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ganondoodle · 7 months

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me: finally im able to cope with how much i hate totk and can fuel that energy into other things :)

nintendy: the shiekah tech just dissappeared and no one knows why or cares enough to investigate it lol. lmao. its gone bc the calamity is gone or something even tho it literally isnt bc ganondorf is right there haha lol, stop asking, why do you care. just forget it existed and look at that sexy goatman and glue instead!! glue! isnt that wild?? also its totally a direct, 100% same universe and exact same characters, despite them act totally out of character, sequel to botw-

#ganondoodles talks #ganondoodles rants #zelda #totk #im just fucking!!!! at my limit!!!!#what the fuck do you mean #the calamity is the equivalent of ganondorfs farts trying to wake himself up and you say lololo is gone so the techs gone #then why do some parts still exist huh???????#fuyking clowns #all the threads leading organically into another game WOOOP NOPE CUT THEM ALL WE DIDNT MEAN TO GIVE IT MEANING LOL #what is ancient energy and whys there a big concetration under these regions including hyrule castle? oh my god is it bc gan is there an-#NOPE forget we ever said that haha lol lmao even #can you really blame me for feeling like im being laughed at #like totk is mocking me bc i care about botw and thought theyd take up the interesting things they set up in it to expand upon???#and no instead they backpedal like oh no we accidentally made it seem interesting quick get the iron out we need to FLATTEN this bitch #and they keep making it WORSE by insisting that its totally 1000% a direct sequel #just fucking say its some alternative bullshit again #i am begging them to let soemone else direct the next game #bc when the guy makes accidentally good lore he needs to immedaitely flatten all the good stuff when it comes to a sequel apparently

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s-aint-elmo · 1 year

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there was a post about daiba nana as a body snatcher horror from junna’s pov and it has me in a fucking chokehold.

imagine being roommates with somebody you haven't gotten to know yet, and it's a little awkward but you're both polite and she seems like a nice girl. she's kind and open and warm, ready with a helping hand or a listening ear, beloved quickly by your classmates in a way you never quite managed to convince people to love you. you could be friends with her, given time. you think she might want to be friends with you, too.

you go to sleep as hoshimi-san and wake as hoshimi-san and walk to school as hoshimi-san, but, without warning, you cross the threshold of the classroom and suddenly you're junna-chan.

suddenly, the friendly interest in daiba-san's eyes has deepened with an intensity that unnerves you, even when it manifests in entirely benign ways—an uncanny familiarity with your schedule, a fond glimmer for your quotations, an offering of your favourite snack food with a side of dishonesty in the way she claims it was a lucky guess.

you feel seen. the way prey does when a predator reveals itself upwind. exposed and unprotected.

but daiba-san is easy to like, easy to love, easy to forgive. you forget your unease in the face of her sincerity. she takes care of everybody as though it were her sole purpose on this earth, so you take care of her.

when daiba-san becomes nana and you become junna-chan, willingly this time, you wonder if you imagined the anticipatory gleam in her eyes when you served her your first name, as though it were a favourite dish she'd long been craving.

#revue starlight #hoshimi junna #daiba nana #junnana #mine #bc banana is SO intense. she's got no fucking chill. she's gotta be some kind of indescribably terrifying after 60 years of playing god #even if all god wanted to do was live blissfully with her blorbos for all of eternity #how does banana get when one of her ultimate favourite most precious moments is coming up. what kind of expectant zeal sets her eyes alight #sets off some primal sense for the unsettling that bids you be wary of the girl tracking time like a hunter leading its prize #until it hits her sights #daiba nana on her own is already so insane. i just think we can make her worse #im on mobile rn so i can't find the post but iykyk

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 month

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"Death is nothing, but to live defeated and inglorious is to die daily."

+ process(tw blood)

Also, look at him, bloody little guy 🥹

This drawing was inspired by several matador pics :D here and here:

^ I don't think I'll ever live up to the second one ah. There's several pics of that specific guy just soaked with blood, and I'm uh a bit obsessed with then ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW OKAY! But I've not drawn blood in a while so it was a bit difficult so I added less than I would want to I guess. Also I'm obsessed with how often they kneel in bullfighting?? Like okay who are you arching your back and spreading your legs for-

#ah not 100% sure abt this one but i think i still like it!!!#i was practicing matador poses during the wknd and im like yeah should prob paint one #and then it felt like all the energy left my body djfkkglg i was like ugh how do i paint again?????#mostly: just really wanted to draw him bloody #i love how every time i draw him in ferrari colors its just the most eye bleeding thing ever #my eyes get too used to it on my ipad's display and im like aw this isnt red enough :(#and then i transfer it to my phone and it feels like the red suddenly is hurting my eyes even worse djfkkglg #im glad the blood turned out well. i honestly think it was probably easier bcs the clothes are red already #but yes yes suffering ferrari nando. hes my comfort character atp 😭😭#perfect catie drawing: depressed ferrari fernando. blood. napoleon quote #anyways yeah lmk! i think it looks okay?? idk i think i just love the first 2 matador drawings i ever did #and its very hard to live up to them. but whatever. we move on #im glad i did a more complicated pose at least ?????#also god i was somewhat annoyed w his face and then i redrew his eye and it was like OH OKAY suddenly good okay #tw blood #<- i would put this drawing under the cut but like. my blog i do what i want and i want to draw blood #i used to draw bloody stuff a lot more but ah idk less opportunities now sjfkkglg so it was kinda nice #catie.art.#f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #matador au

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skunkes · 5 months

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ok posting it here bc im not sure if its going to stay in the doodle page

#delete later #deleting soon bc eyes on me #for those of you who kept asking about Something last year LOLLL #sorry this is too entry level vent comic ykwim i jst needed to get it out #im over it in the sense that like ok yeah whatever #but not in the sense that i came out worse than before. i was already Small. ive been further Smallened #i was a rebound and lied to and discarded...which thank god i was Set Free but wow!#all my personal fears reinforced. it is embarrassing for me to want and need...i get it neow. i was a stepping stone i am an npc #idk that i could do it again! im not sure its worth trying i am too much of a...project.#as i was told from day 1 but still ran directly into it #and i was too much of a coward to leave myself. if it happened again i wouldnt be able to leave then either.#im happy that i dont think it could get much worse than all that for my first experience but it was also exhausting #and weirdly at the same time i dont think i cld ever expect better #its almost been a year since its been Done and the words and treatment linger <3 #this is also why i had to enlist talon as imaginary bf number 2 LOL need extra reinforcement and love #cringe as fuck but it rly will never be as good as whats in my brain...i know that neow. i will spare everyone the trouble #and remove myself from the dating pool (<- implying he was ever even in it)#i dont even hold any ill will toward em bc they were right...its just hurts ykwim

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lottieurl · 6 months

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for the sake of clarity: would you prefer your fave to be hated for the wrong reasons or loved for the wrong reasons

#i think its worse when theyre loved and people miss the entire point cause you can't even loudly love them #like i shy away from blogging abt rhaenyra bc my god. i dont agree with you people fhejsjsj #meanwhile jackie haters are just getting blocked and the jackie fans are jackie Understanders #we can even agree she kind of sucks. they all do. we love them for it

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agaritas · 2 months

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i know we’re shifting into springtime but climate anxiety has me genuinely unsettled and nervous abt the temperature not being freezing anymore 😭 like i let out a big sigh of relief when i saw the forecast predicting snow this weekend as if i was seeing a negative pregnancy test. this is all almost exclusively ronald reagan’s fault i will not expand upon that

#diary #my ocd loooooves obsessing over temperatures and weather forecasts 🤩 i spent the entire summer of 2020 and 2021 unable to turn a fan on #like i was so fucking terrified of my dinky walmart fan making heatwaves even worse bc of its electricity consumption that i basically made #myself sick for 4 months 2 years in a row and could barely sleep bc the nights were so sweaty #thank god for medication and the strength of spirit he has given me since then lmao #typing this out actually was therapeutic lmao it made me realize how ridiculous and unnecessary that was when i made it up in my head #to be such a huge life changing moral obligation. when in reality i probably took years off my life span w how miserable and exhausted i was #and theres no universe in which me turning a fan on during a heatwave solves climate change #whew. i need a real diary girl

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handsomegentlebutch · 24 days

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My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.

#butch speaks #it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head #when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god #the words came naturally to me #but they meant nothing #i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away #i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred #i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake #i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex #fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic #i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun #the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun.#not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO #the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love.#he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like #he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever.#he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer #then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there.#he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did.#but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there.#that wasnt for us.#my family wasnt even THAT catholic #i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group #i was an altar servant and in the choir #i even used to speak/understand a little latin #imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao #grateful to have grown up poor in that regard #hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually.#fucking hell.#i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.

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dunmeshiminimumwage · 9 days

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#mod chilchuck #uhhhh yeah #ive been having a fun time.#been having more hypochondria #realized i might have a personality disorder thanks to mod mithrun being helpful #ive been dealing with some of the worst emetophobia in my life recently #like. my most common anxiety symptom is nausea and its also a trigger for more anxiety bc of emetophobia #ive also been getting nauseous when i get upset about anything. sooo #im ballin here #i hate my damn job #also realized i have ptsd with the help of mod mithrun's wife #i plan on quitting once the local highschools get out #but i worry that this may actually be the best job i could have even though its absolute shit.#i worry that any new job is gonna be worse #whagever #im looking into getting a therepist because god be damned. i need one.#what happens when a bitch is off of his meds

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ganondoodle · 25 days

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(forces myself to stop playing stardew so i can get some progress done on my art projects- daydreams the entire first arc of my original story stuff -again- for 2 hours)

#ganondoodles talks #personal #should i even try to do anything now #its almost bedtime #....#idk why i keep doing this #i know how things go i dont need to think it over and over #im wasting so much time my gOD #also in the end i either get discoruaged or sad or stuck bc its not all done and when you think about every single imprtant story point #its like binge watching while skipping less important parts so it just feels weird rushed and worse than it actually is

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the-knife-consumer · 2 months

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Forgot just how upsetting gloomed korok forest is

#idk. just this one sanctuary that was different from the rest in that all of these spirits only link and a few others #can see are offering you help and safety. care uniquely for you. a bed for YOU. YOUR sword. kept safe for 100 years for YOU.#thrown together shops just for YOU because nobody else goes here or even knows it exists.#and then you return and the people who cared so much about you dont even speak to you anymore #they cant speak. they just stand there #idk korok forest made me feel the most like i fucked up somehow #rito village was bad but still livable. if things got any worse then they would have to abandon home until it settled #but no one was in immediate life threatening danger #gerudo was really REALLY bad and people were in danger. just all crammed inside a bunker. no going into town because your #home doesnt belong to you anymore #and then the zora were ... idk felt the least pressing even though it definitely should be bc like. they breathe water.#if the water is gross theyll die. but idk something about how it was executed felt less terrible #maybe they outwardly expressed more hope? idk. same with the gorons didnt feel like there was a pressing threat #but korok forest is fucking AWFUL. god #idk. nobody in hyrule talks about it because they dont know there are people there. nobody else can see them so nobody knows #somethings wrong. with no lead into it finding korok forest the way it is just feels soooo much worse.#idk. on my first playthru i kind thought i fucked up and shouldve gotten there sooner.#it just feels like no matter what youre too late and its your fault

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skitskatdacat63 · 9 months

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helloooo you haven’t heard from me in a while but since i consider u an f1 historian i just saw on tiktok a video of an intro (before the 2012 korean gp i assume) where they had the drivers with gangnam style as the music… i was wondering if you might have it since that has been driving me insaaaane 😭😭 thank you sm catie have a lovely day 🫶

Hallo!!!! Nice to see you again! I'm glad I can be held in such high esteem 😭 But please anon, we def saw the same tiktok, this one, right? A great thanks to the op on tiktok who linked me the video!!

Why did you have to force me think again about all the Gangnam Style stuff in F1 in 2012 though????(ex. BBC vid with PSY, vid/pics of Seb and Mark with PSY, both learning the dance, as well as other clips of drivers such as Felipe and Nico dancing)

#no because i spent literally an entire hour trying to find it myself and failed.....#i am so ashamed LMAO but thank god for that person linking it #and its so annoying bcs i literally looked on twt using the exact keywords and it didnt show up???#AND ITS EVEN WORSE BCS I LITERALLY HAVE THAT TWT ACCOUNT OPEN IN ONE OF MY TABS #i digress: i like to make things hard for myself apparently #my search history was just me losing my whole fucking mind #though ive learned a lot about older german f1 content!#such as a commercial where niki lauda plays a cowboy as well as a michael schumacher rap #f1 needs to slay and be camp like this again(paraphrasing Cofi)#its so cringe but i love it #those pics tho of sebmark with psy haunt me tho 😭😭😭😭😭 like why did you make me think of that again #but jfc has it rly been 10+ yrs since gangnam style???????#fernando alonso #sebastian vettel #kimi raikkonen #kimi räikkönen #lewis hamilton #michael schumacher #nico rosberg #(its so fucked up we didnt get mark or jenson)#f1 #formula 1 #2012 korean gp #2012 korean grand prix

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smokewars · 10 months

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one hokma line that always really stuck w me was "when i no longer feared the impending night, i chose to love this place" theres just something so poignant about it. at first i was wondering what day he meant but now i realise he's most definitely talking about how he has to die every reset. and he said he used to fear it too. how could he not? he was most loyal to a, but now he's the last one running away from him. he couldn't stand being a part of his self-destructive plan anymore. and feared in past tense implied he always knew it was coming with each reset. this went on for... thousands of years

with how he keeps his memories for every one of them, sometimes i wonder how he reacts to angela. do you think he quickly got used to it and just sat there waiting for her? pre-suppression its pretty clear that hokma has resigned himself to this and is completely fine doing it over and over again. he chose to love that place because it was the only thing he could really do. its what his mentor wanted and when has he ever gone against that?

#lobotomy corporation #hokma #not including it in the post bc idk where to fit it but angela apologising b4 killing him and saying its what her creator ordered her 2 do #is fucking MISERABLE. and a never even seeing b's final moments until abel forcibly showed it to him. he ignored it and turned a blind eye #to it like he does w everything.. like thats how b's treated for his unconditional love 4 him. being ordered 2 die by the man he loved #anyway. ignoring the impending night / impending day parallels that are probably there somewhere..#there r other things i wonder too like did b know that by not running away far enough he'd die? i really do need 2 rewatch ruina #hey edit i just realised something so obvious. b dies bc of the tt2 protocol. hokma has to command that in the facility. god okay....#and like. also wouldnt it have to be him who manually resets every single loop? everyday the horrors get worse and worse #text #meta

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milkbreadtoast · 1 year

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ive always seen ppl wish for an ouran season 2 but personally i hope they never do jsbfjdj

#s1 is like a time capsule #lets just leave it <3 2006 gem (which has problematic stuff that didnt age well but is still so dear to my heart)#its bc i know how the manga ends dkfbdj #haruhi marries tamaki and grows out her hair and has babies and becomes a housewife or smth #just thinking abt it makes me spiral i dont want to see it #ill pass☺️😇😁#oh god even worse i hope it never gets a reboot like fruits basket

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piplupod · 2 months

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hiiii i'm looking for new albums to have playing/listen to while i work on art and other stuff, does anyone have any music album recommendations....

i listen to basically everything but lately i've been getting into a lot of alternative pop sort of stuff idk im bad with genres. also a lot of shakey graves but thats neither here nor there, i just think ppl should listen to his stuff LMFAO. i will take whatever u got though :]

#the only genres i do not rly listen to are screamo and heavy metal fdsjkl sorry #i have listened to them fsdjkl my brother loved all that when he was in highschool so he would share his music w me a lot #and i enjoyed some of it !!! its just not what i often enjoy #also theres a weird long covid symptom i have where certain pitches of sounds will cause a stabbing pain in my brain #like i wasn't able to watch markiplier's fn.af videos for a while bc just his regular voice was . triggering this pain for some reason #not even mentioning the yells and the animatronic jumpscare screech sound effects fhsdgjkl #it comes and goes now but rn its really bad. i wonder maybe if it gets worse if i havent been sleeping well 🤔#anyways. anything in the heavy metal genres generally triggers that pain so i have to avoid it altogether now RIP #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #okay im posting this finally oh my god why am i so scared all the time. god. i have been drafting a post like this for like.... a week.#keep deleting or saving to drafts bc i get inexplicably scared of asking. what is WRONG WITH MEEEE

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hazardsoflove · 4 months

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thinking about social worker percy again

#ppl who seriously believe hes gonna be a marine biologist. do you even fundamentally understand percy as a character #like yeah hes the son of poseidon he can talk to sea creatures but guys. thats not enough to make someone passionate abt something #and guys. the amount of math and science that goes into that??? i love percy and hes boy stupid but he is also not doing all that #*not stupid <3 #teacher percy is like. its fine but i dont agree with it i dont think he would have the patience or want to do something like that #but social work. with the way he grew up (and we love sally we know she was with gabe to protect him) and what he saw at the hands of the #gods not bothering to give a shit abt their kids and how he still felt unwanted by his dad and how he turned down godhood and instead asked #for the gods to give a shit abt their kids and stop making them feel so unwanted bc he knows how that feels and it fucking sucks #and i know damn well percy never wants to see another kid experience what he did. and hes great with kids ;#*(estelle for example obviously but he was also good with nico who had it worse than him)#and i know in my soul that this is what he would do #and everyone else is wrong bc i know him better than anyone else #r.txt

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rhymaes · 5 months

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