#i hateeeee this elective!!!

[itsdelicate]

i must be in hell 💀

[dannydevites]

this is gonna be the whiniest most self serving self hate pity wallow post youll ever see:

my cats abt to die and my moms taking pills and sending me election fraud conspiracy videos, ended a very important friendship/previous partner to me that needed to end before we hurt each other too much. getting into stupid fights with friends bc my stupid RSD makes it so im too fucking sensitive. i hate feeling so delicate lmao. im too fucking overwhelmed to even think abt applying to colleges its somethings thats plagued me for years. i never even filled out the common app in high school. i dont think im a good artist i keep on being passed on opportunities including those from friends which makes me think no one believes in me and i should just give up and like. learn an actual careeer but i literally cant see myself doing anything else and i hateeeee that. the person i have a stupid crush on someone that likes someone else anyway so no point im trying to get rid of it but its just not working and im in physical pain bc of it lol

anyway i woke up firstt thing i thought was damn i wish i was dead so its like im suicidal in high school all over again and like i havent made any progress since leaving outpatient :’))) how poggers :)))))