#i feel so stuck

[angfdz]

have you ever heard the story of the man who was running from the wolves and fell off the edge of the cliff? He managed to hold on to a root sticking out of the ground. Above him, the hungry wolves. Below him, razor sharp rocks and the ocean. Next to him is a patch of strawberries.

when you tell this story you're supposed to ask the person you tell it to "what do you do?" and they can offer you a variety of solutions & you will say, to each of them, that no, it is impossible. But there is an answer to "what do you do" and it's "eat the strawberries".

so i feel like, that's been on my mind lately because falling in love has been the experience of getting chased by wolves & falling off a cliff & hanging over razor sharp rocks and ice cold ocean water, but there's a patch of strawberries next to me

only, there are no wolves, there is no cliff, there is no ice cold ocean water or sharp rocks beneath me. there are only strawberries. but my mind is convinced about the other thing you know? it's convinced. so i'm holding a handful of strawberries, eating them while trembling & shaking because I'm about to die

even though i won't die. even though there's only more strawberries to be had.

[jammboe]

How do you deal with art block or struggling to come up with ideas? I have things i want to draw but just feel as if i can't draw anything 🥲

[tamagotchikgs]

i wish i could just lock myself in my closet for a month n come out thin

[hussyknee]

Mum's in hospital again. Doesn't seem life-threatening this time but.

I'm really not doing very well. Nobody is. We're close to breaking point. I'll need to post a GoFundMe again to get through the rest of this year. It was bad enough blegging the first time around. I'm too middle class for this man.

Feel helpless, anxious, childish and incompetent. Like I'm too messy, too loud, too dysregulated to be worthwhile. Would appreciate some kind, supportive words if y'all can spare any.

[airenyah]

having one of those days where i just can't focus at all sighh

[wewindondowntheroad]

something has to change something has to change something has to change something has to change something has to change something has to change something has to

[puptimistic]

Breaking point

[snixx]

how the fuck do you get over loving someone who won't communicate

[howlsmovingwaifu]

What the fuck is even the point

[nerdnag]

Ugh

[rosicheeks]

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[starberry-fag]

idk how to phrase this post so i will ramble in tags keep scrolling :-)

[sofusgirl]

I can't fucking believe this shit

Just got my paycheck for this month.

Context, I've worked roughly 100 hours in May.

My paycheck? 0 NOK

0. Zero. Nothing. Nil.

Apparently we now get deducted in advance for whatever vacation time we get throughout the year, all in this one month's paycheck.

Which would usually be covered by our vacation pay (feriepenger)

Except bc of us going from franchise owned by our boss to being ran directly by the franchise (chain? Idek) that sum was paid out by our former owners with our final paycheck from them back in march. And we were supposed to have saved that until now.

Which yeah. Makes sense. Usually u save the vacation money for your vacations. Except I've had so many unexpected expenses these past few months I've had to use it all already.

Between vet bills and medication and dentists and psychologist... I have nothing left. I have like maybe 500 NOk (less than 50 USD) left on my card.

And that's supposed to last me until 10. july?

I'm going to have to dip into my savings. Which sucks for multiple reasons, the main one being that that money is loaned money that I am trying to pay back, and that's hard to do when things like this keeps happening

I'm just

So tired

I don't know how much longer I can do this

I have nothing left to give

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[janus-wants-to-stargaze]

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[yliannostus]

life is but running from cage to cage, always trapped

there is no escape plan to be made when the cage is in you

not even physical form, something that could be pried open and broken

i think to my core, i am a cage and i am a prisoner.