know I got my masterâs degree,â I said with a sigh.Â
âWerenât they at your graduation?â Ashton asked, giving me a look of surprise.Â
âI didnât walk,â I replied, not meeting his stare.Â
âWhy?â he pushed.
âMy dad didnât want the press showing up and finding out Iâm a teacher.â
âWhy?â
âDoesnât fit into the Finley legacy,â I said, quoting the exact words I was told.
âThatâs ridiculous. Youâre an amazing teacher. Those kids love you and you make their lives so much better. He should be proud that he has a daughter willing to do that,â he said, reaching over and wrapping his arms around me.Â
âThanks Ash,â I mumbled, returning the hug.Â
His pride brought a few tears to my eyes. I had given up on searching for my fatherâs approval, but hearing how highly Ashton thought of my career, made it worth it. My family was awful, but at least I had friends that supported me.Â
âEstelle!â Crystal yelled from what I assumed was the stairs.Â
Ash and I broke apart, heading towards the landing to find out what was going on. Crystal looked nervous, almost unsettled.Â
âYeah?â I called as we headed down.Â
âUm, your, uh-â
âHello there daughter.â
A/N: I KNOW AND ITâS GONNA BE EPIC. Tell me all the feels please.Â
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