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yellowistheraddest · 2 months

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one dream in life: not living with my parents

#god i cant fucking wait to be independent from them #they aren't horrible but i just want my own place where i can be a silly goober #honestly once i move out i have no other dreams or aspirations my only goal is just to get away from my family because they're boring

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gay-artificer · 6 months

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I've seen people be like downpour ruined how people see five pebbles and im gonna be honest if you were here for any number of years pre-downpour the fandom was always god-awful with the nuance in his character. thats not a downpour thing thats a fandom thing

#niche comparison but if any of you know angela from lobotomy corporation/library of ruina #in the years prior to LOR angela was probably one of the most demonized characters ive ever seen in my goddamn LIFE #NO ONE was going to bat for this girl as anything other than a absolute villain and bitch #i was and im sure some others were too but the vast vast majority fucking hated her #because she spends most of the game being mean to you and then betrays you at the end #and you had to read between the lines to get to “wait a minute whats happening to her is kinda immensely fucked up”#and this is someone betraying you at the end of a very /very/ hard game to 100% and beat proper #then LOR came out and fully explored the depths of her trauma and anger at the situation she was put into #how desperate she was too take something for herself and how little she cared about how the effected others because she was not given that #and suddenly it clicked for everyone!#suddenly she wasnt a heartless bitch anymore! but of course now you had the #'literal infant' crowd because it also explored some ideas of parental trauma/lack of experience with the world #but god it was way more refreshing to see people actually move on from 'theyre an evil bitch' even if it came with 'so shes like a kid?'#and i feel that way about pebbles tbh #i dont get super super into the iterator lore so i cant speak much for the quality across downpour #and its higher focus on them and their stuff #im sure it carries plenty of issues as many things will #but god people sucking at reading the room on the iterators is not new lmao #actually five pebbles and angela are shockingly similar....#huh?

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randum-famdoms · 2 months

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GODS FUCKING DAMNIT WHY DID MY PARENTS DECIDE THAT A HOUSE LESS THAN 100 FEET AWAY FROM A HIGHWAY WAS A GOOD FUCKING IDEA

#I HAVE A FUCKING MIGRANE AND THE SEMITRUCKS AND MOTORCYCLES AND ASSHOLE BLARING BASE MUSIC SOUND LIKE THEYRE INCHES AWAY FROM MY EARS #IF THE NEIGHBORS START FAILING TO FIX THEIR DAMN BOAT OR BLARING MUSIC AGAIN I WILL TELL MY DAD TO GO SCREAM AT THEM #NORMALLY IM NICE BUT RIGHT NOW MY BRAIN IS TRYING TO KILL ME I DONT HAVE ENERGY FOR THIS BULLSHIT #but for now the neighbors are behaving it’s just the fucking highway I can’t move #FUCK a train better not go by tonight #we also live less than 100 feet from a major railway :)#I don’t know why my parents thought this house was the one to buy but I CANT FUCKING CHANGE THAT NOW CAN I #can’t wait to move out I swear to fuck #this is why I shouldn’t have chronic pain I become murderous when I’m hurting #silently screaming shaking with murderous intent at every little thing that bothers me #reaching for the nearest sharp object #but guess who has chronic pain from scoliosis and collapsed foot arches and neck problems that cause headaches and migraines?#THIS motherfucker right here; THATS who!#maybe I should stop ranting in the tags now and eat my chicken sandwich before the meds wear off #ooohh I should as my mom if it’s a good idea to take my loopy drugs #idk if they’re okay to mix with Tylenol or not #OH MY FUCKING GODS A TRAIN JUSF WENT BY #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #IM GOING TO FUCKING KILL SOMEONE #PROBABLY THE REALATOR WHO SAID THAT THESE TRACKS ARENT OPERATIONAL #anyway as I was saying I dunno if hydroxdezine (probably misspelled that) is okay to mix with Tylenol #but it’s great for when I don’t want to be conscious and rn that’s how I feel #imma stop now #randum thots

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neo-shitty · 1 year

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finally catching up with bsd after one hell of a month (+ midterms) 🫠

#bsd spoilers #updates for ep 2 :3 #right off the bat all i can just say is fukuchi is such a well-written villain; while i can’t completely emphathize with his plan yet #i have to applaud him (uh and asagiri too) bc that’s quite a villain to fear—he’s already in a position of power that puts him in a major #advantage compared to the ada; it’s like he masterminded this whole thing to lead up to this but WHY (idk if i just forgot)#point and case: i hate him and im always terrified of his next move but damn he’s such a well-written antagonist i can’t even 🤐#ATSUSHI GET OFF THAT FUCKING BOAT RN WHY DID IT HAPPEN SO EARLY INTO THE SEASON IM CRY WAIT NO #fukuchi pointing out that ranpo is just jealous that he and fukuzawa way back is just so adorable made me forget what happens next haha #how come i dont remember these cute moments from the manga 😩#god im stalling so much :(( i hate it i hate it i hate it #the reveal was so… he should’ve deducted this shit sooner (objectively the build up was so nice hsjdhdj)#MY JAW DROPPED THEN AND IT STILL HAPPENED NOW :)))))#ok fukuchi in his complete villain mode is kinda 😗#watching this after being detached to bsd in general is so much better bc i can now appreciate the whole thing as is without much bias???#THE WAY HE JUST TURNED COLD ALL OF A SUDDEN AND I OOP— 😗😗😗😗😗#oh both canon and beast atsushi and their paralyzing fears :(( my heart actually hurts #ATSUSHI THINKING HE’S ALONE ANDDDDDD #OH MY GOD I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE MY SSKK #I CANT WATCH THE NEXT EPISODE #toff.txt

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hauntingblue · 6 months

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#LETSGOOO MOMOOOOOOOOOOOOO #luffy grabbing lightning bolts... nami youve got competition....#kaido saying roger and oden didnt have devil fruits and how you cant conquer the world with one... well they are also dead. rip bozos #NOOOO HIYORIIIIIII SOMEONE KILL THIS MAN!!!!#JESUS CHRIST THAT PUNCH!!! onigashima is on the way. move it. he is too used to zoro....#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1074 #the new opening is cute... wish the different scenes could be longer bc i have been sotpping to see them well akdhaks #can someone PLEASE help hiyori..... there are too many people just chilling DENJIRO!!!!!! FUCK YES!!!! but now pleaseeee finish him off...#omg the ballon ajdksjjs wish fullfilled!!!! YEAAHHH MOMOOOOOO #the samurais praying to luffy.... do i even need to make a post about luffy as a god now.... it's just like plain obvious and not bc of nik #episode 1075 #kaido lore??? did he betray rocks pirates??? the fucking witch again??? how tf did she orchestrate all this.#she started how the value of someone is determined by war. which considering this is a shonen and strength is everything... i appreciate it #which might be why kaido is such a good antagonist to luffy. he wants people to live as slaves to make weapons and create wars #the strong ones get to be soldiers and act out that war. and kaido enjoys fighting also.... luffy on the other hand sees people for what #they are and the freedom they should have and he will beat kaido by not engaging in his style of fighting to be the strongest but by being #the silliest. literally. its just too good.#<- official analysis for now i guess #oh jesus..... LETSGOOO MOMOOOOOO omg luffy can see the wishes..... FUCK YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH #luffy wishing for a world where his friends get to eat whatever they want.... oof..... tama.....#i have realised before the timeskip i cried bc situations were sad but ever since fishman island i have teared up bc of happiness....#like at the end of fishman island and now... wait except wci but that was a drama so one exception #episode 1076

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arcaneyouth · 7 months

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my shit ass gamer chair has developed a quirky lil issue where the seat won't stay up and is constantly sinking down and there's nothing i can do about it. it'll last for like 2 hours and then i just can't use it anymore. and i don't feel good asking my parents for a replacement we do not have that money rn. and i apparently don't know how to tell if a chair is going to be good before it gets here (i chose this chair. it's lasted less than a year) so i would have to ask my parents to figure it out for me and they don't have that time. so. i'm kinda just. not able to use my computer for very long. so that's awesome.

#vent post #negative #the seat hurts to sit on at this point too #it's just a bad chair. i knew it was bad the moment i started putting it together.#i'm glad it waited to do this until after i finished making chapter 7 of my comic so i don't technically need to use it much #but i wanted to draw today.#and now i'm gonna spend the rest of my day in bed cause i've got nothing else i can do #i also have not finished making my fucking cover letter for this stupid application so i'm gonna have to transfer that to google docs to #do it on my phone in bed #also the chair sinks down so slowly that i usually can't tell if it's actually sinking and trying to figure it out makes me nauseous #for some god damn reason #fuck. chairs are so fucking expensive.#i wanted to use the money i'm gonna get from the job i'm hopefully getting to buy fun silly stuff #but i'm probably gonna have to spend All Of It on a fucking chair #because i really cannot make my parents get me one.#so now if i don't get this job i'm just. kinda fucked #i've got money in savings i just hate having to use it. that was supposed to be my moving out fund man #this fucking. sucks #if anybody can explain why the fuck my chair is doing this so i can fix it. that'd be awesome.#update: its clearly a problem with the cushion. unfortunately i cant replace the cushion.#not without taking a knife to it. which i am super unsure if thats a good idea.#i hate knowing fucking nothing. i dont know what to do. i want to scream.

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synchlora · 2 years

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holy SHIT man..

#we have four fucking ppl out with covid at work today #out of like. 30 people. fucking CHRIST #god knows how many more of us are gonna get sick. i just had a fever a few days back and now im worried it was covid #just. fuck man!#and our management is wanting us to do random useless things today on top of the normal chores that NEED to get done and are behind #like DUDE we are missing 13% of our fucking coworkers right now we CANNOT afford to be doing stupid shit rn #but nope. our manager HAS to move a fuck ton of cats around to make new group rooms and stress the animals out TODAY #bc it obviously cant wait and we obviously have time and she definitely knows what shes doing (she doesnt. our cats are pissed)#like dude. we are usually so strict and careful abt group rooms so that cats dont get each other sick and dont fucking half kill each other #but theyre just tossing them into rooms #WITHOUT EVEN CONSULTING THE FUCKING CAT LEAD FIRST!#oughghhh. hellish day #i dont understand the fire under their asses to mess with our cats today. everything is fine we're not short on space its all good #and why today of all days when half of us are missing

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steampoweredskeleton · 25 days

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#delete later #im so exhausted and stressed. theres such a lack of stability and its freaking me out SO much. im just constantly tense and waiting #for something terrible to happen. im starting to think that im not gonna get to go to the entomology thing ive been hoping #how i can't do things independently and i must have been forced into this abd rhen it'll get cruel towards my friends abd i cant #and my aunt is getting worse abd my parents are waiting for me to fail abd have to move bsck with them which i can't do bc #to go to for months bc ill probably need to use that time off for preparing to move. which sucks. ive been looking forward to it #i was letting myself get my hopes up and that was a mistake bc now im rly disappointed. im hoping i can go but honestly #idk if it'd be financially responsible. same with comic con. its in october so i can probably go but it might not be a financially #good idea. it just. the things i was counting on to be stable sources of joy are not stable anymore and that's making everything worse #and im tryinh to be positive but im so anxious. theres just so much. i need to think about packing and try to figure out #how im going to move 1-2 hours away. how am i going to coordinate with movers whilst having to get the train to meet them #im disabled and cabt help move things so only getting one person ro deliver worries me. movers arent insured to take ppl with them #theres just SO MUCH. And i can't view properties easily bc of work so im missing out on multiple places that ive been contacting #ppl about abd i couldnt line up enough for last week when i was off bc it was too short notice and i just. its TOO MUCH TOO MUCH #im overwhelmed. im trying to think of the food im gonna cook when im there ahd the armchair im gonna buy #im gonna eat so much fucking lamb and fish oh ny god im excited for THAT #i wany to just go for the shittiest place to at least have some stability and bc i still have yhat kernel of thought that i dont #deserve comfort but im trying to fight it bc i do. i deserve somewhere nice and its unfair on myself not to find somewhere nice #especially as ill be living alone. i cant go for places that have no natural light or are four stories up or are a mile away from the train #station bc that will wreck my mental health and i wont have ready access to socialising that can stabilise me. gotta be fair #to myself. but THATS PROVING REAL DIFFICULT #im doing good saving though so thats nice i guess. fuck me moving is expensive. moving when you've got zero kitchen supplies is #even more so. gonna be an Interesting first couple days in the new place.#it will be. very bad. they keep texting me asking about it and i have to be positive bc otherwise itll become a conversation about #field all that shit when im like this. i just cant. that requires so much fucking energy i dont have. and i wont move back #id frankly rather die. and trying to not say that and decline politely sucks. bc they get the look of #oh we're not good enough huh #and i can't field their fucking feelings. i either need a pause button or a fast forward. id take either one #so many of these tags ended up out of order whoops. but these arent meant to be read anyway #i just need to scream bc idk what else to do

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littlegoldfinchh · 2 months

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love it when dad calls me and he immediately starts yelling and swearing at me on the phone 👍🏻

#what have i done you might ask #well he asked me yesterday if i wanted to hang out with him in budapest and i said yes #but apparently i did not sound enthusiastic enough?#and they're playing divorce with mom again so. im gonna listen to him call her names all day while playing his therapist #yay. today was supposed to be fun #god ever since i came back home things are so shit i just wanna go back living with my bf i fucking hate this #cant wait to move back to my place once school starts again

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lazyfox411 · 2 months

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#welcome to losing your shitsville #population me #fml i love them but i cant wait til they move out i got home and they told me they took the dog for a walk and he ate mud #like do NOT fucking let my dog eat shit omfg i almost screamed and lost my shit #like god knows what else they let him get into #i will lose my mind on them if he gets sick #like they mean well but theyre not good with animals #they r gonna hopefully be moving out after the summer but will still be right next door #at least ill have my space back #i dont even care if this doesnt make sense out of context im just ranting #life with shannon

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joysmileyay · 3 months

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save me save me i wanna be you save me i cant save myself cause i could never be you ill keep waiting and pretend i could

#not doing well #ostensibly i will be applying for grad school before the end of this year #and like growing up and becoming an adult and stuff #yeah fucking right #i remember when my life was all about how much my childhood sucked and like. that was my everything #that was my great conflict #the main plot #and its like #its not like that doesnt still matter right #all of it still does #its part of why i cant seem to make irl friends #its part of why i think ill be alone for a long time even though i desperately crave the safety of a relationship #(nothing wrong there by the way that i think a relationship will save me)#(its always me waiting on someone else to save me)#andddd its why sex is so weird for me #and sure all of that still matters #but what really matters is that im gonna have to. move out. pay bills. make 'career choices'.#andddd thats really what lifes all about #trying not to become homeless #cause i cant just live with my mom forever #though god the fact that i could end up like that #thats almost worse #my mom deserves better #anyway yeah just thinking about like capitalism and the end of the world and stuff #honestly despite everything ive had it pretty good in my life ya know.#if i had any confidence whatsoever in my ability to decide where im gonna go in life and to actually accomplish that #then id probably be okay #just send me back a couple decades as the person i am with the experiences ive had and i might end up being like a cool old aunt or smth #aaanyway #i hope one day this world is better and its kinder

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our-inspire-verse · 3 months

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Just keeps going round and round eh?

#cocon rn deer and luci #just like the text at the top of my twitter says #but man its like. every single day “be more positive and see life as great as it is #stop lingering on the trauma and actually move your body and clean and eat and all will be okay“#but then its ALSO ALWAYS “well i AM a piece of shit and i can keep being positive which helps and do my best #but nothing will allow me to move forward from the fucked up things I've done or people ive hyrt #and I'll continue to hurt others ESPECIALLY the ones i care about so i should either isolate or make my entire life focus #around not hurting the ones i care about.protect them from me yaknow? anyway. i should never #ever be around anyone in a non-slave way again and i need to take up less space and probably die or something“#and its like. like i know. i know how it sounds i know what its from i know it in and out and worse before it gets better healing #and flare ups and triggers and thinking as a traumatized being that kindness is a mask for harm being added to our pile #i get that im dissociative and autistic and adhd and all this other shit including probably POTs or EDS.#but its like. i can't.shake. the idea. that maybe I've been a bad guy this whole time and my timeline has curved around #just WAITING for the dday i fuck it all up and it comes full circle and there really is no coming back #i feel. genuinely vile and bad and sorrowful #i cant hardly keep up with eating. sleeping makes me sore and i struggle with that too. i keep trying to keep myself awake during the day #and do things i need to do but i feel. burned.and sad. and exhausted. and i need to get a job #thank god taco bell emailed me back i might have croaked #system babbles #vent #negative #ignore me I'm trying to pull myself up again and im sore and frustrated #I'll be fine. i always end up fine.life. uh. finds a wAy as i always insist

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executorz · 3 months

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okay genuinely want to sob man i hate being here so fucking much

#makes me want to fucking explode!!!#when i finally move you are never getting me inside again i swesr to god #this town is like #sucking the life out of me and i cant wait to get to a place where i can see trees that are meant to be there.#living in a desert sucks so bad when there is nothing to fucking do and its conservative as shit so going outside is dangerous anyway #there aren't any parks within walking distance and the ones that do exist honestly fucking suck #the only remotely interesting thing to do out here is retail therapy #somebody please fuckin help me

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#ay ay ay. i dont wanna do my job so bad. it makes me so unhappy also i fucked up a thing by letting someone take part of a culture when i #shouldnt have. it happened so many months ago that i fucking forgot abt it and then the person emailed me abt when we received the stain and #i thought it was someone from another project so i cc'd my boss who was like. wait. what the fuck is this? and now its like oops sorry but #like wtf am i supposed to do abt it now? she askrd me to take some when i was rushing out of someone else's lab and i was like what? sure.#whatever i dont give a fuck i feel like im dying every second i stand in this room. i didnt even think to ask to share it which is what i #should have done. oops. cant do anything abt it now other than feel abt abt causing drama between labs. ugh.#i just wanna cut all ties with my old work. theres no joy there. only pain and anger. which makes it hard to work with it but the sooner i #do. the sooner i dont have to fucking deal with it anymore. ugh. also i really need to find a therapist but my insurance changes in like 18 #days so i might as well wait for the semester to start. ugh. like i can feel the pull of my bad habits trying to drag me down and i dont kno #how to stop them. like its weird. i noticed while my parents were here. they can just do things and enjoy stuff. and everytime i do #something i feel like im holding my breath the entrie time waiting for it to be over and for what? its not like i had other stuff to do #i just needed to kno when things were gonna end and i dont deal well with flexible situations. which makes it hard to do things. so its #like do i succumb to my control freak lil bubble of not doing anything and being miserable or do things outside my comfort zone and be #miserable? one of those things is way easier. plus i dont even kno anyone here so its like wtf do i do?#try to make friends with my sometimes roommate maybe. i just need to corner her and be like hey i need to establish a dialog with u so i can #tell u that if i seem like a weird hermit im not trying to b standoffish i just dont kno how to do human interaction well. can we b friends?#id like to b friends but if i dont talk now then ill get stuck not talking ever. which is whats happened with past roommates... god my 1st #roommate must have thought i was so fucking weird. ugh. point is. these bad habits must stop. and i really need to get work done so i can #never think abt that shit ever again. at least now that ive moved i can run up the side of a mountain when im frustrated #unrelated

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our-lady-of-mcr · 5 months

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#also god bless my friend who pointed out that im moving up and im going to be in a salon soon and will actually be doing something good with #my life vs the friend who did me this way pretending shes still in high school that freaks out and loses all her friends every 6 months #i wish it didnt bother me. and i know in 2 months im going to have brushed it off and move on like i always do when bad shit happens #but for the wound being fresh this shit just fucking sucks i hate it i hate it i hate it #i made a very very very vague post on reddit just asking for advice #and the more popular reply was someone more on my side who basically said i should tell her to go fuck herself pretty much #and the second one was someone who v obviously did not actually read the post who said it was all fluff and basically defended her even #when in my post i am saying i defended myself while still listening to the shit she says #and i fucking hate reddit bc people are so.....quick to be hateful and judge #and i knew to expect people being hateful but god DAMN like you yourself are basically saying theres not enough info (yes there was) and you #still are quicker to assume im in the wrong #meanwhile everyone who knows her is like bitch we told you to not forgive her last time and now look where you are #and i am not a perfect person i have flaws the same way everyone else does. literally everyone has said and done shit they regret #and i have fucked her over before because she lost her fucking mind on a campus manager and an educator and she told me to find my own ride #home because i didnt defend her losing her shit and screaming at everyone and ended up having to write an incident report (so did the other #girls who watched it happen so nOT just me) anyways now she uses that as an excuse for treating me like fucking trash because she finally #found out about the god damn incident report which made it so now anyone can say i said anything and she just believes it #its such a fucking joke to me because like ????? girl if we were in opposite positions you would have filled out the fuckin report too #granted it was a handwritten letter and not a report but it was basically the exact same thing as an incident report #my bad that a year ago i wrote a letter saying i was scared you know where i live and that youre mentally unstable. funny how a year later i #feel the same way all over again! except i dont because im not scared of her anymore shes a fucking theater kid who needs to get a grip #i cant wait to look at my self tag again in 2 years and be like DAMN REMEMBER WHEN THAT HAPPENED #every single person who knows her that isnt friends with her (i am basically refusing to text her friends bc i dont even want to know)#keeps telling me i didnt do anything wrong and ive given her too many chances and she fucks me each time #i just wish she would go get help bro there is something so wrong with her #self

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jadeclaymoresworld · 1 year

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Literally the 5th day if the six weeks summer break and already I'm wishing my mum to be back at school cuz all she's fucking doing is ragging on me.

Fucking hate it, if there's a job to be done it's my fault if it doesn't get done apparently, when she has a son who's lazy as fuck and doesn't lift a fucking finger without huffing and grumbling over having to do one thing like remove his dishes from the living room.

But hey, I'm the kid that can't do anything right so yeah, let her yell at me over shit I do all the time but she doesn't realise.

#personal #i hate it #everything is always my fault #nothing ever falls to my brother #he can do what he likes cuz hes her little prince #cant ever do anything wrong in her eyes #where im the fuck up daughter that cant do anything right apparently #god i cant wait to move out #so she can see just how much i fucking do for her #and how little my brother does

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