#how many layers does this woman need lmao

[princessanneftw]

Princess Anne, Patron of the National Coastwatch Institution, meeting volunteers in Fleetwood on 16 April 2024

[akimojo]

"Is it because of how differently it (Final Fantasy XIII) handles female characters compared to earlier games?" YES you are so right about this!! The main cast is majority female and the fact that each female is an individual vastly different from each other with multiple dimensions and layers to their character is probably why people shit on it. Plus if you look at the males in the group, they are FAR from the typical brooding male FF protagonist and yet still unique and nuanced in their own way. People didn't like that the characters broke the molds/archetypes/tropes that many of the FF games follow. And that's why the FFXIII cast stands out so strikingly to me personally.

And they're not just deep characters, they're allowed to have major character flaws that actually lead to negative consequences! Not to mention that their personal goals and motivations do NOT revolve around men

Even well-written female characters from other ff games (like yuna for example) don't have any traits that men would generally find unappealing in a woman, they don't challenge male players at all

And then in comes lightning, who starts off so toxic and poisonous to the people around her, acting violent toward male characters and making rash decisions that require you to think about why she does what she does, and the male-dominated fandom hates her

And don't even get me started on vanille and fang because their bond is at the foundation of ff13's story, but it's somehow the one aspect that I've seen haters sweep over the absolute most. Which is very strange considering most people can recognize how important zack was to cloud, or tidus to yuna, or rinoa to squall, or locke to celes, etc

Now that there's men going around wildly misinterpreting tifa's and aerith's friendship as them actually just fighting over cloud, you really gotta wonder if they just didn't care about fang and vanille because their relationship had nothing to do with a man lmao. And you just can't fully understand ff13's story without understanding how important fang and vanille are to each other, just like how you can't understand lightning without taking into account her struggle between self-preservation and the love she has for serah

I don't like to cry sexism over assumptions, but it's pretty hard not to do that when such a huge chunk of ff13 haters are men that insist the characters are one-dimensional, like?? how can anyone be that wrong?? Especially when the ff games they praise have some of the most one-dimensional female characters in the entire franchise (sorry ff4 but your handling of rosa is atrocious), but of course that doesn't matter because hey! The dudes need a love interest to sit there and look pretty for them!

[everythingisround]

I think a lot of people who aren’t in the raggedy fandom or are just getting into the fandom may be a bit confused why so many of us headcanon Raggedy Andy as trans, so I decided to compile all the more heavily transcoded traits from across adaptations that fans use to justify their headcanons, plus some stuff I noticed on my own that I decided to add here.

Please note that I am in no way saying that trans/gnc headcanons NEED ‘evidence’ to be considered valid, or that Johnny Gruelle himself created Raggedy Andy with a trans man in mind. I just thought it would be helpful to have a little database of sorts for those who are first encountering this headcanon, and just in general to bounce ideas around that some may find representative of themselves and their experiences. Also, I’m trans, so I’m gonna make every male character in fiction trans too :p

I present to you… Trans Raggedy Andy™️

starting off with his design, andy has eyelashes, a trait commonly associated with female characters. note how other male dolls like clem, henny, and cleety the clown do not have this trait. (clem does have eyelashes in some illustrations, but their design is already EXTREMELY inconsistent lol)

andy’s hair in the early illustrations and dolls is very choppy and uneven, implying that he may have cut it himself. you could make the argument that ann or bessie (andy’s original owner) cut his hair for him, but let’s be honest, it probably would’ve looked a lot more neat and well layered than his current hairdo lmao

andy's arms are very large and disproportionate compared to ann's, which are very slim and feminine. perhaps andy stuffed them himself to give the illusion of muscles?

on the topic of andy's arms, in the books and some of the dolls and animated adaptations, his arm fabric is white, just like ann's. this isn't an issue at a glance; it was mostly likely an homage to ann and andy's design inspiration of scarecrows and clowns, which both typically wear gloves (moreso clowns with their signature white gloves). however, if we assume that raggedy ann stories takes place in 1918 (as that was the year it was published), and the beginning introduction states that ann is physically 59 years old, with andy being sewn a day or two afterwards according to raggedy andy stories, then both ann and andy were sewn in 1859. thing is, andy's outfit is sort of a mismash of contemporary fisherman/sailor attire, and fishermen/sailors didn't typically wear gloves back in those days, and even today. however, plenty of women, especially those of higher classes, wore gloves as a sign of neatness and status. granted, ann's attire seems to be more rural, but if, say, you were a working class woman in the mid 19th century, chances are you'd wear gloves at least some point. or maybe marcella's great-grandma/bessie's mom just used whatever scraps of fabric they had :shrug:

compared to ann's clothes, andy's clothes are a lot more modern (at least for the time period) and put together, with buttons and bowties galore. sure, bessie's mom could've just had those trinkets lying around, but considering the letter at the start of raggedy andy stories states that bessie and marcella's grandma lived next door with no fence, they were most likely lower class. personally, i like the idea of that ann made andy's current clothes herself :) maybe, with the civil war in america going on around the same time, ann might've based his clothes off of some of the sailors from that time...

in many of the adaptations, most notably the 1977 movie and the 1986 broadway musical, andy's arc usually revolves around him trying to prove himself, mostly by asserting himself to be as masculine as possible. one could argue that this is just a classic case of toxic masculinity, and while that could be a byproduct of his behavior, we do see him show sympathy and compassion for others, especially his sister. this indicates, to me at least, that andy's yearning to break away from others' expectations of him and be the strong, tough, and terrific boy he is is an internal conflict rather than an external one.

ill admit this is a bit more farfetched, but andy's voice does kinda sound like someone going through hrt, where the voice is in that awkward state of sounding more like a teenage boy as it slowly deepens with increased doses. (note that i havent gone on hrt yet; im mostly basing this off some of the things that my friend who has been through hrt has relayed onto me) if you listen to the 1977 movie, 1986 musical, and even the chuck jones specials, andy's voice definitely gives off that vibe (at least to me). then again, that may just be a result of the rag dolls being ageless, or the writers not knowing whether they wants the dolls to be minors or adults.

no girl's toy. yeah.

finally, ann and andy look basically identical, especially looking at them from the back view. heck, you can't even tell some of the dolls apart without their clothes on. this most likely indicates that bessie specifically wanted a doll that looked like marcella's grandma's, so that they could play with them as sisters and all that. it's also more common for kids with toys that share the same gender as them (though not all the time, of course), and boy dolls were almost always love interests for the girl dolls back then. even in the raggedy andy stories letter from earlier, johnny's mom (who, considering marcella was directly based off of johnny's own daughter, is most likely marcella's grandma in this context) even states that andy would sometimes be dressed in girl clothes when she and bessie wanted him to be ann's sister on that particular day. while that definitely makes me feel bad for andy if this is after his transition, marcella's grandma is also an old lady at this point, so it's very possible she could be misremembering, or perhaps she didn't want to confuse her son by saying her friend's girl doll magically turned into a boy doll one day. trans people were almost unheard of back then, after all, even though the concept of being trans has existed for thousands of years.

yup. that's the tea. this ended up being WAY longer than i originally intended, so i apologize for that... hopefully ive explained myself the best i could. tldr; raggedy andy has been trans since forever im sorry :(

[gaypolls]

ok i just said it doesn't really bother me but i do wanna rant a little bc it's SO insane to claim that you're only a real homosexual if you've never felt an ounce of attraction to ANYONE but your own gender... as though True Attraction is easily defined and quantifiable for everyone? as though gendered attraction is in and of itself something that involves some essence of other people's genders or whatever and not just what you percieve???

think of how many twinks have mistaken for butches and vice versa lmao. is everyone involved in those funny little mixups not a real gay anymore? hell, what about gay people in the closet who can't quite accept their attraction to their own gender yet but their "type" of the "appropriate" gender is effeminate guys/tomboys? if someone wants to enter the gay identity do they absolutely HAVE to renounce all past attraction to the "opposite" gender as fake? why? says who? why would it not be enough to say "i'm significantly happier and feel more natural embracing attraction to, and being with, my own gender"?

like yeah, personally, i do deem the attraction that i used to think i had for women as fake. but i'm an incredibly self-aware and self-analytical and generally In My Head person. i can look in there and see the throughline and know the exact reason i thought i liked girls, and hell, i can even remember the conscious thoughts i had where i was forcing myself to feel it. but i do NOT expect everyone to be the same?? like that would be insane. if everyone was as self-aware as me, specifically. that's not healthy lol.

but anyway, on that same vein, repression and the closet are seriously powerful things. there may have been a layer of conscious attempt to be masculine in the mix, but when i was 16 and searching for things to appreciate in girls' appearances and, because i was trying so hard, sometimes finding them, and acheiving that abstract feeling of attraction that i was looking for... would it really be SO insane if i now wanted to say that yes, i have been attracted to women, and i just got over it?

when i say that i'm not attracted to women now, that doesn't even mean that i have never been attracted to a single woman. it means that womanhood and femininity does not inherently appeal to me. that's where "exceptions" come in - it's literally not that deep. it's when you recognize that you're feeling something, and maybe you're unsure but it seems at least attraction-adjacent, but it's not related to the prerequisite of gender that's usually on your capacity for attraction; it's in spite of it. i have to imagine that the majority of the time when this happens, it's because the person is in fact somewhat androgynous, or some part of you percieved this person as the gender you do like when you weren't conscious of it, or there's some aspect of their appearance that has the right gendered "energy" to you. and sometimes people just look really fucking interesting, or people are just excpetionally beautiful, and it hits you so hard that it seems like attraction but you're really just in a brief moment of awe! sometimes you just enter the cosmic soup for a second!

and feeling superior about having never had this happen to you is... well, it's just that, isn't it? it's purely about feeling superior. i honestly don't even believe that it's truly the case for that one person. i feel like the internal need to say shit like that has got to come from an insecurity about the fact that you're not that "true homosexual" that you're claiming deserves to never be implied to have things in common with all other gay people.

furthermore... the notion of it being homophobic to identify as gay when you're "not 100% internally homosexual"? well i mean obviously that's the terf shit. it's the braindead idea that other people's identities take anything away from you. as if anyone actually identifies as gay "when they're actually bi" just for fun and not because their "straight" attraction is extremely incidental and/or just does not preclude actually acting on it... like duh, lol. and even if it was for fun, it literally still takes nothing. it's a completely imaginary danger.

and it's so batshit in particular bc going out of your way to harass other gay people and tell them they're not gay is objectively the fucking homophobic thing??? like how on earth do you see yourself as the better person here. christ lol

[reallivemannequin]

I have not done a rewatch from season 1 in years.

They were all so cute and young back then!

Stefan is creepy the second he introduces himself to Elena 😂. Immediate ick

Caroline could have also been way more interesting in later seasons. The girl was in a physically and emotionally abusive relationship!!!! She was turned. She was as a child. Instead we got what we got and all the meta (do we still use that term idk) does not erase the nonsense. In response to feeling rejected by Stefan for Elena, Bonnie tells her it’s not a competition. Caroline’s response is given in the most terrifying tone, “yeah it is”. She needs to be studied 😭

I feel similarly about Tyler. What a waste of an interesting character. They gave him a redemption for what?

The budget for the music in season 1…the Fray?! Shocked. Florence + the machine…flabbergasted

The amount of sex on teen shows is kind of wild and makes it’s so much harder to watch as an adult.

I hate Damon this rewatch too lmao. As a former Bamon shipper we had strength and dedication fr. We loved the potential bc omg he was terrible.

I cannot stand the amount of layers on these kids. Is it that cold when they’re wearing bikinis at a car wash?!?

The show did so much better at showing not telling in season 1. Elena is loyal bc she wants Damon to know that Caroline is her friend and she’s won’t hook up with him. She’s fiesty and fierce when she slaps him. We get that’s part of who she is. In later seasons it’s just telling us shit that doesn’t and hasn’t applied.

Suspense is where this series thrived (even when there was no pay off to it). Very fun. I’m still surprised by so many things. There’s so much I forgot.

Did not remember that the humanity thing started this early. It’s so obnoxious and didn’t have to be. Seems like your humanity had yall sleeping with the same girl. Idk how much weight that is supposed to hold, Brother.

Everybody failed Vicky. Period. Like why are Tyler and Jeremy arguing about sleeping with her in front of Matt. Sick. We also just forgot about Tyler forcing himself on her…

Class differences in this show were very pronounced in the beginning. All the founder’s are delulu.

Can you imagine a retelling through Matt? A bigger horror story

Jeremy was sassy af. I love the dramatics. He is me. I am him. Matt was supposed to be the everyman and Jeremy is speaking for anybody with sense lmaoo. Whenever he talks to the Salvatore’s I’m like

Get that b*tch!!!!

Hate the fake concern of any of the Founders. Idk a bunch of white folks in the south holding secret meetings screams hate group tbh

It’s extremely misogynistic to romanticize grown men fighting over a literal child. The way they even talk about Katherine in the season is yucky. This show honestly should’ve been on showtime and aged up Elena to near the end of college.

“You’re the woman that I love”. Boy that’s a child!!!!! I HATE Stefan this rewatch if I didn’t say it already.

These kids should’ve kept their ass in class but it also shows how naive and frankly dumb you are as a teenager. Even if you think you’re logical.

THE SALVATORES ARE THE VILLAINS!!! They ruined these kids lives.

Matt and Vicky got a deadbeat and a deadbeat predator, Caroline got emotionally abusive parents, Bonnie got deadbeats but one is successful, Tyler’s parents are emotionally and physically abusive, the Gilberts died but isobel and John were terrible, and they all lose their parental figures all as literal children…and this is a show about family… this is a show about consent, codependency, addiction, and grief. I can’t even say it’s truly about found family bc they treat each other like shit

Elena and Stefan’s relationship is sooo toxic. How many teenage girls were brainwashed by this show? Bc he is violent and it is wild it was marketed towards teens. They’re literally the couple where the girl is breaking up a fight and holding his face because she’s the only one who can calm him down but x 100000%

Somebody turn on the lights!!! Why is it so dark?!? It seems worse now

There’s no way that a man that killed your brother should ever be a viable love interest. They dragged that triangle to hell when 2 of the members were literal demons

I have not talked about Bonnie but she will forever be my girl and she deserved better. I am still so interested in the witch mythology that the show never cared about. The way that they did the Black folks on this show is yucky

How did I forget that Harper was a character…yikes

[dragongirltongue]

Tell me more about your pathfinder character! What inspired them?

Oh this is gonna 6e a 6ig one lmao.

Okay so I've 6een thinking on this a lot, 6ecause there are many many layers.

There is a lot that went into Penumbra herself 6ut even that isn't a starting point, for that we're gonna need to talk a6out Rourke which is a whole other things.

6ut first we'll need to talk a6out parallel universes porting OCs into ta6letop.

So when I first got into ta6letop games I was not the 6est at coming up with new characters. I'd make one and o6sess over them for an eternity 6efore making one more.

Some friends asked if I wanted to join their fun on going home6rew D&D setting. I was like, oh fuck yes and at first I used my character who turned out to 6e a headmate, @arianagestalt, cos we were doing some 3.5 epic level shenanigans with the party 6eing all dragons or dragon adjacent.

Partway into this things started feeling wierd with playing as Ariana which we'd later realize is the fact that she's alive in this layer of reality and needed to figure things out. Around this time I'd come up with a new character for my superhero setting. Rourke, aka Ferropyre.

A dragon woman from 12,000 years ago give or take who has her soul 6ound to a ro6ot in the modern age. I'd 6een doing a lot of thinking a6out her around the time and decided to deal with the weird feelings to softly introduce her as a player controlled NPC who then got turned into a full player character.

Major inspirations for this character include Mega Man, Ayla (Chrono Trigger), Ariana herself now that I know she's a person.

So I spoke with our DM @rrivlet a6out the Heroics! version of Rourke and how possi6le it'd 6e to port her over without losing the important pillars of her character, those 6eing her out of time status, her motherhood, her need to fight a 6attle that's long over. Turned out this whole set up was very worka6le in the home6rew setting.

Rourke was a dragon6orn soldier in a war against humanity to stop an apocalypse. During this war her side had developed ways to keep a soldier from 6eing lost to death, transferring their souls into warforged 6odies so they can continue the fight still.

Rourke was a willing participant in this and I kinda leaned into my own experience with Deus Ex HR, how I think 6eing a6le to have wanted the augmentations could have made an interesting shift in Jensen's character. Rourke fully asked to have her 6ody turned into a deadly weapon and only afterwards do the consequences sink in.

She spends less time with her family, partly 6ecause she's afraid to let this war carry on 6eyond their lifespans, partly 6ecause as a living weapon she feels she no longer 6elongs in their world. This leads to her pushing the 6ody too hard and collapsing in a state of neither life nor death.

She's found thousands of years later, her soul still locked away in a dormant state until a kindly inventor named Hack finds her and decides that her 6ody should 6e fixa6le. He spends a long time restoring physical functionality, planning to give it some very 6asic functionality, unaware that a dragon soul sleeps deep inside.

At the 6eginning of this campaign there is a call to all dragons to meet, Rourke's dormant soul flares up and takes over her repaired 6ody in this moment, only partially aware of the call 6ut trying to ignore it while finding out what she missed out on.

This is where Penumbra 6egins chronologically.

Rourke wants to leave and see the world, may6e make her way to where the call is summoning her to, 6ut really she's amazed to learn that her fighting was worth it, yet also for nothing. Hack creates a gift for her while she stays in town a little, a toy inspired 6y her earliest stories, a wind up doll 6ased on how he imagined she must have looked when she had scales.

She appreciates the gift 6ut turns it down, suggesting he has more need of it than she does as she leaves to happen across the party in a fight against a human tyrant, something she knows she's good at still.

Life got in the way 6ut we started a new game later on in the setting picking up the pieces. Feeling let down 6y the lack of getting to do much with Rourke I decided to 6ring her 6ack in a more level appropriate way.

I'd entered my Doll Phase around this time and @elysiadragon made me aware of the pf2e race, Poppets, I looked into them found the wished alive 6ackground and the rest is history.

Rourke would happen to wish for a second chance and through cosmic shenanigans her effigy would get that second chance, 6eing 6rought to life with memories of her organic life 6ut not her machine life.

Penumbra's inspirations connect to something I alluded to in an earlier post today. Yep, the clone saga! I'm very autistic a6out clones and alternate versions of characters. Penumbra is exactly Rourke up until the moment she woke up, at which point she's 6een forced to 6ecome her own self, she now wrestles with the weight of 6eing Rourke and not 6eing Rourke at the same time.

The final 6it of Inspiration happened very close to game start, she's a very small swash6uckler with a larger than life hero persona, very physically active and proud of how un6eata6le she is.

That inspiration is...

Hell this goes to such a degree that I'd often rewatch this video every game day to get into the mood.

And yes all of this ram6ling was necessary, now to add a million tags to this.

[msommers]

14, 18, 23, 27, and 30 for elena and val!

thank you!!! xxx // questions for ttrpg characters

14. what keeps them up at night?

ELENA — it could be so very many things, from little to big problems or her remembering how dumb she sounded in a conversation that morning or realizing she has a big day of socializing ahead of her blah blah blah. very anxious and active mind, it keeps her up at night for a good while. usually reads a book or pets her dogs to help relax enough for rest.

RIYA — literally nothing for 25 years, she's lived on fuckin' easy street her entire life and not worried about a thing. if you wanna be a goofster then the answer is whatever lover she has in bed that night lmao (as of right now, a lot keeps her up because she's not equipped to deal with genuine stress and fear and being on her own, it's terrifying and ruining her sleep career. -12/10, would not recommend)

18. what dish brings back the best memories for them?

ELENA — probably something like an apple pie. brings her back to baking with her parents, sharing a dessert at the dinner table with donny and bianca, dropping off some sweets around the city as gifts or donations, etc etc. always a gentle, happy memory dotted with joy or satisfaction or the like.

RIYA — i have no idea 💜 she's probably the type to not care much about the dish anyway, just the company she had while eating it. closest thing would likely be some kind of potential mini feast her family hosted after her first tourney participation, she didn't win but it was still a joyous celebration of her Getting There and tbh was probably an entertaining trial by fire for her future boytoy of getting through an entire event with her dramatic family. 

23. in what moment did they consider themselves to be “grown up”?

ELENA — oh boy, i'm not sure. probably something dorky in her late teens like deciding "actually, mom and dad, i Will stay out an hour later than usual to hang with my friends" and thinking that made her feel so grown up lmfao 

RIYA — she is 100% that type of girl who had her first hook-up at like sixteen or seventeen and was full on I'm A Woman Now. I'm Grown. My Power Is Infinite.

27. how do they usually dress? why do they dress the way they do?

ELENA — for lazy days i think she enjoys a cute blouse and flowy skirt with minimal accessories. in general a lot of boat neckline, loves herself some little cap or flutter sleeves on short-sleeved articles but a lot of the times ends up in long sleeves because of whitestone weather.  ends up with a lot of layers most of the time, the type to have simple things underneath and over the top outer layers to display her whole divine deal. which means a lot of intricate detailing, fancy corsets, expensive fabrics, occasional pearls adorning the top, etc etc. wardrobe full of whites, golds and light blues, with some sprinklings of pinks. has That One very fancy, very detailed golden get-up that gets whipped out for occasions where she needs to show off her sunblessed status, which is mostly why a lot of her clothes are so Extra and Excessively Beautiful to begin with because her parents and the pelorians love to see her so bright and in the spotlight. she doesn’t entirely dislike it because she does enjoy the clothes and likes feeling pretty, but sometimes she likes lounging in simpler clothes. an absolute hoe for having flower patterns over anything tbh. prefers earrings and hair pins over any other accessory, rings after but not big on necklaces as she’s quite fond of her pelor amulet. 

RIYA — almost always dresses or skirts, 50/50 on having either a more form-fitting cut or flowy fabrics if she’s feeling bubbly. cleavage 90% of the time, as well as any other way she can show off some skin here and there—usually slits down the legs or on the sides of her dress. favorite colors are purple, red and black. frequently blinged out to the max with fancy designs, gems, jewelry and whatever other accessories you can think of. a big slut for those lengthy and flashy body chain necklaces, as well as any long chained necklace to match her usual v-shaped or plunging neckline. loves loves loves cuff bracelets and bangles, as well as the ones with chain or gem designs over the back of the hand which link to a ring on a finger. shoes depend entirely on her vibe when she makes the choice tbh. she dresses this way because 1) her family is rich, 2) she was raised by two parents who care deeply about appearances and displaying status through wardrobe, 3) she's a hoe, 4) more genuine than the last one there is that she genuinely enjoys showing off her status and her body; she wants to turn heads, craves being the one people are unable to take their eyes off of when she's in the crowd, and these bold outfits that loudly declare her confidence get the job done.

she's going to be absolutely miserable with the default babey warden recruit armor :')

30. how do they handle confrontation?

ELENA — oh, terribly. she doesn’t like it one bit. she becomes withdrawn and her sensitivity really starts to shine, as well as her habit of halting speech and hesitation to fully commit to strong negative emotions. (ie: not being able to fully lash out at donny during their last encounter, even while she was feeling all kinds of upset, hurt and frustrated.) she’s always let bianca handle anything resembling confrontation, her strengths lie in peacemaking and healing.

RIYA — answered here!

[seeingteacupsindragons]

Hey! I just rewatched the JR anime recently and realised the novel has 2 volumes translated and a fee short stories here and there. I apologise if you don't like giving spoilers, but PLEASE, I NEED TO KNOW. WHAT'S THIS I'VE BEEN HEARING ABOUT JEFFREY BEING CLOSETED? This gives a whole layer to him, i can't imagine how frustrated he must've been that Richard gets to have Seigi but he can't bc he's a famous business person (i think)? I need your thoughts and some more info on this!

So Jeffrey doesn't get outed until volume ten (and it's not by his choice, either, unfortunately).

But it does really add a very interesting layer to his workaholic nature and his trying to convince Seigi he had a girlfriend via random Facebook photos lmao. Oh, Jeff. He in many ways mirrors Mami from Ruby.

Anyway, the thing with Jeff is that he also did not tell Richard, or Henry, about his thing, but he is mentioned to have known since he was a teenager, which makes a couple of the short stories about his and Richard's teenage years hurt like a bitch. He has a lot of internalized issues around it; it's not just a public face thing (although it's also that, of course).

The reason this came out is because Henry is around 40 in the last book and still unmarried (because his arranged marriage fiancée he'd had in his twenties broke up with him a while back and he never like. Dealt with it, exactly), and Richard is....very Richard about everything, and the Claremont family line has a very strong chance of dying out. Which means the servants who have worked for their family for generations will be out of work, and so.

Someone's gotta have a kid.

So some people are trying to conspire to get Richard back with his ex (no), but one of the servants found out about Jeff's Secret Boyfriend in America and is using this to blackmail him to try to get married to a woman so he has a kid so the family continues, which he doesn't exactly have lots of interest in, because: he's gay.

However, Jeff still has tons of guilt and a bit of a savior complex, so he's not telling his brothers/cousin about this entire situation because he feels horrible and also like everything is his fault and so he kind of deserves this, and how else is the family line going to continue, he can't do this to Ricky--

Suffice to say, Jeff and his boyfriend are still happily together by the end of the book.

[phantaloon-books]

Things about Tower of Nero that I want to highlight to remember them forever:

Lu being an absolute badass woman, I just love her too much

Piper McClean being canon wlw, she was actually kissing another girl, we really fell in love in october

Chaos being canonically female (just chaos being mentioned as a deity rather than what's below tartarus)

nobody DIED, like no one on the good side at least?? yes plenty of beings have died throughout TOA, but nobody died in TON?? so many died in TLO and BOO, I expected to mourn someone and I didn't have too??! it made me so happy

solangelo. that's it. solangelo makes me happy.

will being incredibly supportive of nico, and instead of stopping him, going with him on dangerous adventures because he doesn't want to leave him alone. also them treating Nico's PTSD for what it is

WILL SOLACE CANONICALLY GLOWS IN THE DARK. HE'S A GLOWSTICK BABY.

also will just appearing at the gates of the throne room, glowing in rage because someone touched his boyfriend (and tried to kill his dad), and him just marching through everyone (everyone else letting him), just to pick up his hurt precious boyfriend and take care of him.

meg McCaffrey got her happy ending. she's baby, she deserves her family and her happy ending. also Lu being the mother and the 12 children being siblings?? that's one hell of a way to tell nero to fuck off and right his mistakes. we love meg.

dionysus being the best olympian after apollo. the duo content we needed, and now will never get

nico mentioning bob and how he wants to go look for him, because he can still be in tartarus

rachel still being a Total badass and hitting people in the eye with her blue hairbrush thus being iconic

meg acting as lester's anchor and only reason why he didn't let go of the ledge, not falling into chaos, is top tier 'reasons why I cried reading', because if you think about it, Meg is the first ever friend apollo ever had, and them being best friends is everything to me

also apollo choosing to go looking as lester rather than apollo because lester feels like home is on top tier 'reasons why I cried reading' too

again, the only thing apollo did in the end (once he was god again) that could be described as 'godly' was be in several places at once, fly his chariot, and get meg her unicorn

but apollo shooting fucking fire out of his hands is crazy asf, it was so cool. he really got amazing godly powers this book.

rick being bold enough to showcase abusive parenting knowing that a huge porcentage of his readers are minors, helping many realize that they could be in abusive households, and giving them a tool to reach out for help

apollo defeating nero was so satisfactory, because you realize in the end, that nero wasn't really a monster, he was monstrous, but still very much human (if only with some godly power), and pretty useless once he couldn't hide behind props and weapons, his being wasn't powerful, he was just under layers of protection

the jackson/blofis scene was so warm and loving, they really are willing to put their family in danger, baby estelle in danger, to help 'percy's friends' even tho she knew percy didn't like apollo, but she still takes in everyone who needs help, and paul being a loving and accepting husband

sally working on her SECOND novel, she really is having her best life

none of the big heroes from other series having protagonism, besides nico and will, instead giving the other kids from camp halfblood their chance to show they're just as worthy as the "heroes of olympus"

(still I would have loved to see a scene with everyone else, like the heroes of olympus guys, fighting together one last time, just for nostalgia's sake - I legit hoped to see percy and annabeth arriving with chiron in triumvirate tower, but yeah)

the arrow of dodona may have been a dumb, cringey, and slightly ridiculous thing at first, and I personally rolled my eyes everytime it said anything, but it knew what would happen from the start, and without its sacrifice, apollo would have achieved nothing. we stan one arrow

nico wearing a white cowboy hat. idky but it makes my heart swell with joy. he a gay cowboy

y'all know I love Apollo's arch, and I just gotta point this out. his trials, his time as lester, started with him falling to earth, and ended with him getting up after purposely throwing himself off the earth, towards tartarus, almost falling to chaos. that's really clever writing.

the olympians watching over him, and some actually being concerned for him rather than his progress.

poseidon not really giving a fuck about the world or council meetings anymore because percy's not there anymore

athena being the only one apart from artemis who trusted apollo could do it makes me warm fsr

lester deciding that the best way to retell his adventures is by singing is hilarious to me, he really thinks it'll solve everything

Grover not telling percy and annabeth jason died seems so funny to me, he really said "nah it doesn't matter much, field trip, yes"

"hey man" my heart broke in twenty million pieces. like I don't know where I expected to see jason. but that wasn't it. and it hurt me as much as it hurt apollo man.

(also I kinda hoped we would see nico summon his spirit or smth, but I'm actually happy nico realized that jason went by his own choice, and he was in peace, so he decided not to summon him, because it was alright. that hurt too)

kinda love how lester passes out after literally every battle. it reminds you that even tho he's apollo, his body isn't. I'm sure we all would pass out too if we did a quarter of what lester did in the span of 4 days. his body isn't made to endure that, it doesn't even have a halfblood endurance, it's a weak mortal body

the trogs were fucking hilarious. their screeches and grrs, idk there's something ridiculous and so childish about them, it's so fun

really happy that apollo never had a /real/ love interest (reyna doesn't count), cause that wasn't what his story was about. instead he got to make so many friends, and have quality time with them and his children, it's amazing

apollo being thankful people were telling him he'd grown, and was more human, because he realized that was the best thing he could have learned from his time as a mortal

also him saying fuck you man to zeus and his speech, like "no asshole dad, I did learn, I'm not going to see this as punishment, it was a great time in which bad things happened but I enjoyed it." yes, we love apollo not letting zeus win

getting to see what everyone will do now. nico and will figuring out rachel's prophecy, probs saving bob. rachel living her best life away from her parents. leo doing what leo does, always helping those who have no one else. the hunters' open storyline about this fox, possibly hinting at content? piper settling down in a quiet life is what she deserves tbh, she's earned quiet life with a cute gf, wish her the best. Frank and hazel being the best praetors, and I bet they will continue to be so. And annabeth and percy, who chose their happiness over all, at last

kinda wish we got to see someone still really miss jason after apollo becomes god again tho lmao like apollo missed jason more than the others, nico and piper being the exception. I mean, leo is fine and dandy, hazel and frank are okay, percy and annabeth are done mourning... I just we got to see any of them really mourning, rather than reading they mourned. it would have made it feel more emotional

the last conversation and the last words in general. "the sun always comes back" and "we're friends now. call on me. I'll be there for you" that shit got me sobbing my heart out. rick really managed to do right by the books and end it like he should have, unlike BOO. he took what made TLO good and used a similar formula. it's very different from "and for once I didn't look back", but it still fills you with warmth and the feeling that even though it's over, it's okay.

I'm just really emotional, this is all I can think about, but you bet I'm gonna add more when I remember

[summersun4youforever]

✨ Tag 9 people to learn more about their interests!

tagged by my fav @loulovehome thank you pu hope that this quells your curiosity! 

MUSIC

fav genre? not to be that person but i think i have a toe in most genres, i suppose my favorites have got to be anything taylor swift does, pop punk, r&b pop/new age r&b, and bluegrass

fav artist? again, not to be that person but i love so many artists! let’s do this based off of genre: taylor swift, 1D, 5sos, massive focus on ZAYN, the Avett brothers, and counting crows

fav song? fav song of all time (since i was young) is going to be come around by rhett miller but more currently i’d say you are in love by taylor swift and dRuNk by ZAYN

song currently stuck in your head? i have no idea how it got there but i have stressed out by 21 pilots stuck in my head??

5 fav lyrics? ok let’s do this kids. edit: this went in a “fav love song lyrics” way so sorry in advance.

1)  I hope that I don't sound to insane when I say / There is darkness all around us / I don't feel weak but I do need sometimes for her to protect me / And reconnect me to the beauty that I'm missin' (January Wedding - The Avett Brothers)

2)  Hands around my waist / You're counting up the hills across the sheets / And I'm a falling star / A glimmer lighting up these cotton streets / I admit I'm a bit of a fool for playing by the rules / But I've found my sweet escape when I'm alone with you (Disconnected - 5sos)

3)  This is the worthwhile fight / Love is a ruthless game / Unless you play it good and right / These are the hands of fate / You're my Achilles heel / This is the golden age of something good / And right and real (State of Grace - Taylor Swift) 

4)  What if I changed my mind / What if I said it's over / I been flying so long / Can't remember what it was like to be sober / What if I lost my lives? / What if I said "Game over"? / What if I forget my lies? / And I lose all my composure (Back to Life - ZAYN)

5)   I never said I was perfect / Or you don't deserve a good person to carry your baggage / I know a few girls that can handle it / I ain't that kind of chick, but I can call 'em for you if you want / I never said that you wasn't attractive / Your style and that beard, ooh, don't get me distracted / I'm tryna be patient, and patience takes practice / The fact is I'm leaving, so just let me have this (Jerome - Lizzo)

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

fav book genre? murder mystery and young love!

fav writer? jane austen, lisa jewell, and rick riordan (nostalgia ok?!)

fav book? the way i used to be my amber smith, rebecca by daphane du maurier, and then she was gone OR watching you (both by Lisa Jewell)

fav book series? i guess the whole percy jackson situations? i have everything RR every wrote, and i liked it all but i havent touched the older ones in ages

comfort book? not one specifically but the nancy drew books

perfect book to read on a rainy day? bird summons by leila aboulela

5 quotes from your fav book that you know by heart? i hope i can name five...

1)  “The point is, life has to be endured, and lived. But how to live it is the problem.” “I am no traveller, you are my world.” (both are My Cousin Rachel by Daphne Du Maurier)

2)  “And I’m terrified he’ll see through the tough iceberg layer, and he’ll discover not a soft, sweet girl, but an ugly fucking disaster underneath.” (The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith)

3)  "I cannot make speeches, Emma," he soon resumed; and in a tone of such sincere, decided, intelligible tenderness as was tolerably convincing. "If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more. But you know what I am. You hear nothing but truth from me. I have blamed you, and lectured you, and you have borne it as no other woman in England would have borne it. Bear with the truths I would tell you now, dearest Emma, as well as you have borne with them. The manner, perhaps, may have as little to recommend them. God knows, I have been a very indifferent lover. But you understand me. Yes, you see, you understand my feelings and will return them if you can. At present, I ask only to hear, once to hear your voice.” (Emma by Jane Austen) (sorry for the length, the shortened versions were not cutting it for me)

4)  “Read, read, read. That's all I can say.” (The Secret of the Old Clock by Carolyn Keene)

5)  “...amazing how boring you can get away with being when you’re pretty. No one seems to notice. When you’re pretty everyone just assumes you must have a great life. People are so short-sighted, sometimes. People are so stupid. I have a dark past and I have dark thoughts. I do dark things and I scare myself sometimes.” (Invisible Girl by Lisa Jewell)

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first | reliable or unreliable narrator | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary (im a very judgmental reader) | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

fav tv/movie genre? i like dramedies, mockumentaries, and procedurals 

fav movie? ive got a massive list on my phone but ill pick Doob (No Bed of Roses) and 3-Iron as my favs for today

comfort movie? 2000s romcoms, im talking clueless, 13 going on 30, how to loe a guy in ten days, ten things i hate abt you, legally blonde

movie you watch every year? mamma mia and all listed in prev question

fav tv show? too many, currently im rewatching arrested development

comfort tv show? new girl

most rewatched tv show? new girl

ultimate otp? shawn and jules from psych (ultimate bc ive been watching since diapers literally)

5 fav characters? winston bishop, stiles stilinski, bellamy blake, clarke griffin, lydia martin

tv shows or movies | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons (22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging | one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half hour or one hour long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online

super fun even though it took me an hour lmao, I'm tagging @technosoot @hometothecanyonmoon @sassylilnoodle @sushiniall @rosegold-thorns no pressure and sorry if youve already been tagged!

edit: i somehow managed to forget what i consider to be one of the greatest opening verses ever???? so bonus lyrics:

Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog / Where no one notices the contrast of white on white / And in between the moon and you / The angels get a better view / Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right (Round Here - Counting Crows)

[teresa-moyocoyotzin]

short recap of my thoughts on 5x09

okay so i was gonna rewatch the whole episode and do a blow-by-blow reaction post but i’m not sure i’ll have time and i kinda wanna focus on watching my fave scenes from the show before tonight. also, everyone else’s reaction posts p. much sum up my thoughts lol 

nonetheless, i just wanted to give my main takeaways on the episode a week later, in case anyone cares where i’m at going into the finale! gonna go over the things i liked first, anyone who wants to just remain positive and not see any salty takes might wanna just stick to reading the first part b/c i definitely rant a bit at the end lmao. we’re still having a fun time tho 😂

THINGS I LOVED

- i mean... i think we know LOL

- obviously. i loved james and teresa’s i love you scenes, and kisses, and OOF THAT SEX SCENE. if someone had told me we were gonna get that scene back in like 2017??? i probably would have started literally floating. i totally respect that people had very specific ideas of what they wanted out of those scenes and could have different feelings about it but NOT ME BABES I AM ECSTATIC!!! i did go into the episode with a ~feeling~ that we were gonna get at least one ILY in the episode, and i just had a feeling it would be james, or at least that he would say it first. i’ve already explained in my meta about the scenes why i think it makes sense that he said it first and why i love it that he did, so i won’t go into that here. but i went in having really no expectations for it other than that it was gonna happen! i was debating about whether it would happen really casually while they’re talking, or in like a big action scene, or really dramatic or what, and what i would prefer, and i came to the conclusion that i would love it no matter what lol, but i was really into the idea of james just. fucking. saying it. while they’re just talking about something really casually. so therefore i was pretty happy with it when we got sort of a mix! they’re talking about teresa’s insane death trap of a plan so there’s that drama of “i don’t want to lose you esp. not before saying ILY” kinda thing, but it’s also just. so simple and sure! and then teresa’s i love you is like the perfect scene for me where one character is super focused on something else (in this case, trying to protect the woman he loves! agh!) and the other is just like.. i love you!!!! SO GOOD

- let’s see, what the hell else happened in this ep?

- oh okay i really liked james and teresa’s vibes this episode, they were so focused on each other and had this very ride-or-die feeling about them like they knew that each of their plans was increasingly stupid and desperate and might not even get them where they wanna go, but they were IN IT TOGETHER no matter what 😭i wish we had gotten a callback to that line but at this point, i’m p. sure they Know they’re in it together, and we do too. so it’s okay. i love that teresa still asks his input and considers his opinions even if she does her own thing anyways haha 

- oh on that note, i LOVED the moment where their plans to kill Kostya aren’t working and Teresa says something like “If I can meet with him in person, I can kill him myself” and James just has this LOOK that just is the epitome of the “I am in love with a women who is DESIGNED TO STRESS ME OUT” meme lol, it made me giggle, v classic QOTS moment 

- oh and of course, I LOVED that scene with devon and james at the end!!!!!!!! i was also confused about how james was showing all his emotions in that scene esp. since he tries to be stoic about his feelings for Teresa around Devon, but now that i’ve read a few people’s thoughts about, it i’m fully on board w the theory that james and teresa already knew this was coming, b/c they’re smart, and b/c james knows devon wouldn’t have let him walk away to save Teresa at the beginning of the season without motivation (like having him in place to kill her when she’s no longer useful to the CIA) and THEREFORE james was sort of “overacting” to make it believable to devon (and the audience lol) that he didn’t know this was coming, didn’t want to do it, but felt like he had to, rather than the fact that they were already plotting a fake death. that makes a lot of sense to me and makes me really love all the layers to that scene. it does give me a little bit of hope that the finale ~teresa’s not really dead~ reveal will be at least a little well executed and not just shoved in at the very end. we shall see though! 

- alright i think that’s what i loved about the episode, if u don’t wanna hear me bitching about the little things then u should probably stop here!! just have to get out some of my saltiness lol 

THINGS I WAS ANNOYED ABOUT

- i’m just gonna get it out of the way, yes, i too was supremely annoyed at the amount of KA and Pote take suburbia; it was all 1000% predictable down to the raccoon and the cookies, and the point could have been accomplished in exactly 1 scene, maybe 2, certainly not like 10 or however many we got. whatever. ugh. 

- okay. OKAY. chicho. we need to talk about chicho. i for one, am not mad that he called pote, my boy was stressed. I AM HOWEVER, mad at the writers for making pote come back after saying he trusted chicho to take care of teresa now. like. it totally devalued THE WHOLE THING!! imo, pote shoulda stayed his ass at home where we had to watch him settle all episode, and chicho should have gotten THE HERO MOMENT HE DESERVED (esp. cuz he’s on first name basis w teresa now??) which ALSO WOULD HAVE MADE THE SCENE WHERE TERESA GIVES CHICHO THE DISTILLERY AND THE BAR SO! MUCH! MORE! MEANINGFUL!!!!! or just made it make sense at all? like .... i’m just so confused by that whole plotline like what was the point? chicho does nothing but call pote and gets T’s whole legacy in NOLA? 

- and don’t even get me started on how it makes ZERO sense that pote would have had to charge in at the last minute to save teresa when JAMES THE SNIPER W AMAZING AIM WHO IS LITERALLY. IN LOVE WITH HER. is standing outside like. ur telling me james and chicho (who again, is supposed to be her #2 after james now) just stood there like “oh hey pote yeah you go ahead we’ll wait here good luck” like WHAT also.. how did pote get past all the guards that made james stay outside? are we meant to believe pote is that sneaky? y’all. it just. doesn’t make sense. this whole plot situation maddens me more than anythings tbh UGH JUST MAKE IT MAKE SENSE 

- oksana’s daughter..... what’s her name again? idk b/c we only MET HER THIS WEEK....okay this amuses me but i’m also annoyed b/c like. there were so many other women who could have taken that spot in the opening sequence... Lil T, Castel, hell even Isabela??? Like idk how they could have done it but they put so much effort into her plot in the first seasons that i really thought she was gonna end up w/ Teresa in the end.. idk that would have been kind cool, Camila’s two “daughters” eventually working their way out of the life together..again idk how they could have realistically done it but i really do wish it had been someone we met before. if it had to be someone new this season, they could have introduced her earlier instead of one of the seemingly dozens of random guys we knew for 1 episode before they died... like.. give her some depth please. is she even gonna be in the finale? honestly she better be after making us listen to pote welcome her into the family... like the family u were supposed to leave so u could have an actual baby pote? the family that’s literally dispersing as we speak? also.. since when did pote love oksana so much anyways? also...... just.. if teresa’s gonna have some sort of daughter figure or whatever she’s supposed to be, wouldn’t it make sense to have her be the one to give the big welcome to the family speech? idk y’all..... i’m amused but also baffled at the sheer lack of planning behind this. did no one realize they needed someone for the opening scene until like. halfway thru the season? did they plan to have it be castel but they couldn’t get her for filming (hence all the weird castel plots?) INQUIRING MINDS WOULD LIKE TO KNOW. it’s whatever tho lol 

- i just hope that what’s-her-name gets a lil bit of plot in the finale esp. since otherwise it might just be pote running around being pissy (i don’t actually think that haha but i am a lil nervous that teresa won’t come back until the last few mins and i’ll have to spend all episode looking at boaz and devon and pote and KA.. i haven’t looked at any spoilers tho so i’m still hopeful! i will probably make a post about my hopes going into the finale a lil later, both realistic and unrealistic :) 

[ramonadecember]

Here’s one for my very favorite gremlin elf Fae 👀🔪

2, 3, 10, 13, 14, 16, 21, 25, 32, 34, 38

oc asks.

it took me forever to find pics of Faenrir that WEREN'T memes lmao.

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2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like? / 3. What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

I’m combining these because a lot if the same for both. Fae wasn’t like… neglected or anything, he was cared for growing up, but he knows he’s not the favorite child in the family. In fact, he knows he’s the family disappointment. Not only can he not do more than a basic spell of the ‘right’ kind of magic (healing), but he was constantly getting into trouble (ranging in severity), and it put an even bigger strain on their relationship than Fae not feeling good enough/being treated as equal to his other siblings already did. It’s complicated now, because Fae didn’t leave home under good terms, but his parents do miss him. He’s still their son.

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

Based on both his sluttier tendencies and his feral nature you’d think he wouldn’t mind/would prefer being in the buff, but that’s not really the case. As someone who’s been made to feel like he doesn’t have much worth past being a pretty face, he doesn’t like to be… ogled. And more layers tend to help with that. He wears his armor like, ya know… armor. To be exposed is to, ya know… be exposed.

13. Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Blood doesn’t bother him. Everyone else in his family exceeds at healing, so he was brought up around the sick and injured, and even though that’s not where he shines, magically speaking, Fae was still expected to help out in other ways. No real room to be squeamish.

14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?

Faces for sure. The important contacts are filed away, but it’s easier for him to remember ‘the woman with the handsome features that gave me a deal on enchantments’ or ‘the blue-eyed sure thing always at the inn’ than it is names for him (and as far as the latter example goes… there’s a lot like that, where to Fae, it’s not even worth learning the name).

16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

Happiness. He’s already accepted that he’s never going to amount to much, so he doesn’t worry about ‘success.’ With whatever he’s doing, he has to ask himself if it’s what makes him happy, what would make him happy, and what that even looks like to him.

21. If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

Fae is quick to blame other people when bad things happen. He exhibits a lot of… questionable behavior, but has some reason why (he thinks) it’s justifiable, so when something goes wrong, it can’t possibly be HIS fault. He’s not one to take responsibility for his decisions. It might stem from the fact that he actually HAS had a lot of bad stuff befall him that he honestly hasn’t deserved. This is him trying to… balance out the universe or something (it’s Fae Logic, it doesn’t have to make sense).

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

He’s suspicious by nature of just about everyone. Fae expects everyone to have the worst motives/intentions because of how many times he’s been screwed over in the past, he always thinks people are up to something. It’s not entirely fair to the decent people who have since come into his life, but the wariness remain. At least that way he can say ‘I told you so’/no one can tell him that when (inevitably, in his mind) things go wrong.

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

Anytime someone shows him genuine kindness without expecting anything in return. Fae always feels like he needs to… pay people back if they do anything nice for him, he doesn’t like to have ‘debts.’ It goes back to always being suspicious of people’s motives because of how he’s been treated in the past. In his mind, why would people just… do something for you and expect nothing back? Makes him highly uncomfortable.

34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

Fae is impatient and gets frustrated easily, so if something isn’t working, he’s not going to spend a lot of time doing the same thing over and over. He’s actually a pretty creative problem solver, so while the frustration may still remain when things don’t just work how he wants them to, he can usually figure something out.

38. Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

Remove himself! In actual conflict, flight wins out over fight 9/10 times for Fae. He’s a sneaky little thief, he prefers not to engage unless he really has to (and even then he tries to be non-lethal). He’s not a very big strong dude, he doesn’t need to risk not coming out on top of that fight. (It’s worth noting, however, that this mentality does NOT apply to throwing himself headfirst into tavern brawls and being a scrappy little shit during the process)

[majoringinsarcasm]

I just realized I haven’t been looking at the episodes descriptions but I now kind of like how I don’t really know what’s going on. So I will continue to be mostly clueless because that’s more fun.

S1E4: Ceuf (so it means egg if spelled Oeuf or something but Google is also confused by this episode title. So let’s just say. Bad Egg which I have no doubt will feel appropriate in 40 minutes)

His little house is like a boat on the water it’s where he feels safe don’t touch me

The double voice effect is coooool

IMAGINE BEING THE CHILD I hate this actually

FUCKING LMAO LAMO JACK JACK OH MY FOD ITS SO COOL FROM WILLS POV BUT THE CUT TO JACK JUST LOOKING AT THIS FUCKING DUDE J CSNT

Bringing homemade sausage to feed your good buddy’s dogs, play on his piano and snoop in his home.

Why did you prick yourself you absolute freak of nature

I forget that Hannibal and Alana are like, friendly / friends and it’s like. This man had so many connections but it was all layered; nobody got down to the basement level. Until they did. And it freaked him out

JIMMY HAS A TWIN??????????

Will being an only child is like sure whatever. Alana has brothers, Zeller has sisters, Bev has a big family and JIMMY HAS A TWIN??? Hannibal I know had a sister all we need is to know if Jack had a big family too what the hell

BEVS ok I. That ha to be a saying right did Bev’s sister actuall get away with murder or does she mean that figuratively

Uncomfortable family talk love it hate it very much

LOL THE SMASH CUT TO THE RUNNING MAN NO

“Our friend Will seems haunted today.”

MY BELOVED FINALLY HAS HER HAIR PINNED UP THANK GOODNESS

SO

This is very upsetting wow ok. Lost Boys. Children murdering their families. Or something like it. Don’t. Mmmm. Bad bad bad bad the holiday setup feels worse somehow also is it December??? What is the timeline for this show what month is it looked like autumn when Abigail and Alana were talking

Oh this woman I would kill her with my bare fucking hands how dare you how. I hate. Children being hurt is horrific and I want to drown her

Seeetie pie I’m gonna fucking gag

BKMB

They are best friends please

I HATE THIS VERY MUCH LWGIT HATE KT PLEASE END ALREADY

Hannibal: Will is the responsible father who is afraid to get close to you. I’m the cool dad who gives you mushroom tea.

I don’t know how to properly put this emotion into words but lonely only child Will vs middle children in well to do families and their capture mother. The pieces are there

He’s so charming! Cook me breakfast for dinner!!

I. HATE. THIS. SO. MUCH

WILL PUT SOMW FUCKING HUSTLE INTO YOUR STRIDE

If this little boy dies I’m suing

Kill this bitch kill her right fucking now

BKMB WITH THE SHOT

Don’t give a grieving teen mushroom tea

BELLA CRAWFORD HI BELLA

Oh honey oh Bella

A bicep to soothe the pain thank you

Final Thoughts: FUCK THAT EPISODE I HATED THAT EPISODE I want that abductor dead I don’t care I hate her. Uhhh fuck idk Hannibal and Abigail have a fun dynamic, Will knows he too has no family of humans, I’m once again sad about Jack and. Idk. Alana was serving I liked seeing her even if I do find the inevitable funny and messed up. I like that for the most part each case is wrapped up within the episode very monster of the week vibes. Hate when children are hurt, so that was horrific. Bev and Hannibal are both eldest siblings. That's interesting. Don’t wanna watch this one again!

[astrojoy]

Hiii again

I have another question about auras.

You know how we all have our own auras right? Is it unique and limited to our soul or is it based on our moods

You know how our soul is the spiritual part of ourselves and has no ego since its us in our "purest" form. Does this mean that even when we are hurt,angry,sad or betrayed our aura don't change?

Lemme tell you why.

There are times that I asked for a reading and I wa hurting but I would still get complimented on i have a nice vibe and I'm like," is that my soul never gets tainted that even with normal human emotions, a good vibe will always be/remain a good vibe,?^*"

If you don't understand what I said understandable(if you don't understand what I said, understandable. Why am I like this👽)

I can send an ask trying to explain again 😪🤧

Oh no your totally good!! I love discussing stuff like this in life. It gets the mind moving and adds questions

Actually that's quite funny because that's correct! So technically it's both ways. At least from my experience.

So we have our earth/physical auras, these ones are the ones that people can detect when we are with someone physically. The most outer layer aura changes constantly depending on someone's mood. Your sad? Prepare to make you environment a little emotional (which is why you see empathy easily effected by the environment and auras) The "2nd layer" from what I've seen usually consists of a few different colors for a person. Some people have 2-4 colors that best represent them and stuff like that, sometimes one of those main colors shows at certain times as well. Like for me I have 3 main colors in my 2nd layer, teal/turqoise - yellow - rarely pink but like I said before I've noticed some of them only show it'self sometimes. An example is my 2nd layer will turn yellow when I meet strangers, show that I act very optimistic, charismatic and stuff with them when we approach each other

The inner layer is a more prominent aura. This aura usually never goes away unless a huge change happens in life, but I've seen people normally still gain it back or keep it throughout their lives. An example is I've only seen one color for me in my inner layer, which consists of white

(tarot readings help confirm your aura colors and speculations about them btw! That's how I clarified it when I noticed then asked my guides)

So actually really quick to add on to this. Since this is personal beliefs as well on such a topic like this, as I've said before where I've had visions and etc. Well I've had a funny strange moment before. I laid down to meditate and luckily it went well but suddenly all I saw was my arms floating in front of me, kinda hard to see them though. Everything around me was pure white and super bright. I saw smidges of strings of gold floating gently around as well. I didn't have any emotion during this, how would I? LMAO I was confused and curious. I was just taking this all in. Then I heard a spirits voice. It was a woman and her voice came from my right, I never saw her at the time. She said "you have a beautiful soul" in awe as if she was just taking it all in or something

Then as soon as she ended the sentence, I opened my eyes and put my hand on my chest, I couldn't explain it but needed to write it down. A new discovery in my book

So since I dealt with this personally I believe our soul has it's own vibe/color or "aura" ya know? I can't really discuss anything more though because I've never been able to see someone's soul besides myself I guess?, just people's vibes 😳💖 so you were totally correct. Our soul most likely has its own sphere of what makes our "identity" our "energy" while our earthly is who we are in that life or something. If it makes you feel better I've actually had the same circumstances in readings. Sometimes I had been sad but I had ended up with my reading telling me the total opposite 👋🤡

A disclaimer for anyone who reads this. Its totally ok if you disagree, I don't expect many people to. We all have different experiences and I acknowledge that. This was just my point of view on the matter. Feel free to leave this post behind, but don't leave hate 💖

[vickylamore]

This Park Is Greener Than Others [1]

Lawyer AU, Prosecutor AU, Trial AU, Police AU

TW: Language, Mentions Of Murder, Mentions Of Death, Mentions of Gore, Underlines of Misogyny, Underlines of Sexism and Inappropriate Behaviour

Pairing: Lawyer! Jimin x Prosecutor! Female! Reader

Genre: Enemies To Lovers, Crime/Mystery

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Word Count: 3.7k

[This Park Is Greener Than Others Mini Masterlist] [Main Masterlist]

Summary: You were given the okay to start your investigation and build your case when a young woman was brutally murdered in a motel room, the main suspect being her ex-boyfriend. You have your suspect, you have your witnesses and you have your evidence. All you have to do now is present your case, right? Of course, it would’ve been easy if a certain Park hadn’t appeared when you got everything figured out. Not only does he bring turmoil to your case but to your heart as well.

Notes: For those who have been following me for a little over seven months... you guys remember me posting this but never finishing it? Cause that’s excaltly what I did. But now, I have some spare time on my hands so why not finish it. It’s been a hot minute since I posted BTS content too. For those who’s read the first chapter, it’s completely different now :) with a new plot and added characters and better writing (ish... it’s like 4 am LMAO). I’ll be tagging @armytinyzenmoa​ @threeletterslife​ and @totally-real-bts-quotes​ because they were in my original tag list. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: Please remember that this is a work of fiction and solely fiction. Any of the idols written and mentioned in this series would never take part in these actions, let alone stand by/condone them. The idols mentioned are merely used as characters and in no way am I saying that this is how they act in real life.

This will contain blood, gore, death, injuries and anything else of that sort because we are diving into the “police/trial” world with this fic. Reading is at your own discretion, especially in the next chapters. Again, none of the idols named will never take part in the situations and scenarios, I’m only using them as face claims.

“Doesn’t matter, it shouldn’t even matter what he says. You know better than to take his testimony.”

“But that’s the thing you don’t get,” you spoke into the phone, nodding your head to the person who opened the door for you as you walked into the precinct. “One, we need his testimony in order to know his flawed side of the story,” you shrugged. “Whether we get his testimony or not, the case is pretty much set in stone. Whatever he says won’t change the outcome.”

“You haven’t even talked to him yet.”

“I’m doing so right now,” you chuckled, throwing the empty cup of coffee in the trash. You pressed the phone towards your ear, his voice getting more and more frustrated. 

“He isn’t going to budge. The guy isn’t stupid.”

“Maybe,” you nodded, “but he’ll have to talk eventually, whether with me or at the trial. Even if he doesn’t say anything now, there has to be some sort of record of him saying something we can use.”

Walking through the second set of double doors, you were immediately met with the buzzing of cellphones, chatters from various conversations but the television, which was switched to the news channel, was the loudest among all the noise.

“Latest news today; Lim Area, age twenty-three pharmacist and a good samaritan was found dead in an occupied room at the Dark Blues Motel around ten last night. Police have arrested a person at the scene of the crime, no further details have been released to the public. Police are asking anyone with information to come forward or contact crime stoppers.”

“You heard the news,” you asked your partner, settling in line in front of the registration and visitors section.

“Yeah, it’s everywhere, the media doesn’t let us fucking breath,” he agreed with you, “still don’t understand why the court decided to put a rush on this one. It doesn’t make any sense.”

“The court with does what the court wants,” you sighed in defeat, “just means that we need to gather as much info as we can and work our asses off before the trial Monday.”

“Gives us an entire week to prepare. Alright, I’ll see you later.”

Hanging up the call, you immediately felt dozens of eyes land on either your hair, your attire or your badge secured in your dress pants’ front pocket. It’s not like you hated the attention; you were just getting it for all the wrong reasons. It wasn’t something you could control, someone either always wanted you for their own advantages or your body, that’s how you feel right now with a couple of hungry eyes roaming you up and down.

The line was long but was shortening rather quickly. The frequent sound of squeaking shoes irked your ears; since it was just raining outside, most didn’t have umbrellas to keep them dry. Thankfully, the sun was now out and brimming through the windows of the department, a dull but bright layer of sunlight shining on the side of your face, highlighting your breathtaking features. You glanced around the lobby of the police division, earning glances from the officers exiting the building. You chuckled under your breath and ran a hand through your hair, a smug grin on your lips. 

“In other news, Seoul’s prosecutor’s office releases a new statement in regards to yesterday’s incident with one of their top prosecutors, apologizing for the quoted “misunderstanding”.”

“Next,” the voice that spoke was loud and gruff, yet when you lifted your eyes, you were met with a man younger than you, one you’ve never seen before, waiting impatiently for you to approach the counter. He seemed to ponder on your body a lot longer than the other visitors, who all happened to be male, before clearing his throat. “Reason for your visit?”

“Classified.” You uttered, opening your phone and shooting the sergeant a text. “Just call the head of the department, he knows why I’m here.” 

Even if you were here quite frequently, you will never not be mesmerized by the allure of the department; the walls were a light brown-gold colour with the counter being a light black colour, adding lure when looking around. The walking space was vast, understandable since this was one of the biggest precincts in the capital. The walls were decorated with alumni and fallen officers who passed in combat, the rest was decorated with a waiting room were more than thirty people can sit at a time without it becoming crowded.

“Reason for your visit.”

You raised your eyebrows at his awfully harsh tone, “I already said; classified.”

“Miss, don’t make me ask again. Unless you’re registered on the list, I can’t let you in.”

“You must be new here, right?” The man quickly stopped talking, arms folded over his chest. Your fingers typed away the last few words before stuffing your phone in your pocket, alerting your partner that you’d pass by the office later with, hopefully, new information. When you lifted your eyes to look at the rookie, you focused on his name tag. You noticed the small shirt in his eyes at which you rolled your eyes.

“Minhyun, is it?” You leaned onto the counter, taking off your sunglasses and smirked. “Listen, kid, if you looked at the list in front of you and turned to the next page, you’ll see an entire slot that has big bold red letters that scream ‘classified’. I’m on that list, number 500462.”

“A video of one of their top prosecutors, prosecutor Song (Y/n), was released to the public earlier this morning explaining the near scandal she was in early this week.”

Out of all the times the news broadcast could be saying your name, they chose now. The scandal wasn’t even a scandal, you accidentally brushed your hand on a high ranking officer during a charity event and people took it the wrong way. Of course, it cleared up when things were getting out of hand but people were so quick to judge you without hearing what you have to say.

“Oh!” He quickly dropped the piles of paper on the desk, flashing you a smirk, “of course, how could I forget such a well-known detective?”

“Prosecutor.”

He shrugged, “same thing.” 

Of course, when you tell people who you are, they’d always change their attitude towards you, just like the male you had the dishonourable pleasure of talking to. Even if you were known and your office was extremely popular for putting numerous criminals behind bars, it gave no one the right to treat you any different and with chivalry.

It was quite annoying and one of the many reasons why you hated travelling from one location to another; not only did you introduce yourself time and time again, people were so quick to change their entire personality as a way to impress you.

“Dinner? Or are you lunch kind of girl?” You clenched your jaw when his hand slid across the counter to touch yours, almost intertwining your fingers together. Pulling your hand back, you gripped your handbag tighter as his smirk grew larger, his green eyes lighting up at your somewhat uncomfortable expression. “Oh, is the prosecutor shy?”

“Yes, actually,” you sighed in a sweet voice as you watched him getting closer, leaning over the desk to listen to your frail and vulnerable voice. “I’m really, really not shy for putting your ass in fucking jail if you don’t stop acting like a sexual predator.” Grabbing the collar of his uniform, you slammed him against the table, picked up a pen behind the counter and signed your name in the visitors’ chart. 

“Word of advice,” you whispered into Minhyun’s ear, a twisted innocent smile on your lips. “When you’re talking to anyone, especially to a woman with more power than nearly anyone in this fucking precinct, I’d suggest you not only think about your predatorial words but keep your eyes where I can see them.”

You left the room and made your way towards the detective’s hall, a specific hallway for promoted police officers who finally had the chance of making detective. The multiple gazes on your back made your skin crawl but your face stayed completely blanket, the occasional lip tilt when you head Minhyun groaned when he got up from the desk.

You’ve always wanted to be a prosecutor; to you, putting dangerous people behind bars was one of the most rewarding things someone could do (of course, it depends on what the individual has done). However, you weren’t expecting so much sexism in the work field, especially when someone is fighting for the same goal as everyone else. 

You also considered before a detective, so Minhyun wasn’t entire wrong but still acted horribly. Most of the detectives were older, a lot stricter and hardworking individuals who took their jobs seriously. More than you? Maybe, but that was only in some cases. You didn’t even like the older detectives, a lot of them were full of themselves and thought they were the best when in reality, they really were horrible. 

Though, you couldn’t say the same about the newest generation.

Your heels clicked on the white tiles as you made it to the end of the blue hall, knocked a few times before opening the door to the room and inviting yourself in. The room had five desks loaded with a computer, a desk, an office chair and stationery. You knew what it was for, they were new recruits. However, only two had nameplates on them.

New blood, much more passionate than the older generation. You knew who some they were, having seen them a couple of times while running errands. They were fairly young too, around the same age you started but still really young to be named detective. To be really technical, however, only two of them are detectives, the rest are still working their way up to that level.

You let yourself into the office and walked straight for the folder lying on one of the desks, sitting on the spinning chair and skimming through the files. They weren’t any case reports of any sort, it was specifically the case of the trial you’ve been appointed to, the one that was happening in less than a week.

Usually, you’d have a minimum of two weeks to work on the witness reports, the examination, gathering the evidence etc. But for some reason, the crown decided to rush this case, giving you less than a week to prepare. You only had today and tomorrow to do your initial investigating before you need to piece together a timeline, gather your evidence and have a listing of your witnesses. It wasn’t stressful, at least to you, but you wondered why it happened so suddenly, why did the court decide to give you such little time?

You started reading the files in the folder, fully immersed in the information you currently have; 

The victim (same on mentioned on the news): Lim Aera, 24, pharmacy student.

Description: Back hair, blue eyes, Asian and Caucasian descent, 5”7, 123 lbs.

Killed in a booked room in Dark Blues Motel, right across from the Michelin star restaurant which is famous for its dangerous knives, fire and item throwing skills. 

It is believed that the victim’s boyfriend killed her for a reason still unknown.

Forensics concluded that she died between 9:30 pm and 10:00 pm.

The main cause of death was blunt force trauma to the head (instant), signs of strangulation and struggle are shown based on the marks on her neck, ears, wrists, knuckles and ankles, the room was also in a mess when found.

“...he said she walked into here but I don’t see her.”

“I wouldn’t be surprised, the door is open.” 

The door opened with two pairs of footsteps walked into the room, the door shutting behind them. You didn’t bother glancing at them, only closing the file and getting up, “I’m guessing the sergeant sent you both to bring me towards the suspect.” One of the males nodded his head from which you saw from the corner of your eyes. You shouldn’t leave stuff like this unattended, especially if the door is unlocked. It risks liability if someone ever decided to tamper with the information, alright?”

“Got it, prosecutor.”

You finally looked at the two, your eyes slightly widening to seeing them in their uniforms, looking a lot older than they are. The first one looked slightly younger, only because his eyes looked more innocent than the other, he was slightly taller as well. His black hair was completely different from his partner’s blue hair but somehow created a favourable contrast and a way to differentiate them from each other. The one with blue hair was just shorter than the other but also older, whether it was because of his sharp features or the way he stood, you couldn’t figure it out. Or maybe it was the busted lip. Despite that, they had a friendly feeling to them, a lot less cold and sudden than their first impression of you. You knew they were the new detectives, which would explain the plates on two of the desks.

“Tell me, which one of you is Soobin?” Both men look up, slightly startled by the mention of the leader’s name. You chuckled under your breath while getting up, finding their reaction a little cute. “It says so on the nameplates, so I’m just asking.”

“Oh,” the taller one cleared his throat and stuck his hand out, “I’m Soobin, this is Yeonjun.” You shook his hand when you made your way over to them. 

“Heard a lot of the both of you,” you mentioned as you pull your bag further up your shoulder. “Both graduated high school and the academy a few years in advance right? Which is why you guys are detectives now.”

“Yes ma’am,” Yeonjun nodded his head while opening the door, “we’re now waiting for the other three to rank up and we’ll have our unit, or that’s what the boss says.” Humming and thanking the blue-haired male for opening the door for you, you followed Soobin down the hallway towards the interrogation room. 

You remembered when you were like them; young and so full of passion and exhilarant. It’s not like you’re saying that you don’t have those anymore but your passion turned into a craze for winning each and every case, it all happened right after your first win. You fell into a downhill spiral of wanting total control of how things were done that you became more and more bossy and snarky when talking to others. You tried to hide it but sometimes it’ll be beyond your own control.

“Do you guys know anything else about the victim?”

“She has a boyfriend,” you nodded despite already knowing the valuable piece of information, “this was only uncovered when we went through her phone, which was unlocked at the scene of the crime.”

“Her phone was already unlocked?” You asked Soobin, “was it planted?”

“We don’t know,” the younger of the two admitted, “whoever did it, whether it was planned or not contributed to the investigation because the last thing she posted on her Instagram was a picture of her and her boyfriend.”

“Who’s in custody right now,” concluded Yeonjun.

When the three of you got to the interaction hallway, Soobin opened a door and you quickly stepped inside, immediately capturing the image of the suspect in Lim Aera’s case as well of Kim Namjoon, sergeant of the department and chief of the new unit of young detective that’ll be forming in some time.

You immediately put your bag on the table and sit on the desk, crossing your legs as you rummage through the folder, rummaging through multiple files before landing on the one you were searching for. “How long have they been talking?”

“About fifteen minutes,” said Soobin, standing in front of the two-way mirror with his arms crossed. “But the guy’s stubborn, really stubborn.”

“I’m not going to ask again and no, it’s not a game.” You heard Namjoon sign from the other side of the room, a speaker connected so you could hear them but they couldn’t you. “I have two of my men see you leaving the scene of the crime with blood on your shirt and hands, not only that but you didn’t comply with their orders. You can come clean right now and I can bargain à tell with the prosecutor taking your case.”

“When he said ‘his men’, what does he means by?” 

“Soobin and I are the ones who apprehended him,” Yeonjun answered your question while sitting on top of the table, next to you. He ran a hand through his hair before straightening his blue and black uniform. “We were eating at the Michelin star restaurant across the motel we were walking back to Soobin’s car, we saw this man, the one in there right now, covered in blood.”

Turning towards you, Soobin continued, looking at you through the reflection. “At first, we thought he was hurt until we got a report of a suspect that matched his exact description so we chased him down, fought a little before apprehending him.”

Chuckling, you pointed at Yeonjun’s lip, “Is that why your bottom lip’s busted?”

Before he even responds, a loud thump emitted from the other room, making all your heads snapping to see what was happening. 

Kim Taehyung, age twenty-four, the primary suspect in the murder of Lim Aera, aggressively bangs the table at which his cuffed, unable to get up without removing them. Both rookie detectives straighten their posture as you listen in to their conversation.

“I already fucking told you, I didn’t do shit and I didn’t kill her! Why do you think it’s me?” 

Taehyung had beautiful blonde hair and bright brown eyes, his face resembling one of a model. His eyes, however, held so much frustration and anger while his neck and ears turn red. The man wasn’t unknown to the system; he had multiple priors and a criminal record as a teenager. Even if he served his time and hasn’t done anything too illegal to put him behind bars again, he does do street racing, is the ringleader of multiple underground and sold pills to struggling teenagers.

Although, that’s what the rumours say. They’re only whispers of what he’s doing now but no one has concrete proof of what he does in his spare time.

“Taehyung,” Namjoon, who was already started to get frustrated, leaning onto the table, chin resting on his knuckles. “You have priors, you have a long record. Do you really think people are going to ignore that, especially since you’re her boyfriend?”

“Ex.”

“What?” You whispered, eyes widening slightly as you took note, “Did he just saw ex?”

With a clenched jaw, Soobin muffled, “yeah.”

“We broke up four months ago,” the young male grumbled under his breath, looking away from the sergeant, “she has a new boyfriend, two months actually, she just never posts about it.”

“Motive.” Talking to yourself, you grabbed your phone and sent a text message to your partner. While doing so, you addressed the detectives, “when this is done, see if you guys can find his Instagram, Twitter or even Facebook. Anything that looks out of the ordinary in the last four months, keep it.”

“Got it, boss,” Soobin nodded while glancing at Yeonjun, “contact his friends too, they might know something we don’t and it might help us later on.”

“I’m going to do that and try to find her boyfriend and bring him in for questioning.”

Both rookies left the room, discussing their plan for the next few hours. You smiled softly, satisfied with the work they’re completing and, at the same time, overviewing the case in order to fix loose ends. You had faith in the two, as well as the three who are waiting to be promoted.

“Do you know why?”

Taehyung was an interesting man; even if he’s saying he’s innocent, he doesn’t want to cooperate with the authorities, which is the last thing anyone should do if they’re one-hundred percent innocent. Is he hiding something? If yes, what? And why? Is it worth it and risk yourself going to jail?

“As if I’m telling you.” Taehyung scoffed under his breath, “I want a lawyer. I already have one so just contact him. I’m not speaking anymore.” You were going to protest that you didn’t get a chance to talk to the suspect yet when Minhyun, the male from earlier, knocked on the door where Namjoon was and informed him that Taehyung’s lawyer just got here.

Even if you did grumble under your breath, perhaps you could talk to his lawyer and strike a deal. It would be challenging, especially if the lawyer is just as stubborn as you or even worse. Whether it included stubbornness or not, you knew that lawyers always wanted the best for their clients. A way to do that is to work with the prosecution and strike the best deal for their client.

You grabbed your bag and walked out the second form to the investigation you, running a tired hand through your hair.

Only for you to stop once you turn to face the entrance and see one person you never expected you’d see again.

His eyes seemed the widen when his gaze fell on you, the very same expression plastered on his face as you clench your jaw, anger clouding your thoughts. He hated even changed a bit, with the exemption of getting taller but you didn’t that you’d go up against him, again.

You didn’t think he’d walk back into you’re life, again.

Not only that but he’s your one-way ticket to hell if you can’t prove that Kim Taehyung is the killer, the one that killed Aera.

Of course, someone has to ruin your plans.

And that someone had to be Park Jimin.

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Taglist:  @armytinyzenmoa​​ @threeletterslife​​ and @totally-real-bts-quotes​​

[consumedkings-archive]

🌲🌼💦 for Arden, Isolde, Helmi, Santi, and Varya please ☺️💜

LICI thank u for spoiling me as u have done always!!!!! so happy to share the bebes with u <3 partially under the cut for length & eds, infertility, prev trauma etc!

i am breaking this up into two parts because it is SO MANY my love for u is endless lici

soft oc asks!

🌲 how deeply does your oc feel? are they typically empathetic or do they have a hard time connecting with others in this way? what are they like when offering support and comfort to someone they care for?

this one is a bit of a tricky one! ade's brain tends to run on different frequencies a lot; things that most people would consider important are often written off as non-crucial and left to the wayside to leave room in her brain for what she thinks is "need-to-know". that being said, arden is exceptionally perceptive! she spends a lot of time reading people and seeing people and gauging their reactions, so even though something she says might come across as callous or unfeleing, rest assured she is cataloguing someone's response to it all the same. i think she can be empathetic, a lot of the time, but almost exclusively for the people that she has tabbed or bookmarked as "important" in her brain--and that number is quite small.

when it comes to comforting those few folks who make it through the 9 circles of hell layers of vetting her brain does to prioritize information, ade tries her hardest to be a place of safety. more than anything, she thinks it's important that people have that--a place of no judgment, a place where someone can listen. all of those people watching skills kick in full force and use when someone she loves is under duress. that being said, she's still going to be painfully straightforward, but that's better than not being listened to at all!

🌼 who are this character's friends and found family? how did they meet, how long have they been friends for, could they ever be something more than just friends? what do they look for in a friend or a romantic partner?

arden's friends tend to be few and far between. not for any reason other than that the woman is just plain busy. if she's not at work at the clinic, she's going to (or sometimes hosting) virtual and in-person lectures, working on her third degree, spending time with her dogs. she's got a lot on her plate and that doesn't leave a lot of room for friends. i wouldn't even go so far as to say that arden is really friends with any of jacob's siblings, except for maybe faith; joseph she regards as a hard-to-measure variable, and john--in the gentlest way possible--she almost never thinks about at all.

pre-reaping, i would say the closest person she had to a friend that wasn't jacob would have been either dutch or sharky. dutch, because they just vibe, and sharky because the man is such a lovable idiot, how could you not? the amount of times sharky would ask her about medical issues or injuries he'd sustained and she'd have to remind him she's an "animal doctor" are boundless.

💦 if you as the writer could erase one traumatic event from this oc’s life what would it be and why?

definitely would be the years that arden spent battling her eating disorder. if not for the grief it caused her, also because the extensive amount of damage it did and the resulting infertility. as fun as it is for arden to "schedule" sex with jacob for when she's "most fertile" (lmao), the infertility treatments are painful and each time she realizes it didn't take is another blow to her emotions.

🌲 how deeply does your oc feel? are they typically empathetic or do they have a hard time connecting with others in this way? what are they like when offering support and comfort to someone they care for?

isolde would like to say that she feels nothing at all, at any point in time, unless she absolutely wants to, but we all know that's wrong. girlfriend has GOT to be in control of literally anything she is involved with and this is because she has pretty potent emotions. i would say, though, that soli is quite adept at keeping herself in check when it comes to anything that isn't like, telling john to eat shit. she doesn't like getting rattled. in that vein i think she has a hard time connecting with people who openly wear their emotions--she struggles to do that so it's hard for her to empathize with that. and boy HOWDY is this girl UNCOMFY!!! when someone confides in her or needs comforting. lmao.

🌼 who are this character's friends and found family? how did they meet, how long have they been friends for, could they ever be something more than just friends? what do they look for in a friend or a romantic partner?

you know, soli is actually on really good terms with her family. her parents are in love, and loving; her sister is her best friend in every sense of the word. even though isolde works hard to keep people at arm's length, i think she's (begrudgingly) a loving person and that means that by proximity she ends up making friends. also, she would argue that she's quite hilarious and thus everyone should want to be her friend! outside of her family i think she's closest with john and jacob, even over joseph--john, because they went to uni together and business together and she made him get clean before he went back to hope county, and jacob because they just vibe well. they have an understanding and they get each other's sense of humor. unfortunately for john, isolde would not fuck him if someone offered her a million dollars.

@vasiktomis is convinced jacob and isolde want to bang it out i will leave that up for speculation

💦 if you as the writer could erase one traumatic event from this oc’s life what would it be and why?

this kind of goes without saying but you know, her entire marriage with alec. not even specifically like, the parts of them where he put his hands on her--but the emotional duress of the entire thing. dragging his ass through court. smashing his face with a face. taking him for half of his networth. but mostly, explaining to her parents that the man she'd been with for almost 15 years had been getting physical with her almost the entire time.