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ikyw-t Ā· 2 years
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sometimes youre just minding your own business and have a very serious realization like for example perhaps if i had just had the confidence to dye my hair purple in high school i would've had somewhat more self-esteem in general and avoided choosing literally the worst possible person to hang out with out of fear of not making any other friends. just little things like that
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artdcnaldson Ā· 3 months
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ok i am coming in hot with my last thought on patricks sister au for the day, because it is bedtime lol. but here it is. (also gonna start signing these off as an emojicon, because i lowkey need validation and credit for this au actually lol)
i feel like at first he would be lowkey confused why youre getting turned on when youre being called pathetic??? but you really are just depraved and so desperate for him. anything he says to you is music to your ears. so you keep rubbing yourself in his bed. he tells you that you can think about him all you want, but you can never have him. it cant happen. you can never have his cock. patrick is too important to him, he would kill the both of you.
he gets kind of lost in it, forgets to keep that distance, he ends up sitting at the opposite edge of the bed. looking right at you. but never touching you. god you're so pretty like this. he asks you how often you do this, touch yourself to the thought of him. he really shouldnt be indulging you like this. he shouldnt be playing into your hand. he just cant help it, your sounds are so sweet, moaning his name so lightly. he really cant help it when his hand falls to his lap. its totally out of his control when his hand starts palming himself. how could he not be hard? youre as good as naked in his bed, touching yourself, moaning his name and begging, pleading him to touch you, to fuck you, to do anything at all.
and when his hand slip into his boxers? he tries to convince himself not to, to put an end to this. it really isnt right. but on the other hand... its not like hes touching you. is it really that wrong if hes not even touching you at all? surely not. he lets himself indulge, just a little. but to outweigh, he tells you to stop touching yourself. maybe its a punishment for you, maybe it just for his own pleasure. he watches you as you pull your hand back up, eyes fixed on his own hand stroking himself under his boxers. he sees the excitement flicker in your eyes, you think youre getting what you want. you think hes finally going to fuck you. youre wrong.
he tells you to get off the bed, sit on the floor, between his legs. kneeling right in front of him, big puppy eyes, desperately flickering between his face and his hand moving slowly beneath the fabric. he cant help but laugh to himself when he sees youre grinding yourself on your heel, anything to get some friction. he swears he sees drool spill out of your mouth as you stare at him.
maybe he just makes you sit there for a while, staring at him, begging him. maybe it just ends with that, he keeps you there long enough to ensure he'll be able to picture it later when hes alone. maybe thats all, he tells you to go to sleep, you whine and almost cry, until he threatens to send you back to your own room.
or maybe.... just maybe.... and hear me out on this... maybe he makes you sit on your hands to make sure you wont touch him, because that would be breaking the rules. and maybe he tells you to beg him to let you see his cock, beg him to take it out, tell him just how bad you want to see it, need to see it. maybe he is so intoxicated on the feeling of being so desired that you would do anything he asked. maybe he pulls it out, he lets you watch as he stroke himself. ugh maybe he makes you spit in his hand so he can jerk off with your spit :(((( maybe he tells you to move closer, still no touching, but he wants your face all up close. you're not letting this opportunity slip away, you follow his every word, every movement. maybe he makes you thank him, thank him for letting you watch him get off. maybe he even lets you lick his cum off his hand when hes done.
or maybe not, maybe he just tells you to shut up and go to sleep. :)))
-šŸž (if it's not taken by anyone)
GODDDDDD you deserve all the definition credit acclaim bc this is some good fucking food
Itā€™s unfair how good you look in his bed. Itā€™s unfair that youā€™re laid out like a fucking meal for him, rubbing your sensitive clit and moaning like a pornstar while heā€™s saying shit that should be making you run away.
He sits down on the bedā€” his bedā€” and he can feel how youā€™re moving through the mattress. It makes him think of those commercials where they jump on the bed and the wineglass doesnā€™t move, except his shitty dorm bed is the opposite.
Youā€™re panting, mouth open so he can see the pink of your tongue. A constant stream of moans and whines and gasps of Art and Please falling from your lips.
He shouldnā€™t ask. Patrick would fucking crucify him. Would flay him alive for even thinking it. But he does. ā€œHow often do you think of me when youā€™re fucking yourself?ā€
You meet his gaze, only briefly before your eyes flutter shut and youā€™re bucking against your fingers. ā€œEvery time. Just need you so bad, Art.ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t need me, you want me. And youā€™re so fucking spoiled by your rich parents that you think youā€™re entitled to it.ā€
His cock aches in the confines of his boxers, the hard line of it clearly visible through the plaid fabric. Your eyes are trained on it, hungry and wanting. Youā€™re practically drooling for it. He just looks so big, you want to feel.
He has to muffle a groan when he goes to adjust himself, feels the heel of his palm press against his cock just right. It was your fault he didnā€™t get to bring anyone back to the dorm to fuck, your fault he didnā€™t have a nice, warm mouth wrapped around his dick.
God, youā€™re just so fucking selfish. Why should you get to get off twice when he canā€™t even do anything? So he slips his hand beneath his sweats, beneath the waistband of his boxers. He groans, eyes squeezing shut as he wraps a hand around himself.
And then you moan, all pretty and needy. He opens his eyes to see your hand working faster between your thighs. He narrows his eyes, pins you in place like a bug with just a look. ā€œStop touching yourself or Iā€™ll call Patrick.ā€
Itā€™s easy to bring Patrick into it. You straighten up, pout, and obey. But for Art itā€™s almost a reminder of why he really fucking canā€™t.
Your hand stills, but he doesnā€™t move until theyā€™re both above the blanket, slick and wet and sticky. A smug smile spreads across your lips as you slip your fingers between your lips, cleaning them off. And god, youā€™re so brazen. Youā€™re just like Patrick, and itā€™s going to fucking kill him.
ā€œSit on the floor. Right in front of me.ā€ Youā€™re practically scrambling to obeyā€” peeling off the blankets and settling between his legs. And you are pretty, honestly. Even prettier when you want him this bad, when youā€™re on your knees and peering up at him with wide, eager eyes.
Your mouth is parted, just slightly as you look at him. He watches as you dart your tongue out to wet your lips, eyes darting between his hand moving beneath his boxers and his eyes.
ā€œArt, please, I just want to touch you,ā€ you practically beg. Your eyes are all watery, in the fake way heā€™d seen you play at when you wanted something to go your way.
Your parents had fucking ruined youā€” spoiled you, turned you into an entitled little brat. And now look at where you wereā€” on your knees in front of Art, begging for cock. It made him wonder if your dad ever spent time with you, if he was ever involved in your life beyond clinical conversations over breakfast and dinner.
Honestly, Patrick should be lucky that youā€™re obsessing over Art and not some random asshole. Anyone other than Art wouldā€™ve snapped already, wouldā€™ve taken everything you offered. Wouldā€™ve had you face down on the mattress while they plunged into your soaked cunt again and again and again. Or worse. Art could had a vivid imagination, and could think of a lot of things that heā€” no, not him, someone elseā€” could do with willing pussy.
ā€œYouā€™re not going to touch me,ā€ he said, as firmly as he could manage. ā€œIā€™m gonna get my dick out, and you can fucking watch so you can see exactly what you canā€™t have.ā€
You whine, mutter something about him being mean. He needs to be mean, he needs to drill the fact that itā€™s never going to happen into your brain so you fucking get it.
He pushes down his boxers and his cock slaps against his stomach. Heā€™s so hard, flushed pink and pretty. Your eyes widen and you lick your lips, leaning forward, closer unconsciously. You want to suck his pink tip into your mouth, taste the pre that dribbles from his slit.
Youā€™re already drooling from the sight, he might as well put it to good use. He holds his hand out, tells you firmly to spit. You obey, letting drool pool in your mouth before you spit it into his palm.
Your cunt throbs as he wraps his slick hand around his cock, stroking slowly, so you have to watch every slow pass of his hand, the glide of skin. You are droolingā€” you feel it at the corner of your mouth, have to wipe at it shamefully.
You reach out, touch him wherever you can reach. A soft, delicate hand on the inside of his thigh. He groans, almost sounding pained as he rips your hand off and throws it back into your lap.
ā€œI told you no touching.ā€ His voice is weak, not as firm as heā€™d like to be. He wants to draw it out, make you watch him, get off on how desperate you are for him.
ā€œArt, just let meā€”ā€œ
ā€œSit on your hands if itā€™s that fucking hard, orā€” I donā€™t knowā€” walk back to your own dorm.ā€
You pout and tuck your hands beneath your thighs. Itā€™s amazing, how well you listen to anything he says. He could probably tell you to bark like a dog and you fucking would. God, heā€™d hate to be Patrick. It must suck to have such a slutty sister.
Art doesnā€™t realize how loud heā€™s beingā€” heā€™s so stuck up in his head. But you hear everythingā€” the way he pants and moans. You watch his balls bounce as he fucks his fist, moan pathetically. Your pussy is just drooling at this point, swollen and aching with the need to be filled.
ā€œSay thank you,ā€ he says, meeting your gaze. His eyes are half-lidded, hazy. He looks so pretty, you just want him so bad. ā€œThank me for letting you watch.ā€
You whine softly. ā€œThank you, Art.ā€
He finishes with a desperate moan, coating his hand in thick white cum. The sheer volume of it surprises youā€” makes you long for it inside of your mouth, inside of your cunt. Art wipes his hand off on his ruined shirt, peels it off and tosses it across the room.
And then itā€™s quiet. Youā€™re still on your knees, heā€™s adjusting his boxers again. Youā€™re overwhelmed with the need to just press a kiss to his skinā€” anywhere, really. His ankle, his knee, his thigh, his hand. Anywhere heā€™d let you.
ā€œGo the fuck to sleep. You get the floor tonight.ā€
ā€œI never get the floor,ā€ you say weakly. You want back in his bed so you can just bunch his blankets up and grind against them until you cum or fall asleep. He gives you a pointed look and you sigh, settling onto the little nest of blankets and pillows he has prepared for himself.
You fall asleep pretty quicklyā€” exhausted as the adrenaline of seeing Art jerk off in front of you wears off. He thinks you actually look really sweet, curled up at his feet like that. Like you belong there.
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zyxwvutbackwards Ā· 18 days
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I wanna write down some initial thoughts about it, so Day 3 Mushroom Oasis spoilers under the cut!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GODDDDDD/POS
It was so good!!! And Mycheal got so much scarier šŸ˜­ Maybe itā€™s just because I was watching horror last night, but I felt like he was actually gonna hurt us at one point!!! His attitude change totally makes sense given that he thinks heā€™s having the one thing he wants in the world, companionship, taken away, but GOD it got to me!! If I was Mc Iā€™d have thought he was starting to hate us given how much we asked of him - and for what in exchange? Fortunately I have the power of Access to Meta Knowledge, so I know what that is, but I really feel for Mc lmaoo!
Genuinely, though, I didnā€™t expect him to get so irritable šŸ‘€ for some reason Iā€™d expected him to just get sad, but tbh it makes sense! Heā€™s been trying so hard to get Mc to stay, so, SO hard just to prove to himself that they were different, and to show them that they should stay - plus constantly having to work to maintain that image and it failing regardless! I canā€™t imagine heā€™d internalize it healthily either - ā€œtheyā€™re leaving because I did something wrong/because Iā€™m not good enough/because Iā€™m a monster.ā€ That image is only set aside when Mc makes plans to visit! Even then, though, it canā€™t be fully shattered - unless something miraculous happens or they reject him, I canā€™t imagine heā€™s going to stop feeling that pressure anytime soon.
Also, I was genuinely shocked I got the good ending on the first try! Usually when playing through VNs, I do what I think Iā€™d actually do irl and see how it plays out - which means that, in this case, I made the Mc stay suspicious. Which usually means that I get a bad (or good depending on how you look at it) ending - I canā€™t believe Mycheal puts up with so much distrust from someone he barely knows šŸ˜­ The kitchen scene was so awkward!!! And so was the forest scene!!! The walking in silence turning into arguing was šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ my heart hurt - yet for some reason he was relatively chill about it later on?? I guess it showcases his desperation for connection, poor guy :( It does make me wonder what sort of behavior or person would push him past his limit, though. So far the only real line heā€™s drawn is that we have to not insult him and/or be terrified of him? His self-esteem is really low and heā€™s really lonely, so I think itā€™d have to be something he perceives as really bad for him to decide that A. Heā€™s too good for this person and/or B. Being alone is better than keeping them around. Or, perhaps, C. The person actually doesnā€™t like him because their action was so atrocious that they couldnā€™t have possibly done it if they even tolerated him. Maybe this action has to do with his privacy - like, if Mc went through his box while he slept? Even then I have my doubts. All this said, I think it would be much easier for him to decide that he didnā€™t want someone around if they were never kind in the first place - so my speculating is all about once heā€™d already grown attached. Given he likes the Mc because of their kindness, maybe blatant cruelty would be enough? Especially towards people heā€™d already grown attached to. Probably, actually! I could totally see him kicking someone out who was cruel to his chickens - who wouldnā€™t kick someone like that to the curb? Theyā€™re his chickens! Who couldnā€™t love them? I digress.
The bad ending hurt ngl šŸ˜­ I hated calling him those names and I hated making him react that way. It was really hard to do, especially when we didnā€™t have a chance to take it back. And even after all of that he gave us gifts? His love language?? He still cares about Mc???šŸ˜­ Rubbing salt in the wound there!! I wonder if he understands that Mc rejected him because of his actions not because of who or what he is. I wonder if he thinks thereā€™s a difference at that point! He clearly feels guilty
Also!!! Several mysteries!!! A. The box?? First of all, he decorated it with mushroom stickers, thatā€™s adorable, but second of all!! Very very curious about what was in it!! And B. The not mushrooms?? What are they??? Very curious about them and their origins.
Finally, other stuff!!! When it wasnā€™t awkward because he was upset about/with Mc, it was adorable šŸ˜­ we got to hear him talk in his language in two of the routes, and that was amazing!!! I want to hear what he sounds like irl so bad! It just reads like it would sound really unique and beautiful. Ough I love him so much!
Also - Vida reminds me so much of Alma, I genuinely thought it was them for a minute lowkey still wouldnā€™t be surprised if it was, but Iā€™m gonna feel really embarrassed if I come out all confident that theyā€™re the same person and find out Iā€™m wrong so Iā€™m keeping this in the margins šŸ˜­ They kinda look like them, and they even said ā€œlift your spiritsā€ at one point! Also their dog was adorable šŸ„¹
Speaking of - THE ANIMATION??? LORD I didnā€™t expect it!!! When Mycheal grabbed Mcā€™s hand I was so taken aback!! It was so smooth!!! And so good!!! And the dog wagging its tail was so cute!!! The art was amazing as always, very comfy cozy, and the new backgrounds were gorgeous!! Plus the new sprites!! Heā€™s so cute when he isnā€™t scary! And still so caring when he is!! Well, heā€™s caring when he isnā€™t trying to manipulate Mc into staying, that is. This wouldnā€™t be a yandere blog if I didnā€™t love that side of him as well though :D Heā€™s so awesome
Anyways, Iā€™m sorry if you read all this brain vomit, it doesnā€™t have any sort of nuanced thought or overall conclusion other than that Iā€™m obsessed with MO, I just needed to ramble about the game for a bit šŸ˜­ Mycheal is such a well written character and I am so so so excited to learn more about him. I loved this update and Iā€™m so grateful for the creator for their work. Thanks for reading if you took the time to and have a lovely day!! šŸ’ž
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50 Random Character Asks: Mako
OH MY GOD this took me 4 hours sitting down lmao
here you GO lins underway i am not accepting anymore FULL Asks but if you have a few numbers (up to 10) and a character i will accept those
1. Canon I outright reject
All of book 2 my fucking god. The whole love triangle never happened. He found Rina, and he fell in love. Theyā€™re married and pregnant with the twins in book 3Ā 
2. A canon or headcanon hill I will die on
His wife and twins, foreverrrrrrr
3. Obscure headcanon
He turned into the unofficial handyman for his apartment and is always helping when plumbing goes wrong or when the aircon units go haywireĀ 
4. Favorite line
I like any line where he's pointing something ONLY HE noticed out like it was obvious and just being a good detective. (also those cheesy cop lines he was practicing lmao)Ā 
5. Best personality trait
That hes pretty willing and ready to face challenges head onĀ 
6. Worst personality trait
Hes so stubborn and thick headed i love itĀ 
7. Age/height/weight headcanon
Hes like 18-22 throughout the showĀ 
I think heā€™s 6ft 5inchĀ 
Idk weighs probably a little underweight in book 1 cuz street rat probender, but after then lin gets him set up in an apartment and she and kya along with asami just make sure heā€™s got food stocked.Ā 
8. Unpopular opinion about them
I know its not mako specific but I hate Wu*ko I HATE ITĀ 
9. Scene that first made me love (or hate) the character
Him getting work at the electric plant ONTOP of being a probender, a part of the Krew, and trying to keep bolin from trouble. True big sibling activities.Ā 
10. Best moment on screen (or in the book)
I really like the scene where he fights the red lotus in zaofu. He does a good job.Ā 
11. Faceclaim for the role
Chai Hansen
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12. Crack headcanon
Heā€™s allergic to Lychee nuts but thinks Lychee juice is supposed to be spicy.Ā 
13. Dumbest thing theyā€™ve ever done
If weā€™re looking at canon he fumbled BOTH Korra and Asami, my mans,Ā 
14. Most heroic moment
Honestly I know end of book 4 was a big moment for him but I think he was a hero LONG before with keeping him and Bolin safe on the streets and as out of trouble as they were.Ā 
15. Worst thing theyā€™ve ever done
Godddddd that good intentions but ruining the investigation in book 2 i CANNOT dont get me startedĀ 
16. Deepest darkest secret they wonā€™t even admit to themselves
He hates bolin, he hates that bolin doesnt remember their parents well, he hates that he had to raise him, he hates that bolin gets to be irresponsible while he had to grow up at 8 to make sure they were okay. He loves his brother, he really does, but when heā€™s no longer responsible for bolin mako refuses to accept the relief that comes with that for a while.Ā 
17. Quotes, songs, poems, etc. that I associate with them
Can't Go Wrong by Phillip Phillips
Sleeping In by All Time LowĀ 
18. What theyā€™d go to see a therapist about
Everything for reall like his parents being murdered infront of him batman style, to raising bolin, to having every adult that new him before we did in the show was abusing him (i.e. the probending owner taking his entire winnings, the triad they worked for when he was younger. My boy had it ROUGH)Ā 
19. Vices/bad habits
I think he picks up smoking honestly. I think heā€™s been smoking since he was like 11 with the triad and he doesnt let bolin know but he hasnt been able to kick the habit.Ā 
20. Scars
I think he's got a few thinner like knife and burn scars before the explosion scarred up his arm.Ā 
21. Drink of choice (not just alcoholic)
MilkĀ 
22. Best physical feature
Cheekbones lmao the cheekbones in that show are insaneĀ 
23. If they were a scented candle, what would they smell like?
You know that moment when someone throws pine needles on the fire? And its pine and charcoal and fire and smoke. Yeah, maybe like that.Ā 
24. Most annoying habit
Sleeps with socks onĀ 
25. 3 things theyā€™d want to take with them if they were dropped off in the middle of nowhere
Some money, a map, and his scarf heā€™ll make his way home lmaoĀ 
26. What they would do if stuck in an elevator with [insert character of your choice from the same fandom]
Dont matter who hes with hes gonna get them all out lmaoĀ 
27. Their guilty pleasure
Wood carving, he doesnt think itā€™s a useful use of his time and as the unofficial handyman in his apartment heā€™s usually rather busy.
28. How they feel about [insert character of your choice from the same fandom]
šŸ¤·idk i depends on the person lmaoĀ 
29. Eating habits
Bad, bad bad until he meets rina. He gets like A cup o noodles in mid day and mostly survives off milk and juice lmaoĀ 
30. Sleeping habits
He has stints of nightmares sometimes but most of the time he can sleep anywhere, unless its too soft. He cant stand soft beds.Ā 
31. If the had a tumblr what would it look like?
He would have a family blog where its pics of his family and the twins and updates and their art and stuff. Then maybe heā€™ll reblog some like fandom stuff from probending or a radio show he and rina listen to.Ā 
32. Something guaranteed to make them smile/laugh
His twinssss he loves them so muchĀ 
33. Something guaranteed to make them cry
Theres a song that his mom used to sing all the time. He still cant listen to it without crying. Rina finds out the hard way when she was humming it cuz it was stuck in her head one day.Ā 
34. How they react when they are feeling X emotion (sad, angry, excited, scared, etc.ā€”can specify as many as you like)
Bottle it mostly. Emotions can be dealt with later.Ā 
35. Their idea of a perfect day
Wake up and make the family breakfast, head off to work for a bit, move a few cases forwards, get home, have dinner, bathe the twins, get them to bed with a story book then cuddle on the couch with Rina until bedtime.Ā 
36. Their favorite season
He loves winter because hes not overheating and people stand closer to him for warmth lmaoĀ 
37. What they really think about themselves
He thinks heā€™s doing well by the end of the series. In my hc world Heā€™s married with his twins, he and bolin have found a name and a path for themselves and theyā€™re not struggling anymore. Heā€™s really grown up and done a lot of work. Heā€™s proud of what heā€™s done and who his family is, both chosen and blood related.
38. Favorite holiday
Growing up on the streets they did not celebrate holidays for many reasons. He hated them for a long time. but seeing the twins opening gifts on the in universe equivalent of christmas, lin, kya, and asami over for dinner while korra and bolin were away during the timeskip and seeing the twins so happy and opening gifts and stuff. He found he could enjoy the holiday again and even was looking forward to the next years dinner when the twins were older and bolin and korra were back.Ā 
39. Favorite game
He enjoys playing Cabbage Land with the twins (thank you @btheleaf for the Candy Land knock off name)
40. Favorite book
He really got into the romance series lin brought with her to the stakeout once lmao hes not so slyly asked to borrow her copies. Rina, Lin, and Kya have included him on their book club meetings now xDĀ 
41. If they could have lunch with anyone in the world (living or dead, from any fictional universe or the real world), who would it be?
I think he would want to meet his grandfather (iā€™m excluding his parents cuz thats a copout answerrr)
42. 3 comfort items
His scarf, a tiny glass bird a homeless man made him when they were on the streets (he made bolin a small fireferret), and a photo he has of him korra and bolin from the probending teamĀ 
43. 3 favorite foods and 3 they despise
Fav - strawberries, Rinaā€™s chicken fried rice, and he was surprised he enjoyed walrus-cow chowder as much as he did in the south.Ā 
44. Their happiest memory
Hes got a few lol, when he married Rina, and when his twins were born.Ā 
45. Their favorite celebrity
He doesnt seem the kind to follow celebrities too closely honestly.Ā 
46. The person they most admire
Lin Beifong 100000% shes the reason he joined the force and he kinda is always looking for her approval.Ā 
47. Their dream job
He seems to be really good as a detective. Maybe he would have liked to stay a probender for life but the trauma from the attacks were too much to go back really.Ā 
48. Scariest moment of their life
When the dust settles in book 4 and he doesnt know where Rina and the twins are. He doesnt know if they were on the last train out or stuck in the city during the attack.Ā 
49. Favorite toy as a child
He used to have this wooden bird that worked as like an ocarina. Hes using his wood carving skills to try to make one again and maybe make some for the twins.Ā Ā 
50. A memory theyā€™ve blocked out
šŸ‘€šŸ‘€ lots of things can happen to young kids on the streets.
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superfluouskeys Ā· 1 year
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i know you're probably not into maleficent/aurora anymore, but since you were like THE malora writer, i'm curious in what do you think would happen to maleficent when aurora dies? either from natural causes like old age or somethiing terrible happened
My friend, this is so kind of you to say!! This is also, unfortunately, MY JAM LOL
So in my personal interpretation, I think once Aurora became more sure of herself and the relationship, she would learn (passively, not even really thinking of it as such) to de-fuse Maleficent a lot of the time. Maleficent is naturally temperamental and always about 3 bad steps away from starting a fight. Once Aurora learns that this is just sort of how she is and she isn't actually mad, and doesn't even usually mean anything by it, Aurora learns to just kind of skillfully sidestep like 99% of Maleficent's bad moods. As a result, because she isn't being fought at every turn, Maleficent (also without realizing it) calms down a LOT, and tends to stop seeing everything as a challenge or threat, even from ppl who are not Aurora. This mostly just freaks ppl out, because you know she always seems super calm until she is suddenly Not LOL, and the average person does not know how to tell Maleficent's "actually calm" from her "quietly seething."
Additionally, while I believe that Maleficent operates on her own code of ethics and doesn't just do whatever, I also think her ethics and what she considers "wrong" differ significantly from where the average human would draw the line. As she grows more comfortable in her relationship with Aurora, I think she would be surprisingly willing to draw lines where Aurora wants her to, at least most of the time, because in her mind, e.g. not harassing someone who mildly annoyed her is important to Aurora, while it's not that important to Maleficent.
However, I think both of these changes, no matter how long Aurora lives, are utterly temporary. Once Aurora is gone, Maleficent will go back to the way she was before, if not ultimately worse, because in a sense kindness will remind her of Aurora, and I don't think she will ever reach a place where that is a good thing for her.
I think Maleficent's first reaction would be a kind of desperate fury, sort of like a wounded wild animal but with very powerful magic. She would be absolutely terrorizing the countryside, especially anyone she perceived to be responsible. It's almost worse if Aurora dies of old age, because then the fault in her mind would lie with...everything, the nature of life itself. This phase could last forever, depending on other factors, and I think it would be a very long time before Maleficent is even slightly functional again.
Even in eg. Prisoner-verse where Maleficent has other friends, I can see her getting into terrible fights with almost all of them. Girl can be next-level vicious when she wants to be, and even if her friends have known grief, most of them don't know exactly what she's going through, and therefore from Maleficent's perspective are not in a position to comment. Also I think "Aurora wouldn't want you to live like this" or similar would be like, the worst possible thing you could say to her, and might send her spiraling into a murderous rage all over again, because how DARE you presume to tell her what Aurora would want?
I am really a sucker for these kinds of villain backstories LOL, you can play me the same tune over and over and I will never get tired of it. I think the only kind of person who could reach Maleficent would be someone who's sort of similar to Aurora, at least in unfailing kindness. I'm imagining someone just trying to save her village or w/e from being razed to the ground showing sympathy to Maleficent for her lost love, and Maleficent showing just the smallest amount of mercy in memory of Aurora, even if ultimately she hasn't changed or healed at all. (oh my godddddd don't look at me I want to write this now lol)
So anyway, it was 5:30 in the morning, a very normal time to be awake, and I was thinking, well, would anyone in Prisoner-verse be able to calm her down at all? I think she and Kinsale would absolutely get into a really bad fight, and Zenovia would try to be chill about it but she would also pretty quickly be like okay well talk to me when you've calmed down lol. And then I realized............
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ā€œHey.ā€
Maleficent doesnā€™t move.Ā  She doesnā€™t know how long sheā€™s been sitting here.Ā  Odd, that she doesnā€™t feel a fresh wave of fury at Joyā€™s presence.Ā  Then again, perhaps she is simply too tired to feel much of anything.
ā€œIā€™m not going to say anything.ā€Ā  Joy holds out her hands in a show of defense.
Maleficent inhales, sighs.Ā  Her throat is burning.Ā  She only distantly remembers the sound of screaming, and realizes now that the memory was of her own voice.
ā€œGood,ā€ says Maleficent.Ā  Joy of all people should know that there is nothing to say.
A long silence follows.Ā  Joy joins her on the floor some distance away, and pretends to train her gaze upon the fire.
ā€œI do have one question, actually,ā€ says Maleficent.
ā€œHm?ā€
Maleficent closes her eyes.Ā  She tries to imagine Joy the way she looked in pictures, with long, beautiful hair that she wore in intricate curls, and a radiant smile full of youthful mischief.Ā  ā€œHow did youā€¦notā€¦ā€
But words fail her.Ā  She holds out her hand, grasping at nothing.
ā€œWhat,ā€ says Joy, ā€œburn down the world?ā€
Maleficent sighs again.Ā  It is as apt a question as any.
ā€œWell, it was perhaps to my benefit that I am not nearly so powerful as you, Mistress Maleficent,ā€ says Joy, although her characteristic attempt at wryness comes out remarkably strained.Ā  ā€œI wouldnā€™t have gotten very far.ā€
Maleficent opens her eyes.Ā  The flames of the fire flicker and dance, enticing in their destruction.Ā  ā€œIā€™m not sure I would have cared.ā€
Joy chuckles, dry and mirthless.Ā  ā€œYes, well,ā€ she says.Ā  She does not continue.
Outside, a terrible wind howls, desperate and mournful.Ā  The windows rattle and the fire flickers low, casting them both in dramatic shadow.
Maleficent inhales.Ā  She closes her eyes again.Ā  ā€œDoes it everā€¦?ā€Ā 
The words catch in her throat.Ā  She already knows the answer.
ā€œNo,ā€ says Joy quietly.Ā  A long silence follows.Ā  The embers from the fire crackle meekly, and the mournful wind falls deadly silent.
ā€œButā€¦I donā€™t know.Ā  You findā€¦other reasons.Ā  To, you knowā€¦ā€Ā  She waves her hand vaguely at the fire, and stokes it back to life.
Maleficent shakes her head.Ā  Reasons?Ā  The word feels foreign, meaningless.Ā  ā€œI donā€™t know that I ever had a reason for anything, beforeā€¦ā€
Before her, she means to say, but she cannot.Ā  There was always a before her, yes, but now there is an after her.Ā  Everything from now on is after her, without her, and the mere idea of it is something akin to drowning, or perhaps slowly suffocating, deep underground, with the weight of the earth sinking down upon her chest.Ā  What did she do before?Ā  How did she live?Ā  However is she to live now, knowing what she has lost?
ā€œYeah,ā€ says Joy simply.
Maleficent doesnā€™t know how long they sit together in silence after that.Ā  It hardly matters.
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ANYWAY THANK YOU ANONYMOUS FRIEND I HAD FUN LOL
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i just watched the faculty and it was so good but GODDDDDD i hate heteronormativity. like that ending blindsided me sooooo hard. ew ew ew!!!! stokely would not fucking wear that!!!! CASEY IS A TWINK HE WOULD NTO FUCKIGN GET TOGETHER WITH DELILAH ARE YOU SHITTIN GME. BE SO FOR FUCKIGN REAL. ugh.
anyways. headcanon time
zeke is a stone butch dyke <3 or, for a more canon compliant optionā€¦hes the token straight on thin ice (turns out to be aspec, the hypersexuality is an act, which he might realize after nearly sleeping with mrs drake and then going 'oh this feels very wrong and bad on multiple levels actually goodbye forever')
stokely is butch bisexual! cause ngl her and stan are very cute. i like to think she and marybeth had a mutual crush on each other before marybeth was infected. i could also see her having some genderfuckery going on (see: the butch part of butch bisexual. also fuck it, goth can be its own gender if you want it to be. im ignoring that ending outfit. i am not looking i do not see it. or maybe her parents forced her at gunpoint to wear it idfk.)
if i understand right, im pretty sure marybeth was just a host for the mother alien, and not likeā€¦a fully fake human..? so when we see her in the beginning, shes actually really her. but then again! maybe she isnt! either way, i like to think she had a crush on stokely, if not a specifically sexual/romantic one. shes obviously got a love for humanity, who says she cant get attached to a specific one?
stan is...hrm. okay actually it'd be really fun if stan was a trans egg, and quitting football was sort of the start to the journey of 'hmm, traditional masculinity isnt for me' to 'oh. im literally not a man. neat.' im thinking some flavor of femme leaning nonbinary/gnc/queer/sapphic. shoutout to girlfailure b student stan <3
i like to think caseys transmasc and delilah knew him pre transition which is why shes so eeeeughhh to him cause theyve got like. A History. (toxic homerotic teenage best friendship anyone?) i could also see him being some flavor of aspec. (more canon compliant option: hes a cis gay twink, the pornos under the mattress are a decoy for his weird nosey ass parents. FUCK them btw, omfg they sucked. also shoutout to the lil robot (??) he had sitting on his desk. oO HE COULD ALSO BE A TRANSFEMME EGG)
delilah is lesbian/sapphic, cause she was clearly not interested in stan, and i feel like her homophobia towards stokely was projection. i could see her having a history with casey. i also dont think theyre legitimately dating towards the end, i think its more for the cameras. (girl that kiss was soooo awkward LMAo. but like i cant deny they have chemistry, its just not,,,,That kind of chemistry) i feel like after the alien invasion shed finally start processing her internalized bigotry (and whatever was going on w her dead dad? hello? damn hope she gets a therapist)
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ttaibhse Ā· 7 months
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silly
also the only way i can cope with watching back videos of myself riding which i definitely Need to do to improve but the only way i can cope with it is to pretend im watching someone else and its not actually me lol. because if i think too much about my appearance it makes me want to cryyyyyyy so bad i really really cant believe i look like that :( i keep sayign i feel like my body image is like on a 4 year lag so i only just started accepting that i used to be skinny and now i have to change again and accept that im fat now. and i reallyyyyy dont want to beeeeee lol even though i am working on it so hard and im doing miles better about it than i ever used to. but i still really badly want to be even a bit thinner but the idea of trying to purposefully lose weight in a non mental way when youve always been ED prone is like ...... lmao. you know. and even then part of my problem is that i think my body is a weird shape or my proportions are wrong or somethign so no matter how skinny i have been or could be i still would always look weird and unpleasant to myself. ultimately i need to just get the fuck over it all and be glad that at least i exercise now lmfao but ow my godddddd oh my goddddddddd fuckkkkkkkkk man it's so painful every time it even crosses my mind. like my mental image of myself both of my face and body is so different to what i see in the mirror and THAT is so different to what i see in pictures it stresses me the fuck out so bad i should not have been born into an age with cameras or mirrors. i should be neothlithic
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mrcrowblargs Ā· 1 year
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been a little while since I updated my BG3 log and I got lots done aaaa feeling excited and a bit sad that I'm nearing the end. I've really enjoyed this adventure.
After Cazador, took Gale to visit Mystra. Got some big news but I urged him to seek forgiveness and freedom over anything. I like that Gale is on the surface one of the good guys but he can fall into power corrupts as easily as say, Astarion.
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On the hunt for the House of Grief I ran into THE WORST FUCKING QUEST EVER OH MY GODDDDDD this haunted ass house handed my ass to me over and over. I hated every inch of it.
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Fashion time! It's so late in the game that you find new underwear
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got one little tag on my doodle comic like "OP is in denial about the rotting teeth" and im just like I DONT SEE IT HONESTLY??? they just look yellow and like there's a of a snaggletooth.
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Wrapping up Shadowheart's quest was harder than Astarion's by virtue of TWENTY FUCKING ENEMIES I had to restart twice before the first round ended... made liberal use of Hypnotic Pattern. I didn't find it as cathartic an end as Astarion's but there was still definitely like, a release. And I love Shadowheart's last line there.
The reward was great tho. My bard now has 24 CHA baybeeeyyy
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time to rescue Lae'zel (she was kidnapped before Cazador) and OH SHIT THATS THE SKULL FROM THE MAIN MENU SCREEN??? AAAA The Baahlists are a bitch and a half with all their murder status effects and I was SO GLAD I respecced Karlach into Barbarian 8 / Thief 4 for that extra cunning action when the "defeat this guy before he casts Power Word Kill at you" fight came up. What a fucking mess that was.
Fighting Orin was easier... I was not expecting her to transform into a big dumb monster honestly! I expected she would be teleporting around or use some shapeshift abiltiy to be all annoying but it was a really straight forward fight.
Oh, aaaaaannnd I did not fight Sarevok, so that was another Weird Ritual to inspire my tav. He's now an unholy assassin and I'm sure Astarion must appreciate the smell of being absolutely soaked in blood. I don't feel too bad about killing Valeria because she seemed like a terrible detective though I did have karlach skip her turns in the fight because I couldn't imagine her being for it. Like it's just pathetic.
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Took Astarion to the drow twin courtesans... tbh I appreciate the game showing like, yes he is healing and doing better but some things you just don't get over right away. But I also want to get the spray bottle out like dude!!! don't force yourself!!!
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I used a growth elixir on Karlach for the Orin fight which didn't use up that many character resources and the elixir lasted all day so... directly to the House of Hope with Karlarge it was!
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Bit of a visual glitch because it reappeared later but it was nice to see Aldrich without the raccoon eyes and veins again. Just went around sitting on things in Raphael's house.
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AND THEN UH???? UHH??? This supremely awkward scene with Raphael's personal incubus who looks exactly like him??? I didn't wanna start a fight because I thought Raph himself might show up but I could not pass the fucking Con check afgkdd
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"you can have my body but not my soul" AGSFKHDDS???? I'm jelly tho I wish I had these eyes (but more purple) for Aldrich
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Reloading and fighting the incubus was absolutely worth it for this Speak With Dead bit. the answer: he bottoms exclusively.
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AND THEN THE FIGHT WITH THE BIG DEVIL HIMSELF!!!! I was already amazed when vocals dropped into the fight music BUT THEN HE WAS SIGNING HIS OWN BATTLE MUSIC???? It absolutely slapped. Amazing fight. I had Hope with me and convinced Yurlgirldsbfjs whatever his name is to join which greatly reduced the chaos. The only criticism I have is that it was a big of a slog getting Raphael down from 666 HP. but damn what a great loot payoff!
Getting near the end now. Of outstanding quests I have now, I gotta pass the hammer off to Voss, find/recruit Minsc, see if anything else is in the sewers, then sabotague the Steel Watch factory, infiltrate the Iron Throne, and confront Gortash. Then we'll see how it goes for the finale.
I'm still kinda worried what it will mean for my Tav going partially illithid and also aiming for freeing Orpheus. Seems like freedom really rides on the guy cooperating with us.
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top five unjust depths moments. top five silly oomf tweets and/or poasts. top five kimoments. mwah.
hi dear thank you for so many lists to write. mwah.
okay extremely fucking long post inbound i'm putting this under a read more thank you
TOP 5 UNJUST DEPTHS MOMENTS:
This is such a difficult list to write because there are just SO many good moments, constantly, and in writing it I keep thinking "I have to include something from this part of the story!" and deleting things and replacing them with other things. So I have to just settle on five Really Good Moments but please understand that my favourite moments could be any of a list of, like, 30, probably, depending on the day you catch me. lmao. This list is definitely full of recency bias - I am trying so hard to pick the absolute best stuff. And I will fail. But it's okay.
5. Basically every Marykova moment ever.
Okay okay I'm biased because Maryam is Literally Me but I think it's really sweet the way that, like, Shalikova just starts out so embittered and embroiled in her trauma and Maryam just effortlessly draws out a different side of her. And none of it changes that Shalikova is still dealing with the things that happened to her in the past, but when she goes out in the diver during Goryk's Gorge and really truly almost dies fighting Selene, and just comes back aboard the Brigand and realizes "I need to kiss Maryam right now" it's so incredible. I love them a lot.
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4. Arabella casually telling everyone she wants to creampie Zachikova so fucking bad.
Something up with this fish girl.
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3. Ulyana/Aaliyah's extremely bad meet-cute.
This was the bit where it really clicked into place in my mind that I was going to adore Unjust Depths. Madiha cooked. Always remember - Ulyana has the Disco Elysium voices in her head. She is at all times just rolling good enough to get by. Bless her heart.
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2. Majida being chastised for celebrating her victory in Arc 1 Intermission 6.
I think Majida is an absolutely excellent character, and originally I thought this entry should be the bit where she uses prayer to summon forth the strength she needs to use Spacial Control, but I thought to myself it would be criminal if I didn't have anything from The Moon Under The Mountain. And I think this particular moment was just such a clear and strong tone-setter, during the early bits of Unjust Depths. It's so so good. I have like nothing of consequence to even say just, read it. I love it.
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1. HOMA PULLING IMANI INTO A KISS TO DISTRACT HER AND HIT HER WITH THE PUNCH INJECTOR!!!
my godddddd ohhhhh my goddddd it's peakkkkkk it's fucking peakkkkkkk homa finally decides she needs to try to be a hero she decides the volkisch aren't on her side and she wants to "rescue" imani she's deeply misguided and stuck in her feelings and has a moment of incredible unbelievable swag aughughghhhhhh
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TOP 5 OOMFIE POSTS:
okay i haven't put a lot of thought into this i just love or hate these posts a lot and want to make everyone look at them.
5. Silent Hill "eatin a burger with no honey mustard"
okay kind of cheating because i'm in this post but who cares. milk kinda went off with this. i'm always saying "eatin a burger with no honey mustard." and it makes me think of the silent hill music every fucking time. all-timer.
4. Izzy impregnation mental gymnastics
I am not explaining this one. nor will i link to it. die forever.
3. Stupid Faggot Shark
thank you rachel for this all-time heater post
2. Tgirl Beak Shapes
my bestie is so wise for this. this post has 20k to me
1. My Therapist, Broly
6 years on still the best. dak the genius of forever.
TOP 5 KIM MOMENTS:
5. when we played phasmophobia duos that one time and you were so so so scared. kept going back to the truck to just watch me. andwe had to stop after 2 rounds because i did the old "die in front of your eyes as a bit" trick and it scared you too much. it was cute
4. like the very first time we ever hung out and hopped on monster hunter rise and found out we had independently made our wyvern riding auto callouts virtually the same ("do a flip"/"do a backflip" and "check out my cool new dog"/"i'm gonna pet this dog so good") it was so goofy. truly our brains have been aligned from the beginning
3. what if there were monsters in the dark forest
2. you showing me cool horror movies. it's just the best. coziest shit ever.
you getting way too excited about tricking people into thinking you and i are dating
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PLUV I have finally caught up with wha (at least I hope I have, I could only find up to chapter 70) andā€¦many thoughts very many thoughts
Iā€™ll start with Deanā€”I for some reason was not expecting him to have a wife and then she appeared and the way that man MELTED stop it stop it he loves her so much, they love each other so much itā€™s so sweet. But his little altercation with Beldaruitā€¦..Jesus Christ he pissed Beldaruit off so bad but understandably so. That was such a brazen move to ask about exchanging information when Beldaruit was in a vulnerable position. Youā€™re right, I can definitely the see the potential for him being an ultimate antagonist later onā€¦him and his son
Oruggio of course looked so good doin his lil thing, I am still stuck on the scene where he was getting really defensive over how Qifrey should just leave Coco and Tartah alone and not to embarrass them like PLEASE I have to know who hurt this poor man when he had a puppy crush on someone as a boy
And QIFREYā€¦..pluv get him away from me before I shake him senseless, smack him silly, dig my claws into him. That fucking panel of him laying facedown in the waterā€¦ā€¦ā€¦.so speechless. Literally stared at it like ā€œno way. no way is he going to die by the thing he hates the most.ā€ And while I am SO relieved that it was just a smoke illusion, that was such a brutal scene. Not to mention Coco injuring her eye, literally a mirror to Qifreyā€™s injuryā€¦ā€¦.so cruel
As for the girls, their character arcs have come so far, Aggotā€™s especially, she holds a special place in my heart
Just. Mentally pulling at my hair and rocking back and forth in a corner, this manga keeps pulling my emotions in every which way I donā€™t even know what to do with myself
okay u need to send me where youve been reading bc i can only find up to chapter 68 (dw, u didn't spoil anything) BUT YEAHHHHHH
okay the WIFE THING AHHHHHH im genuinely wholeheartedly obsessed with her And his utter adoration for her. like when i first saw her i swooned ofc but then her lil scene later on where it's clear shes Also very smart and capable and not like. just a sweet/maternal figure which i kinda expected...... whew. until proven otherwise i am going to make up a zayamaia in my head who is a true partner in crime for all of dean's fucked up schemes šŸ«£
ORU'S LITTLE TALK HAD ME CRAZY TOO SDJFHBV when i first read that i went running to my friend like "hes having flashbacks to when he and i got caught together as teens </3" SHDFBSJDKHFB but also </////3 qifrey's response to that <//////////3 SHATTERED me truly
the parallels between coco/qifrey make me absolutely rabid foaming at the mouth putting him in a jar and shaking him like a little bug. watching coco steadily going down the same path as him while he's so blinded by his own desire for revenge......... oh qifrey i want to dissect u
the thing that truly made me weep that i kept talking about btw was the plotline with galga (specifically when, after his memories are wiped, he tries to help the girl who wiped them like OHHHHHHHHHH my god OH MY GODDDDDD he is A Magic Cop who got his personhood wiped away because of it thus removing his corruption as a magic cop and with that stripped away!!! he instinctively chooses to aide a little girl oh!!! my god!!!!! oh my fucking god!!!!!!!!) and also everything w custas and dagda my poor heart my poor poor heart............
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thinking about stepbro!patrick... you only met him a couple months ago. and the same day you met him, you met art. they are inseparable--of course he was there at the dinner with your new step dad and step brother. and the whole family kinda joked that art was another step brother of sorts...
art has this innocence about him that makes you fucking weak. you latch onto him, ask him for tennis lessons and when he's driving you home, you grab onto his arm and beg him to take you out for ice cream. he truly cannot say no to you.
art rarely gets his own cone. but sometimes you'll share, licking a long stripe of ice cream and handing it to art. it's sensual how he sucks the cold dessert into his mouth, a small, barely noticeable moan emitting from his mouth.
he can't say no when you ask him to come inside to watch a movie. you sit on the couch while everyone's asleep and cuddle under his arm.
no, you're not patrick's biological sister, but he feels bad. but god, the way you look at him with those big doe eyes when a sex scene comes on, like a silent beg for him to do something--he can't say no. he doesn't want to.
he pulls you onto his lap and kisses you. it's messy and wet and it seems like art doesn't quite know what he's doing. his hands hover over the small of your back, over your ass. you push them onto you, make him grab onto you. grind on his cock that is oh so hard against you.
"fuck--i shouldn't--" art gasps, shaking his head as you press open-mouthed kisses against his throat. but he can't stop and his hips buck up and he wants to pull your shirt up.
"why not? i'm not his real sister. doesn't matter." your words are breathy, and patrick hears them. he knew it was art before he even opened his mouth--he knows those moans.
and you're right. you're not his real sister. but then that means he should get to touch you too. but he can't tell you that he's jealous. and he can't confront you or art about it--so he fumes.
GODDDDDD this is so so yummy <3 sorry I took a bit to answer I had to let this one simmer <3
Because you and Patrick have been pretty close since your parents marriedā€” never really had that phase of contention and bitterness between the two of you. He was glad to have some sort of ally in the house to be on his side.
But then you start fucking Art. His Art whoā€™s supposed to be his friend first. And youā€™re his step sister, not that Art seemed to fucking care before he decided to plow you.
So he seethes over it. Because what do you mean youā€™re inviting Art over to the house now, that you two have movie nights and cute little dates where you cook together, or work on puzzles like youā€™re seventy instead of twenty.
But itā€™s worse when youā€™re fuckingā€” when he happens by your room and hears Artā€™s moans. Heā€™s always so goddamn loud, of course he doesnā€™t have the decency to shut the fuck up about it in Patrickā€™s house.
Maybe he walks a little slower, maybe he feels himself getting hard when he stops and lets himself listen. Itā€™s all muffled through the door, but he can hear the creak of the mattress springs, the wet slap of skin against skin. Artā€™s slutty moans, you whining and mewling for more. Allā€” yes, art! donā€™t stop- feels so good- fuck!ā€” like youā€™re in a fucking porno.
When you two come down for lunch, youā€™re all handsy, acting all cute together. Patrick glowers and tries to pretend that he didnā€™t just jerk off to the sounds of you two together.
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okay more plvsaa spoilers
is there anything quite as sad as interacting with things around the tavern and hearing phoenix say things like "if maya were here, i bet she'd be trying to jump up and take one of those candles..." GOD. and then. AND THEN!!!!!! he tries to go to sleep and:
Phoenix: ............
Phoenix: ...Maya...
Phoenix: ...If only...I'd been able...to save you...
Phoenix: ...It never would have come to this...
Phoenix: ............
Phoenix: ...Just great. I should be ready to pass out right now. ...But I just can't fall asleep.
and then he gets UP and talks with rouge and:
Phoenix: [Luke] seems to be in good spirits, but...deep inside he must be hurting really bad. He just lost someone very dear to him. But he's trying so hard to hide it.
Rouge: ...
Phoenix: Then there's Espella... She had a new accusation thrown at her and is again at risk of being burned alive. And...Maya. I can't stop thinking how her death was completely my fault... That's why I need to be stronger... But I can't. I just feel so...hopeless. I'm the only one who can protect Luke and Espella. ...But I'm scared. I'm scared that what happened to Maya will happen again...
Rouge: ...Maya, huh? I caught wind of what happened today in court. She seemed...very important to you.
Phoenix: ... I'm...all right. I'm just...not sure I can protect those two. More than that...I just don't want them to think I might fail them.
Rouge: ............ You want to protect them...and don't want them to think you'll fail...huh? That all sounds well and good. ...But you want to know what I think? I think you're just telling yourself what you want to hear.
Phoenix: Huh? What do you mean?
Rouge: I think the words coming out of your mouth right now are downright selfish.
Phoenix: H-hey, what are you...
Rouge: Have you taken a second to step back from your wallowing and think about how worried they must be about you right now?
Phoenix: ...
Rouge: So it's hopeless, huh? Do you think those kids are hopeless too? Pssh, don't make me laugh! You wanna see hopeless? That's easy. Just take a look in the mirror.
Phoenix: ...!
Rouge: How do you expect to protect those two if you can't even manage to get a hold of yourself?
Phoenix: I-I...
Rouge: ...It's okay. I get it. You had some really...really rough stuff happen to you today. Unimaginably sad, emotionally trying stuff.
Phoenix: ......
Rouge: That's why the first thing you need to do...is just accept it. Accept it all. The sadness, the remorse...everything. Honestly, I don't blame you for expressing just how hard this whole situation has been on you. Who could?
Phoenix: ...... ...I...I can never forgive myself for letting this happen...I couldn't do anything...not a single thing! I did nothing to help Maya at all... Maya...she gave her own life to save Espella! If only I'd been quicker... If only I could've done something... Maya would still be... ...She'd still be here by my side... ...... It's all my fault... ......
Rouge: ......
LIKE. GOD. GODDDDDD. EVERY TIME I THINK THEY CAN'T MAKE IT HURT WORSE THEY DO. HE SAW MAYA (SEEMINGLY) DIE!!! RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM!!!! and THEN!!!! WHEN HE GOES BACK UPSTAIRS TO LUKE (who was listening in on the whole conversation):
Luke: ...Mr Wright.
Phoenix: Oh...sorry, Luke, did I wake you up? ...Is Espella still asleep?
Luke: Yup. She's out like a light. She must have been really tired.
Phoenix: Yeah...
Luke: Um...Mr Wright?
Phoenix: Hm?
Luke: Starting tomorrow... I'm going to give 110...no, 210 per cent!
Phoenix: Wh-whoa! Where'd that come from all of a sudden?
Luke: I...just want to help you stay focused, Mr Wright.
Phoenix: Luke...
Luke: I'm sure with Espella and me on your side, we can take on anything that comes our way! There's no puzzle out there tough enough to stop the likes of us!
Phoenix: Ha ha. No puzzle too tough, huh? That sure sounds like the Luke I know.
Luke: Ah ha... I guess it does, huh?
Phoenix: Luke...you've really helped me get back on my feet. I can definitely see why you're the professor's apprentice.
Luke: That I am!
Phoenix: Let's give it our best, Luke. As an ace attorney and an ace apprentice.
Luke: Right you are!
Phoenix: All right, so...what do you say we get some rest, huh?
Luke: ...I'm all for that! Good night, Mr Wright.
Phoenix: Good night, Luke.
luke's just lost the professor and phoenix has just lost maya and they encouraging each other to stay strong throughout it all. and he calls luke an ace apprentice just like pearl.....bro.....BRO..............
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Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 96
Abandon All Hope/The Sontaran Strategem
Weā€™re doing a bit of a speed run tonight because itā€™s 9pm and Iā€™m just starting now. And it is usually takes me over an hour to watch each of these
ā€œAbandon All Hopeā€
Plot Description: itā€™s a hunters reunion when Sam and Dean face off against Lucifer with the help of Castiel, Bobby, Ellen, and Jo
Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: I guess so?? Wouldnā€™t ever be in this position
omg itā€™s Crowley time!!! Well heā€™s got great music taste
Ohhhh heā€™s been expecting youuuu
Itā€™s pretty sexy of him to want to overthrow hell
Dean not being able to get out a good comeback to being called a functioning moron is extremely good and such a bad look for him lmao
ā€¦if Lucifer destroys humanity, heā€™s gonna destroy his own creations next?? That doesnā€™t make a whole lot of sense
I do love when he yells
Well NOW I just wanna see a drinking contest between Castiel and Legolas
Omg THANK YOU for not continuing to push Dean/Jo, especially not with Castiel right there
Interesting that he rode into town with the Harvelles and not Sam and Dean
No. No I donā€™t remember seeing any reapers at Pompeiiā€¦I JUST watched that go down
GODDDDDD. Yes, Cas goes through so many crises of faith but he his dedication to what he does believe is so admirable
Itā€™s been a while but please donā€™t tell me Jo dies. Not here. Not like this.
Oooooo, theyā€™re bringing Death into play. Heā€™s a fun character. Very dry. Takes zero shit, but calmly. Becauseā€¦what can anyone do to him? Heā€™s DEATH
Lucifer is so cunty here
Ohā€¦oh god, Joooooo. RIP, girl
I take it back. They did one last push before they had Jo sacrifice herself.
Wait. Fuck. No. Not Ellen, too!!! I know this show hates women but goddamn that was too cruel
Guess you canā€™t kill an angel with a gun made to kill demons
Canā€™t believe Lucifer has to spell out the parallels between him and Sam even after Gabriel did just yesterday
It could have been ANY demon Cas threw on the fire to escape. Why did it have to be Meg?
God. A Winchester has gotten every member of that family killed
ā€œBeen On My Mindā€¦ā€: one final Dean/Jo push. Guess weā€™re back up to 10??
ā€œThe Sontaran Stratagemā€
Plot Description: Martha Jones summons the Doctor back to modern Earth, but an old enemy lies in wait
This dude is really every insufferable tech bro manchild we have to put up with these days rolled into one
Turns out THIS was the first five minutes I had to look out for tonight
Yay Martha!!!! (Yes we knew she was coming back but STILL) and her IMMEDIATELY getting along with Donna šŸ’–
I do love how concerned Donna gets over the fate of the Doctorā€™s companions (smart of her to, really)
Will never be over her demanding a salute, too
800,000,000 seems like a lowball figure for how many cars there are on earth (but then again I live in the US and not in one of the places with anything even resembling passably decent public transit)
Oof the misogyny of the Sontarans
Donna using her skills she learned doing temp work to crack open ANY part of the case
Getting to hear Martha and Donna talk about how much they have/did or havenā€™t/didnā€™t tell their families about traveling with the Doctor after just how involved the Doctor was with Roseā€™s family. It just gives you pause to think
I wish I could watch the scene where Donna tells him sheā€™s not going with him, that sheā€™s going home, again for the first time. I love knowing that sheā€™s about to call him a great big outer space dunce, but they REALLY let you believe it the first time
Seeing Wilf makes me remember that weā€™ll see him for the very last time later this year šŸ˜­
If this were airing today, elon would be throwing a hissyfit over this kid or smugly not seeing that he is being viscously mocked. ā€œItā€™s been a long time since anyoneā€™s said no to you, isnā€™t it?ā€
ā€œItā€™s a thing, isnā€™t it? People donā€™t question things. They say ā€˜euewh itā€™s a thingā€™ā€
No because why get into a car you KNOW can be controlled by the Sontarans? Well, at least they think heā€™s dead now
Hahahahahahahahaha Wilf telling the Doctor stories of Donna when she was little. Gotta love it
Well, it didnā€™t take long for him to blow the cover of being dead
Whyā€™s evil Martha kindaā€¦
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mokkemusic Ā· 2 years
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CHIHAYAFURU MANGA (first time read live thread) moving this here toĀ make sure I never lose it its memories! Just forĀ myself and everything IĀ haveĀ felt!
I only started recording my reactions at the bridge scene so thats why this is cut Ā like this. I do have a whole anime thread as well I want to save later.
And when I mean just for myself I mean it. If I have to add videos they will be with every reblog cause they are mine! I want to keep themšŸ˜­ I had this thread on twitter first btw. But also kinda hope you donā€™t actually look so far down this cause if they are videos they will be me being hysterical over Taichi over Chihaya over everyone and no I wonā€™t apologize youā€™ve been warned šŸ˜‚ also again for anyone seeing this this was memories from my FIRST read through ok so like I may have been harsh to some characters or not understood things but these are my feelings I canā€™t stress that enough. Just let me archive this in peace ā¤ļø but feel free to look at it if you feel like you want some entertainment or listening to me cry (I know I am cringe I do NOT care) this series is everything to me. Ok now that the ground rules are covered we start with hysterics cause thatā€™s the best way
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OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG I NEED TO SCREAM TO SOMEONE If you know you know Like I knew but.. not not like THAT Wow I cantttt (Now for context later I was hysterical crying in my room at 3am because I am referring to the BRIDGE SCENE)
How is this manga so damn powerful
*gonna run into a walllll* Iā€™ll be a - aghhhhh ahhh
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Iā€™m going to sleep so starting volume 28 is gonna have to wait. But the first chapter art Chillaxin?! This man is the opposite of Chillaxin (but I love that heā€™s smiling bright)
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CHIHAYA !!! Cold hard.. heavy?
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DR HARADA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
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How could anyone even think it was anyone elseā€¦ Chihaya in this state I-
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Iā€™m really starting to love this guy And oh yea this poem isnā€™t relevant no
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HIRO !! I screamed I actually screamed I love him - see this is what Iā€™m saying every character here you just they make me so happy BUT ALSO DONT ASK CHIHAYA WERE TAICHI IS! Ā I love you Hiro but noo
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aasfhvnbmb Iā€™m ROLLING ON THE FLOOR ā€¦Dana you canā€™t do this for every panel I CAN AND I WILL DAMMIT HER FACE!
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You see you see this is why I held off reading Ā  Asfhghgjgjhjnkkjchjkjhjjl *wheres the brick wall I gotta throw myself at it again*
Nooo thatā€™s the one thatā€™s the one thatā€™s the one ..
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How did I get to love Sumire so much. Have so much respect for her. Sheā€™s grown so much
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Oh Chihaya my baby you left a legacy thoā€¦ it will continue after your gone butā€¦ oh oh And Kanadeā€™s face too ā€œThatā€™s not true anymoreā€ PLEASE STOPPP
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SUDO SUDOS HERE!!!! SUDOS HERE!!! Buttt I gotta say I went from that to saying SUDO HOW COULD YOU I THOUGHT YOU WERE ROOTIN- Well you are sadistic after all BUT I know deep down you care. Your pressing buttons to see the react Is Chihayaā€™s breaking heart react for you enough
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I still love you tho Sudo I still love youĀ 
We gotta take a moment to listen to the incredible anime ost to get all the feels before continuing I need that score music Ingrained in my SOUL (not that it already wasnā€™t) This one I found is on loop spectacularĀ 
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I hate it here Yea yea donā€™t you feel bad now SudoĀ 
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WHAT??!! Um .. Iā€™m sorry what? Why do I feel like Iā€™m gonna start crying next ch
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THIS IS TOO MUCH ITS TOO MUCH
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So Chihaya starts playing like Taichi even though Arata is who she looks up to in the world of Karuta we can start to see how Chihaya looks to how Taichi plays how heā€™s the pillar for guidance Not the expression on his mothers face too. I canā€™t
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AADGVJK THIS WHOLE EXCHANGEĀ 
Hiro keeps texting Taichi ! I love you Hiro
I just made an audio reaction to seeing Taichi again and I donā€™t know if I should share this but you know what? Iā€™ll regret my foolery later I definitely will but rn I have no fear and Iā€™m emotional so!Ā 
Iā€™m just happy to see his face no what ok šŸ¤§šŸ¤§ Ā 
Is his hearing getting better? Is his game sense getting better?
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OH MY GODDDDDD But you know why YOU KNOW WHY šŸ˜­ ā€œā€¦Yea Your right.ā€
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Ok Iā€™m sincerely convinced this manga just wants to kill me. In every aspect Iā€™ve come to this conclusion in this moment
Hiro šŸ„ŗ
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ASDGHJK the Sudo fan I mean I canā€™t blame em šŸ˜‚
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Pls I canā€™t I canā€™t I canā€™t
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I could go into whole thing of how now Taichi is inspiring her. Sheā€™s not idolizing him. But his little things are actually a huge thing how itā€™s inspiring her to be better not just for herself but to help the rest but I need to keep reading so laterĀ 
Rip my heart out why donā€™t you Chihaya itā€™s not -
I wanted the 5 of us ā€¦ šŸ„¹ *im not about to breakdown Iā€™m not*
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Sheā€¦she sends the poem The last card that was read was ā€œSeā€ ā€œA mighty boulder in a stream Divides the foaming flow; But reunited, on it goes, and so we will we, I know.ā€
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I need to put together a compilation of how everyone asks ā€œwhereā€™s Taichi?ā€ But they only say it to Chihaya and how Chihaya looks like her hearts ripped out Ā whenever it happens. Cause you know thatā€™d be fun right?Ā 
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UPDATE AND THEN I DID šŸ™‚šŸ„² EDIT HERE
ADFGJKASDH THATS CHIHAYA ISNT IT? THATS CHIHAYA
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Not coach crying and praying to the shrine for Chihaya Oh I love her so much
Sudo appreciation time šŸ‘ŒšŸ» cause itā€™s very important šŸ¤§šŸ¤§šŸ‘ŒšŸ»šŸ‘ŒšŸ» I love this man! His face brings me so much joy
WHY ā€¦ WHY?! WOULD YOU DO THIS TO HIRO (this is the most disrespectful thing) CANā€™T YOU GIVE THIS MAN A BREAK?!šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ VS ARATA?! He doesnā€™t have a chance heā€™s gonna be flattened in 5 secs šŸ˜­šŸ¤§ And heā€™s actually doing it to help his team šŸ¤§šŸ‘ŒšŸ»
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I really need to stop doing this I really need to stop embarrassing myselfĀ 
I love how the others are just like AYASE?? OUT OF EVERYONE AYASE?! WTF MASHIMA šŸ˜‚ šŸ¤§ They donā€™t understanddd
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IM HAVING SO MANY EMOTIONSSSSS
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! I MEAN I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I GET IT I DONT BLAME ANYONE I KNOW I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE! Heā€™s just saying he wants her to want him. Itā€™s a human emotion thatā€™s not a wrong thing to FEEL! MY SOUL IS BEINH SQUISHED
I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE MATCH AFTER THIS?! Itā€™s fine itā€™s fine
*whereā€™s that brick wall my old friend ā€¦ Iā€™m throwingā€¦ hurtling my body at you*
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I KNEW IT I F KNEW IT!
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The fact that he has the call with his momšŸ„ŗ And his talk with Suou! And and Taichi please come please come watch šŸ„¹šŸ„¹
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God I love this series so muchĀ 
Wtf That - that I wasnā€™t expecting.
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edgelite Ā· 1 year
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la knight getting the main event of smackdown tonight :(
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pepprs Ā· 3 years
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straight up havenā€™t done homework in like 2 weeks (and then 2 weeks before that too) and I know i need to do it right this second i canā€™t afford to not do anything but i canā€™t even move off the ground rn mentally or physically. god fucking help me
#my counselor and advisor are gonna be so mad at me but i have just been so low this week and like. this whole month. and things are kinda#getting back to normal now but im just done im tired my brain feels like itā€™s in tatters and my room is a mess again and im hungry but#refusing to let myself eat bc eating means having to go out and see my roommates and i just want to hide forever. girls who are too mentally#ill to be living on their own or taking an extra year of college and no one sees how bad things are in part bc she is very good at hiding it#but like godddddd this is bad this is really bad i just want to start over i feel so empty rn šŸ˜€šŸ˜€šŸ˜€šŸ˜€šŸ˜€šŸ˜ƒšŸ˜ƒšŸ˜ƒšŸ˜ƒšŸ˜ƒ#purrs#ask to tag#i sure fucking hope i just have pmdd or something and iā€™ll be ok in a week but i really get so fucked up whenevrr.. you know and like. well#here we are and. yeah i just need to claw myself out of this chz ive been in such a funk and i have the most insane week this week. jelp#i think itā€™s probably not pmdd cuz it could be a lot worse maybe itā€™s just rly bad pms? idk. not to talk abt this publically i feel very#stupid for it but like i think i maybe actually do have a. well um a mental problem in this department. either that or ive had the most#fucked up start to a semester ever and covid isnā€™t over which is ruining my life. i think i need to just say fuck it and start hugging ppl#again and not tell my mom like i actually think not having any physical contact w anyone even just like touching someoneā€™s hand or whatever#is not every good for me. thereā€™s just a lot working against me rn i know im rambling and being insane im just hungry and in pain and#losing it but i need to stand up go make pasta and like fucking glue myself to my laptop and just do it even tho i know i literally do not h#have anything in me to do it i just need to do it#food#menstruation tw#<- sorry#i need to ask for a hug actually. fuck im crying out of nowhere now i really cant go get food FUYCK but like. thinks abt hugs. instant tears
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