#he doesnt have an official bday tho

[mysteriousmissme]

HAPPY MITSUBA DAY MITSUNATIONNN

[piningeddiediaz]

I personally think Pynch anniversary is November 2nd because 1st is ronans bday and idk they kissed and all and probably talked through the night and i think it makes sense that the anniversary would be November 2 but thats just me. They’re basically together now for 1 yr and idk 1-2 months. Since they got together 1 yr before adam left and now it’s November/December again.

I have a question btw. Why do you think so many people seem to dislike Adam and/or Declan? I mostly am following pynch / Adam blogs but i see a lot of negativity too and idgi.

I personally like gansey and blue for example even tho they’re not perfect but actually no character is, not even adam even tho i love him dearly. But so much of the stoey happens bc of adam and idk…

Also I hate kavinsky apologists or people who say ronan had a crush on him wtf 😳 like. No. Kavinsky was disgusting and yeah maybe lost too but an asshole nonetheless. Ronan was already riding his crush on adam wave and he def wasnt interested in kavinsky except for the racing and dreaming convos ?! Sorry brain dump

yeah, I suppose that makes sense. depends on when you define their anniversary ig? is it an anniversary when you first kiss? when you admit feelings? when you officially declare you are together? I sure as fuck wouldn't know!

and oh boy, I have thought about why people hate Adam a lot and I think Adam perfectly described why in trb - "rags to riches isn't a story anyone wants to hear until after its done." I can't speak for everyone, but it wasn't until end of trb/start of dream thieves that I started to like Adam. I liked gansey immediately, but barely skimmed over adam's chapters until we got to his "what do you want, Adam? to feel awake when my eyes are open" because suddenly I could understand with vivid clarity why I was so eager to not pay attention to Adam - it's because he is real. gansey, at least at the start, was not. he was from the get go established to be the typical male lead. handsome, popular, rich. he's privileged but tries to be humble (even when he fails at it), he tries to be a good friend (even tho sometimes he fails at it). gansey was presented to be the kind of protagonist we are all familiar with. we've seen him in nearly every piece of literature. but Adam? Adam is real. Adam is like the average person. he doesnt get to hope for a future, he has to make one. he understands this fact, perhaps more and way earlier than any other person might, and he wont let anything stand in the way. in trb it made him appear to be cruel, because when people read books about friendship they want it to be all or nothing. you would give up your life for your friend. you would give up everything for them. and so the audience, who are already naturally inclined to immediately go towards gansey, are frustrated at Adam because he's your friend! he just wants to help you! it's not until adam's arc ends that people really understand where Adam comes from, why adam does this. you cant give something to someone who has always had nothing and expect them to not think it doesnt come with strings attached. in the real world, it always does. and I think that is why adam's character arc hits all the more. I thought he was an interesting character from the start, but it wasn't until dream thieves, it wasn't until Adam had really really started his character development, that I finally understood. to me, personally, thinking too hard on adam's character was uncomfortable because then I would have to face the reality of life. liking gansey was safer, because he is the prince. the hero. the one you know is going to make it out in the end. the one you're supposed to like. but then Adam, who was supposed to be the side character in gansey's story, makes his own. he becomes the protagonist, takes charge of the story and the narrative - he doesnt just get the title of protagonist, he specifically makes it for himself. and honestly, I dont think adam's absolutely amazing spectacular character development hits as well if you didnt dislike him at the start because, Maggie makes sure you inevitably have an 'oh' moment where you realise that its been about adam parrish all along. its one of the main reasons why I will undoubtedly say Maggie Stiefvater is my favourite author - she is so good at manipulating her readers!

the same goes for declan, I think. we're not supposed to like him, because aside from that one pov he has, we only see him from the perspective of people who don't like him. I personally liked Declan right from the start, but I am in the minority because I know what its like to have to parent your shithead brother because your parents wont. but we were intended to not like declan until we finally saw his story from his pov in the dreamer trilogy. again, expert storytelling by mstief.

(tho if you still dont like declan and adam idk what to tell y'all. maybe reread the book with critical thinking skills?)

and yeah, I have to agree with you there. I have a lot of problems with a lot of things gansey and blue - especially gansey - do (more or less all of dream thieves??? I dont think I will ever forgive gansey for the car convo) but I cant say that makes me hate them exactly, because they are very complex characters.

and yeah dont even get me started on kavinsky. tbh I have his tag blocked and dont ever interact with any k posts. he was gross and disgusting and im glad he died.

[lavenoon]

Okay so like, I need to vent bc everything is too much and things are crashing down on me rn and I gotta organize my thoughts

1) school started again and every year I notice more and more shit, like, someone I thought was okay saying no one needs feminism and women just whine too much, same guy joking abt how it wouldn’t matter if boys are raped bc they enjoy that and me being too scared to say anything bc then I’m the killjoy and i take everything too serious and one against a whole classroom is too much for me  Like, I’m part of a anti racism/ intolerance team at my school and we had a whole project day last school year and it was a success but seeing all this in my school in my year from people I considered nice and everything else in the world, especially with what happened in the usa and in barcelona, I just feel like it was all for nothing, like I’m not making any difference even tho I know I did and I know this is only the first step and I can do more it’s just overwhelming

2) I still don’t have my driving license but I’m getting pressured from all sides to get it and I want it but my teacher doesnt call me back even tho he promised and then I’ll be gone next week bc of a school trip and like thats another whole week gone even tho I just need one more lesson to get used to driving again and then have the exam which I’m sure I’d pass???? and I meant to call my teacher but I got home from school dead exhausted the last few days and slept so long that it would have been rude to call him after I woke up again and now it’s not worth it anyway bc I’ll be gone the day after tomorrow??? my dad said he or my mom can call but it’s the same problem, I just want my damn license

3) school trip. like, really cool, firenze, sweet, toscana, nice. but with the course system at my school my main course is p big, we’re like 20+ people, and we’re going there with another course so we’re like 40 people. and out of those 40 people I get along with only a handful, like, even tho one of my best friends is there there’ll also be a girl I was friends with before I noticed it’s too toxic for me to stay in that friendship and we still don’t get along and I know my friend will always choose her over me and I don’t want to be whining abt second choices but it’s sure gonna be lonely if I can only hang out with people I just kinda get along with??? and it’s so far from home and I’ll be there on my bday so like I won’t be with my family that day, we got home a day later but still. In my course is also a girl I share my bday with, like, exact same day, same year kinda thing, and I’m not sure how to handle it bc like, do we do smth? will she do smth with my friend and other people I don’t know too well??? will I awkwardly sit with them on the bus ride home just what am I supposed to do????  I know I shouldn’t whine like this, it’s gonna be cool, we’re gonna have fun, I’m gonna have fun in the end but the anxiety is fucking me up and I feel like complaining abt it would be too much and like, first world problem like which it is but I just I hate my anxiety I’m sorry ???? 

4) my 18th birthday is in exactly a week and like, I’m not sure if I’m ready like it’s so much I don’t think I can do all that, I’ll be considered an adult my official shit like i gotta talk to the bank abt my account and I’m anxious and like, money what abt money abt insurance and taxes and like I have no idea I swear, I’m scared, I’m so scared of growing up I’ll graduate in spring next year and go to university and I have a plan but I’m scared and it’s pathetic and I hate it so much

5) I remind myself all the time that I don’t need romance/ a significant other to feel whole but really I’m craving some support and just being loved and being held and all that fluffy romantic shit and I feel weird because I hear so many stories abt (mostly) boyfriends and so many people have a partner and I want one too but I don’t do much beside school and like, I could go out??? go party??? but I don’t like partying and I don’t know if I want to go out with someone I met in the local clubs??? and I just feel so small and lonely and just really wish I had someone. My best shot really will be university, since I’ll probs move then and meet new people with the same interests too but it’s so much time till then and besides everything what logic tells me I am scared that no one will love me, it’s bullshit but I still think like that and I try not to and tell myself everything I read on here, I am whole by myself, I don’t need someone else to be happy, gotta give myself time to find someone, but I’m lonely and thoughts like that don’t help

so I’m crying but like, at least I could put that shit into words