#fitjen

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seeing new stretch marks on my ass >

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asked a girl that had a BBL for her gym routine today (not one of my proudest moments btw). but in my defense, her thighs DID match that juicy ass.

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the gym has been kicking my butt but at least I’ve been showing up.

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i’ve been slipping up on my diet (and it shows!!!!!! 🫣).

major reality check to focus though.

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a dedication to (African) food and the health(ier) relationship i’m building with food in general.

I’m learning that i CAN enjoy eating without it being at the expense of my body & wellness.

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Top: July 6th, 2023 weighing 155 lbs, 2 days into consistent workouts coming from an inactive lifestyle and poor diet.

Bottom: July 24th, 2023 weighing 142 lbs, 2 weeks of living a more active life and eating a Mediterranean diet

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a few endomorph friendly beverages.

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today’s burn out

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7/5/23 Wellness Journal Entry:

Workout: 10 AM - 11:30 AM

5 min stretch

core & arms:

10 crunches (reg)

20 toe touches

60 sec jumping jacks

cardio:

2 mile run with walking breaks

Things I Ate/Drank:

breakfast:

1 cup of acv, lemon, and water

lunch:

1 fried whiting & quinoa with water

dinner:

1 baked chicken breast, 3 spoons of white rice, 5 pieces of grilled brocoli with water

i drank 10-15 cups of water in total

Self Care Work:

for the mind:

- completed a new level on duolingo

- did extensive research on being an endomorph and finding out what works for me on my fitness journey

for the spirit:

- gave thanks and talked to God before bed until i fell asleep

for the inner creative:

- doodled on procreate for a while

- took beautiful nature photos during my jog-walk

- made strides in branding for my business

for the vessel:

- i had 0 alcohol

- spent time in nature

- had the best shower

- cleaned my space

- finally stopped being pussy and got back on my workout grind

one act of kindness:

- sat through the most boring CutCo sales presentation to support my dad’s friend’s son. plus left an amazing sales review for him

- held space for a friend going through it

Something New I Learned:

The 3 somatotypes

Benefits of stair climbing

Rate Day: 8/10

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i was fighting for my life during this AM work out. but i’m so proud i got it done.

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so i went to the gym today for several seasons.

1. i decided to be smart with my money and there’s nothing fiscally responsible about paying for a service monthly that you don’t use.

2. as cliché as it sounds, i decided to be the change I’d like to see in my world. & that means taking control of my fitness and overall holistic health.

so i stopped myself from making up the same tired excuses that keep me living a sedentary lifestyle and really decided to take control of my health.

3. i visited a location that isn’t my home location today and it was refreshing. & it wasn’t packed! (yay for small wins!!!)

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Ive been in such a weird spot w my body dysmorphia lately. I want to lose weight but then I come across photos like this where I was so heartbreakingly small & that makes me question what it is that i truly want for my body…

My friends love(d) my skinny built. But I don’t think I was too much of a fan of it. Granted my face was sharp and v cunt enough to cut a bitch. But I think I cared way too much about the male gaze (and more importantly, my ex’s) that I felt so pressured to gain.

Now I just want to remain active and let my body do what it does.

I don’t want any supplements that will curb my appetite. I want to let my body be and operate as it pleases to.

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secured my new gym membership and can’t wait to get started at a better gym

an old friend of mine has a membership at my new gym & agreed to be my gym buddy/accountability partner.

i’m excited because she actually knows what she’s doing in the gym unlike me who does a little bit of everything lmao

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steamed clams and kombucha for dinny bc my gut health has been outrageous lately.

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the fact that I’ve been 131lb and 141lb in the same week is wild to me.