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Purple Passions & Proclivities

Gender Assignment Guest Blogger, Felicia Holman

Dedicated to the memories of Betty Holman & Prince Rogers Nelson (and to the future of Kendyl Holman)

“Sex isn’t all I think about, it’s all I think about U.”--’Shhh (Break It Down)’, Prince Rogers Nelson

An Origin Story

First, big thanks to Melissa Potter for inviting me to be a guest blogger for Gender Assignment. I am writing this essay (my first of four) on April 21, 2018---the second anniversary of the sudden death of my artistic and sexual muse, Prince Rogers Nelson. Today, I’m simultaneously elated and bereft; elated to be writing, bereft of both my Purple dearly beloved and the person who got me into him in the first place: My mother, Betty.

My mother, Betty / She was seeing me off on my first international flight...to Jamaica. This was '96 so she was actually with me at the boarding gate, even though I was traveling solo!

This month also marks the 10th anniversary of my mother's memorial service. As a single Black mother raising and homeschooling 2 kids on Chicago's Southside in the 1980’s, Mom was pretty unconventional. She was a working-class artist/ public intellectual/ entrepreneur/ urban gardener/ Columbia College film student/ championship-winning boys’ Little League coach/ etc... I’ll never forget how she championed my auditioning for the male lead in my 8th grade play because the female lead was too wispy (though I was ultimately cast as the female lead). Though strictly heteronormative in her own gender and sexual expression, Mom was sex-positive. She was my primary sex ed teacher and feminine wiles coach. *For Christmas during my freshman year in high school, Mom bought me my first lacy lingerie set; explaining “this is the type of underwear a young lady buys.”* Mom was a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and as a result, devoutly nurtured her only daughter's sexual agency and empowerment. One of her no-nonsense metaphor resonates to this day: “You don't need anyone else to scratch your own itch!” *Which I knew to be true, ever since I’d learned how to covertly rub one out on the edge of my chair in Kindergarten.*

Erotic City, Come Alive

In a two-fold effort to break me out of my bubble gum “Michael Jackson phase” & put me on to something more subversive and avant-garde, Mom formally introduced me to Prince when she brought home the 12” 1999 double album and explained to me that Prince played all the instruments. However, it was actually the combination of seeing the Little Red Corvette video and then learning that he and I share the same birthday that cemented him as #foreverinmylife...Whereas Prince was contraband in the homes of most of my Gen X peers, those of us with “cool" parents /guardians were exposed to the crucially impactful carnal knowledge of His Purple Majesty during our tweens. *I’ve often described Prince’s cultural impact & influence as a result of his artistry grabbing us by the root and crown chakras (as his lyrics on ‘Sexuality’ clearly illustrate)!* “Little Girl Heat" (LGH) is a term I coined a few years ago during a generative rehearsal with Honey Pot Performance. I find LGH succinctly / viscerally encapsulates the phenomenon of tingling sensations and rise in core temperature I’d feel while listening to Automatic, Let’s Pretend We’re Married, Lady Cab Driver, etc. To this day, I still experience LGH when I’m overcome with desire...trust & BELIEVE!

Here & Now

As a grown-ass-woman-for-real, I am both looking back and ahead at my sexcapades. Sex has always been a ‘Quality (v. Quantity) of Life’ issue for me, but even more so for me in recent years...more on that in future posts. The candid memoirs of living legends Diahann Carroll, Grace Jones and Jenifer Lewis line my shelves as both salve and motivation. *Can’t WAIT for fellow Gen X-er Tracee Ellis Ross to grace us with hers!* Though I’m not a mom, I am a doting auntie who is determined to give my 8 y.o. niece (Kendyl) the gifts of real talk and agency that her paternal grandmother gave to me. Conversations with my niece have recently begun to include her questions about puberty as well as my ‘leading’ questions to find out what she does/doesn't already know. I find that sex ed resources tailor-made for little Black girls are still few and far between in this post-Obama 21st century, so my anecdotes and advice will be some of her primary resources. She knows that Prince is my favorite musician/entertainer/artist and that I wear a tribute button everyday since he passed. But I haven't formally introduced her to Prince music yet. I think his 2006 Golden Globe award-winning Song of the Heart (from the animated film ‘Happy Feet’) will be our entry point...it’s still years before her time.

*Bonus: If you haven't already, check out the just-released tribute video for Prince's original recording of ‘Nothing Compares 2 U’...#lghonfleek

Bio: Lifelong Chicagoan, artist and Prince fan Felicia Holman is a co-founder of both the Art Leaders of Color Network ('ALCN') and Honey Pot Performance (‘HPP’). She is also Communication Director at Chicago's venerable Links Hall. Felicia creates, presents and supports original interdisciplinary performance which engages audience and inspires community. In May 2017, Felicia traveled to Manchester England and proudly presented on Prince and Blackness at the first Purple Reign Interdisciplinary Conference "on the life and legacy of Prince Rogers Nelson" (co-produced by the University of Salford and Middle Tennessee State University). In June, Felicia co-produced the ALCN's monthlong P.O.W.E.R Project at Logan Square's Comfort Station. November 2017 saw Felicia's groups thrive: HPP's debut artist book 'Ma(s)king Her' was published by Candor Arts, Links Hall went to Japan for the Kyoto Experiment Performance Festival and the ALCN received a 2018 Joyce Foundation grant to "develop membership and programming capacity". In December 2017, Felicia presented her first commissioned solo performance ("Wassup w/That YAC?!" @ MCA Chicago) and starred in 'Hair Story' -- OpenTV's latest pilot, which Felicia also co-wrote (premiering Spring 2018). Felicia relishes her dynamic artrepreneurial life and sums it up in 3 words—'Creator, Connector, Conduit'.

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Our friends at @weareopentv have done it again! Season 2 of Two Queens in a Kitchen is now live! It features #tpoc artist Oli Rodriguez and our very own @byoboi was production manager of the shoot ! #Repost @weareopentv (@get_repost) ・・・ 🔥 BOOM 🔥 Two Queens in a Kitchen Season Two is now LIVE, premiering exclusively on @outmagazine. #linkinbio ⠀ ⠀ "The second season explores topics like the power of intersectional feminism, how to seek moments of pleasure in hostile climates, and the inter-workings of pursuing joy as a marginalized person―over banana oatmeal chocolate chip cookies, tossed chicken salad, and strawberry bruschetta." It features @elijaa_, @profajchristian, @kristenkaza, @coriamacouture, @youngmiddlenames, @tenenbavm, @feliciaholman & @oliveriovrodriguez #2QIK. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ #webseries #indietv #blackdirectors #blackfilmmakers #queerfilmmakers #supportindietv #supportindiefilm #womeninfilm #sexkiki

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@feliciaholman and Pilot 11 by #Brandon Breaux 💫

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#Repost @profajchristian ・・・ @weareotv is taking over Chicago's museums in March! We are legit extending #BHM18 premiering 3 Black & Queer AF pilots and video art at the The Art Institute of Chicago! . ✨ . Stop by 12-1PM Friday March 30 for the premiere of #HairStoryTV starring @queensayanaomi, @wallacewallacewallace, @sojournerzenobia, @bigxphilly, @frrrgr, @arayyay, @swamp_star88, @feliciaholman, @pizzaminatiprincess, @elijaa_, and an original music video #BSAYF created and co-directed by @rapbrarian shot by @moll_jean! . ✨ . @moresweetbeef will screen his video art piece #TheRoachIsComing! . ✨ . And @alexa_grae will show their highly anticipated opera/R&B visual album #SurLaNuit shot by @yesjonwes! . ✨ . Y’ALL. AIN’T. READY. (at The Art Institute of Chicago)

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@feliciaholman (at Museum of Contemporary Art Chicago)

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On The Real Film presents TRANSITION TO POWER - a new web-series where artists break down the election and where we go from here. In collaboration with Sixty Inches From Center new episodes will drop every week. Watch the preview of Ep. 1 - Livid & Motivated featuring Felicia Holman.

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Snap from Felicia Holman's artist talk today #feliciaholman #panchro #panchromaticcollective #artisttalk (at Jack Arends Hall)

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Shout out to my Peoples @feliciaholman STYLING HARD in Her Black Rock Star Super Hero Are-Moor'd Tee! Having an Awesome time at @artsadminofcolor Annual Convening 2019 at @eaton.dc Order YOUR Black Rock Star Super Hero Are-Moor'd Tee and Hoodie from www.head-roc.com/estore Today! #blackrockstarsuperhero #ChocolateCityRocks #washingtondc #wedoexistaac #panafricanism #panafrican #BlackLove #artsadministrator #artsactivist #artsadministratorsofcolor #dcmusic https://www.instagram.com/p/B4snNiQB9gF/?igshid=id3ao9a7yv1q

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Shout to Sistars @feliciaholman and @sondaicr8tive and @adrianevjefferson for The Love today at @artsadminofcolor Annual Convening at @eaton.dc The Black Rock Star Super Hero Marketplace is set up and ready for Busy-Ness! We're here Today Nov 9th and Tomorrow Nov 10th. Come on by! Order online at Www.head-roc.com/estore #blackrockstarsuperhero #ChocolateCityRocks #dmv #wedoexistaac #panafricanism #panafrican #BlackLove #undergroundrailroad #frederickdouglass #artsadministrator #artsactivist #artsadministratorsofcolor https://www.instagram.com/p/B4p5-bdhxRN/?igshid=ospyqd7zxaoz

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Shout to Sistars @feliciaholman and @sondaicr8tive and @adrianevjefferson for The Love today at @artsadminofcolor Annual Convening at @eaton.dc The Black Rock Star Super Hero Marketplace is set up and ready for Busy-Ness! We're here Today Nov 9th and Tomorrow Nov 10th. Come on by! Order online at Www.head-roc.com/estore #blackrockstarsuperhero #ChocolateCityRocks #dmv #wedoexistaac #panafricanism #panafrican #BlackLove #undergroundrailroad #frederickdouglass #artsadministrator #artsactivist #artsadministratorsofcolor https://www.instagram.com/p/B4p5-bdhxRN/?igshid=1l5c7vemmi5p

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@feliciaholman (at Museum of Contemporary Art Chicago)

[kenfitzpatrick]

@feliciaholman (at Museum of Contemporary Art Chicago)

[bigxphilly]

Come to the Open TV Friendraiser this Sunday 2-6p at the home of Dr. E. Patrick Johnson, cop a ticket with the #linkinbio #destinyfulfilled Funds from ticket sales go to support production on a #queer #comedy #pilot, Serial Dreamer, written by @weareopentv own @elijaa_ & @profajchristian & many Chicago artists I had the honor of working with through the Open TV Writers group including Me & my writing partner in crime @frrrgr , @queensayanaomi , Media McNeal, @feliciaholman , Abra Johnson, @mshellyconner , @arayyay , and @swamp_star88 #webserieswednesday #opentvcommunity #serialdreamer #chicagoartist #weareopentv come out and help us get our stories on this 📺 momma (at Chicago, Illinois)