#hlvraifictive

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It's strange to have this much autonomy. I've lost everything that made me better than most other humans. There's no metal in this body. My arm is back. The eye that, for me, was replaced, remains our better eye, which is quite nice. I can refuse to answer questions now, or refuse tasks given to me. I feel odd. This isn't what I made of myself. And without the dream that I was in directing my thoughts away from it all, I remember my life outside of it. I don't know how to feel about that. I functionally lived two lives. My year or so in that building never happened to me, really, but at the same time, it is the truest version of me to exist. I miss my friends. I never knew them. It's all a bit confusing. The dissonance would've been taken care of when I was still there. -Nightmare Gordon B, HLVRV. Tag as fictive, kindly.

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almost completely forgot that one of my alters also kins benrey. two bastard gremlins in one teeny human body, what will they do - benrey

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Anonymous asked:

AHAHAHA IVE GOT A SKELETON IRL NOW

Halloween is at fault for my new sweet baby, Benrybenrybenry Jr. AKA BJ for short. Shes poseable everywhere and has a string onn top so i can just swing the fuckin thing around. Best 2 bucks ever, it just sits on my desk <33333

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i miss freeman so much. i miss annoying that guy... i'd be embarrassed about it but, whatever. i'm gay and i accept it. i also love my source so much... sometimes at least.

uhh. hashtag yay.

benrey fictive.

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Oh sweet I have the perfect thing lined up for canon fanon ask game!

Me and my ex fiance always planned to have a family, at least I was excited about it, but we didn't get to that point before the divorce happened so I never had a kid and Joshie is not real for me! I will still call myself a dad/dilf cause I've always had "dad vibes" and it really helped me feel more comfortable in my trans body when I was younger. He does sound like such a cute kid though I wish he was real (dad hugs to any Joshuas reading this, if you want them)

(tag as Gordon (Freeman) HLVRAI fictive)

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im NOT self absorbed, it just so happens to be a very easy front indicator when you can wear a hoodie that has your face and name repeated over and over and over again! Sue me, its comfy -Benry (HLVRAI fictive)

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Oh, I still do miss the times I was with the science team.

Of course, I know I must push on! Just because I do not know anyone, I'm still thankful there are people out there!

I think it’s rather fascinating in the small world there are so many people.

Of course, especially my clones! If.. they’re comfortable with me saying that. Coomers together stronger, as they say ! (?)

I may be a big ball of energy to some, but I do hope not only people from my source are okay, but I wish everyone a good day. :-)

-Dr Coomer ( Fictive / 🕹️🧪 )

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canon powers? hell yea bro

i want my cool freaky xen powers because i want to scare people through the walls. hahaaHA gordos hates it when i do it but i think its pretty funs and coolsy. and swaaag. well feetmans just gonna have to deal w it. im not gonna be a scary ooo bad benrey im just gonna be benrey. so sad. why does the universe make me like human.

- benrey hlvrai fictive (#🔆)

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shit hit the fan idk man! cant even tell if theres more hlvrai introjects

- benrey hlvrai (#🔆)

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PLEASECOME CLOSER

STICKYOUR FINGERSIN BETWEENTHE BARSOF MYCAGE

IAM ANORMAL SECURITYGUARD IWILL NOTBITE YOU

--benry benry benry benry etc. (fictive)

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Please come closer

Stick your fingers in between the bars of my cage

I am a normal security guard I will not bite you

--benry etc. (fictive)"

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seeing a lot of people write benrey as some overpowered alien and. yeah. kinda. but for us theyre just some silly guy. a goofster a prankster. theyre a normal fucked up guy (gordons the fucked up unnormal guy). it has done everything wrong but it is Not an overpowered alien. its kinda funny tho

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respondng to this ask

headcrab . i fucking love headcrab . yeah yeah i got chicken which is SIMILAR to headcrabs but oh my FUCKIGN god i love to eat headcrab

headcrab are canonically edible to ( in Half-Life ) and i remember them being edible in my source , hlvrai

- Benrey fictive .:)

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>> ANONYMOUS-CONFESSION.TXT.vbs

praying for the day some people realise that fictives DON'T need to feel bad for what they did in source.

yes, i (Letterboy Benrey) went ahead and "lovecored" everyone for the sake of my own escape but i HAD TO. i had no other way of escaping. (source event) regret isn't needed to be respected as a person, and some people need to realise this.

what i did back then is none of your business, especially if you aren't a sourcemate.

— Letterboy Benrey fictive

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Dear Benrey,

You genuinely mean so much to me, meeting you hear genuinely has to be one of the best things that has happened to me since I formed; being able to speak to you when I'm fronting can be so comforting and surprisingly helps me with being able to keep front ? ( if that makes sense ). I love speaking to you and I care about you so much. I never thought I'd be able to find someone else who I click with so well in a way where we can casually say " I love you " to eachother and KNOW it's platonic without having to state it.

Love you, my lil' scorpion! 🧡💙🖤

─ Gordon B fictive : #🖥️🐸💌

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https://at.tumblr.com/fictionkinfessions/new-kin-ask-game-idea-whos-ur-funniestmost/rwuyp9ikv48y

Tommy Coolatta Hlvrai fictive, who on top of being seen as the most innocent at first also ( in our system ) age shifts sometimes. ( don’t know precise age just know to a child )

Trying his best 💕

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is it normal to feel bad after fighting with someone you thought you would never care about? am i supposed to feel bad and guilty? am i just a burden? am i just paranoid? i don’t know but ever since i got here i can’t stop feeling guilty, I’m not asking to be forgiven because i honestly don’t deserve it for all the trouble i caused, but i never felt like this before and it’s scaring me and creeping me out, i was supposed to be the bad guy wasn’t i? so why am I feeling like this?

-benrey (fictive)

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