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[akutails]

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THANK YOU ANON I LOVE U

university student! akutagawa as ur suitor fic

now i've already posted and drafted 5 chapters of this fic on my old blog and i stopped writing it bcs i lost motivation BUT ! i wanna pick it up again bcs its just a sweet lil akuatagawa as ur suitor and i really loved the idea and i hv so many things i wanna do for it so :)) stay tuned ! i might give some 👀 sneak peaks if u ask the right question <3

kageyama x student journalist! reader fic

this one MMMMMMM i love it . its abt reader interviewing the whole volleyball team when they make it to nationals so they can write abt it on the school paper BUT !! reader has never written for volleyball so when they get to interview kageyama and realize how much he knows abt it they ask for his help :)) i have so many sweet ideas for this one and the layout is almost done so im super super excited !

bungou stray dogs x moriarty the patriot oc! reader

now this one . it's more imaginative than my other wips HAHAHAHHAHA AND ITS SUPER SELF INDULGENT ! basically the reader gets transported to the mtp universe due to an ability user having the ability to make portals to other universes (totally not inspired by america chavez/s) and while the bsd universe tries to bring u back the mtp guys figure out where u came from while simultaneously making sure u dont ruin their timeline by being there 😭 it's super fun and i lovee thinking abt it (but not writing it lawl) so this one is my fave<3

[melloneah]

6 for geto & 22 for megumi and/or yuuji for the character ask?

HAAAAA thank u for the ask >:3333

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

i Very Rarely relate to characters in shows but i feel like geto is one of the exceptions hehehe i feel like our moral views align in a way which we both tried to believe and do what's "right" without much questioning at first and then suddenly got slapped in the face by the reality of what a 'society' entails 😀 so uh. similar thought processes and experiences during the whole ordeal of discovering the world sucks and there's no way to really fix it (without murder? dshkfsjd) him and i are one and the same minus the genocidal tendencies<33 i also feel like his personality is quite toned down and calm unless he's surrounded by people closest to him, which is very me!!!!!

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like?

Yuuji

hhghhgf hard question. i basically love it all but ill try to limit myself to one each

i love seeing lonely yuuji that's surrounded by people </33 in general that's such a real, painful, gorgeous, often overlooked aspect of being human, and it's often dismissed in everyday life bc 'U HAVE FRIENDS WDYM UR LONELY!' but anytime i see it written in fic the descriptions and the raw defeat and the pain just hit so hard, and it just matches the character of yuuji SO SO SO well. he's so open but he just Cant Seem To Get Close to people in Any Meaningful Way. oh my GODDDD it hurts So Bad but i adore it. it's my favourite thing to read. and special mention to loner yuuji who isnt surrounded by people too. lonely yuuji has his own reserved yuuji shaped spot in my heart

i feel like i love everything about yuuji's character so it's hard to pick a dislike 😭 i think it's more of a mischaracterisation than an authors creative choice, but i dont love it when yuuji is portrayed as sort of morally grey or slightly mean bc to me that's just not even him anymore sdjfhsdjhf yuuji is a ray of sunshine who does everything to make everyone else feel at ease!!!!!!! who r u writing bc that isnt him!!!!!

Megumi

i love it when fics make him suffer :3 as if we dont have enough of that in the manga........but i truly feel megumi's character is a great vessel to use in order to explore deeply rooted trauma, crises and complex emotions - his philosophy already illustrates that he doesnt blindly follow the objective 'good' and he doesnt see the world as black and white, which points to him generally being more self-aware and thoughtful. i feel like this translates into a sort of 'open space' in his character to freely and deeply explore for example shame, societal pressures, lived trauma, guilt or some internal struggles etc, whereas for example yuuji would probably be slightly more in denial, which would mean the thought processes described would be less direct and harder to explore deeply imo. so basically megumi is the epitome of overthinking and i like seeing him suffer over it :3

for dislikes in fic uhmmmnnmmn. id say making him too sweet/nice/open? in my mind the core of his character is that he's sorta standoffish and distant and mean lmaoo so it's strange seeing him fold immediately and be super sweet; i like seeing the gradual trust building and eventually opening up a bit but still keeping his personality!! but that's just a personal preference and actually now that i think abt it it's not that it bothers me when i see it lmaooo i just prefer the latter

ASK ME THINGS PLEASE I AM ON MY KNEES BEGGING PLEASEPLEPALEPLASEPLASEPLEASE :3

[mayasaurusss]

hi hi, its the anon from earlier <3

I wanted to clarify that I don't want to pressure you to keep writing for YJ when you don't want to, I just meant in terms of deleting your account!

I often re-read blurbs and fics for characters I like because they help me calm down during my paranoia and anxiety episodes (which suck)

That said, I think your writing is amazing!! Its also important to remember that if you think a certain piece of writing is bad, your mind is probably over exaggerating because we're often more critical of our own work than others <3 (just a healthy reminder to help you stay confident and not be too harsh on yourself :))

Sorry if I sounded kind of demanding before, I had just seen that one of my (more recently created) favorite tumblr accounts, stagnat, had deactivated their/his account which caused me to panic a little bit (a lot)

I don't know why the YJ fandom has gotten so toxic recently, it feels like in the past month or so everything has just been going wrong 😭

Again, I really really enjoy your writing, but I am 100% fine if you feel like you need to step back or take a break from tumblr for your health :)

You are so kind and nice that it's actually making my heart hurt😭❤️I'll definelty read this whenever I'll feel down about my writing😊😊.

So if that's the concer, know that every account I've ever had is or has been up to read for others. I had a wattpad account which I abbandoned but I've never deleted it because I know that people might want to reread my fics or oneshots, so don't worry about that!

You might be right. I recently was writing a tmasc Shaun headcanons about dating him during another historic period, but even if it's cute and a pretty long set of headcanons, they came out flat. Like it wasn't Shauna's original character anymore so I kinda scrapped it. It's still in my drafts but until I can actually make something out of it, it'll stay there. Also, every friking time I publish any long oneshot I always fear "Have I wrote well?/Could I offend someone?/Have I made enough research?/Is it ready to be published yet?" and so on. Curse my overstressed mind. But thanks, this helped, I'll try to go easy on myself in the future!!!

Oh don't worry about that, and yeah I saw they deactivated as well and I had just followed them mere days ago. Kinda sad many people are you know, but we don't know why they did it. Dont be sad, they probably are making a new account or are already here!

And yeah, I did saw the toxicity as well. I am not sure why, but sometimes I think that might be 'cause the in real world is crumbling apart and so people are constantly on the edge. You have no idea how many times the past year I've encountered people who were angry and stressed that used others as means to get stress out of their system. I could go on and on about this, but I can only store so much words in one post.

Awwww, damn this is too much for my cold heart. I really thank you for your kind words, truly. And don't worry, I have just been back from a really long pause because of exam season, so I am actually quite happy to be back as well! Who knows, maybe in the month of October (Halloween! Yay!!) you will get a itty bitty more oneshots as usual! Who knows, only time will tell...😊

[najaemism]

hii!! i love your works and i was wondering (i promise this isn’t at all to make you feel pressured like pls take all thr time in the world i know life is busy its just out of curiosity) if you have plans to continue midnight rain? im so invested in the story (all of your stories tho) also its fine if you dont!! i was just wondering!

also do you have any fic recs?

i hope youre doing okay and life is being kind to you <3

hi anon!!! thank u for asking this 🥹 i do have plans to continue midnight rain, i even have the ending planned out for it already bc i really was excited when i started writing it butttttt i just couldnt bring myself to write more parts for now. this is the same for my other on going smaus (style & hcl) bc i do want to write something but i just come up with nothing whenever i try ... but once i get the inspiration to write and finish them again, i'll prolly just drop a chapter on a random day at an ungodly time and dip again 😭

as for the fic recs, u can check some in my fic rec blog @mkfiles !! i dont have a lot of recs there though bc honestly ... i dont read nct fics anymore, sorry :(( i usually read anime & genshin fics now 😭🤞🏼 so yeah ... 🥹🥹🥹

anw thank u anon! im glad u enjoy my works 🥹 i hope ur doing okay as well mwa 🤍🥰

[euphor1a]

hello. just wanted to say that I love all your works.

funny story, your fic was actually the first ever fanfic that I read. it was a little over a year back, I was in a not-so-good headspace. and just searched up 'yeonjun fanfic' on google lmao just for the heck of it. tried wattpad, was scarred💀 twt was just not for me. and then tried tmblr and was greeted by one of your yeonjun drabbles. ngl, I was a little taken aback at the liberal use of the obscene words lmao. and then since I didn't know how to actually use tmblr, I just read all of your works. and I mean all. so the works that literally don't even exist anymore, I've read them too!

so I've been with your works way back when you were cupidchois. and my tmblr journey began with you so you're like the OG for me lol.

also, the not-so-good-headspace was due to this huge huge life changing entrance exam I had and your fics provided comfort. but when the exam date was too near, I stopped using tmblr for like 3 months.

but before going, I read whatever little part of bewitched you had written and remember thinking that okay when I come back after all this time, it might be a completed series. also, the release date for the yj sugarpapi fic was 14 feb but you said you needed more time. and I thought yeah I'm gonna be gone a long long time. it'll be there when I come back.

if only I knew lol. when I came back you had a brand new blog, half of your fics were missing, sugarpapi never came out, and get this, bewitched had actually gone BACKWARDS because you decided to rewrite it! lmfao, I'm not tryna sound rude or pushy at all. please dont take it the wrong way. the situation was just sooo funny.

so yeah, that's my history with your blog lol.

anywhoo, love your works a whole lot and thank you for introducing me to this hellsite without even knowing it<3

much love<3

... wow 😭😭😭, i’m genuinely struggling to find words to type here. Goodness. This is making me feel so many emotions like kdghfghfgh HOLD AWN 😭

!!! Thank you so much for sending this in, first of all?? This is like a peak moment™ of my tumblr life i’m not even kidding 😭!!! Especially because I kinda ended up joining tumblr in a very similar way, except that my OG was far more consistent than me with their blog and works 😅! Take me back to 2017 pls—

I’m pretty sure a lot of us here actually started out with just searching up fanfics on google and then finding tumblr in the search results. Because same! I did not know something like tumblr existed and my experience with wattpad was equally traumatising 😵; thank god for the hellsite. It sure is very annoying at times but it’s also nice that we can have our own little bubble here!

Lsjskdjkfj “liberal use of the obscene words” IM DYING 😭! Thank you for still reading them though 😭! A part of me is very embarrassed because I’ve... well, grown to find my old stuff very poorly written (hence all the rewriting) but a part of me is? Super fucking flattered? And proud? THANK YOU 🙈🙈

The fact that whatever the fuck I wrote actually provided comfort to a human being is enough for me to just go on and quit everything and live a life of a saint. It’s crazy... I never dared to imagine that my writing could actually do that? Because I always think that whatever I write is pretty forgettable tbh. Like you read it and move on and never think back. Anyway, I hope you are feeling better now, lovely 🥺! I’ve been in similar places throughout my life and damn I know how badly education related pressure fucks you up :(

Ah yes... Bewitched. Sigh. I have a love-hate relationship with that kid. I think I have mentioned this before in some random rant post, but god, rewriting is so hard. Because I spend most of the time regretting how I wrote it instead of the actual fixing and editing and rewriting. I won’t abandon it, but at this rate I’m not sure when I’ll be able to invest myself completely in rewriting either. It’s only harder because my daydreams have no ends and the amount of newer wips that I want to finish and post keeps increasing. And to top it off, there’s ✨real life✨, being an absolute pain in the ass constantly.

Also Sugarpapi 😭! It’s honestly me vs. the unrealistic high standards I’ve set for myself at this point. But you know what? I’ll take my time with it. Because I think taking it slow is better in all aspects. Like yeah, I could just half-ass it and put all the pressure in the world on myself to finish it sometime soon, but we all know that’ll be a mess itself, and will make me one too. It’s coming. I promise. Maybe in another year 💀

“If only I knew” — me at least twice a day skshksjk 😭;; it be like that 🙁! Apologies for the unexpected jump-scares you got from my whole new blog and all :'))

I will eventually repost the works people wanted to be reposted — surprise, almost all of my cupidchois’ masterlist actually ended up there after I rounded everything up (and almost nothing from my bts blog minus the reactions), so there’s that. And, I can’t even explain how much this ask actually means to me. Crazy stuff. Life changing.

Thank you so much!!! I’m sending you a parcel full of positive energy and my love, which is not enough but it’s the best I can do atm </3