#i feel offended on his behalf but only bc this is TRUE !!!

[thespoonisvictory]

Hamilton Hot Take: A Hamilton that kept in the deleted songs and workshop versions tell a superior story (So Broadway vs Off-Broadway version). And, no, I’m not just talking about Congratulations (although that one should’ve also been kept).

A significant part of Hamilton’s narrative focuses on the relationship between Burr and Hamilton. From the beginning, their ideologies and the way they get ahead are completely different. Burr keeps his true opinions and thoughts close to his chest. He never reveals anymore than what will make him most agreeable to others. His persona is one of inoffensively likable. Hamilton is quite the opposite. He is never indecisive, always shooting off his own opinions. He takes risks in order to grab at better opportunities, but often this leads him to gathering more enemies. And despite these differences, Hamilton and Burr remain good friends who have a lot of mutual respect (and envy) of one another.

Until the second act that is. And the second act is also unfortunately where things start getting cut and rewritten.

As the dsmp fandom would put it, Broadway A. Hamilton is made “smooth” compared to his original counterpart. He’s much calmer and more reasonable. He’s pride and short temper have been stripped away. And Burr, in comparison, is stripped of much of his more sympathetic traits. Aside from Dear Theodosisa (Reprise) and really any mention of his family being entirely cut, he’s made to be far more malicious and villainous in other songs, compared to their original lyrics.

Take for example, Schuyler Defeated. Both versions start on Eliza and Philip finding out about Eliza’s father being challenged for his seat in the senate. In the Broadway version, Eliza is very unconcerned with this development and she and Philip leave the song as quickly as they entered, happy to go and meet the new senator. The original, in contrast, starts out with a panicked Eliza, desperate to find Alexander because she knows exactly how he’ll take this. Hamilton’s characterization also vastly changes depending on the version. Broadway Hamilton is very calm, innocently asking about Burr’s change in party affiliation. Meanwhile, og Hamilton comes out swinging, already furious, he demands to know when Burr changed parties. Hamilton is far more personally offended in this version, framing Burr running against Schuyler as an attempt to “make a fool of [him],” compared to to the Broadway version where he seems more offended on behalf of his father-in-law. The only thing that stops Hamilton from doing anything stupid for what is essentially just running for senate AND not the personal attack Hamilton views it as, is Eliza and, later in the deleted song “Let It Go,” Washington talking him down from it.

Another example is the Broadway vs original versions of “Your Obedient Servant.” The Broadway version is undoubtedly framed in a deeply negative light. He is furious, unable to understand Hamilton’s support of Jefferson, viewing it as an attempt to keep him from winning, as something done to spite Burr specifically. Meanwhile, the original Burr is more calm in level headed in explaining his feelings. In both versions, Burd makes accusations towards Hamilton. In the original, he backs up his claims with a source in the form of a private letter sent in confidant, while Broadway Burr makes accusations of Hamilton calling him “amoral [and] a dangerous disgrace,” which is never said by Hamilton anywhere and has no basis. This combined with Burr already suggestion they can name a time and place I’d they have a disagreement, makes Burr come across as far more petty and eager to start a fight. Faced with accusation with no basis, Broadway Hamilton responds fairly reasonably, saying he would need to sight a specific source for him to be able to disavow those words, and provides his own list of disagreements with. Original Hamilton, however, is very flippant of the accusations, being incredibly petulant in denying Burr’s accusations, mocking the wording of them. And yes, while both Burr’s escalate the conversations to threats, the Hamilton’s responses show just how different these versions. Broadway Hamilton stands by what he says and defending himself by saying that everything he said is true and that Burr stands for nothing. Which is completely true, so Burr then challenging Hamilton to a duel makes Burr seem unreasonable and angry that Hamilton pointed out how his own ideology screwed him over. While original Hamilton makes the whole disagreement incredibly personal, for no reason, bringing up Burr’s dead wife to mock him. It’s only then that Burr challenges Hamilton to a duel, to which Hamilton agrees to almost immediately, showing how rash the original Hamilton is, compared to the Broadway version who thinks the challenge over for a few seconds before agreeing.

And finally, “Ten Things, One Things,” really shows how far their friendship and understanding of each other has fallen off. Burr’s perspective shows how much he wants Hamilton to apologize and back down from the duel, only realizing at the 8th count that this is a serious duel, and Hamilton won’t be backing down. Meanwhile Hamilton goes into the duel considering the possibility they might die, but as the counting continues he becomes more and more convinced he and Burr will survive. He is specifically is assured of this by realizing it’s not in Burr’s political interests to kill him. While Hamilton scrutizes the area, Burr’s own fear and paranoia takes hold, convinced Hamilton will shoot, Burr resolves to kill Hamilton first, so his daughter will not orphaned. All the while, is so assured of his safety that he starts to think about going to back to his house to see Eliza awaken. Neither one of them are able to fathom the possibility of the other outside of the image they’ve created of each other. Hamilton cannot see a Burr that wouldn’t wait, and Burr cannot see a Hamilton who would throw away his shot.

Far more emphasize is placed on Hamilton’s violent anger in the original, while in the Broadway version this is lost and Burr is pained more as the unreasonable instigator in their deteriorating friendship, when the original makes it so much more complicated than that. Broadway is so much more Black and White in the story it tells, where the villain Burr shoots our hero Hamilton, rather than the far more interesting story of a friendship between two men based on mutual respect, admiration, and envy and how that friendship ultimately changed both until they could no longer understand each other and how that inability to see how the other had changed, led to their ultimate falling out in the form of final duel.

I’m not saying the workshop versions of songs are better musically (I know jack shit about music) but they make Hamilton’s characterization and relationship with Burr so much richer and that’s why the story they tell is so much better to me.

TLDR; Hamilton is less of bitch in the Broadway version and it makes me >:(

I hope this makes sense, I started to ramble

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god damn this is so good idk what to do with this other than nod and tell you to run my blog for me

also- this reminds me of what happened to off broadway orpheus vs live broadway orpheos, bc ob!orpheus is a self confident bitch who was charismatic and funny and I like him so much, and b!orpheus is a awkward little rat creature who doesn't make as much sense both as a character and in the narrative. he got smoothed

[goldanna-blog]

“If you need my shoulder, or my hand, or a hug-”

soft sentences!↳  alistair theirin / reader.

notes: short n sad bc alistair’s a good boyfriend lbr here. even if this is set in dragon age 2 when he’s miserably exiled lmao.rating: teen. there’s some death mentions.words: 774.

You hold in your chest a great many songs, all of them are slowly removed and sung. All of them are sung for him, every night, so he might sleep. 

Alistair’s not so drunk as to postpone gratitude, but every time you join him in bed with a new tune singing at the back of your mind he fails to return the favour. He doesn’t know how. You sit up, give him a lap to rest his head in. What could he say to the woman who has everything?

What could you want from a bastard? He’s no chance of ever being king, now. Though he knows what you’d say if he offered. “A queen? Me? Oh, Alistair, I’d run wild!”

And he’d laugh, because it would be true. You on a throne would spell chaos, surely. But as his eyes close, he knows it would also spell beauty. 

He’d hate to rule, just as much as you would. But he thinks about you, shining brilliantly on a throne of painted wood. One leg thrown over the armrest, you’d beckon your subjects nearer than they ever dared before with a sunny smile. 

You would be a radiant queen. But perhaps it’s best that it’s only a fantasy. 

There are lips pressed to his brow this evening, careful fingers tugging his hair away from his forehead. Alistair blinks and opens his eyes. You look tired in the candlelight, another long day of stitching up the people that Kirkwall’s tried to abandon. 

He doesn’t know what goes on down in Darktown, he’s yet to swing by the clinic though you’ve invited him around. Alistair doesn’t need to know specifics to understand how hard you work. 

While he sits most days, deep in his cups and feeling sorry for himself. There’s a sick, sinking sensation in his stomach. Why should he have sleep when you’ve earned it? 

“Hey,” Alistair starts. He’s story to interrupt your song, you were just about to get to the chorus. He turns in your lap, sitting up just enough to look you in the eye. “Why don’t you have a lie-down with me, hm?” 

“I lie down with you every night,” you tell him. Your smile’s there, he can see it but there’s a sadness behind it. 

“I mean before I’ve dropped off,” he clarifies. Alistair reaches for your hand. “You just look a bit worse for wear. Get some sleep, we both need it.” 

“I look fine,” you defend, but it’s still said like a joke. “I’m fine.” 

“Right,” Alistair says and the topic dies for a bit. He sits up, moving so you’re no longer the only one leaning against the headboard. “You’re a bad liar.” 

“I know,” you reply. It doesn’t take very much to get you to admit the obvious, at least. You’ve been beat since you walked in to the Hanged Man. “But you’re the one—”

“Who’s more important? Is that what you were going to say?” Alistair cuts you off. But he doesn’t sound angry, quite the opposite. That gentle mockery, that flirtatious teasing makes you feel safe. “How dare you, I’m offended on your behalf.” 

“You’re important,” you insist, looking at him with unbridled adoration. It comes on hot and fast, how much you care. 

“I’ll not debate that for the sake of my health,” he says, “but you’ve got to tell me what’s wrong.” 

“Nothing,” you keep trying to lie. He rolls his eyes. 

“Liar,” he repeats, “please, you have to let me do something about it.” 

“Alistair,” you sigh. He shakes his head. 

“I don’t have much to offer, I know, but if you need my shoulder, or my hand, or a hug—” you cut him off with the saddest look he’s ever seen. 

“All three,” you whisper. Your sudden, forward lunge catches him off-guard but Alistair’s quick to accommodate. He hugs you, nearly crushes you against him. All he wants is to impart a fraction of that safe feeling you inspire in him. 

“What happened?” he asks, patting your back with a dazed look over your shaking shoulders. 

“I lost a patient,” you finally mumble. It’s hard to hear, muffled against cloth and skin. But he hears it, his heart sinks. “She was just a little girl and I couldn’t—”

“I understand,” he says. You get the feeling he really might. “It’s all right, I’m here.” 

And he is, even as you ensure his doublet will need cleaning. Tears, at least, are unlikely to stain. Alistair pulls you into his lap, ignoring the dizziness in his head. He stays awake, like you have for him, as long as you need.

[companionhell]

Would you consider doing companions react to Sole sticking up for them, even when they weren’t around? The companion meets up with Sole one day and Sole’s rocking a gnarly shiner+other injuries- when asked about it, Sole admits that someone at the bar was talking about their companion rudely/creepily and Sole got into a serious bar fight with them over it, bc “Nobody says that kind of stuff about MY best friend without comeuppance.” (IDK, Sole being a True Homie is good to me.)

Leaving Dogmeat out because… who would insult the dog? :(

Cait: Cait looked at them in disbelief for a minute. “Are ya fuckin’ with me?” When Sole shook their head, Cait just laughed and punched their shoulder (regardless of any injuries there). “Well, looks like the bastard got a good swing or two on you.” She didn’t seem to take it too seriously while speaking to them, but in reality it was kinda… sobering. Cait couldn’t think of another soul who’d risk their skin on her behalf, even if it was only a fistfight. Certainly, she saw Sole in a different light afterwards.

Codsworth: He made a big fuss. “Oh my… sir/mum!” Codsworth floated around them, craning his eyes to inspect wounds and promptly giving Sole medical supplies, erring on the side of excessive caution. “While it was quite generous of you to defend my honor, sir/mum,” he said, still bustling around as Sole tended to their injuries, “you mustn’t harm yourself on my behalf. And you certainly mustn’t escalate a verbal altercation like that, good lord! A few insults aren’t the end of the world. There must be other ways to resolve an argument.”

Curie: Curie was horrified. She scolded Sole while tending to their injuries, dabbing their scrapes with alcohol and putting ice on the larger bruises. Her words switched between almost inaudible, usually medical notes to herself, and louder, more pointed comments on how violent the Commonwealth was. “Mon dieu. Hurting others is never acceptable, but it seems you never learned that up here. Minor laceration… Just because this world is full of barbarians doesn’t excuse retaliation.” Fighting, even for her, would not win her approval.

Danse: Danse sighed heavily when he saw Sole’s black eye and dozens of bruises and scrapes. Other than that, though, he didn’t actually scold them too badly, besides maybe shaking his head as they told the story. Afterwards, Danse told them sternly not to put themselves in harm’s way like that- yes, even if he was being insulted- but he was internally somewhere between touched and vaguely bemused. He wasn’t sure he wouldn’t have done the same thing himself, honestly, so he couldn’t be too critical of Sole.

Deacon: Yeah, it was pretty funny, but it still wasn’t great to have been positively identified at a bar and then associated with Sole in the form of a fight with several witnesses. Especially if it was at, like, the Dugout Inn, where the proprietors were already suspicious of Deacon. “Well, looks like I need a new cover,” he said in resignation. “Have fun in your fistfight? Break any teeth for me?” Really, Deacon didn’t know how to feel about it. He wasn’t the biggest fan of the violence, but he also didn’t doubt Sole’s loyalty- and that was something.

Gage: After he got over his initial surprise that Sole would fight for him (it was definitely a new feeling), Gage was honestly baffled that the other guy wasn’t dead. He couldn’t believe someone had managed to give Sole a shiner without three bullets between their eyes- this was the Overboss, after all. Some folks had got shot for less. If Sole chose to keep it limited to a fistfight for some strategic reason, though, Gage would wanna know who the fuck it was. If someone that important had it out for him, he wanted to know.

Hancock: He grinned at the news, stepping back to get a big-picture view of Sole’s injuries. “Well, well. Looks like you finally paid me back for Finn. You, uh, just rough 'em up a little? Not seeing any red stains on your get-up, there.” Whether Sole had killed the person or not, Hancock was glad to see how much Sole’s sense of loyalty lined up with his. Hell, he’d killed a man for Sole on day one, and that willingness hadn’t changed much since. He wanted to know who was bad-mouthing him, though- shut down any conspiracies before they started.

MacCready: MacCready kind of half-laughed at the sorry state Sole was in, but he was actually pleasantly surprised. He hadn’t met a lot of people who’d do anything like that for him, and though he considered Sole his best friend, it was nice to have that affirmation. “Yeesh, that’s a nasty black eye. Knowing you, though, I bet the other guy looks way worse.” That prompted Sole into a graphic description of exactly what they’d done to that idiot, which MacCready sat and listened to, growing more appreciative (and more amused) by the second.

Nick: He was firstly concerned about Sole’s injuries, but once assured they were minor and told the reason, Nick got vaguely irritated. He had several pals with a penchant for fisticuffs, Hancock included, but this was ridiculous. Nick had been insulted his whole life, faced anti-synth prejudice almost everywhere, but he’d never resorted to a fistfight without a damn good reason. He told Sole so, too, but he found he couldn’t be too hard on them. They were just trying to watch Nick’s back, after all, though their methods were less than savory.

Piper: She rolled her eyes. “Come on, Blue. Again? If you concussed everyone who’d ever criticized me, half the Commonwealth would be out cold.” In truth, Piper was more playfully irritated than actually irate. Though maybe Sole wasn’t the best role model for Nat to see fraternizing with her older sister, Sole was a real good person, with a persistent sense of humor and an undying loyalty to their friends. They weren’t too violent, either- unless Piper’s dignity was on the line, apparently. She didn’t really mind, but she couldn’t encourage it either.

Preston: Preston was disapproving, sure (especially considering his worry when Sole walked into Sanctuary looking like that), but he didn’t really get mad. Maybe it wasn’t the best for public image if the General of the Minutemen was seen getting into bar fights, but the thought behind it was sweet. It was nice to know Sole cared about him so much, actually, that Preston’s admiration was reciprocated, even if Sole’s way of showing it left something to be desired. He still suggested they avoid it in the future, though.

Strong: Strong recognized the bruises and cuts as badges of a successful hand-to-hand fight, and didn’t even need the explanation before he was expressing approval, if mixed with semi-condescending remarks on fragile human skin. He was glad to hear Sole was defending him, too. Though he insisted he would have rather snapped the offender’s neck himself, he knew other humans stared at Sole while he was with them. It was good that Sole didn’t mind their judgement, just as he didn’t mind his brothers’ disapproval.

X6-88: X6 bit the inside of his lip once he saw Sole. He’d seen this person stare down mutants, Gunners, deathclaws, and he found it very difficult to not make a sarcastic remark about how some bar fight would be their downfall. Somehow, he kept it in, though, and was surprised by Sole’s next words, glad for the sunglasses to hide his eyes widening. Obviously, he didn’t care what the wastelanders thought of him, but Sole clearly did- and their demonstrable loyalty to X6 was almost... touching. He’d never experienced anything like it.

[briteboy]

(circumstantial name by @earnoodle)

IT’S FINALLY TIME FOR THE POST YOU’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR (or maybe just that one anon)

there’s a LOT in here, newer questions are generally first so if you asked something a while ago and you’re only interested in that, scroll towards the bottom. also doing wcifs separately (errr i’m gonna try my hardest to ok don’t crucify me)

this mass anons post includes topics ranging from Very Sweet Things Said To Me That I Don’t Deserve, nitpicking stranger things, crying over ramona, lou theories, Cillian Is A Fucking Creep theories (true), and completely unhelpful reshade advice

let’s f0cking do this

You're right, apart from carrying his stupid brain, Santi's head didn't do anything to any of us. I apologize for anon.

I'm pretty sure I said that already but I love Rooney and Santi's relationship so much I literally have no words for it

ME TOO LIKE IT’S JUST SO PURE TWO NOT-KIDS SCARED OF THE ADULT WORLD TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT WITH THEIR WEIRD BRAINS TOGETHER ;__; i love them

YO i didnt know u were a demigirl!! im a demiboy nb Buddies

hell fuckin yeah dude!! we are starting a demi club

Ok but like I really want werewolves. Like I know it sounds stupid but we have vampire and while yes I love my bat babes, I want a giant pupper friend. I have story written out and plans for a cabin to build. Now I’m waiting for EA to give me my big hairy babes.

DUDE i want more supernatural stuff too, mostly witches like I NEED MY WITCHES AGAIN!!! ts3 witches were so good. i didn’t like ts3 werewolves much but i feel like they’d be super cool in ts4, knowing how the vampires came out. i NEED it

hihi! i've been very quietly (??) following your blog for some time now and i just fawn over your characters way too much ?? anywho, i've been wanting to start my own little simblr story but ,, i'm not entirely sure where to even start? i have so many stories that i'd love to get out there, and i have the means.. butt, how did you go about starting out?? so sorry this is so long but i look up to you a whole ton!!! ty ily! :-)

i’m the (??) lmao that’s me always but ahdhghdfkshg thank you so much!!!!! i’m so glad you love them, it means the world to me ;-; and listen, that was me, i had no idea how i was going to do it because i’d only seen ts3 stories up to that point and i thought there was like a set Way to tell stories but i had no idea what i was doing so i was like y’know what...i’m just gonna do it how i feel comfortable doing it and i’m gonna figure it out as i go along. so honestly try to roughly plan out what your stor(ies) will entail and if you get stuck on planning and can’t figure it out, just jump right into it, try to make a few scenes or get the ball rolling somehow, even if it’s just random posts (i mean that’s all my blog was until i decided to commit to santi’s story.) it’s always gonna feel weird and awkward at first, but you’ll get comfortable the more you do it and it’ll figure itself out, trust me!

I read through most of your story posts the other day and now I’m rereading it again just to torture myself some more (and maybe catch up on some posts I may have missed). I honestly don’t think I’ve come across a sims story that’s so beautifully written & includes such evocative pictures as yours. I’m really at a loss for words, it’s all so stunning. & after a nearly two-month long creative block, it’s planted the smallest seed of inspiration in the back of my mind, so thank you for your art.

AHHHH AHSDHKGKDSJG WHAT!!!!! it’s always crazy hearing that 1) people actually care about my stuff, and 2) that it inspires them. like i really cannot believe that, stilL!! thank you so so much, i’m so happy you enjoyed it (as torturous as it was, lmao) it seriously warms my heart that you’re getting your groove back in the creative world, that means more to me than ANYTHING!! good luck with your art or whatever you decide to do with that inspiration!

 can i pls have your editing skill please and thank you

i owe most my editing at this point to reshade so honestly get reshade and u will probably become better than me

o added u on animal crossing and when you added me back i was so happy,, your little person is sooo adorable ((:

OMG!! thank you!! everyone’s person on there is adorable i cry i love them all so much i’m so mad tho it won’t let me add any more friends!!! it probably cuts off at like 100 friends or something STUPID

First of all, I love you. Secondly, I love your photos so much. I'm legit about to just ditch sims 3 for 4 now because of your amazing posts. 😖

LMFAO no but really THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!!! if you can manage playing both i admire u, i’ve invested too much time and effort into ts4 to ever fully go back to any other sims games tbh

The new patch made my game unplayable! I'm crying, I miss my doggos...

NOOOOO!!! hopefully by now you’ve found a fix, i’m prayin for u

long time listener, first time caller yoooo. i like everyone love your stories and your sim aesthetic so so so much and just tbh i was offended on your behalf about that ask from that person wanting to novelize your stories. like you were way too nice. this is your intellectual property and it's fucked up that someone would think it'd be okay to duplicate it as long as they used a different medium. this is prob a bad one to repost just wanted to you to know you're an awesome, singular voice

omfg lmao this is a radio show now *z100 voice* tellem why ya mad euhhh first of all i can’t believe someone even ASKED that, i’m in shock because like what this is so foreign to me. people want to write about MY characters WHAT! like that alone...takes a long time to process. and like i know i should say no but then i feel mean but they’re also my creations so like idk. it warms my heart that you feel so strongly and would stand up for me like that i’m cryin thank u for calling in i love u

I JUST FINISHED YOUR ENTIRE STORY AND I'M NOT OK WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PUTTING ME THROUGH THAT SHIT IT'S AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER AND I FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE ABUSED MY (NON EXISTENT) INNOCENCE WOW

I’M SO SORRY U HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT ALSO I APOLOGIZE FOR STEALING YOUR INNOCENCE I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN OSDAFKJDSK BUT THANK YOU FOR READING I’M GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT EVEN IF IT HURT YOU!!!

I've been up all night and it's now 11am. I'm completely binging on your stories bc I am in LOVE and need a Molly in my game asap. Do you think you'll ever upload her?

omG my freaking story inciting insomnia i’m so sorry for ur sleep schedule first of all, but at least that makes you identify with santi even more omg tho ;___; (how many times will i say ‘omg’ i wonder) i don’t think so because she is so dear to me and makes my heart ache, she is just so special, i dunno if i could ever release her into the wild like that lmao. i haven’t even shared her with my friends (not that i really ever had a reason to) but like yeah. maybe in the future that’ll change but right now, no, i’m sorry <3

To change the topic: Idk if you watch stranger things but I only managed to get to episode 3 of season 2 before I stopped watching lmao it was so bad and Billy (a certified Cunt) ruined the whole show for me

YEAH I DID! omg. i have a LOT of issues with this season (mostly in how badly they tried to retcon nancy and everyone else not caring about barb’s death, how bad the writing was in the realm of nancy and steve breaking up and then her and jonathan getting together...holy fuck it was so uncomfortable with that 40 yr old conspiracy theorist guy i couldn’t even enjoy my ship getting together lmao) also ur right, max and billy honestly did not offer anything to the story...like i loved max too but what was the point...billy acted like their presence and the reason they had to move was so dramatic when it was really nothing...unless they’re saving that for season 3 but like. the whole situation with billy was so anticlimactic. he was like a walmart version of henry from IT. like boohoo ur dad’s an asshole and then he beat up steve. good character arc. i liked max standing up for herself but really...that whole thing was so lackluster, i didn’t care about it at all. ALSO I HATED THAT THEY DIDN’T LET MAX AND ELEVEN BE FRIENDS!! i’m sure it’ll happen in season 3 but like c’mon...that would’ve made the max character feel a little more important to the story. anyway yeah fuck billy and i don’t get why everyone is lusting after him or his actor they’re both ugly! thanks for listening

I just got the sims 4 + city living and I’m so excited! I was really inspired by your stories and style in general... I was wondering what packs do you have and also what are your favourite sims 4 hairs? I’m having trouble finding ones and I love your style!

YAY I’M EXCITED FOR YOU!!! omg aww it warms my heart so much when people say i inspire them because i never anticipated that kind of response, thank you so much <3 hmmm i think i have all of them except glamour stuff and fitness stuff. and pretty much all the hairs i download are here or here. (or the subsequent ‘tf’, ‘cf’, ‘tm’ and ‘cm’ tags as well, according to age)

UHM a 19 year old and a 13 year old? Poor baby Lou... Also youre a brilliant writer i cant

😬😬😬  stay tuned ajasdhjhjsahd thank you so much!!!

My stan levels for you have increased so much? like thanks for being a good ally, clAps for femmesim!

lmao thank you, i don’t really deserve praise tho i’m just passing on the knowledge of those patient enough to teach me. just trying to do what i can with my privilege u know. ily

How do you have teeth showing in so many of your pictures of Lou and Molly, do you PS them in?

i’ve gotten this question before and it’s usually just the poses used! i do have some lipsticks that have teeth on them but i mostly use them for just rooney.

Honestly, a fight between Santi and that new guy (srry, forgot his name while typing this) would be so hot. Like, I hope Santi would win but like just watching Santi fight him for Lou would make me happy!! Also, I live for your stories💞

omG i’m about to call up vince mcmahon they both need to fight on smackdown it’s gonna happen. they’ll both be shirtless too ok and THANK YOU ILY

boi poc can be PREJUDICED against white people but there is no such thing as reverse racIIIIIIiiiiIIIIIiiiIIIIsm

Lemme just say that you must be feeling so stressed rn. I love you and your simblr!!! Your posts light up my day!! <3333

OMg kind of. this week has taken A Lot out of me and i really just want to chill at home and play my freaking GAME but obligations. u know. here’s hoping i get a day off this week. i’m mad i’m probably gonna miss gianni’s birthday too (it’s on tuesday) and i wanted to do something for it!! i’ll probably do it late like i did last year too lmao i’m so sorry baby g ANYWAY u didn’t ask to hear about any of this...thank you for this sweet message i love you <3

why,,,, are people... coming to your blog to discuss race you are a fucking simblr WHAT

the real question is why do people go to you like its your job to educate them lmao like theres so many resources out there

SHAWDY u aint wrong reverse racism is literally a joke i am so sorry you have to go through all of this keep stepping on white feelings we deserve it

I was wondering would u consider Asians to be POC?

yes

I just finished Strange the Dreamer and it was fucking amazing. I cried so much and I laughed and I sat in absolute amazement at the world Laini Taylor has created. 100/10 would recommend

ahhhh i really need to read it apparently!! i’m like 10% away from being done with a dance with dragons (and then i have to wait for the next book like a peasant HURRY UP KING GEORGE) anyway this one is definitely on my list!

omgomg!! I just met this girl in my class who has eyes just like ramona's!!! But like instead of being brown w/ a little bit of blue, they were blue w/ a little bit of brown!!! Dude I was so shook I rlly didn't think ppl had eyes like that!

OMG!!!! that’s amazing! and yes heterochromia is a real thing haha. i’ve only met one person with it and he had the same color combo as ramona too, only his was full heterochromia, not sectoral.

*me in the background screaming* nO yOU LEAVE HER ALoNE baD-DAD-MaN!

ME TF TOO

every time i read some of your stories i get an ache in my heart that doesn't go away until i either cry or sleep so interpret that as you like

OMG ;_____; ok me too tho my heart literally hurts thinking about my characters sometimes...mostly santi...i hate him (no i don’t :{ )

hey uhh idk if you've answered something like this before but do you have a spotify or something bc your music taste is GOLD

THANK YOU!! you were the first person to ask about this haha and hopefully you saw my answer to the other question about it! i just made one and it’s here!

hi hi ! i’m seeing all the drama on da blog and i really want to read the whole story but i can’t get to it on mobile so i was wondering if you could link the beginning and tell me what the best order to read it in is ( i’m so confused because i’ve seen sm people y’all about a parallel story so idk if i’m being dumb !! ) i hope this isn’t any inconvenience also your sims are so beautiful sjajsjajs

hey on mobile the link is just: http://femmesim.tumblr.com/tagged/story/chrono i would honestly just recommend that order haha, it makes things simpler and it encompasses ALL story posts, or posts that give context. there are parallels in my story, lou’s is kind of a parallel of santi’s, only different...well...you’ll see. but yeah sorry this is so late! and thank you!!!

TU HISTORIA ES TAAAAAN BUENA POR DIOOOOS (YOURE STORY IS SOOOOO GOOD OMG) <3 <3 *OO* *cries in spanish*

MUCHAS GRACIAS ENCANTADORA PERSONAAAA <333

lou is wendy right? i mean, a wendy complex is someone who is overly mothering to partners, and lou is already a mother and ik that doesn't really count as foreshadowing but it seems like it could be a link to me. it'd make sense too, considering guys that go after younger girls (ew) are usually immature ie peter pan complex. it'd make the most sense that those two go together then.

heheheheh that is a VERY good observation...that’s all i’m gonna say!!

This has nothing to do with what's happening in the story rn, but whatever. I was wondering if you were going to mention lou's struggles with being a single mom and the stigma surrounding single motherhood? As a single mother myself I'd really enjoy seeing you take on the issue. Personally, my biggest problem was overcoming the generalizations people put on you when you're a single mom. People always assumed that I that I was stupid and uneducated because I had my son when I was 17.

yes! that will definitely come up. i will focus a lot on her struggles as a single mom. so far i’ve mostly just peppered in some stuff about money troubles, and that will come up again, and the issues you mention will be pretty central to her character as well. i’m sorry you have to endure that, it’s not fair. people don’t even realize how strong and dedicated single mothers are.

when you say Peter Pan, do you mean the Disney stuff or the og creepy stuff?

i mean the general themes of the story and how that translates into a peter pan complex: boy who never grows up, feels like he fits in more with younger people (haha...yikes), read the message above because that anon described the other half of the equation better than i could

Wait, hold up. That dude is cute but I feel like he’s coming onto Lou way too strong. I have a bad feeling.. Lou is like 13 there and he is 19 I mean I’ve seen bigger gaps between people, but she is not legal yet.. Where are you going with this? 🤨😅

yyyyyyep that feeling is warranted! i am going a way i don’t think you guys expect me to go...i think you’ll be very confused at the end of this part lmao. that being said, i’m not putting any of this in for shock value or to romanticize inappropriate relationships like this. (i’m probably going to be repeating that a LOT for this story but please just keep that in mind)

Hey mom wanna hear a fun as hell story? I just got back from the ER bc I fell on my razor after showering, and practically cut my nipple in half. (I am in so much pain hELP)

OMFG NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR POOR NIPPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M SO SORRY I HOPE IT FEELS BETTER PLEASE UPDATE ME ON THE NIPPLE STATUS

U gotta watch sense8!!! Apart from the v awkward sex scenes it's v good, has a lot of representation and shit Just watch that shit show, u won't regret it (And if you do I cut your throat oops)

i’ve heard it’s good! i remember when it first came out and everyone was like Wow The Representation so honestly anything with diversity has already got me hooked pls don’t murder me.

I'm calling it now. He's Fi's dad. and he's a FUCKING CREEP!! Bitch you are 19!! LOU IS 13!! BACK THE FUCK OFF YOU PERV!!

no spoilers or anything but honestly i’m with you @ cillian die

Are they gonna fucc, o no

right now? no. that would be Very Bad

bABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE

oh same

Hi ! Your lastest edit (graveyard girl) is truly amazing, how did you make that bokeh behind her ? 😱😍

thank you so much!!! it’s reshade (with matso DOF)!

You've probably got this question a lot of times but i can't find the answer for it. What reshade do you use?

i gotta add this to my faq, it’s one i created myself but i started out with this one (it totally doesn’t resemble that one anymore but i think it’s a good starting point)

how do you make good looking male sims? mine always look the same and kinda girly..

hmmm longer faces, prominent chins and jaws, smaller eyes, bigger noses...generally yeah

What do you mean 9 + alt?

you gotta turn bb.moveobjects on and then press alt + 9 when an object is selected to move it upward. so what i did with those poses i made was, i selected a teleporter and pressed alt + 9 until it was at a spot i liked on the roof. that’s why releasing those poses would be tricky, ‘cause every build is different so there’s no set way to place them, you just kinda have to play around with them

You mentioned GoT so naturally, I have to chime in and express my love for Jon. Honestly, he won me over ever since the first season? I'm at season 5 now and people have already warned me so now i'm silently weeping, waiting for something to happen to my precious bby help

JONNY BOY!!!!!!!!!!! i loved his emo ass since the beginning but his arc with qorin halfhand (was he in the show??) was probably the best arc in book 2 and then his book 3 arc was just...SO GOOD, SO MUCH happens to him and i just felt like i was watching my son go through it all...i love that boy so much ;-; i’m almost at the end of the last book and i’m scared for him because of the one spoiler i know lmao and you’re at that point too so GET READY we’ll go through it together ok

So there's this game I'm playing where someone talking about another character says 'maybe you can break him from his ouroboros of self-fladulation' (I know I probably butchered those spellings but I'm not a bright egg and autocorrect isn't helping rip) and tbh it made me think of Santi. (Also I'mma scream of you get this reference jsyk)

OMG THE FACT THAT YOU THOUGHT OF HIM ;-; and it’s okay u are the brightest egg in the bunch to me. I’M SORRY I DON’T GET THIS REFERENCE BECAUSE I’M NOT A VIDEO GAME PERSON BUT I’LL PRETEND I DO KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT anyway yes santi is currently in the process of breaking his self-flagellation and embracing the oneness of the ouroboros (as opposed to letting the cycle repeat itself until he’s worn down to nothing)

do you have any favorite pose creators?

answered

do you have any tips for taking good screenshots in game? like how to get the good angles and good quality? i play on ultra but i think when i zoom in and then use the arrows on my keyboard to move around, the pictures gets less clear and looks kinda blurry. how should i do this?

well if you’re already using ultra, there’s not much you can do lmao. sims 4 is just bad with textures in general. it also depends on the objects as well, some are better quality than others. if i zoom in far on a sim’s face, i generally know there will be some pixelation and i can clean that up in photoshop with topaz clean and the smudge tool. i am very reliant on photoshop sometimes lmao. it sounds like you already have the basics of taking good screenshots, it’s just sometimes you have to fight and work with sims 4′s less-than-hd quality.

burn it down by daughter reminds me of santi & i'm in pain

ouroboros!!! death! birth! death again! birth again rinse repeat! also santi breaking the cycle because third time's the charm

The tattoo is an Ouroboros. It originated in Egyptian iconography, and it symbolizes recreation. My boy's recreating himself, I'm so proud.

ouroboros, the dragon eating its own tail. it's a sign of eternal renewal

i saw the post of child molly and just started BAWLING i miss her what the fuck she's my fave character i'M CRYING

ME TOO BICH!! ME FUCKIN TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just read all of A Serious Case Of The Novembers so far and theres still tears on my face. some of the best stuff ive read in a while, great job on everything

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ALSO I’M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY

every time you write about molly and her in heaven it makes my heart swell, like the characters were answering asks and someone asked her what heaven was like and even though it was so small short lil answer it still pulls at the heart strings, basically what im trying to say is that your writing is so good! <3

omg ;_______; me too, i feel like she has such a simple way with words and although her descriptions of heaven are brief, they are also complex and beautiful, and even just writing it chokes me up ;-; thank you so much tho i’m so glad you like it!!

Molly: out Molly tatto: also out

why did this remind me of this post:

How did you edit in the fire in the last post? Looks cool

i searched things like “bonfire” and pasted parts of it that i wanted on the pic to make it look more realistic, then put a layer mask on the pasted pic and erased the edges and stuff to make it blend in better. the sparks and stuff i added by pasting it onto a new layer and changing the blending mode to screen! 

idk if you have every watched grey anatomy but Lou's backstory is starting to remind me of Jo (Jo is a character from the show) like Jo was in a abusive relationship and she is married to the guy but she cant get divorced or he will come and find her. So like if Lou didn't tell Fiona's dad he was a dad and Lou was married to him and cant escape the marriage (cause abuse), plus it would explain Lou's kink with being choked ;) full circle *god-like heaven music with tiniest violin is playing now*

ooh no i don’t but that’s interesting and i’m excited you even made a connection like that! i will say that it’s not lou who likes to be choked (the very opposite actually lmao) but otherwise the situation does kinda fit. i’m the violin

I have a freakin bio pre ap test tomorrow on photosynthesis and i have no idea what it is im going to fail save me

I’M ANSWERING THIS VERY LATE BUT I HOPE YOUR TEST WENT WELL!!!!!! *spongebob voice* photosynthesis

last time I installed reshade I couldn't get it to open the controls or shaders or anything in game :///// any tips?? I love they way reshade looks too!!

hmmmmm well i know the control panel opens when you press shift + f2, and then you check the boxes of the effects you want on them. i haven’t heard of this problem so i dunno what other advice to give i’m sorry :{ if it’s your first time installing it, you might have to wait a little to get it to load up.

Da puppy is so cute!!!

That dog and Romona are so adorable, I might cry

Ramona's cheeks are so big im in love

NAJKSDJGKJSD THANK YOU i love her and her chubby cheeks ;-;

OMG TOTORO IS SO BEAUTIFUL I LOVE GHIBLI UGH FKSJFJANFB

SAME!!!!!!! if i could only watch ghibli movies for the rest of my life i’d be totally fine with that

THE DOGGIE HAS EYES JUST LIKE RAMONAS IM GONNA FUCKIGN CRY

ME FUCKGN TOO!!!!!!!!!! it was fate (aka me creating the wolf pup to look just like her shh i am fate)

Hope I'm not bothering you but i wondered if you knew how to make Tamo sims eyebags work on a toddler? Do I just click in s4s to work for toddler on the "age and gender flags" when looking in My CC or do I have to do something a little more than that please? Thank you.

for any skin detail or makeup, you have to go into s4s and open the package up, go to one of the tabs (honestly i don’t remember which one because i don’t have it open rn lmao) and you’ll see the different age groups and you check the box for toddler. and then save it of course. (there’s probably a better guide on how to do this somewhere lmao)

Hey :) Sorry to take up your time, I was wondering if you use win7, win8 or win10? I'm trying to decide on one and people seem to have very strong feelings about it. Also what web browser do you use? I've used Firefox, but I had some problems on CC websites. Thanks<3

i use windows 10 because it came with my laptop lmao i honestly don’t know much about windows systems at all!! and i use google chrome because it’s never failed me (even though windows keeps pressuring me to use the new internet explorer called “edge”)

i just finished all of novembers in a sitting and 1. i'm Sobbing, 2. your music taste is bomb

THANK YOU!!! my music taste is like one part indie shit, one part rap and hip-hop, twelve parts emo middle school bands

what is the size of the original unedited screenshot?

1920x1080

For reshade when your first install and select the reshade you want to use do you have to edit the settings? Cause last time I tried to (I didn’t know what most of the things meant lmao) but it kept saying error or something so I couldn’t play the game so I ended up taking out reshade

do you mean the preset you want to use? i mean no you can just play with that preset, you don’t have to change anything about it. i’m not sure what you mean but i followed this guide for setting it up

Will you ever share your preset?? Or maybe a preset made be you??

i’ve answered this before but the answer is Maybe

Hi!!!! How do you make the rays of light you have in your photos?? THANK U BBY <3333

that’s actually in my editing tutorial but here you go <3

is reshade only available on windows + do we need to pay for it

yes and no

Hello love! I was wondering (and maybe it's a dumb question, idk) but what life span setting do you use? I would assume you turned off aging for your story but maybe I'm wrong ;w; Thank you!!

i do actually have aging off ‘cause i’m a coward lmao even in the ts3 days when i wasn’t doing story stuff and literally just playing i had it off for the most part and just aged sims up when i wanted because i like to be in control of Everything (aries)

I really just wanted to say that I’m new I your tumblr but your stories are amazing and I love them so much!!! Keep doing what you’re doing💞👏🏼

hey thank you!!! you are so kind and i’m glad you’re enjoying everything!!

In your reshade settings where have you set it to save your SS's to and which key please? I can't find mine after setting it to desktop/screenshots :(

i just set mine to ts4′s screenshots folder because it’s what i was used to and it works for me haha. hmmmmmm did you copy the exact address or whatever it’s called of your folder’s location and then paste it into the reshade box? try doing that with another location and see if it works. if anything you can do what i did ‘cause it worked for me 

ok SO i came across this music video for this like spanish/english speaking indie band called The Marías and the song was déjate llevar and literally everything about the music video reminded me of rooney and gianni

OMMMGGG i love this so much, i cry @ music suggestions and this is so them ;-; i think i’ve heard of this band before actually!!

a little life is going to fucking ruin you,,, just a warning

great! i look forward to it

can a steal ur talent

have it i don’t need it

What app are you using to make them cool edit things??

i tagged it but it was doodle face

omg Strange the Dreamer is so freaking amazing! It’s literally one of my favorite books of all time; You’ll love it. The writing is absolutely delightful

you guys are really singin the praises for this book!! i have so many dang books to read i swear

[avvidstarion]

ok nobody look at this cause I’m embarrassed but i’m having feelings about s*pernatural in the year 2020 and i need to get them out and far away from me as quickly as possible

okokokokok ANYWAY,,, dean winchester deserved better. like. imagine having one of your main characters be an addict, be a traumatized abuse survivor,  be some level of suicidal, and constantly say that he thinks he’s gonna die young (ish) and violently and stuck in a life he didn’t want. he says this constantly and it’s supposed to be tragic. imagine having this character. and then imagine PROVING HIM RIGHT. that’s FUCKING DISGUSTING and I am offended on behalf of dean winchester and people who still give a shit about him and the show.  cas has LITERALLY TOLD HIM “you don’t think you deserve to be saved”. GUESS THAT WAS TRUE HUH GUESS HE DOESN’T DESERVE TO HAVE A GOOD LIFFE. GUESS HE DESERVES TO DIE AS A PRODUCT OF HIS FATHER’S ABUSE. like way to send a good message to your audience. supernatural has never given a shit about its fans and this is just them beating a dead horse into the ground at this point (fitting). and i’m not even gonna get into how this doesn’t make sense from, like, a story structure standpoint bc that’s obvious. why have cas sacrifice his life for dean only to have him die a week later. why have dean get killed in such a stupid way. etc etc etc. 

and like. i am NOT gonna call dean fucking winchester gay rep, because it was q baiting and always intended to be q baiting and i’m not gonna delude myself into thinking otherwise. people deserve better than an average character (not dean hate, spn can’t have the emotional depth to have above average characters) played by an average and homophobic actor on a shitty fucking CW show.  cas being gay was just a marketing strategy to get people to talk about the last couple episodes. BUT. the fact that they’d rather kill dean off in a stupid fucking way than have him actually address the fact that another man had gay thoughts for him is really telling. just goes to show how fucking baity it was. 

anway tldr dean dying like that was super obviously shitty writing (surprise, surprise /s) and so was the whole show and i’m sorry to anyone who relates to him or has ever related to him bc we deserve better than to be told that we’re gonna die and the only peace we can ever have is in dying and that we’ll have to kick it in heaven with our abusive fathers for the rest of eternity

[zaddyzimmermann]

Hot Off The Press

Another AU where Jacky-Boy is a hockey player and Bitty has a job that involves hockey bc that’s my aesthetic. Anyway, I really know nothing about how the world of sports journalism works so there is probably some inaccuracies in here, but it’s an AU so who cares. Artistic license and all that. Very slightly NSFW (i just wanted to get all the warnings out there). 

***

“Are you into men?”

Jack has been asked this question before, but in such a subtle way (and typically involving Parson) that it’s easy to avoid. No reporter has ever straight out asked him. Besides, he’s not gay. He’s bisexual. So when Jack usually tells them, “No.” it’s not a lie. However, this time it feels different. Maybe it wasn't just this particular time, but all the times added onto each other that's finally causing him to really think about what hole he's digging himself into.

The blunt question has him feeling panicky and the other presser notice his reaction too. Jack can’t say no, because that’s not true. He is into men. Jack’s panic quickly shifts, and now he just feels like shoving the microphones away and storming out, because this is hockey goddammit. Not E! news.

“Excuse me?” Jack clears his throat, trying to buy himself some time to think of a properly crafted response. Over the years, he's developed a talent for that.

But everything is on overdrive and he feels his breath start to quicken again--

“Are you into men?” Another reporter asks, and it takes Jack a moment to realize that the reporter isn’t asking him. He’s asking the man who popped the question in the first place.

 All attention, including Jack’s, turns to the small blonde that got lost in the bundle of people. He holds up his mic towards the reporter who popped the question in the first place. 

“Excuse me?” The man mimics Jack, but not intentionally. The man actually looks quite offended to be asked in the first place.

“You don’t like being asked such a personal question do you, Tom?” This reporter has a southern accent that makes him stand out even more among the various presser.

“Shut up, Eric. You’re wasting time as usual--”

“I beg to differ.” Eric snorts. “Last time I checked we are supposed to ask Mr. Zimmermann about his win against Pittsburgh, yet here you are, wasting time asking about something irrelevant to your job. Which is reporting on hockey games.”

Jack suddenly realizes that the two men about ready to attack each other know one another, possibly on a level outside of their jobs. It was an assumption, but they did use first names. Jack has never, in all his three years of being in the NHL, witnessed a fight break out between two reporters mid-interview. Jack just stands there awkwardly, feeling gross and sweaty as the adrenaline from his recent win dies down. 

“Anyway,” Eric Bittle bristles, shouldering his way to the front where he can hold his microphone in front of Jack. “I do believe you scored the winning goal just twenty minutes ago. Very nice. How do you think the remainder of the season is looking?” It sounds like Eric is trying to hide his accent, and Jack is temporarily distracted by his big brown eyes. Then he gets himself together, like he always does, and talks about what he’s good at: Hockey.

***

The second time the same sports reporter defends him, it’s when Pittsburgh beats them on home ice. It’s been at least two months since Jack has even heard about the guy. Eric Bittle writes very little articles, but is used as a credible source for dozens of others.

“Do you think your overdose set you back? With your talent, you could have surpassed your father in records by now.”

It was certainly a backhanded compliment, and it’s not the first time someone has said this to him. Although some days, especially today, Jack really isn’t in the mood. It’s so irrelevant to the subject at hand, it is blatantly disrespectful. However, just as Jack nearly snaps, a familiar voice speaks up from the back.

“That didn’t sound like a question.” Eric Bittle, in all his southern glory, has once again popped up from the shadows when Jack needed it most. “You’re also proposing quite a speculation there, Tom. Like always.” 

“Oh my fu- You’re so unprofessional, Bittle!” Tom, Jack realizes, is the same reporter that gave him trouble last time. 

“Hey, I ain’t the one talkin’ about an offensive speculation.” Eric says breezily, focusing his attention back on Jack. “Alright, Mr. Zimmermann, that game seemed to be rough for you--”

“He didn’t answer my question.” Tom glares at Eric before practically shoving his own microphone in Jack’s face.

“Please don’t interrupt.” Jack suddenly says, eyes flickering to Eric, who had a pleasant and welcoming smile on his face.

“Right, as I was sayin.”

***

Thomas Caswell and Eric Bittle are known for having a feud in the world of social media. Jack couldn’t help look up both reporters, and the first thing that comes up is when Eric first defended Jack during a presser months ago. Thomas was in his early forties, while Eric was in his mid-twenties, basically just starting out. Eric Bittle and Thomas Caswell constantly went back and forth on twitter, and Thomas went as far to even bash Bittle in an article. Thomas is also known for asking the, “hard questions”, which is why he’s so popular. He’s famous for making athletes stumble on their words. Eric Bittle has called him out for that too.

“So, I had to stalk this Eric Bittle guy after what happened last night,” Shitty says, feet propped up on Jack’s coffee table and laptop resting on his naked lap. “The dude actually went to the University of Pennsylvania. That’s an ivy league school, man.”

“I know it’s an ivy league school. What does it matter, anyway?” Jack challenges, his tone a bit annoyed.

“For one, he seems like a fucking genius because he was Valedictorian, which explains how he got a job straight out of college. Second, It’s the reason he only seems to show up when you’re playing the Penguins. They probably picked him up right away.”

Jack doesn’t know why he’s so interested in this guy, but whenever Shitty pries it always piques his curiosity. “Is he with their PR team? I thought he worked for the NHL Network.” 

“He’s brand new, Jack. He was probably assigned to a specific team. He doesn’t typically interview the Penguins, he just interviews the teams they play against.” 

“Has he ever… Defended other players?”

Shitty sighs dramatically and closes his laptop. “It’s what he’s famous for, Jack-O. Why do you think they keep him around? If it were some random reporter that no one really knows, the guy would probably get canned.”

“Wouldn’t that mean he would have been fired already? Like in the beginning, when he first started out, they had no idea he would be famous.”

“He used to run a blog, that’s where they found him.”

Jack can’t help but laugh, and he gives Shitty a pointed look. “You sure know a lot about this guy.”

“I’m a lawyer, Jack.” Shitty pats his arm. “I’m great at stalking people.”

“How do those two things even correlate?”

“You’d be surprised.”

***

The past four games have been a loss for the Providence Falconers, so when Jack and his team lose to Pittsburgh again in overtime after coming so close… He’s in a terrible mood.

However, Jack is the captain and he’s required to give a statement on how hard they worked, and reassure fans that they will keep the spot they currently hold in their division, which will send them to the playoffs.

It’s been about a minute of legitimate questions, ones that are easy to answer because they involve hockey and teamwork. Then, Thomas Caswell (of course), says something so over the top Jack just stared in shock.

“Your performance has been less than usual lately. There has been intense speculation that you might have reverted back to drugs --”

“You have got to be kidding me, Tom.” Jack isn’t surprised it’s Eric Bittle who steps in. “I didn’t hear the word hockey, puck, or overtime once in that sentence.” Eric Bittle’s voice is strained, and Jack is surprised with how angry the man looks on Jack’s behalf.

“Not this again, Bittle.” Tom hisses, his eyes not wavering from Jack’s. “You should be fucking grateful they even let you in here.”

Jack didn’t know what Tom meant by that, but by the look on Eric’s face, he sure did. “You’re a joke. Who let you be a sports reporter, Tom?” Bittle counters, his voice extremely passive aggressive to a point it’s almost scary. “You should work for People magazine with all these rumors you’re tryna spread. I feel like that’s where you belong with this cheap type of reporting--.”

Jack didn’t expect it, and neither did anyone else in the locker room. Eric didn’t expect it either, guessing by his reaction. Jack has never, not even fathomed, a reporter using physical violence on another reporter.

The punch wasn’t meant to break anything, but it wasn’t any less violent. It hit Eric’s nose, so the younger man dropped his microphone as he held a hand over his face.

To no one’s surprise, Thomas Caswell is escorted out as Eric stares after him, still stunned.

“That was rude.” Eric mutters, and Jack is so thrown off by Eric’s dismissive reaction he chuckles a little bit.

The whole situation was almost unheard of, but it didn’t take long for the Falconers PR to clean up the situation. Eric Bittle was escorted by the team trainer to get patched up, while the other presser were escorted out of the locker room. 

“Seems like you have fan, Zimmboni.” Tater laughs, slapping a hand on Jack’s back while shaking him a little. “You go make sure he is okay.”

Jack will, but he takes a shower first. He probably smells disgusting and looks it too.

By the time Jack is dressed and his stuff is packed, he checks to see if Eric Bittle is still around. Of course, he prefers that he isn’t because Jack hates this type of confrontation, or just confrontation in general.

Bittle is sitting on the edge of the examination table, swinging his feet back and forth while he scrolls through his phone. Jack clears his throat, because he doesn’t want to say the first word. Eric glances up and a small smile plays on his face. He has a bandage across his nose and it looks a little bruised. “Hello there, Mr. Zimmermann. What brings you in here?” His voice is a slightly nasally from the pressure wrapped around it.

“I wanted to see if you were, uh, doing okay…” Jack leans on the doorframe, watching Eric Bittle’s face go through several different scenarios.

“That’s awfully kind of you. I’m doing alright, though. It’s not even broken.” Eric Bittle hops off the table and walks over to Jack, extending a hand. “Nice to officially meet you.”

Jack glances down at the hand for a few moments before shaking it. It feels small in his, but extremely warm. “It’s nice to finally meet the man who defends me all the time.”

Eric gives him a laugh as he pulls away his hand. “If you look at it from my perspective, I’m here to talk about hockey not about your personal life. That’s your business.”

“You are the only one who seems to think so.” Jack doesn’t mean it to come out bitter, but he can’t help it.

“That’s because I’m the best of the best, Mr. Zimmermann. I only focus on actual news, not that junk I like to call gossip.”

Jack gives him a genuine smile, but he also isn’t reckless. This man was still a reporter afterall, and the presser were sneaky. Parse almost got caught sucking someone off months ago, because a reporter pretended to be a man who knew nothing about hockey.

Eric seems to notice his change in demeanor, but he doesn’t say anything. “I’m really okay, I ain’t gonna go suing your organization or anything. I’ve dealt with bullies all my life, this isn’t the first time something like this has happened.”

Jack can’t help himself but frown, because Eric Bittle didn’t seem like the type of person to piss people off. According to Shitty, he actually has a large fanbase of people relying on his work.

“Wipe that look off your face.” Eric laughs, and the warmth of it genuinely stuns Jack for a moment. There didn’t seem anything condescending about the way Eric spoke to him, and Jack has heard the passive-aggressive Eric Bittle several times. “I figured you knew why he said I was “lucky to be in the locker room”. Which is so a thing a forty year old man would say.”

“Is it because you’re new?” Jack tries, but Eric only shakes his head.

“It’s because I’m gay.” Eric waits for a reaction from Jack, but Jack doesn’t know why. Then he slowly realizes why Eric looked so upset right before Tom punched him. “Listen, Tom asking you about your sexual preferences all the time just so he can make some offensive speculation makes me and a lot of people really angry. He also thinks it’s ‘unprofessional’ for me to be in men’s locker rooms. I’m surprised I haven’t punched him yet, to be honest.”

“You don’t deserve to be treated that way.” Jack says bluntly. He’s never one for subtlety.

Eric falters for a moment, and Jack becomes tense again. He’s a reporter. Be careful. “No one does, really.” Jack adds.

“You’re a good guy, Mr. Zimmermann.” Bittle finally says after a long pause, then pats his chest. “Just remember, the questions we ask don’t always need an answer. You’re a hockey player, not a reality TV star.”

***

Providence doesn’t play Pittsburgh until both teams are fighting for a spot in the final round of the Stanley Cup playoffs. They were playing on Penguins’ home ice, and in the end, Pittsburgh won by two goals.

Jack has been close to winning the cup before, but never this close. His team is usually kicked out in the first or second round, but this is the first time he’s ever held onto hope for a win.

Jack looks for Eric this time, but he’s not there. He must be with Pittsburgh right now, considering how big of a win this was. Jack didn’t like himself searching for the blonde, because he knew what that meant. He’s not as oblivious to his attraction as he used to be.

Before Jack can wallow in self pity after the loss, Tater drags him to a local bar to try and cheer him up. Jack typically doesn’t drink (because once an addict always an addict) or dance, especially during times like these, but Tater’s loud and optimistic attitude always seems to cheer him up just a little bit, so he gives in. Besides, Tater on the dance floor is a form of entertainment all in its own.

Nevermind.

Even though there are dozens of people here, they still get recognized. Jack and Tater have only been here for thirty minutes, and people can’t seem to leave them alone. Tater likes the company, because fans keep buying him free alcohol even though he doesn’t have to worry about expenses. A girl slides in their booth to settle herself next to Jack, and even though he admires the boldness of her move, it wasn’t welcomed. The last thing Jack wanted was to get involved with someone right now--

 “Mr. Zimmermann? I didn’t peg you for a party boy.”

Jack has never seen Eric in something other than a suit and perfectly kept personna. But of course, because the universe wants him to die a little, Eric is wearing skin tight jeans and tight white shirt that doesn’t leave much to the imagination. For a reporter, Eric is in pretty good shape. His blonde hair is tousled and he looks a little flushed.

 The girl was gone, and Jack wanted nothing more than for Eric Bittle to replace the empty space next to him. Tater was gone and lost in the crowd, probably dancing and entertaining like he usually does. Jack planned on sitting here the entire night so he could drive him home safely… But Eric Bittle seemed like extremely nice company right now.

“Mind if I take a seat?” Eric raises an eyebrow, and Jack only shrugs as he tries not to stare but Crisse....

God dammit.

“I’d buy you a drink, but I’m assuming you’re the designated driver?” Eric holds his head in his hand, giving Jack his undivided attention.

“You’d be assuming right.” Jack says, but he doesn’t continue. He doesn’t really know what’s going on here, and he feels like the two of them are in an awkward equilibrium of assumptions. Jack knows the wheels were turning inside of Eric Bittle’s head, but in no way was Bittle about to make the first move. 

“You weren’t at the presser today.” Jack says to break the silence.

Eric’s smile becomes more flirtatious and Jack is momentarily distracted, but he lets Eric’s voice bring him back in. “Did you miss me, Mr. Zimmermann?”

Jack really doesn’t know how to answer that. He wants to trust this man, and from Shitty’s research he doesn’t seem like the sneaky reporter that nearly cost Kent his career. “Tom wasn’t there to attack me today.” 

“Yeah, he was fired.” Bittle shrugs absently, like it was no big deal. “Thank god he’s gone. Maybe some gossip magazine will pick him up.” 

Jack can’t help but laugh, and he also can’t help that he notices the way Eric lights up. He really, really wanted to take him back to his hotel room. It was a stupid idea, though. He would be outing himself to a man he hardly knows. Besides, Tater hates Ubers so Jack had to make sure he got back safely.

“I heard you’re a genius.” Jack just wanted something to say, because the same silence settled over them again. His face grew immediately warm, though. He basically just admitted he stalked Bittle online.

Eric doesn’t seem to think that, or he’s just really good at hiding the fact he does. His face grows red too, and he avoids Jack’s eyes. “Not really, I mean, it’s all relative.”

“You shouldn’t downplay your achievements.” Jack points out honestly.

“Neither should you.” Eric retaliates. “I know people compare you to your father all the time, and I know me saying this will probably have no affect on you, but you are your own person, Jack. Just because other people compare you two, doesn’t mean you should too.”

Jack, once again, has no idea how to reply to that. For one, he’s a bit annoyed that Eric has made that assumption. Second, he’s also annoyed that Eric is right about that assumption. He says the first thing that helps him deflect his own feelings. “Are you going to put this in an article?” Jack sounds extremely irritated to his own ears, and he internally cringed at that.

Eric raises an eyebrow that tells Jack he’s surprised by the accusation. “Off the record. Didn’t realize that needed to be said. If you don’t see me with a recorder and a mic, I’m off the job. I’m not always working, Jack.”

Jack opens his mouth to maybe apologize for reacting that way, thinking Bittle is mad at him, but Eric just gives him a soft smile.

“I didn’t mean to be intrusive. I’ll leave you be. I didn’t think you might some alone time, I kind of just sat down--” Bittle gets up from the seat across from Jack, and makes his way to be swallowed up by the crowd, but Jack stops him before he even realizes what he’s doing.

“Wait. I got nervous.” Then Jack makes another decision, one he’s probably going to regret later. Jack slides over in the booth, indicating for Eric to join him. Right now, with Eric Bittle in those tight jeans, he doesn’t care about his stupid decision at the moment.

Eric is discreet when he slides in next to Jack. He’s not too close, just in case someone snaps a picture, but he presses his foot against Jack’s calf under the table. When Jack doesn’t move it away, Eric takes that as encouragement.

“Some of those rumors aren’t just rumors.” Jack says quietly, leaning his head slightly towards Eric. “They just aren’t people’s business.”

“Hmm.” Eric hums, trying to read Jack’s face. “That kind of makes me not want to stay here.”

Jack raises an eyebrow in confusion, not quite understanding what he was saying.

Eric pulls away and stands up, and just as Jack’s stomach drops, he turns towards him with a small smirk on his face. “I think we should leave.” 

***

Jack is the first to wake up, and as the sun filters in, he expects Eric’s place beside him to be empty. It’s not, though. His eyes are closed and he looks peaceful, and the sun that hits his blonde hair makes Eric Bittle look impossibly warm.

Jack waited for the wave of regret to hit him, but it never came. Especially when Eric’s eyes fluttered open and a small smile stretched across his face. “You look happy this morning.” 

Jack laughs a little. “Why wouldn’t I be?”

Eric just yawns as he does a half-hearted shrug. “It wouldn’t be the first time I was promptly told to leave. I’m kind of used to it by now.”

That kind of ruins Jack’s mood, because Eric Bittle didn’t deserve that kind of treatment. He tells him as much, too.

“I know.” Eric smiles as his eyes roam over Jack’s bare chest and back up towards his face again. His eyes must catch something he doesn’t like, because now a frown is on Eric’s face. “Oh lord, I didn’t mean to do that.”

Jack isn’t aware what he’s even talking about until Eric reaches over and places two fingers on Jack’s neck. The pressure causes Jack to wince a little.

“You have concealer?” Eric gives him a playful look, and Jack can’t help but return the same look.

“No, but I’ll wear a scarf.” Jack jokes without realizing it.

Eric laughs at that, which mon dieu, is that a wonderful sound to hear first thing in the morning. He glances at the clock over Jack’s shoulder, and the joy is gone as his face fills with disappointment. “Ugh. I need to get to work in two hours.” He pauses, contemplating something, before he asks, “You want to join me in the shower?”

And that’s a “Yes.” without hesitation. In the shower, Jack felt a stinging pain on his back and discovered several scratch marks that broke his skin.

“Sorry.” Eric’s face was really red and Jack couldn’t help but laugh.

They get off one more time in the shower, even though Jack protests when Eric drops to his knees.

“That’s going to hurt later--”

And Eric had replied before Jack even finished speaking, “Shut up, Zimmermann.”

Eric waits at the door in the clothes he wore last night, and gives Jack a sad look. “I’m gonna miss you, Zimmermann.”

Jack feels his stomach drop. “Why? Are you moving or something?”

Eric raises an eyebrow as he places a soft hand on Jack’s cheek. “I was under the impression this was a one time thing.”

“No way.” Jack can’t help but laugh at Eric’s surprised expression. “I’ll text you.”

“But--” Eric frowns. “I don’t see you that often and you have your career and I’m certainly not worth a career like yours and technically you are my job which is unprofessional--”

Jack cuts off his rambling with a quick kiss, but Bittle deepens it anyway so they are making out for a full five minutes before Jack finishes his thought. “If you don’t want to, I’ll leave you alone--”

“Yeah, no chance I’m giving up this prime opportunity.” Eric’s smile is so bright, Jack can’t help but mirror it. “You better text me, Zimmermann.”

“Oh, I will.”

***

There will probably be a part 2 if ya’ll want one. Or if you wanna send me other jobs you wanna see Bitty with I’ll do that too lol

[roominthecastle]

You should read and respond (if want to ofc) to the Watchers on the Wall's Glass Candle Dialogue on Petyr. The writers are not his fans but they make similar arguments i saw in your metas. I don't think you share their analysis of the character overall, but maybe there's something in how the fandom is seeing his arc and what he represents.

First off, thank you, anon, for thinking of me. Curiosity prevailed, so I checked this out. While indeed there are bits & pieces where we agree (stunted emotional development hellooo), the rest of this is mostly one eyebrow raise after another and quite telling.

A few things here bc I don’t do comment sections:

sociopathy =/= psychopathy. Sociopathic people CAN form genuine emotional bonds w/ a select few around them, and feel real remorse when they (almost inevitably) hurt these people. Despite their “emotional callouses” and “moral deficiency”, they have the capacity for true empathy bc they are born “normal” and “only” end up “abnormal” due to negative environmental stimuli interacting w/ specific personality traits. Adult Petyr is (to me) clearly sociopathic (as a direct result of childhood abuse), he clearly ends up forming a genuine emotional attachment to Sansa, and he clearly has a lot of trouble translating that to a healthy, stable dynamic since he lacks a proper frame of reference (again see childhood abuse and complete lack of a support system). His heartbreak is genuine and a result of feelings that are as real as all the vile shit he has done. This incongruity is what makes him intriguing and also what derails him. If he were a psychopath, he would be unstoppable and the Starks & Jon would be dead.

for the nth time: Petyr is not a Nice Guy who got angry bc the girl he liked was in love w/ sb else. On-screen, they try to reduce his backstory to this, true, but even there we can find clues signaling that there’s much more to the story. Love did not factor into Cat’s marriage arrangement, and the “origin story” they included in the DVD extras is also in line with this book canon - book canon that reveals that no Nice Guys were present at that duel. Cat was about to marry a total stranger out of sheer conditioned duty. The nobility used daughters like commodity and when LF interfered w/ their “transactions”, he got trashed bc he was deemed entirely disposable. You must be willfully blind to miss the actual social issues this conflict is couched in, and w/ it the massive irony of him later becoming a brothel keeper and Master of Coin.

My favorite part (paraphrased): LF miscalculated because he’d never felt the kind of deep sisterly love that’s between Sansa and Arya. Okay. Apparently, they missed the whole “Sansa was gearing up to execute her sister for being super creepy, unreasonably threatening, and extra hostile” part or that an omniscient supernatural force tripped LF in the end. They also seem to have missed the faux-feminist b.s. that covers S7 w/ an extra thicc layer. (needlework in particular seems to have a bad rap on GoT and I am offended on my grandma’s behalf who makes the most beautiful and practical stuff and it is magic)

I would give a more detailed, properly sourced response, but I am busy w/ Bae Week preparations. Also, most of this “Dialog” feels like yet another round of pseudo-intellectual spit-balling that perpetuates several misconceptions, and I’ve encountered one too many of those already. I’m exhausted.

So the defense rests, your honor.

[bldgrelationshipwgod]

The Message Of The Blood Of Jesus – Dr. Charles Stanley

The subject of this sermon is one that we sing about, we don’t talk much about it, & I’m not too sure that we believe, all that we believe about it.

But it’s important that you listen very carefully bc it affects every single one of us.

And you may be one of those persons who’s never heard it before. You need to listen to it carefully, because it’ll affect the way you live & the way you die.

So when I think about it being that serious, I think about the fact that some people have shunned the whole idea; & they not just a litany, but there are those denominations that cut these pages out of their hymn books because they’ve decided that it’s not important. And it offends people.

But the truth is without it, you & I wouldn’t be here today.

So what’s the subject?

The subject is the Blood of JESUS CHRIST.

And more than likely, there are many of you who may be listening/watching, you’ve never heard a sermon on it (yup).

You’ve thought about it. You’ve wondered about it. Maybe you’ve mentioned it in your prayers, but you haven’t fully understood what it’s all about.

So I’m asking you to listen very carefully: “your whole eternal future may depend upon it.”

So I want to talk about the Blood of JESUS & how it applies to every one of us. Now turn to 1 Peter 1:17-21, “you were redeemed from the empty way of life.”

1 Peter 1:17-21 | Since you call on a Father who judges each one’s work impartially, conduct yourselves in reverent fear during your stay as foreigners. For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life you inherited from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb w/out blemish or spot. He was known before the foundation of the world, but was revealed in the last times for your sake. Through Him you believe in God, who raised Him from the dead & glorified Him; & so your faith & hope are in God.

The more I’ve thought about it & the more the LORD began to speak to my heart to remind me this is the heart of the Gospel.

Then all the things we can say about other subjects & all that relates to it, this is the very heart of the truth of what you & I believe.

And it’s the message that will either get you to heaven or you’ll lose it & miss it.              ________________________________________________________

I really only want to say 2 things about it.

1.] The Seriousness of SIN.      When you sin against GOD, especially if you keep on sinning against GOD.      Especially if you keep on doing the same thing, over & over again.

     You set yourself up for divine chastisement.

     If you’ve never trusted Christ as your Saviour, you’re going to be rejected one      of these days—when you stand before the judgment seat of GOD.

     Sin is serious business with GOD because      it has eternal consequences.

And it doesn’t make any difference who you are.

It doesn’t make a difference where you’re from.

What’s your vocation, or how much wealth, you name it.

     There is nothing that matters, sin is disobedience to Holy GOD.

     And HE warns us from the beginning of the Bible to the end, that GOD hates      sin because of what it does to HIS children (to HIS creation).

     You & I have read the Bible enough to know, all through the Word of GOD,      sin is a destroyer, a divider, you name it. All the qualities that we mentioned,      that’s what sin is.

1a.] So in light of that, you say, “well what’s the nature of sin?”        This is the true nature, we’ve said it’s serious, but how serious is it?

       1st of all, it deceives.        It’s already deceived you, because you wouldn’t keep doing        what you’re doing if sin didn’t deceive you.

That is, “you’re okay, it’s alright. GOD loves you. GOD understands.”

So you just keep disobeying GOD & being deceived into thinking you are an exception to the laws of GOD & the consequences of sin!

You’re deceived!

1b.] It disappoints. Sin always makes big-time offers.        If you’ll do this, you’ll feel fantastic (drugs/wealth/beauty/sex/etc.).        If you’ll do this here, s/he will do thus & so.

       When you think about the disappointments, all of us has had in life about        different things.

       Sin disappoints because it makes awesome promises it can't produce.

It may be temporarily satisfying. If sin had no satisfaction whatsoever, you wouldn’t be sinning.

It has temporary satisfaction, but it is a deceiver & it disappoints.

1c.] It is destructive.        All you need to do is look around & realize how destructive sin is.

It takes many many pathways, but ultimately it’ll destroy ya.

It destroys families/marriages/jobs/future/children.

Sin is destructive by its nature.

Then think about it: SIN brings death.

Over a period of time, sometimes it’s instant.

The worst thing is it’s eternal [Romans 6:23].

Romans 6:23 | For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.   

       If I had to stop right there? This would be a terrible life.        But thank GOD, we don’t have to stop right there.

       So let’s think about this.

       What is the saving power that brings about        forgiveness of sin? The Blood of JESUS CHRIST.

Go back if you will to Genesis 3, all the way back to the beginning; & you’ll discover in this perfect garden that Adam & Eve had everything going their way. But they had a choice, GOD gave them a choice.

And so they sinned against GOD.

And the Scripture says Genesis 3:20-21, “And Adam named his wife Eve, because she was to be the mother of all the living. And the LORD God made garments of skin for Adam & his wife & clothed them.”

HE killed the lamb, shed blood, & covered them with skin.

So in the very beginning of the Bible, with the 1st sin: GOD shed blood on their behalf.

GOD said from the very beginning: “if you’re going to be saved, blood has to be shed.”

    There is a cost to sin. The price of sin is blood.

    The price of sin is the Blood of JESUS CHRIST.

    But all the way back in those days, before what any of you & I know about:     The issue was forgiveness required death & the shedding of blood.

So when you come to JESUS, after HE came into the world, & HE’s talking about sin & you remember what HE said when HE talked about the Blood—to HIS disciples that night at the LORD’s Supper?

     What was the LORD’s Supper all about?      Blood of LORD JESUS CHRIST bringing about salvation.

     It’s a reminder to us of what happened.

>> Then with that in mind, I want to give you 4 words—which really describes this whole redemptive plan of GOD.

They all have to do with the Blood of JESUS.

You can just scrape up the whole message of salvation in 4 words:

REDEMPTION: you weren’t saved by perishable things like silver & gold. Isn’t it interesting that GOD took the most precious/valuable things & said, “Look your most valuable commodities won’t do you one bit of good.” We were saved from our futile/empty way of life. 1 Peter 1:18-19 , “For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life you inherited from your forefathers,” (v.18)  but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb w/out blemish or spot (v.19).   

The Message of Salvation: Reconciliation (Colossians 1:19-22) Sin has separated every single one of us from GOD. Those of us who are saved, have been reconciled. We trusted the LORD JESUS CHRIST as our Lord & Saviour; & HIS work at Calvary, we’ve been reconciled. So there is redemption, there is reconciliation. Reconciliation brings people together, & brings sinners to oneness in their relationship to JESUS CHRIST. Union, reunion, & harmony.

Colossians 1:19-22 | For God was pleased to have all His fullness dwell in Him, & through Him to reconcile to Himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through the blood of His cross. Once you were alienated from God & were hostile in your minds because of your evil deeds. But now He has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy, unblemished, & blameless in His presence—

The Message of Salvation: Justification (Romans 5:8) Romans 5:8 | But God proves His love for us in this:                        While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. When we talk about GOD’s love for us, go straight to the ultimate reason & the price for GOD’s love for us: GOD demonstrated HIS love for us through death of JESUS for us. Romans 5:9 | Therefore, since we have now been justified by His blood, how much more shall we be saved from wrath through Him!

Does GOD just say: you’re not guilty, you’re not guilty...etc.? No It’s the blood of Christ that makes it possible, so that if a person who rejects JESUS—they reject the only person who can take care of their sin, because HE is the one who brought justification into reality.

It’s the shedding of the blood of the LORD JESUS CHRIST, so HE could redeem, reconcile, & justify us.

And it’s not what we do but what HE did for us. That’s one of the words: SANCTIFY

The Message of Salvation: Sanctification (Hebrews 13:12) Hebrews 13:12 | And so Jesus also suffered outside the city gate, to sanctify the people by His own blood.