#filed under: musings

[fracturedfables]

tag dump. ignore.

[fragmcntdstars]

&& -- so, because i don't know when i will get around to it, here's some info about bond. he's trans, has been since he was like 25. his missions were adapted from goldeneye, tomorrow never dies, casino royale, && skyfall. he is bisexual && had a quick dalliance with tiago rodriguez before rodriguez was given to china / hong kong. for all intents and purposes, bond has thought about retiring, but there's something that keeps drawing him back to mi6. he spends most of his time in russia, having kept up a good friendship with natalya simonova, but keeps a flat in london near vauxhall cross.

[sainz100]

Max & Daniel throwback to 2018 | Futsal in São Paulo | x

[lexiquemortel]

── persephone, ?, cis woman (she/her), pansexual, queen of the underworld + florist. @indiestarter

"you’re lucky you’re cute. that was a terrible idea."

[caelanessaex]

happy birthday, zeni! @neverdawn

lyrics, velimir khlebnikov / not strong enough, boygenius / nothing i haven’t done for love, loueva smith / cardigan, taylor swift / poem of the end, marina tsvetaeva.

[petitsdieu]

☙ BLUSH ME. for a short starter / one liner / movie quote, that likely won't stay petite. ❧

[svnnygraves]

[ … ] ❀ you’re not from around here , are you? i figured because you totally just missed { SUNNY GRAVES } walking by. don’t tell me you don’t know who { SHE } is ? they kind of look like { OLIVIA COOKE } and i could be wrong but i think that they might be { 29 } years old right now. they’ve been living in palmview for the last { TWENTY YEARS }. and i don’t know if anyone has ever told them this before but they kind of remind me of { JANIS IAN } from { MEAN GIRLS }. if you stick around the town long enough you might catch them in action working at { MARINA MARKET } as a { CASHIER }. you see this town isn’t really that big of a place, some folks like to call them the { THE MISCREANT } of palmview! they took a liking to the name too after a while, go figure. oh crap, they must have heard me yapping. they’re coming this way. i got to warn you though, rumor has it they can pretty { CONNIVING } at times. i wouldn’t take it too seriously though, from the times i’ve spoken to them they seemed pretty { WITTY } to me. we see each other all the time since they live in that { ONE BEDROOM } apartment beside me over in { MANGO BAY }. i better leave you to it. it was nice meeting you!

☾ playlist. ☾ pinterest. ☾ muse. ☾ connections.

━━ ⟢ i. the basics

full name: sunny louise graves birthday: 06/12/1995 big three: gemini sun, sagittarius moon, scorpio rising  height: 5'5"  mbti: infj sexual orientation: bisexual  hometown: point pleasant, west virginia  

━━ ⟢ i. personality tidbits 

has held a grudge for anyone who's ever done or said anything bad to her 

probably regularly comissions etsy witches for hexes 

has that anxious avoidant attachment style that makes her go swerve when she feels someone pulling away™️

she's a chronic ghoster 😔

she's pretty guarded but lowkey she's a hopeless romantic, although i don't thinks she'd even know what to do with a relationship that was healthy. she's like a dog chasing a car tbh

 she can be very all or nothing in regards to that so like you may get a text from her once every other week or she’ll bomb you with them all at once in a span of five minutes

she thinks she's a great friend, but she's intense so she's not for everyone

struggles with anger issues, has outbursts that usually happen at the worst possible time 

her hometown is where mothman was famously cited, and yeah she makes that a personality trait

she practices witchcraft and has an altar to the deities she worships

she loves to believe in the unbelievable, ghosts, aliens, anything paranormal, she's all over that

she's unconciously very self motivated, but lowkey thinks she does things for other people's benefits

she tends to have a criminal mindset and lacks boundaries stemming from her own upbringing

she doesn't really see anything wrong with crime as long as it in her eyes is justified

actively is always scheming her revenge, never get too comfortable she's coming even if it's years in the process :/

playlists are her love language!!!!1

finds comfort in meditation instead of going fucking insane, sometimes both

always falls for emotionally unavailable people, a lot of times her bosses or people not available 😭

very into metaphysics like tarot, astrology, etc

loves horror movies and probably watches at least one a day (probably while she’s eating dinner ngl)

━━ ⟢ i. go deeper

tw: alcohol, drug use, abuse, suicide

m o m m y i s s u e s 🥳

sunny grew up in a tumultuous household with her parents always fighting and money was always tight

 it wasn’t until she was 9 that she moved to palmview where she was hopeful things would improve since her father landed a better job, but things quickly deteriorated

as she got older her mom developed bad habits with drugs, and her father coped with alcohol 

 as a byproduct she was kind of abandoned emotionally, and didn’t really have anyone to turn to

her mom was self medicating a larger problem under the surface, and sunny had the misfortune of walking in on her mom trying on several occasions to take her own life

as a result she couldn’t focus in school or, would hyper focus on the wrong things and daydream instead of listening in her classes

got the rep of not only the new kid, but the weird new kid 

and as things usually happen, one day when her guard was down because her mom appeared to be doing better, so she decided to go hang out at a friend’s house after school one day. 

when she returned home later than normal, she walked around her house looking for her mom. to her disbelief, she found her mom hanging from the shower curtain rod, and was in denial that her mom was really gone since she’d always caught it in time before. 

hours later her father found sunny holding her mom up talking to her limp body about how she made a friend at school finally. 

when the emts arrived on scene trying to load her mom onto the stretcher, sunny wouldn’t allow them to take her mom away from her until her dad had to physically pick her up and carry her away 

she blamed herself for not being there for her mom sooner

she hasn’t ever really dealt with her mother’s death, i think in a way she tried to acquaint herself closely with death instead. she would buy ouija boards trying to contact her mother from the other side. hire psychic mediums, go to palm readers, anything for a sign from her mom. i think her anger really manifested more after her mom's passing, and caused her to stop caring as much about the consequences of the law because she felt like she had nothing more to lose.

━━ ⟢ i. connections 

 literally anything and everything

people she’s once passed on the street and projected romantic fantasies on, friends, friends of a friend, cousins, exes, ex hookups, ex situationships, enemies, neighbors, regulars at the market she works at, old co-workers, old classmates, old classmates that used to bully her, someone she's stolen from, people from places she's vandalized, etc etc gimme gimme gimme 

[touchbased]

fuck it… like for a starter 🤧

[dweetling]

i want to quit you no i need to quit you but i'm afraid of what you might do

[immobiliter]

know that i always want to write new things with flint, but a) he is a tricky muse to write with if there's no plotting or discussion beforehand ( on the fly stuff just doesn't work with him, trust me, i've tried ) and b) in addition to being a big fan of his character, i am also the number 1 flint hater lmao

[pinksilvace]

It appears I am officially outlining that fic

[persimminwrites]

i just finished the spellshop and i want to yap about it. i am feeling an interesting mix of ambivalence, dislike and enjoyment because of this book and this is my diary so <3

i think if i had to rate it id give it a 3/5 ?? probably? i'll never read it again but i typically save 2 and lower for things i actively dislike which i dont for this book.

i did listen to this as an audiobook so i also have to factor that into my feelings because i never seem to like audiobooks, even if its something by a favorite author of mine. the narrator did do a pretty good job though. i liked her voice and the voices she gave the characters didn't annoy me too much (some i liked). there were a few moments where i felt really drawn in by her reading but i would say for the majority of the book i was like this :/// at her narration and i think thats mostly due to my dissatisfaction with the story and writing than on her narration.

some things i liked:

felt like a studio ghibli film, specifically my neighbor totoro (but watch out this is also a con later)

best friend is a sentient spider plant who is named Caz and he is my most favorite thing in the whole entire world. also later they make a little sentient cactus (succulent ??) who is named Meep and i also love them so much. caz was so charming <333 every scene he was in was instantly my favorite and while i didn't love the main character i did love her banter and conversations with caz !!!

the scenery was really quite pretty. i wouldn't say the writing style was super immersive and beautiful but the author did do a really good job with describing the landscapes and settings in a way that i could immediately picture things. i can probably draw the layout of the island this story takes place in, and there were so many places that i would love to see for myself

some things i disliked (i will try to keep this list short lmao):

felt like a studio ghibli film and this is supposed to be a low stakes cozy fantasy and yet there is some pretty serious Big Picture hurdles the characters have to overcome. it felt very incongruent with the story that was being told. like one moment the main character is making jam and the next she's hiding the only remaining heir to the now toppled empire that the new government wants to put on trial and kill???

related to the first point: because this is a low stakes cozy fantasy we know as the audience that there is literally no way things will go badly for our characters!!! so all suspense and what ifs are just completely thrown out the window. and instead i find myself rolling my eyes as the characters worry and wring their hands about whats going to happen, wishing that i could speed through it because i know they'll be fine (and they always were)

again related ksjdfnskjfn the main character worries ?????? about ?????? everything ??????? constantly ????? and is constantly ?????? (and i do mean constantly) catastrophizing EVERYTHING it becomes inane and beyond annoying once you get several hours into it. which on one hand. i get it. i am what one might call a worrier. but it is so incredibly unappealing to read about especially when it is about everything constantly all the time. and often for incredibly small or even nonexistent issues. which again I. GET. but if i wanted to read about someone worrying constantly i would actually start journaling and just reread that. idk it was just done in such a way that i was constantly shaking my head and thinking GIRL GET IT TOGETHER WE CANNOT BE WORRIED ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW LIKE DAMN REPRIOIRITIZE

i liked the messages the book was giving but ????? they felt so incredibly ham fisted! like yes we should care about our neighbors and build community and teach ourselves skills so that we can provide for ourselves and the people around us. and yes guarding knowledge and keeping it from the public is Bad. and yes isolating yourself can be harmful and if you open yourself up to the people and community around you you can find love and support from all kinds of people who can help you and who you can help in return. the allegory for capitalism in a fantasy setting was kinda interesting and the book is definitely critical of it but it also felt very obvious and on the nose whenever it was brought up. i dont think this is necessarily a bad thing. i would liken it to the barbie movie and the conversation around it when it came out. a lot of people felt it was not a groundbreaking piece of feminist media and were upset about it being lauded as such BUT a comment i saw that i really liked is that maybe this was a person's first interaction with media that had that concept or ideology in it and even if its not groundbreaking for you it could be for someone else and if more and more people are exposed to that then we can continue pushing the needle further. but..... it did really feel ham fisted to me skdjfnskdfjnsdfk

[lexiquemortel]

𓂃  luna rossi, twenty-nine, cis woman (she/her), hacker + bounty hunter. 𓂃 @indiestarter

open to: anyone! (f if flirty/romantic)

plot idea: hidden server room beneath a corporate building. luna’s in the middle of her dirty work when the alarms go off, and your muse shows up.

ㅤㅤthe first loud boom was not her fault. right, maybe she’d messed with the wrong wires, and probably setting off the fire alarm system did cause some levels of panic on the floor just above her. in her own defense, corporate security shouldn’t make their server rooms that easy to crack. and wreck. ㅤㅤluna did her best to tuck herself behind a huge machine in the sublevel server bay of a very big — and illegal in every possible way — tech firm. she typed with one hand while holding an iced coffee in the other, because hey, she was a pretty normal girl every now and then. it was important to be calm, or so the huge amount of sweets in her pockets seemed to say, as well as the lollipop wedged between her teeth. ㅤㅤshe heard the door click. probably not a guard, too quiet for the kind of guy who slams doors screaming at the evildoers, or whatever they might think she was. looking up, but not really directly at said person's face, she didn’t bother introducing herself. ㅤㅤ“if you’re here to flirt, you’re late. if you’re here to sho*t me, you’re early. either way, don’t block the wi-fi. i’m almost done here.”

[doom-the-narrative-back]

this is how wyll joined the party right

[lovethytendytenderly]

Tagged by @tjarry Lmao love you 🥰

make a new post with the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! then, tag as many people as you have wips.

Let’s see, I’m gonna exclude anything posted but just scrolling through fic my drive we have:

🌺🪹🏒

🐭🪹🔥

200 goals smut

A Softer SidTanger

Christmas Rabbit

Goaliecule Heatfic

Masterdoc

EK/Jars/Tanger nesting!fic

Fangs Ficlet

Nesting ficbit Dump

Northern Downpour

Shower Fic / Something Comforting Posted to ao3!!!!

Sidney Crosby Gender Essay

TJE Angst Miscomm

Wishbaby AU

I don’t have file names on my notes app since it’s the first place I write and then I move it to gdrive so I’m just gonna share the first line I think. Im not gonna double share if it’s got two different names.

Addams

“Everyone wants Tristan to talk.”

“It's late when Tristan hits call.”

Since technically poetry edits are also wips in that folder there’s

Build God

Control

Open Me Carefully

Periodic Table

Sacrifice

Technically there’s still some wips in the master docs listed below:

Fob Lyrics

Fob 2 more weeks

Discord Poetry Planning Threads (ie one day I might start an edit lol)

Baseball is about going home

Celestial Bodies

Ebs/Canner The kiss™️

Eulogy

Have I?

Rat A Tat

The magic you hold

I don’t have enough fic writing mutuals to do one per wip holy cow no and I’m not tagging writers/poetry posters I follow that I’m not mutuals with so uhhh tagging @podcasts-8-my-heart @ullybug and @prettyhockey tho idk if you write or just beta. Anyway if you see this and wanna do it feel free. Asks are open if you wanna ask questions or get summaries/spoilers/snippets.

[touchbased]

concept: you let one of my girls edge one of your guys