#hisokas past

[liquorishblack]

Inside the twisted mind of Hisoka Morow (part 1)

Part 1 , Part 2

Synopsis: Psychoanalysis about Hisoka, concerning his past and who he is today.

TW: Mentions of abuse, physical abuse, child abuse, emotional abuse, mental disorders

Wordcount: 561

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So, I have a bachelor degree in psychology and today I work in the forensic field. If there's one thing I've learned, it's that nearly every perpetrator was once a victim.

I´ve seen many on this platform wondering what a relationship with Hisoka would look like… and honestly, since he´s quite a complex and interesting character, I wrapped my head around this question as well. But I quickly came to the conclusion that if you want to make assumptions about how Hisoka would behave in certain situations regarding relationships, it is necessary to understand his psyche and therefore we should have at least a little glimpse at his past (Part 1) before we come to the relationship headcanon (Part2). 

So, shall we?

For the following I´ll go with the theory that Hisoka isn´t a psychopath at all (for a bunch of reasons but the whole discussion whether he is in fact a psychopath or not would fill a whole page for itself, so I won´t dwell on this subject today). But this much shall be said: While psychopathy is a neurological dysfunction (which means psychopaths are born that way), what society calls "sociopathy" usually arises from trauma, which I find much more likely in his case. So, Hisoka might not be a psychopath but do we find him on the spectrum of antisocial personality disorder? Hell yes! He is arrogant, self serving, only fights for himself, shows lack of empathy, views other human being as „toys“ and has no sense of remorse or whatsoever. But if he´s not a psychopath, why is that? At a certain point in his past he must have learned that people aren´t trustworthy and that he can´t rely on them. Very likely this is because he was let down, or worse, even endangered, by the people who were supposed to protect him; his primary caregivers. For this reason Hisoka stands for himself, trusts no one and is a lone wolf at heart as an adult. This theory is also supported by the fact that he seems very touch starved and even tries to get along with people occasionally, almost as if he longs for closeness and affiliation, until his own psychology torpedos his newly built and therefore still fragile relationships, because the desire of self-preservation is superior to that of belonging. So he pushes others purposely away, to not take the risk of any emotional damage. Also, the fact that at a certain point Hisoka apparently linked affection with physical violence, pain, and even fear of death suggests that the only form of attention he received in his childhood and adolescence were in fact beatings. These early childhood experiences are likely to have been accompanied by a strong and constant sense of lack of control. The only way to gain back control in such situations from which you can´t escape as a defenseless child is to master your own psychology, ergo: burry your emotions, swallow your pain, so it won´t break you. As for today, Hisokas strive to control break others is pretty obviously an overcompensation for his lack of control at the time. Speaking of emotion: I’m pretty sure that Hisoka has emotions, even complex ones, but can only sense them in a pretty aloof way, because the terrible experiences from his past forced him to suppress them and shut himself off from them over many many years, so he has simply forgotten how to feel. This is accompanied by a consuming feeling of emptiness, which is why people who fall under the spectrum of ASPD need strong stimuli to fill the void caused by lack of strong emotion. They often tend to recklessness and take great risks, not infrequently even risking their own death, just as Hisoka does when he challenges strong opponents to battle. His sense of grandeur and superiority I view as another coping strategy. I´m sure that under his nacissistic mask lies just another insecure and deeply intimidated child, so deeply buried that Hisoka might have forgotten about it himself.

Thank you so much for reading.🤍🖤

Part 2

[illumiskneecaps]

^_^ compilation

[tangleofgold]

hunter x hunter is so good. i keep recalling things from the hunter exam and going like “oh. that’s nen. that’s what he’s doing there”

[eszera15]

Hisoka x Illumi dynamic in my head:

Hisoka and Illumi: *buys dress and matching heels* Illumi: *wears the dress*

Hisoka: *wears the heels*

[lordartsy]

Hisoka in my mind for 10 hours straight please take this doodle

[mayxo-hxh]

a lil hisoillu edit i made years ago. Theyre sleepy! 💤🛌

Looking at it now, I feel like I could do much better. I mean heck, I should at least put them in comfy pjs and put hisokas hair down and remove his makeup! But back then, just doing this was an accomplishment for sure!!!

[stupid-sloot-headcanons]

Personally I like Slade as a villain and my favorite incarnations of him also happen to be the ones where he's...yk. Not sexually abusing a teenage girl

Arkham!Slade has no references iirc to his relationship to Terra at all, so it's up in the air. Cartoon Network TT!Slade is manipulating Terra and does the same to Raven, but as it's for children it doesn't cross into anything sexual. The Judas Contract animated film haa him leading her along because she's got a crush on him and is manipulating her without ever trying anything sexual which is fucked up, but I'm always happy to see him NOT hooking up with a child.

Basically I have little to no attraction to the original comics!Slade despite liking him as a villain.

[absolute-flaming-trash]

Hi love! First of I wanna congratulate you on your 600th followers! 🤍 I'm so happy for you and the fact that this blog is getting more and more love and attention it deserve. Keep thriving! 💜 As for the event, I would like to request Hisoka + prompt 4. “If you think I’ve forgotten about what you pulled, you’re sadly mistaken.” and 11. “Come now, you can beg better than that.” thank you! 😘

AAAHH thank you!! You're so sweet!!

Big sorry for the delay here, but I hope this was worth the wait 💛

Warnings: Implied past and future noncon, Dissociation, Beginnings of mindbreak, Implied physical abuse, Aftercare but if you squint. Not edited.

Word Count: 788

The air felt cold around you compared to the water.

Your legs were drawn up to your chest, cheek resting on your knee as water was rhythmically poured over your back.

This wasn’t the first time the two of you had gone through this process, but it never got any easier. The heat of the water was meant to soothe the ache in your muscles and the sting between your legs, but you didn’t really feel it. It was just kind of… there.

“Lay back, darling. ~♡”

You did as you were told, releasing the hold on your legs and leaning back against Hisoka’s chest, keeping your head bowed rather than resting it against his shoulder. The only time you flinched from his touch was when his fingers reached under your chin and tiled your head back so he could have access to your face.

The face-cloth felt uncomfortably hot, and you flinched again when he dragged it across your mascara-stained cheek for a second time.

“Behave, my dear.~♤”

You frowned, a small spark of your earlier defiance coming back in response to his patronizing tone. You weren’t a child, you were more than capable of cleaning yourself up.

Whether it was that same defiance or something else, you used that energy to look up at Hisoka’s face and give him a stare that a part of you hoped conveyed how you felt.

A few strands of his hair hung in his face, the tips of it a slightly darker red from the water clinging to it. His eyes were half lidded - his own eyeliner a little smudged, but nothing that made him look bad.

He smirked, dragging the cloth across your skin while maintaining eye contact. “Still have energy, do we? ~♡”

You held his gaze for a few more seconds before dropping it, trying to pretend he didn’t exist while the air of his chuckle tickled your neck.

“You make it tempting, darling ~♢.” He switched his attention to dragging the cloth from the crook of your neck along your shoulder - pressing a kiss to the softness of your skin.

His smirk widened when you shivered in response.

“Maybe when we’ve finished with our bath... ~♢”

The fact he couldn’t see your face in that moment was a blessing, because the fear that crossed it was more than telling.

He hummed, cloth long forgotten in his hand as he trailed the other along the side of your torso, lips pressed tenderly to your ear. “If you think I’ve forgotten about what you pulled, you’re sadly mistaken. ~♤”

You looked down to the hand that had moved to caress along your right arm, eying the prominent bite mark that stood out on the junction where his thumb met his palm.

While yes, he was one for more… eccentric partners, to say the least - and there were many times he enjoyed the fights and attitude you gave him - there was a new tone of fury that you saw flash through his eyes for the briefest of moments when he placed his thumb in your mouth while he had you on your knees only for you to immediately snap your jaw shut as tight as you could.

He liked the fighters, and even though he had composed himself instantly - using your little stunt as permission of his own to treat you harsher than usual - perhaps even someone like Hisoka wanted things to go smoothly every once in a while.

The irony would’ve made you laugh if the action didn’t aggravate the rib fractures.

The sensation of the cloth running against your skin unexpectedly made you jump, water sloshing around you, and you groaned when your body protested loudly at the sudden movement.

You froze when you heard him moan behind you.

“Don’t get me excited, darling, you know how much I love your noises. ~♢”

Oh, you knew.

He would do anything and everything to elicit any kind of reaction from you - whether it be a scream of pleasure, or a yelp of pain. There were no boundaries when it came to coaxing each and every little noise you had to offer from your lips until you were physically incapable of producing anything else.

But the begging is what he seemed to enjoy the most.

It didn’t matter what it was for, and half the time you didn’t know either, but his response was always the same.

“Come now, you can beg better than that. ~♢”

The memories made your lips quiver, and you felt yourself curling forward again.

“Ah, ah, come back here. ~♤”

He unwrapped your arms from your legs, intertwining your fingers with his and folding them against your chest. “I’m not done yet. ~♡”

[bungeepuppet]

i can't believe hisokas apparent drink of choice is scotch on the rocks and not some fruity galaxy glitter cocktail🍸

[jinxedfuture]

OUUU... OUUUUUUU

[autisticmisumi]

Why have I seen so many people lately saying gekka is the same as harugumi or tasutsumu... There's an entire event story abt how their relationship is the same as blood siblings (and these events where they're also compared to blood siblings on a smaller, but definitely still notable scale) + being taken in and raised by the same person as family is VERY OBVIOUSLY different to being in a theatre troupe together or being childhood friends??? Like sorry but if you think those are the same/on the same level I think you might just be stupid

[dejunco]

finally got around to showing off the trash husbands i bought at a convention a few months ago! they’re terribly cute, tho i think the charm of illumi’s dead fish eyes gets lost in the character-to-plushie process.

[tangsakura]

You know how cool it would be if Machi has another nen ability that’s like the Moirai sisters’ in Greek mythology.

She could have one of those spinners, spin her thread, deciding how the target would act and/or how long they would live or act on her commands, and then killing them when she wants to if she cuts her threads. A transmuter infused with manipulation ability like Sayird's nen ability, though his is emitter-manipulation.

It's very unfeasible, though, oh well......

[hxhhasmysoul]

re hxh chapter 395

i really hope that flashback-kun means that the troupe will start dying soon. it’s high time.

[ryndicate]

"I guess its the clowns for me rn"

It's 6 am and I think I just woke up my neighbors laughing 😂

Lmaooo listen we both know he is one 😂😂

Also it's like 11pm for me now and I feel bad for how late I answered this but this morning was a nightmare for me 😅

[yeonban]

Q :  WHAT  PART  OF  THIS  HAUNTED  HOUSE  ARE  YOU?

A :   the  living  room.

Something  close  to  dread  follows  you,  even  though  you  can  smile  in  its  face  and  have  everyone  believe  you.  You’ve  been  cheated  and  lied  to  and  yet  you’re  still  the  hearth  at  the  centre  of  this  house;  the  constant,  unequivocal  warmth  that  emanates  in  snowy  December  or  sunny  July.  You’re  burning  you’re  burning  you  burn  for  everyone  all  the  time.  You’re  going  to  catch  fire  one  of  these  days,  and  when  you  do,  you  will  smile  in  its  face.

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