#heaven is you joshua bassett

[omg26lilly]

Have you heard there's a place where you die that you'll reside, heaven is you.

I've let it drift through the secrets that we shared, through the laughs.

Hope you'll find what you need in the afterlife, your not meant for this world, I'll let your broken parts build up your amour.

Hopefully you can be free of this amonisty that pours out of your wounds, someday I hope that it all heals then you finally be real with ...

9/10/22

[dre6ming]

The delicate beginning rush

Instagram photo dump part VI

Masterlist <all chapters here>

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Pairing: Austin Butler x singer/actress fem reader

!!!Everything fake!!!

𓆤𓆤𓆤𓆤𓆤𓆤𓆤𓆤𓆤

tmz

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tmz: Y/n and Joshua Bassett caught locking lips once again, this seems to be pretty solid if you ask us.

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fan34: omg they are fr!! I thought it was all a PR thing

↳fan12: it still could be, it's very likely

↳joshuafan: yeah definitely smells like PR

↳love4y/n: what if we're just too quick to judge

abfan: deep down I feel like she's still hung up on Austin

↳fan-ab: who wouldn't be😩😩

↳fan48: ugh back with this

hater3: she's just trying to prove that she can hold a man for longer than a few days

↳hater28: well seems like she's really trying

fan.love38: they look so cute 🥰 . I'm in love with them

↳fan111: same here.

↳fan.of.joshua: I'm obsessed with them

y/n4real.2002

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y/n4real.2002: Best-friend out now on all platforms. 📸: roxanne.02_b1tch

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tchalamet: proud of you sis!!!

↳y/n4real.2002: tchalamet thanks big brother. Love you 💜💜

↳fan283: ahh they are the cutest ever

↳tc-fan: he's always such a supporter

roxanne.02_b1tch: you're welcome for the photo

↳y/n4real.2002: roxanne.02_b1tch hahaha thanks girl, love you tons💜💜

↳fan281: I love their friendship

↳fans2: omg yes they are so iconic

taylorswift: a true mastermind

↳y/n4real.2002: taylorswift you know it 😉

↳tsfan: ma'am what does this little interaction mean? 🧐

↳taylor13-fan: we're clowning 🤡

austinbutler: definitely worth the wait

↳y/n4real.2002: austinbutler it's in my job description 😉

↳an.fan1: 👀 wait what??

↳austin-fan: I'm losing my mind over this

↳kaiafan23: 😡 hands off, he's taken

jackantonoff: one step

finneas: the first step

↳y/n4real.2002: finneas jackantonoff 👀👀

tchalamet

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tchalamet: my sister is amazing and she does it all. Go listen to her new song Best-Friend. #throwback to quarantine in Toronto, def do not miss that small apartment 😭

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y/n4real.2002: my heart could explode rn and hey I loved that apartment 😡

↳tchalamet: y/n4real.2002 Ik u did, weirdo

↳y/n4real.2002: tchalamet I'm not a weirdo 🥺

↳fan28: protect Y/n at all costs

↳fan4949: guys they are so cute

ab-fan13: Austin liked this you guys

↳austin_fan: omg he's literally confirming they're more than friends

↳fan-ep.ab: holly cow I can't believe this

fan1: they are so cute

tcfan25: Timmy always here with the big brother moves

y/n4real.2002

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y/n4real.2002: a big thank you to teutamatoshi for custom making this dress, you'll know what I've been up to pretty soon 😉 #orange

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austinbutler: looking fabulous in orange

↳y/n4real.2002: 🫣

↳aus.b.fan: what's that supposed to mean y/n4real.2002 ?!?!!?

↳fan4austin: they are messing with us

↳kaia.fan: this is so disappointing to see

teutamatoshi: 🧡🧡

↳y/n4real.2002: grateful ☺️

fan1: she looks so good

fan192: I'm not gonna lie, I'm only looking at your titties rn

↳austin-b-fan: I think I know someone who might be doing the same

↳fan.4.austin: if you know, you know 🧐

tchalamet: that's my sister everyone 👏👏

billboardcharts

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billboardcharts this weeks chart has some new entries form y/n4real.2002 debuting her first single, Best-Friend at number 3 and joshuabassett debuting with his song, Heaven is you, at number 9. This is the first time either of them enter the top 10. Congrats to them!!

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fan1: omg so proud of her 😭

fan19: her hard work is paying off

ts-fan: Taylor raised her baby well

joshua-fan: them being in the chart for the first time and together!!!!

↳fanofjoshua: I guess the PR stunt worked 🧐

↳fan193: I don't think they are PR

13fans.taylor: holly!!! She's walking on holly ground

↳taylor.s.fan: as her mom, Taylor, said - she'll know the way and then she'll say she got the map from me

y/n4real.2002

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y/n4real.2002 my next single Dandelions will be out on April 1st (no, it's not a joke 😔) thank you everyone for the amazing support and for listening to my gibberish, all I've ever wanted was to be heard by people I relate to, so thank you #dandelions #savethedate

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jackantonoff: so excited for this ☝️

↳y/n4real.2002: hehe ☺️

austinbutler: 🌺

↳y/n4real.2002: austinbutler glad to see you discovered emojis old man 😔

↳ab.fan292: this has no business being this funny

↳fankaia12: if by funny you mean pathetic and disgusting, then yeah, it's funny

fan1: I'm so excited to hear this new song agahahsk

↳y/n4real.2002: fan1 happy to hear

↳fan1: y/n4real.2002 I love you so much

joshualover: why has Joshua been missing her posts?👀

↳fan4joshua2: cause she's messing around

↳fan292: stop it, you have no right to comment on this

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[fullstcp]

"Joshua Bassett" by Joshua Bassett Sentence Starters

SORRY

"You told me things you knew that I wanted to hear."

"I even thought you were the one for years."

"You'll be sorry that you left me."

"I'm the best thing that you are never gonna get again."

"You made me think that it was all only my fault."

"It was faulted from the start."

"You taught me how to love."

DO IT ALL AGAIN

"Excuse the mess I made when you were mine."

"I'm still learning how to love."

"I know you're nervous, but I won't let you fall."

"We weren't perfect, but you were worth it all."

"If it were my call, I'd do it all again."

"I'm not yet used to only being friends."

"I thought we had more time."

"I'm not afraid to say something first even if it hurts."

LIE LIE LIE

"They told me all the things that you said."

"You've been lying to yourself."

"Darling, what the hell?"

"I know what you say about me."

"I hope that it makes you happy."

"You can't seem to get me off your mind."

"I know you're lying through your teeth."

"It won't work this time."

ONLY A MATTER OF TIME

"Tell me you're not lying to me."

"You can't keep on hiding from me."

"When did you stop being kind?"

"Why would you make your pain mine?"

"You're making me pay for your crimes."

"Are you glad you got that out?"

"Do you feel better now?"

TELLING MYSELF

"How did we allow this story to fall so south?"

"What were we both thinking?"

"We were so naive believing we were still happy."

"How could I ignore my doubts?"

"I keep on telling myself we had something good."

"Did we stay together longer than we should?"

"Were we just playing pretend because we could?"

"Was it really that good?"

"Did we just want to believe that this was love?"

"Was it really worth the trouble that it caused?"

"Now that you're gone, I see it all clearly."

"Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change a thing."

HEAVEN IS YOU

"Lately I've been questioning my faith."

"Just one look at you is all it really takes."

"Ever since I met you, I know that heaven is you."

"To think that I could be deserving of an angel never crossed my mind 'til you fell in my lap."

"I'm not one to fall in love too fast."

"Something tells me this one's gonna last."

"You're all I'll ever want."

"You're all I'll ever need."

"You're all I've ever dreamed of having."

[bassettmemes]

JOSHUA BASSETT. ↳ lines from the joshua bassett ep to be used as prompts. 

“you’ll be sorry that you left me, because i’m the best thing that you’re never gonna get again.”

“it was faulted from the start.”

“it’s been six weeks since we said our goodbyes.”

“excuse the mess i made when you were mine.”

“i’m still learning how to love.”

“we weren’t perfect, but you were worth it all.”

“i know you’re nervous, but i won’t let you fall.”

“i couldn’t blame you for putting yourself first.”

“they told me all the things you said.”

“you’re acting oh so innocent.”

“you can’t seem to get me off your mind.”

“you’re lying through your teeth.”

“time to tell the world that you’ve been lying on my name.”

“you twisted your words like a knife.”

“when karma comes around, then you’ll be drowning in regret.”

“it’s not about revenge tonight.”

“how did we allow this story to fall so south?”

“i keep on telling myself we had something.”

“did we stay together longer than we should?”

“did we just want to believe this is love?”

“don’t pretend you’re all of a sudden innocent.”

“now that you’re gone, i see it all clearly.”

“lately i’ve been questioning my faith.”

“to think that i could be deserving of an angel didn’t cross my mind ‘til you fell in my lap.” 

“i’m not one to fall too fast.”

“ever since i met you, i know that heaven is you.”

“you’re all i ever dreamed of having.”

[sparklyseblos]

rina: heaven is you - joshua bassett

(spc: 1ove4logoless on ig)

[justabigassnerd]

random post from yours truly as I work on the newest part of Hangman junior

I listen to music a lot as I write bc it helps me just focus and get on with what I'm doing

but as I was writing the other day, I was listening to 'Heaven is You' by Joshua Bassett and honestly I had to stop what I was doing bc it reminded me so much of Hangman junior universe Sereshaw and I wanted to appreciate the lyrics and get emotional for a moment

so yeah this is me telling you to listen to 'Heaven is You' by Joshua Bassett for Hangman junior universe purposes

much love <3

[newyorkangelbaby]

my ranking of joshua bassett’s discography because i can

1. lifeline

2. only a matter of time

3. set me free

4. used to it

5. all in due time

6. she said he said she said

7. sad songs in a hotel room

8. finally free

9. feel something

10. we both know ft sabrina carpenter

11. smoke slow

12. different

13. la

14. would you love me now

15. i’m sorry

16. doppelgänger

17. sorry

18. telling myself

19. secret

20. lie lie lie

20. anyone else

21. crisis

22. heaven is you

23. do it all again

i just feel like you can learn a lot about who i am by the top five songs in general and honestly i’m not mad, but how do i seem to you ?

[arickaandherfictionalothers]

To think that I could be deserving of an angel…

(Didn't cross my mind 'til you fell in my lap)

(Aricka x Mike )

(Mike comes home from work exhausted. Aricka takes care of him.)

(Content warnings: Aricka helps Mike take a bath, she washes/conditions his hair, gives him a back/shoulder rub, basically she pampers this sweet boy. If I missed anything let me know and I’ll fix it!)

( @astralshipper @rosieshipper @hyperionshipping @yeehawselfshipping @letsgofoletsgo @tsundere-selfship @callsign-revenge )

It was late. Abby was curled up in her blanket fort asleep when Aricka heard the door open and Mike walk in. She stood up, walked across the room out to where she knew he’d be leaning against the door, and held her arms open to him.

When he registered her standing there, he sighed wearily as he took the two steps forward into her arms, both of his wrapped firm yet loosely around her middle. One of hers was around his back and the other was in his hair, scratching his scalp with enough pressure to be comfortable but not enough to hurt.

He sighed again, his breathing tickling her neck, as he’d pressed his face against the spot where neck and shoulder met. “Hi..” he mumbled. She kisses the spot she could reach, that being his cheek, and he melted further into her hold.

“Hi, Mikey. Long night?” An indecipherable noise escaped the blob of human being in her arms. “I can fix that if you want?” An agreeable sound this time. “First, let’s take a walk upstairs and get you in the bath, big boy. Soak the gross day away. Get you all relaxing. Hm?” A more hesitant but still willing noise. “Use your words, baby. Can’t hear you with all that grunting.”

“S’fine,” he says, tightening his grip on her. She shakes her head.

“Silly boy. I’m not going to leave you. Let’s go upstairs and get you taken care of.”

The pair make their way upstairs, Mike pausing to check on Abby himself, shaking his head when he saw her in her fort and not her bed, but they continued to his bedroom together. Aricka headed to the bathroom, where she had already set up some bath supplies, and began drawing a bath for her care-deprived boyfriend. Knowing his secret preference for self care items she added a generous amount of bubble bath solution to the tub and swirled it carefully; and when it reached a comfortable temperature she turned the water off.

Mike came in the bathroom shirtless; and she left him alone so he could get in the tub, and she set up a few things for them to do after the bath.

Mike called her back in, and she walks into the bathroom to see him sitting with his knees tucked under his chin in the tub, looking a little more nervous than usual. “I’m pretty sure a bath is supposed to be relaxing, sweetheart,” she said. “You’re more tense than a rusty spring.” She sits on the edge of the tub, putting her hands on his shoulders. “Would a back rub help?”

Another wordless sound is all she gets, and she carefully begins to rub the tensed up, tightened muscles under her hands. “Tip your head to the left for me baby,” she says softly, and he complied wordlessly, “okay; now the right.” He does, and once she’d worked out the kinks in his shoulders, her hands made their way to his neck, using her fingertips to apply pressure to the more stiff areas where he held the most tension.

It worked- she could feel the muscles melt under her touch, Mike leaning back against her warm hands like a cat seeking affection. She slid her hands down to his arms and kissed the top of his head, then his shoulder, and his cheek finally. “You don’t have to be so strong around me, Mike. I’m here for you. I wanna take care of you and Abby.”

His breathing caught, and his eyes were closed; but she bet if they were open she’d have seen a slick-wet shine of barely hidden tears. “Gonna wash your hair for you, is that okay?”

“Mhm,” he says- better than a nonsensical sound but still just noise. No talking. She reached for the shampoo- almost empty, she noticed- and poured some into her hands; working it into a lather before she began washing his curls, using her fingertips to massage his scalp like she had when he’d walked in the door moments earlier, and they were both quiet, both lost in their own thoughts.

“Tilt your head back, I don’t want the soap getting in your eyes,” Aricka says softly, almost afraid to speak any louder. He does, and his hair almost touches her shirt as she began carefully rinsing it, detangling his hair as she went. “Gonna do conditioner now. Okay?” He nods, almost completely boneless in her hands, and she sets to work on fully pampering her boyfriend, working the conditioner through his hair and letting it sit for a few minutes before she rinsed it out. “I got you a leave-in conditioner too, thought you might like how it made your hair feel,” she says. “I’m going to let you get washed off, I gotta grab the towels from the dryer. I’ll be back in a minute, okay?”

“M’kay.” Finally. Words. She smiles and kisses his cheek before getting up and walking down to the laundry room where the towels were freshly warm and dry. She carried them back to the bathroom, stopping back in Mike’s room to finish the prep for their next activity- a movie night. She lit a few candles in scents she knew Mike and her both liked, and got the movie of choice- “Forrest Gump”- set up to play.

She walks back into the bathroom with the towels in her hand and she smiles at what she saw- Mike, almost asleep in the tub, a discarded wash rag hanging over the bathtub handle.

He works too hard these days, she thought absently. Aricka walks over to the tub and kneels down, running her fingers through Mike’s chocolate-caramel curls. “Mikey…” she says softly. “Sweet boy, I got plans for us still. A nice movie, some cozy pajamas and comfort snacks.”

His eyes open to look at her sleepily, not wearily anymore, and he nods. She holds the towels out to him and turns to face the bed as he gets out and dries off, donning the pajamas she’d got for him to wear. He steps up behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist and kissing her cheek as she had him a moment ago. The pair silently make their way to the bedroom and Mike makes an appreciative humming sound as he climbs in the freshly made bed and looks at Aricka expectantly.

She laughs and climbs in, reaching for the remote on the bedside table as he snuggles up to her and she wraps an arm around him protectively. “We can talk tomorrow,” she says. “Right now, we can watch a movie and fall asleep together. You and me.”

They lapse into a comforting silence, her hand carding through the still-drying curls, his hand rubbing her side absently. He tilts his head up, looks at her in the eyes. She tilts her head to the side. “Tomorrow,” he says before yawning. “I’m retuning the favor. Giving you the care you gave me tonight.” She smiles sweetly down at him, leaning so their lips connect, and his hand comes up to cup her cheek. “… I love you,” he says shyly.

Aricka beams and kisses him once more. “And I love you, my sweet, good boy.” She brushes the back of her hand against his face, thumb sweeping across the rosy apple of his cheek as his eyes slip shut. “Rest now, darling. I’m here. I won’t let anything bad happen to you.”

[27emailsicantsend]

Chapter Five: Jealousy

January

I always thought that what's been broken can't be bought, and now I'll never not be running from my past. To think that I could be deserving of an angel, didn't cross my mind 'til you fell in my lap. And I'm not one to fall in love too fast, but something tells me this one's gonna last. I always heard there was a heaven, I never knew if it was true. But darlin', ever since I met you, I know that heaven is you.

You're all I'll ever want. You're all I'll ever need. You're all I've ever dreamed of having... I know that heaven is you.

-”Heaven is You”, Joshua Bassett

New Year’s Eve was an exciting time for Ricky, Gina, and the rest of the theater crowd. Ashlyn hosted another infamous party at her house with a lot of Root Beer, Carlos’ High School Musical board game, and there was even a photo area for pictures. Ricky spent the night wrapped around Gina’s finger, about as tight as his ring was around his pinky. She didn’t seem to mind. It was nice being able to be a couple in front of their friends. Ricky still didn’t take that for granted.

Before the ball dropped at midnight, Ricky took Gina outside to talk to her about the next year. 

“I can’t believe everything is going by so fast. I wish it would all just slow down,” Ricky reminisced, feeling the snow tickle his nose.

Gina was standing next to him, her arms wrapped around one of his arms. Her hair was in her natural curls, falling gracefully to the sides of her head. She had on a blue turtleneck and jeans, paired with a large white puffer jacket and white lace-up snow boots. Ricky couldn’t help but think of their night in the woods last month, with the snow melting in her hair. She looked as angelic now as she did back then.

“Me too,” Gina rested her head on his shoulder. “Me too, Ricky Bowen”.

Ricky rested his head on hers as they stared off into the night sky, stars filling the breaks between the clouds. Ricky knew it was important to talk about “it”, but he didn’t know how. This thing that had been weighing on his mind about the future and what it would mean to be apart from Gina for at least a year. It made his stomach turn- a weird contrast to such a beautiful night.

“... Ricky?” Gina piped up.

“Yeah?”

“There’s something I need to tell you...” Gina began. 

Oh no, Ricky panicked. Is she dumping me already? We just gave each other promise rings. Or is that why she gave me promise rings? She wants to dump me and come back to me later?

“I am really excited to help choreograph this dance for the movie. I already exchanged numbers with the other choreographer, Krystal, and she’s incredible. She is willing to listen to my ideas and I’ve watched some of her dances- we have a similar style,” Gina boasted.

“That’s it?” Ricky accidentally said his thought out loud. Luckily, Gina didn’t seem offended.

“No...” Gina said suspiciously.

Yikes, Ricky thought to himself. 

“It got me thinking...” Gina continued. “I always thought I wanted to be in the theater industry because I love acting.... but I think I want to do more than that. I think I want to help choreograph for tv and films. I still want to act too, but I would love to do both. Producers act in their own shows all of the time... why can’t I choreograph too?”

Ricky’s confusion turned from panic to pride. He was ecstatic that Gina was wanting to do something so amazing with her future. It was one of the many reasons he looked up to her- she found her “pushiness” exhausting, he found it motivating. Ricky gave Gina a slightly awkward hug with his free arm.

“That’s great, Gi! I’m so proud of you!” Ricky bolstered.

Gina hesitated. “Really?... I thought you’d be upset?”

“Why would I be upset?”

“Because I think I want to go to college in New York. If you decide to stay in Salt Lake...” Gina erred on the side of caution.

“I never said I was staying in Salt Lake,” Ricky tried correcting her kindly.

“I-I’m sorry. I just thought-”

“-Because I’m such a homebody, I would want to stay in Salt Lake,” he chimed in, concluding her sentence.

“Yeah, sorry,” Gina said, sheepishly.

Ricky felt bad. He didn’t want Gina to feel sorry about the assumption. In fact, it made sense to him that anyone would think that considering how hard he’s fought change in the past. Lately he’d been trying really hard not to think about college. Not because he hated the idea, but more because he didn’t know where he would go after he graduated.

“Gina...” Ricky now turned to look at her. He brushed a hair strand from her eyes, moving his hand to her cheek so it was cupping her face. She seemed embarrassed. “You don’t need to be sorry. I just...”

“Haven’t thought about it yet?” Gina now finished his sentence.

“Something like that,” he replied. 

Ricky stayed staring into Gina’s eyes, not wanting to miss a single detail. They were deep brown, so deep it was like he could fall in them and get lost forever. They had this entrancing effect and the only thing that could have pulled him out of them, the New Years countdown, had just started. It didn’t work. Ricky kept staring at Gina as their friends counted in the house.

“Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three... two... one! HAPPY NEW YEAR!” they shouted unanimously.

“Happy New Year, Gina Porter”.

“Happy New Year, Ricky Bowen”.

Ricky leaned in, holding Gina’s arm with one hand, his other still on her cheek. He gave her a long kiss, full of ache, passion, and hope. He had to hope that whatever decision he made about school, would be a good one.

The pair stood back together as they had before: side by side, Gina’s arms holding Ricky’s arm. Celebratory fireworks were going off, announcing the start to a new beginning. Gina placed her head back on Ricky’s shoulder before she asked him one more question.

“Ricky?” she said quietly.

“Yeah?”

“Will you go to the Sweethearts dance with me?”

“I thought you’d never ask,” Ricky said with a grin.

“I’ll take that as a yes?” Gina giggled.

“In every language: Oui, Si, Ja, Yes.” Ricky jokingly quoted from their last play.

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The next week at school finally felt a little bit normal. The students were beginning to return to classes, the movie was in the last phase of filming, and Gina had decided not to return to the dance team. Dani was still on it as captain, even though she had dropped out of theater (she dropped out immediately after her brutal awakening after the last show). Life was a lot more peaceful with Gina having a freed up schedule and Dani not harassing her every hour of the day.

Gina was hoping that all of her experience choreographing theater shows, including the spring one, would give her a chance at making it into a good school. The song number Gina was working on with Krystal was a sort of “reprise” of “Stick to the Status Quo”, which was why it needed a two-man team. It was a big number to live up to. Gina was fantastic at dance and just about everything else, so Ricky knew she could handle it.

Gina had returned Ricky’s guitar back to him and now instead of her coming to his house most nights, he was coming to hers- ending the night with more pages of The Chronicles of Narnia. He liked this new tradition they had started and Gina had given him the exciting news that the series wasn’t close to over. There were eight other books. Eight more books worth of nights with Gina, kissing her goodnight, and sneaking out her window. Eight more books worth of days spent at Gina’s house, getting to know Mrs. Porter, learning more of Gina’s favorite recipes, and having dance parties in her kitchen. Eight more books worth of memories, the knowledge of tomorrow, and hope that Ricky would get to see Gina again soon. These books became a lifeline for the couple.

This was how Ricky spent every day in January until one particularly cold afternoon about mid-month. Ricky and Gina were sitting on her bedroom floor, working on some math homework together, when Ricky got an urgent text from his dad. It read:

Get home pronto. Bring Gina. It’s important.

Ricky showed Gina the text message with his familiar confused eyebrow, slinging it’s way up his face.

“Let’s go,” Gina said nudging her head toward the door before Ricky nodded back. The two threw on their black and pink converse and ran over as quick as they could. Their shoes got incredibly wet from the deep snow that was beginning to pile on outside. Ricky wouldn’t be surprised if a storm was rolling in.

Ricky and Gina burst hand-in-hand through the door, throwing their soggy shoes to the side. Mike was sitting at the end of his small kitchen table, staring at a flower vase that sat in the middle. His hands were grasping the sides of the table tight, as though Mike was trying to hold it from shaking. He didn’t even acknowledge Ricky and Gina; he just stayed staring at the vase. Ricky approached Mike cautiously, not sure if he was having a breakdown or something else.

“...Dad?” Ricky took a couple more steps, Gina trailing in behind him. “...Everything ok?”

Nothing.

Ricky cautiously approached Mike’s side of the vase. Ricky saw the vase and was convinced there was nothing there at first, but what he didn’t see was the box underneath it. It had a ring inside.

The ring was spectacular- it must have cost Ricky’s dad a fortune. Ricky tried not to worry about where the money had come from for Mike to be able to afford it, but the thought did enter his mind at least once. The band was gold, the diamond had to have been at least 2 carats, and there were two smaller diamonds that dotted the sides of the main diamond. The diamond was square cut and stood high from it’s band, proudly showing off it’s extravagance.

Ricky looked at Gina as she looked back at him. She approached Ricky slowly, placing her pinkie finger around Ricky’s. The three stood in silence, for several seconds, staring at the ring before Gina finally spoke up.

“... Mr. Bowen? ...Were you thinking about... proposing?” Gina said warily.

Mike acted as though he didn’t hear Gina, until suddenly his head moved slowly up and down, two times. Then he became frozen again.

“...is that why you texted us to come here?” Ricky asked, not sure what to feel or think. It was like every blood vessel in his body had become numb, immovable.

“Yes, Ricky. That’s why I texted for you to come here,” Mike finally replied. Ricky realized that his recurrent absence of words might be genetic.

“... Mr. Bowen, I’m assuming because you asked me to come here, it would be ok if I gave my opinion?” Gina questioned, still tip toeing around every word.

“I needed someone who could keep their head on straight during a crisis,” Mike complimented, his eyes furthering their gaze into the ring.

“...I’m not the best in crisis, Mr. Bowen. You might be thinking of someone else. I can hardly improvise,” Gina looked at Mike suspiciously. Mike didn’t speak, so Gina resumed. “Anyway, I was going to say, if Miss Jenn feels right, then she is right. Maybe you needed to be with Lynn to know who you were actually supposed to be with”.

“Sometimes I wish I did it right the first time,” Mike finally broke contact with the ring to look at Ricky. “I’m sorry for that”.

“Believe me, there’s a reason it’s called the ‘first time’” Gina replied, Mike not looking at her. “But don’t be afraid to give the second person a little faith,” Ricky could feel Gina smile at him out of his peripherals.

“Dad, you don’t need to be sorry. I’m sorry for all of the grief I gave you when you and mom separated. It was really hard for me to adjust to any of this... I just want you to be happy,” Ricky confessed. And he meant it.

And without a moments notice, it was like those words were all Mike needed to hear. He stood up and gave Ricky a large hug- so tight he almost couldn’t breathe- and then when Mike stood back, arms on Ricky’s shoulders, Ricky could see a tear had fallen down Mike’s face. 

“Thank you,” Mike breathed out.

Ricky gave a few small head nods in recognition of Mike’s appreciation.

“What next?” Gina asked, her pinky still holding Ricky’s. He could feel her promise ring.

“I guess,” Mike’s hands squeezed Ricky’s shoulders, “it’s time for me to propose”. He looked at Gina with a huge grin, “Again”.

The three of them set up the entire living room with candles. Candles that draped over the fireplace, on every window sill, on the side tables, and even a few on the floor. Ricky made a promise to himself that once they were lit he would stand near the fire extinguisher... just in case.

The three also threw red rose petals all over the floor, placed extra blankets on the chairs and couches to make the room feel more comfortable, and Gina even helped Mike bake one of Miss Jenn’s favorite winter treats: glazed orange rolls. 

About 8:30 that night, there was a knock on the door. Ricky rushed to turn off the lights and hid in the kitchen-next to the extinguisher- while he heard Gina greet Miss Jenn.

“Miss Jenn! Come in!” Gina exclaimed, trying to carry her voice over her shoulder.

“Oh, Gina. You’re going to want to go home soon. There’s a big storm outsi-” Miss Jenn’s words halted. Miss Jenn was finally in view of Mike. Gina ran over excitedly to Ricky and crouched next to him. Ricky was sure Miss Jenn could now see the two of them, but they remained crouched.

Miss Jenn walked down the rose petals to the fireplace where Mike stood in a suit (Ricky wanted Mike to just wear something casual, but Gina insisted the occasion warranted a suit). Her hands were clasped over her mouth, taking in everything as her eyes watered. Ricky figured she was savoring the sight of every of every candle, every petal, Mike.

Gina grabbed her phone and began taking photos, while Ricky recorded a video with his. This was also one of Gina’s suggestions, because she was sure Miss Jenn would kill both of them if they didn’t have memories of the moment. Ricky agreed.

Once Miss Jenn got to Mike, he grabbed both of her hands and said, “Jenn, I have been waiting my whole life to find a woman like you. Someone fun, spontaneous, who cares about Ricky and me and wants to make our lives good. You came into my life in a time that I thought I only had two options: be alone with myself or be alone with someone else. Neither of those options worked for me, but they didn’t need to because you came along and became my best option. The one I never expected or planned for, but exceeded anything I ever thought I deserved. If you say no, I understand. Just please don’t say maybe”.

Ricky watched as Mike got down on one knee, Miss Jenn crying with her usual theatrics. She was obviously going to make this whole event bigger than it was, but Mike seemed to love every second of it. Mike took out the box with the ring from his suit coat pocket and held it out to Miss Jenn, the diamonds seemingly shining brighter than before.

“Jenn, will you marry me?” Mike asked, hands shaking.

“Yes!” Miss Jenn cried out certainly. She held out her left hand as Mike slid the ring on her finger, before he stood up and kissed her. The ring was a little big on Miss Jenn’s finger. It fell sloppily to the side as she held Mike’s face and kissed him back. Ricky continued to record as Gina snapped more photos. After they finished kissing, Miss Jenn requested a few more formal photos from Gina.

Ricky had no idea Mike and Jenn had been planning on marriage, but he couldn’t say he wasn’t expecting it eventually. The mixed bag of emotions made his head feel dizzy: first, he was so happy seeing his dad’s light back. He beamed without reason and had been for awhile since dating Miss Jenn. Second, Miss Jenn did have motherlike qualities to Ricky. Ricky was glad he was graduating so he didn’t have to live in the same house as his teacher, but he couldn’t help but feel a little sad that he wouldn’t be in the same house as his step-mom... unless, of course, he decided to stay nearby for college. Which then led to his third thought: Gina. This made Ricky start thinking about his promise ring... and was it really a promise that they would be together forever? And wouldn’t forever include a marriage just like now? He wasn’t mad at the option, it just felt like a lot of information overloading his system at once.

Ricky’s thoughts didn’t have long to derail however, because they were cut off by Miss Jenn asking, “Ricky? What do you think?”

“Hmm?” Ricky refocused, realizing he definitely missed the original question.

“Do you want to start calling me Jenn? I’d be ok if you called me that at school too,” Miss Jenn offered sweetly.

Ricky thought about it for a moment. What was he going to call her? Definitely not mom- she would never replace his mom. But Jenn- he liked it. It wouldn’t work for every occasion, but he knew how to manage that.

“How about I call you Miss Jenn at school, but Jenn every where else?” Ricky compromised.

“Deal,” Jenn smiled.

Ricky ran up to the newly engaged couple and gave them a massive hug, both of their arms wrapping around him warmly. Gina saw the opportunity and insisted on getting some photos of the three together before they ate orange rolls (Gina had a regular orange). 

After the four ate their celebratory snack, Ricky asked Gina if he should still swing by to read to her. Nervously, Gina looked out the window and saw the storm was really beginning to come down. 

“Give me a ride home and we’ll call it even?” she requested, biting her lower lip jokingly.

Ricky rolled his eyes as he laughed. “Ok, c’mon, I’ll take you home. Do you want to borrow a pair of my boots, though?”

Gina bent down and felt her converse. “No, they seem pretty dry now. I’ll just wear these back”,

Ricky grabbed his keys and drove Gina back to her house, giving her a kiss goodnight in the car. Before Gina stepped out, she stopped and said, “I am so glad we went, Ricky. Makes me think what we might be like someday.” Gina softly smiled at Ricky. 

What if there isn’t a someday? Ricky thought nervously. He shook his head at the thought. He knew he had more time to think about the future later.

The next day was the announcement of the new musical. The students stood anxiously around the stage as they waited for Jenn to come in. Gina was on the opposite side of the stage, whispering to Ashlyn and Maddox who were surprisingly holding hands? Ricky wondered if he had missed something big between the two on New Years Eve. 

Jenn walked in, a grin as wide as the city. She spoke loudly as she made her way up the stage. “Wildcats, I have two amazing announcements,” Ricky could see she was purposely keeping her left hand covered with her right. “The first, is that I have the new musical prepped and ready for you too audition to. I decided to keep it a surprise up to audition day, so I could have your most... authentic selves audition. This play is all about authenticity, so use that to your advantage”.

Gina shot Ricky a mischievous grin, which he winked back at playfully.

“Secondly,” Jenn raised her left hand and flashed her ring. The entire stage broke out in whoops and hollers, racing over to gush over her new piece of jewelry. After a few minutes of Jenn answering some questions (such as “when is the wedding?” and “is it weird being Ricky’s stepmom?”), Jenn asked everyone to gather in a theater circle and hold hands.

Gina walked over and grabbed Ricky’s hand, smoothing the storm trying to erupt in his stomach. Hearing Jenn talk about all of these unanswered questions was stressful for Ricky. This potential new life reminded him of all of the things he still didn’t have planned for his future. The thoughts were persistent, if not annoying. And yet, he kept shoving them off. It was easier that way. 

Ricky hoped Gina couldn’t feel how warm his hand was.

“Now it’s time for the moment you’ve been waiting for... The show everyone wants to know about...” Jenn held onto every word, feasting on the eagerness of her students. “We’re going to do.... The Greatest Showman!”

The entire stage exploded in excitement again. No one knew what to expect from this new play, but since Jenn was going off of intuition, Ricky had a gut instinct he would play Zac Efron’s character again. This archetype just seemed in the cards for him. He promised himself he wouldn’t let Zac know if he could help it. Ricky was thankful for Zac bringing about Dani’s downfall, but he still couldn’t get on board with being called “Little Zac”.

“Ok, everyone will have half an hour to prepare this section of ‘This is Me’,” Jenn directed as she ran to the piano bench and pulled out lyric sheets from it. “Please use your time wisely and think about how you can show off your acting skills as you sing. Be yourselves!” 

Jenn followed this sentiment with her personalized soprano-saturated version of “Tightrope”. The students were used to this tradition by now, that they usually just stood around, waiting for it to be over. Jenn hit a life-altering note before she finally sent the students off to practice.

The students had sorted themselves and all rehearsed separate from each other, even Ricky and Gina. This song was difficult for Ricky to find authenticity to, because... he wasn’t really sure who he was. He knew he had deep feelings for Gina, he knew he liked theater and skateboarding (which, now thinking about it, he hadn’t done in awhile), he knew Jenn was going to be his step mom, and he knew that a year ago he wouldn’t have known a thing about this musical. He saw it one time with Nini, but it was watching it with Gina that helped him remember what happened.

Jenn randomly decided the auditioning spots and somehow Ricky was going to be last, with Gina right before him. Gina was sitting next to Ricky in the audience when she got up to audition. Delighted, she ran up on stage and took the mic out of the stand. She took a couple of grounding breaths before she started to sing:

I am not a stranger to the dark Hide away, they say 'Cause we don't want your broken parts I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars Run away, they say No one'll love you as you are

But I won't let them break me down to dust I know that there's a place for us For we are glorious

And then... Gina did something unexpected. She walked downstage... to Ricky as she carried on: 

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown 'em out I am brave, I am bruised I am who I'm meant to be, this is me

Fiercely, she grabbed Ricky’s hand, serenading him in his seat:

Look out 'cause here I come And I'm marching on to the beat I drum I'm not scared to be seen I make no apologies, this is me

Gina completely took Ricky by surprise when she pointed the microphone at him, silently urging him to join. Ricky surprised even himself by when he grabbed Gina’s microphone to begin the next verse:

Another round of bullets hits my skin Well, fire away 'cause today, I won't let the shame sink in

Ricky and Gina ran up to stage, Ricky still leading the song: We are bursting through the barricades and Reaching for the sun Yeah, that's what we've become 

They had finally reached the stage, when Ricky felt the rest of the world melt around him. All he saw was Gina, encouraging a bravery that sent endorphins blitzing through him as he continued to sing:

I won't let them break me down to dust I know that there's a place for us

Just when it couldn’t get any better for Ricky, Red handed Gina another microphone so they could sing in unison:  For we are glorious!

Although Jenn only asked for a small portion of the song, they finished the piece together. Singing with Gina made Ricky feel like a kid again- happy and carefree. He finally understood the metaphor of being “in harmony” with someone. Gina brought out so much more in him than he thought he was capable of- she made his music come to life. He never felt this way about anyone. It was strange and exciting and adrenaline inducing. He never wanted it to end.

Once the song came to a complete end, Ricky and Gina stood side-by-side, panting and smiling from the rush of the performance. The rest of the theater kids stood up and cheered as Ricky stood back, letting Gina bow. Jenn nodded her head proudly, meeting Ricky’s line of sight. Jenn had already made the right decisions for her characters. Ricky felt it.

About ten minutes later, as per Jenn’s typical nature, Carlos ran in with the audition sheets. A herd of people trampled over Ricky, forcing him to wait back for a few seconds before looking at the list. Ricky held Gina’s hand as they walked over to the paper. He felt her give his palm a tight squeeze.

P.T. Barnum............. Jet

Charity Barnum............ Maddox

Phillip Carlyle......... Ricky

Anne Wheeler..............Gina

Lettie Lutz “Bearded Lady”...........Kourtney

Jenny Lind.......... Ashlyn

Charles Stratton “General Tom Thumb”........ Big Red

Caroline Barnum/young Charity Barnum ......... Emmy

Helen Barnum/young P.T. Barnum ........... Seb

W.D. Wheeler “acrobatic brother”.............Carlos

Ricky felt a slight twinge of fear as he read his name. He knew for a fact this was the role he was going to play and yet it still made him nervous. Everyone else was going to be so comfortable in their roles- they knew that those parts were meant for them- but Ricky? Why this part? Why does he always get the parts that sit in Zac’s shadow? He only tolerated Zac, so why did this keep happening?

Everyone else, of course, had their own input about their parts.

“I can’t believe I’m playing the lead!” Jet hollered, pushing a fist in the air.

“I can’t believe I’m playing the lead’s... wife?! Miss Jenn, are you serious?” Maddox fussed before chasing Jenn down the hallway. By the way she ran, Jenn definitely knew the fire she had started.

“I hate Jenny Lind so much.... she’s perfect for me!” Ashlyn gushed.

“Oh no, if I have to wear a beard, I swear...” Kourtney threatened a now-disappeared Jenn.

“Wait, if I’m playing Anne’s brother... that means, I get to choreograph stunt work!” Carlos chimed in, Gina overhearing him and putting the pieces together for what their performance might entail.

“Oh my gosh, Ricky! We’re going to play Phillip and Anne! I’m Anne Wheeler. That means we might get to do acrobatics!” Gina squealed, holding Ricky’s arm and jumping up and down.

Her excitement only made the uncomfortable feeling worse. Acrobatics? Ricky could barely dance without two left feet, how in the world was he going to perform stunts high in the air? Ricky uncomfortably remembered that Gina could probably do this in her sleep without practicing. She was always good at this kind of thing.

“Yeah... ha ha. Can’t wait,” Ricky said, clenching his teeth into a smile. This could all definitely wait.

Over the next few days, Ricky came to the High School Musical 4 choreography rehearsals for the last number that needed filmed. He would sit with the main cast (which Zac was always thrilled about) as he watched Gina dance. He enjoyed watching her create such a beautiful number, but sometimes the enjoyment disappeared because racing thoughts took it’s place.

Ricky had a lot of time to think during these rehearsals- sometimes too much time. He often thought of Gina going to New York and him possibly staying in Salt Lake... did he decide this or was he just thinking this because of what was assumed? He didn’t hate the idea, but he never stated wanting it. Then he would think of being around his dad and Jenn if he did stay in Salt Lake. It was amazing to him that his dad was so sure of his decision to marry, again. And that the timing just worked itself out. Or that the timing worked out that Gina would get this chance to choreograph a dance for the film. Or how about the fact that Zac, Vanessa, Lucas, Monique, Corbin and so many others had this movie opportunity fall into their lap? 

Every person in Ricky’s life seemed like they had their “destiny” laid out before them. It was as if some “all-knowing” source put every person around him in a room and showed them a power point of their life. Everyone easily knew their place, except for Ricky.

On the last Friday of the month, these thoughts wouldn’t stop. Normally they appeared relentlessly, attacking any joy Ricky could have in watching his girlfriend dance. But this Friday in particular, Ricky’s thoughts became too much for him. Gina was only about halfway through with rehearsal when Ricky started to feel his chest tighten with worry. Zac and Corbin were sitting next to him in the cafeteria, eating sandwiches and talking about their lives after their last day of filming. 

Ricky stood up quickly and said, “I need some air”.

Ricky heard Zac ask “what’s up, Little Zac?” behind him, but he ignored Zac as he jogged into the school hallway. The only thing Ricky seemed to know how to do was worry lately. About a minute later, after Ricky had made some headway down the hall, he heard footsteps running up behind him.

“You good, buddy?” Zac pushed. Ricky was frustrated, but he needed to get out what was on his chest. It pushed and pushed until Ricky felt unmovable. He had to release the heavy energy holding him down... for himself, for Gina. He recognized that maybe it was time he finally talked.

Was Ricky really about to confide in Zac again?

“I just... I just need some time to think,” Ricky said, now leaning against a wall, hunched over with his hands massaging his forehead. He didn’t know why it was so hard to just say how he felt.

“What’s going on?” Zac prodded.

The entire situation felt so frustrating to Ricky. He didn’t understand why Zac couldn’t wait for a minute to let Ricky process his thoughts. He began to revert his previous thoughts, feeling like Zac might not be the best man for the job. Far too nosey. The air still felt stifling and he figured it was because this extra body was near him. 

“Dude, I just said, I need a minute. Can you leave?” Ricky snapped.

“I can... but I won’t,” Zac shrugged sincerely.

Ricky was fed up with Zac’s persistence. He said before he wanted to be alone and he didn’t understand why Zac couldn’t follow this simple request. Ricky angrily turned around and began to walk away.

“Sorry, being angsty won’t work on me,” Zac giggled.

“Oh, you think this is funny?” Ricky resisted.

“A little,” Zac admitted.

“So, you think it is so funny that,” Ricky began as he walked toward Zac. Before he knew it, he was getting in Zac’s face, as thought he were sizing Zac up, “I am beyond stressed out about college- if I even choose to go, Gina might be leaving for New York, my dad is getting remarried so he might not even want me around, it’s senior year and I have to leave half of my friends and half of my friends might not even talk to me ever again!” Ricky was nearly yelling at this point. “You think it is so funny, do you?! Welcome to the real world, Zac! Take a big old look around! It’s not like your movies! It sucks and it sucks even worse when it feels like you can’t do anything and everyone else has their whole life mapped out but you!”

“I see why they made you play Troy,” Zac remarked.

No matter how serious Zac was being now, that sentence was his final straw. Ricky was Ricky, but who even was Ricky at this point? He didn’t even know. He was always just “Troy” or “Little Zac” or what every one else thought he was supposed to be. He was sick of not knowing and sick of only being known for someone else’s name.

Ricky took a deep breath. 

“I’m done with you,” Ricky said before he attempted to walk away for what felt like the tenth time.

“No, you’re not,” Zac said behind him.

“Yes, I am!” Ricky waved his hand as he kept walking.

“No, you’re not. You wouldn’t have admitted all of that if you actually were,” Zac called back.

This made Ricky stop. He didn’t turn around, but maybe Zac had a point. Why did he just dump all of information on Zac if he truly didn’t want him to know?

“Look, I know you hate me comparing you to me or other characters. You don’t think I see it? I see how annoyed you get. But I think you get mad because you’re afraid to admit how similar you are. You just finished High School Musical 3, didn’t you? The only person who knows Troy as well as I do... is probably you. He went through a lot of similar issues that you’re going through. Maybe you need to take some guidance from him,” Zac suggested.

Ricky didn’t turn back around, but he also didn’t keep walking. When he heard Zac walk away, Ricky’s feet felt stapled to the ground, leaving him alone to his thoughts. Zac wasn’t wrong, as much as Ricky didn’t want to admit it. Troy’s life was planned out for him since the first movie. It was always Troy and Chad- Gabriella threw this big, beautiful wrench in the plan. But Troy wasn’t mad about it. He even decided to be with Gabriella in California. 

Ricky wasn’t sure he wanted to go to to school in New York. He wasn’t sure what school he wanted to go to at all. He felt like he was second guessing everything in his life, when everyone else seemed so sure of theirs. Like they miraculously knew what they were meant to do and he had no guidance on his life path. He was happy for them, really, but he just wished he had that same reassurance too.

[vinnces]

𝐎𝐍𝐄   .

joshua bassett.     he/they.     cis  man.      ›     spotted   at   the   met   steps   ,   vincent   'vinnie'   sawyer  ,   most   likely   listening   to   blue   world   by   mac   miller  with   their   airpods   pro   .   the   twenty   four   gained   quite   a   reputation   ,   known   to   be  -secretive  yet   +selfless   to   anyone   who   knows   them   .   you'll   easily   spot   them   when   you   hear   about   finger   drumrolls   before   making   an   announcement   ,   waking   you   up   with   3am   voice   messages   with   random   thoughts   –   irrelevant   and   not   important   enough   to   wake   up   for   ,   making   up   random   stories   during   interviews   to   confuse   the   audience   ;   leaving   not   a   single   article   to   be   true   ,   a   batch   of   ripped   papers   on   his   bed   &   broken   pencils   as   a   result   of   songwriting   for   seven   hours   ,   followed   by   bad   boy   by   carolina   herrera   .   latest   nepoupdates   article   talks   about   vinnie   sawyer's   newest   song   release   spectaculated   to   be   about   muse   2i   and   not   about   his   girlfriend   ,   but   i   guess   any   reputation   is   good   reputation   .  

–   𝗪𝗔𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗗   𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗡𝗘𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦   .  –   𝗦𝗣𝗢𝗧𝗜𝗙𝗬   𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗖𝗢𝗚𝗥𝗔𝗣𝗛𝗬   . –   𝗣𝗜𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗧   𝗕𝗢𝗔𝗥𝗗   .

𝐒𝐔𝐁𝐏𝐋𝐎𝐓     .

𝐬𝐮𝐛𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭  #𝟏𝟕  :  josie  seong  and  vinnie  sawyer  have  been  called  the  it  couple  for  the  past  two  years  .  every  party  ,  every  candid  resulted  in  viral  tweets  praising  them  ,  people  wished  to  be  like  that  .  for  the  past  two  years  ,  nothing  ever  came  between  them  ,  until  vinnie  is  offered  to  go  on  worldwide  tour  as  one  of  the  supporting  acts  to  one  of  the  biggest  band  in  the  music  industry  recently  ,  together  with  muse  2i  .  josie  and  vinnie’s  relationship  was  put  out  to  the  test  when  what  came  between  them  were  different  timezones  ,  busy  schedules  and  sudden  duet  between  vinnie  and  muse  2i  ,  sparkling  an  affair  rumors  which  muse  2i  feeds  gp  into  .  and  after  six  months  ,  tour  ends  with  a  closing  night  in  new  york  and  it’s  the  first  time  when  josie  and  vinnie  can  see  each  other  ,  except  there’s  an  uncertainness  about  their  relationship’s  future  ,  especially  with  muse  2i  around  .

𝐓𝐖𝐎     .   𝒃𝒂𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒔

full   name   :   vincent   nathan   sawyer  .   nicknames   :   vinnie   .   dob   :  jan  3rd   .   age   :   23  .   birthplace   :  pairs   ,   france   .   citizenship   :  french   -   american   .   current   residence   :   new   york   ,   new   york   .   gender   :  cis  man   .   orientation   :  bisexual   .   languages   :  french   ,   english   ,   swedish   ,   polish   ,   latin   .   occupation   :  musician   .   education   :   completed   private   /   boarding   school   .   big   3   :  capricorn   sun   ,   scorpio   moon   ,   aries   rising   .   character   parallels   :  christopher   wilde   (   starstruck   )   ,   aki   menzies   (   gossip   girl   )   ,   ricky   bowen   (   high   school   musical   the   musical   the   series   )   ,   jess   mariano   (   gilmore   girls   )   ,   jj   maybank   (   outer   banks   )   ,   xavier   thorpe   (   wednesday   )   .   currently   listening   to   :  heaven   angel   ,   new   person   ,   same   old   mistakes   ,   blind   ,   i’m   in   love   with   you   ,   about   you   ,   boyfriends   ,   sex   on   fire   ,   blue   world   ,   cinderella   ,   high   infidelity    .   voice   claim   :   joshua   bassett   .   career   claim   :   joshua   bassett   .

𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄   .   𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒂𝒍

biological  father  :   gabriel   sawyer   ,   50   .   occupation  :   executive   music   producer   .   biological  mother  :   sabrina   sawyer   ,   48  .  occupation  :   former   high   fashion   model   ,   current   professional   dance   choreographer  .  biological  sister  :   camille   sawyer   ,   20  .  occupation  :   law  student  .  family  financial  status  :   high  upper  class  ,  wealthy  .  

𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑     .   𝒃𝒊𝒐𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒑𝒉𝒚

google's  definition  of  a  nepotism  baby  ,  born  to  a  freshly  married  and  in  love  couple  of  gabriel  sawyer  ;  famous  executive  producer  ,  often  credited  on  the  top  of  billboard's  albums  ,  as  well  as  collaborated  with  multiple  top  artists  ,  from  mariah  carey  to  ariana  grande  ,  dua  lipa  or  olivia  rodrigo  ,  and  sabrina  sawyer  ,  former  high  fashion  model  loved  by  top  designers  such  as  versace  ,  dior  ,  mugler  etc  .  and  currently  one  of  the  best  professional  dance  choreographers  ,  highly  desired  by  the  music  industry  to  work  with  .  vinnie  had  his  entire  life  secured  the  moment  first  pictures  of  sabrina  with  baby  bump  leaked  .

saying  he  was  raised  with  a  silver  spoon  in  his  mouth  is  a  disgrace  as  they'd  be  most  likely  seen  wearing  golden  diapers  if  possible  .  spoiled  left  and  right  from  their  parents  ,  family  and  family's  friends  and  as  vinnie  grew  up  ,  he  quickly  became  people's  magazine  and  tmz's  most  loved  .  despite  being  raised  in  circumstances  that  everyone  else  would  be  rotten  spoiled  ,  vinnie  was  everything  but  that  .  always  polite  ,  always  making  a  conversation  with  everyone  and  never  left  without  wishing  you  a  good  day  .  days  spent  on  playground  only  to  come  back  when  the  evening  came  closer  ,  all  muddy  and  bruised  with  his  perfectly  curled  hair  now  wet  from  the  sweat  but  his  face  was  always  red  ,  biggest  smile  glowing  up  his  face  from  the  happiness  after  the  entire  day  .  when  their  younger  sister  was  born  ,  she  became  absolutely  everything  to  vinnie  ;  probably  a  bigger  apple  of  the  eye  for  him  than  their  parents  .

the  sawyers  moved  out  of  france  when  gabriel  was  offered  to  start  his  own  record  label  .  it  only  made  sense  that  vinnie  would  start  showing  their  interest  and  an  incredible  talent  in  singing  ,  songwriting  and  had  a  golden  touch  with  different  instruments  when  they  barely  turned  eleven  .  it  wouldn't  take  long  for  their  parents  to  put  them  on  voice  lessons  ,  piano  and  guitar  playing  lessons  ,  songwriting  camps  and  they  would  even  be  casted  in  ads  for  kids  and  growing  up  ,  managed  to  book  his  disney  cameos  in  a  few  episodes  of  different  shows  .

at  sixteen  ,  he  goes  viral  as  his  sister  posts  a  short  video  of  him  covering  ‘  drops  of  jupiter  ’  .  it  was  easy  –  after  all  ,  they  are  a  sawyer  .  the  record  deals  were  coming  left  and  right  ,  booking  vinnie  would  bring  an  immediate  success  to  any  label  that  was  lucky  enough  to  get  their  attention  .  a  nepo  baby  coming  back  to  the  spotlight  with  his  own  thing  ,  separating  himself  from  his  parents  and  making  a  name  out  for  himself  .  loyalty  being  first  thing  vinnie  was  ever  taught  ,  he  signed  a  deal  with  his  father's  freshly  debuted  record  label  .  it  was  a  successful  decision  ;  the  label  received  a  big  clout  as  vinnie  was  announced  as  the  first  artist  and  their  fame  was  growing  with  each  day  passing  .  they  didn't  need  a  feature  ,  neither  a  scandal  (  however  ,  was  unable  to  avoid  them  ;  especially  when  you're  suddenly  raising  towards  the  fame  )  .  they  released  their  first  single  ‘  secret  ’  on  february  14th  2018  ;  the  song  talking  about  his  ex  girlfriend  cheating  on  him  ,  a  break  up  the  entire  internet  was  going  through  as  well  which  turned  out  to  take  a  successful  toll  on  his  career  .

career  wise  ,  they  have  been  releasing  multiple  eps  while  working  on  his  debut  album  since  their  first  single  dropped  .  vinnie  recently  came  back  from  world  tour  where  he  was  performing  as  one  of  the  supporting  acts  alongside  muse  2i  ,  which  was  also  what  tested  his  two  year  long  relationship  on  basically  every  platform  possible  ;  not  only  with  the  difficulty  of  timezones  but  having  to  deal  with  more  and  more  rumors  forming  ,  one  of  them  suggesting  an  affair  between  vinnie  and  muse  2i  after  their  duet  song  was  released  ,  ‘  we  both  know  ’  right  as  vinnie  lands  in  new  york  after  six  months  of  absence  .  the  tour  has  definitely  helped  their  career  a  lot  more  ;  their  following  and  streams  growing  up  each  day  ,  the  duet  song  currently  spending  its  fifth  week  on  the  first  place  at  billboard  hot  100s  .

𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄     .   𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚

he  was  always  raised  well  despite  the  luxuries  he  lived  in  .  often  mixed  in  problematic  rumors  which  are  quickly  to  be  exposed  as  lies  as  they  never  fit  what  vinnie  really  is  like  .  a  short  description  would  be  as  your  book  definiton  of  golden  retriever  energy  and  a  social  butterfly  .  takes  romantic  relationships  very  easily  ;  he  watched  his  parents  in  love  their  entire  life  ,  their  little  secret  desire  is  to  have  what  they  do  yet  often  gets  his  heart  broken  which  helped  him  learn  how  to  be  cautious  .  vinnie  is  a  very  private  person  ,  the  only  way  he  ever  exposes  himself  is  through  his  music  . ��not  a  single  truthful  interview  in  their  entire  career  has  ever  been  made  as  he  often  dodges  a  question  or  is  able  to  come  up  with  a  lie  on  spot  as  they  believe  the  less  they  shows  to  the  public  ,  the  better  .  also  ,  pro  at  dad  jokes  ,  always  has  them  up  his  sleeve  .

𝐒𝐈𝐗     .   𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒏𝒔

–   known   for   making   instagram   lives   where   he’s   teasing   new   songs   in   the   middle   of   the   night   which   his   fans   hate   him   for   ! –   often   goes   on   tweet   /   dm   sprees   on   twitter   where   he   notices   his   fans   .  think   like   ,   ariana   grande   before   she   dipped   .   this   is   how   close   he   is   with   his   fanbase   ! –   always   wearing   his   airpods   &   is   never   seen   without   his   skateboard   ! –   came   back   with   BOXES   of   fun   skateboards   from   tour   &   even   had   custom   made   vans   from   his   vans   which   he   luvs   very   much   &   is   often   seen   wearing   <333   ! –   is   the   worst   at   dancing   which   is   ironic   bc   his   mother   is   known   for   being   probably   the   best   dancer   on   the   planet   .   he   held   a   q&a   at   his   last   tour   &   almost   broke   his   ankle   when   tease   argued   with   a   fan   about   having   two   left   feet   ! –   overshares   .   a   lot   .   especially   with   his   fans   .   it's   often   "vinnie   just    tweeted"   &   it's   deleted   five   seconds   later   too   jfdkdks   ! –   he's   the   face   of   prada   ! –   owns   two   dogs   ,   one   is   a   three   year   old   australian   shepard   called   howie   and   a   seven   months   old   doberman   puppy   ,   ricky   ! –  when  secret  was  released  ,  it  brought  a  lot  of  jokes  and  memes  inside  his  fanbase  ,  often  referring  to  tweets  such  as  ‘  remember  when  vinnie  ended  his  ex  on  valentine’s  day  ’

𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍     .   𝒂𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒔

making   up   random   stories   during   interviews   to   confuse   the   audience   ,   leaving   not   a   single   article   piece   to   be   true   ;   a   batch   of   ripped   papers   on   his   bed   &   broken   pencils   as   a   result   of   songwriting   for   seven   hours   ,   a   collection   of   limited   edition   skateboards   hanging   on   his   bedroom   wall   ,   missed   calls   from   his   ex   ,   fan   letters   from   tour   hidden   in   his   desk   drawer   that   he   comes   back   to   every   once   in   a   while   ,   multi   colored   vans   &   converse   ,   skating   everywhere   &   probably   driving   you   insane   ,   salt   &   vinegar   crisps   ,   a   vinyl   collection   (   especially   limited   editions   )   ,   two   left   feet   while   dancing   ,   getting   a   store   bought   pie   only   to   layer   it   with   icing   &   write   apologies   on   it   .

[lainahunter79]

my favorite songs

Anna begins- counting crows

go your own way- Fleetwood mac

silver springs- Fleetwood mac

lover, you should've come over- Jeff Buckley

don't look back in anger- oasis

please don't go girl- new kids on the block

because the night- Patti smith

sea of love-cat power

meant to be mine- heathers the musical

train wreck- James Arthur

Heaven- Niall Horan

flicker- niall horan

love of my life- Harry styles

say it aint so- weezer

home- Edith whiskers

beautiful people with beautiful problems- Lana Del Rey and Stevie nicks

left outside alone- blind channel

all of the girls you've loved before- Taylor Swift

illusion- one direction

clouds- one direction

teen idle- marina and the diamonds

perfect harmony- julie and the phantoms

bigger than me- louis tomlinson

nine in the afternoon- panic at the disco

o children- nick cave

softly-clario

besides you- 5 seconds of summer

cant be tamed- miley cyrus

pretty boy- the neighborhood

the night we met- lord huron

want me- baby queen

cassie- chase atlantic

blind- role model

a kiss- the driver era

i wanna be yours- arctic monkeys

smoke slow- Joshua Bassett

so what'cha want- beastie boys

basket case- green day

brain stew- green day

nothin' my love can't fix- Joey Lawrence

[emails-i-cant-send]

have you guys heard of this masterpiece?

[mediocre-writerr]

a mediocre 2k party!!

2031 FRIENDS!! Y’ALL ARE AMAZING! If you want to participate in this little party, i have a variety of prompts based off lyrics from my favorite songs for you to choose from. you could choose one of the prompts and create a scenario out of it or just have me quote it in the blurb, up to you! also lmk if you want angst, fluff, or nsfw. when you request through my inbox please note that it is for the mediocre 2k party and what character you would like it to be written for. for those of you don’t know these are the characters i am currently writing for: criminal minds: jennifer jareau, emily prentiss, euphoria: cassie howard, lexi howard, maddy perez, mcu: kate bishop, natasha romanoff, wanda maximoff, you: love quinn, guinevere beck

prompt lists: 

“but all the we are is all that we’ll ever be, cause he’s the one waiting at home” - (smoke slow, joshua bassett)

“i’ll be fine for tonight with you by my side, but don’t you know you’re my lifeline) - (lifeline, joshua bassett)

“something keeps me holding on to nothing” - (haunted, taylor swift)

“when i told you ‘i’m fine’, you were lied to” - (mess it up, gracie abrams)

“i’ll be your summer sun forever” - (forever winter, taylor swift)

“nothing to say, when everything gets in the way” - (as it was, harry styles)

“i know heaven’s a thing, i go there when you touch me” - (false god, taylor swift)

“you’re a crisis of my faith” - (would’ve, could’ve, should’ve, taylor swift)

“but you had no problem leaving, now i’m the one to feel it” - (friend, gracie abrams)

“i still love you, i promise” - (i miss you, i’m sorry, gracie abrams)

“please don’t ever become a stranger, whose laugh i could recognize anywhere” - (new year’s day, taylor swift)

“i once believed love would be burning red, but it’s golden” - (daylight, taylor swift)

“and i need you sometimes, we’ll be alright” - (feels like, gracie abrams)

“i miss the shape of your lips” - (to be so lonely, harry styles)

“from strangers to lovers to enemies” - (in the kitchen, renne rapp)

“so i’ll leave before you go, cause there’s no tears when its my fault” - (let the grass grow, ruel)

“she could be perfect, but the problem is, she’ll never be you) - (somebody’s nobody, alexander 23)

“call me on your way home, don’t matter the time” - (on your way home, patrick droney)

“sacred new beginnings that became my religion” - (cornelia street, taylor swift)

“guess i’d die to keep your eyes on me” - (reckless driving, lizzy mcalpine)

“did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room” - (question, taylor swift)

“hash brown, egg yolk, i will always love you” - (keep driving, harry styles)

“i didn’t choose this town, i dream of getting out, there’s just one who could make me stay” - (you’re on your own kid, taylor swift)

“there’s many different way that you can kill the one you love, the slowest way is never loving them enough” - (high infidelity, taylor swift)

“london is lonely without you” - (london is lonely, holly humberstone)

“all our best years are behind, what a brutal way to die” - (where do we go now?, gracie abrams)

“i’m not worried about where you are, or who you go home to, i’m just thinking about you” (little freak, harry styles)

“and i wake with your memory over me” (maroon, taylor swift)

“i’m sure that i would like her, if i were slightly nicer” - (rockland, gracie abrams)

“and i’ll dream each night of some version of you that i might not have, but did not lose” - (stick season, noah kahan

[aeternitimperi]

rules: tag 9 some people you want to know better and/or catch up with, then answer the questions below! tagged by @voynichs :)c

Last Song: Enemy of Heaven - Lamia Vox (as part of @magnvmchasma’s very good mix about their bastard PC in a long running dnd campaign i do not play in but am a huge fan of)

Three Ships: hoooogh okay– eternally, the classically tragic, young love to mutually assured destruction of Edward “Caesar” Sallow/Joshua Graham; the top ten anime betrayals, you’re never getting out of this haunted house of Albert Wesker/Chris Redfield; and honestly rn the disaster throuple successfully taking over and destroying Constantinople, VTM’s The Dream, can’t stop thinking about them

Currently Reading: charlie and i have been alternating between bedtime stories with Bram Stoker’s Dracula and the anthology A Season in Carcosa. on my commute i’ve been listening to Grady Hendrix’s The Southern Book Club’s Guide to Slaying Vampires, which i’ve found very charming

Last Movie: also a Kathryn Bigelow picture, Strange Days (1995). i enjoyed it! campy, the twists and arcs felt earned, Angela Bassett is there

Craving: been wanting honey nut cheerios lately

Tagging: @popcornflicks, @sciencefiction-doublefeature, @cannedmonster, @mindblownie [edit: wait also @brightbluedot ]

[willexxmercer]

rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and post the first 10 tracks, then list 10 songs you really like, each by a different artist. then tag 10 people to do the same thing

I was tagged by: @lucerants (ilsym)

first 10 tracks on shuffle (using my Wrapped Top Songs playlist for this):

Mr. Big Shot - Anarbor

Sk8er Boi - Avril Lavigne

Angel With a Shotgun - The Cab

Someone Else’s Dream - Tyler Posey

Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

Just Like Heaven - The Cure

Nine in the Afternoon - Panic! At the Disco

Desperate Measures - Marianas Trench

Let’s Get Married - Bleachers

Uh Oh - Jeremy Shada

(yes I listened to a LOT of punk pop this year)

10 songs I like by 10 different artists:

18 - Anarbor

Enemy - Imagine Dragons

Tattoo - that band Honey.

Crisis - Joshua Bassett

No One Else Comes Close - Backstreet Boys

Celebrity Status - Marianas Trench

Legends - Kelsea Ballerini

Boyfriend - Dove Cameron

Battlefield - SkyDxddy

Royals - Lorde

Tagging: if you wanna do it, do it!  I don’t like tagging people >,<