SO-18: Memory Bomb!
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No art, but hopefully my eyes will improve enough to add some later!
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There! They got him! Well, sorta. That's definitely not Erik but he's in there somewhere. They'll get him out! Eventually!
I had such a cool idea for a musical comic but I can't do it. You'll have to read and imagine David and Hyacinth having it out, while what he is now is slowly subsumed by what he once was... Or while an imposter who made a very bad decision becomes permanently trapped in a web of his own lies. Maybe both at once!
*sigh* I'm struggling, but I don't get real feedback from the eye doctor. It's like they don't think I can't handle any negativity, so everything is all smiles and "you're doing great!" while I'm dealing with shit they should've sat me down and told me about before I even had the damn surgery.
You see, I had the impression the surgery was the best option for not losing any of the improvement I spent all last year making myself sick to gain. Heh. Maybe it was, but I've still lost ground and I'll need to put in even more work to get it back. I have a different issue now: stamina. My eyes get tired of focusing on detail, near and far, and in certain situations they'll just stop. I'll be straining as hard as I can and I won't be able to tell you if that's a D, C, O or G. It won't shift in and out of focus like I might be able to get it eventually, it'll just be a static blur until I rest my eyes and come back to it. (Kinda think the doctor thought I was faking or playing it up, since I could read letters the first time she asked me to, and then I couldn't. But the tech just listened to me describe what was happening and said, "Oh, yeah. Your eyes are just tired. Take a break.")
I don't have much trouble reading - as long as it's black and white or close to that. Much like Erik, I can get it from context. I've always read the shape of the word, because my damn eyes never worked like they're supposed to. But art is not like that. Hell, even reading a comic is harder for me right now.
I'm getting my Xmas computer soon. It has a bigger screen than my tablet, and I should be able to draw on it. I might not get so tired so fast with a bigger screen, but I won't know until I try. I found a good enough refurbished deal that I can afford a pen display with an even bigger screen, if it comes to that, but I'll have to give myself some time to strengthen my eyes in any case.
I thought I was just going to heal from this - it would only be a matter of time until the wound closed and my corneas cleared up - I certainly got that impression at the start. But now they say I'm not going to get better without more work. I'm stuck doing pretty much the same exercises, only now they're hard in a different way. The dry-eye does seem to be improving, but there's no guarantee it will keep doing that. I have nearly a year to wait for the dryness and light tolerance to stabilize, those things are the slowest to heal. Well, they would be the slowest, if I didn't have this stupid vision dysfunction. I have no idea how long that's going to take to adapt.
Anyway, this is all too many words. I'm trying to explain why I won't be able to come back with more story after a two week break, even though I have the next six-pack almost ready to go. I can write. I can reorganize the site (and I need to do that, the theme and the global colours are just stupid, and all my pattern blocks are malfunctioning). I can open a new bank account and put together a Ko-Fi page (after Patreon gets rid of my data - they only have a couple more days to do that within their 30-day limit!!). I can't illustrate. Nobody's going to stop scrolling and look at this shit in their feed if there's no images, and I'm not resorting to stock photos or AI.
I want to get to the point where I can spam my followers with something I'm proud of that looks nice, and send them to a site that I'm also proud of and which looks nice. I want more readers, but I don't feel right asking for them when everything's falling apart, including me.
So, I'll be here, but there won't be more story for a while. At least give me until the 20th, that'll be three months out from the surgery and I should be fairly well healed by then. It's just that I have this stamina issue nobody warned me about and no timeline for that. Almost like it doesn't matter. Hey, you can see without glasses! 20/20! Like we promised! Does it really matter if it expires without warning? It works when you read off the chart the first time and that's all you need, right?
No. I told you people I was an artist. You don't seem to be reviewing my chart and god alone knows if you even wrote it down, but you did ask me and I told you. This is not enough.
We'll see what the next few weeks will do for me. I hope like hell I'll be back soon with another six - words AND pictures.
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My summer job is almost over, so I'll probably be ramping up my activity on this blog.
For those of you who read my self indulgent fanfiction, my big Scream fic will come off of hiatus once I'm home and no longer living in a tent in the woods.
For those of you who follow Winter Hollow, that will also be coming off of hiatus when I get home, so now is the time to catch up if you're interested and/or want to participate.
I may also do NaNoWriMo again this year, but that all depends on what type of job I get hired for next. If I do do it, this year I'll be focusing on A Hero's Call.
Finally, for those of you who have tagged me in last line challenges and the like, I'll start replying to those soon. My friends and I are doing a prompt event for our Discord server so I'll actually have writing content to share here soon.
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[Game of Dice] September 2023: 3rd Week
This Week's Events
▪ Books Recommendation (Facebook/Naver Comment Event)
▫ Name a book you've read that left a lasting impression on you.
▪ Daily Package
▫ 900 topaz total if all 7 tokens are obtained
▫ costs $20.93 USD [before tax] overall
▪ Golden Shark Token
▫ all 21 tokens = 300 topaz
▪ Glass Bridge Event
▪ Fortune Coin in My Selection
▪ Earth Sealstone - Craft (Saturday - Monday)
▪ Spartan Training - Draw or Combine (Sunday - Tuesday)
▪ Sharon's Mystery Box - spend topaz on a draw for rewards, more info on the event itself when it arrives (Monday - Wednesday)
▪ Pop-up Package - usually resources (Tuesday - Wednesday)
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New Skill: Domination
▪ Altar: Give selected opponent [Domination] debuff.
▫ Domination: Opponent moves instead of you 1 time, and upon arriving on a city, pay 15 times the total of the tolls of the cities within 1 block.
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