#here we are and. yeah i just need to claw myself out of this chz ive been in such a funk and i have the most insane week this week. jelp | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

pepprs · 3 years

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straight up haven’t done homework in like 2 weeks (and then 2 weeks before that too) and I know i need to do it right this second i can’t afford to not do anything but i can’t even move off the ground rn mentally or physically. god fucking help me

#my counselor and advisor are gonna be so mad at me but i have just been so low this week and like. this whole month. and things are kinda #getting back to normal now but im just done im tired my brain feels like it’s in tatters and my room is a mess again and im hungry but #refusing to let myself eat bc eating means having to go out and see my roommates and i just want to hide forever. girls who are too mentally #ill to be living on their own or taking an extra year of college and no one sees how bad things are in part bc she is very good at hiding it #but like godddddd this is bad this is really bad i just want to start over i feel so empty rn 😀😀😀😀😀😃😃😃😃😃#purrs #ask to tag #i sure fucking hope i just have pmdd or something and i’ll be ok in a week but i really get so fucked up whenevrr.. you know and like. well #here we are and. yeah i just need to claw myself out of this chz ive been in such a funk and i have the most insane week this week. jelp #i think it’s probably not pmdd cuz it could be a lot worse maybe it’s just rly bad pms? idk. not to talk abt this publically i feel very #stupid for it but like i think i maybe actually do have a. well um a mental problem in this department. either that or ive had the most #fucked up start to a semester ever and covid isn’t over which is ruining my life. i think i need to just say fuck it and start hugging ppl #again and not tell my mom like i actually think not having any physical contact w anyone even just like touching someone’s hand or whatever #is not every good for me. there’s just a lot working against me rn i know im rambling and being insane im just hungry and in pain and #losing it but i need to stand up go make pasta and like fucking glue myself to my laptop and just do it even tho i know i literally do not h #have anything in me to do it i just need to do it #food #menstruation tw #<- sorry #i need to ask for a hug actually. fuck im crying out of nowhere now i really cant go get food FUYCK but like. thinks abt hugs. instant tears

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