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[mush-haus]

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[riverdale-retread]

Riverdale S5 Ep 11. (The Voicemail Episode) -  5 things I loved/ 3 Things to Consider (potentially, spoilers)

Things I Loved:

1. I loved that Riverdale, this (formerly) teen show, was blatantly making a radical commentary about both religion and male violence, but in this sneaky way with a ‘silly’ looking trippy drugged-out music video.   The statement is this: Religion = Drugs = Righteous Violence of Young Men.   Marx said that religion is the opiate of the masses, and Riverdale answered, Nah, it's more like shrooms. 

And in fact, according to the show, being two sweet girls hanging out dancing and having fun is better than religion and righteous violence.  Further, violence is Archie’s drug.  I mean this is a set of pretty bold statements, people.  I will also add the crazy young man vigilantes of Riverdale making the Batman rope-slide entrance was fabulous, but I also liked that the music made fun of them, like, Y’all think you’re being heroic but this is so dumb.   

2. If you read my retread of Seasons 1 through 4  (the true ending, which was “Graduation”) you’ll know that I love scenes of Jughead Jones waking up from sleep.  He’s so good at it, and I don't know if my abiding interest in this specific thing elevates this to some sort of kink but  I’m ok with that, if it is. (Please tell me in the comments if Watching a Cute Boy Wake Up From Sleep is an actual kink.)  In this episode, Jughead is startled awake by a loud noise from a fevered sleep, and then becomes gradually more alarmed at the noises outside and I loved it. 

3. This is not an anti-man blog here, so I will try to tread carefully, but I mean, I absolutely loved that the women are so much better than the men at everything in this episode. 

Exhibit A:

Penelope’s cult is so much better than Edgar Evernever’s!  And she is being so honest - Penelope always emotionally worshiped her son, like a lot of misogynist mothers of sons do, and now she’s literally worshiping him.  Also a religion that is founded on a deceased person is much sturdier, I feel, than a religion that is like Worship Me (which is Edgar’s religion).  Plus Penelope is echoing what Jughead used to say about Jason - that his death laid bare the sins of Riverdale!   There’s robes in Penelope’s religion, colorful ones, singing and communion and imbibing from a magic goblet. (Can you tell I was raised Catholic? I still love statuary, robes and altars SO much).

Exhibit B:

 Tabitha and Betty are so much better than Jughead at everything, including getting high!  (Jughead is currently just so bad at life he can’t even get high correctly, poor lamb.)  They are better at taking care of their domestic lives and are appalled at how Jughead lives. Tabitha modeling openness and transparency for Betty was terrific:  She asks Betty for help and makes sure to  tell her, though it’s difficult, about that ‘don’t be such a Betty’ comment and the fact that Jughead made a pass at Tabitha, so that she can make her decision to participate with the full set of relevant facts.   Betty’s reaction of wtf?? followed by snorting and then moving right on - I like grown up Betty SO much. She knows it’s not true - they always had fun together, did Bughead, so she’s like, That’s a weird thing to say and then SHRUG.  

Exhibit C:

Even when burly men are in a violent confrontation in this episode, the mastermind for both teams is a woman - Veronica on one side, Darla on the other.  

4. I loved the two voicemails from Jughead.  Yes yes, of course I would because #Jughead Stan but also - hear me out! - because they rang so emotionally true for me, and showed the difference between still-adolescent Jughead and the now-more-adult Jughead. 

First, the one to Tabitha:  These mushrooms make people say & do what they really think, apparently, so Jughead hit on Tabitha because he’s really attracted to her, and his non-defensive, roll-with-punches adult-self apologizing in this abashed but not self-hating way, and the way he is still hopeful that he stands a chance, was lovely.  

The weepy, upset voicemail to Betty was expert fan service for the Jughead Stans, but it was thrilling for everyone else too if  the HUGE amount of chatter about it is anything to go by. (Not all thrills are pleasant).   I think it’s because there was a lot of truth packed into both his voicemail and her reaction (while high, but again, the mushrooms make you tell your truth).  

Truth 1:  It’s important to express yourself when you’re upset.  Otherwise it comes bursting out at the wrong time, like pus from a festering wound, in a way that helps no one and may hurt you the most.  Truth 2:  Having an ex hung up on you is no fun.   Truth 3: Being confronted with an utterance like, I regret THE ENTIRE time I’ve known you, can make you lose perspective, as in, Betty playing that voicemail isn’t a serve on anyone other than herself and Jughead, together, and that’s why the kind Tabitha won’t bring it up again. 

There is SO MUCH discourse about that word “bitch” and a lot of it is very well argued, but I feel no urge to pick a side. What *I* have to say about that is, Jughead using that word in that way with that tone definitively marked an end of Bughead 1.0.  If there’s going to be a Bughead 2.0, it’s going to have to be really different.  

5.   I love the character set ups for Reggie and Fangs. Fangs first - is this guy like the world’s most perfect ex boyfriend or what? Fangs is infinitely kind to Kevin.  And Reggie - he’s abused by his dad but he is also loyal to his dad, working for “a Lodge” which he doesn’t actually seem to like in the little that he says about it, to ‘pay off’ his Dad’s debt.   I like the adult that Reggie has become.  “This isn’t high school.”   His calm “Nah, the bad guys pay better” felt like a breath of fresh bracing cynical air but then the actor also managed to push my But I Can Fix Him buttons so kudos, to you, good sir.  

3 Things to Think About

a)Veronica is told it's the DIVORCE that is making Archie not want sex but please recall that the Riverdale High School is decimated and Archie is in the process of putting his genitals  - oops sorry - THE BUILDING back together.  He doesn't have a libido without the Riverdale High School building. I've been telling you.

b)Tabitha voluntarily enters into an agreement to lie (by omission) to Jughead about the manuscript handover to Jessica and the playing of the voicemail message. She doesn't know this yet but so far a rule of Riverdale is that you must not lie to Jughead or bad things happen. Interested to see if the rule still holds for Adult Jughead.

c) The show is very much doubling down on the fact that they think using other people’s lives as fiction is absolutely unforgivable.  Riverdale absolutely hates drug dealers (which is why the Serpents are alcohol runners, and kicked out drug dealers) and yet even though Jessica is totally a drug dealer that Betty Cooper fake-FBI knows is a drug dealer, AND  SHE NON CONSENSUALLY DRUGGED TWO WOMEN WHO SAID NO ALREADY, but the fact that she didn’t want her life used in a fictional outlet trumps literally everything.

[shespsychedelic]

So this may sound ridiculous, but I'm serious. I am the goodiest of goody two shoes and the odds of me ever getting high are very slim. Could I coax you into describing your recent experiences in as many details as you can manage? Preemptive thanks, hope you're having fun and being safe.

So I’m going to put this under a cut in case people don’t want to read about this. I’m also going to just describe what everything I’ve ever taken feels like, but tbh I haven’t done that many drugs. Anyway, here you go. 

Weed: I love doing weed and being high on it tbh. Different strains affect you differently, but overall I notice that my head gets kind of floaty, and I space out. Some people get really deep when they get high, and they think about the world and things happening in it, but I just zone out and think about nothing lol. If I’m outside I tend to just look at trees or grass or the sky and take in the colors. If people try to have a conversation with me I don’t really pay attention, and I just nod along in agreement with whatever they’re saying. I definitely get the munchies on weed, so I like to get high either before I eat, or if I have a lot of snacks lol.

Coke: this one was weird the one time I did it, but I was also doing it in the bathroom of a club basement, so I was slightly paranoid that security would kick me out, and I didn’t enjoy the high as much. I only did a little bit at a time so I would get super energetic for a few minutes, and then I would comedown and have to do more. It’s nice if you’re at an event you want to get through quickly, but I generally didn’t enjoy it.

Absinthe: I’m including this one because it’s still illegal even though they don’t tend to use actual wormwood anymore. When I did Absinthe I actually had a horrible case of strep throat, and I wound up doing 3 shots of just straight Absinthe (it tastes like black licorice btw) and I woke up the next morning completely better because the alcohol killed the bacteria lmaooo. As for the high, it was quite possibly the weirdest thing that’s ever happened because all night i felt like I was drunk, but also not really? If that makes any sense?? Like I was acting like I do when I was drunk, but the blurry feeling I normally get when I’m drinking wasn’t there. I didn’t see the green fairy or hallucinate, but the colors were a little bit more vivid. 

MDMA (Molly/Mandy): this is by far one of my favorites lol. This is the pure form of what they cut to make ecstasy, so the entire time you’re on it you feel nothing but love. every time I’ve done this I’ve been so in love with everything that’s happening around me, and I feel like such a hippie with the things that come out of my mouth sjdhbv. Like once I was at a festival and my friend and I were on it, and we kept asking each other where our souls were and where they wanted to be. I kept saying my soul weas near the ocean or a river because I was thirstyyyy, which is the worst thing about MD. You get super thirsty, but you can’t drink a lot because your kidneys temporarily shut down, and can’t process water, so you have to be super careful with how much water you intake. Overall, I’ve always had a great experience with MD (except for the time I took too much and got paranoid that I’d be arrested...I didn’t but i was convinced I was lmao). I also tend to makeout with my friends when I’m on MD, but it’s never a big deal lmao, everyone’s high and suddenly the expression “free love” makes a lot of fucking sense.

Ket: this one I will never do again, not because i had a bad trip, but because I h a t e the way it made me feel lmao. Ketamine is an anaesthetic, that, when used in a high enough quantity, is used in animal tranquilizers (which is why most people know it as a horse tranq). I did this one at 4 in the morning and I was only high for probably an hour and a half but it felt like an entire week lmao. I sat on my friend’s bed and swayed back and forth, and everytime I went to move, I felt like I was walking through cold molasses. At one point my friend went to the bathroom to throw up, so my other friend went with her, and I didn’t know where they’d gone, so I stumbled out of the door to find them, and I saw my one friend hunched over the toilet dry heaving, and my other friend lying on the floor, and when he saw me he was like “Ellen come join me!” so I went and laid pretty much on top of him on the bathroom floor while my other friend was being sick, and then when she felt like she wasn’t going to be sick anymore, we got up (so so so slowly because none of us could move out muscles properly), and I swear to god getting us all back to our own bedrooms must’ve been the funniest thing on earth for an outsider to witness because none of us could walk properly shdjbvsz

Shrooms: bro that shit was SO fun. So there are many different types of shrooms, and all of them have a different kind of high they give you, and since it was Jay and I’s first time to do them, the woman at the dispensary gave us the ones that have little to no visual effects, but they make you laugh so much, and boy oh boy did Jay and I laugh our asses off. The high from these lasted about 5-6 hours, and the entire time I just laughed SO hard. We talked about Jay being partially colorblind, and the cones and rods in shrimps eyes, and then I pu tin my earbuds, played on Sunflower vol. 6 about 37 times, and stared at the ceiling occasionally giggling to myself because the beams in the ceiling were swaying to the music and the bulbs on the light fixture were pulsing with the beat, and while the light fixture and ceiling were in all actuality white, I kept seeing pink and blue layered over it, and lemme tell you, listening to Sunflower while watching a light fixture that looks like a bunch of tiny mushrooms dance, while you’re on mushrooms, is hands down one of the happiest experiences of my life. 

[esorc]

sizza

What are you wearing? black shorts and a white tank top. sleepy time.

What’s your favorite kind of chips? wavy sour cream and onion. or cool ranch doritos. 

Do you wish you were in a relationship? i mean, yeah. it’s more of a want for someone to reciprocate the love and affection i have for them. SUM1 2 CUR.

Does anyone find you attractive? well i hope so.

Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? hit me with that pixar.

Have you ever been to the ER? yessir. 

If you were FORCED to overdose on a drug what would you choose? this isn’t necessarily a fun idea. can you overdose on shrooms or acid?????? have a fun lil trip before my body shuts down :’). or maybe crack, because my cheek bones would be more defined :)))

Do you ever feel guilty eating meat? every time, i haven’t really eaten meat in a few months.

Where have you lived for the most part of your life? new york.

How old are you? 20.

What are you listening to at the moment? shameless in the background, the sound of the keyboard.

Do you have your own tv? i didn’t care to have one for years but a few months ago my mom bought me one. thanks mom. 

What color and brand of shirt are you wearing? white and it’s from hm.

What brand of pants/shorts are you wearing? not sure of the brand and too lazy to check the tag but they’re probably from target.

Do you wear eyeliner? i do not.

What was the last thing you ate? pea soup.

What was the last thing you drank? water. 

Does anything hurt right now? my neck is sore and my throat and ears hurt.

How many years have you lived at the house you’re living in right now? 11.

How are you feeling right now? pretty shabby.

Say something random about your appearance at the moment. my hair is wet from the snow, up in a bun.

What place are you dying to visit? iceland or scotland. cool places.

Do you have chores? not necessarily but i clean and tidy up.

Do you watch WWE Raw? not a fan but i don’t dislike it either.

Do you dye your hair? i did about 2 weeks ago. bit blonder.

Have you ever been to Europe? no :-(.

Have you ever lived in a different country that the one you’re living in? i wish.

Do you know the difference between Republicans and Democrats? yes one side has more asshats than the other.

Will you be able to vote in the next Presidential election? yes.

Do you know any French? i can say ‘hello,’ ‘yes’ and ‘thank you’ like a pro.

Did/do you take a language class in school? took spanish for 5 years.

Which of your parents will you see next? mom.

Have you fallen asleep in school? probably in the nurses office. 

What year were you born in? 97.

Do you like chinese food? the americanized version of it. i had authentic chinese food when i visited hawaii but i wasn’t that much of a fan, it was kind of bland. but i know it’s completely different in china, sO WHO KNOWS ANYMORE I’M OVERTHINKING CHINESE FOOD. 

Wendy’s or white castle? fuck me up @ wendys. 

How tall are you? i went to the doctor yesterday and he said 5′3 and a half. sigh.

Who do you talk to most on the telephone? probably conch.

Do you like sushi? i only eat the veggie rolls. i love the veggie rolls.

Do you do pushups? no.

How many pairs of jeans do you have? i haven’t bought jeans in years, probably 3.

Can you eat in the dark? i can eat anywhere.

Have you ever been hospitalized? yes.

Do you make fun of obese people? well i’m not a fucking dick.

Do you cry easily? yes i am of the weaklings.

Do you eat when you’re upset? sometimes.

Do you care too much about people/things? probably, yes. 

Do you ever feel creepy when talking to someone you don’t know well? not really?

Does it bother you when someone lies to you? of course.

How do you feel about your hair right now? nothing particular about it.

Do you think that you will be married within ten years? i’ll be 30 so i do hope so.

What sort of music were you brought up on? 50s-90s.

Is Gordon Ramsey’s swearing offensive to you? he can give a speech at my wedding full of nothing but curses.

Are you homophobic? no.

Do you watch sports on TV? i used to watch hockey.

Do you know anyone with a land line at their house? a few people, mostly older people though.

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you? yeah.

Do you like yourself? we’re not on the best terms.

Are you listening to music right now? i’m not.

Do you ever crack your knuckles / back / ankles / wrists / etc? my knuckles and my neck.

Is it hard to make you laugh? nah, i can laugh at the most pointless shit.

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left? si senor. 

Do you have an innie or an outtie? innie.

What if your parents told you that you were moving to England, right now? that i was??? or that she was??? i’m down.

Are you stubborn? not always.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night? i get broken sleep every night, so maybe 5 hours.

What was your last phone conversation about? just talking.