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drumlincountry · 2 years

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Man, I’m just happy these days. I’m just happy. It’s wonderful. I’m grateful for it.

It shines. Everything shines. Yesterday, on a ferry I watched the waves roll over each other and catch the sunlight - and I was happy. I spent 12 hours on public transport and still I was happy.

And yes, last night I got 5 hours of sleep and today I was exhausted and sore and stressed about work. But I was also happy. I’m happy because of the autumn chill in the air. I’m happy because I saw my friends, unpacked my bags, and listened to dracula. I’m happy because I have planted roses, even though I don’t know if they will take.

This time last year was one of the worst times in my life. I was hopeless, miserable, crying every day. I knew my life was making me sick and sad, and I couldn’t keep living it. I knew it would take an enormous amount of work to build a life that I could live, that I would need so much support for it. I felt so weak and it all felt impossible.

But guess fucking what!!!! It was possible!!!!!!! I was supported!!!!! and I was capable!!!!! and I did the enormous amount of work!!!!! AND NOW ... I’m content with my life. :)

There are problems, stresses, fears. There are big things I’m working towards that I might never achieve. There are big things I tried to do, and failed. And that’s ok! Because there are also hopes, dreams, joys. Fun! Love! Games!

My life isn’t perfect. Of course it isn’t. but it’s so much better, and I feel so much better.

#if you want to replicate the recipe for happiness the steps are: move out of the hellish city where the rents are so high #(you will continue to be sad for this part)#find a home in a walkable(ish) town with good public transport links #finish your thesis. leave academia.#get very sick. lose your job. REST. A LOT.#volunteer at a tiny local pride festival #decorate your rented home. learn the names of all the weeds in the garden.#spend lots of time with your favourite person in the world #live with your grandmother for a bit. this is important because youll be very grateful to not live with her any more afterwards #make new friends!#invite old friends to visit!#go out to live music at least once a month #get a new job teaching kids how to change the world #cycle. or at least go on walks.#spend less time with your shitty family members and more time with the less shitty ones.#this includes awkwardly reaching out to the ones you never really hung out with intentionally. text them on their birthdays etc.#as kimya dawson said: We all become important when we realize our goal should be to figure out our role within the context of the whole #turns out it makes u happy too :)#me fein

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