#gaaah also sorry for the late response!!!

[redrumrose]

OC question for you! What inspired you to create your main guys? Did they have any previous incarnations before they became the characters you have today?

Aw heck yeah! The main crew is inspired by a bunch of different things and kind of fell into place gradually. Mainly, I've always been super interested in "The Atomic Age" and I love mad scientist characters ^^ Alot of them are inspired by things happening in the era as well! (the rise of a new science, hippies, glamour, cowboys, dangerous kids toys, etc. xDD)

Dmitri definitely had a few versions of himself at first xD Originally his story actually took place in the 80s (cause I was really inspired by Stranger Things and Alexei's character xDD). He was also a lot crueler and worked by himself (Sunny wasn't his assistant yet). In his original design he also wore a gas mask with his suit (I wanted it to be that you never saw his face until the very end of the story).

BUT all that changed for many different reasons. One was I had another mad scientist whose story took place in the 80s (Anton and Aubrey), and I didn't want 2 stories to take place in the same era, so I changed Dima's to the 60s (I was more interested in that time period anyway haha). Also at the time I first designed Dmitri, a few months later a popular cartoon pilot came out, and by complete coincidence, a character in there looked similar to him (gas mask with suit and everything). I had to redesign him, I was so pissed too haha xDD But with his design change, I also wanted his story and character to be more fun as well (and less serious), which I think suits him alot better. So thankfully it was all change for the better! ^o^

Sunny also changed a bit from his first version. When I first created him (years and years ago pffft) he was just an artsy beatnik.

He was still very kind and sweet, he also still had his strange hippie parents, but he wasn't a scientist. I'd found an old sketchbook full of old little one off comics I made of him and remembered I still loved his design, so I revamped him a bit and made him an entomologist.

Then somewhere along the line, I wanted Dmitri to have an assistant and figured why not him, and the rest is history haha.

Lastly Chayne was another character that had a big glow up xD

I don't think I've mentioned it before, but Chayne and Sunny were originally created together.

His name was Jaime at first and he was also a beatnik type character xDD But he was always Sunny's friend, a 'bad kid' pffft, a wise ass, and he always had a missing eye xD (I think I was inspired by the emo hairstyle, covering one eye, and thought it would be funny to have a twist to that with a character xDD) As I was developing Dmitri and Sunny's story I wanted ONE more mad scientist and figured bringing Sunny's best friend back. When changing him, I knew I wanted his science to compliment Sunny's a bit, and what better thing to go with bugs then plants. I didn't want a 'Seymour' or even 'Poison Ivy' type plant character though, so I went with a theme in plants we rarely ever see, cacti and desert plants. And with that came his western theme x3 I changed his name too to try and reference "Sonny and Cher" (so Sunny and Chayne) xD Jaime is his middle name now xDD

Oh my gosh I wrote an essay haha (sorry for that ^^;) I could go on all day about character creation and development.

[creative-kny-fics]

Hi there! Since your blog didn't say whether you're a minor or not, I hope this isn't inappropriate since I'm a minor!

Anyways, may I request something? That is, if requests are open ofc!

I have been absolutely obsessed with lee!Obanai lately. Hell, I even went as far as roleplaying with AI bots because my obsession is starting to get out of hand 😭

Aaanyways, I had this cute little idea of Lee!Obanai and Ler!Kaburamaru!

So so, Kaburamaru loves tickling his owner to cheer him up, right? Well, when Kaburamaru tries once again to cheer Obanai up, Obanai has decided he's had enough. Without thinking he instinctively tickled the snake back. But realizing that Kaburamaru isn't even a tad ticklish, Obanai realizes the mistake he's made, too. And the fate he has bestowed upon himself. Kaburamaru knows what he was trying to do. And his white snake friend won't hold back now.

If requests aren't open, then I deeply apologize!

Ohhh don't worry! Your idea is great, it's that literally when someone tickles you your first reaction is revenge-. So it would make sense for Obanai to do the same! And of course, don't worry (I'm also obsessed with him ajhslagsksyssk)

Ler: Kaburamaru

Lee: Iguro Obanai

'Where did that snake go?', Iguro searched all over his estate, he couldn't find Kaburamaru. Sometimes they played hide and seek, but Iguro had already given up.

'Ok Kaburamaru, you win. I'm already tired and bored', there was no response, he waited for about 2 minutes but his snake did not appear. Sigh.

'Kaburamaru, I already told you that you won. Get out once and for all', again there was no answer, Iguro then sat on the floor, waiting for his friend to come back soon

'Kaburamaru...Aren't you going to show up? Hey? Kaburamaru, is that you?', a noise caught his attention, it was probably him trying to scare him. 'Come here Kaburamaru', nothing, there was no response.

'Kaburama- MHM!!', a tingling in the back of his neck alerted him, Kaburamaru was there. 'Kaburamaru, I know what you're planning to do and I don't like it', meh, he won't understand you Iguro, he's just a snake and he just slides And well,

Kaburamaru continued to wave his tail behind his owner's neck.

'Kaburamaru! No! Mmmm!', perhaps Obanai's neck was not so sensitive, but enough to make him smile at least a little.

'Enough!', he took Kaburamaru and what did he do? What anyone would do after being tickled, return the favor.

Only after a few seconds did Iguro realize what an idiot he looked trying to tickle his snake.

'What the hell am I doing?! Agh! How pathetic! You planned this, didn't you?!', Iguro, don't yell at Kaburamaru, it doesn't suit you

Iguro placed his snake close to him, trying to stay calm in the face of that situation, which for Iguro, was the most idiotic thing that ever occurred to him.

'How come I thought that?! I mean, you're not even ticklish! No, but it's worse than a snake tickling me! Has no sense! It doesn't have- MMMMM!!! No! Kaburamaru! Sorry! Please no!'

I told you what was wrong with you, while you were throwing your tantrum, Kaburamaru slipped into your uniform and as I type he is getting closer to his target

'Kaburamaru! I'm sorry! You-! MHMHMHMH!!', Iguro, just do it, it's not like it's the first time Kaburamaru has heard you laugh. 'I-I refuse!', well, Kaburamaru has no choice.

'GAAAH! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! NAHAHAHAT THEHEHEHERE!! KABURAMARU!! PLEASE!!', he brought both hands to his stomach as he kicked into the air, and yep, Iguro throws a tantrum when tickled.

'STAHAHAHAP!! SOHOHORRY!! SORRY!!!', there are many things you will have to apologize to Kaburamaru for, first you finished the game, then you tried to tickle him and yelled at him. If Kaburamaru spoke, I'm sure you'd be doomed

'KABUHUHURAMAHAHAHARU!! PLEHEHEASE!! YOHOHOU KNOHOHOW HOW BAHAHAD IS IT!! NOHOHOHO!! MEHEHERCY!! ALHDLAHSKSJSLSJAKSJ!!', oh, poor thing, he can't talk anymore, I think Iguro is too ticklish for his own good

For almost 3 minutes, Iguro was unable to utter a coherent word. Only pure laughter came out of his mouth and some prayers to his pet, imploring him to stop

'*gasp* STA-STAHAHA-STAHAP!! *hip* KAHAHABU!! *snort* NOT MOHOHORE!! *squeak* I GIHIHIVE!!', well I guess he's had enough, sorry Kaburamaru, but if you want to continue tickling your owner, you'll have to stop and give him a rest

Anyway, Kaburamaru stopped and Iguro fell to the floor almost fainted, I guess the bandages didn't help him breathe at all.

'Dahahamn snahahake... WAHAHAHIT!! NO AGHAHAIN!! SOHOHORRYHYHY!!', you better stop threatening and badmouthing Kaburamaru, he's still in your uniform

[365days365movies]

March 17, 2021: Darby O’Gill and the Little People (Review)

This is a delightful movie, and WAY better than anticipated!

I mean it, I had a really good time with this movie. And I’m hoping that there are more folklore-based movies coming up, because I genuinely enjoy them! But as for this particular movie, I’m a sucker for some good Irish stories, what can I say? If anybody has any suggestions for more of these, PLEASE send them my way, because I love ‘em.

But OK, let’s get into my thoughts in full, huh? Recap can be found here and here! On to the Review!

Review

Cast and Acting: 8/10

Man oh man, do I love Albert Sharpe and Jimmy O’Dea in this movie! The two actors, both of whom are Irish, nail their roles, and I honestly love them both for it. Their interactions are a lot of fun throughout the movie, and they make both Darby and Brian fun characters to watch bounce off of each other. As for the rest, they’re...mostly good. The interesting thing, though, is the fact that of the main cast outside of those two, only Kieron Moore is Irish. Yeah, Janet Munro is English, as is Estelle Winwood, and Sean Connery is...well, Sean Connery. Any oddly enough, their roles in the film feel way more generic, and less authentic to the environment of the movie. To be specific, the film feels more Disney and less cultural when they’re on screen. Part of that is almost certainly the scenes that they’re given, but I can’t help but feel like there would be more to those scenes if they were cast more authentically. Also...Sean Connery is Sean Connery. Yeah, he’s basically just Sean Connery, BEFORE James Bond, even!

Plot and Writing: 8/10

I love the plot of this story, which takes quite a bit from Irish folklore. Of course, that’s the idea, as Walt Disney collaborated with the Irish Folklore Commission for years to make this movie, and bought in a lot of Irish influence in developing it. He traveled to Ireland on a few occasions, and even spent extended time at the Dublin Library just doing research in developing it. And it shows! The movie itself is based on a book by H.T. Kavanaugh, and further adapted by Lawrence Edward Watkin, with help from Disney. It’s a good script, and a...mostly well-paced story. Bringing in the Banshee and the Death Coach as late as they did was...not well-done. Sorry, that’s just truth. They should’ve been at least foreshadowed or mentioned early in the film, but they both pop up really late in the game. Also, the horse’s identity as a pooka is...just sort of dropped on us? I dunno, some writing could’ve been improved. And that isn’t counting the sometimes corny, DIsney-esque writing. But, as said, it is a Disney movie.

Directing and Cinematography: 9/10

Robert Stevenson is one of Disney’s most hallowed directors, and responsible for three of my childhood favorites: Herbie the Love Bug, Bedknobs and Broomsticks, and, well...Mary Poppins. SO YEAH. Dude has accomplished! And it’s well-directed, very well-shot, and...very Disney. And, no, there’s nothing wrong with that. But it’s composed of a lot of stagnant shots. But, thanks to cinematographer Winton Hoch, those shots all look pretty great, too. It’s a great looking movie!

Production and Art Design: 9/10

Same thing here, as I’d love to visit this Ireland. This film really paints the countryside as idyllic and pleasant, and this is a movie that any cottagecore fan should internalize deeply. Which is ironic...since this was filmed in California. Uh oh. I DEFINITELY don’t know Ireland, because I SWEAR that I didn’t know that until typing this review. So, yeah, maybe less accurate than I thought. Still, given that fact, this is a great looking movie. Despite some...slightly dated effects.

Music and Editing: 9/10

Speaking of dated effects...yeah, some of these are pretty markedly dated, like the pooka up above. However, the size-bending little people sections are AMAZING. Seriously, the effects there are VERY good, and it’s genuinely hard for me to figure some of them out. You’d think that this would be extremely easy, given that the film is 62 years old, but...no, I don’t intuitively know how they did it! It’s impressive! The editor, by the way, is Stanley Johnson, and he does a good job, all things considered. And the music! GAAAH, THE MUSIC! Oliver Wallace nails the tone of this score, and I adore this soundtrack. It’s just...good!

86% seems right, if not a little low, if I’m honest!

Roger Ebert called this movie the best Disney live-action film, which...it definitely isn’t. Sorry, nobody-but-NOBODY beats Mary Poppins for that title. Still, I do actually like this movie a LOT, and it’s up there with my favorite live-action Disney movies. I’ll have to rewatch those at some point, honestly. Maybe I’ll let you all know when I do.

But OK, let’s get back to that chronological progression of films, huh? Looks like I’m still in 1985, and...oh. It’s Woody Allen again. Topical?

March 18: The Purple Rose of Cairo (1985)

[solartranslations]

VF Dante Chapter 5: Ebb and Flow

The two go after the heroine who has been taken by Joshua. Dante has no further doubts…

~*Scene: VF Captain’s Cabin*~

Felicita: Zzz

~*Flashback: VF Deck*~

Dante: Right now, your family is something I’ve sworn to protect—

Dante: And they are my future!

~*End Flashback*~

Joshua: …His “future”…

Felicita: *wakes up*

Joshua: I see you’ve awaken, Princess of Regalo

>That fog…

>Where’s Dante?

Joshua: It is one of “Justice’s” Arcana powers

Joshua: I remember…using it to protect the island a long time ago

Joshua: Your beloved and Ash should be headed this way

Joshua: You will see him soon…

Joshua: I’d tell you to relax, but I doubt you trust me

Felicita: …

Joshua: This is off topic but, are you the daughter of Arcana Famiglia’s Papa?

~*Flashback: VF Staircase*~

Dante: Did you know that in the past, Mondo was even more unreasonable than he is now?

Dante: He thought the way he was raised was wrong. So, he was always very strict on the son he had with his first wife

Dante: …As a result, that son rebelled by running away

~*End Flashback*~

Joshua: I see Mondo hasn’t changed…has he already forgotten about me?

>There’s no parent who doesn’t care about their child!

>You’re the reason Papa dotes on me so much?

Joshua: …Yes. I agree

Joshua: Right now…I’m actually in the same situation. But it might be too late…

Joshua: Is that what happened after I left? *laugh*…should I apologize then?

Joshua: I’m sure you know that’s also part of his love

Joshua: *laugh*…Your father may be strange, but he is very kind

Joshua: I wish I could have seen him again while I was still myself

Felicita: !

Joshua: Take these… I’m sorry for being a terrible older brother

Joshua: …Ah, I’m, out of, time…

(*grab) (*whish)

Joshua: …I have you. My sister… “Wheel of Fortune”

~*Scene: VF Staircase*~

Ash: So just to be clear. You really weren’t Strawberry Head’s dad, old man?

Dante: No! Ojou-san’s father is the top of “Arcana Famiglia”

Dante: He’s the first person you must see when you come to the island

Ash: Who said I was going?

Dante: We’ll talk about that later. Saving Ojou-san comes first

Ash: Still, I did think something was weird between you two. But I didn’t expect you had that kind of relationship

Dante: Yes, it is “that kind”

Dante: Hm? That looks like…

Luca: Dante! …And, you!!

(*crackle)

Ash: The useless alchemist. Relax. I’m not in the mood to fight

Debito: Well, I’m not going to waste my strength either. Luca, cut the damn flames

Luca: Guh… You all have such foul mouths

Dante: I’ll take responsibility for Ash. We have more important things to do

Ash: Yeah. The old baldy is going to go save his amore

Luca/Debito: Amore?

Ash: You’re his friends, right? Then help

(*glare) Luca: Dante, how exactly did you explain who Ojou-sama was!?

Dante: Well, a lot happened…

Dante: But I fully understand that enjoying myself in this situation wasn’t proper as your superior and—

Debito: Ugh, you’re going to brag now? I’m not listening to this…so I’ll go ahead

Dante: Of course, when we get back I’ll be sure to…

(*smile) Luca: …When we return to the mansion, I’m sure you’ll need time to speak with your “amore”

Dante: No, actually I was…

Nova: There you are, Dante!

Nova: Why are you muttering to yourself? And I’d like an explanation regarding the guy behind you

Nova: Jolly said he was leaving the captain’s cabin to Pace and Liberta. We should get back as soon as possible

Nova: I’m glad we were able to regroup, but now…I feel uneasy about them

Nova: And, Dante. Why is there steam coming out of your head?

Dante: S-steam!?

Ash: People who group together really are laidback…

Dante: L-let’s go!!

Fukurota: Hoot…

Dante: You’re worried about Ojou-san too, huh Fukurota?

Dante: It’ll be alright. I promise I’ll save her

~*Scene: VF Deck*~

Jolly: The fog has cleared so now is our chance

Jolly: We’ll finish this while the “Justice” Tarocco is still dormant…

Jolly: I’ll leave the skeletons to you two

Pace: You got it!!!

Liberta: Hehe…here I stand, against a countless sea of skeletons

Liberta: Yeaaaah!! This is so exciting!

Liberta: Hiyaaah!!

Jolly: This ship was created using the same principles as the Tarocco…how very interesting

Jolly: It’s also full of things that pique my interest

Jolly: I’ll make sure it serves Regalo to the fullest…

Pace: Let’s hurry home and have lasagna!!

~*Scene: VF Captain’s Cabin*~

Felicita: !

Joshua: I can’t lose this host…before returning to the Tarocco…

Joshua: Now, change my relationship with my host into the form I desire, “Wheel of Fortune”

>What does that have to do with losing your host?

>The “Wheel of Fortune’s” power…

Joshua: If I lose him, it will be too late

Joshua: Are you really a contractor if you don’t use your power?

(*crash!)

Felicita: !

Dante: You treat your sister much too roughly, Tarocco of “Justice”!

(*glare)

Felicita: !?

~*Scene: VF Deck*~

Joshua: …Do you know why…I haven’t been able to find a new contractor for so long?

Felicita: …

Joshua: Hah!!

Felicita: !

Dodge!

>Hit

(+50 Amore)

>Miss

(-50 Amore)

Felicita: *dodge*

Dante: Hah!!

Dante: I don’t know any of the specific rules between Tarocco and their contactors

Dante: You’ll have to ask your creator, or an alchemist who studies your power

Dante: All I know is that “the cards choose their hosts”

(*hoist)

(*whoosh) Dante: Uryaaah!!

Joshua: Hah!!

Felicita: *dash*

Felicita: Hya!

Attack!

>Hit

(+50 Amore)

>Miss

(-50 Amore)

(*whack) Joshua: Urk!

(*dodge) Joshua: …!!

Joshua: Quiet

(*whish) Joshua: Hah!!

Felicita: !

Dodge!

>Hit

(+50 Amore)

>Miss

(-50 Amore)

Felicita: *dodge*

(*whack) Felicita: Ah!

Dante: Ojou-san!!

Joshua: I was in a lone slumber after my host passed, you wouldn’t understand how I feel��

Joshua: With power beyond your knowledge, we Tarocco can control our hosts

Joshua: Using this host, I can even stay in this world forever by my own will…

Dante: …So it’s already lost all reason…

Joshua: Who decided what was “reasonable”? Humans?

Dante: Then I ask you. Why do the cards choose “humans”?

Dante: Beside the Tarocco, there are many things that hold great power…like guns, or important documents

Dante: If that power brings blessings and wealth—

Joshua: Grrraaa!!

(*rumble) Joshua: Find your way to despair…Un Labirinto Atmosferico

Dante: It can also cause suffering depending on its wielder’s ambition and intent

Dante: If that happens, I will put a stop to it

Dante: Let all be swallowed by the storm, and return to nothing…

Dante: Dare un Ordine! (TN: To give an order)

Felicita: …

(*dash) Felicita: Yah!

Attack!

>Hit

(+50 Amore)

>Miss

(-50 Amore)

(*whack) Joshua: Gaaah!

(*dodge) Joshua: …!!

Dante: If someone doesn’t take the first step, then nobody will

Dante: And I want to be that “someone”

(*crash!)

Joshua: Graaaaah…!!

>I admire you, Dante

(No Amore)

>I want to stand by your side, Dante

(+20 Amore)

>I want to support you, Dante

(+10 Amore)

Dante: Can I really become a good role model?

Dante: But, I’m satisfied being your guide…

Dante: Hahaha! Usually you stay behind so I can protect you. Isn’t that logical?

Dante: But…since you’ve chosen to be by my side—

Dante: I’m happy to hear that

Dante: You’ll support me? You’re quite confident, aren’t you?

Felicita: *mad*

Dante: I know. I’m probably already relying on you a lot

❤≪Dante≫ Seems concerned ❤≪Dante≫ Seems concerned ❤≪Dante≫ Seems concerned

Pleasure: I’m happy to receive her praise

Link: Saving Joshua will also be my repentance

Link: My greatest achievement was earning your heart

Pleasure: Her words are reassuring…but deep

Person: Saving Joshua will also be my repentance

Pleasure: I’m glad we’re close enough to trust each other

Link: Saving Joshua will also be my repentance

(*grip) (*whish)

(*step) Liberta: Dante, watch out!

❤≪Liberta≫ Seems confused

Pleasure: The skeleton!

Pain: What’s up with this ship!?

Felicita: !?

(*clang)

Dante: Thank you, Ojou-san, Liberta

❤≪Dante≫ Seems concerned

Pleasure: Ojou-san and Liberta both saved me

Person: I can’t let my guard down

Link: Saving Joshua will also be my repentance

Liberta: Geez, Dante! Focus! Is that skeleton the leader!?

Joshua: Ahhhhh…

Dante: Joshua…

Dante: …Ojou-san, is it possible for you to save him using the power of “The Lovers”?

❤≪Dante≫ Tarocco

Person: Ojou-san should be able to use her powers without issue now

Link: Saving Joshua will also be my repentance

Arcana: I’m not just denying our powers

Dante: “Justice” has lost sight of its true self…so use your powers to see what it truly wants

Dante: You should be able to do that now

Felicita: Okay

>It must…not really want to be apart

>”Gli Amanti”, lend me power

Gli Amanti: How interesting

Gli Amanti: I’m not the only one who likes my host

Gli Amanti: The power of your love has certainly grown

Gli Amanti: I can see that, so I will gladly lend my power

Gli Amanti: “La Giustizia” is confused…it wants to return, but is attached to its host

Gli Amanti: When it awakened, its host had no need for it, so perhaps it is resentful

Gli Amanti: It isn’t enough to need “La Ruota della Fortuna’s” power like it desires

Gli Amanti: Well, that’s all I can do

Gli Amanti: Continue to nurture your love, my master…

Felicita: !

Dante: Joshua…was set free?

❤≪Dante≫ Seems concerned

Person: Joshua looks…

Arcana: So “The Lovers” has provided the answer

Place: This light is…

Joshua: The Tarocco couldn’t return…because of my regrets…?

Dante: That’s just how you see it. “Justice” has already returned to its card

Dante: That was to be its fate sooner or later

Joshua: Fate guides us…you mean

Dante: …You understand, right Ojou-san?

Dante: The Tarocco was created by a human, and have not only power, but also emotions and a will of their own

❤≪Dante≫ Tarocco

Pleasure: Ojou-san seems to be friendly with her Tarocco

Arcana: The relationship between humans and that Tarocco is unknown but profound

Person: Joshua looks…

Dante: All we can do is struggle as we are manipulated by the Tarocco’s great power

Dante: Since it seems that is what they desire

Liberta: Dante! Where’d the leader skeleton go?

❤≪Liberta≫ Seems concerned

Pleasure: It’s so bright

Person: The one with clothes is the leader, right?

Daily: I haven’t fought it yet!

Dante: The leader of the skeletons…returned to where it belonged

❤≪Dante≫ Seems concerned

Arcana: The relationship between humans and that Tarocco is unknown but profound

Person: Joshua is Liberta’s…

Place: He���ll pass on in his rightful form…

Liberta: Aw, really. It ran away? …But, this view is really nice…

❤≪Liberta≫ Seems shocked

Daily: But I didn’t get to fight it

Place: Now we just have to get home to Regalo!

Dante: Yeah…

Joshua: …What kind of place is Regalo?

Liberta: Huh!? Why’re you asking that?

Joshua: I’m asking because you’re the one who’s here. Regalo was the destination of my journey

Dante: …Answer him, Liberta

❤≪Dante≫ Arcana Famiglia

Link: It’s not my place to say

Arcana: We have one more job left…

???: I can’t see very well here

Liberta: Dante? Oh, okay. You look like a ghost, so I’ll tell you before you go

❤≪Liberta≫ Seems concerned

Place: He knows Regalo?

Pleasure: Talking to a ghost will make for a great story later

Liberta: Regalo’s the best! There should be tons of flowers blooming right now, and everyone’s really nice

Liberta: …You should visit in your next life!

Joshua: Yes. I hope to as well. Thank you…

Liberta: Yup!

Dante: ……

Dante: …My last job here is done then…

Felicita: …

>I was scared, but I waited for you

(+30 Amore)

>Don’t leave me alone

(+20 Amore)

>Joshua has…

(No Amore)

Dante: Yes, you did well…

Dante: You’ve always been easy to scare since you were young

Dante: Yes…I apologize for making you scared

Dante: …I remember you clinging on to me like this the same way a long time ago

(Skip the next dialogue choice box)

Dante: This may sound cold, but his fate was already decided

Dante: …I’ll stay with you in his place. That has always been my duty

(Skip the next dialogue choice box)

>You remember?

(+10 Amore)

>I wish you’d forget…

(No Amore)

Dante: You spread your tiny arms wide and clung to me with all your might…

Dante: How could I forget?

Dante: It’s alright now…

Dante: What? Now is the only time I can say it

Dante: You get embarrassed too easily

Dante: It’s alright now…

Dante: But our feelings for each other have changed since then

Dante: Now…we’ve become closer kind of family

Dante: It’s embarrassing to admit, but when I’m with you, I end up acting so disgraceful

Dante: Like when you look at me with such honesty in your eyes…I never want to give you up to anyone

>I don’t want to let you go either

(+10 Amore)

>I want to stay with you forever

(No Amore)

Dante: I see…so you feel the same way

Dante: We’re alike…so we’re a good match

Dante: Felicita…

Dante: Of course you can

Dante: I’ll stay with you to make up for the time we were apart…

Dante: Felicita…

Liberta: The heck…I can’t watch!

❤≪Liberta≫ Can’t seem to handle it

Place: I can’t go over there!

Person: Have Dante and Ojou always been that flirty?

Nova: Cut it out already! And please explain what’s going on with shady Alchemist #3 over there, Dante!

❤≪Nova≫ Seems nervous

Person: This is unsightly!

Arcana: We aren’t done here

Place: Wait until we’re home

Ash: #3…you mean me!?

❤≪Ash≫ Seems irritated

Person: Shut it! Soybean!

Arcana: I’m the one who went after the old man

Link: Joshua…was saved

Luca: Well, the alchemist shouldn’t be a problem if he causes no harm

Luca: But the other thing is a different matter!!

Pace: Luca-chan’s making funny faces!

Debito: Leave them…I just want a drink and a nap

Dante: Haha…they can’t seem to bear this, but I suppose it means they care for you

❤≪Dante≫ Seems nervous

Person: Ash reminds me of how I used to act brave

Love: I don’t want to look like this in front of the young ones…

Ash: Don’t think you’ve won, old man. I’ll be staying in Regalo until I can get back at you!

>You can just ask for help

(No Amore)

>I won’t leave my “family” behind

(+30 Amore)

Dante: Yes, you’re still young. It’s the best time to be honest

Ash: I’ll pass if that means becoming a pervert like you

Debito: I agree he’s definitely a pervert

Dante: Yes. While you’re in Regalo, you’ll be “family”

Ash: Well if I just live on my ship in the sea, I won’t be family. Take that!

Luca: So another twisted person has joined our Family…

❤≪Dante≫ Seems to be having fun ❤≪Dante ≫ Seems concerned

Daily: It won’t go that easily though

Link: Ash needs to be around people

Pleasure: Words fitting of our future “Donna”

Link: Ash needs to be around people

❤≪Ash≫ Seems concerned ❤≪Ash≫ Seems concerned

Person: Don’t cling to each other in public

Link: I’m glad Joshua was saved

Arcana: I’m the one who went after the old man

Person: I’m family too?

Arcana: I’m the one who went after the old man

Link: I’m glad Joshua was saved

Liberta: Wait, why do you and him get along?

❤≪Liberta≫ Seems concerned

Place: This ship is interesting!

Person: Isn’t he our enemy?

Pleasure: This’ll be fun!

Ash: Listen! Don’t go calling us friends, family, or anything like that

Dante: Hahaha! Come then, if you want! I’ll take you on any time

❤≪Dante≫ Seems happy

Pleasure: I feel like I’ve been saved by saving someone

Love: I’ve been saved by having Ojou-san by my side

~*End of Scene*~

Special Voice obtained. It can be heard in the Profile section

(Continue to Famiglia Epilogue)

(Continue to ED1: 700+ Amore)

(Continue to ED2: 400+ Amore)

(Continue to ED3: <400 Amore)

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[sleepy-summoner]

dirsteh (summoner)/silas supports c-s

here are the dirlas summoner supports! they continue off of the FB conversations :^)

i’ve also had the a and s supports done for a while, but all the new summoner content inspired me to finish the others!

(this is also self-indulgent as hell but w/e)

C Support

S: Did you need me for something, Dirsteh?

D: Yeah! Remember how I said I was going to help you find your strengths? Well, that starts today! I was going to introduce you to the squad, and then we’re going out for a little training. While you guys get your exercise, it should give me a feel for how you are in combat. Does that sound good to you?

S: Uh, wow... Y-yeah, that sounds great.

D: ...Is something the matter?

S: No, not at all! I’m surprised you have a plan so quickly.

D: Hah! Well, I’ve done the same kinda thing with most of the Heroes here, so you could say I’ve had some practice.

D: Anyway, lemme introduce you to the crew. First, we have Ephraim! He’s the prince of Renais from the continent of Magvel.

E: Nice to meet you. *grins* Hope I can get a good sparring match out of you!

D: Eph, you just met the guy and you already want to fight him? *sighes and shakes head as Ephraim shrugs*

D: Next, this is Reinhardt! He’s a general of Friege from the continent of Jugdral. He’s equally skilled with magic and swords...but I asked him to use his sword today to add some balance to the team.

R: *nods curtly* A pleasure, Sir Silas.

D: And lastly, we have Gunnthrá, the eldest princess of Nifl. She’ll be supporting us with her really cool magic! (Heh, “cool”...)

G: *smiles gently* It is very nice to meet you, Sir Silas. I look forward to working together with you.

S: *bows* It is my honor to meet all of you. I’m very eager to work with you all, and I hope I can pull my weight.

D: *pats Silas on the back* Oh, you don’t have to worry about that! I’m sure you’ll do fine.

D: With that out of the way, let’s saddle up and head out!

—

D: So...how’d the first day go?

S: Really well! It’s interesting to see how people of other worlds fight compared to what I’ve learned as a knight of Nohr. I’m definitely learning a lot!

S: That Prince Ephraim though... He’s amazing! I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone take out so many people so quickly!

D: Yeah, Eph is pretty good! He’s one of the strongest we have in the Order, so I trust him to take care of a lot of things on the battlefield. I poked fun at him before, but I would definitely recommend that you take him up on his offer! You could absolutely learn a ton from sparring with him.

S: Will do. I’m excited to see how much I can improve from training with other Heroes!

D: I’m happy to hear that! As for me, from today’s training I think I’ve got a better idea of your abilities in combat. It might take me a bit longer to come up with a definite plan for you, but it shouldn’t take too long!

S: Sounds good to me. I can’t thank you enough for all your help, Dirsteh. At the very least, I promise to work my hardest to be a knight you can be proud to have in your service!

D: Oh, don’t sweat it too much! You’re doing a fine enough job as it is.

D: Anyway, good work today! I’ll call on you whenever I need you for some more training.

S: *salutes/bows* Of course.

[Dirsteh and Silas have reached support rank C.]

B Support

S: You wanted to see me, Dirsteh?

D: Oh! Hi Silas! Yes, I think I’ve figured out your role for this army!

S: Is that right? Well, lay it on me.

D: So I had a hunch the first few times we went out training and even back when went looking for tea leaves with Alfonse. I talked with the others and they pretty much confirmed my suspicions. Eph tells me that in your spars with him that while you may not exactly match him in physical strength, he has a hard time getting past your defenses. Rein and Gunn also note that you’re very protective, often taking hits meant for them. On the other hand, you seem to struggle with defending against magic-users and dragons, but I do have a few ideas on how we could improve on that.

D: In all, I think you could work really well as a protector to pull others out of danger, and maybe even draw out enemies with your good defensive capabilities!

D: ...Phew, that was a lot. So, what do you think?

S: *mouth agape* ...

D: Oh God, I broke Silas. Are you OK? I’m so sorry, I dumped all of that on you so quickly...

S: I’m fine! It’s just...you figured out all of that in such a short period of time? You’re incredible, Dirsteh, you know that?

D: *blushes* Oh! Well... *looks away bashfully* Like I said, I’ve done this before, so it’s nothing too special, but thank you...

D: You’re the one who’s been working so diligently this whole time, though! So if there’s anyone who’s incredible, it’s you.

S: Y-you really think so?

D: *smiles brightly* Yes! Ever since you were summoned, you’ve been one of the hardest workers in the Order of Heroes. I’m super proud of how far you’ve come.

S: *blushes and rubs back of neck* Goodness...that really means a lot coming from you. Thank you.

D: Of course! Also...there is something else. I’ve also...uh, been thinking of rewarding you for all your hard work.

S: A reward?

D: Yep! Anything you want from me! Like a new weapon or whatever, or anything you want to do.

S: Well... *ponders for a few seconds* How about we go on a picnic together? I’d love to see the scenery around Askr outside the context of a battlefield.

D: Huh? A picnic?

S: Is something wrong? I can try to think of something else if you want.

D: No, you’re fine! I just didn’t expect that as your answer. A picnic sounds great, actually! Next time I’m free, we can go. *grins* I call bringing dessert!

S: Haha, of course! Whatever you want to make.

D: *claps hands excitedly* It’s a da—uh, I mean... We have plans, then! This is going to be so much fun—I can’t wait!

[Dirsteh and Silas have reached support rank B.]

A Support

S: Dirsteh, you didn’t tell me you were a baker! These are amazing!

D: Oh! Well, thank you! I used to bake a lot for my family back in my world. But lately I haven’t had the time to bake, so I’m glad I haven’t lost my touch.

D: You’re a pretty good cook yourself! The food you made was delicious!

S: Really? *rubs back of neck sheepishly* Ah, well... I don’t consider myself a great chef by any means, but I’m happy you enjoyed it.

D: Maybe a little too much... *sprawls out on the blanket and groans* Ugh, I think I ate so much, I might get the itis.

S: *also lays down and faces Dirsteh* “Itis”? What’s that?

D: Oh, it’s a term from my world. It’s just that sleepy feeling you get after eating a big meal.

S: I see...

S: ...

S: Dirsteh, I’m curious. What’s your world like?

D: My world? Hmm... Where do I even start?

D: Well, first off, it’s way more advanced than Askr. Like...hundreds of years more advanced.

S: H-hundreds of years?

D: Yep! We have buildings that can be over a hundred floors tall, metal cars we can drive without the help of animals, water that flows with the turn of a knob...

S: Whoa... That sounds amazing!

D: Yeah, it’s pretty convenient! I definitely took it for granted before I was summoned to this world. Honestly, thinking about it now, I still miss some of that stuff from my world.

S: Oh. I’m sorry. It really must have been hard for you to adjust.

D: *waves hand dismissively* It’s OK. It was difficult at first, but I think I’ve gotten used to it for the most part.

D: Though...the thing that was the hardest for me to get used to was being constantly at war.

S: Are there no wars in your world?

D: There are, but they either happened in the past or they’re far away from where I live. I’ve only really known peace, so suddenly being summoned and thrust in the middle of a war was...a challenge for me, to say the least. I was just a nobody studying medicine, and now I command an entire army! All this responsibility stresses the hell out of me, and sometimes I still feel out of place here!

D: ...Oh! Sorry, you just wanted to hear about my world and I started venting...

S: No, no, it’s OK! I had no idea you were under this much stress...

D: Yeah, well... As the Order of Heroes’ tactician, I feel like I should be this confident, level-headed leader, so I try my best to hide it. I don’t really want anybody to worry themselves over me.

S: Dirsteh... Everybody here cares about you and your wellbeing, myself included. You may be our tactician, but you’re also a person. You shouldn’t feel like you have to bottle up your real feelings to be a strong leader.

S: In fact, if I may... I think you’re the strongest of us all. We come from worlds that are similar to this one, so there’s not too much that we had to adjust to. But you... You had to adjust the most out of all of us, and I think you’ve done an amazing job. You’ve led the Order to so many victories, you’ve saved entire kingdoms from ruin, and you’ve helped a lot of people here, even someone like me. So please don’t feel like you aren’t already a good leader.

D: *wipes corners of eyes and nods* ...Yeah, I guess you’re right. Thank you for that.

D: Heh... This is kinda a reversal from before, huh? It’s almost like the pep talk I gave you when we were looking for those tea leaves.

S: Speaking of, do you remember what I said around that time? I said that I wanted us to be the kind of friends that can talk about anything.

S: Now, would you consider us friends?

D: Wha... You’re so silly, Silas. Of course I do!

S: *holds up hands defensively* Just wanted to make sure! Anyways, I meant what I said. If you ever have any worries, feel free to vent them to me. Or if you ever need advice, ask, and I’ll do whatever I can to help.

D: That’s so sweet of you! But I can’t let you shoulder all of the burden! So the same goes for me.

S: Haha, of course. Now...is there anything else you wanted to talk about?

D: Hmm... Oh yeah! So my family...

[Dirsteh and Silas have reached support rank A.]

S Support

S: *sigh*

D: (Oh, there’s Silas. Though he seems a little worked up... I should make sure he’s all right before we head out.)

S: ...

D: Hey Silas!

S: GAAAH!

D: Oh gosh, I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to scare you.

S: I-it’s OK, Dirsteh. What did you need?

D: I was just going to let you know that we’re about to head out in a little bit for a mission from Commander Anna. I’ve already let the others in the team know, so they should be at the stables getting ready right now. Though...are you OK? You seem a little jumpy.

S: Y-yes, I’m fine. I was just lost in my thoughts, that’s all.

D: You sure?

S: *wordlessly nods*

D: Um...OK. Well, lemme just walk you to the stables and I’ll explain our mission along the way.

—

D: ...Anyway, it’s just a simple scouting mission. Nothing too hard, I think.

S: Right...

D: Well, I’ll leave you to prepare. Meet me at the castle gate when all four of you are ready!

[Dirsteh leaves. Silas stares at her as she departs.]

S: *sigh*

G: So have you told her yet?

S: O-oh! Hello, Princess Gunnthrá. W-what do you mean?

G: Heehee, don’t pretend you don’t know what I am talking about.

S: ...Is it really that obvious?

G: Quite.

S: *sigh* Typical of me to fall in love at first sight and take weeks to realize it. Though I worry that she doesn’t have the same feelings for me...

G: You realize that she is not obligated to reciprocate, correct?

S: Of course she isn’t! If things don’t work out, I at least want us to stay friends. I’m just worried that it’ll make things awkward between us.

G: *smiles knowingly* ...Well, I would not fret too much over it.

S: Why do you say that?

G: Perhaps just as obvious as your feelings is her favoring of you. I believe it would be worth it to at least let your feelings out. It will be much better than letting those worries fester within you and cause even more problems.

S: ...Yeah, I think you’re right. How should I do it, then?

G: I think something private would be a good start.

S: Hmm... We did go on a picnic a little while back. It was pretty secluded and we talked a lot... I think I could ask her on another picnic and tell her my feelings there.

G: It seems you have a plan, then.

S: *sigh* I feel so much better about this. Thank you so much for talking this out with me, Princess Gunnthrá!

G: *smiles gently* It is my pleasure, Sir Silas. Remember that we’ll be here to support you.

—

D: Thanks again for inviting me out on another picnic! It’s nice to wind down a bit especially with all the crazy stuff going on right now.

D: Though you didn’t have to make everything by yourself, you know! I could have taken some of it off your hands.

S: It's all right! I figured you already had enough to worry about. Anything to make your life even a bit easier.

D: That's so sweet. Thank you.

S: Of course.

[The two sit in silence. The air is so thick that a blade could cut through it.]

S: ...Say, Dirsteh. Do you remember the first time we met?

D: Hmm... Oh yeah! You were with Princess Laegjarn when we stormed the temple to stop Surtr from performing the Rite of Flames. I wandered too close to the front lines, and you almost skewered me but Grima knocked you flat.

S: *grimaces* ...That sounds about right.

D: ...But before that you stopped yourself. Why? You had the perfect opportunity to take out the enemy tactician.

S: Well... As I was charging, I caught a glimpse of your face under your hood. And...you looked like Corrin.

D: What? Last I checked I didn't have silver hair or red eyes.

S: No, the Corrin from my world. She doesn't look like any of the Corrins you've summoned to Askr. She looks more like you.

D: Huh, that’s strange. But with so many worlds and timelines I suppose anything is possible.

S: *nods* In the end, I just couldn't bring myself to hurt someone who looked like my best friend.

D: Hmm... Interesting. So I guess that's also why you seem a bit awkward hanging around the Corrins here.

S: ...Y-yes, that too. I think it also made me want to get to know you better and become friends. I hadn't seen Corrin in years, and I thought it would be the closest thing to meeting her again. I’ll admit, I might have been...projecting a little.

D: I'll say! But still... I'm really grateful for our friendship.

S: Me too. Which is why I hope the next thing I say won't ruin it.

D: ...What do you mean?

S: Dirsteh, I...

[Silas takes a deep breath and takes one of Dirsteh's hands into his own.]

S: At first, I was drawn to you because you looked so much like my friend. But...the more I got to know you, the more I saw how kind and compassionate you are. You care so much about everyone in this army, even someone as plain as me. When we’re together, my heart feels like it’s going to beat out of my chest, and when we’re apart, my mind only thinks about you. That’s why I...

D: ...

S: I think I'm in love with you.

D: What?! Y-you're...

[Blushing, Dirsteh falls silent and looks downward. After a while, Silas speaks.]

S: *gently* Dirsteh? It's all right if you don't feel the same. I know someone like you is way out of my league. I just wanted to get my feelings out before they started eating away at me.

D: N-no, it's not that. It's just... Are you sure this is how you really feel? This isn't the summoning contract speaking for you, right?

S: *nods earnestly* Yes, I’m sure. I've been in love with you since I first saw you, before you properly summoned me.

D: I-I see.

[Dirsteh absentmindedly rubs Silas's hand with her thumb.]

D: Sorry about that. I just, um...have a difficult time believing that anyone would actually be in love with me. In my world, when you look like me, you don't exactly have people lining up to date you. Even when I was younger, some people treated going out with me as a joke.

S: Dirsteh... I'm sorry you had to go through that.

D: *shakes head* It's OK. Over time, I kind of gave up on romance and just focused on my studies. I still would have crushes, but...I never acted on them because I thought that there was no way they would like me back.

D: But you... You said you love me?

D: Because I...I'm in love with you too.

S: Y-you are?

D: *nods* Ever since we went with Alfonse and the others to find those tea leaves. You were so sweet and earnest, I think I just...fell in love. You're also pretty cute, so that helped a bit. [Dirsteh laughs lightly as Silas blushes.] But you seemed so determined to be friends that I didn't want my feelings to get in the way of that.

S: Really? I was the same way. I knew I was projecting and I felt so guilty about my desire for something more.

D: I’m just glad you confessed when you did because it’s been eating away at me too.

S: *laughs incredulously* Well, how do you like that... Does this mean we can be a couple?

D: Heehee, you're so silly, Silas. Do you even have to ask?

[The two laugh as they embrace each other.]

[Dirsteh and Silas have reached support rank S.]

Confession Quote:

"To the Order of Heroes, you are the Summoner, wielder of the Breidablik and our revered tactician. But to me, you're so much more. I love you, and I am honored to be your partner in this life. On my honor, I promise to stay by your side for as long as you will have me."

[crazyloststar]

tagged by @mathclasswarfare​ and @audreyskdramablog​! <3

Author’s Name:

crazyloststar - I’ve had this online name for way too long and it’s because one time my little sister wanted to make us little bead bracelets and I just put these three words together and it kinda stuck. 

Fandoms you write for:

FFXV, Owari no Seraph, Tales of Zestiria - though FFXV has kind of taken over my creativity lately :333

Where you post:

Fic on AO3, and I’m most active in general on Twitter 

Most popular one-shot:

For ONS: and when we go crashing down, we come back every time - it had started as just a prompt for mikayuu week and kind of took on a life of its own

For FFXV: sunshine in an empty place, which means a lot to me because it’s also my first FFXV fic that I posted for Prompto’s birthday. I wrote it in a flurry after beating the game and I think it’s my longest one shot so far. 

Most popular multi-chapter story:

For ONS: Do I Wanna Know - this was my first ONS fic and I started it while still on vacation in Japan after going to a cafe in Ikebukuro. It got kinda wild but it was fun, and this was what got me really into ONS fandom and let me meet so many people I still have as friends today. 

For FFXV: I Can Take Anything - my promnis romcom that I had way too much fun with and is inspired by a silly 80s movie that isn’t a romcom but it should have been. Any movie that pulls the “there’s only one bed trope” is definitely skirting the line. 

Favorite story you wrote:

For ONS: You’re All I Need to Find - this was super self-indulgent because it’s a Unico AU, and Unico remains my all time favorite movies. I have plans for a part two for this that is outlined, I just need to get back to it gaaah. 

For FFXV: Bend and Not Break - It’s not done yet but this story is near and dear to me very much. It’s emotional and hurts to write sometimes, but I think that’s why I love it so much. It’s nearing the end also which I can’t believe since I’m almost at a year since I was first inspired to write it. 

Story you were nervous to post:

Come Here - This is a FFXV/It Follows AU and I was nervous because [1] it’s the horror/thriller genre which I haven’t written before and [2] it’s got dark themes, so that made me a little nervous folks wouldn’t read it. But the response so far has been so positive and thanks everyone so much for that!! <3

How do you choose your titles?

I’m supremely guilty of just using song titles and I’m not even sorry. Usually it’s from whatever song I had on repeat the most while writing the fic. 

Do you outline?

Lately I’ve been trying to more, but most of the time once I’m in the zone writing the characters take over and fuck it all up anyways...

How many of your stories are…

*complete?

56 [not counting collabs]

*in-progress?

7 [not counting collabs] across the three fandoms :3333

Coming soon:

- Bend and Not Break Chapter 8 - Come Here Chapter 3 - A smutty promptis one shot ^^ - Ignoct Big Bang piece - Promnis Big Bang piece  - Promnis Zine piece  - Gladnis Zine piece  - Mysti.cality ONS Zine piece  - ONS AU collab that has been in the works for a year IM SORRY VIX SOON I SWEAR //lies down

Do you accept prompts?

I do I do! I love discussing ideas and getting ideas from people and some of my one-shots are either from conversations with friends or art I’ve seen, so yes please. :D 

Upcoming story you are most excited to write:

The smutty promptis one is pretty fun I’m ngl. But honestly I am having tons of fun with everything I am working on - i feel like I’ve finally gotten back in the groove of writing after my injury last year and it feels great! \o/ 

Tag five authors to answer these questions as well: @vixenfur, @valerianights, @ninemoons42, @sinkingorswimming, @ihavetobenkyou

<3

[neverendingsourceofmystery]

This is the kind of post I never really wanted to make.

But I feel like I have to?

I feel like i just need to address a few things about my writing and my fics, especially Collide

First of all, I don’t ever want to come across as ungrateful, because I am not. You all have no idea how grateful I am for all of you. It is incredible how everyone has responded to this story and how much you all love and appreciate it. It’s been overwhelming, really, to read your reviews, to find out that you all love it. I have never imagined that some sort of weird concoction of my brain would turn into this much, and this—I mean I cannot even quantify how big or how small my success is compared to others, but that’s not really what I’m here for, after all. To me, this response has been greatly overwhelming and something I never really imagined. I honestly thought only 5 people would read the fic, so I’m like woah.

But with this kind of amazingly, incredible response comes also a big responsibility(?).

It’s the kind that’s making me...well..There is a reason you haven’t been getting any Collide updates, and let me tell you why.

Lately, I have been getting at least 2 messages a day *daily* asking for Collide update, and again I want to reiterate how grateful I am over the response to this fic, but it has been putting a lot of pressure on me. Not just to update, but also to churn out really good updates because I’m afraid the wait has been eternal, and all for nothing.

I’m not saying that my updates are already any good, tbh, but that’s the point. I fret and fret more about what’s coming next, and about what I am putting out there because there are people expecting it. I’m not saying you guys had been demanding or had been rude about it if you are, because you guys are the most incredibly patient people I have ever known, and the kindest, but I just want to say that it’s been overwhelming for me.

There is so much pressure around me and around this story and I’m crumbling, drowning?

I know it sounds dramatic. But I want to be honest. It’s not easy for me. I can’t promise quantity and quality on my updates because I have a regular 9-5 job and there are so many things I have to do for me, too. I know you guys have been patient with me and have even encouraged me so much…but lately the amount of messages I receive…I get antsy because I know people are waiting.

Aside from that, artistically, I don’t know where this piece of shit is going.

I have gotten to a point where I’m questioning every turn I make in this story. I question whether it’s realistic, whether it makes sense. Perhaps, that’s the magic of it, that we get lost at how unreal it is and there is a part of me that likes that, that I get to give you an escape, but the larger part of me—it’s not the story she wants to tell.

When I started this, I wanted to write something relatable, but somehow give an idea of romanticism and keep the Cobert we know and love, and somehow that has been a very tall order which has caused me to struggle so much over this fic. I feel like I haven’t delivered to that expectation I have set for myself, never have, but lately it’s been to the extreme. Maybe because now there is a concrete proof of other people’s expectations to it and that makes me struggle more, because I am so used to disappointing myself but I would hate very much to disappoint any of you.

When I started this I legitimately did not expect this kind of response either so now I’m so…overwhelmed?

Perhaps, the issue isn’t you guys. After all, we do all strive to get reviews. Perhaps the issue is with me because I don’t deal well with pressure and I am a very anxious person and can’t deal with this much expectation. I think it is, and I really am sorry for that.  I am truly sorry that I buckle over simple things like this, and that I’m so flaky I cannot even stand the fact that I’m getting such good response?

God, it sounds awful when I think about it now.

I just want to let everyone know that I am trying very, very hard, but this subject, this issue is very real for me. It’s been stressing me out so much, and my friends @dreamofragtime and @mcgonneville have both heard me talk about this again and again and again, and I’ve just decided that I needed to let people know where I am right now in terms of the writing process, and you all deserve an explanation for this. I know this isn’t the longest period that I have not updated, but it’s been going on for a while now that I just…it needs to be let out.

Please, please, don’t get me wrong. I love your reviews, I love your response, but this…this almost obsession to make me update Collide has been eating at me. I mean, you guys realize I have other stories, too, right? And yes, maybe they aren’t as good as Collide or you’re not as invested, and honestly, I understand that and this is not just shamelessly plugging my other work, but I just…I am tired.

I don’t want to get to the point where I just decide to delete the fic because I can’t deal with it anymore. I have been so close these past few days, and I have been itching to just close that chapter of my life because it’s been just too much for me.

Gaaah.

I don’t want you all to think that I’m ungrateful, I am not. I am beyond grateful, almost disbelieving at the intensity of love and support I receive over this story. And this is exactly why I have been feeling so much pressure lately and can’t do any more than stare at my blank screen for hours on end because I am so grateful that I feel the need to give more, to do more, to do better. And I can’t live in that kind of headspace because I am already doing so much to get the story where I want it to be.

I’m so sorry I have so many self-esteem issues that even this becomes an issue when it’s supposed to be a good thing. It is, to me it is, I just need to work through these issues I have with myself so that I get to enjoy writing Collide instead of it becoming some sort of a phantom ghost for me. I want you to be able to enjoy whatever I put out there and it turn I want myself to enjoy what I put out there without these fears and pressure that’s hanging over my head.

In the end, I know I’m the only one putting this much pressure on myself and I am blaming no one but myself, I just hope you let me have the time and space to figure things out and let me work through my issues. I am trying to look at it more positively than something that makes me anxious, I guess. As a wise woman, @latifraise, told me, I need to think of it as a good thing and that it is a sign that people love it and im doing a good thing, and I promise you I am trying to do that, I just need time to process.

Nevertheless, there will be an update within this month, I promise.

I hope I didn’t offend anyone and that I continue to have your love and support. I’m so sorry over this, but I also hope I have your blessing and understanding to figure things out.

[startouchedwitch]

An elf and a human

It happened in a sunny day.

I was out in the forest, watching clouds pass by. I always found it beautiful.

The breeze was nice.

And it wasn't hot outside.

It was the perfect day.

Hours passed and I kept looking at that beautiful view. I loved it. Everything was so peaceful.

I didn't have to run away from humans because they never came here.

Not until that day.

When that mysterious girl appeared.

She came out of nowhere.

A hood covering her face.

You couldn't see if she was a human or an elf. But her hand, I saw them when she waved at me. She was human.

I panicked.

Did the Humans discovered I was here?

Did she came here to kill me?

Unfortunately

Not everyday you see a startouched elf, and I was one.

“Don't fear ”

Her voice sounded emotionless.

I didn't move an inch, I wasn't afraid I was terrified.

“I don't want to harm you”

I didn't believed her.

She was obviously lying, right?

“Why wouldn't you? You're a human, I know that humans would pay a lot of money for my head.

And I also know that a human would do whatever it takes to gain money, power and recognition ”

She just chuckle at my response.

What was so funny about it?

“I mean... You're not wrong. Humans are awful.”

I raised one of my eyebrows, not knowing why she was saying such things about humans if she was one herself.

“I truly despise them. They are awful creatures that would harm any other living thing for their own good.

And I don't mean just for black magic.

Humans are so selfish

I know.

I was too”

I couldn't see it, but somehow I knew she was smiling... If she said all that stuff herself, what makes her think I will trust her?

“And that's supposed to make me feel better?

I already knew these things, that's why I don't trust you”

She shrugged, getting closer to me.

“You don't have to trust me. It's okay.

I just wanted to say sorry for destroying this peaceful place.”

A sigh scaped her lips.

“As I told you... Humans are selfish, they hurt others to make themselves feel better... I've been hurt many times because of that by the same people...

Humans also hurt other creatures to use black magic...Some of them use black magic for power, other for recognition and... Some of them for-”

She took her hoodie off, revealing her pale face, some of her veins could be seen and instead of blood running through them it seemed like ink. Her eyes were completely black and her hair was white.

“-revenge... ”

I was panicking, I couldn't believe my eyes... She used black magic and the only thing I could think of is «She wants to kill me »

It made sense!

“If you want to kill me, do it now...”

Her eyes went wide, maybe she didn't expected that But... I couldn't protect myself..

“I don't want to kill you.”

“But you're a hum-”

“i'm NOT”

She took a deep breath, calming herself down

“I'm not a human anymore... I once was, then I decided to use black magic... I lost myself trying to protect myself...

I killed so many beautiful creatures to not get myself killed... I though that would make me strong and powerful, but in the end, I am weak, I am nothing but a memory of who I once was ”

She looked at me right in the eye, like she was looking right through my soul.

“ I've done bad in the past... And I don't want to be like this anymore.

I want to help.

...

You must be really confused right now, aren't you?”

I nodded, what did I had to do in this?

I saw a tiny smile appear in her face.

“My name is Itahisa.

I was a horrible human.

I've been trying to become a better person and help the people that had been hurt the worst: elf's

And every time I needed to think I came here, so I saw you everyday.

I decided that I should talk to you and try to help or... Become friends with you...

But I can see I just mess thing up telling you my life and scaring you. ”

Her smile was now awkward and I could see the regret of her telling me this in her eyes.

“So... You've been stalking me?”

“What? No-i-wh-pfff.... Maybe?”

I took a deep breath, clamming my nerves... Maybe this would be the worst decision of my entire life.

“Itahisa.

I see you've been through some bad times.

And if you were here to kill me, you would have already.

So I'm just gonna assume you're VERY awkward trying to make new friend.

Now, let me introduce myself. My name's Astara, I am a startouched elf and I... Would gladly be your friend if you swear with your whole life that you won't kill me ”

She took both of my hands looking really exited

“I SWEAR FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT I WON'T KILL YOU”

“you don't have to scream...”

“YES I DO”

I covered her mouth with my hand, stopping her from talking and telling her to shut up.

Actually... We had a lot of fun, we kept talking till it became too late

And actually, that was one of the best days of my life...

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"And that's all...

Oh shoot! Gotta go now, Itahisa will think I'm crazy if she sees me talking to a mirror.

I don't know why I do it either, but it feels good... Like you're having a conversation with someone.

...

GAAAH that's her, she's angry.

If she breaks something in the house again I'm not letting her stay here anymore"