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schizochasm · 4 months

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Hahaha what a great idea to scroll while taking a break!

SO glad I let my guard Down!

I love getting triggered by tumblr.

Brb, gonna yeet myself into the sun. ♡

(I'm gonna keep exercising and pretend I'm fine. Ptsd + psychosis is such a great life!)

#killmenow #whathaveidonetoearnthis?#gonna pretend im fine #im fiiiiine #he'll go away #eventually #its fiiiiine #i didnt have good fortune #the universe lied to me

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carcarrot · 17 days

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i guess im being offered the job lol

#i didnt even have to interview????? here i was worrying about oh god going for an interview #but i guess not???#manager called me just now and was like hey i spoke w the people they want to know if you can start on these dates #like. okay???????#theres a week of training for me to do and then the following week id start at thee job #like an idiot as i was saying bye on the phone i only remembered then that i should have asked if it was PAID training ugh.#im assuming so . but maybe not. idk #im gonna call him back on monday to give my answer #this is it.... i may finally be free of the annoying people....#but like anything i have my trepidations. bc who know if itll work out #well thats life. as the song goes #fortunately im still within the timeframe to change the amount for my commuter benefits pretax card thing #bc the monthly pass id need for the new job #costs like less than half of what i pay now for the bus to ny #crazyyyyy. anyway i gotta do that if i decide to take the job #its more money (a little. but still more. ok its like a dollar and 4 cents more. which not a lot but still)#i get more sleepytime (always good) and im saving on commuting #plus ill only have to pay nj (and federal) taxes. instead of also paying ny yay. thats good #sorry again weighing the pros and cons onstage here #UH. what else #well a shorter commute is good but it means less reading/music listening time #although ive only resumed reading recently lol #idk. well then i could read at home and not worry about my books getting messed up #these past couple weeks ive been :( that the like 70-something year old paperback ive been taking is getting a bit rougher #only a little. but yesterday it got a bit wet bc my bag got soaked in the rain #why am i taking a super old book to work well i dont know what to tell you we have some old books #ok getting off topic. everything seems good about the new job so fuck dude i guess ill go for it #finally free of the stupid people here.... on to new stupid people (undoubtedly)#well it's probably all good then but unfortunately i always worry what if it isnt. hm

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chronologiical · 1 year

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have a happy mokona year everyone!

#my art #xxxholic #watanuki kimihiro #doumeki shizuka #himawari kunogi #clamp #mokona #eat loads of good food and get loads of good fortune #they are having a photoshoot #for what who knows #i was playing around with tumblr and it went into dark mode by accident?#i didnt even know it was a thing

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wheelercore · 11 months

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I think the funniest area in which people try to project Lonnies dynamic with Will and Jonathan onto Ted and Mike is guns. It's very antithetical to what we're shown on screen like Mike canonically jumps into action at the sound of gunshots and Ted canonically startles at fireworks and doesn't seem to like the sound very much. Literally no creativity here. Guards! Send them back to the drawing board!! Tell them to analyze the toys!!

#if mike didnt have ass aim i think hed be as good at shooting as nancy #fortunately we still have hoppers conan sword so mike may have a weapon yet!!!!!#honestly the canonical reason (taking no criticism I Am Right) ted is a bad father is so much more interesting than 99% of fandom takes #and it Drives Me Insane bc ppl will just make stuff up to come up with an explanation when the truth is right there!!! its on front of you!#but it isnt simple and convenient like lonnies characterization bc it requires thinking and nuance that doesnt exist on by/ler tumblr lmao #mike wheeler #ted wheeler

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weepycat · 2 years

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my brown horsey coms home today... ladybird ....

#her training didnt work out and i was almost convinced to sell her #but i have come into some good fortune and im just gonna keep her...#there's gotta be something i can do with this horse #my first horse... i have to keep her as long as i can

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bunnihearted · 6 months

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Why would you wish your neighbors to fkn die just because they make noise?

gosh some ppl are way too sensitive and cant handle ppl saying anything at all huh

#bc im angry and they are RUINING MY DAY EVERY SINGLE DAY #bc they make noise that wouldnt be heard if they didnt live in next to empty apartments #bc im extremely nosie sensitive and get sensory overload very easily and noise makes me suicidal and homicidal #good for you that you dont care!!!! you are FORTUNATE for not being this heavily affected by noise. you're not better than me. ur lucky #grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it makes me so annoyed that ppl like u just cant handle mentally ill ppl VENTING.#am i sending them death threats? no. am i beating them up? no. am i sending complaints to them? no. i am enduring my suffering #bc we live in a world where nobody cares abt ppl who arent normal. i am in genuine physical pain bc of this everyday #do u think this is fun for me???? do u think i want to be like this? no! i'd kille to be like u who can walk unaffected thru life!!!!!!#do u think i enjoy spending my days in agony just bc noise upsets me? i cant fkn focus on my school work!!!!!!! or anything else!!!!!!!!!#do u know that there is NOTHING i can do? i have to accept a life of daily torment bc im noise sensitive #if society allowed me i'd live in specific apartments designed for noise sensitive ppl. or in a cottage on the countryside #but society dont give a fuck abt ppl who diverge from being normal #also omfg just bc i vent and say i wish they died dont mean i actually genuinely want them to die #why are y'all so black and white?????? why is it so hard to understand that just bc u express smth in anger dont mean u ACTUALLY want it #tbh y'all are too much. and fkn unfair. ppl are actually allowed to vent in anger and let out steam and not suppress their emotions #i have never done anything to cause another person harm. i even have high blood pressure bc im so stressed out yet i never do anything #i have done NOTHING to harm my neighbors. the only thing i do is vent on my blog #do u really think theyre magically gonna die just bc i vent abt it???????#bro fuck off you made me even angrier like if u cant handle ppl expressing ugly thoughts #u and i are not compatible bc *i* know that u need to express things u might not even mean #but u clearly dont and need everyone to be uwu peace and love and perfect so just leave me alone go awayyyyyyyyyyy

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idsb · 1 year

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dude my mom and i talk about that alllll the time. we like reminisce "remember when the world was on pause? that was the best" (obv not the death and illness but ykwim)

Yeah no exactly like. I was in a place in my life where all I fucking wanted was for the world to stop spinning and then it literally just. Did. And I really got to do everything that a person would if you were in a movie and someone hit freeze on everything because that’s actually what it felt like, and it was kind of amazing to not have Society and have my only job be “chill” and “play outside” and “work on yourself” 🥲 and tbh I think it fucked up my ability to exist now cause I know What Things Could Be Like If Not For Society

#and disclaimer; fortunately i got to recieve unemployment and so i just. didnt have to worry for a second about bills in that pause period #after like. April #which is what made it feel like that #but god it was so good #and now im like ????

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thebirdandhersong · 2 years

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Besties I was SO brave today just gotta let you know that it was hard and I may have cried and I couldn't force down food but I was Brave about it with a capital B and I am so surprised that things turned out well

#friend's birthday party. mr knight was there. i did not know this beforehand #anne elliot i feel your pain i thought i was going to die or throw up or both #but HEY i made it through five hours without doing either #while also socializing chatting playing with the kids talking to the birthday boy laughing and singing!#it was only at the end that i talked to him. or rather it was the other way around #and it was different. not the way it was before but it was nice somehow not having to run upstairs every few hours #and cry and pray and cry some more #anyway all is well and God is good and some things are healing #which earlier on in the evening felt like they would never heal #i didnt die or throw up! and the party was the loveliest #we ended with evensong which is always suchhhhh a pleasure. i love my church family so much #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21 #anywho that is all. hard thing today. was braver than i ever thought i could or had to be.#day ended with us praising God at the top of our lungs. praise be to our Father

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mtlgrandprix · 10 months

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one of my bosses got me a norovirus exposure for my bday and the other got me a mental breakdown 🫠🙃

#fortunately the exposure did not result in me actually contracting norovirus..... its been 48 hours ya girl beat the case #however the mental breakdown was very much real #how do people actually get the courage to assertively and respectfully address someone and tell them when theyve hurt their feelings #like i go SO FAR ABOVE what literally anyone else in my job does #i literally went home after my birthday dinner and did a bunch of the work i missed during the day #because i was worried norovirus would kill me off and id leave him hanging #and i couldnt have done anything the day before because the modelling presentation i was prepping didnt exist yet #and he called me like 9 times today picking at everything i did and finding fault with the smallest things #and basically implied that it was my fault the presentation wasnt the way he wanted it to be and very condescendingly telling me #that it needs to be right because hes pressed for time #like bro youre the one who assigned a 5 day project to the analysts a day before you needed it #the corporate world since the dawn of fucking time: *rewards going above and beyond the same as the bare minimum*#me every time that happens to me for some reason: 🤯🤧😮‍💨😭#this has been clown posting with mallory have a good night! happy belated birthday to me

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elegyofthemoon · 1 year

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I'm still thinking a lot about Ion's grave, and then ranking Ion below Orupeusu in terms of "Most Loved" of the Sunchildren

If you go by Ion's grave, there's a lot of sigils around it -- sigils that you may come across while traversing Enkanomiya (I don't really know if it means much of anything, but iirc I think the sigils also looked like the map of Watatsumi Island--). Maybe the sigils were something related to Ion's fortunetelling for his people -- a charm of good luck he'd give to them to give them some assurance against whatever bad fate awaited them

I guess my brain's going a few different ways with this:

Maybe the people gave Ion sigils to commemorate him because of the joy he'd bring with his fortunes for them. To express their love and gratitude for his act of kindness

In the face of all the false fortunetelling he did, the people would choose to neglect Ion instead, meaning that these sigils instead were made by his caretaker to commemorate him when no one will.

On the same note, because of the false fortunetelling,the people would cast aside the sigils given to them by the Sunchild, returning it back to the Sunchild's side at his tomb. Numbers of false promises of a better life than the one dealt to them.

#OHHHH YKNOW WHAT IM GONNA OPEN GENSHIN TO GO LOOK AROUND ENKANOMIYA AGAIN LMAO #time to go look for the tombs and cry about it LOL #later later though i just needed to air out these thoughts before i go study #for the sunchildren #oh but you know #thinking about the epitaphs as well can give you a good idea as well with how people thought of some of these kids #idk who was in charge of them but #i think ions for example was something like 'gifted with fortunetelling. failed to predict his own'#i think thats like a wonderful piece of 'one sided storytelling' where you only get one part of the story #to someone else he mightve been really good (but the truth is he was lying about all the fortunes to make you happy)#but he knows his own death to come he just didnt say it #maybe thats why he also says something like 'the people here dont have good fate :/'#but anyways #for ion #i love surepio but i think ion might also hit for me as well in terms of fave kids LKAJDHFA #sorry for the favoritism askdjfhsalj but i do love all the kids a lot i just wish i had more info or think more about that #BUT thats what revisiting might do for me... hopefully :)

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crimsongrimoire · 2 years

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bruh

#crow.txt #not writing #genshinposting #WELP. LAST MINUTE GRINDING IS REAL.#me with yae standing up and grand narukami shrine after getting a great fortune: how funny would it be if i got the polar star tho...#but ayyyyyyy #plus a random sayu i got with it #i dont have All the oni masks. in fact i only had very few. but luckily today was oni mask day #and i didnt feel like grinding for yae Or albedo. esp cause she doesnt have fans rn. and albedo is just fine where he is #and like FUCK im triple crowning him. i may as well have never leveled his normal skill at all #attack. not skill. its so useless the babiest damage in history. ok sir i appreciate the effort. 2 crowns for you tho. at best #diluc is absolutely being triple crowned and probably will be... this coming week or so?#and that leaves like.... four more? so everyone gets to fight to the death for those i guess. kokomi gets at least one #diluc babygirl i love you but good lord this man is about to drain me of 2.1 mil mora in one go

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mihotose · 6 hours

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rewatching the new years sp now that i know more about hasu and now i just see kankan in the corner encouraging konachi to do things bc she knows she gets shy lol

#gemitus #in my post the first time i watched it i called them kanna and kona lmao who #everyone pointing out that if they finish where they started their tension is zero 😭 ive been saying this #why am i seeing so many people bullying mirapa for choosing ootorodon they won (*joint) didnt they #ive been thinking about this but next year if they do another new years sp (likely) if they have to send two people again who will iy be #now that all the units are three somebody will be left out :(#'thats mean senpai! kyan-san was mean too :(' kuma. you did this #though props to kinchan for not picking on her kouhai lmao #i only just figured out aqours and niji kept guessing based on their idea that liella had written panna cotta #'i think i know what hasu-san's is' yuina all they have is ◯◯◯◯◯ん #kankan literally has her arm around konachi's waist under the kotatsu i swear #liella could have won if kumachan didnt SAY HALF THEIR WORD OUT LOUD #also hasu's colour in this is red but like everywhere else theyre lotus pink #i think konachi winning was a sign of good fortune for hasu this year

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toastsnaffler · 1 month

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so sweaty at work its actually revolting

#ambient in my lab is 30c at the mo..its abt 26 in the main lab but i have a smaller/less ventilated space #and i had a water bath on at 90c + incubator 55c. cant use a fan bc im working with respiratory sensitisers so dust inhalation risk #AND full ppe (long sleeve trousers closed toe shoes thick full length long sleeve labcoat p6 mask goggles hairnet nitrile gloves)#fortunately im done with the hands on stuff for the next 2 hours so i can prop the door open and put the fan on now #but when i took my ppe off my shirt was straight up fucking wet. not even just underarm sweat patches but the front + back too. YUCK!#good thing i anticipated this + picked out a v light/breathable outfit today but really i shouldve brought a whole change of clothes #and still no word abt when theyre putting the fucking aircon on. they said it MIGHT be later this week but no promises #not that itd help in my lab bc they didnt install a unit in there anyway..... we dont have the spaaaace #ik the reason theyve been so reluctant to install aircon is bc they have a new plot where theyre gonna remodel + build a new lab #so like in idk 2 yrs time this lab will be shut down and if im still working w them ill get a big shiny new application lab. WITH air con #separate from the main lab + installed w all the equipment we actually need so i dont have to run between both labs and canteen constantly #but whether ill still be here in 2 years... well its a big if. pay + benefits r good + i like the work + generally good environment #but there are many other labs in the world... some of which probably already have air con. and id like to work w plants again eventually #cuz my degree was in biology specialising in plant sci. not food/biochem (<- industry im in rn)#anyway. at least its taken my mind off how tired i am..... im gonna take a snack + water break and then i have some admin to do #happy wet beast wednesday everyone #.diaries

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strangeangel22 · 2 months

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i love being transgender i love doing my silly little t shot every week i am so proud of who i am and what ive done to get to where i am now I LOVE BEING TRANS!!!1!!!1!😸😸😸

#sometimes i feel like im a weird percived combination of ‘experienced’ and ‘not experienced’ in being transgender #heavy on percived i know who i am LAMFO #ive been out chronologically and age wise the longest out of everyone i know im pretty sure #i started socially transitioning when i was 12 yk #was fully ‘out’ (specifically in school) by before high school at 14 #and changed my name legally last year and started t this year at 17 #but some people just see that last year as me being properly trans #not even properly trans just like. as if i was only starting my transition now #and i dont think thats very accurate #and sometimes i feel a lil inferior to guys in my life who have been on t and have been ‘undeniably’ trans for longer #(boy if ur reading this ur not included like on god but also unblock me lets be mooties i miss you)#but sometimes i have to just sit back and remember i got this and it doesnt actually matter what they think OR even if i was a ‘baby trans’#or whatever #ive been trans for like a third of my life.#like half of my cognitive conscious life.#i got this!!!#and even if i didnt thatd be okay too cus we all get there eventually #that is a lot of yapping for me saying i feel embarassed celebrating doing my t shot every week cus im so early and jts not doing anything #but maybe i can have some fun anf joy in life #and maybe being transgender isnt inherently miserable #on a happier end note #me and my friend had our hrt appointments on the same day and started a few days apart #so we r now transition buddies and yap at eachother abt injections vs gel and what ‘changes’ were getting and its really beautiful #its nice to have community #and people who do not see u as a little transgender infant just cus u werent fortunate enough to go on t at an even younger age #than the incredibly fortunate 17 #but hey what doesnt kill you makes you stronger i suppose and i think hrt is gonna feel reslly fucking good after 5 years of waiting #and im so fortunate im in this position and am grateful every day to not only be awesome and transgender but also on hrt!!#yaaayayayayayay!!!!#text

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officially-going-insane · 4 months

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Is that what I get for defending her from her toxic family members? Her taking their side even more? I don't think I've seen her defend me on my face. She's too busy with them again and then has the guts to come whining in front of me expecting comfort and support from me but then also has the audacity to go "I shouldn't be saying like that about them, after all they raised you" girl pick a side this wishy-washy humble act of yours isn't gonna work

#idc man stop with your “I always defend you/say good stuff about you” I dont believe you with this attitude of yours #she honestly pisses me off like bitch idc you didnt have the guts to even stand for me when I was a child tf are you acting humble for?#even im gonna laugh when everyone takes all of your fortune and hardwork when you could have defended yourself several times #fuck off please #she honestly pisses me off I get why she does what she does but Im so suck and tired why are you roping me in on your bs #like please im just a teen i shouldnt be sharing your burden of trauma wtf

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dysfunctionalnerd · 1 year

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man ok. the family visit has been fun but. id like to go home now

#my grandmas sister is very sick and she wants to die but she has a strong heart and her organs are all flawless.#every night i have to hear my mom amd my grandma bicker and fight about how my grandma force feeds her when she doesnt want to eat anymore #like poor grandma feels like shes committing a sin letting her die by not feeding her but. grand aunt doesnt want to eat anymore #its not a fun time tbh #also my aunt is going in for surgery and my fav cousin was being real grumpy when we were having a final family dinner before the surgery #bc they were anxious and afraid i suppose and i understand but like. i cant believe theyre bringing their mom down like that.#eat. be merry. enjoy each others company. celebrate each others presence in the moment. please understand this #but i didnt fight them on it and i wont bring it up bc i dont want to add to their anguish. we all go thru it in our own way and all that #anyways. its always the adventure when i come visit. sorry for the rant i rly needed to #tomorrow im gonna go and support them while their mom is in the hospital resting. hopefully they'll have more peace of mind then #i want nothing but peace and good fortune for the both of them really

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