#hope i managed to explain it well

[loveyougoodbi]

"something ive been thinking about today for sure" and then you leave us in SUSPENSE

Hahah I usually don't put my thoughts here as soon as they appear cos I don't want to make any statements in the heat of the moment since I know people on tumblr tend to grasp onto everything they read and take it as facts. BUT nevertheless here are my thoughts on Max pushing Charles off every time they start on the front row. This is gonna be a mess.

(I do not know how to write a short response)

I like everyone else was slightly surprised that Charles was so easy to forgive Max after he apologized in Vegas. I genuinely thought this time he would at least.. discuss it in a more heated manner (I'm thinking max and checo in Austria after the sprint). I wasn't sure about the state of their relationship after and I know it would not be austria 2019 but I did not expect charles to brush it off the way he did.

Thinking about it now after the race is over I kinda understand why he did brush it off. It did not affect his race that much, he was able to retake the lead, he was gunning for a win anyway, Max got the penalty, it was all fine. The safety car was the bigger issue so of course he's gonna focus on that instead of put his already new and fragile relationship with max in jeopardy over this.

That being said, I do not condone Max acting like this every time. It says something that when the race started before t1 even happened I was expecting Charles to be pushed. I think Max was genuinely scared in Austin but when Charles brushed that one off he is now more relaxed in trying riskier moves with Charles. And the thing is, Charles doesn't care now. He's car is shit, he rarely has a chance to win when Max does this so it's easy for Charles to say "it's okay this Max and Race Max are different, I want to maintain this friendship so I will forgive" now that he's p7 and essentially not fighting for anything in the championship.

But would Charles feel the same way if they were fighting for a championship? I don't think so. And it worries me because by that point they will be closer as friends probably and Max will try riskier moves and all of them will be brushed off by Charles but at one point I think it is bound to snap. And I'm scared that the more it goes on and the more times it happens its gonna be more serious on Charles' side. As in he's gonna be more hurt by it but also the strain in the relationship would be bigger.

I may be wrong and I may be reading them completely wrong. They may surprise me again and have a clean championship battle with no drama and there is nothing I would love more than that. And so far all I've been doing is praying for a championship battle and not thinking what that Entails but now that this has happened multiple times and now that Max has the impression that he can do what he wants on track as long as he says sorry and bats his eyelashes after, I think Max is not suddenly gonna start clean racing. He's gonna play even more dirty if they're fighting for a championship. I'm not saying Charles won't, I'm saying they both will but seeing this I do not think anymore that it's gonna be a clean battle. I'm still gonna enjoy and pray for it but with a hint of caution bc like I said what im seeing now (as cute as it is from a shipper perspective) worries me a little.

Hope this manages to paint a picture of my thoughts a little. Cos they're mostly just jumbled together pieces of "what if this happens what if that happens". But this is the general direction I'm going in. What if Max continues doing this when the stakes are higher and what if Charles doesn't take it as well as he is now when he is actually fighting for something? That's a lot of what ifs 😂 but yeah..

[moregraceful]

max and i are closing in on launching [redacted sports rpf charity fest] and i am once again pondering how do i write "experience with writing form emails and manipulating google forms in ways no one has dreamed of" in a cover letter without saying "i did it for the rpf grind"...like there's no way unless everyone in this microsoft teams meeting gets really cool about a bunch of stuff really quickly. you know

[running-in-the-dark]

I have officially started painting the walls in the living room.

well, I've mixed/adjusted the paint and painted some swatches and put up masking tape and all that stuff. I'll be painting tomorrow. I'm so excited (to get started, but mostly that I'll finally be all done with evvvverything*)

*until I think of the next thing I want to do, and the next one after that, and -

[rosaaeles]

What's your opinion about District 4 as Career District?

Why is there a difference between District 4 and other Career Districts (1&2) in supporting the rebellion?

From all known victors from 4, who do you think the first to support it?

(If you have/know any fics which explore this, please let us know).

Thank you :)

@curiousnonny

hi! 

I think that district 4 was a career district!

I haven’t done a re-read in a while but i think I always just assumed that the proximity (not geographical, I mean like the fact that they had close ties) of D1&2 to the Capitol probably has a lot to do with their lack of support in the rebellion.

like we know that D1&2 are viewed very favourably by the Capitol and get more food and resources from them etc so it makes sense that they'd be more loyal. however, i don't remember the same being the case for D4 (someone correct me if I'm wrong though). D4 has always felt more like D7, D10, D11 to me based on vibes alone.

In terms of supporting the rebellion, I feel like the first could have been Mags honestly. Or at least, I feel like she would have known about what was happening.

I can definitely see her being contacted by Plutarch and being asked about how likely the other D4 victors would have been to join. like,, mags was the first D4 victor and i assume she will have done a lot of the mentoring in the years to come. she would have been a great starting point for the rebellion. who else would have known/understood her districts victors personalities better than her? and also the fact that she's been around for so long would mean that she could also provide a lot of insight into victors from other districts and the workings of the games themselves etc

and yeah, i feel like mags might have needed a bit of convincing at first. we know that canonically she's half-raised finnick (and probably other D4 victors too, esp if they were careers) so i could see her initially being cautious about promises of rebellion and change. she's old enough to have been alive before the first games, (maybe not old enough to remember what life was like but she probably would have had some idea from like idk - her parents talking about it or something) and so i can see her being weary of the idea of putting the other victors in more danger on the hope of something better.

but we also know that mags is kind and selfless and caring and i think she also would have wanted her 'kids' to have a chance at living in a better world. so yeah! i think mags would have been the first D4 victor told about the rebellion and i think finnick would have come soon after.

i don't think ive read fics that specifically discuss this, but most of @finnicksannie (TheWalkingGrimes on ao3)'s thg fics are about D4 and it's victors so those fics are all a brilliant place to start! also i know @the-sun-and-the-sea also has lots of d4 centric fics on ao3!

[avonne-writes]

follow up question to that last post: would gale ever be ok with being tied up?

Good question! This is interesting, because Gale cannot get into subspace while tied up but he’s okay with light bondage. He will just stay in his normal headspace throughout the whole thing. Fun, but not subbing. He keeps a playful tone with Bucky and the whole thing is pretty much still in his control. Unlike in subspace.

Gale is a very good sub with 0 brattiness but he has specific needs that don’t go well with traditional forms of dominance.

One might think that Bucky has it easy with him because of the lack of resistance but absolutely not, because he’s pulled out of subspace if Bucky misjudges something. And trust me, that happened before. It doesn’t mean that they stop having sex right there, it just means that Gale will revert back to his normal self and the complete catharsis he probably craved when they started doesn’t happen. It's still good sex, just not what he wanted the most in the moment.

It was a total coincidence, an alignment of the stars, that he ended up with someone who brought the submissive side out of him. It might not have been discovered at all with another partner.

[dukeoftears]

Hi, uhm, autism person here, what is a fictive? Don't ask if I live under a rock, I only learned what kinning is a few days ago-

hello hello, no worries as fellow autismer I get it. Also, just a warning beforehand that I am not diagnosed, am a newer discovered sys and my definition may not be 100% accurate!

So, have you heard of systems? People with DID / OSDD etc, with fragmented identities, aka “multiple personalities” (although we don’t call it that anymore). They form due to trauma, (which I will NOT be going into here because I’m not telling the shit that happened to me to strangers, so NOBODY reading this post is going to ask.), and usually in a system, each different part / person is called an “alter” or “headmate”.

An alter / headmate forms during a time of intense stress for a system, and sometimes, this new person is entirely new. Like every human on this planet, with their own name, face, personality, etc. but sometimes, particularly with autistic systems, when creating an alter, your brain will take aspects of someone else and add them into the mix. This can be a real person or fake, or doesn’t have to be a person at all. It varies how much is taken, but usually, when the brain takes a lot, or almost everything from this source material, they’re called a introject.

A fictive is an introject of a fictional character, while a factive is an introject of a real person

Fictives are alters like everyone else, except they take a lot from their source, and some identify with their source. So let’s take my case- with Rouxls Kaard, for instance. (I’m actually the fusion of three different sources, but I’ll make it easier by only explaining one)

When I was being created from the stress of the situation, my brain understood the comfort that came from Rouxls Kaard, the fictional character, and took the things that made him comforting (which was almost everything) and put them into me. In my inner world, sometimes I’ll look like Rouxls Kaard, I act like him, and I am essentially him. But at the same time, I’m my own person and I am NOT the same person as Rouxls- just because I was inspired by him, doesn’t mean people can treat me how they would the fictional character, or that I’m not as real as anyone else.

So, I guess you could *sort* of compare it to kinning, like how in both scenarios you “ARE that character”, but it’s not the same, and shouldn’t be treated as such. It’s hard to explain

This is VERY summarised and missing a lot of KEY information, so I HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend doing more reading on this in your own time!! I hope I explained it well, but I am NOT a professional so while you CAN ask me for more clarification / details, I do also recommend reading more up yourself!

The post below is a good, more in depth & scientific explanation!!

Hoped this helped, and thanks for asking ^^/gen

[sacredpit]

hey my loves, sorry i died out of nowhere lol. i actually invested in a brand new laptop recently and it’s the most beautiful thing ever buuuuuut it’s a macbook and i haven’t yet transferred all my files from my pc including icons and things. also i don’t have photoshop anymore since i can’t find any free versions that actually work for mac sooooo that’s been an issue when it comes to graphics and making new icons 😭

i’m hoping to figure something out soon but i’ve had other priorities in life and just haven’t gotten around to it yet. i’m not abandoning kak tho!! even if i can’t make any new icons, i at least have my old ones so if worse comes to worst i can just exhaust those lol

[imflyingfish]

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[whimseee]

if anybody’s mad at me today I am going to start crying and I’ll cry so much that my tears will fill the whole room and we’ll both die

[bonetrousledbones]

hope yall are enjoying how much my brain switches between past and present tense btw

[airenyah]

wish me luck that i'll manage to fit 12 different examples into my analysis

[magnoliamyrrh]

im so tired how many more arabs muslims or those who aint either but taken as such are gonna b killed or hatecrimed in america bc of all this bullshit. peace and mercy be upon the families of the victims

and im so tired every time an american goes on about ohhHhh the middle east them barbarians who cant stop going to wars and ohhHhh the terrorists i just wanna smack them you god damned dumbass no care that america has toppled world governments repeatedly has been a terrorist state and currently is and is involved through money in so many damn wars and extremist groups

[stochastiz]

i am really looking forward to this trip so that i can stop thinking about how unbelievably stressful work has been recently, but there is still so much i have to do before i can reach the point of being "on vacation" that i am just too burned out and overwhelmed to actually take care of

my mother keeps asking questions that i cannot think far ahead enough to answer, asking me to make lists and plans of things to do during the trip when i can barely handle the process of finishing packing before we leave tomorrow morning

i've had to tell her so many times that i am genuinely incapable of so many things right now, but she doesn't understand because 'normally' all of this is 'so easy' for me

[mmyashas]

I'm rlly curious, if I could ask, is there a difference in emphasis between te quiero and te amo that makes it hard to translate? Or, more like a cultural quirk thing

it's mainly in the way its used!

quiero is mainly for like. when you like something. when you love something but as friends, as a hobby, etc. ? if that explains it. like you could say te quiero to a friend and rhats that you love them, but it doesnt have the same meaning as amo. its kinda like a lighter love

amo is more of a full love sorta thing . ..like. when you reallly lvoe something. when you love your family or a partner etcetcetc . it hits harder than quiero. its like..intimate yknow?

[iwasntsupposedtogetinvestedhelp]

The misunderstanding I meant was related to the fact that his last name was Cervantes, which translates to servant in Spanish and doesn't sound that different in English. I guess I was overthinking.

OH yeah that makes a lot more sense! Though I don't think any misunderstandings would occur.

This translation spell isn't literally translating everything Alvaro says or hears. If that was the case, then names like Deuce Spade or Epel Felmier would be getting translated literally as "Two Spade" or "Apple Farmer". In turn, people would have thought Alvaro's name was actually "Guardian", since that's what Alvaro technically means.

I guess the best way to put it is intent? The translation spell may not be perfect, but it isn't so bad as to automatically attempt translating everything without attempting to distinguish what's a name and what's not.

[theladymuses]

ᴏɴ ᴇsᴍᴇ́'s ᴀʙɪʟɪᴛʏ: ᴀ ᴛʜᴏᴜꜱᴀɴᴅ & ᴏɴᴇ ꜱʜᴀᴅᴏᴡꜱ

While fixing up Es's doc, I realized I didn't really explain her ability so here we go!!! This will be linked on her page for future reference.

A Thousand & One Shadows, as the name might suggest, allows Es to manipulate shadows regardless of whether it belongs to hers, another person or an object. So long as a shadow is within her range, she can control it. The number of shadows she can manipulate at a time is (predictably...) 1,001.

The ability is quite versatile; she can use shadow as an extension of her body, storage, transport and even as a defensive medium.

In the past, Esmé has used this ability to hold weaponry, documents and even people. When using her own shadow, the only limitation on storage is the weight she can carry which is why she avoids using her own shadow to store heavy items for that would slow her down. However, this limit doesn't hold if the shadows aren't her own.

To use shadow as a medium of transport, multiple must overlap to form a path for her to move along. It is possible to shine a light to disrupt her movement because she won't be able to go where a shadow can't connect.

Similarly, Esmé can use a shadow for defence. It can absorb the impact of a blow, swallow a bullet or other weaponry and project them elsewhere (this is visually kind of like Nikolai's ability if that's easier to picture!).

The ability compliments her professionally, enabling her to listen in on conversations without needing to be there, transport both people and objects using shadow as an intermediary, and even hide when need be.

The ability cannot be deactivated without making physical contact with her.