#he wouldnt be mean about it or anything if i did that since my siblings will be jokey to me about my f/os every now and then

[gideongrovel]

my brother sent me this meme to fill out with O/ne P/iece characters,,,,, and im tempted to put my own s/i ships in the "fav ship" section 😂😂😂

[verosikastrikerstellaexcuser]

this might be a lil mean, but tbh, i just think viv is back pedaling on making stella a complete monster because she wasnt anticipating the critical response the circus would get. that episode did everything it possibly could to potray her as an insane mega bitch with no depth or anything she feels towards stolas besides anger. that, and the fact that now, because of that episode, stella is objectively a victim like stolas is, because of their arranged child marriage, no matter how much the narrative favors That fucking blue Bird that i Hate.

but by doing so, it honestly seems like a double edged sword for the writing no matter what.

like, if it was written that their marriage and relationship was a consensual one they developed as adults, it would make stolases actions ten times worse. it would imply at some point, he cared about stella, even if he did fall out of love and stay with stella for via. but that still wouldnt matter, since later on, he would cheat on stella for an imp he just sleeps with once a month, effectively running his relationship with his wife AND daughter. at that point, everything would be his fault.

having them forced together at such a young age means theyll have to make octavia no matter what, and be together no matter what, absolving stolas from a lot of the of the accountability of cheating. because if stella never really loved him at all, then it doesnt matter!

but then that also means that stella is undeniably a child bride, who didnt want this just as much as stolas didnt. it means she had no autonomy like him, no independence to make her own choices like he couldnt, and no way to escape her life. he got an out through blitz, an imp who he projects his own feelings of wanting to be wanted by someone, anyone, onto him, and the most stella is allowed to do is throw parties.

and i mean, hes still doing just fine during all of this too. stella has to move back in with her family after he announces the divorce, the last place any adult, let alone a royal goetia would want to go back to, while stolas gets to day drink and read royal smut in his giant backyard with a pool. we dont even know what his actual important job for hell is 2 seasons and 16 episodes into this show, besides.. idk, blessing vegetables in wrath?

i just wish stella had had her backstory teased or even acknowledged in s1, because judging by the way viv tried to give millie depth by suddenly having her say she doesnt feel important, when shes almost always was regarded as a competent and deadly assassin by everyone around her, (even by striker!) before the episode that is unhappy sibling fuckers- i have my doubts on how stellas backstory could be executed.

apology tour, to me at least, was just an episode where the creators pet is gifted a random boyfriend after sexual coercing, harassing, and assaulting the main character for almost a full season, while the main character gets merch sold of him being hung and told to literally kill himself. so my standards for what to expect from this series are considerably more low then before.

i dont think stella will instantly become a more compelling character if its shown that she was abused like stolas was, but honestly, what i do think, is that what viv herself thinks. why else would that leaked scene in ghost fucker with millie be so dark and out of nowhere for her character? its a pattern of giving her women artificial depth that sometimes can be explored every once in awhile in a surface level, shallow way, but never more then stolas or stoliz fucking is. i think thats part of the reason why the writing for the women is so lacking in hazbin hotel too, to be honest. it feels like a first draft meant to tie fans over, rather then a conflict or arc being set up to be actually explored through any of these womens characters in the same meaningful way the mens characters are explored thoroughly with both shows.

Whether it’s mean or not I do think you’re right. Viv looks at peoples takes including criticisms of the show on the reg. Which I really don’t think is a good idea personally, in the sense it could allow an original vision to get watered down. I think it may have contributed to the show becoming all about Stolitz ad a kind of feedback loop lol, especially when you consider how fandom is so heavily shipping interested.

I remember when Viv responded to crit about Millie’s neglect like “Helluva is a male lead show while Hazbins the female lead one!” Or whatever as if that magically fixed the wasted potential of the shows female characters. Like, if you’re gonna look at crit then at least think about it instead of feeling the need to immediately deny and argue against it. ofc it’s okay for a creator to disagree, they have that right. But I don’t think responding publicly is the right way to go, like it just feels like too much, it’s not necessary.

I try to keep things non personal as people rarely hold other writers for HB accountable and sometimes people go after Viv in a way that isn’t just criticising the sexism in her writing or how she treats employees and rather is simply unhinged hatred of her - like trying to diagnose that she has X Or Y mental disorders, it’s creepy and inappropriate to me that kind of thing. But this time since the topics here I do have to say I’m just not a fan of the publicly responding to criticism thing, especially while a show is ongoing. I don’t think it’s good for a creators head and you run the risk of getting a small account that simply had an opinion on a show bombarded with hate if you respond directly or even not if it sets off rabid fans and then they go looking for criticsl posts. There will always be critics, stubbornly denying that their criticism isn’t right isn’t productive for anyone involved.

[r0-boat]

Wait idk if we covered this yet i may have missed it, but how is Silas like when reader finally gets pregnant like how is he through the whole process (p.s love your work! Keep being the amazing person known as you, also remember to drink water) also if asks aren't open yet, just ignore this or save it for later!

I'm just now very recently getting into more lore and story stuff when it comes to my OCs so I will gladly answer this question a little early

Considering that this man is a yandere, all your kids will be just as protective of you, then your dear husband is isn't that wonderful!

His instincts would probably kick in when he senses something different about his lover. Even though he himself is not fully aware of it.

During the first couple of weeks, before you find out You're Expecting, Silas becomes antsy if you're not around. A gut-turning feeling that you might be in danger. He'll check up on you constantly; ask if you need anything. It gets so bad that he can't focus on his diplomatic paperwork.

His protectiveness/possessiveness over you only gets worse when the Royal Physician tells you both that you are pregnant

He doesn't let you out of his sight from your moment. If you need something whether it be food or water or a little exercise, he will either come with you or request the service staff to get it for you.

You definitely feel his eyes Linger on you a little more. It's just something about you it's just something about you round and full of with his child he can't keep his hands off you. he's a little obsessed with seeing you like this.

At the same time he wouldn't let anyone else touch you, he has to hold back a smoldering growl when a neighboring Kingdom visits and the queen touches your arm. To anyone who tries to touch your stomach will receive the nastiest glare signifying their fate if they dare lay the faintest finger on you.

This is around the only time you can ask him for anything and anything at all and he will grant it with no second thought. Even being outside( accompanied by him of course)

He would have lots of talks lying on his stomach and whispering while his hand was on your stomach. Asking you 1 billion questions and then asking your unborn child questions. Cute inhuman noises came from his throat that you could only pinpoint as Dragon cooing. In all your years, you have never heard him make that noise before.

Extra Silas as a parent headcanons

Silas is definitely not the best father but he isn't the worst, I partly blame his upbringing as a child and him being mostly not human.

Silas is part if not mostly dragon. so his parenting skills would probably be slightly different than humans. That doesn't mean he's a bad father. He's very doting on his child and other future children.

Kind of like Cole, Silas also has a cannon child kind of. but instead of ha,ving a name it's more of an idea of a child. Silas always dreams of having a family and a Starry Eyed kid his heart would absolutely melt. I'm not going to get into his more complicated lore but I will tell you he didn't really have the best childhood growing up, so naturally he wouldnt want his kid to have the same childhood he did. which would sadly ultimately end up with him spoiling him until his kid is a little bastard

( of course he would be a "good kid" to his mother and father to anyone else though ehhhhh... Let's just say constantly being told that he will take over the kingdom since he's the Crown Prince will go straight to his head) this is only his first kid though his other kids will be nicer.

Silas definitely dots on all his kids equally though. But he does naturally expect a little more from someone planning on taking over his kingdom soon. And he is not opposed to giving the title of Crown Prince or crown princess to one of his other kin, and knowing that the older Prince has to kind of watch his toes just in case his other siblings doesn't get and his father's spotlight.

[stellawolfearts]

Nezha will only hug Macaque if he’s

A. Very upset

Or

B. It will inconvenience him

Anon i am snatching this in my sick dazed state and making it canon.

YES HE WILL AND BOTH HAVE SO MUCH POTENTIAL DUDE. one thing to note is that he would only do this a bit after he becomes more comfortable with having mac around. while he's still wary its not as bad as before

on one hand we have nezha hugging macaque to inconvenience him which i think is HILAROUS.

Lil nezha gets Mk and mei at any age honestly, theyve been doing this since they were little, and sneak up on mac when he's doing something and then hug/tackle him. all three just latch on and dont let go. when they were little it wasnt a big deal and the kids had fun but when they got older and bigger (mk and mei) it becomes more of a "problem"

"kiwi,Mk,Lotus. GET. OFF"

"nnnnyyooopppee"

"mmmmnope"

"No"

"dont you love us papaaaa"

"i love being able to stand"

"too bad"

and they end up staying like that until one of them gets tired and lets go or swk pries them off of mac.

on another hand we have nezha when he's really starting to accet mac into the family but having NO idea how or if he should show it. like...he doesnt want to be genuinly mean anymore but he also doesnt know what to do. hes in this awkward limbo of, hes family but acting like i care about him feels awkward and embarrasing. so some of those inconveniencing hugs have some genuine familial love behind them.

then finnaly when he's genuinly upset.

i mean i kinda showed it in the first consequences comic i did a while ago. its a little outdated and not completly accurate to current canon but i still like it

anyways with this imma take the funny out and think about this situation.

like...whenever nezha needs comfort he ussually goes to swk, and why wouldnt he? swk was the first one in his life to show true, genuine and healthy parental care towards him. swk is nezha's safe space. his siblings are as well but theyre also kids. having a parent to comfort you is a unique feeling.

buuuuut what if swk isnt available. not his fault, just doesnt happen to be home when nezha gets back ready to cry. nezha doesnt need to cry tho, hes strong, hes a god, hes fine on his own. he doesnt need to bother swk he just needs to get to his room and he'll be fine.

but then macaque finds him by the front door inside. he notices nezha's distress. ( nezha doesnt emote much bc i hc him as autistic and his masking comes into play as well, if he looks visibly upset and distraught something is up)

Macaque knows nezha isnt too comfortable with him so hes a little weary about taking any action. so he sighs and opens his arms silently. nezha just looks at him for a moment. neither of them say anything but nezha is just so close to breaking down he transforms into his true form (lil nezha) and runs into mac's arms. macaque picks him up and lets nezha silently cry into his arms while mac comforts him. until nezha is ready to got to his room, his siblings already seeing what happened and crawling into bed with him to comfort him.

i love this little family so much.

[spikrock]

my mad t party lgbt hcs explained

very messy post below! some are genuine reasonings and others are just "yeah haha trust me bro"

tarrant: bisexual & nonbinary

i mean for all the bi characters the hc is pretty self explanatory, i mean look at them yknow. hes a little too fruity with mally and thackery 🤨 but tarrant and alice are literally bi4bi couple of all time as for the nonbinary hc, i dont know! id like to know if anyone else sees him this way or if its just me :) hes just got too much enby swag 

alice: bisexual & trans

its all spiderwebs fault!!!!!!! it made her gay!!!!!!!!! /j but seriously, kissing ladypillar and different numbers such ho hey (you know how every now and then theyll switch alice standing with mally to someone else like thackery or absolem, the few times she did it with ladypillar are so funny because they cant rhyme the pronouns 😭). also ik this sounds silly but i really appreciate that in the mtp shows once ladypillar was added they didnt stop doing spiderwebs or change it to be like “haha were both girls 😵‍💫blehh this is so weird 😂”/play it off as a joke or anything because they very easily could have done that. shes trans. i already made that post with her and mally but again, if shes not trans then why is her color palette blue and pink? checkmate liberals. 

thackery: bisexual & bigender

yeah hes bi i dont know what else to say he and mally are in love frfr i actually just completely made up bigender. made it up, i dont know where i got it from i just remember early february drawing mad t party on my laptop and suddenly thinking “bigender thackery” and its stuck with me since then. (the two genders i hc him with are male/female though so) i wouldnt say he feels just one or the other, he feels both at the same time

mally: bisexual & trans

he is top ten bisexuals of all time,, whenever they do the pretender and tarrant and alice stand on either side of him and take turns singing he is DYING. passing away HE IS TRANSGENDER!!!!!!! we all know it. instead of coming out as trans he made up some crazy story about being killed in a war and then coming back as a man 🙄/j hes just dramatic like that

chessur: gay & trans

haha this is mostly because of @thatrandomartistjavi's hcs xd chessur is special in the sense that hes the only mtp character that never really gets a chance to flirt with anyone else since hes always hiding behind that drumset. from what ive seen he was shipped with dinah a lot, presumably just cuz theyre both cats since they rarely interact, so ive never really understood it :p i usually hc cheshire cats as nonbinary/something under that umbrella but this guy gives me transgender vibes. idk

absolem/ladypillar(? dont know if she ever got a real name): lesbian & trans

shes very much a lesbian. just. just like yeah. i think the most prominent character that she flirts with (other than alice) is mally. from what ive seen it only really happens when its el dormouse on stage but before i started seeing that i always saw mally/absolem/thackery as like, a trio. i mean obviously everyone in the band are friends, but idk. i have lots of drawings of those three hanging out so maybe thats just something my delusional brain has completely made up. but anyway the point is i dont ship those two and i sort of see them with a more sibling dynamic. mally always holds her back when shes trying to touch the little castle music box thing, at the end of sets he’ll pull her antennae to take her off stage/she'll pull him by his scarf, etc. (also theres a clip where she kisses him on the cheek and as they begin to walk off stage she turns to the crowd and mouths “no” and does the throat slitting gesture thing which makes me think theyre sorta just playing around :p)

sooo in a post a while back i said i hc her as genderfluid but ive changed my mind?? actually before i made that post i headcanoned her as trans but then switched to genderfluid and now ive uhh changed my mind again. im very indecisive like that and very easily swayed on my opinions haha,,, @ticktockteapot's metaphor for her “becoming the beautiful butterfly she was always meant to be” is very nice i like it lots. also the fact that ladypillar has a much higher stage presence than absolem (obviously not including the spiderwebs number…or crazypillar) was always so sweet to me cuz like,,,aw shes finally more comfortable being herself and performing :’)

tl;dr none of them are straight none of them are cis. happy pride month and thank you for coming to my TED talk

[cuntstable]

sorry for it in advance but i wrote another pucci essay under the cut. is anyone mad at me. anyway this ones about my thoughts on his relationship to religion lol

interesting how the reason why pucci refuses to share the truth about wes and perla is partly that he doesnt want to break his duties as a priest-in-training (with the other reason being that he wants to spare his siblings from the pain of knowing their sin), but in the present of the story he constantly just says fuck it who cares about how priest should and shouldnt act. like its all appearances.

so as much i joke about Genuinely Hyper Christian pucci i do think his relationship to religion is definitely nuanced too. like he clearly had his doubts about priesthood and the church with the blasmephous book dio found him reading when they first met. i feel like him choosing to become a priest was more than anything him trying to find answers to questions he had since childhood about fate, like ”why did i survive when my twin died?”. Plus with the referances him and Whitesnake make to other religions he clearly is well read beyond just christianity. unfortunately that curiosity and desire for answers from wherever he could get them just lead him to an evil vampire lol.

but anyway i think with the death of his sister and him deciding to be mentoured by Dio, priesthood became just a tool for him. like its a convenient mask to wear, to get people to trust him. Not to say that hes not religious, i mean he definitely is and thematically he serves as an outright criticism of the catholic church, and his character just drips with the kind of guilt and levels of fatalism, nihilism and moral fuckery you could only get from a deeply deeply catholic villain. but i think if his backstory hadnt played out the way it did he most likely wouldnt have actually become a priest in the end, with the church not being able to actually give him the answers he wanted. i think!!!!

[misc-obeyme]

hello hello, its sibling angst anon again ^^ i loved your response so pls dont apologize for the long ramble, bc i get like that about it too!! also, im glad you liked my song recs <3

speaking of those sibling slideshows i mentioned, for some reason tiktok has filtered them out so when u look them up, they dont show up??? you just kinda get them on ur fyp one day. or atleast thats what happens to me. but if u look up sibling webweaving here on tumblr, ohhh boy. its basically an amalgamation of different types of media be it poetry, song lyrics, shows and movies, and book excrepts all packaged as one that pertain to a theme. my fav is those about mothers and siblings, so unequivocally human. its like walking down a museum tbh.

and agh, i loved your thoughts on the demon bros sibling dynamics. plus yeahhh, its kinda hard to take anything seriously since it is an otome game, BUT who says u cant come up with your interpretations and thoughts? whos gonna stop you? anyway, each brother has a level of depth that is screaming to be fleshed out, but its all very surface level on game. belphegors burdening shame and regret from watching lilith die in front of him, and by extension beelzebub having the same feelings and/or his own guilt. (i remember belph talking about his trauma and the immersion immediately breaks off when an option pops up on the scream, "ask him to kiss you." LIKE. place and time!) asmodeus and lucifer, their entire relationship T_T speaking of which, satan and lucifer?! they're brothers, or say they are and the rest just kinda go with it. but does no one else wanna bring up how satan was even brought to existence? he was literally birthed from luci's wrath during the celestial war. thats like, a gateway for someone to write a long philosophical analysis about him and what it symbolizes. aghhudhwdhwhd i wish i could say more, but i'm literally out of words rn. if i was mc, i'd have to fight everyday to keep it together without breaking down and crying about this. espeically having to live under the same roof as them...ooofff

speaking of complex siblings dynamics, have you see succession? its a show on hbo. its about an ultra rich and powerful family that is ultimately, dysfunctional. theres four siblings and their relationship mean sooo much to me. i wont drop any spoilers just in case you dont know anything, but when i say dysfunctional i meant it!! one of the things i like about this show is that it doesnt have any flashbacks or show the backstories for most of the characters, rather they kinda drop pieces of information randomly and you just go ??? that happened ??? youd think it wouldnt be a good storytelling strategy bc how are you going to emotionally connect the story to your audience? but somehow, the show does it really well. for example, one of the brothers, roman, was heavily abused. and sometimes one of his siblings would go, "yeah i remember when dad used to heavily beat the fuck out of you" offhandedly, like its a cute little fun fact. and youre sitting there like....when did THAT happen??? ofc they wouldnt show it, but if you watch how roman and his father interact on show (roman is so submissive and scared next to his father) it starts to make sense. its like the "show dont tell" but they switch around to "tell and show." subtle interactions like that fully exposes a characters psychology. subtle body language goes a long way. theres also the eldest brother connor, whos seen as the father figure bc their real dad is so neglectful. but tbh connot gets shit on a lot and uuyfuefehfe theres more. i would talk about this all day. sibling angst got me on a chokehold.

anyway, sorry if i made 0 coherent sense but heres the end of the ramble T-T have a good day :3

(if i come back, can i be  🧬 anon?)

Welcome back! And of course you can be 🧬 anon, I will add it to the list!

Oh man, so I did a search for sibling webweaving and I was like woah what is all this lol. I had no idea there was a term for stuff like this, but I'm fascinated! I must not be getting the TikTok videos... admittedly my use of that platform is limited lol.

The thing about the otome game not delving into things means that we all get to speculate and come up with whatever we want. It's a blessing and a curse lol. On the one hand, I like being able to come up with my own interpretations. But on the other hand, it'd be nice to have just a little more depth that what we have.

I have thoughts about Belphie and specifically what happened in the OG with him. That was definitely a situation of, there is so much more going on here than they're bothering to get into. I also get that they can't really do a ton of that, partly due to the medium and partly due to the amount of characters they have to deal with. Like I think they can only choose to flesh out certain characters and the rest kind of end up on the back burner. Which is annoying because there's so much potential for so many amazing stories!

I also have a lot of thoughts about Satan and his relationship to Lucifer and everybody. It's like they give us just enough to make the story dramatic, but in the end everybody loves each other and so on and so forth. I'm not saying both Satan and Belphie shouldn't be able to reconcile what happened to them and move on, but it just happens so fast. It seems too easy. So I kind of headcanon it as, they hide everything. Not just those two, but all the brothers have a certain level of trauma that they just bury deep or at the very least don't display in front of MC. I know they make MC out to be the demon therapist, but nobody resolves their issues in one session and that's all they're normally limited to. But of course they don't have time to get into things that deeply in a mobile otome game lol.

I have not seen Succession! It sounds pretty intense. I think it's always interesting when media use different techniques to tell their story. Of course I have very little knowledge of how TV scripts are written, but for story writing, the way a character reacts can imply all kinds of past history, even if you don't know exactly what happened. Flashbacks are helpful, but I think it's interesting to have a bit of a mix. A character is always going to tell the story of their past a little differently than how it actually happened. And I find that it can reveal a lot about character just to see what they change or leave out when telling it. Of course, who they're speaking to can affect that as well. But it's definitely an interesting concept!

No worries, you made plenty of sense lol! You are always free to come back to my ask box if you so desire! <3

[kemikoko]

uhM.. ive never actually used this account for my weird ramblings and such but !!! i have a new thing to ramble about so enjoy my nonsense !! :)

tw: mentioned child neglect and fnaf lore being confusing.

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Okay this is about micheal and c.c(and elizabeth) and how there bond would realistically(as realistically as possible for fnaf) go!

okay so first i would like to say every sibling bond is different this is just my take on these dudes so if you have a different opinion good for you!! anyways lets start for real now. :)

okay so micheal or foxybro and c.c are known not to have the best relationship and thats like really common i litterly fought with my twin last night but the difference is that micheal is like a teen and c.c is at least 7(seven) or 8(eight) meaning theres a huge age difference so theres that. And also william probably is almost never at home or is busy working meaning elizabeths main role model is micheal meaning she would probably either bully kids at school or bully c.c at home or both. ( and also no one has really told micheal "that hey thats not really okay dude stop it.")

Meaning micheal or foxybro is helping elizabeth be shaped into this bully who doesnt know any better because she see's someone older doing it and thinks its okay. of course she has other role models or adults but her main one is micheal thats her brother. that's who she is with the most. Thats who she grows up with. ( and its also making micheal think even more that its okay to just bully c.c despite the fact its not and even then he should know better hes like a teenager.)

But of course with bad comes good. if you have a sibling that you bullied you or you got bullied by you'll here your parent(s) or guardian saying "You have to stop this. If something bad happens to me/us you'll only have each other." and while for the most part thats true.

they didnt seen each other for 40(forty)(?) plus years before meeting again so eh but its fnaf so. bUT realistically speaking if something did happen its true Micheal will have to take care if both elizabeth and c.c because we can safely assume Mrs. Afton isnt there she left or just died earlier.

And since william more than likely is almost always busy mike probably has had to take care for both if them when he isnt there. And micheal can say he hates c.c and bully him all he wants but deep down no matter how much he denys it he loves his little brother and he would more than likey do anything for him and elizabeth.

It doesnt matter how much he bullies c.c their stuck together. their brothers and they love each other no matter what because even if you say you hate family deep down you love them. ( sometimes!!!! not always !!!!! )

moving onto c.c and his death (Tw: talks of child death and once again fnaf lore being confusing !!)

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okay so here comes the confusing part. So everyone has different AU's and stuff and i have not completely figured mine out yet but for right now ill just start talking.

So mike is the reason c.c died. simple as that. but its not because some people would hold grudges and some people wouldnt and c.c is an eight year old who now has a whole bunch of head trauma and memory issues. because there is no way in hell that fredbear did not crush his whole head like >:/.

anyways meaning c.c probably doesnt remember who the hell killed him or that hes dead but if he does i feel like he wouldnt know how to feel on one hand he would probably be very very upset but an a different hand he would also know that micheal wasnt trying to kill him. so he would just be stuck in the middle.

he would probably hold a grudge for a while but seeing as c.c is like probably eight(8) it would be one of those grudges he forgets after an hour or so. But also i can all assume that all the afton's are petty because ??????????? and c.c probably wouldnt talk to micheal at first if they ever met up again if he did remember who killed him but if he didnt remember he would probably be terrified of him still because yaknow...... mike bullied him....

but if c.c did hold a grudge and never wanted to see mike again i feel like mike would probably see that as understandable i mean he did kill him. but it wasnt completely his fault that also probably wasnt his intentions. once again confusing and it depends on if you make c.c forgive him or not.

i personally see it as he doesnt forgive him now at all and it would take like a while for him too. but since he has matured since then its easier for c.c to trust him not all the way but enough.

oh!! oh!! another thing me personally i feel like william does but also doesnt love his kids like when he first met them he hated them but they started growing on him and he's a bit neglectful but he A.) he either doesnt notice or B.) he's working on it but failing.

anyways!! thank you for reading this the whole way through. i am so sorry its not more neat i just.... idk man my thoughts are weird and this is just me rambling. uhm. ill try to update more on this account but yaknow....school....and..stuff...

okay anyways bye !!! happy holidays !!!! :DD

[goremet-chef]

random little (very long) vent thing lamaoo

my birthday is soon and im like. IDK ive just been incredibly fucked up recently with like. anti trans legislation and general negativity, so ive been trying to keep away from twitter since thats where i see most of it

last year, my mother had me come get my cake with her and to my surprise it said "happy birthday dominic" and i couldve cried, like i was wearing my face mask cuz it helps my dysphoria but holy shit i was smiling so hard

she said dominic when she sang my bday song with my siblings and it made me really happy

she hasnt called me dominic since, and whatever im like. im not really over it but i will say and act like i am because it prevents me from dwelling on unnecessary pain yknow?

i guess recently she's had a change of heart, cuz she told my sibling that she wants to start calling me by dom and that she doesnt want me to hide who i am from her, and i know what she means definitely

ive been very like.. closed off? especially since her bf came back (he fucking sucks i hate him) i just havent spent time with her or anything unless hes gone cuz i definitely dont feel comfortable being myself around him

anyways this is pretty cool all things considered. i have told her before that i knew she wasnt gonna be part of my journey and ive accepted that, and usually i say shit and she just ignores it but maybe she actually heard that and listened

so, dominic is having his 4th bday soon and im happy about that, but like.. we're gonna go do mini golf for my bday which is a surprise! because i mean. if you know me, i dont really like to leave the house, like at all. i guess thats kinda how covid affected me? theres no reason to leave the house anymore so i guess i wont (and i guess it worked cuz i havent gotten it) but it was like. so horrible for my mental health

like i always said "oh, yeah, i dont mind being inside id prefer to not go outside anyways" and thats true but its like. doubled my social anxiety somehow. im normal in public until theres people around me or god forbid interacting with me 💀💀 the way i act when i have to buy my own shit is awful, i get sweaty and i stutter and i shake, i need to take a long breath after it fucking sucks it feels awful. JUST TO LIKE. PUT SOMETHING AT THE CASH REGISTER AND AHVE THEM ASK IF I WANT A REWARDS CARD OR WHATEVER THATS ITTT it sucks

so yeah im surprised i agreed to it, but its glow in the dark minigolf and one thing about me is i love minigolf and i love glow in the dark im gonna have a five nights at freddy moment (which means i gotta wear my shirt like i just gotta) and im sure itll be great fun (pleased about glow in the dark cuz im sure itll be. DARK in there and i dont have to worry so much about people seeing me)

my problem is that im hanging out with my aunt as well and i love my aunt!! everyone on my dads side except for my dad is amazing i love them, but i dont know how she would be yknow? idk if my mom has spilled the tea about it and told her or if theyre gonna just put my deadname on shit this year again like. i dont know

what if it did say dominic? how would my aunt react? its scary to think about, im so scared to LOSE more of my family

i havent even technically lost my moms side, its just that theyre a bunch of racist queerphobic losers and i know if they knew me, they wouldnt want me anymore

yeah im just stressed about it, all this shit is starting to pile up inside of me and i feel like ill explode and jsut say fuck everyone im ME and i dont give a fuck what you think, cuz no, i dont

my immediate family that i live with knows, my grandma knows, thats all that really matters. the only benefits to knowing my great grandparents is they give me money on my birthday, and that might sound hollow or whatever but its true, they fucking suck

just gettin tired of this sht yknow? even now, there is a hostile on the farm!! my moms bf is so homophobic, most likely transphobic too

hes SPECIFICALLY annoying, all the shit i order comes under dominic and hes brought me my things multiple times so he knows, but he'll still say shit like "thats how females are" or "hello girls" and to me its honestly like

its FUNNY because its like the only thing he knows about me is that to him, im a girl SKFJS like genuinely. i dont share anything with him because i fucking hate him, hes the absolute worst. the fact that theyre married and hes my stepdad technically is something i just deny, im never calling that man my dad lol

anyways im thinking about getting a hip binder? i realize thats one of the things im insecure about, is my fat is at my hip and even when i bind it gives me a feminine sort of shape so a hip binder would be great

i realize that i actually dont care so much if im plus size, i just care if my body looks feminine or not

i will absolutely be your fat guy friend with no hesitation okay like that shit? yes im so content for now like that is acceptable, but yknow fat distributes differently so its either baggy ass clothes orr stay inside SKJF

okay im done talking thanks for coming to my ted talk you are safe (for now)

[smokerzgore]

1:34am : it hurts more over lapping them rather in new spots. but it feels really really good it makes my body tingle my hands get a bit hot . i think im over taking something before bed seems to stop working. it sucks though. i would take something ever night. id take them and my family would come in my room and see if i was asleep and im just there high out of my mind or my siblings would walk in and id be on discord or on the phone high. i went to bed on the phone with my friend high same with one of my cousins. It sucks and its sad seeing people in the world on drugs lose there minds just to feel some type of way. and for me to sit either on call or just by myself sucks. Its sad being on call with friends high and not fully gathering what they say because im high, it makes me feel horrible the next day or just anytime they mention somthing and idr bcuz i wasnt there. all bcuz i wanted to feel high. drugs really do fuck up life. but then again while i sit here and type, there the only thing making me feel nothing. i have friends. but even than, i want to be alone with myself.

i used to drive to this lake like 10mins from my house where if you park at the top of the hill and go a little more up an sit on the table you could see the whole entire lake, i would sit there for a hour before school. wake up at 6am get there by 620ish and just sit there till 15 mins before school, id sit there and tlk to myself. there was one day, and only one person knows this but since i use this now and honestly dc about shit anymore, i sat there and cried i skipped 2hours of school because i was sitting there talking myself into kms. i texted my parents tellin them how my day was going.... gave them crap, telling them i wasn't gonna be able to pick my siblings up bcuz i had some school project or extra credit to do. i texted my older brother telling him where my cat likes to sleep so he knows where to find him when he doesnt see him when he gets home from work. i texted my little sister telling her i wouldnt make it to her game the next day bcuz i was planning to go to school for some project and telling her to do her best bcuz if not ill be mad. i started sending my bf atm money from my bank so he could help himself more bcuz he bought me to much that i could ask for i told him that i hope his football team for the super bowl wins and to make sure he wears his jersey right this time.... i took pictures of where i was and saved them. i stopped sharing my locations with aaliyah. and i sat there. i sat there and sat there. i got up look over the hill and looked down. my heart dropped and i fell back and gave up. the thought of leaving ehat i had at the time was horrible. i didnt wanna go but something in me did. i collected myself got in the car cried more banged on my stirring wheel. fixed my face and went to school went home slept. that was that. i went on as i never did anything. i should have, truly. but hey ig it was worth? cause i mean look who i have. i seen a lot of ppl come and go. i did shi, i caused shit, i was the reason, but in the end im alone your alone everyone's alone. its nothing new and will never be fixed. in the end ur alone. no one can be there truly for you. you cant get into my head . you cant get my feelings, thoughts, pain, nothing. anyways. i said i didn want to take anything tbh but im tired asf so night.

[supernaturalgirl31]

despite What people say About us we love Each other

It had been a few weeks since Tyrion was married to the lady Y/N who was madly in love with him . He had a meeting that moring and she was sleeping . When he returned to the room she was just waking up and her eyes were Puffy and red she must of been cryingbin her sleep . And this worried Tyrion. "My lady are you alright? " he walks over to her and holds her hand and she sighs .

"It was just a nightmare is all " he moves her hair and sighs "my darling I can tell something is worng then just a bad dream . She looks at him amd sighs . "My sister sansa she came by befor she heard pepole talking about are marriage " he gets on the bed and looks at her .

"What did she hear?" "That you leave are room in the night because i can't Satisfy you and that if are marriage wasnt a Arranged one that you wouldnt of married me in the frist place " Tyrion sighs and hugs his wife and pulled back she lays on his lap and he brushes he hair with his fingers. It was true that the marriage between them was a Arranged one but they got to get to know one other befor they got married . And he knew who was makeing these Rumors his sister . "My lady we must get ready we have Breakfast with my sister and bother. "

Laster Tyrion and Y/N get to the hall outside and saw his Siblings. He was mad at his sister for makeing his wife upset no matter who she is he would not stand for it

Jamie was siting with his wife sansa who was y/n sister. Their marriage was an arranged one as well but it didnt bother them

"So Tyrion how is it being married ?"

Asked Jaime . As he poors them a drink and hand it to them he saw Y/N was upset and he had a feeling why that was . So he knew this Breakfast was going to be Interesting

"Oh come now Jaime its Obviously that it's not going too well i mean look at his wife shes been crying " I mean if the marriage was good she wouldn't have puffy eyes .

"Yes will I you to thank for that cersei for spreading rumors aroumd the castle about my marriage Don't I ? I mean it was you who been saying these things about My marriage" said a angry Tyrion

"Tyrion you cant be Serious I mean how can Either of you be happy? Your marriage was a Arranged one not just by are father but by the king as well "

"So what sister . You see there is something you dont know but i love Y/N with all my heart . Despite how are marriage came to be I love her and she loves me . So i would Appreciated that you stopped spreading rumors about our marriage. I mean you dont do it with Jamie and his wife " . "Oh i forgot its because hes normal hight . Y/N looks at her husband . And holds his hand .

cersei laughs "you actually expect me to believe that you are madley in love with one other ? Now why would I believe that ? I dont see anything that would make me believe That you are happy in this marriage Especially your wife"

"WHY BECAUSE HES A DWARF? WILL SORRY TO DISAPPOINT YOU . YOUR GRACE BUT I DONT CARE ABOUT HIS HIGHT" yelld a angry Y/N she was on the edge of tears aging she knew who her sister in law was but she hated how she was treating her and her husband

"IM in love with him why can't you see it that we are in love I mean you should be happy that your bother has a wife that cares for him just for being him and not his hight . Because i know if you were married Tyrion would be doing the same Is praising you for your marriage not Spreading rumors ."she gose back to eating her food

Jaime smricks seeing how cersei is geting told off he looks at his sister and sighs . "Why can't you just leave them be my dear sister Tyrion is happy .I see no reason for this .

Tyrion gets up and stands next to his wife . "Hey hey shhhhhh relax my darling " he rubs her back . "If you excuse us my wife is tried and so am i its been a becuymorning and my wife hasnt slept well lastnight. Good day to you all . He leaves and they go to there room . Y/n sits down holding her hand . "You were amazing my love im so proud of you for standing up to cersei. She looks at her husband .

"I was yelling at the kings mother . "Ohhhh its fine belive me joffrey would be claping about this if he saw it went down " hes been wanting to tack her down from that high horse shes on . She laughs and kissed him . She lays on his lap aging . "Tyrion you know I ment what I said right about not caring about your hight?" He nods "of course my love " he smiled and kissed her lips . "Now let us sleep "

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Here @actuallygoodbatfamilymemes

(also dami is 13 and has been friends with jon for abt 6 months whos 12 in this fic jons only slightly mentioned here in like one sentence)

(this was originally supposed to be hc but i wrote a whole essay and realized its actually a fic also thus is trash sorry this is my first fic)

I like you have a enby dami fic

Damian never felt really comfortable with he/him some days he would absolutely hate it and hate how he looked

He always felt like that and weirdly enough never thought anything of it rather focusing on his training then an identity crisis

That was until he lived with his father and the annoyences he called brothers

Its been two years since Damian first stepped foot in the manor and he was comfortable with everyone there not trying to fight everyone and everything he sees

And of course because of that his siblings made a “Protect Dami Club” a year and a half ago

If Damian had any questions they would help him especially with feelings

And of course the Protect Dami Club TM noticed how Damian got quiter then usual and how he kind of stopped talking and started saying *tt* as the only response you’d get barely making comments which was a whole new weird

The Protect Dami ClubTM decided to investigate but they got nothing with out the help of Cass who was out of town at the time

So they decided to hold a meeting with Damian in it

“*tt* is this what you do with your free time” Damian said while being dragged to the meeting room annoyance laced his words

“Yep” dick said cheerfully Damian just kept his annoyed face he didnt know how someone can be so cheerful dragging someone else to a boring meeting

But oh poor Damian this wasn’t a regular meeting

He was sat at the white circular table in a regular chair while the others had bolted in white chairs like they were the justice league

“Okay whats going on” damian said annoyance in his voice again

Dick started “Well babybird there has bee-“ damian cut him off “just get to the point already”

“You’ve been acting weird whats going on?” Tim said so Dick wouldnt ramble on for an hour

Damian just looked off to the side not wanting to make eye contact

“So there has been something bothering you” jason said matter of factly

Surprisingly jason did attend meetings i mean what kind of brother would he be if he didnt help out demon spawn

“What?No of course not” Damian said trying to keep his poker face and a monotone voice but that what gave him away

“Hey babybird you can tell us if you’d like” dick said in a soothing

“Yea we’re worried about you Damian” tim decided to join

Damian just bit his lip

“Alright...” damian slowly let down his walls brick by brick with the help of his siblings and thankfully only dick,jason and tim were there and not duke or the rest of his siblings since he isnt as open to them as he is to the rest of the batbros

“I never felt how do i put it comfortable with he/him i tried to imagine myself with she/her but i hated it as much as he/him and i dont know what to do” Damian said breaking down hi-he- Damians brick wall letting the batbros know

“That sounds kind of complicated but we’re here for you baby bird” dick said reassuringly

“Yea demon spawn” jason said in a more reassuringvoice which no one knew he could have

“Have you tryed they/them?” Tim said

Dick looked at him with a confused expression while damian was just stunned not knowing that you could use they/them and jason just looked like...jason

“You-you can do that?” Damian said still stunned “yea...you didnt know?” Tim said like the demon knew you could use they/them “No i knew just decided to hate on he/him OF COURSE NOT *tt*” damian said with sarcasm

“Wanna test they/them?” Tim asks The gremlin

“...ye...” was the only response the rest of the batbros got

“How do you test out pronouns?” Dick asks Tim in a whisper

“Oh yea Damians here they just need to get ready they’ll be here any second so dont worry about them too much they’re not as dumb as Jason” tim says the last part in a quiter voice but everyone heard him

“Hey!” Jason said ready to body slam Tim

Damian didnt pay attention to Jason and Tims argument they were in their own world smiling like a certain super dork

“So guessing i’ll be using they/them for you” Dick said as he left ruffleing the youngests hair

[hanafubukki]

Convert Anon💜 here!!

I agree witj you about Belphie, that I wouldnt trust him for a long while and has to make it up to me, especially if he ever wants to meet my family since I have three younger siblings and if they ever found out he hurt me, they would fight him

And my fav of the demon brothers is Mammon and close second would be Beel

Mammon cause I like greedy bois(*looks at the octotrio*) and Beel cause the best way to my heart is through food and i love them both

Belphie has to earn my trust for a long time and i would have another brother with me whenever I hang out with Belphie(probably Beel)

But yeah, salty about lesson 16 and him expecting everything to be okay after it and I am so salty about it

Also I would so sleep in Mammon’s room for a while cause he was holding our body and also never tried to ever kill us and also was our first demon🥺🥺💜💜

You play Obey me too Convert 💜 Anonie?!? That’s great! Oooh yes I am ready to chat about this topic. Let’s gooo 🙌🙌💗💗

Honestly, I haven’t been playing as much. The constant events and lessons and then the cards and added characters just made me go Ooof on it…plus difficulty spike andkskss

YES! I hate what they did with the whole blephie part! They just put everything under the rug and I for sure would never trust him and would use the pact to keep him away and he would have to make an effort to get me to like him at all let alone be in the same room.

Honestly, if anyone fought me on it, I would go stay at purgatory hall. You would think they would take time to at least make him ask for forgiveness or something

Though I heard in the anime you get some of that with him and the brothers but not the MC which is dumb because he needs to do that with mc. Like I get why he did it but doesn’t mean he can’t step up a bit.

I got into the game through asmo art and fanfic after constantly being barraged with ads on YouTube, thought I would love mammon until I found out he was a tsundere and then loved luci because of his love for family. But now I moved into Simeon and Solomon and adopted my baby brother Luke

Simeon because he’s just a gentle yet funny angel. You can tell he loves the brothers and his friends a lot and then he scarified so much for mc. There’s also a hidden part of him that makes me wonder too.

Solomon because he’s our shady wizard teacher and fellow human. And he cares and loves us so much and he’s funny and I can’t help but wonder about everything he had to go through through the years you know? (And apparently I have a thing for immortal grandpas who can’t cook 😂😂😅😅)

Mammon I gradually loved because he loves you so so so much. Beel is a sweetie but I feel he can’t choose between us and his twin and I wouldn’t put him through that.

Mammon would literally do anything and everything for us, he’s also always sweet to me and comes when I used to pull for a card that’s not him lol 😆

You and me Concert Anonie 🤝🤝 I agree with you. I am still so salty about it. Will definitely keep a brother with me and or just keep one of the other residents. Definitely wouldn’t trust dia or barbatos because they must have known something

And do you remember the previous timeline? That hurts me still because they are waiting still 😭😭

Mammon holding is as we disappear 😭😭😭😭 ahhhh that scene just tears me apart. I love when he’s honestly and loves us so wholeheartedly. I would definitely cuddle him too and hold his hand, so we both can we are alive and nothing can hold us

[kurtanaaa]

What are your favourite headcanons about Santana’s life/ career / future family??

Same with Mercedes and Sam.

OOOH OKAY. HM. idk what the big broad headcanons are so im mostly gonna use my own

so ive talked about this before, but i think santana and puck were definitely childhood friends and grew up in the same neighborhood. santana always alludes to lima heights adjacent, and when i imagine that, i think of a place like where i used to live where everybody lives in houses with white siding and concrete front steps and rickety screen doors and a/c window units with the occasional walk up apartment building. thats immediately what i think of. and i think she grew up with her dad and her mother in her life, but since her dad wasnt at her wedding, i would say that something happened to him between s3 and 6, probably divorce for messy reasons or something to that effect. so she knows her dad and grew up with him, but theyre probably not that close anymore.

in terms of career, i love what old dogs, new tricks did in making her a publicist. thats so ridiculously apt it fits her character so well!!!! of course shes great at cultivating an image, she did it to survive in high school and she was good at it. and shes ruthless, which is exactly what you need in a publicist/manager.

future family i honestly wouldnt jump to thinking she would have kids. like maybe she would want them? but i would more assume she'd rather be the double income lesbian wine aunts with brittany and spoil all her friends' kids rotten and teach them swear words. obviously she loves these kids to bits but i cant see her having kids of her own, nor do i think brittany would necessarily want them either

MERCEDES! lets get into this

her dads a DENTIST! that means that miss thing is probably fairly well off and lives in a nice house thats big enough for her and her parents and brother (and then eventually quinn). she had no qualms about inviting quinn so i assume its big enough to accommodate them all, clean, and well decorated. she also seems like the type to have a pool or hot tub and she would invite all her friends over as often as possible. personally i also think that she and kurt would love to bake together

in terms of career shes gonna be a big recording artist. no more to it. shes gonna be the fuckin princess of r&b and pop and everyone will love her to bits. its what she deserves! and i think oftentimes when one of her friends films a movie she'd contribute a song to the soundtrack

future family.... WARNING SAMCEDES ALERT i think she and sam get married and sam is a stay at home dad (still with a job tho i will get to that in a sec) and they have a couple kids that auntie santana and uncle kurt spoil rotten. i think she would try and involve her kids and sam in her work as much as possible bc she loves themmmmm

SAM SAM SAM. so i think sam wouldve grown up in a fairly nice neighborhood, but as his parents lost money and they had to move around he wound up living in a similar place to santana (taking inspiration from when santana says the line "youre the only person who would remind her of lima heights"). ive talked about this before but to me sam is very much a family oriented guy and will do anything to provide for them and i think hes an ace at cooking with whatevers available because of it. he can make a microwave/immediate dinner into something really tasty with some herbs and garlic and such just bc he had to make sure his siblings ate

CAREER!!! i think he'd be a comics artist!!!!! he loves his comics hes good at art (macaroni kurt anyone) and he would get to see all the new storylines immediately!!!! and it would let him work on a schedule more suited to him bc i know my boy has adhd and will work when his brain damn well lets him

and for future? see above re: mercedes. stay at home dad, loves his kids and his wife, himbo material supreme. i love him so much

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING THIS IM SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG I TRIED TO TALK LESS BY THE END BUT I KINDA FAILED ANYWAY I LOVE U THANK YOU FOR THIS I LOV TALKING

[pigstepmp3-moved]

holy hell, gamers, i finally reached one whole thousand followers! how bonkers is that! when i first made this blog in december 2018, i was just trying to start over in a new fandom. ive been active on tumblr for a looong time (since i was like 11, which is. not great, but we wont get into that). i cant remember quite why i decided to remake, but i never imagined getting a higher following than i did before, but i did! 1000 followers is bonkers, i’ve never had a thousand of anything! i seriously cant thank each and every one of you enough, whether you followed me for 911 or for mcyt or for whatever!

now, since ive reached this absolutely bonkers milestone, im feeling particularly sappy! so under the cut, i have some friends and mutuals tagged who are super great n who are always an absolute pleasure to see on my dash! <3 again, thank you all so much! (ps, if we’re mutuals and i didnt tag u in this, that doesnt mean i dont love and appreciate you!! i mostly am just picking people to tag based off how often i see them on my dash! i love all of u so much <3)

♡ 911 FRIENDS ♡

(aka the ogs, aka the fire fam)

♡ @lovelessmotel ♡ emily!! god, where do i even begin with how much i love and adore you!! i know youre one of my big sisters, but wow i am so proud of how much youve discovered yourself since we’ve met!! like wow, look at this epic, gorgeous person whos one of MY close friends! im so lucky to be friends with you! thank you so much for being my friend, i appreciate you and all the sisterly advice you’ve given me more than i can ever put into words!

♡ @eddiediaz-buckley ♡ sav!! mom!! i love u so unbelievably much!! i am so unbelievably grateful for you and everything youve done for me! all the advice youve given me and all the times youve let me vent to you have been so important to me and i cannot thank you enough for all that. im soso appreciative of you and im so glad that i have someone as amazing as you as my mom/big sister (we’ll never really figure out our fams family dynamics, will we?) (ps, whenever i go outside and have my keys with me, its always so comforting to feel the keychain you got me! its like my moms with me everywhere i go!)

♡ @liesoverthec ♡ bonbonbonbon!!! i love you so much, you wouldnt BELIEVE how much i love you!!! im so glad we met bc you are so unbelievably kind!! there is a very good reason a nickname for u is bonbon bc you are just as sweet as candy!! maybe even more so!! i love having you as one of my big sisters, you give such wonderful advice and talking to you always makes me feel a million times better!! i love you and i am soso glad i get to call you my friend!

♡ @marauder-girl ♡ sabsabsab!! i love u so much, u funky lil future lawyer!! im so proud of u and i can hardly believe ur gonna be my Lawyer big sister!!! thats so awesome!! i cant believe such a rad person is one of MY friends!! how lucky am i!! i love having you as one of my big sisters, youre so kind and funny and talented and your advice has always been so helpful to me too! thank you so much for being my friend and for always being there for me!!

♡ @nighting-gale17 ♡ cait, my love, my wifey!!! wowowow i love u so much!!! im so glad we’re friends, you are so unbelievably lovely!! youre also so unbelievably talented like??? hey queen wanna hand some of ur writing ability over to the unfortunate (like me). i’m so glad we’re friends, youre so sweet and even tho we dont talk as much as we used to, i still have SO much love for you in my heart

♡ @africaneuropean ♡ rae, my father!! i love u so much!! i know we havent talked at all in. who knows how long. but i still have so much love for u in my heart!! you are so iconic and cool and funny, im so glad i met you n became friends with you!! ur one of the coolest people i know, i hope i can be as cool and mysterious and wonderful as you one day

♡ @evaneddie ♡ DHYL!!! dhyl pickle i love u so much!!! whenever u pop into my inbox with random nice messages, every part of me lights up!!! u are so kind to me and for what!! i miss talking to u as much as we used to, you are so sweet and you are such a good friend!! i love u n im SO proud of how far youve come with gif making, i still remember when u first started n youve gotten SO amazing at gifs lately!! i love u soso much n im so glad we’re friends, youre so awesome!!!

♡ @basil-the-writer ♡ des!!! i love u so much!!! i know we’ve never rly talked all that much but im glad we have interacted in the ways that we have!! u are so sweet n so talented!! like the fact that u have the patience for those lil video edits u do?? that is so cool!! all ur edits are so cool, i cannot imagine being able to make stuff like that without dying every single time. u are so cool n i love being able to call u my friend!!

♡ GRIFF ♡

(aka griff)

♡ @yawnralphio ♡ u get ur own section bc u are my only 911 friend who isnt an og, but thats ok bc u are so swaggy!! i love being friends with u griff, u are so cool and funny and i am so glad that u still want to be friends with me despite all of the horrifying things u’ve learned about mcyt from me jdhfajkdhfa. i love u so much n i am so excited to get to know u more n get closer to u!!

♡ FRUITBLR ♡

(aka mcyt friends)

♡ @fear-epidemic ♡ atlas u are so swaggy and funny!! tumblr funny man!! im so glad we’re mutuals, i love u a whole lot. that one time u me n wilby played bed wars together was so fun even if we’re really bad! n that one time we played on the fruitblr server while on vc was so fun, i loved talking to u n playing with u so much, we gotta do that again sometime. i love u so much chapin n im so glad we’re friends!!

♡ @netheritedream ♡ hari my beloved... i love u so much. like literally so much that its really embarassing. i am so glad u tagged me in that one follow forever post n put the offer on the table to let me join the server. i love being ur dumb lil husband!!! jus like actual fundy, i would risk it all to watch treasure planet with u. i love u sososo much, i wish i could live closer to u so i could actually talk to u more often </333 im going through severe withdrawal, pray for me. im gonna stop talking for now bc if i kept going on, this post would be several miles along n nobody has time for that </3 just know that i love u so much and i love having matching icons n i love being ur husband, i love u so much

♡ @sootswilbur ♡ tommy... i care you so much. little bromther!!! im sososo glad we’re friends bc u are so kind to me all the time n u are so easy to talk to!! ur also so talented, ur writing n ur gifs are so amazing n im so proud of all the awesome stuff u make!! seeing u experiment more with ur gif sets n trying new things is so awesome n inspiring and i love seeing ur experiments work out!! i love u soso much n im so happy to be ur big brother!! (or one of them at least)

♡ @fruitbur ♡ virgil my Other beloved... i love u so much!! u are one of the kindest people ive ever met n im so glad i met u!! i know ive already told u this before but ur tagging system is so sweet n i love seeing u reblog my posts bc im like “yay alastair is gonna tell me that he loves me in the tags :D” i also lovelovelove ur theme, i love the soft pink and the lil aesthetic board that u have pinned, its so nice to look at!!! ily sososo much <333

♡ @theartofmining ♡ hey fruit ily. like genuinely, u are so unbelievably funny that u make my ribs hurt so much. i know we’re like never rly that serious but i love u so much. as much as i joke about hating u, i really am glad we’re friends n i really look forward to becoming better friends with u. i love u a whole lot rain, i love seeing u on my dash bc ur full of good takes n funny posts

♡ @sapnaplive ♡ dream.... bonks our foreheads together... i care u so much. my other half!!! i love u with my whole little heart. u are soso cool and im so lucky to be able to call u my friend!! ur themes are always so cool, i wish i could be half as cool as them!!! ur art is also so epic like??? u are a triple threat: good at art, tumblr themes, AND minecraft building. and ur also so kind!!! u are one of the sweetest people i know, i love u so much and im so glad im friends with u!!

♡ @dreams-little-kitten ♡ corn u are so weird and i mean that in the kindest way possible. u are so cryptic n i love that so much about u. ur like the wilbur to my philza sometimes and i think thats so awesome. that one time u came into my inbox to talk shit about that one cuphead boss was so funny and absurd, i loved that so much. i love You so much. i love how ur just so effortlessly funny, n im so glad i can be friends with u

♡ @dreamsmp ♡  JEL!!!! i love u so much holy cow. u are so sweet!! all the time!!! ur also so talented, ur gifs always look so good!!! i love being friends with u, ur always so nice to me n u always leave rly nice tags when u reblog my gif sets that make me so happy!!! i think about that one time u rbed my fundy gif set n said “FUNDY GIFS” and “GIFS BY FUNDY” it made me so happy!!! i love u a whole lot, im so glad we’re friends :)

♡ @leaguelol ♡ damien!! i love u so much u funky little cryptid!! i love when u pop into the gc just to share cryptic thoughts, u are so strange but i think thats so cool of u!!! i honestly see u kinda like a lil sibling, im always so proud of u when i see ur art on my dash!! u are so talented at art!! i love u so much n i love being ur friend, ur rly sweet n i love seeing u on my dash and in the gc!!

♡ @its5undy ♡ idk why im putting u on this, ur my mortal enemy. jkjk, i actually love u a lot clay! i love joking around with u, ur so funny and for what. im so glad u joined the gc bc i love talking to you so much!! i still love that one time u reblogged that fwt gif set n tagged me in it moments after I reblogged it. i love that u thought about me, that rly warms my heart! i love being friends with u sososo much

♡ @cavalreee ♡ oh hey, another great big fruit!! i dont think we talk all that often, which is a shame, bc ur so sweet!! and also so fucking funny, why is everyone in this friend group so fucking funny, its not fair. i love seeing u on my dash talking with ur other friends, u always have the funniest convos ever. also? ur desktop theme is SO epic, it threw me off the first time i saw it but its so swaggy, just like u!! i love u soso much azzie, n i hope we can talk more in the future bc ur so cool

♡ @technosoot ♡ i love u even tho ur a br*t /j /j /j. jannat u are so unbelievably sweet. im so glad u joined the gc bc u are such a kind presence both in there and on my dash! u radiate very Warm, Friend energy. ur friend shaped. i love u so much n i love being friends with u!! im very eager to become closer friends with u bc u seem like a really amazing friend to have

♡ @sortasortaspicy ♡ les where are u in the gc i miss u </3 i love u so much, u fit in so well from the very beginning n brought so much more fun and laughter into the gc. i dont know u all that well n i dont think we’ve talked one on one like. at all. but id love to get closer to u bc ur so rad and ur so sweet!!

♡ EPIC PEOPLE  ♡

(aka mutuals who are so cool n id love to be friends with u pls talk to me)

@eurytherm ♡ @vampkings ♡ @weelbur ♡ @wilburtheesoot ♡ @quackityskarl ♡ @wimblrscoot ♡ @technofarmer ♡ @wooteena ♡ @bloodforblood ♡ @smpsapnap ♡ @literallynotfound ♡ @hearty-an0n ♡ @enderanboo ♡ @springbonniecpu ♡ @pandascanpvp ♡ @tommylnnits ♡ @strawberrygogy ♡ @timedeo ♡ @nymika-arts ♡ @h-isforhome ♡ @eboykarl ♡ @joe-alkaysani ♡ @betwecouldmakesome ♡ @squirrelstone ♡ @maddieandchimney

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i hc wilbur made tommy president because he planned to go and press the button while tommy spoke and kill him along with himself

wilbur wanted end all his unfinished symphonies and as the person who raised tommy- he raised him like he raised l'manberg. he doesnt care for fundy- not since he denounced him- so he wanted to end him :)

i need a fic where tommy is the one who goes to stop wilbur and wilbur fucking stabs him before pressing the button saying "it was never meant to be" tommy loses both first and last lives to that phrase

tommys last words are it was always meant to be fucking wilbur survives the explosion and has no one to kill him and now he has to live with the consqunces tommy becomes toast- short for ghost tommy i refuse to write so many letters each time- and immeditly looks for his older brothers and he finds wilbur first :) wilbur is exiled for his crimes and also out of fear- they tried to rehabilate him! they really did but then he freaked out over seeing toast... in a bad way.... and he and toast burned georges house on toast suggest (maybe we should burn something! that always helps me calm down!) this is after wilbur is trusted enough to be not... in a prison... after phil convinced them he needs help and toast tries his best ok- (WHO LEFT WILBUR WITH TOAST!) (I THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA AT THE TIME! I WAS ONLY LEAVING FOR FIVE MINUTES! AND RANBOO WAS THERE TOO!) and toast tries to go with but everyone is like "yeah no" and toast is like "whhhhyyy i just wanna stay with wilby!" and everytime anyone tries to tell tommy about the wrongs that have happened to him he screams and clutches his head in pain and everytime he comes back he doesnt remember the convo toast,,, is the most BABY toast calls everyone cutesy nicknames unironcially he calls eret rere toast, chriping happily: TECHIE!!!! tubbo: TOMMY STAY AWAY FROM HIM! toast, in a very lost and confused voice: why? techno, freaking out: tommy? toast: hi!!!!!!! im toast!!!!!! :D techno: lowkey ab to cry toast: NOOOOOOOO DUN CRI! toast: there there techie... i know what will help! tubbo, sighing: arson? toast: ARSON! phil comes just in time to find tommys dead body and l'manberg gone hes not around for the withers neither hes there just to see the crater and wilbur in chains with blood on his hands trying to off himself phil will forever blame himself for not making it in time :> dream: taking wilbur away in boat toast, floating behind the boat: o^o dream do you have any games on your phone .///^///. looks at exileinnit hmmm spins roulette wheel who should i hurt... i picked d all of the above they dont let toast go with him but because he is baby and you can't tell him what to do tubbo: sighs finally now that the exiles done toast can you- tubbo: looks up tubbo: GOADDAMN IT

toast is promptly kidnapped back to l'manberg the next day toast keeps going back tho and no one understands why- he literally killed him! why does he keep wanting to go back! (toasts unfinished buisness keeping him tied was helping wilbur and l'manberg- he loved wilbur even at his worst)

toast vibes around everyone but he stays with wilbur- where ever wilbur goes is where he builds his home

its shitty but its an 'ome Toast, teary eyed: Dad? Why does everyone hate Wilby? Why can't I be with him... Phil, with no idea what to do: niki bakes cakes with niki whenever hes in l'manberg he keeps accidently setting her bakery on fire but hes sMOL AND GIGGLES A LOT AND HE HAS FLOUR ON HE GODDAMN SELF toast is a part of mexican l'manberg i dont make the rules mexican dream: AYYYYYYYYY HOMIE toast, giggling: 'OMIE!!!!!

Toast is wholesome while everyone is literally willing to murder Wilbur while also trying to stop him from khs toast is just a very happy lovely child and cries whenever anyone is mean to 'his big brother wilby!' and so they all constantly glare daggers over toasts shoulder wherenever he cant see em meanwhile Phil is just dying inside because Tommy is a ghost by Wilbur's hands and Wilbur keeps trying to commit suicide and oh god what is he supposed to do- he simply avoids this struggle by avoiding them toast, waddling up to philza: papa do you have any games on your phone? all im saying is that tommy called phil papa before changing to dad or fathercraft phil,in the tired parent voice: tommy please sit down- just for five minutes- at least for 5 minutes toast: sits down and then proceeds to struggle to continue to sit but he must because dad told him to toast is just ADHD incarnate wilbur, trying to end himself: im gonna escape my consequences toast: HI!!!!! :D wilbur: FUCK ITS MY CONSEQUENCES toast,,,, is so baby Wilbur is just not allowed to have anything remotely sharp i like how theres so much angst and im just hyper focusing on ba yby dream uses toast the same way he uses ghostbur! :D toast doesnt realize of course even after wilbur tells him dream is bad but he keeps forgetting!!! Everyone: da baby Dream: how can I profit from this oh dream is manipulating wilbur btw wilbur: suffering toast: i made you a card toast trusts eret wholeheartedly and this hurts eret because she knows if toast remembered he probably wouldnt- they wanted redemption but not like this- not because of death Toast: you look cool Toast: you are friend now Eret: sobs I don't deserve this Toast: what did I do wrong Toast: how can I help friend!!!!! Eret: sobbing more toast looks at everyone says "ah! friend shaped!" if ur wondering wheres the angst toast is the angst- toast is just tommy without any bad memories and hes so different they thought he was happy before they thought he was fine tommy was hurt too but since he internalized it no one cared toast sees wilbur being sad and goes! i know what will help! n-not arson tho people dont like arson when you do it.... BUT ITS OKAY! I BROUGHT A FRIEND! shows friend, the sheep and wilbur just fucking sobs Toast is wholesome chaotic in a perfect mix- toast is tommy but without the 'asshole on purpose as a self defense mechanism" someone mentioned something about Tommy masking insecurities once Toast doesn't remember. and he's fine with that he doesn't have any insecurities toast hurts because in retrospect toast, meeting bad: WOAAAAAAH! YOU LOOK SO FUCKING COOL! bad: LANGUAGE! toast, cringing back, looking at the ground: ..sorry :( bad: ...you can swear toast: :D bad: once toast hasnt sworn since "hes saving it for special occasions" sometimes he accidently swears and immedtly gasps and looks at bad and bad just sighs and is like "its okay it was an accident" bad never would have thought itd take letting tommy swear for him to stop huh... its almost like... hes a child.... and the negetive reienforcement.... was doing more harm then good.... toast: exists in an amount of happiness no one has ever seen him in before everyone: pain how much pain was tommy in before? they thought tommy was happy- was... was he not happy? he's so unabashedly joyful and energetic looking back they can see how forced every laugh felt, every smile- He's not afraid to just talk to people, make new friends he became so much more cautious after Eret, had it really effected him that badly? He's open. He never lies about how he's feeling, never brushes anything away how much was Tommy hiding, how much pain, how much fear- It's chilling. bone chilling. There's no way to fix what's been lost. No way to apologize to who Tommy used to be, to try and make it better. None of them every bothered to see him as anything more than a nuisance, an annoying child or cannon fodder and they'll regret it for the rest of their lives everyone: having a mental crisis toast: GUYYYYSS!! I MADE ANOTHER FRIEND!!!

"Wilby?" Wilbur heard Tommys voice say in an innocent tone.

Was he hearing things? Tommy's dead. He killed him himself.

"Wilby why are you in prison?" The image of his little brother asked, "Did you commit arson without me?" it asked in a pout.

"TOMMY!" Tubbo yelled running into the cell where Wilbur was kept, going through the bars with ease, "Tommy get away from him!"

"But 'ubbo!!!! Wilby is 'ere!!!!" Tommy (?) said with a smile Wilbur hadn't seen since Tommy was a child.

"Tommy, I understand you don't remember anything right now but you need to come back over here!" Tubbo demanded and Tommy flinched

Wilbur was struck with the sudden realization that this isn't just his mind- no no it can't be- but Tubbo acknowledged him he has to- Wilbur reached his locked hands towards Tommy only for him to pass through him. What? No no it was just his imagination that makes sense.

"Oh sorry Wil! I'm kinda dead! I don't remember how i died... but i think im a ghostie!" Tommy said plainly, floating off the floor. Wilbur looked at him in confusion. Whats happening?

the first time toast sees the crater toast srceams in intense amount of pain- its so loud you can hear it all over the smp- and just dissapears for a few days before reappearing with no memories of what happened toast saying things tommy thought but never said- he calls eret "big brother" and eret fucking d i e s toast cals all the l'manbergians older siblings He's far too honest for anyone to handle tommy was always honest too but he learned from experince that honesty only lead to hurt Tommy was like an enderchest, you could never see beyond the exterior, everything inside was exclusive to him and him alone Toast is like when someone dies and all their fuckin items explode onto the ground. you just see everything and most of it was  pain and everyone feels bad because they thought he was the only one uneffected that nothing had ever put a damper on his happiness and energetic smile- at what point had that smile became fake? also for angst reasons the last memory toast has is before the elections toast has uwu boy vibes but more chaotic toast goes to dream smp from logstedshire purely for sam nook toast starts making his hotel since he sees nobody has a home (including dream LMAO) (and he wants to make a safe place since everyone keeps saying something about war) and wants to make one and asks sam for help since apparently hes good at building and sam lets him pay after he finishs the hotel and sam nook is there since day one because i dont think i could handle a world without sam nook toast: biting everyone tubbo: wHY DO YOU DO THAT?????? toast: once techie bit all the cupcakes and then said it was his cuz he bit it so im biting everyone to show their mine!!!!! tubbo: i- tubbo: i am both flattered and disgusted everyone, remembering how tommy used to bite everyone upon meeting and then everyone would get mad at him and yell at him until he stopped biting people on meeting: sadly whips and nae naes hes a BABY toast deserves the fucking world also i havent talked ab it but there is wilbur and fundy angst here fundy confronts wilbur also not that fundy is angry about not not not getting murdered by his father but also why does he consider tommy his unfinished sympohny and not him? he raised fundy too- maybe he just only ever loved tommy (based off his insecurity of how close wilbur and tommy are based off wilbur raising tommy and wilbur only being there for fundy by the time he was older and also using hybrid age go nyoom for this dream manipulates toast during wilburs exile along with wilbur and toast realizes both of them were being used by him and fucking screams lourder than he ever has before and dissapears for a week and then shows up at technos house (he got lost and he didnt know why he was at logsted shire- he doesnt remember the place) on the day of the excution and tries to help technoblade but keeps forgetting that everyone is trying to kill techno the butcher army is hesitant when "hey why are you all attacking big brother Techy-" "HE SPAWNED WITHERS IN L'MANBERG!" "he did?" toast asked tilting his head in confusion "YES! HE DID! AFTER YOU DIED! NOW WHERE IS HE TOAST! WE NEED TO CAPTURE HIM!" whenever tubbo talks ab how theyre planning on excuting techno or how there was no trial toast has flashbacks to tubbos excution but hes never able to hold on to the memories just leaving him feeling bad toast sees anything traumatic and just makes the blue screen noise toast has to reboot every time anything truamatic happens and when he does he doesnt remember what happens after

toast hurts on a "THE FUCKING IMPLICATIONS OF THIS" level just.. everyone trying to make up for not noticing tommys hurt and trying to be good to toast when its already too late... far too late glatt is also here because whenever ytoast dissapears after something trauamtic he bounces back to the land of the dead for the bit and sometimes he drags glatt out to the land of the living with him only works bc toast has unfinished buisness so he can freely go between and just stays in the land of the lving until he can finish his unfiinshed buisness ghostbur and toast wouldve been good friends if they ever met anyone yells at toast and he immeditly starts sobbing

basically when everything is calm and peaceful and everyone is happy together after dream is in prison and toast is like "oh... this is what ive always wanted"

"toast?" tubbo asked, confused toast smiled softly, "i think its time for me to go" "what?" wilbur asked his pitch unusually high due to the fear lacing his voice "i think... i think this was my unfinished buisness... this is the last thing i wanted when i was alive, the reason i stayed... i think its finally my time to go now" toast said smiling tearfully "no! you vcan't go! we just got you back!"

basically when everything is finally ok, when things finally calm down toast fades back to the void/afterlife thing