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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)
#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright#here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really#im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting#the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one#like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans#and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall#it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf#i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear#also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#amy rose#nov.aart#nov.junk
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if Bagi does enter the realm soon it’ll be a CRAZY time for her to join because of all the lore going on but she could lowkey just pull a Philza and just be a silly guy w/ minimal lore
#i wouldn’t be mad abt that honestly#a big reason the only realm streams i watch usually are Tina and Phil is because they don’t have any crazy lore that i have to keep up w/#aimsey i wish i could watch your pov but i fear i just can’t keep up </3#i’ll see little clips of lore and stuff and edits and i’ll just be like ‘what even happens on the realm smp…’ /pos#honestly i wish i could watch a lot of ppl on the realm but they’ve all got this crazy extensive lore going on and it would just be so much#like dhaijsjdkdk they all seem so cool and silly i wish i could watch them and understand what they’re talking abt 😭😭😭#one day i’ll understand all the realm lore trust trust#it’s just that my only two POVS are literally just silly guys who just vibe out LMAO#ok i’m done yapping now 🫡#bagi cattuzzo#philza#the realm#the realm smp#rain rambles#<- emphasis on the rambles part this time
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....idk in a fandom this gigantic how are people already coalescing onto a handful of popular headcanons and scenarios that just become the baseline now, when the source material gives us literally limitless possibilities to work with
#the torrential flood of 'jayvik with 4 kids' content im getting on arcane twt is incredible rn#but i do feel like im sitting in a bit of a corner bc i feel like the only person at this point who doesn't hc viktor as trans sobs#there's obv absolutely nothing i have against it it's just become a surprisingly pervasive fanon view that it's actually difficult to avoid#i think at least half of fics in the jayvik tag are trans viktor lmao#not to say i don't read any that are. but it's just not really what im interested in#i fear it will become one of those fanon hcs that will just be accepted as fact and if you happen to not ascribe to it you'll be ostracized#i've even started to see 'don't mpreg this you better be talking about trans pregnancy' like hi. sorry but are you new here#half my interest in the ship esp postcanon stuff is the weird magic and monsterfuckeryness of it all#like how can you not explore interesting other ways of giving them kids. he's connected to the arcane. he might still be in herald form#who the fuck knows. if i see pregnant viktor i would honestly prefer it to be Weird and semi-nonhuman thats the cool shit#i just. idk. srs please im not trying to say anything bad about the trans viktor headcanon it's fine and im glad ppl see themselves in him#it's just. it is becoming rather inescapable. the 'castiel loves bees' effect yknow.#i really want to interact with this fandom and im trying to like. reply to people on twitter. and even more now it feels like#if my headcanons don't align to the popular fandom big names' then it's pointless. i have no 1-on-1 communication with anyone#in this fandom it feels very lonely. i watch everyone make great art and jabber on and i kinda just watch and wave from the corner#anyway i'll just keep imagining my weird arcane herald mpreg or w/e. it's fun. prob will never write it tho cause the fandom clearly#knows what it wants and that isn't it lol. i barely see any arcane herald fics which is WILD. like canon gave you a feast and you're#ignoring it in favor of just having viktor be human in everything. lowkey hydrogen bomb vs crying baby lmao#i can think of three postcanon fics that have arcane herald viktor and i hold onto them so tightly lol#but yeah. this goes for more than just trans viktor it's about 'all timelines all possibilities' in terms of what people write in fics#it's for the most part very...tame? in terms of creativity of concept? there's darkfic of course but.#not nearly enough in the way of Weird that i'd expect given what's actually offered in the source material#'go write it yourself' well im trying it's taking forever and also the fandom's made me hesitant to write anything weird bc it seems like#there isn't interest in it. like bro even the number of fics featuring mage viktor is insanely low#the number of viktor permutations we have to work with and the fandom opts for the easy ones almost every time. sad
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How about Falin for the character bingo, also absolutely love your art!❤️
#i havent read the books to the end#so i#hope that my worst fears about her arent confirmed#no spoilers pls#also dnumesh has a p good fandom#at least the parts ive seen#so ppl are cool and the canon is good so#a lot of this board doesn't apply lmao#tess talks
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some men are textbook villains fr
#tw religion?#kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on#some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago#liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not#tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much#i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different#things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how#id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet#but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that#and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on#you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding#things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc#life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam#me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you'#AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you'#even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that'#and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone#(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it)#(nothing even ever started you bitchass)#also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it#mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal..#but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared#my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN#'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean#i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective#but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back#and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever#anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol#def gonna delete later#but ty for reading if u did <3
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oh also in other news. i finally finished leviathan the other day
#el plays kotor#feeling talkative right when the dash is messed up again. whatever. this is one way to put off playing skyrim#im so worried for bastila rn... please come back to me queen we gotta make up im sorry i called u as bad as the sith... i was upset...#her fate is one of the few things i've somehow managed to avoid spoilers for!!! so dont tell me what happens i gotta keep the suspense#also some of the companions' reactions to the reveal r so funny like...#mission basically said 'well if you don't remember being revan then it's ok :)' huh??????#i love how supportive she is but. millions died bc of liah. something to consider. you can be a little horrified and angry its ok#and like carth is the only one who's understandably angry at revan bc to him it's more personal#but even he sounds too chill. i think its partly bc of the voice acting. everyone speaks with the same even tone no matter the situation#and i almost laughed when canderous was like 'well actually it was malak who ordered the attack on ur homeworld carth#so revan is blameless in this' bro liah was literally the sith ceo you cant claim she had no part in this.....#and like idk it felt weird for canderous of all companions to comment on that#i feel like. he wouldnt care who is guilty of what. he just wants revan to lead him to epic battles he thinks warfare is awesome#i also feel like it was a feeble attempt from the game to make u feel less bad abt it#but thats not how it works game. because. revan was at the top of the chain of command. therefore. responsible for everything.#like!!! idk the writing in this game is so..... juvenile sometimes.......#yknow how some ppl talk abt the superior writing in old bioware games???? part of it has to be simple nostalgia#like they played the game when they were 10 and at that time it was the best thing ever#and they haven't revisited it at an older age with developed thinking skills#and im not saying the writing is dogshit! its just really goofy at certain parts! but really strong at others!! overall the game slaps!!!#but im just saying. u gotta see beyond just the nostalgia if ur gonna compare old and current bw#but idk ! anyway what else. the fight against malak was cool... with the red lighting in the corridor and everything...#he kept running away too... perhaps deep down he still fears his old master 😌#no but like if he hadn't been scripted to survive that fight i would've won. i was beating his ass#tho maybe it was just meant to be easy so that i would feel overconfident going into the final battle. who knows
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I was on the wikipedia page for phobias just for fun but just discovered theres an actual word for a fear of being touched.. 🥹
#haphephobia.... and they list guts from berserk under pop culture references 😢😢😭😭 thats my guy....#not gonna lie i teared up a bit i didnt realise it 'counted' as an actual phobia#i find it really difficult to talk abt but i have a complicated relationship w touch/physical contact (likely trauma babeyy)#and while i do crave it a lot i also have a very physical reflexive fear response especially if its intentional + i dont expect it#which can sometimes even get triggered just being in proximity to ppl bc like. even the possibility sets me on fucking edge#it would be nice to be as physically affectionate as i naturally want to be without dealing w my fight/flight/freeze but alas#its weird bc there are some random situations where it doesnt get triggered at all but its so unpredictable every time#and varies wildly person to person for seemingly no reason. there r strangers im innately more comfortable with but also friends ive known#for years and will never be comfortable around. i think part of that depends on how strongly the other person communicates and whether-#i feel as if theyre demonstrably able to respect boundaries not just mine but their own too + understand theyre not always fixed#ideally i need to have had this conversation with them so i Know they understand. which is rly difficult i find it so hard to admit#and i have a complicated mental block where i need the other person to naturally bring it up which very very rarely ever happens#idk just an atmosphere of safety yknow. i think its intentional touch that specifically makes me panic bc im usually fine w like-#bustling crowds or even expected social rules like handshakes at interviews. bc its not like they're Trying To Touch Me its just rote idk#hopefully eventually ill reach a place where im able to unpack it and reduce its severity bc man sometimes its fucking heartbreaking to me#bc i do genuinely really like physical contact im an incredibly physical person its my main way of interacting w the world#and the way having to force myself to avoid it meshes w my rsd too augh.... its a clusterfuck#even just having one person im completely comfortable with. maaaaan.#almost makes me miss my ex. at least i was mostly cool around them#god its sucked lately ive been having weird vivid dreams related to it. but whatever its so far down my list of problems to prioritize#and at least i dont get it w my familys dog so i can cuddle her :^) i miss her i cant wait to see her next month :D#anywayyyy thats enough im so tired goodnight every1...#.diaries
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why are ppl so fuckign scaryyy :(((
#im scared of 11 year olds in starbucks and idk whyy#i think it might be bc i dont have any irl friends so i only rlly go out with my parents#and then i see other teenagers out together and the little social anxiety guy in my brain is like oh no they will think u are NOT COOL#anyways a middle aged woman complimented me on my boots today which was nice :•))#also ive figured out that im mostly scared of people closer to my age#like anyone thats like 30+ im perfectly fine around aside from my usual social anxiety#unless theyre older men who sit too close to me and make too much eye contact#but even then its like;;more just being uncomfortable less outright fear#also i can talk to other ppl my age online okay for whatever reason????#which is nice bc now i have friendss#but irl teenagers are still scary :((
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Flirting should not be limited to romance I feel. Platonic flirting, sexual flirting (or is that teasing?), alterous flirting —they should all get to flirt
#i platonic flirt so much its actually a problem#specifically when im tyrna make new friends cause then#it sounds like im hitting on them#like i pinky promise i js wanna be ur friend cause u seem cool#its just the way i talk im sorry#and i cant not do it#because then i sound awkward as fuck#if the level of socially acceptable flirting was a dial#id be a switch with one option that says “MASSIVE FLIRT”#and the other option being “socially awkward thing :/”#also i have an irrational fear that it might be read as me wanting to date ppl i talk with#i got so paranoid one time that i flat out texted them “hey just so you know like i dont have a crush on u so”#IT WAS SO AWKWARD
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tangentially prev i literally used to get stressed out when i was a kid bc like i knew animals had different lifespans than people and id lie awake and id be like . if a deer was born in the wild at the same moment as me itd probably be dead by now . and id get so stressed out abt it
#Tanrentially related to rhis is i used to just get so stressed out as a kid bc i was like . one day there will be no more ppl born in 2005#and there will never be New people who were born in 2005 or any other year the number only ever goes down once the years done. this was a#big fear for younger me For some reason. it was this and the like. ok. so#two things. 1. i used to just space out and truly forget i was human and be fully one with a universe and then id despair when i remembered#that i was avtually just a little girl and a real person and i existed. bc id zoom out and it all seemed so inconsequential and it was#lovely. i say 'used to' this still happens just not the same way#and rhe other thing is Id get incredibly freaked out bc id like. id be doing something like. nothing. passing time or reading or whatever#but then id have a moment of clarity and id be like. If i forget this moment tomorrow did it ever actually happen. and id think of how many#moments r just gone from my life bc i dont remember them like. that was a big fear for me as a kid was id just be sitting somewhere and id#be like. this moment is real right now because im living it but if i forget about it than it never actually happened because im not like.#being observed. its just me and if i dont remember it than it never really happened. and this happened so often that it felt like a chain of#myself thinking that exact same thought and just like. looking back and seeing all those moments Kind of thing. but anyways basically i dont#think either of those early fears and terrors have anything to do with my current day psyche so we dont need to talk abt it 👍 except that#we like. have. bc i talked abt it... but whateverrr not my business !#its kinda funny tho i remember like. trying to talk to my dad abt my like Deeply held fear that i wasnt real unless i was being observed#and his response was basically like. That sounds crazy. dont say stuff like that it makes you sound crazy . DJFNJFNGG#and then later was shocked when i didnt go to him for mental health help and its like ... well ... + just yelling at me whenever i cried in#front of him to either 'tell him why i was upset or hed guve me something to cry about'#and its like. well tbh father i dont actually want to explain that im being groomed online rn in the car with the entire family here#including The baby and the 6 year old . but ok . thats cool. and obviously id cry more from being yelled at#sry this got whiny its fine. i was annoying for crying in front of everyone NFNFJFN even tho i wasnt trying to. obviously. i hate crying in#front of ppl
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le sighs and screams loudly into my hands
#im just gonna talk about it in the tags lol#i wanna like participate more in fandom spaces but i never really do that because i get so scared#i mean sure writing fics and all is fun but like ... idk#on twitter seeing ocs for it is soooo cool but i feel if i do it no one would like it idk#i think thats just my overthinking and second guessing myself#i wanna be more active and all that with fandoms but just fear#its always this its always the stupid fear#i think its also more on the fact that i get terrified because i feel someone will see what i post on there???#idk i just#i wanna be a part of it because it seems so fun and the community just seems so nice??#i just have so many issues with socialising i am so socially awkward idk what to say without being weird???#this always happens! aaaaaaaaa#i mean i know i have to like nothing will happen if i dont try to be open but i still get so scared#im not even gonna talk about what the fandom is for personal reasons but its literally the thing thats keeping me sane lol#its just??? i wanna talk about my silly ocs too but i cannot out of FEAR AAAAAAAAAAAAAA#i was so like “im gonna be more active and engaging on twitter!” and then i DONT out of fear!#man. wish i was like normal and not socially anxious all the time oh well#i guess tumblr is easier to talk about this sort of thing than twitter anyway??#but ppl who are on tumblr in this fandom hate this one character i absolutely adore so </3#idk what to do le sigh#its fine things will always turn out better#maybe its because i wanna draw and i wanna be good at it too? idk#im fine i think sort of. i dont know. i wish i just was so scared about this sort of thing#no one is like being mean to me about it so idk why im scared#maybe i just never been nicely welcomed into fandom spaces :\#idk#haha sorry#i just needed to vent in the tags i guess#kaden txts#<- yeah. fine. i dont care.
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#so me n my bf r an ~international couple~ (not long distance lol)#n tn was the first time we talked abt our initial fears and hangups about that#oh and our preconceived notions#it was such a cool and eye opening conversation to have! just seeing how one nation might view the other#something that rly stood out to me was#when he said he thinks us being different and having a language barrier is an interesting point for him#bc. i feel the same way 😳 like ofc it can come w its difficulties but there's just something#so special and enjoyable#about having to navigate each other and our relationship in a not so straightforward way#bc it somehow leads to such a deep understanding and appreciation of each other?#when usually ppls fear would be that reaching a deep understanding is extremely difficult#also nailed in how stereotypes r just that. stereotypes.#and we're both so different from what we expected each other to be#ahhhh eeeeee#also i learned a lot of new things about him it's just so fun ☺️#so crazy to me how surface level and uncomfortable and confusing prev 'relationships' have been. even tho#even tho we spoke the same language and grew up in the same society#like there's truly no excuse#boyfie has none of those things yet he alwaaayyyys makes an effort to reassure me and let me know his feelings#men do better#anyway sry block me im gonna bf post every now and then
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#can we pls finally talk abt the socially anxious fear of having your selfie be the icon in a zoom meeting?? like i dont want my camera on#bc FUCK that my professor cant make me show my face but i also don't want to feel like ppl are staring at my selfie either??!#my professor is just going to have to be okay with my bar mirror selfie bc i actually like it and my face is very visible#its visible and its giving cool mirror pic not doe eyed selfie ugh#i usually love my doe eyed look but not in a selfie classroom meeting way. like be so fucking real
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Let's Talk About Security Culture: Why Keeping Secrets is Cool and Sexy
It's a natural impulse -- if you love crime -- to want to talk about how great it is. And if you hate America, it's only natural to want to share your dreams for its future with the rest of tumblr dot com. It can feel brave and transgressive. And there is a drive to share your soul with the world at the heart of social media. Surely I should be posting the most concrete implications of my politics, right? This is the poster's curse.
Security Culture refers to a set of "best practices" developed over the past several decades, largely (in a US context) coming out of radical environmental groups as they faced intense state repression, infiltration and entrapment. If you're not familiar, there's some fascinating crimethinc write ups to give you a window into that world:
Much of it boils down to: don't talk about crimes, past or forthcoming with people who don't need to know about them, and be mindful of the possibility of surveillance and infiltration. And, we can support each other as a community in minimizing risks, with an eye towards enabling bold action rather than getting bogged down in fears and anxieties. The guidelines that make sense for AG-based trouble-makers are different from the guidelines that make sense for posters, but plenty of common principles apply. To speak briefly to our position here as posters:
First, it bears saying that long term anonymity is nearly impossible to maintain. Unless you've never accessed Tumblr without a vpn, and avoided connections with other ppl who can be associated with you/your location, and never shared pictures without scrubbing metadata, and a bunch of other 100% consistent steps, it's trivial for the state to know who you are.
Second, just because something isn't actively being prosecuted now doesn't mean it can't be prosecuted later. The priorities of the state change and a shift in power towards the right or a growth in radical action from the left can suddenly make it a priority to destroy anarchist networks or just find a few ppl to prosecute as examples (who probably weren't that plugged into larger networks before getting arrested). Advocating for specific anti-government crimes or declarations of intent to commit such crimes are likely prosecutable, and even if charges don't stick, they're an easy vector for legal harassment.
Third, it's worth thinking about heat as separate from prosecutability. There are modes of engagement that may not be directly criminalized but signal that you are someone worth watching. Some people choose to be public in ways that make heat unavoidable. But it's worth noting that heat isn't strictly individualized, that it persists over time but also is going to shrink over time.
It's easy on here, ime, to see yourself as a proud member of the crime fandom but not much of a content creator. And it's easy to feel like you've generated an amount of heat where you're locked into that role. But heat you generated 10 years ago is probably pretty well gone. Heat you generated 5 years ago has faded substantially. It's worth thinking about how the world might shift in the coming years and what doors you want to keep open.
The non-individualized nature of heat also means that leaning into the spiciest of anti-state positions will make it a bad idea for people who are acting out those positions end up tied to you. Loudly talking about how "more people should be doing [X/Y/Z]" unfortunately sets you up to remain distant from people who might be doing or thinking about doing such things.
Which brings me back to: keeping secrets is sexy. Not spelling everything out builds intrigue. You can lay out a theoretical position and leave working out the practical implications of that as an exercise for the reader. There's value in opacity. The poster's curse and the drive to confess are extremely convenient for the state, but we can resist them. We can hold dreams in our hearts that we refuse to offer up to the posting spectacle.
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The thing is that writing transfem first date advice is not that hard. Like. I feel like there are a couple of things to watch out for because of our condition as a social group but its not that deep.
Like, really, it comes down to three or four things.
First: Take initiative because she will often feel pressured to/uncomfortable with being the one to do it. We're pressured since we're young into that role and it can feel suffocating, plus with the ever-growing paranoia abt every trans women being a predator, there's a fear of crossing a line (especially when it's the first time meeting someone)
Second: Transfems are usually pretty socially isolated, either in past or present, so there will be niche hobbies and interests. Listen to what she has to say abt it and gauge if it matches to your tastes, because if you want this to not be just a hook up the topic will come up again and its not gonna go great when on date number 3 you forget completely what she told you abt her favorite show. These things are important for many of us because its what allowed us to survive isolatiom at times.
Third: be assertive. Way too many ppl I went out with thought I was nice and cool and interesting but were so scared to touch me, so scared to take a pass at me, that it just feels. Awkward and like your body is this weird alien thing. This is a date like every other right? So touch her. Really do it. Make sure to let them know that you are going to put your hands on them On Purpose.
Like apart from that? Genuinely? Use common sense. None of that "dont touch her tits/touch her tits" like. Talk to her how she feels abt her body if it feels like that question would come up (maybe shes early transition, maybe shes anxious, maybe shes inexperienced), but if you're going out with a girl 8 years into transition its unlikely shes going to have the same level of hangups as someone who just got started in this "being trans" thing. But you are unfortunstely gonna have to be the judge on that because everybody has a diff body.
Its not that hard man. Like yes i feel like there is a place for a well-meaning "hey how do you date trans women" but unfortunately men keep fucking it up so its up to a lesbian to try and explain how you dorks should talk to women
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𝜗𝜚 thinking about sitting on abby’s lap. taking over all of my thoughts. like you’re assigned with her on a little patrol sesh and a few other ppl. u guys ride on the back of those combat truck thingies, but there definitely is no room for ur butt on any area of that vehicle. so, reluctantly offering, abby leans back a bit and pats her knee gently. “you can sit here, if you want.” and jesus you can’t tell if you’d rather die or if this is what you’ve been dreaming of. you shake your head, not wanting to make a fool of yourself, and laugh. “no no, it’s fine. i can crouch here.” while gripping the side of the truck, knowing you’re bound to slip from the gravelly bumpy roads you travel on. abby shakes her head and ushers you with her hand. “cmon, you’re gonna bust your ass if you do. just sit on my leg, it’s no big deal.” you don’t wanna hold up the group any longer, so you oblige. you sit yourself snug on her right thigh. god, it’s so firm and so thick. she’s just pure fucking muscle. you had that underlying fear of being too heavy or uncomfortable for her, but abby never looked happier. leaned back, elbows resting on the edges of the truck while she talks with manny. internally though, she’s freaking out a lil. but you know she’s too cool to show it. as you guys drive off, the bumpy path makes you slip a bit, using your feet to try and steady yourself on her leg. abby takes notice of this, and grabs your hips ever so gently, sliding you up to her upper thigh. “don’t want you to fall off.” she says, to which you respond with an awkward chuckle and a nod. your ass obviously now has more room on her firm lap, and she just keeps you there. definitely not gonna get back to ur room and ride the fuck out of ur pillow, fantasizing abt her thighs. how badly you just wanna grind your cunt down so slightly— maybe she wouldn’t notice with how bumpy the ride was. you resist of course. if only you knew that abby was resisting turning you around and having you cum on her thigh right then and there, in front of everyone else.
need her in a way that creates a new sin in the bible sawry

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#dolly’s stuff 𝜗𝜚#tlou2#abby tlou2#abby anderson smut#lesbian#abby tlou#abby the last of us#it would heal me#i’m braindead rn tbh sorry..
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