#i actually reposted something like that on my fb

[flwoie]

bruh how does kayla not expect me to avoid him like have u seen that man 😊 he's the type of dude i would run away from and talk about him in my diary if we made eye contact

[sugajimin]

unhelpful tips and resources for gifs&gfxs

Hi everyone, I don’t know how useful this post will be but I wanted to share some of the things I learned through the years of creating content for tumblr and also new information I find every now and then. I see lot of new people who start creating content here and I want to help with what I know.

Note: I won’t upload any tutorial of mine or anything because I believe the resources I will link here will be more useful than just a tutorial that I won’t be able to explain well because English is not my first language. Let’s start!

First of all, few words about tumblr and how it works. Tumblr is a site with many communities. Every user has its own blog that can post many kinds of content, including a text,photo,video,audio,art etc. When you first join the site it might be overwhelming but in reality, it is not (*whispers* I personally find instagram harder to understand how it works). 

Like every site tumblr has its own search bar, tags, likes, reblogs(share on fb,rt on twitter),and follows. When you search a blog to follow and you see their posts you can like their post by tapping on the heart and share(reblog) by clicking on the two arrows button that looks like the recycle icon. 

What does reblog mean and do? 

Reblog is as we said the “share the post” of facebook, with reblog you don’t repost someone’s content but you share it with your followers and help it to be seen bymore people that way you actually help the creator to promote their creations. 

Likes

Unlike, instagram,twitter and facebook, when you like something the website doesn’t recommend the post to your followers unless they go to your blog via their phone and go to your likes page, if you have it unlocked, so basically, likes don’t help with supporting creators as much as reblog does. 

Tags

Tagging system on tumblr, in my opinion, is pretty fun both for the op of a post and for the reblogger. With tagging you can organize all the posts on your blog by anything you like. For example, if you tag artworks as #art and you want to find a certain artwork you reblogged a time ago you can just go to the tag and find it. 

For op you can use tags the same way as other sites to promote your work, as I remember the first 5 tags will be shown on the general tag like if you search on tumblr #artwork and you have the tag #artwork on the first 5 it will be shown there.. but I am not sure if this changed.

Creating a post 

As you can see from your dashboard(timeline on twitter) you have the option to create a text form post, a photo form post.. etc. You can experiment with all of these, don’t be afraid. I will focus on photo form posts because we will talk about gifs and gfxs.

The photo form(with the camera icon) post, is what most content creators use to post their creations like designs/graphics,art/fanart/photography, and gifs.

The site allows you to post 10 photos(if you want to post more I think Text form allows more). 

The size of your photos and gifs must be under 20mb for photos and under 10mb for gifs. 

As for dimension, tumblr has its own dimension but you can always post whichever you want, the bad thing is that the quality will be reduced on the dashboard and the viewer will have to click on every single photo in order to see the original quality. Here are the dimensions:

For a single photo/gif per columna it is 540px horizonatally

For 2 photos/gifs per columna it is 268px x 268px

For 3 photos/gifs per columna it is 177px x 178px x 177px (be careful the middle one always has to be 178px)

Themes

When you feel comfortable with using tumblr, you can customize your blog with beautiful themes that talented people have shared here! 

You can find and learn about themes here: @/theme-hunter

Gifs/gfxs

In this part, I will provide links and tutorials for gifs and graphics, But first of all you need a program for content creation. The most common one is Photoshop, you can buy a subscription from Adobe(it is expensive) or you can find crack version on the internet.  

Chaoticresource has a whole tag for photoshop and many more programs for you to start with photoshop. Not only that they have a whole list of resources for both giffing and graphic making. You can find their tag list with everything you need to here.

Here are some tutorials on how to make a gif

Tutorial by: misty-quigley

Tutorial by: kylos

Tutorial by: hayaosmiyazaki

Tutorial by: cal-kestis

Tutorial by: gr-ogu

Tutorial by: misfitsexual

Tutorial by: unbrokencolorings

Tutorial by: josefnewgayden (also has many resources)

Tutorial by: dunkzilladaddy

Tutorial by: theedorksinlove

Tutorial by: ashleysolsen (with more resources)

As you can see there are many different ways to gif, experiment with as many as you like and choose one you feel more comfortable with.

Usergif and deenafier  and cillianmurphy have collected many tutorials in their page/posts so I recommend reading them. 

Some random yet helpful tutorials I have and I find myself going back here and there are: 

The coloring tutorial by @/ daisylouisejohnson

The coloring tutorial by @/magnusedom

The color table tutorial by @/ggroupsdaily

The coloring tutorial by @/lee-haechan here and here

Coloring tutorial by @/binariesuns

Layer mask tutorial by @/daisylouisejohnson

Transition tutorial by @/fionagallaqher (and coloring tutorial)

Blending tutorial by @/linda-darnell

Blending tutorial by: @/morningstr

Channel Mixer tutorial (REALLY IMPORTANT IMO) by @/zoyanazyalensky

Glitch effect tutorial by @/nobodynocrime

Glitch tutorial by @/sarah-snook

How to fix orange-washed characters by @/zoyanazyalensky

Colored background tutorial by @/rafael-silva

Sharpenning gifs by @/joelmillrr

Coloring tutorial by @/yelenafbelova

Coloring tutorial by @/yenvengerberg

Don’t be afraid to experiment with gifs, try different styles and most important have fun!! I know thereis a lot to learn but trust me, it can be pretty fun! Good luck!

Now for graphics.. all I have to say is just have fun and experiment, experiment and experiment more! Here is a list ofresources I have collected that helped me improve my skills and find resources.

Where to find fonts/textures/vectors/mockups.

deviantart (everything)

unsplash (photos)

pixeden (mockups,photos)

graphicburger (mostly mockups)

freedesignresources (everything)

spoongraphics (mock ups)

graphicgoogle

rawpixel (photos)

digitalbrushes (brushes)

zippypixels (mockups)

dafont (fonts)

fonts by google

behance( under the tag freebie)

pinterest

fonts.ilovetypography (fonts)

gvfxarmy on twitter did an amazing job collecting resources.. you can find them here

List of youtube channels that will help you with tutorials and educational information on graphic design

Envato Tuts

Madia Designer

elliotisacoolguy

Brad Colbow

LearningScreen

PiXimperfect

The Futur

The Futur Academy

Jeremy Mura

Blue Lightning TV Photoshop

Nemanja Sekulic

Digital Art Creation

Will Paterson

Nobu Design

Satori Graphics

Logo Design Ideas

Adobe Creative Cloud (recommend to watch some of the livestreams they are interesting)

Gareth David Studio

Spoon Graphics

PSD Box Official

creatnprocess

Jamie Windsor

Dansky

Daily Photoshop Tutorials

How to Graphic Design

Photoshop Tutorials - PSt

Yes I'm a Designer 

Photoshop Tutorials

PHLEARN

Some other sites and links that i find interesting:

designbolts

thefutur free resources

The most important compositional principles in graphic design(article but check the site too)

The power of color (article, check the site too)

bezier.method (site to practice the pen tool)

aiga

httpster.net (site for inspiration)

access.mymind (color inspiration)

How to design a logo (article)

How to design a logo (article 2)

The Importance of Branding in 21st Century (article)

Color combinations

Lastly here you will find books and more resources for graphic deisgn! Thanks to @/isaaczara_ on twitter

That’s it! Hope you find this post helpful! I tried my best to not forget anything! 

Have fun on tumblr and on creating your content! Don’t give up and have fun creating!

[littlecofiegirl]

tiktok has ruined videoformats... In many many vids you know what is coming, for example a dirty carpet will get clean, and previously the videos showed you how it transformed from terrible to pristine with one or two coat of detergent and brushy machine. it got to the point. now you watch the vid and they add detergent, then add some green goo and then add this and that and then they scrub it and ugh and add more green goo and you realize you have been watching 30 seconds and the vid is still only halfway done. Normally you would have consumed something like 5 vines by this time. and if you wanna speed it up to see the ending just to get that little serotonin that you got what you wanted you have to click on the video like twice.

this is because they want to hold your attention and so the videos are purposefully made this way now. clicking to see how it ends gives them clicks. it's... not good for anyone's mental health I would absolutely ban this. Also some videos actually DONT GO ANYWHERE. I just saw on facefuck/cheekworkbook/FB a vid where they painted the grass green and then there were speed ups about cutting it and there was zero explanation about the whole thing. it was made my a company that produces the tech you can use to cut the grass but based on the video it was shit, I would never buy it but I was waiting for the POINT for way too long.

And I don't even have tiktok but so much JUNK gets reposted on other soc media you cannot escape it.

No wonder the younger generation has problems, I would go insane too if I was 13-14 and my internet experience was LITTERED with such nonsense.

sorry for the rant

[starlightbright]

I was looking on FB Marketplace for something and the page refreshed and put me on actual Facebook and I was immediately met with a relative I don't particularly like reposting a TikTok about how some child identifies as a cat and talking about how the world's gone mad and it took every FIBER of my being to not respond with

I do not feel like getting the homophobic rumors about me amped up rn though which I know is EXACTLY what would happen.

EDIT: I found the original video and it's literally tagged as satire. Something that only takes a few minutes of research if you don't take every fucking thing you see at face value.

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

Heyyyy! Thanks for stopping by my blog, "The Rabbit Hole"

First off, NO MINORS - MINORS DNI. Secondly, there are a couple of wishes I ask of you to respect if you decide to venture "down the rabbit hole" of all things Wes and LB in my blog and that includes the following:

PLEASE (like pretty please, with a cherry on top)...

DO NOT Re-post any of my posts OR share any links to any one of my posts on any other social media platforms outside of Tumblr.

DO NOT Re-post any of my video edits (meaning videos where I have added text to the actual clips OR compiled multiple clips together to create a theme for a video) to any other social media platforms outside of Tumblr. (Stuff like just a singular clip of a band interview or idk like a video Wes posted on IG (just a couple of random examples), that I don't care who also shares that video on whatever site, obviously, because these singular clips can be found online anywhere (IG, Youtube, FB, etc.). But what I mean is like don't repost video edits of mine that have a theme and multiple clips strung together, such as something random like "A compilation video of Wes saying the word 'guitar' " (btw that's not an edit I've ever done, but this is just an arbitrary example) and then it's a video of a bunch of different clips I've compiled of Wes saying the word 'guitar'. Like don't re-post or share a link to video edits/posts like that because it takes me so much time and effort to find clips and edit them all together. Gosh, I hope this makes sense and I'm not sounding like a rambling idiot, lol.)

DO NOT put direct links to my blog or post screenshots of my blog with blog name on display on other social media platforms outside of Tumblr.

DO NOT tag or share anything associated with my blog (meaning with my blog name attached to it or with link to my blog) to Limp Bizkit or any of the individual band members. (I'm a big believer of "Please don't bother the musician/actor/actress/celebrity with any fan-obsession/fan-shipping stuff. Just leave that within the fandom".)

In summary, if it's a whole post edit/video edit of mine, DO NOT re-post/share it anywhere else that is not Tumblr. DO use that ✨REBLOG✨ button on the post if you wanna show my silly blog some support.

Reblog (GOOD) Happy Lucy the Rabbit😊🐰

Re-post (BAD) Very, very sad and uncomfortable Lucy the Rabbit😩😭🤬🐰

I adore fanning out over Limp Bizkit here on Tumblr with all the amazing blogs in the LB tags (Seriously, Y'ALL ARE AWESOME!)... but that's just it. Tumblr is my ONLY social media space where I'm active in the LB fandom. While I am on other social media sites (and others I am not on), any other site that I am on is just for personal use. I don't post about LB on any other sites other than Tumblr. Therefore, I just feel uncomfortable when I happen to stumble across some of my stuff on other sites OR when I've been made aware by someone else of my stuff/posts/blog being on other sites, especially when it's a site I am not on at all. I hope this makes sense and it doesn't come off as me being overly controlling. Tumblr is just my safe space to share my love for LB and fanout over the band, so I just hope that can be respected.

Thank you so so so much for taking the time to read this. Please enjoy your time "Down the rabbit hole"✌🏻

[fakeoldmanfucker]

since i saw you have so many zuck post and i'm a little bit invest in it like you so i want to ask some question about threads since i don't want to have another social media because i have so much now

1. does moskovitz actually interact with zuck there? i saw them following each other

2. does saverin made an account and followed zuck?? since i don't know if that is his real account, tbh if he actually followed zuck, became one of the new users on threads i'd be surprised because i thought he already didn't care much about either fb or meta in general

also I saw zuck posting tsn reference there for threads and commenting gif of tsn too

sorry for my sloppy english, hope you reply

Hi anon! Thank you for your ask!

What I need everyone on Tumblr to know is that Mark is basically trying to reinvent himself. He's been the butt of a lot of jokes for about a decade now, and this bout with Elon, and Elon's fumbling of Twitter, has presented a prime opportunity for Mark to reboot his public image. This means he's responding to people's posts on Threads, making jokes, and yes, referencing The Social Network.

Now to your questions:

Yes! Dustin and Mark are actually still really close. Dustin's mentioned going on vacation with Mark fairly regularly (for whatever that means for them). Dustin had access to the pre-release launch of Threads and was user # 3037 (as indicated on his Instagram account), and he generally talks about Mark a lot, mostly to defend him/hype him up. He's been talking about Mark a lot lately, because of the drama with Musk and with the launch of Threads, but Mark has been pretty consistently mentioned in his Twitter posts, going back for years. Dustin seems to be particularly excited about Threads, probably because he feels let down by Twitter and the promise of Bluesky, and also because Dustin still owns a 0.6% stake in Meta, which is worth something like $5 billion. Dustin as well as other early Facebook employees have expressed a feeling of nostalgia and excitement akin to the early days of the company, both from the product development side as well as from the consumer side. Anyway, it seems that Dustin's penchant for micro-blogging and Mark's role to promote Meta's new app have combined and allowed them to publicly communicate for the first time in at least a decade. It has been, honestly, delightful to watch. See the bottom of the post for screenshots of their interactions.

Judging by the Instagram account linked to the Threads account, Saverin really is following Mark. (I judged whether or not the Insta account was real by scrolling through who he follows: some weather accounts, someone with the last name that's the same as his wife, someone who's either a sister or cousin, Fox News. These interests correspond with the types of accounts he follows on Twitter; it's most likely really him.) I agree, it is kinda of insane that Saverin joined so early; it's possible he sold the rest of his shares because B Capital got a big infusion of money at the end of 2022, which corresponds with the fund they raised earlier this year. It's also possible he converted his shares from Class A to Class B, but this move still loses him power. He doesn't really have any incentive to be interested in Meta, not anymore. And yet, Saverin was just under the 2 millionth member to join Threads (1,920,187). Taking into account that 30 million people(/brands) joined Threads in the first day, Saverin was an early adopter. At the same time however, in addition to likely not having any financial interest in the company, Saverin doesn't post very often on Twitter (most of which are reposts of articles) and has only ever posted to Instagram twice, and not since 2014 at that. It's interesting to me that he apparently cares so much to be on Threads so early since he doesn't seem to be that fond of micro-blogging or Instagram anyway. At the least, he is a private person, more private than even Mark has ever been, and he is likely on Threads to lurk rather than to post. Which brings me to the point that Saverin is following Mark. He's also following a number of influential Meta people, including important early employees (none of them follow him back). Combined with the fact that Saverin consistently puts "Facebook co-founder" at the top of all of his bios, regardless of his current projects and investments, this paints an image of a petty man who wants to be relevant. It may be interesting that Saverin follows Mark, but don't expect anything to come of it. Saverin lost his chance to make any amends with Mark and anyone else a long time ago.

Bonus: Mark posting a TSN gif? For some reason?? Even though the post he was replying to didn't even mention TSN? (it's a screenshot of the gif of the moment when Eduardo gives Mark the money to go to Palo Alto for the summer while they're hiring interns)

[vincentcatagainsttheworld]

#Repost from Deborah Harkness FB A DISCOVERY OF WITCHES REAL TIME READ, Chapter 28, 29, 30, & 31 “We descended toward something that looked like a crater set apart from the surrounding countryside by yawning ravines and overgrown forests. It proved to be the ruin of a medieval castle, with high walls and thick foundations that extended deep into the earth. Trees grew inside the husks of long-abandoned buildings huddled in the fortress’s shadow The castle didn’t have a single graceful line or pleasing feature. There was only one reason for its existence—to keep out anyone who wished to enter.” -A DISCOVERY OF WITCHES “It’s an oubliette.” The word rustled from ghost to ghost. A wispy woman, her face creased with age, began to weep. “Oubliettes are places of forgetting. Humans who are dropped into oubliettes go mad and then starve to death—if they survive the impact. It’s a very long way down. They can’t get out without help from above, and help never comes.” -A DISCOVERY OF WITCHES “As a historian and a writer, I try to stick as closely as I can to what is really possible. Why make up a ruin if there’s a perfectly good one that you can tweak, adapt, and modify? I knew nothing about medieval architecture of the Auvergne when I started writing A DISCOVERY OF WITCHES, but I’m so glad that my work has led me (and other people) to have a better appreciation of this history-steeped region. As for the tweaking, Château de Murol doesn’t have an oubliette–I added one!” THE WORLD OF ALL SOULS, p 202 Hands up if you, like me, learned about the actual, horrifying existence of oubliettes from this chapter. (There's no shame in not knowing about ALL of the terrible things humans have done to each other.) What does it mean for you as a reader to know that many places in A Discovery of Witches like the Bodleian, the Oxford covered market, Speke Hall, Hamish's hunting lodge, the countryside of the Auvergne, and medieval castles like Château de Murol (and oubliettes!!) exist? What else did you learn from TWOAS? There’s lots more going on in these chapters, so what else would you like to talk about? Cat #ADOWRTR2022 #ADOWRTR #adowrtrch28 #adowrtrch29 #adowrtrch30 #adowrtr https://www.instagram.com/p/CjnzYiIIE2e/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[nox-artemis]

Halloween isn't making me really happy this year.

I mean, there's a lot of other factors going into play too, but definitely my mind has been preoccupied extra since a lot of feelings have been catching up since last year.

J.G. sure picked a "appropriate" time of year to pull the ghosting act, if you catch my drift.

But again, there's a lot more.

Part One: Realization

The first thing I have to admit isn’t too surprising but still something people don’t condone. I feel comfortable admitting to it now since I blocked-unfollowed J.G. and I’m certain they don’t give a rat’s shit about me to do the same by coming onto my blog (like they ever cared enough about me to want to keep tabs on me). It’s ironic that I say this since what I’m about to admit is that yes: since around the time they ghosted me, I made a habit of lurking on their active social media, which was basically their Facebook. Not only was their FB a public profile (now that I blocked-unfollowed J.G. from IG, I can’t see their photos anymore because private account), it was also the only platform that we never mutually followed each other on, so I felt that this was the only place I could see the “real” J.G.

As the old proverb says, “curiosity killed the cat.” But satisfaction did not bring me back.

When I scrolled back to around the time the ghosting happened, I was a bit forlorn at first to see that there was no post alluding to the event, or of me in anyway, but J.G. did have a “shit post” model of social media as of recently – not really making any posts about their personal life – so I decided to proceed with periodically dipping into their feed, because in actuality seeing them regularly reposting cheesy/shitty memes gave the illusion that we were still talking to one another. I stuck to doing that for a few months because of that.

Until around February/March when they posted a rare personally typed post [changed some wording for privacy]:

People: "But why are you still single?"

Me [J.G.]: "Because I'd rather hold people accountable to their actions than entertain their crap."

And that was the last time I went onto their Facebook.

Weirdly, it was not the last time I tried to contact them, but definitely… I couldn’t look at their open-secret thoughts anymore. Maybe it wasn’t directed at me, but at that point it seemed like a double-edged sword. It was either J.G. felt so much resentment toward the type of relationship we just shared, or J.G. never cared enough about me to even acknowledge anything. It was a big stab to the heart.

And when I deleted all of our messages and the pictures they sent to me of them, I screen captured that post, because I wanted to keep it as a reminder of how much of a mistake it was to be involved with them.

Even though I haven’t accepted it yet.

Part Two: Shame/Embarrassment

This might be something to be discussed with a therapist, but I think a reason that I’ve been taking this whole ghosting/break-up saga so deeply is because – as much as I don’t want to admit it – I’ve been feeling a lot of shame and embarrassment when looking back at me and J.G.’s relationship. And despite how I’ve talked at lengths about my relationship woes to only two of my close friends (the only two people I’ve been regularly seeing for about the same length of time I’ve been ghosted by J.G.) , it’s a detail I never told either of them.

Me and J.G.’s first time together… was my first time.

Some people will roll their eyes and scoff, “ you’re seriously embarrassed about admitting *that*?” and in response I roll my eyes even further and scoff, “Yeah well can we stop pretending that in spite of the ‘sex positive’ façade of our generation some of ya’ll have a weird reaction toward mid/late life virginity loss (it’s possibly the only thing where I have a shred of sympathy for incels and the like since some people *do* talk down on people who are sexually inexperienced/shy/conservative) so can you shove your Adam & Eve promo coupon up someone else’s butthole?”

I deprogrammed myself to not believe in the whole, “save yourself until marriage,” stuff, obviously, BUT I had the expectation that my first time would be with a person who was understanding, kind, good-looking… I just wanted to be with someone who was a good person, because even if we didn’t end up together for whatever reason, it wouldn’t have been on bad terms, it wouldn’t have been regrettable. The good memories and experiences wouldn’t be tainted.

And I guess my embarrassment and shame comes with the gravity of the possibility that I gave myself to a person who by all accounts is a narcissist and/or a psychopath.

And I played into their game.

I know we fling those words around a lot, but this is based on what J.G. has told me about their family/upbringing and I’m not going to be so insensitive as to reveal *their* specific issues, because I don’t even think they know that I know, even though they were quite open about it on their blog.

I don’t want to sound counter-progressive in this era of mental health awareness, but a part of me deep down is regretful that I wanted to give J.G. some compassion and empathy by looking past their struggles… I asked myself if it was a good choice to get involved with some like this, someone like them; apart from our physical distance and cultural difference, this was probably the biggest barrier. Call it hindsight, it was written on the walls that J.G. would do something like this. I’ve read of other people getting ghosted like this by partners/friends who had such conditions.

And then I look at my own family, with so many women – including my mother – having to look after not just physically and mentally ill spouses, but spouses who are just so ungrateful despite their partner’s sacrifices, it seems. Did I really want to put myself in the same boat? It would honestly be safer to remain single even in advanced age and death than to be… weighed down with such a burden.

But I kept telling myself, “NO. Just because people have mental illnesses doesn’t mean they’re bad people. It doesn’t mean their evil/sinister. It doesn’t mean they can’t live complete lives. It doesn’t mean they don’t deserve to have love in their lives.”

I never wanted to fix them – hence why I never brought up the fact that I knew about/remembered their struggles – but I was willing to learn and to be with them throughout if they would let me, have me.

But now you see why I’ve gone nearly half-insane from this. Because I WANT to think that J.G. is an evil, heartless, sociopath so that I can finally realize that by them ghosting me I dodged a deadly bullet, BUT then I’m still suffering from the fact that I was still non-fatally shot by their actions. It’s proving to be very difficult because… how can somebody be both the worst and the best at the same time? J.G. is definitely the person who – out of all of my past relationships – hurt me the most, yet at the same time, whenever I have negative encounters with men and other people (patronizing, predatory), I always think about J.G. as a comfort tool. Like, “J.G. wouldn’t talk to me like that,” or, “J.G. would protect me and keep me safe.”

The thought of our entire relationship being just a game to them seems incomprehensible to me – it makes no sense to believe that for all of these years since meeting on Tumblr, J.G. held the thought, “yup one day I’m going to fuck this chick,” in their mind and saw an opportunity to do so when I began the process of admitting my feelings to them only two years ago (as I recall, I didn’t even make it on any of their “most attractive mutuals” lists). But then again, some people make it their mission to knock women off any pedestal they have just to “humble” them. Maybe they thought I was snooty or a know-it-all or that I was trying to get into their pants for ulterior motives.

And I guess I just made it easy for them. Stupid, stupid.

Part Three: Lessons

There was a time I wanted to be a teacher – like, a formal schoolteacher. The closest I got to becoming one was when I was an after school instructor for kindergarten and 1st grade kids. I learned a lot on that job – including that I didn’t really want to be around kids and that I was willing to go to graduate school to avoid those type of jobs (once people see that you worked in either public education and/or childcare, that’s all they focus on – especially if you’re a chick). At this rate I’m more cut out for college level teaching; maybe I’ll give teaching at the associate’s level a try in a couple of years.

But no matter my education experience and my experience in public education and the like, it turns out J.G. of all people was a superior teacher all along, unintentional or not.

Because it’s been through their cruelty of silence that finally cemented into my mind that this relationship shit isn’t fucking worth it.

They’ve taught me that no one can make them love or care for anyone whom they see as being beneath them.

They’ve taught me that it’s very easy to put on a veil of “niceness.”

They’ve taught me that it’s not worth it to be around certain people – or really a lot of people.

They've taught me a lot and they were very hard pills to swallow. But I had to. They forced me to.

Conclusion:

So yeah. A year ago around this time – oddly enough I forget which date it was exactly and I can’t exactly go back to check those messages – J.G. said that they’d text me back about coming up north to where I live to visit me. They still haven’t texted me back.

Another odd thing is that is that the event didn’t ruin my Halloween, per se. But that’s not a fucking excuse for them and if they try to use that as an excuse, well, I guess I shouldn’t be surprised that they’d stoop to that level to relieve themselves of any guilt – if they have any.

I’m in school again and school assignments are taking up my time. I’m still working at my current job, and that’s taking up my time. I’m trying to finish an independent research project for an archaeology conference in Portugal in January, and that’s taking up my time. And I’m going to Greece with my half-estranged brother in two weeks, and that’s taking up my time.

Shit always hits the fan in October, my favorite month, and it seems like I have no real time to indulge in Halloween after all.

But it feels like the trauma from last October is catching up to me at last, because in reality, the thing taking up most of my time, ruining Halloween, is thinking about J.G.

I wish it’ll end someday.

[horce-divorce]

lol. lmao. my parents NEVER interact with my posts on fb, especially when they're ones they SHOULD care about, like stuff that *i* wrote, or stuff that answers questioned they've asked me about in the past. radio fucking silence. I hear nothing from my family since they let us live in the fucking woods, not a peep, not a single "how are you doing, how is Bellamy since he was in the hospital." Nothing for months.

But I repost a graphic that says "it's not your job to fix them. even if they're family" and immediately THAT is the first like my mother given me in about. Six months.

That is NOT a coincidence. She is passive aggressive AND extremely online as fuck. she did that on purpose.

And yeah The thing is, this is NOT the first time I've also posted something ever-so-slightly passive aggressively hoping that she would see it. But it's stuff that would be educational and relevant. I posted the "love your kids! love your kids!!" thing and pinned it, she said nothing. I've shared tons of stuff about how to support trans and queer people, no reshares. I share stuff about disability to my stories daily. I know she sees them, because she did 'like' the post about Bel and I hitting our first year anniversary, and when we still had a car she sent us 30 bucks for repairs or something.

She is extremely on Facebook, all day every day. She SEES the posts.

She KNOWS I posted "you cant fix your family" about her. I'm done fucking trying with my whole family, But primarily her, because she is the one I tried the hardest and the most with for longest, and who disappointed me the absolute most by absolutely and utterly refusing to care. She was great when i was a little, little kid, but as soon as i was developing a real personality and problems she wasn't equipped for (gender dysphoria, disability & mh issues), she was all, "my job here is done, I already did so good! I only signed up for 18 years!" she acts like she doesn't even know who I am now, like im literally a different person since i transitioned. Like she has NO stake in my life whatsoever. She's asked me things about me she KNOWS the answer to, like "idk do you have bad period cramps jimmie?" I HAVE ENDO??? SHE USED TO BE THE ONE CALLING ME OUT OF SCHOOL FOR THOSE???

So yes I posted "you cant fix your family," and yes, she knows it's about her, and she's using that like "like" button like an uno reverse card. Without a single word she just reiterated & reminded me of all the times she threw up her hands and said "I don't know how your life got so fucked up" JUST because I had trauma! WAY before I ever transitioned or was homeless. She said that shit like, right around the time I got sooo so sick and dropped out of college. When I had told her 1 million times what was going on because I was so scared and alone. She "didn't know" how MY life "GOT" so "fucked up."

With one click of a button she managed to say so much with so little. "Oh, you can't fix me? I couldn't fix you either. I tried to fix you and I couldn't make you normal," she said. "I tried to fix you and you didn't WANT that. I tried to fix you but you refused to go to boarding school. I bought you supplements and you didn't take them all. I tried to fix you but it didnt work. Fucking amen, right back at you, kiddo."

I only ever told her i hated her once when I was 10, and I didn't mean it then. At this point, I think I may actually be starting to.

[kirkjerk]

an ode to livejournal

Man, what happened to the community of LiveJournal? They just sent me a kind of pathos-laden "hey happy 19th anniversary of starting on LJ!" For those who don't know, it was a fairly popular (at pre-Twitter, pre-FB, pre-YouTube levels of "popular") site that let people have their own blogs, and you could see and comment on the posts of your friends aggregated on a "feed" page. I didn't post there, since I had already started my own blog (and had just added a comments board that was the nucleus of its own little community - in fact I had a sidebar microblog for other people to write on the front page...) so my LJ account was for following others and participating in comment threads. It's notable that many of the final-ish entries of my friends (many in 2010, then more in 2016) mention twitter which is where I assume most of that energy left. Actually, to make a Just-So story: 2010 is when folks who were fonder of the community of folks they know in real life jumped off for Facebook, and 2016 is when folks aspiring to get a wider audience and maybe go viral left for Twitter. LiveJournal encouraged thoughtful writing in paragraphs; I guess medium now has most that vibe. Maybe substack, but they seem to lean on individual newsletter-y bits. But neither medium nor substack emphasize the "shared feed"/wall/stream that twitter, tumblr, instagram, FB etc have, where posts from a variety of people you find (or The Algorithm hopes you will find) interesting will be on a single scrollable page. As far as I know LiveJournal was the strongest attempt to encourage longer length writing with entries that were then blended onto feed pages. (Standalone blogs had RSS to collate from sites, but Google embraced and then extinguished the most promising attempts to make that friendly to less technical users. I never got into reading via RSS, frankly, because extracting just the text out of the visual context of its home site made me feel something was lost.) I think that "are you encouraged (by the UI, or the community vibe) write in paragraphs or sentences" - that's a big part of what separated LJ from Twitter (and also old Usenet (which I used to love) from Reddit, which has never really clicked for me.) And it's just that short-form mojo Twitter that has, (or a visual, easily digestible image-based approach that Instagram, Tumblr, and even FB) which lends itself to The Algorithm mixing and matching and letting you find new people based on what people you already follow are also digging. Which when I write it out, does sound rather herdish, or redolent of the maddening crowd. Finding new interesting people on LJ was slower, and more organic, generally by following up co-commentators on mutual friends, because going through someone's LJ entries was a longer-attention-span thing. I've been leaning into tumblr more lately, which (like twitter) I'd mostly been using as an information consumer and not a contributor. Sometimes I wonder if I had started reposting my blog content there years ago like I have been on FB, if I might be have found an even stronger community there (or a set of "mutuals" as they're called). Tumblr has cultural space for both long paragraphs and for quick hit images, and a unique style of additive reblogging that keeps contact with the original post while still getting people to riff.

[pianta]

my least favorite thing is when an art reposter claims they are reposting your art to do you a favor. cus who are they helping exactly? not me lmao

last time someone reposted my art, it was on facebook, a platform i’m not on for a reason. it was one of my LGBT+ drawings, something i felt very vulnerable about. it was for a charity zine too, so i didn't make any money from it. plus i’m not out irl, so reposting it out of its original context is so uncomfortable. its already kinda scary for me to share this kind of stuff online. 

my friends kindly asked the reposter to take down the art, or at least ask me for permission, but the reposter of course refused. saying they were doing me a favor cus “they’re promoting black art”, giving me more exposure, it got thousands of likes now, etc etc. oh okay! 

so naturally my friends got blocked. i chimed in, saying i would really prefer it if they took it down, and that they weren’t doing me any favors (my family is on fb and i don't wanna be outed). they didn’t like that i didn’t appreciate their efforts and value their free promotion (actual words they used), and wanted to make sure i knew. so they harassed me for a week straight, removed any mention of me or credit off the art they reposted but kept the art up, sent me anon hate, edited my art to bypass my DMCA claims, and kept editing new art i shared out of spite. but i was the ungrateful bully...

like what, is this middle school? its so obviously them 

but yeah, thank you! i should have been grateful. you have now defiled my art, harassed me, my followers and friends... but i should just believe art reposters want to “support me”. 

this is the kinda stuff that makes artists not wanna share their work anymore. it def made me rethink my relationship wrt sharing my art online. if i wanted my art to be on fb, i'd post it on fb. it's my art, i’m the one that worked for hours on these pieces you can "consume" within seconds - but i'm a real person, not a content farm. it's not your art to post. so all i ask for is please no reposts or edits.

just respect the artists’ wishes,  gah damn.

[dyinglikenarcissus]

So I saw this meme on fb

and I couldn’t just not write something

Get That Girl a Shield

In the same universe as The Cabin and Braided

Steve Rogers x black female reader

Warnings: language, fluff, short and sweet

When Steve catches you borrowing his shield for non avenging purposes

Please don’t copy or repost my work, thanks! Plagiarism is rude

Comments, likes, and reblogs are always appreciated ☺️

1k words

Something was off…

Steve glanced around the closet quickly on his way to grab a shirt.

Everything was there. Your dresses hung neatly on the opposite side of his shirts. Your shoes and handbags were lined up in rainbow order. All of his ties and belts hung categorized by occasion. Everything was as it should be….

Steve then looked to his stealth suit, perfectly washed and pressed by you, hanging ready to go should he need it. He never wanted to need it but he was glad that you always understood when he did.

He looked down at his boots, shined and steamed to a mirrored finish. He normally couldn’t see them because his shield was in the way?

“Princess!” He calls after grabbing the shirt he came for.

“Yes, baby?” You call back.

Steve tugs on the shirt and rushes to the kitchen where he left you. “Princess, have you seen m-what the shit!”

There you were, frying something on the stove, using America’s symbol of freedom to stop the oil from burning you.

Your eyes widen at getting caught by the owner of the shield you were currently using to protect yourself from your cooking and instantly look up to meet Steve’s ocean gaze.

You just wanted some of your granny’s catfish. So you called your sister and got the recipe. You mixed up your seasonings, coated your fish, made some sides that you hoped your boyfriend would enjoy and got to work while he was at the gym. He came home at some point during your cooking, walking past and leaving a kiss on your cheek before heading to the shower.

Perfect.

You just had enough time to get the fish fried before Steve would be ready for dinner. You followed him to the bedroom and grabbed his giant red, blue, and silver shield while he wouldn’t notice it was gone.

You’d been doing this for a while now. Frying food was one of your least favorite things. Your sister made fun of you for making ‘healthy’ versions of all the comfort foods you grew up eating all because you didn’t want to fry anything. Then Steve came into your life. Along with his indestructible shield.

The first time you tried it, you struggled with it’s weight and coordinating the giant disk with your tongs. So you worked on your arms until it was effortless. Well, not as effortless as Steve and Sam, of course, tossing the thing around like it weighted nothing. But they could also toss you around like you weighed nothing. But you could hold the thing with one arm and dodge the grease splatter with the best of them. You were practically an Avenger. You can be Jersey’s Captain America. Or maybe some place smaller. Hell’s Kitchen? Or maybe just the one stationed at the Empire State Building. You smiled to yourself at the thought while frying your fish. The sound of oil covering up the sound of the shower coming from the bedroom. You were so lost in thought that Steve’s call for you caught you completely off guard. Shit, shit shit shit.

“Yes, baby?” You ask tentatively, bracing for whatever punishment would come after Steve found you in such a state.

And that’s how he caught you. The look of absolute shock that covered his features broke you.

“Before you say anything, I always clean it when I’m done. I swear I never use it for anything else. I’m sorry, Stevie!” You whine, running through apologies and explanations at a mile a minute.

“You’ve done this before?” Steve asks, cocking his head to the side and giving you a curious look.

“Yes, quite a few times, actually, but I swear I take such good care of it! And-“ He holds up a hand stopping any further arguments from you.

“This answers so many questions.” A small smile breaks out over his features before he lets out a deep chuckle.

“What…” you whisper before he steps behind you, those giant arms of his engulfing your torso while he continues to shake from laughter.

“I thought I was going crazy! I knew my shield smelled like KFC.”

“Wha-y-you aren’t mad?”

“No! It’s hilarious!” He laughs. “Sam got mad at me, though! He said just because I’m dating a black girl doesn’t mean everything smells like fried chicken. I can’t wait to tell him this!”

“Wha! No, no, no! Stevie! You can’t tell him about this!”

“Like hell I can’t. You’ve been using my shield as a cooking utensil and you just expect me to keep that to myself?”

“Steve!” You whine as he removes there straps from your wrist and forearm.

“Don’t ‘Steve’ me, little miss.” He takes over holding the shield for you so you can focus both hands on the food. “That fish better be delicious, too. I’m going to be smelling it for a month.”

“It’s my granny’s recipe, so you know it is,” you pout, removing the rest of the fish from the frying pan.

“As long as it’s good, you can use my shield all you want, princess.” He bends to press a kiss to your temple making you smile. “I’d hate to have to declare war on our stove because it hurt my best girl.”

You can’t help but giggle at his words. “You’d go to war with LG just for me?”

“I split up the Avengers and opposed 117 nations for Bucky. Lord knows what I’d do for you,” he mutters, burying his face in your neck. “Love you, princess.”

“Love you, too, Stevie.”

You let out a sigh while tugging at your hair in the mirror. Should you try faux locs? That’ll surprise Steve for sure. You smirk at the thought and tug out your phone to price out some locs and pick out some colors when there’s a knock at the door. Steve’s been away on a mission for the past week so unless he’s being cheeky, you weren’t expecting anyone. You sigh and walk to the door and look out the peephole seeing nothing besides the door across the hall.

Weird.

You crack it open and glance down the hall.

No one.

You look down to see long poster tube sealed on either side with tape and a shipping label.

You weren’t expecting any packages.

You pick it up gingerly and inspect the label. From Wakanda? Must be for Steve. But your name was in bold letters in the recipient box…

You bring the package inside and find some scissors to tear into it. There’s a note on top in your boyfriend's handwriting.

T’Challa thinks you’re very innovative and said Shuri invented something similar for the palace cooks. He said he’d have her send you one but I told him you were pretty attached to the design.

-SR

PS: I still want you to use mine when I’m home. I love smelling your cooking when I’m away.

What in the world did this man do?

You dig through the tightly packed tissue paper and find a long piece of metal shaped like a slice of pizza. You contemplate it for a moment before the thing springs into a full sized shield painted in millennium pink and rose gold with a golden star at its center.

“Oh, Stevie!” You coo at the object. It’s so light! Less than the weight of your phone. You find two wrist sized rings in the tube and place them on your arm and the shield automatically magnetizes to them. You let out an excited shriek and jump in place. You tap the center of the disk and it shrinks back down to the large pizza slice shape and covers the length of your forearm. “It’s perfect!” You exclaim and grab your phone.

Got your gift! I love it! Tell everyone we’re hosting dinner when your mission’s over

You quickly send it to Steve and he soon replies with a kissing emoji making you giggle.

Dividers by firefly graphics

[mediocretranslations]

Shoyo Hinata VS Tobio Kageyama - △ vol. 1.5

DISCLAIMER: I am not fluent in Japanese and the translations are not 100% accurate, so there may be lots of inaccuracies. Please let me know if there’s any mistakes I made in the translation!

Please do not repost my translations anywhere else!

A Shoyo Hinata and a Tobio Kageyama story from the HQ FBS △ vol. 1.5 series

Read below!

The last panel is the artist’s information!

In page 3 when kags says something about a head start I think he was referring to them competing for ur attention (or in this case he’s asking if Hinatas tryna get a one up on him by asking you to help him study) I kid you not in page 6 hinata literally does say "TEA!!" ITS HILARIOUS hinata is also mocking kageyama for being cute bcoz just earlier he was talking about how a man isn't supposed to be cute in the last page i believe the prompt is something like "his illegal face" god- i bet yall were thinking i was joking when i said i did this instead of the kuroo chapter- nope hasifuahf PLEASE I COULDNT HELP MYSELF- BUT ILL TRY TO GET IT DONE TODAY AAAA CRYS i absolutely love the new books i got ashdfahsfsfh but - CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS WONDERFUL CHAPTER SO MANY TREASURES - like the expressions they have I LOVE THIS ARTIST I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HINATA'S SHOCKED EXPRESSION IN PAGE 4- looks like i found a new pfp the way kags tries to avoid eye contact w hinata- just noticed that kags actually breaks his pencil in page 6 also yes i wholeheartedly agree with y/n in this - i am a kageyama pout devotee and a hinata hair enthusiast

Thank you for reading!

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[sassyfrassboss]

(Old-timer anon again)

The JD, Skippy, and Felix thing was beyond wild! I've been on Tumblr since 2009 and was mostly a lurker on the royal blogs, reposting Kate fashion. Skippy was the first royal blog I started "talking" to and I watched the Skippy-JD-Felix go down in real time. If I'm not mistaken, there was a fourth blog involved in it all too, right? Someone that everyone thought had insider knowledge about all this that turned them against each other?

Then a lot of the blogs started getting reported by the sugars and shut down by Tumblr as part of Meghan's engagement PR. That was also a wild time. Everyone had all these backups and networks to find each other when someone got shut down. And let's not forget The Charlatan Duchess either. Also crazy what happened to that blog. I was part of the TCD FB group for a little bit but that was such a toxic cesspool I quit after a week or two. I'm not surprised TCD went down in flames the way it did after seeing the FB group.

Every once in a while I peek at those earlier blogs. Man, am I glad I noped out when I did and found a community that's much more my royal-watching style. And I actually found the blogs I follow today through Plant. She's the only early blog I still follow. I learned so much about PR and tabloid journalism from her, as I think all of us old-timers did.

It was the Real New York blog or something like that who claimed to actually know Harry. Turns out it was someone who was funning the other blogs but it was WILD. There was also the person claiming to have the PR insider knowledge on Meghan pre engagement.

I remember Skippy was one of the first people I wrote into and she laughed me off for asking as simple question.

Oh TCD...that was WILD. They were scamming people out of money. On my old blog she tried to get me to write for her and I refused. There was something off about her. What was crazy though was legit people were actually sending her in accurate information we later found out. She was just a bad person who got brought down.

I love Plant...she has been out almost a year now. Hope everything is okay.

I think what is nuts though is to many of the 2017 - 2018 rumors were proved true. LOL at the time we were getting them from Anons so you take with a grain of salt but turns out these people were coming to Tumblr to air their grievances.

[ravynfyre]

two amusing things today... first, I snagged a twitter thread about how nazis are bad and reposted it over on FB... and FB promptly nerfed like three of the posts in it. only one was put back up when I disagreed with them. And then I got a 24 hour time out for "hate speech", basically.

Because Nazis are bad, folks.

Second... while I really do not care how many followers I have, it amuses me that despite having 485 followers this morning, when I saw that I just had someone else follow me in the last 30 minutes, I am *still* at 485 followers. I only know this because when one of my posts went viral earlier this year, I saw something weird about the followers count because I suddenly got a lot more from that one, and when I see someone follow me, I sometimes just check to see what my count is at now to see if the anomaly still holds: No matter how many people follow me, I always have 484 or 485 followers. I had 485 last night when someone (a porn bot) followed me. And then when another porn bot followed me this morning, I had... 485 followers. And then when this latest porn bot followed me within the last hour? Four hundred and eighty five followers.

This anomaly amuses me. Is it like monarch of the mountain or something? when one porn bot follows me, they boot an older one off?

One of these days, I might care enough to actually go through and block all the porn bots... today *might* have been that day, since I'm in FB jail and I have no life... but nah. I'd rather read winteriron fic.

[vincentcatagainsttheworld]

#Repost Deborah Harkness FB page SHADOW OF NIGHT Read Along, chapters 22, 23, & 24 “The strands of magic—all those threads of power that I could borrow but not hold—crept back toward me as if they were made of iron filings and I were a magnet. As they came to rest in my hands, I struggled against the urge to close my fists around them. The desire to do so was strong, as Goody Alsop predicted it would be, but I let them slide over my skin like the satin ribbons in the stories my mother told me when I was a child.” -SHADOW OF NIGHT The Rolfsen Knot Table was my inspiration for weavers’ knots, just as the inspiration for Diana’s magic was actually the branch of mathematics called topology—a kind of mathematical alchemy. Topology is the study of spaces and figures that can be stretched and twisted but not torn or stitched together. In other words, it’s the study of how certain objects can be manipulated and transformed—pulled, squashed, distorted—into appearing to be something else, without losing their essential properties or essence. -THE WORLD OF ALL SOULS, page 259 👉Did you know-you can find a tutorial for making your own weavers cords on Deb’s website? Have you made a set? https://deborahharkness.com/diy-project-weavers-cords/... 👉Let’s discuss. What did you notice when you read these chapters? In the comments below, please share your observations, favorite quotes, musings, questions, half-baked ideas, or deep dives with the rest of us! If this is your first time reading SON, what did you think? What are your questions? If this is your 2nd, 3rd…100th time reading SON, did you discover anything new? Did you discover anything new with your dive into THE WORLD OF ALL SOULS? 👉Other terms from these chapters to search in THE WORLD OF ALL SOULS, or topics to put into your Internet search engine: Characters: Jack, John Dee, Edward Kelly, Marjorie Cooper, Elizabeth Jackson, Catherine Streeter, Suzanne Norman Alchemy: Arbor Dianae Literature: Voynich Manuscript Objects: mousetrap Cat #SONRTR2022 #SONch22 #SONch23 #SONch24 #TheWorldofAllSouls https://www.instagram.com/p/ClTmDvcotcj/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=