#hey at least im not sad

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

[alchemania]

All of your Wanderer and Furina fics hit me right in the feels, I- THEY ARE SO GOOD. "Well SOMEONE has to be [angry]", this broke me. I need to see them interacting in canon now-

AWWW thank you so much! This put a huge smile on my face.

I saw a post on how they have a lot of parallels and my mind just ran from there, honestly.

I'll also admit that Wanderer yelling about being angry came directly from the heart - like after everything was over and said and done, besides Neuvillette deciding that he would make sure Furina would want for nothing; like. No one was angry on her behalf. No one seemed to be horrified by everything she'd suffered through, or taken aback by the weight of everything she endured, on the HOPE that everything would turn out alright. It was out of love, yes, but it hurt and it hurt very badly and Wanderer seemed the perfect candidate to be like "Where is your fury? Where is your righteous anger?" Because that's literally him as a character. Like. Even Shouki no Kami in the descriptions it talks about how he has seen so much SUFFERING, seen people go through so many things and how he understands humans, he has felt their suffering, he LOVES them. Because he's been there.

For him, taking that fury and weaponizing it, that is love. He will take your anger that you refuse to hold, or that is too heavy to, and cling to it like it's his lifeblood. He will stand in front of you and demand answers from the ones who wronged you, stain his hands red out of rage. That's just who he is. Eye for an eye and all that. And so like, with Furina, he sees what all happened to her and he sees that no one is angry or questioning and he's like oh. Okay. Then I Will Do It. He's the one holding up her anger to her like TAKE IT. TAKE IT. IT IS YOURS. IT IS OKAY TO HARBOR!! Do it!!

He's got a bigger heart than he cares to admit and good lord he feels SO strongly. Bro will kill for you if he cares.

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

[touch-starved-lurker]

so im left with my heart in my hands

left out past its due

it'll sew back in

though not unchanged

(for i am not the most talented at sewing)

as all things are liable to leave it

i whisper a wish that the dust dissolves soon

and vibrant liquid red pours once again

[just-a-tiny-goldfish]

Anyone else mourning their time now—as if it’s already passed—but it hasn’t. I’m here?

[good-tits-with-scar]

imagine losing dodgebolt to jimmy solidarity, common tommy L

[scrunchi]

There are those Losers plushies from lani that I am OBSESSED with, but she doesn't ship to germany. So I struggled all week to find a good proxy company so I can ship it to them first so they can send it to me??

Uhh, yeah turns out the shop only accepts credit cards and... I don't have one to pay online and... I'm fucking sad now haha

I was so excited, put the shop launch into my calendar and everything, just to see I can't even pay the shop in the first place qwq

I was lucky some friends of mine got the Reddie plushies to me last year, but that was an stressful journey and won't ask them again to do it. I swear, I will be lurking on ebay or something to wait if in 10 years someone sells their plushies. I would literally die for them.

[vvyrmwood]

sometimes i get rly sad abt friends i fell out of contact with but then i remember like. Man i was going through some rly bad shit and in the cases i did try to reach out to no response like. that’s not my fault. i can’t put that on me. we all have our own lives and things change and people drift apart and that’s not on any one person

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

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[outstanding-quotes]

My kitten baby a few summer ago, chillin on a copy of Mary Oliver’s Devotions

You and I will always be back then 💖

[chaotictomtom]

just had the chance to see my wee step bro (sadly for less than 5min) to give him his presents and im so glad i remembered that he said he loved foxes cos 3 years later he still loves them and has a wee fox plushie with him and one of my present was a fox mug and bowl 🥺

[dancing-with-stars]

guys. guys !!!!

[femmesandhoney]

i miss my high school orchestra teacher so much she was so delightful and witty and smart and talented 😭 and she quit teaching orchestra to go do a boring college advisor job like i get it queen get better money but also you were such an inspiration its sad knowing she isn't inspiring passion for music in kids anymore :(

[ccassettetape]

hmmmmm i think i need help too bad i have to talk to my parents to be able to get that help. I Do Not Like Talking To Them. About Anything 👍

[correct-bangtannies]

I don't even like men and I'm somehow already a military wife, what goes on

PS. Don't open the tags unless you want a big ass wall of text of me rambling on your screen

[reikunrei]

the way im going to cry so many snotty ugly tears when they wrap up filming for st.... bro... i’ll be a gotdamn mess