#for me and krystal tbh because we deserve nice things

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endless edits of baghra.morozova { mutuals may reblog }

[wongxiexie]

Grief and decisions

Pairing: Kim Jongin (Kai) x Reader Genre: Angst Word Count: 2.271 words Warnings: Mentions of cheating Note: The photo’s from EXO’s website. Just wanted to be clear that I hate cheating. It’s so infuriating and sad, tbh.

Excitement radiates off of Jongin in waves. It will be the first time he’ll see you again in two weeks and he’s just so stoked to have you back in his arms.

A soft buzz interrupts his thoughts and he looks at his mobile to open the notification that just came in. 

From: My sweetie pie 2:13 PM Please go to the apartment around 4PM

Not letting even a beat pass, Jongin’s fingers flies across the screen to type out an affirmative response. The smile on his face lights up even more upon seeing the contact name you put for yourself on his phone.

Standing up from his place on the bed, he makes his way to his closet and opens the dresser to flick through each of the shirts he owns. He decides that he has to look his best that afternoon. You haven’t really communicated with each other for the past couple of weeks, so he figures he should dress up for the occasion.

Besides, he wants to always look his best whenever he’s meeting up with you because that’s what you deserve anyway, only the best.

Sounds of shuffling filled the room upon his rummaging. Gucci, Balenciaga, Valentino, Burberry, high end brands fill his clothes hanger, name it and it’s sure to be there, but he just can’t seem to find the perfect one to wear for you.

But his actions come to a halt when he catches a glimpse of a white button up and a memory makes his lips tug upwards, urging him to reach for the piece of clothing. He picks it up from the rack and looks at it wistfully.

It isn’t anything grand, he just remembers you saying he looked really nice in a simple white button up, with you telling him he looked like he could be your boyfriend, to which he replied, ‘Why don’t we make that true then?’

He laughs even more upon the reminder of what you did next. He expected you to kiss his cheek like the darling that you were, but instead he was met with a shocked expression on your face followed by a smack on the arm and you telling him he better not be joking.

It’s decided then, he’s going to wear that shirt.

Upon finishing his preparations, he picks up his phone, wallet and keys from the counter and rushes out early so he can buy some flowers for you.

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Fifteen minutes has passed since he arrived at your front door and just stood there. Anxiety is eating at him from the inside and the level of nervousness he feels is through the roof.

Glancing at his watch, he sees it’s already 3:58. Should he wait two more minutes or just knock already?

He almost jumps in surprise when the front door opens and looking in, he sees it was Kyungsoo who unlocked the door. His brows furrow a bit. He had wanted to talk to you alone, but he guesses he couldn’t really blame you or Kyungsoo if either of you decided he should be there when Jongin came over.

Wiping his sweaty palms on his pants, he enters your home quietly, but he’s not prepared for the lump that suddenly forms in his throat upon the feeling of missing you and missing being with you in your home.

He walks further down the hallway and into the living room where he spots Kyungsoo leaning over you and whispering something to you. You give a small nod to the man which makes Kyungsoo release a heavy sigh and walk towards the other room.

“I’ll just be here if you need me,” he hears the man say in a low voice.

Yin and yang is how the whites of the room contrasted with the dark brewing inside him and he’s positive it can also describe the two emotions he’s feeling right now. On one hand, he’s filled with immense joy and love upon seeing you there, but on the other, the shame and regret flows through his veins as if they were already part of him.

And oh, how much he wants those feelings to go away, but he perfectly knows it won’t be that easy. How can it be easy when he hurt you because of his selfishness?

It’s as if he’s glued to the floor. He wants so bad to run to you and just engulf you in his hold, but he finds that he can’t move.

You’re staring at the ground as if it’s the most interesting thing in the room and Jongin’s heart breaks just a bit with the reality that you can’t bring yourself to look at him.

“[Y/N]...” he calls your name quietly, not daring enough to break the silence in the room.

You lift your head up to look at him and Jongin has to stop himself from breaking down at the sight of your red and puffy eyes. It is clear as day to him, you had been crying and it’s all because of him.

The flowers almost slip from his grasp which makes him snap out of his trance.

Taking a few steps forward, he kneels in front of you but you look to the side to evade his stare. Grasping your hand, he pushes the flowers towards you, but still, you keep your gaze away from his.

“I’m so sorry, [Y/N]...” he whispers. He rests his forehead on your knees and the moment he closes his eyes, he hears a quiet sniffle from you.

The tears start to fall down your cheeks, dropping onto Jongin’s hand and he finds that he can’t take it anymore for he’s aware it’s all his fault and he knows it damn well.

He raises his own teary gaze and grasps your face with both palms. “I’m so sorry baby, I’m so sorry,” he says amid his own tears.

You hold his hands and gently remove them from your face, all while still sobbing quietly. You still haven’t said a word and it makes Jongin even more frustrated and angry with himself.

He can take crying and screaming. Hell, he knows he deserves to be hurt by you, but this... this silence that you’re subjecting him to is something that he can’t take.

Standing up from your place on the couch, you walked towards the counter to a large brown box settled on the floor, something Jongin didn’t notice upon entering the room. He follows your movements and he tilts his head in confusion upon seeing it.

You release a shuddering sigh and clear your throat.

“These are your things,” you murmur lowly, sniffling after. “It hurst to...” you sobb. “...it hurts to keep seeing them, so I want them gone.”

The look on Jongin’s face physically pains you - he looks so guilt-stricken and heartbroken.

The first sob that escapes him wracks his chest and it is immediately followed by more. He stands up in a rush from his place and almost runs to get to you, but he falls on his knees by your feet.

Banging his fist on the floor, he cries in hate and disgust at himself. “I hate myself! I hate myself!” He sobs harder, and with shame, he realizes that he is laughable for having the audacity to think that you’ll still want him after he broke your trust.

You can’t bear the sight of Jongin hurting so you drop to your knees and grasp his arms, pulling him to you and engulfing him in a tight embrace. You relish in the feeling of having him against you even though you know the circumstances could’ve been way better.

Rubbing his back in gentle circles, you soothe Jongin through his tears as you whisper comfort to his ears. He’s still crying, going on about how much he regrets his actions, that those were all mistakes, how much he loves you and how he will do absolutely anything to get you back.

You bury your face in the crook of his neck and let your tears fall. You love Jongin, you really do, and contrary to what he believes, you have already forgiven him.

But you can never go back to how things were. You know it and he knows it even more.

It has been two weeks since he admitted to having cheated on you. You were shocked, so shocked in fact that you actually thought he was playing a cruel prank on you. You thought you knew him, and it never once passed your mind that he can do something like that. But oh, what do they always say? Right, never say never.

Your relationship had been experiencing some strain because of the stress both of your careers put on you. He was a popular model, one of the most sought-after, in fact, while you were an up-and-coming actress. Your busy schedules coupled with the pressure to deliver quality output caused the two of you to be so strung-up.

The situation wasn’t the best, but you honestly believed that you could pull through, just that you had to let the rough times pass and you had to work together. It never even occurred to you that he would try to find from somebody else the relief he needed to tide himself over.

Instead of seeking comfort and assurance from you, he chose to bask in the warmth of someone else.

That was a few months ago, and you were right, you did pull through what with the success of your most recent movie and the deal that he secured with a high end brand. You were mostly free to spend time together again after everything, and you loved the pleasant moments that came everyday.

You guessed that’s how it was with Jongin, he always brought you joy and light, and more importantly, hope and comfort.

At least until he admitted to everything a month after the release of your movie.

He said it meant nothing, that she was no one. But when you asked who she was and he told you his ex’s name, Krystal Jung, you didn’t even try to fight the hurt. She was his first love, the only woman he showered with love for years before he met you and developed feelings for you. The moment he uttered her name amid his choked sobs, you knew you had already lost the fight.

You believe him, the part where he said he regretted everything, but you don’t believe him when he said it meant nothing.

The affair made you realize that while you were hurting because of the rocky times in the relationship, he was hurting, too, and you weren’t even aware it. So much so that he felt the need to turn to another for the comfort he so wanted to feel.

But no matter the reason behind the affair, the fact remains that he cheated. The fact remains that he chose to do something that would inevitably break you apart. Ironic, huh? Ironic for him to do that when he should’ve done something to fix the strain instead.

His crying has eased, but you continue to rub his back. He rests his forehead on your shoulder as he keeps whispering sorry and forgive me to you. You halt your arms and breath a deep exhale that comes with a slight shudder, something Jongin notices so he plants a kiss to the underside of your jaw.

You hold his face with your hands and prompt him to meet your gaze. “I’ve forgiven you, Jongin. I’ve forgiven you the first time you asked for forgiveness.” You give him a pained smile and continue, “I love you, but seeing you hurts me every time.”

Resting your forehead on his, Jongin closes his eyes tightly as he starts to tear up again.

“I need some time to myself so I could heal from all of this,” you whisper. “...so we could both heal from this.”

He hugs you tight and starts crying loudly. “I can’t lose you, [Y/N]!” The force of his sobs makes his body shake, along with the frustration and guilt that is coming out of him almost in tangible waves.

“Please don’t leave me, I can’t live without you!”

Suddenly, a strong pair of arms roughly yanks him from you and you come face to face with Kyungsoo holding Jongin by his middle. Kyungsoo’s brows are furrowed deeply and you know it isn’t easy for him to see you and Jongin like this. He has long been friends with the two of you and he’s even closer to Jongin, which is why it hurt him too when you told him about what happened.

“Leave her alone, Jongin,” Kyungsoo says gruffly as he drags the taller man out.

Jongin loses the fight in him and doesn’t even try to break free from Kyungsoo’s hold. Instead, he stands up straight and walks towards the door, terrified of the possibility of not being able to have you back in his arms again. But he knows the least he can do is to honor your wish for him to give you space. That much he will grant to at least show you he respects you.

It feels even more final when Kyungsoo thrust at him the box containing his belongings.

He doesn’t even try to wipe his tears anymore. Grasping the knob, he opens the door as he prepares to exit your apartment, but not before turning back to see you sobbing on the floor, with Kyungsoo now holding you while looking at him with disappointment and hurt.

[cmcreid-warriorprincess]

Parentdale - - - for plotting ref!

So Lyndsy’s soiree has be thinking about the Havensdale parents a lot and I’d love to plot out some connections with them!! Below’s a list of all my viable parents and their backstories in a compact summary for reference (feel free to message me about connections etc and what it’ll mean for our actual characters!):

Havensdale Natives (they grew up here so high school etc connections like!!)

Karen McReid (single, fc; stana katic) - you know her already! The aunt of Ruby & Carrie, mom of Danny. She was super serious in high school, like ‘class president’ material also with a bit of a wild side but her sis Krystal was the Wild OneTM. Had the weight of the world on her shoulders ALL the time. Eventually dated Daniel Moore (Jenny’s uncle) in high school. Now a businesswomen and all around pillar of the community but keeps an arms length from being too involved in town shenanigans.

Veronica Evans (single) - this is Erica and Rose’s mom! She’s very lovely, a friendly neighbour with a messy ex that no one really knows the real story of (except a select few including neighbours the Wilsons). Close with McReids & Wilsons. Had a lot of friends in high school but lost touch with them when she was married. Is still trying to regain Power over her life and have fun again with friends. Doesn’t date but might want to. Help her.

Chuck and Claire Cooper (married, fc; paul rudd and leslie mann) - the Cooper’s! Christian’s parents and Cam/Callie’s aunt and uncle. Chuck is a teacher at Havens High and Claire owns local baker ‘Claire’s Cakes’. Chuck Cooper was the Ricky Beaumont of his time, total party animal, messy flirt, always up for shots. He’s a bop! Claire is the one who keeps them together, a responsible, very embarrassing mom (they’re both embarrassing tbh). They were BFF since childhood but didn’t get togetherTM until well after high school. ▣ (x)

Victoria Harvelle (married, fc; america ferrera) - Jess’ mom and absolute #dramaQUEEN. She grew up in Havensdale and got the hell out as soon as she turned 18. She’s an ex soap opera star, glamazon and simply #dying over having to be back in Havensdale all these years. Thinks she’s better than everyone - always did. D-I-V-A. Fake friends only probably. Knows her husband is cheating on her. Will not discuss his love child Lua Harvelle thanks bye. Was compelled by Jess to think they’d sent her away for her bad behaviour but tbh won’t bring her up either.

Mitchell and Lacy Morrison (married, fc; alexis denisof and charisma carpenter) - the Morrison parents! Mitch is an absolute dork with really cool socks who owns ‘Morrison Records’. Honestly just...a soft, nerdy Dad who loves his wife more than anything. Lacy is the Bad GirlTM and always was (definitely in love with this nerd all her life tbh). She’s very cool which makes up for how uncool Mitch is. Remember, non-magical people think Mark woke up from his ‘coma’ recently and magicals know he was brought back from the dead. They deserve a nice night, basically.

Aaron and Marie Fairchild (widowed, deceased) - Charlene’s mom/Rachel’s uncle and aunt. Marie died when Charlene was young and Aaron is always on the road for work. Marie was thee Cool MomTM and very involved. They both would have had a TON of friends until Marie died and Aaron became distant. Needless to say, neither are here tonight.

Lyndsy McArthur and Andrew Moore (re-married - fc; , deceased - fc; jason bateman) - Jenny’s parents! We all know Lyndsy of ‘Lyndsy’s café’. She’s an absolute sweetheart with a right hook to match. Another piller of the community TBH, need I say more? The same goes for Andrew who died when Jenny was little (he was a fireman). These two were high school sweethearts, 100% the cutest couple, probably prom king and queen. Lyndsy’s now married to Derek McArthur if y’all remember!

Felicity Montgomery (married, fc; madchen amick) - #icequeen! In high school though she was a punky rebel with a giant attitude problem. Her and Ethan McArthur were also #that couple - don’t remind her. (x)

Maryse Anderson (married) - Effy & Lana’s mom, god help her. Very judgy, very straight laced and god fearin’ - she’s also super involved with the town’s events etc. Probably causes drama at every PTA meeting. Probably has beef with every other parent in town. BIG SECRET: her husband is in jail.

Larry Manning (married, fc; will smith) - Tyler’s dad. Owner of family pub/restaurant ‘The Silver Fox’ and a town treasure. Basically everyone’s dad, always looking out for you and can fix pretty much anything. He’s a settled down, very chill, married man and father. Was literally THE COOLEST guy in high school though, ask anyone!

Fred Porter (married) - the Porter dad! Can you believe there was an original Greg? ‘Cause Fred was breaking hearts, jaws, his own fists and making 1000 mistakes per minute long before his second son was even a thought. He got his act together! He’s a very hard working dad with good, family values who only wants the best for his family. Is so hard on Greg because he sees so much of himself in him tbh. His wife was 100% his saving grace, he loves her so much.

Mr and Mrs Jennings (married) - Isaiah’s parents! Mr Jennings is a member of one of Havensdale founding families so they’re SUPER involved in the town. They’re very fancy, have a big ole house, love to take trips but are friendly with everyone. They’re only snobby on accident. Mr Jennings is very serious and is waiting for Isaiah to stop his nonsense and join the family business. Mrs Jennings is way funner.

Not *from* Havensdale but live here now!!

William ‘Bill’ Tyler (technically, legally still married, fc; mark ruffalo) - Hailie’s dad. He own’s ‘Bill’s Tech Store’ which is a computer store so he’ll fix your WiFi etc. A grumpy loner type with an absolute heart of gold. Everyone who was around at the time knows his wife Grace Laurel Tyler left him and Hailie years ago (her dramatic return is still lowkey on the D.L right now though). Loves his daughter SO MUCH, is stressed to his eyeballs about her having.......a boyfriend. ▣ Was dating Sarah Palmer before she died (Juliette's mom) and honestly, me and Kayleigh figured this out today and I'm still crying.

Joseph Montgomery (married, fc; matthew mcconaughey) - Mr Montgomery! He’s lived here with Felicity since before Elena was born (22+ years). He’s a business man with political ties and always wears a suit. A big ole charmer that you literally can’t help but like!

Mrs Porter - info to follow on Greg, Simon and Annie’s mom but lbr...she’ll be an angel!!!

Penelope ‘Penny’ Manning (married, fc; salma hayek) - Tyler’s mom. The Mannings moved to Havensdale 17+ years ago! Penny’s a high flyer, works in fashion, always has her hands-free in, slightly aloof and very scary when she’s on the phone dealing with a problem. The BossTM. Absolute goals. Loves her son and doesn’t mean to be so absent. Friends with everyone but she never has time.

Joseph Salvatore (married, fc; jared padalecki) - Joey and Keith’s dad (and maybe more). He’s lived in Havensdale full time aroundabout when Keith was born (ISH). Before this, he was a legit rockstar. He toured, he did the whole sex, drugs, drink and rock ‘n roll thing. Now he’s a real pillar of the community, owns the gym, is very involved with the town - which made the arrival of his Secret Son Joey such a SCANDAL. He’s still recovering.

Charles Harvelle (married, MIA, fc; david tennant) - No one has noticed yet or caused a scene about it but Mr Harvelle is currently missing.... Details will follow, for now his wife just believes he’s on another business trip AKA having an affair with his secretary. A mess at being a father and husband. RIP. Has lived in Havensdale aroundabout 18 yrs with his wife and Jess.

Mr & Mrs Thomson (married) - Tessa’s parents. They’re both hunters who’ve been on the road for most of their lives (saving people, hunting things, the family business). Just a fab couple! A supportive, dorky dad and a badass yet super sweet mom. They’re v likable and have been in town for a fair few months now.

[je0n]

can you say something nice about mutuals you've interacted with who you think are closest to you? can be as many as you wish, it's time to spread positivity xx

OKAY YES!!! I love and adore every single one of my mutuals but here’s some I’m closest to… you guys are the reason stars shine at night

@jungkoog & @gooddaybybts - 12/10 would die for dez and karen and thems the facts….. blessings to this world… funniest smartest sweetest kindest wisest most beautiful most caring people in the world….. I have no words to describe the Love and Affection I feel for these two um they’re the best people I’ve ever met in my life and I couldn’t imagine my life without them in it…. if love was a person it would take form of dez and karen

@2awake - sweta is an actual queen??? she’s one of my best closest friends on here and I’m so happy and thankful to have met such a kind, funny, beautiful and radiant soul!!! she’s absolutely amazing, her personality is top notch and her love for jin is the greatest thing in the world

@defendkimseokjin - britt has the kindest, purest soul in the world.. I’m not even exaggerating like.. people like her are what makes this planet keep spinning around and what makes the sun shine and birds sing…. she’s literally the kindest, most beautiful person with the softest heart in the world and she has so much love in her it’s absolutely astonishing.. her kind heart and loving, soothing words have helped me immensely when I needed it most and I will always treasure that, and her, dearly

@jahehyung - lu is an amazing person with an incredible, bright, beaming personality and I treasure her so incredibly much!!! I’m so thankful to know her, she deserves all the love and happiness and I hope she always knows how incredible she is

@busanbfs - ali is an actual princess and an angel sent from above?? my heart became 100x softer ever since I met her.. she’s a beautiful, kind soul with a heart of pure gold and I love her so incredibly much

@gukiday - asya is an angel and I love her so much.. talking to her is so relaxing and her words are always kind and soothing and she, herself, is such a kind-hearted soul, an absolute sweetheart and I treasure her very deeply 💕💕

@rapmonphile - I love mags so much!!! she’s such an all-around amazing person and I’m so glad to know her!! from the moment we started talking I felt like I’ve known her for years, I found talking to her extremely easy, effortless and in a way, relaxing.. she’s just absolutely amazing and deserves the whole world and everything good in it

@mewchim - unfortunately Jenny and I don’t talk very much which I’m very sad about, but I needed to include her here because she, with her incredible artistic skills, drove me to start editing and doing graphics and I want to thank her for being such an inspiration and for being so kind and a beautiful person 💕💕💕

@1oyalty - honestly, there is very few words in the English (or any other, for that matter) language that can properly describe the amazingness that is rie.. she’s an INCREDIBLE person, she’s absolutely stunning, with a beaming personality and so kind, generous and simply beautiful in every single possible way.. anyone would be more than happy and blessed to know such a person and I definitely know I am.. rie I love you so much

@velvetjjks - I LOVE KRYSTAL!!! she’s such a bright soul and from the moment we started talking I felt like I was talking to my best friend of 20 years?? like.. talking to her is so easy!! she’s so kind and positive and I feel like her positivity and brightness definitely rubs off on others!! I’m so blessed to know her tbh I absolutely love krystal, she deserves all the love and happiness and everything good in the world

@2seoke - JO IS AN ACTUAL QUEEN!!! she’s SO insanely talented, funny, kind, positive and bright and she’s such a good friend.. an actual blessing tbh!! jo I miss you so so much I think about you daily even when we don’t talk :(( ily

@happybdayjoonie - from the moment c and I interacted for the first time I felt her positivity rub off on me.. she reaches out to people and tries to befriend everyone and it’s so admirable how friendly and outgoing she is!! she’s SO sweet and so bright and cute and AMAZING and she deserves all the love and happiness in the world.. people like her are what makes this world a better place

@jeylovestoblog - jey and I only met fairly recently but it took her mere seconds to capture my entire heart tbh.. she’s so incredibly talented, friendly and talking to her feels so effortless and comfortable.. plus she’s absolutely and completely stunning like how is she even real