it's not as if i need to be
completely torn open—
ribcage askew; innards strewn about
—but i would like something.
numbness and worry cloud
so much of my mind,
i forget how to simply be;
how to express love, how to
accept and recieve love, how
to allow the sun to just warm my skin
without dwelling on the sweat and the heaviness and
how summer reminds me of all that i have
lost and
left behind.
If you were to ask Gojo Satoru who his first kiss was, he would always say it was you - making everyone at the dinner table, party, or bar look up at him with dreamy eyes while mouthing small awws and oohs to match.
And you’d sit there in silence, listening to him tell that blatant lie as your face grew red and your heart threatened to burst out of your chest, knowing that he had, in fact, kissed many girls before; whether they pressed their lips to his in high school parties, or grinded against him in clubs until finally shoving their tongues in his mouth; he had already done it plenty of times before he had ever laid eyes on you.
But on some drowsy night, when the thought first popped in his head, he muttered the words into the air like a prayer, “You know you were my first kiss, right?”
And he pouted when you laughed at what you felt was the nth joke of the day, until he started softly explaining that each kiss before you had never felt like what a kiss was supposed to be like; That when for the first time you finally found the courage to grab his face and press your lips to his, he knew the true terror of kissing. How he was scared that his tongue was too deep in your mouth even though he wanted to push it deeper and deeper, and how when you smiled against his lips, his stomach did cartwheels for hours after it ended.
“You don’t get to choose these things, Satoru.” You reprimanded, but never corrected him once.
College has been *interesting*, so we’re gonna bitch about it. If you’ve also had a weird, wild, and sometimes regrettable college experience, welcome to the party.
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