#guess who watched barbie 🙈

[gis4greenandgreenisgre4t]

actually, Allen can be something that is so non-binary coded

[neverevan]

get to know me better 😳

I was tagged by @eddiediaztho and @forthewolves thank you mwuah mwuah 💛✨

last song: It Was Always You by Maroon 5

favorite color: used to be green/grey but it's been yellow for a while now

currently watching: 911 on a loop, can't even lie I haven't watched anything else in weeks (except for Friends on mute before going to bed because I use my TV as a night light ✨)

last movie: Barbie 2023 🩷

sweet/spicy/savory: all of them but if I had to choose one for the rest of my life, then savoury 🥨

relationship status: don't make me think about it ✌️

current obsession: I mean I guess it's pretty obvious, but other than 911... lately I've been pretty interested in poetry, voicework and accents (though you could consider the last two work-related, I'm using it because I have nothing else lmao)

last thing googled: 'what glasses they put margaritas in?' and you wouldn't believe the answer 🙈

tagging @kingeomer @bronoun @harmonictechnicality @fagmuppet @icecreampotluck @chaosandwolves @daffi-990 @excuseme-greentea @yelenasbuddie @notnowtobey @flootzavut @bringyouruin @karolincki @doyouyearn and anyone else who feels like sharing can consider themselves tagged 💛

[fluffypotatey]

7, 8, and 14 for the pride ask game

thanks for the ask!

7. Are you the "token" queer person in your family?

uhhhhhhh i guess? 🤔 i mean, that i know of. never really asked my cousins about it, but i know for sure that many of them are at least allies (some are performative tho 🫠)

8. Describe your gender without using any words traditionally related to gender:

shit, uh, sorry this one took me a moment

sunsets/sunrises, lighting streaks, fancy curtains, siren-like melody

14. How do you think other factors like neurodivergency or upbringing have impacted your identity?

oh gee :) well they definitely added some fun nuance lol

with upbringing, i was never aware that guys could love guys or girls could love girls or both or more or even that gender wasn’t as fixed as i assumed. when i was kid, a lot of my understanding of the world came from the shows/movies i watched (Disney being a big part of that) and my own parents. 1. both of my parents are cis and quite comfortable in their sexuality (as far as i’m aware) but they also unknowingly enforced these strict gender norms to me and my siblings (can’t wear shorts too much or i’m a tomboy, must like Barbies because i’m a girl, decorate my room in flowers and pastels because i’m a girl, comment on my desire to always wear jeans and not dresses, comment on my face looking boyish when I put it up)

not to mention the whole thing with pink 🙄 wasn’t just my parents for that one. i remember, distinctly in kindergarten, some boy was teased and pushed around by the other boys for wearing a pink polo. nobody used the word gay (i don’t think any of us had heard of it yet), but all the boys called him “girlish” and a “sissy” for his shirt.

then, in 5th grade, some boy called another boy “gay” as a joke. i didn’t get it. it was a new word but spoken with a negative connotation and nobody would explain what it meant. you just had to know. (i was extremely miffed about this and was too prideful as a 10 year old to ask for more clarification)

but this is also the time i discovered yaoi 🙈 on YouTube, while looking for fun Kingdom Hearts fan comics. it was definitely a jumpscare lol bc it was probably the most explicit fanart i ever witnessed and that was the only explanation i had to yaoi (pissed off a friend in middle school bc she thought i was being homophobic when really my post-disgusted horror at yaoi was the remembrance of THAT old art and not the fact that they were gay)

anyway, upbringing was sheltered child who was also a bookworm and was not aware that these things existed (not to mention terms for them) until she was granted access to YouTube and accidentally fell down a nsfw rabbit hole bc there was not a lot of warnings or proper tagging (?) in the early days of YouTube sooooooooooo 🎉

and for my neurodivergency, i have no clue because i wasn’t aware that my issues of “not focusing” and “lack of motivation” and “spontaneous spark to do things!” meant something until recently (also it’s funny how a lot of the critiques i’ll be given about my issues really nail that for me lol)

Pride Month ask game!!!!!!!!!!

[ginsoakedgirl80]

dramas I watched in 2022

The Legendary Life of Queen Lau (2022, my first cdrama, damn the ppl who brought this one down, will probably rewatch because now I get more about the cdrama tropes they subvert, Li Jiaqi hopefully will get more main roles despite this debacle)

Love Between Fairy and Devil (2022, tumblr loves it for good reason, so good, well written and gorgeous costumes and scenery, I laughed, I cried, I shaked my fist at communication failures, learned to like Yu Shuxin's voice, who doesn't like a story about a demon lord who lost all his emotions and regains them with the help of a cute fairy, cultivation in several senses xD, some songs made it to my spotify 100 most played songs of 2022 list, will rewatch now that it is on Netflix)

Word of Honor (2021, the hype has a reason it is so goood, started out not liking WKX, how the tables turned, hahahaha, side characters who rock, morally grey main characters yay, "A'Shuuuu", you don't need on screen kisses to feel the love, character dump was confusing as hell, somehow missed that WKX is also boss of Ghost Valley in the beginning bc of that. 🤣🙈 Taught me to rewatch the first episode a little bit into the drama to actually get what's going on when there are a lot of characters.)

Old Fashion Cupcake (2022, my first jdrama, cute office romance about finding joy in life again, will make you hungry)

The Rational Life (2021, watch it if you want soft, caring, loyal WH but it is actually about Qin Lan's character overcoming bullying at work and being a model employee in a car company (and promoting e-cars 😄), could have been shorter)

The Blue Whisper (2022, wrecked me with all the suffering but so good and pretty, Ren Jialun going from cutiepie to badass, rocking his ear jewellery, red flags but you ship them anyway, Diliraba and Guo Xiao Ting, another talk it out already yelling at the screen drama, going from hating SML and his attendand to pitying them, LuoLuo 🫶, side characters you will root for, some songs made it to my spotify 100 most played songs of 2022 list, story is by the author who wrote LbFaD, not set in the same universe)

The Romance of Tiger and Rose (2020, Zhao Lusi the Queen, much needed comedy after TBW, loved it, nothing like a writer caught in her own badly written drama world trying to rewrite it while the rules of the world she wrote fight against the rewrites. Su Mu and First Lady just needed to talk to each other aaaargh)

Who rules the World (2022, find yourself a person who looks at you like Hei Fengxi looks at Bai Fengxi, geez Yang Yang, Zhao Lusi is a delight in this, they wrote the two lead characters too perfect??, draws you in with wuxia, gives you a lot of palace drama, including emo first prince who deserved more screen time but they ran out of ideas for him, Writing, editing and fight scenes got worse in the 2nd half of the drama, I guess because the director had to leave, needed to give more side characters a life, the sismance is perfect)

The Untamed (2019, watching to be finished in 2023, I was intimidated by the amount of characters and episodes so only started watching late in the year and am glad I waited because now I know wuxia storytelling better and can fully enjoy it, taught me that you don't need great cgi, sets or fight scenes to tell a compelling story, Wang Yibo 🥹, Xiao Zhan 😼, great side characters)

Semantic Error (2022, my first kdrama, watched it because of this and was not disappointed, enemies to lovers at university, cute quick watch)

The Blood of Youth (2022/2023, just started, the character dump is a lot but it is a romp so far, despite the kinda choppy writing/editing, also geez Youku those youtube subtitles are too fast for my tired eyes)

As someone who enjoys series/movies like the UK North and South, Persuasion, Pride and Prejudice, etc, where a small touch or little gestures can already be a big deal, slow burn romances in cdrama fit me perfectly. (The barbie kisses are something to get used to though. Props to Wang Hedi and Yu Shuxin who went for organic kisses once the feelings hit their characters.)

(and as someone who likes men with long hair 🤣)

Thanks to my friend B who got me into cdrama. 💕