golden couple āļø charles leclerc
request: can you do a female footballer player smau for charles please? maybe they see her pop up in the paddock and him in the stands, sort of secret but not private kind of thing? could it be set around the fifa womenās world cup if thatās not too much to ask? thank you!
couple: f1 driver! charles x footballer! reader
face claim: jana fernandez & aitana
NOW: F1 2023 US GP Charles Leclerc Post Race Interview
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user1 heās such a fan, cute!!
user2 sheās a world champion of course he wants a picture with her
user3 NO BUT I WANT TO SEE THEM TOGETHER SO BAD
user4 omgā¦ he absolutely has a crush on her
user5 im loving this f1 x football crossover
user6 āwhich team is yn supporting?ā NO HES SO CUTE
user7 he wanted her cheering for ferrari so bad
user8 how can he be so hot and respectful
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ynusername champions league winner and vacation with my bae <3
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charles_leclerc youāre the best!!!! love you endlessly.
ynusername @charles_leclerc no, YOU are!!! ty for the support, bae. love you!
charles_leclerc @ynusername any time ā¾ļø
user9 @charles_leclerc i LOVE how support u guys are to each other
user10 GOAT š¤š» we are so grateful to have you in our team
lewishamilton letās GO šš» you are the best, keep going!
ynusername @lewishamilton thank you so much, my friend!! see you soon š«¶š»
user11 @lewishamilton LEWIS WOWNDIWJS
user12 @lewishamilton always knew lewis is a culer
user13 @user12 dude is a yn supporter
lewishamilton @user13 true!!
user14 congratulations, yn!!
user15 #MadeInLaMasia vamossss šš»
landonorris you TRULY is the GOAT, keep pushing!!!!
ynusername @landonorris tysm for EVERYthing!! š«¶š»š«¶š»š«¶š»
user16 yn in loved by everyone
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charles_leclerc i can only feel proud of everything you've achieved! i know how hard you've worked for all of this and i'm sure culers recognize your hard work. i love you so much, my love. you are, literally, the best in the world. #ļøā£1ļøā£ā¼ļøāš»āØ
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user17 grĆ cies, yn!!! ets la millor š (thank you, yn!! you are the best)
user18 they are pure magic and talent together
user19 just cried with joy
lewishamilton another one!! they just gave an object to something we already knew, the best in the world šŖš»āØ
charles_leclerc @lewishamilton tell her, my friend. šāāļø
lewishamilton @charles_leclerc let's talk about what everyone already knows, buddy!!
ynusername @lewishamilton @charles_leclerc thank u to my ferrari (and future ferrari) boys š¤·š»āāļø
arthur_leclerc my sister-in-law is the GOAT š
ynusername @arthur_leclerc iāve achieved all this because of you guys, thank you for everything ā¾ļø
user20 charles being proud of yn and saying sheās the best making me emotional š¢ like,,, thatās true love and pure joy!!!!!!!
user21 I JUST WOKE UP AND THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER TO WAKE UP TO
user23 their love is so palpable. so cute to witness.
NOW: āIām living my best lifeā | Emotional Charles Leclerc On His Home Win
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user24 imagine achieving one of your biggest dreams and still talking about your girlās achievements, dude is in love asf!!!!
user25 love them both
user26 such a wholesome couple. they both deserve happiness.
user27 gosh iām so jealous
user28 I WANT WHAT THEY HAVE
user29 seeing them together makes me believe more in love
user30 THEY ARE SO CUTE
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Can't Help Myself - Ethan Landry x Fem!Reader
This contains SMUT - Minors DNI
Summary: You make your boyfriend cum in his pants.š
Contains: Making out, dry humping.
A/N: First off, this is a little short. My life has been a little crazy lately, and with the stress of moving and life in general, I kind of forgot how to write. This obviously isn't anything super crazy, but ya girl hasn't posted in a fucking MONTH and I'm trying to get back into writing so bear with me!
You knew that Ethan was a virgin before you started dating him. You were more than okay with waiting for him to be ready, because even though heād never come out and say it, he really wanted it to be special, and the perfect time.
There were a few times when things would be getting a little hot and heavy between the two of you, and youād always pull away before it could go past just making out, and Ethan was starting to get a little frustrated with it.
After a long day, Ethan was so excited to spend time with you. You watched a movie together and were cuddling on his bed in his dorm before a simple kiss turned into a very heated make out session. You were a little surprised when he pulled you on top of him, your legs resting on either side of his hips as you straddled him.
As his lips moved with yours, you felt his hand start to inch up underneath the back of your shirt when you pulled away and started to laugh.
āWhyād you stop?ā he asked, his lips pouty as you shook your head.
āItās not the right time, baby,ā you said, as he sighed.
āHow is it not the right time?ā he questioned, as you rolled your eyes.
āBecause Chad will be here soon. You donāt want to be interrupted, do you?ā
āI meanā¦that sounds kind of hot,ā he said, as you smirked at him.
āWe can make out, but thatās it.ā
āFine,ā he huffed as he clung to your shirt, pulling you back down to connect your lips again.
As you adjusted to get a little more comfortable, he gasped into the kiss. You were already turned on, and once you felt how hard he was underneath you, your pussy was throbbing as you squirmed against him.
You soon felt his hands on your hips, moving you back and forth. The friction it gave your clit had you craving so much more as you tried to hold in all the sounds that were building in your throat.
Before you knew it, your body had a mind of itās own. You pulled away and looked down at Ethan as your hips rocked over his, a soft moan slipping past your lips at the feeling.
āOh fuck,ā he mumbled, as he watched the way you moved, the grip on your hips getting even tighter.
āThat feel good?ā you asked, as he quickly nodded and moved you even faster against him.
Part of you wanted to give in and give him what he wanted, but you knew you didnāt have the time. But once his mouth fell open and soft whimpers were flying out, you were sure that you could get him off just like this.
His brows were furrowing once you added more pressure, as moans started flying out of your mouth and his. He didnāt want to take his eyes off you, but once they started fluttering, it got a lot harder for him.
āShit,ā he groaned, as his legs started to move against the sheets underneath him.
āYou gonna cum, baby?ā
As soon as those words left your mouth, he let out a loud whine, his hips jerking a little underneath you as his eyes screwed shut. His chest was heaving as you giggled, a blissful smile playing on his lips before it turned to a frown.
āI canāt believe I just did that,ā he said, his cheeks flushing a deep shade of crimson as he refused to let his gaze meet yours.
āWhat do you mean?ā you questioned, as you glanced down at the wet patch on the front of his sweatpants. āItās not a bad thing.ā
āI just came in my pantsā¦thatās so embarrassing,ā he said, as you ran your hands over his chest. āFuck, when we actually do have sex, itāll probably only last thirty seconds.ā
āItās okay if it does,ā you said, as he finally looked at you. āAnd I like that I made you cum just from grinding against you like that. I think itās hot.ā
āReally?ā he asked, his smile returning to his lips as you nodded.
āYeah. It felt good for me, too,ā you said, as he bit his bottom lip.
Just as he was about to speak again, the door opened as Chad walked on.
āWhoa,ā Chad said, covering his eyes with his hand once he noticed you were on top of Ethan.
āWeāre still wearing clothes,ā you said, laughing a little as Chad peaked through his fingers to look at you and Ethan.
āI feel like Iām going to actually walk in on the two of you one day,ā he said, sighing as he sat his stuff down.
āHow do you know you didnāt just now?ā you joked, as Chad snapped his head in your direction again.
āWaitā¦if you guys were going to do it, I can leave,ā he said, as he started walking towards the door. āI didnāt mean to cock block.ā
āWe werenāt going to,ā Ethan said, as he smirked at you. āBut if you wouldnāt mind, I would like a copy of your schedule for whenever we do want to be alone.ā
āDude, just text me. I can hang out in the library or something,ā Chad said, as Ethan scoffed.
āDo you even know where that is?ā
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Hi!!! Sorry if you've been asked this before but is it possible for you to summarize the Bonus Links' personalities? Just asking because I'd like to get a general idea, apologies if this is too much of a pain to answer šš«¶š»
hey! luckily I already wrote up character intros a while back that I never posted to tumblr lol, so I'll go ahead and post them now! under the cut since this is mega long lol
Loft
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Skyward Sword
Age: 22
Height: 5ā3ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally
Personality: Worldās Nicest Man Pushed To His Limit. Itās his nature to be light-hearted and easy-going, but ever since the events of Skyward Sword heās been unable to let the implications of Demiseās curse and Zeldaās connection to Hylia go. Heās usually mild, but heās got a lot of suppressed anger in him that comes out at inopportune times. He tends towards being optimistic, but has lately been caught in a depressive spiral. As a result of all these conflicting emotions, he hasnāt felt like himself in a while. Before everything, he could have been described as a little bit lazy, but these days a better word would be lethargic. Heās got a mischievous and thrill-seeking streak that often surprises people. He knows heās powerful, but heās lost some confidence in the years since his quest. Heās wracked with guilt about the way everything ended.
Slate
Pronouns: tends to use he/him, but really any
Game: Breath of the Wild (ignoring TotK for now)
Age: 21
Height: 5ā0ā
Communication: Mainly signs, speaks occasionally
Personality: The Reviews Are In: Friendly Guy, Vaguely Off-Putting. He knows heās not pre-calamity Link, but heās not exactly sure what he is instead. Heās accepted this about himself, and it grinds his gears that other people refuse to. Heās not sure what to do with all these memories inside him that arenāt his, and that he feels nothing for. Heās become more expressive, but when heās upset his face goes entirely blank. He has a tendency to be distracted, blunt, intense, impulsive, somewhat abrasive. But heās not unkind, and can even be outright friendly. Heād offer his help to anyone who asks, and he makes it a point to know everyone in Hyrule. Heās happiest out in nature, and doesnāt mind the solitude. He only ever lies by omission, and otherwise says exactly what he means. Thereās something a little otherworldly about him.
Mask
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Ocarina of Time, Majoraās Mask
Age: 15
Height: 5ā2Ā½ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally
Personality: Local Teen Needs Hug So Bad, Will Bite If You Try. Heās prickly, hot-tempered, moody. Heāll pick verbal battles he probably shouldnāt. Everything is a touchy subject. But heās developed this behavior as a coping mechanism. Heās kind by nature, and it takes effort to lash out. The person he is with Malon- gentle, more soft-spoken, with a good sense of humor and a love for harmless mischief- is a lot closer to the person heās comfortable being. Heās a scared kid. He feels out of place, both mature and immature, of this world and not. Sometimes, he gets scrambled between Termina, the Hyrule heās in now, the Hyrule he left behind, and the Hyrule of the war. He has a lot of resentment for both the gods and the royal family, and all he wants is to be left alone.
Wolf
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Twilight Princess
Age: 23
Height: 5ā5ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally
Personality: Thank God Iām A Country Boy. Heās a gentle soul, probably the gentlest out of all of them. He likes to be useful, and he has made being the problem solver of Ordon Village part of his identity. Heās a bit of a mother hen and likes to take care of people. Midna was good at bringing out a little bit of attitude and snark in him. Heās got a bad case of Resting Bitch Face, but heās not an angry person. However, heās had a hard time adjusting to life back in Ordon. Heās usually even-tempered, but lately heās been irritable and easier to anger. He feels isolated by his experiences, and has been avoiding most of the villagers, including his loved ones, even though it makes him lonely. Mostly he just doesnāt want to take it out on them, but itās also about his pride. He enjoys the company of animals far more these days. He wants a quiet life, and has been avoiding Zelda's attempts to make "Hero" a political role for him to fill.
War
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Hyrule Warriors
Age: 25
Height: 5ā7ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally, had Proxi speak for him at one point during the war
Personality: Link āThis Is My Jaeger, I Make The Tactical Decisionsā Faron. He comes across as a very charming young man, witty, helpful, pleasant in conversation, well-adjusted. In reality, he is constantly doing complicated political 4D chess in his mind at all times, even when itās not necessary. Many years of being subject to the whims of the Royal Court and pressure to be a perfect symbol have poisoned him: heās become calculating, manipulative, superficially polite, two-faced. He has to be the one holding all the cards, considering all the variables, fixing all of the problems, because he canāt trust anyone else. If you were to strip him of all pretense, he'd actually be a dry, resigned person, perpetually annoyed with everyone around him. He values status and reputation, and he wants more power than he has. His appearance is important to him because he knows his pretty face is an asset. He holds deep respect for the gods and the mantle of the hero. He has a strong sense of duty, but one that often leads him to justify terrible actions. The ends justify the means.
Mirror
Pronouns: he/they
Game: A Link Between Worlds, Triforce Heroes
Age: 22
Height: 5ā1ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally
Personality: Local Link Doing Pretty Well Actually, All Things Considered. Heās just living his life, having a mostly pleasant time. He used to be quiet and reserved when he was younger, but has come out of his shell in a big way. Heās a bit vain, and fond of doing things with a dramatic flair. They like to have an audience, they like to make people laugh, they like to have your attention. Rather than being poisoned by court politics, he thrives in them. He doesnāt pretend to be charming, he just is. They can be on the arrogant side. Heās interested in fashion and art more than fighting these days, but still keeps his skills up to date. He pretends the scar on his face doesnāt bother him, but it does. Heās particularly obsessed with the legend of the hero before him.
Mage
Pronouns: he/him
Game: A Link to the Past, Linkās Awakening, Oracle of Ages, Oracle of Seasons
Age: 32
Height: 5ā3ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally
Personality: Weird Uncle You Just Stopped Hearing From One Day. Heās a difficult guy to get a read on. He comes off as deeply serious, imposing, no-nonsense. He is actually full of nonsense. The fact that no one can tell what is and isnāt part of the bit is part of the bit. He mostly ignores his own problems by dedicating his life to solving other peopleās problems. He wanders from place to place, helping people and becoming a bit of a larger than life folk legend in his own right in the process. Heās leaned into learning magic more than the sword, and has built up quite the arsenal of spells. He doesnāt speak often, and is content to let other Links lead despite being the oldest and the most experienced. Heās difficult to rile and even more difficult to get a straight answer out of.
Spirit
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Spirit Tracks
Age: 16
Height: 4ā11ā
Communication: Mainly signs, speaks occasionally. He has a stutter when he speaks.
Personality: Wants To Be Anywhere But Here, Preferably On A Train. Heās fully given up swordfighting, and basically just wants to go back to being a Royal Engineer like nothing happened. He has no interest in gaining any kind of attention, authority, or power from the mantle of the hero, and would actually prefer that everyone stop looking at him. Heās quiet, sweet-natured and generally non-confrontational, but heās not afraid to stand up for himself when pushed. Itās just that itās easier to let Zelda stand up for him instead. Heās pretty mature and in-tune with his emotions for a 16 year old. Seeing spirits everywhere, he has a lot of private thoughts about grief and death that he doesnāt share with anyone. The gears in his brain are constantly turning, and once heās stuck on an idea, itās all he can focus on. He often doesnāt give himself enough credit for how capable he is. Please let him tell you about trains.
Mini
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Minish Cap
Age: 14
Height: 4ā3ā
Communication: Only signs, mute.
Personality: Heās Just A Little Guy, Only 2 Pixels Tall. Mini doesnāt do anything he doesnāt want to do. Heās not very expressive in the face, and it can be hard to tell what heās thinking or feeling. Mostly, heās a little rascal. He likes to root around in the garbage and build strange little machines from what he finds. He spends a lot of time hanging out with the Minish, moreso than humans. Itās a little bit of an escapism thing. He hasnāt really processed what it meant to become the hero so young, and is actively trying to avoid doing so. Heās very independent, and simply doesnāt compute attempts to coddle him.
Wake
Pronouns: he/him
Game: Wind Waker, Phantom hourglass
Age: 20
Height: 5ā5ā
Communication: Mainly speaks, signs occasionally
Personality: Everyoneās Favorite Cousin At The Family Function. Heās a fun person to be around. Friendly, energetic, laid back, good-natured, outgoing. He is always up for a good shenanigan. But he can get serious when he needs to, and often plays the important role of mediator in group dynamics. Heās the glue that holds the team together! He seems to take everything in stride, and presents himself as unbothered by the things that have happened to him. Whether thatās actually true, or heās just compartmentalized everything too well remains to be seen. He has a strange way of being very open, and yet a closed book at the same time. Heās sentimental, and family is important to him
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would you be able to write something based of Kristie's tiktok with her and sam where sam comes in and shows off the ring but r is kristie?
6ft 5 - Sam Kerr
Sam Kerr x lionesses!reader
summary - you're filming a tiktok video and Sam wants everyone to know your hers
You set up the phone on the bathroom sink, adjusting the dress you were wearing before crouching down to press play. When the sound plays you lip sync to it applying some lip gloss at the same time.
'I'm looking for a guy in finance,' You begin standing up straight and moving around slightly 'trust fund, 6-' Your cut off by the door opening and your fiancƩe Sam comes in from behind you. She must've heard the sound as she gives you a slight nudge to get you out of her way as she walks up to the camera and shows off her engagement ring.
You laugh at her actions continuing to lip sync to the sound but you can hardly say anything as your laughing to much. When the video ends you grab your phone watching it replay still giggling at Sam's actions.
'Wow baby,' you say feeling Sam's arms wrap around your waist as she stands on her tiptoes to place her head on your shoulder looking at the video 'you really had to show off that ring.' You laugh.
'Had to show everyone who you really belong to.' She whispers into your ear making you shiver. 'Not some silly 6'5 guy with a trust fund.' She states pulling away from you and walking into the kitchen. You follow behind her eyes still glued to your phone as you post the video captioning it with a simple 'let's be honest' knowing the fans would love the rare Sam content. Once finished you turn your attention back to Sam.
'I mean your definitely not 6'5, more like 4'5' You give your fiancƩe a cheeky grin, her being much shorter than you was something you always made sure to tease her about.
'Shut up, I'm only a couple inches shorter than you, not my fault your whole family is giants' She groans leaning into your side. You stroke her head jokingly.
'It's ok I love you no matter your height.' You tease her placing a light kiss on her forehead.
'I think it's time to go, we've got a booking for 6 and the ubers almost here.' Sam tells you, and you can tell she is sick of the topic of her height. You agree following her out of your apartment to outside, waiting for your ride.
lt was nice to be back with Sam, neither of you had really liked the long distance relationship when you had played for Barca and she was here in England, it meant you hardly got to see each other except for the shortest of breaks you had. Your move to Arsenal had come as a surprise, all the fans had expected you to sign a contract extension with the team you had so much success with but you didn't care you'd do anything to be with Sam. Especially after she had proposed and your wedding was coming up.
For the first time in a while you had time just the two of you, as she had sustained and ACL injury and you had fractured you're foot. Both of your international teams were off on camp meaning you had a well earned break together.
The uber arrived and you both got in the back. You checked the video you'd just posted seeing it had already gone viral everyone commenting different versions of the lyrics that more fit Sam's personality, you found a few funny ones and read them to Sam as she didn't have tiktok. 'babe.' you say grabbing the Aussies attention.
'mhm.'
'These are some of the comments the fans wrote from the video.' You tell her and watch as her face slightly pales.
'I don't know whether to be scared or not.' She says causing you to laugh as you chose some of your favourites.
'one of them said looking for a masc in football, 5'5, trust fund,' you laugh at how short they thought Sam was, knowing that would not make her happy. 'oh this ones even better i'm looking for a girl in football, Chelsea, 5'4 brown eyes.' You watch Sam tense up.
'These people clearly know nothing about football, if they were true fans they'd know I'm actually 5'7.' She says grumpily and you crack, laughing so hard that tears threaten to fall.
'Chill Sammy, its just height nothing to be so defensive about.' You tell her. She sighs and you give her a side hug, she buries her face in the crook of your neck placing soft kisses everywhere, mood completely changing from before.
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After a nice dinner out with Sam, you decide to drop a photo dump form your night, making sure to include the video from earlier. Making sure to tease her more.
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samanthakerr20 I am 5ā7 for every smart ass about to comment x š
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katrinagorry midget
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user70 Looking for a girl in soccer. Sam Kerr. Captain. Backflips.
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The Hangover
Patri x reader
You take care of Patri after her post-win partyting.
Warning for alcohol and brief mentions of throwing up.
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As soon as the whistle blew, and Barcelona had officially won the Champions League, you knew exactly what your role would be for the next few days- taking care of your girlfriend to make sure she survived all the celebrations. You surely wouldnāt be holding her back at all, you wanted her to go out and let loose as much as she wanted to, youād just be there at the end of the night to make sure she got home safely and hopefully drank some water in the process. Ideally if you did your job well, her celebrations and partying would be able to last as long as she wanted.Ā
Patri was known to have some fun when the time was right. She wasnāt quite as irresponsible as her friendās sometimes were (especially Cata), but after a win like this, sheād definitely be ready to party, and youād be there to make sure she could.Ā
You had already had your time to celebrate on the field with the team before heading back to the hotel with the other WAGs for you to change clothes and meet them at the after party. When the team finally arrived, you lit up at the site of your girl. She was practically glowing, overjoyed over the win, deservedly so. Her head was bobbing up and down above the crowd, jumping alongside Cata while everyone sang. Somehow her smile widened even further when she made eye contact with you, instantly starting to weave her way through the crowd to meet you.Ā
āBabyyy!!!ā She flung her arms around your neck in greeting and it was obvious that sheād already had a few drinks in her, both from the smell of alcohol on her and the way she leaned into you so heavily.Ā
āHola,ā you giggled at her and the way she was hanging on you.Ā
āBaby, Iām gonna be honest, Iām already reallllly drunk.āĀ
āI know, Pats,ā you laughed at her stumbling in front of you. āThatās okay, you have as much fun as you want, Iām not drinking tonight so Iāll look after you.Ā
She pulled you in for a sloppy kiss on the cheek, āAnd thatās why I love you!ā Your girlfriend immediately started pulling you towards the rest of the group, barely managing not to trip and fall as she did so.Ā
That was about how the night continued on, Patri stumbling around while you followed and made sure to look after her. You didnāt mind, not one bit. You loved nothing more than seeing her so happy and carefree. She was so stressed leading up to big games like this so the change of pace was perfect. You could watch her like this forever if you had to.Ā
The entire night was a mix of dancing, yelling, and drinking. At one point you found yourself sitting on your girlfriendās shoulders, barely staying upright with the way she was moving all over the place. You tried to protest every time you almost fell but sheād always insist on keeping you there so you could see everything that was going on.Ā
Eventually when it became the early hours of the morning, you and the other WAGs were tasked with trying to get your girls to the hotel for a couple hours of sleep before they had to be up for your flight. It was easier said than done though as most of the team were near blackout drunk, still running on adrenaline from the game, and not planning on slowing down anytime soon if they had any say in it. At the very least, you all had the advantage of having the best girlfriends imaginable who would do literally anything you all asked of them.Ā
After you and Olga had confirmed your plans to call it a night and get them out, you made an attempt to find your girlfriend. It wasnāt a surprise when you found her in the middle of the dance floor, chugging a drink while Pina and Cata cheered her on. You shook your head at the site. She was going to be a handful to get home and get to sleep tonight, but you knew she needed this, no matter how terrible sheād feel in the morning. When she finished her drink, it seemed like she had half of it on her face, using the back of her arm to wipe the extra off her face before she looked up to meet your eyes.Ā
āBaby, youāre here!ā she instantly pulled you into her for a hug.Ā
āPatri, Iāve been here,ā you giggled at her some more as you saw Cataās girlfriend starting to pull her off the dance floor out of the corner of your eye. āI think itās time to get you home though, yeah?āĀ
āBut baby! Don yāwanna do some shots with me?ā You were shocked her English was still as understandable as it was considering she could hardly stay upright.Ā
āNo, we need to get you back to the hotel, we fly out in the morning, remember? I don't want you to feel quite so bad in the morning.āĀ
āBad!? Why would I feel bad!? I feel soooo good!ā she was yelling in your ear to be heard over the music.Ā
āI know baby but I really think you should let me take you home!āĀ
āOoooooh taking me home? I like thāsound uhāthat.ā She finally let you start pulling her towards the door, albeit somewhat misguided, youād handle her disappointment later. The midfielder was all but dragging you to the floor as she stumbled into you.Ā
āHere, Patri, just put your arm around my- or just fall on me, okay, that works too I guess.ā Instead of just throwing an arm around your shoulders like you expected, she had completely flopped onto your upper half, both arms holding on tightly to you. You basically had to use your entire body weight to drag her out to the taxi that was waiting for you out front, but somehow you managed to get her there without her completely falling to the ground.Ā
You pushed her into the taxi first, you following closely behind. The second you sat down, her head was on your shoulder with her arms hugging your waist. Patriās instant contact made it hard to buckle your seatbelt or get comfortable but you didnāt have the heart to try to move her off of you. āYāknow I love you, amor.ā You could hardly hear her half-coherent mumbling but the words were unmistakable. Before you could even respond, you felt her go limp against your shoulder, sleeping the entire ride back to the hotel.Ā
You werenāt quite sure how you did it, but somehow you managed to get her up to your hotel room, still only half awake. As soon as you got her inside, you got her onto the bed where she immediately flopped across it. āNo, Patri donāt lay down yet we need to get you changed.ā
The only response you got was a halfhearted groan into the sheets. While she continued to lay there, you grabbed her shorts and a t-shirt along with makeup wipe to try to get her ready for bed. Suddenly you were interrupted by her mumbling again, ābaby, I donāt feel good.āĀ
If there was anything that could get your attention, that was it. You instantly ran to pull her towards the bathroom.āNo, no, no, donāt throw up on anything!ā You pushed her towards the toilet as fast as you could and got her there just in time as she instantly emptied her stomach into the toilet in front of you. As she continued to cough up everything she had drank throughout the night, you pulled her hair into a low ponytail and rubbed her back lightly until she seemed to be done.Ā
Ā Your girlfriend looked at you with a face that could break your heart, so helpless and so exhausted. It was as if everything from the day before had just hit her, all at once, like a truck. āYouāre alright, love, let's get you cleaned up and into bed.ā You wiped her tears from her cheeks with your thumbs and let her fall into your shoulder for a hug before you pulled her up.Ā
She continued to cling onto you as you wiped off her makeup and got her clothes changed, making it much more difficult than it needed to be. Just as you passed her her toothbrush, there was a knock on your door. āCan you please brush your teeth while I see who that is?āĀ
Patri scowled at you but took the toothbrush which you assumed was her way of agreeing. You made your way to the door and checked the peephole before opening it to see Olga standing in front of you with a mug in each hand.Ā
āI made some tea for Alexia in hopes sheāll have any sort of a voice in the morning. I figured you could probably use some for Patri too?ā Her thoughtfulness made you smile. You assumed she must have already gotten Alexia asleep but the fact that she thought of you at all made you appreciate the offer even more.Ā
āOlga, youāre amazing, thank you so much, I-ā
āBabbbyyyyyy.ā Your sentence was cut off by Patri whining for you in the bathroom.
Olga laughed, probably having experienced the same thing just a few minutes ago in her own room. āIāll let you go deal with her, but text me if you need any help with her.ā She passed you the mug and pulled you in for a brief side hug before heading back to her room, leaving you to go back to taking care of Patri.Ā
āPats, did you brush your teeth?āĀ
āNoooo, itās too hard.āĀ
āWell all kisses are revoked until you brush your teeth, you smell like a hot mess.ā She looked like a toddler the way that she was pouting at you with her bottom lip jutting out.Ā
āEmphasis on hot?ā You rolled your eyes.
āNo, emphasis on mess. You need to brush your teeth before you can go to bed, come on.ā
You shoved the toothbrush towards her again which she met with some angry incoherent mumbling. It was hard to be annoyed with her behavior though when she started to finally brush her teeth and listen a bit better. As difficult as she was when she was this drunk, you had no problem taking care of her.Ā
āPuedes darme un beso ahora?āĀ
āSi, ven aqui.ā You pulled her back towards the bed before giving her a short peck on the lips. How she was still functioning at all, youād never know. Once you got her in bed, you propped her up against the headboard and shoved the mug of tea in her hands. āHere, drink this and donāt argue with me.ā
āBut babyyyy,ā as soon as she started whining again, you shook your head at her and forced it into her hands again.Ā
āPatri no, your voice is already destroyed and you have to be up to fly home. You need it if you have any prayer of surviving everything tomorrow. Please just drink it, then you can go to sleep and snuggle with me as much as you want.ā
Your girlfriend seemed to recognize the desperation in your voice, easily giving in after that. You werenāt sure what Olga had put in the tea but you trusted her like your life depended on it. Whatever it was, you knew itād slightly improve her situation for her in theĀ morning. Patri grimaced slightly as she drank it but still did as you asked before slumping back onto your shoulder.Ā
āLay down, baby, letās get you some sleep. I have my alarm set so Iāll get you up for the flight, just see if you can sleep for a while.āĀ
āMānot even that tired.ā
Ā āyouāre falling asleep on me. Please letās lay down?ā
Whatever her response was, you couldnāt quite understand it, clearly already half asleep on your shoulder. You pulled her down into bed next to you and pulled up some of the covers around her. Leaving a gentle kiss on her forehead, you told her you loved her before laying down yourself, Patri instantly curling into your side. Youād never get tired of her lying like that, holding on to you as if her life depended on it.Ā
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You were woken up the next morning by your alarm going off next to you. While the sound was annoying to you, clearly it had a much greater effect on your girlfriend, instantly groaning loudly into her pillow. You remained silent next to her and just rolled to face her while running your hand down her back softly. āHow are you feeling baby?ā
āIām never *hic* drinking again.ā you chuckled lightly at her words but your concern grew at the sound of how rough her voice was.Ā
āI know, love, I know. Unfortunately, we fly out soon so we really need to get up.ā Her arm was draped across her eyes even though they werenāt even open yet. āLet me grab you something for your head, then we need to get ready to go. Drink some water though first.ā You shoved your water bottle into her hands before getting up to grab her some medication for her headache. You got yourself up and ready for the day while she slowly drank the water and took what you gave her.
Ā By the time you were ready, she appeared to be slightly more alive, although still looking (and sounding) much rougher than usual. āHow are you doing now, love? Are the meds starting to help at all?ā
Patri squinted up at you, still sitting on the bed, struggling to actually move. āIām so tired itās not even funny. I donāt know how Iām gonna survive today.ā She winced as she spoke, clearly her throat was really bothering her along with all the other symptoms of her hangover.Ā
āWell, Iāll do what I can to help you out. I got your clothes and everything out so all you should have to do is get dressed and I can brush your hair for you if you want. Plus Iām sure the drinks will be flowing again once youāre at the event, so some of it will become tomorrowās problem.ā
āYou didnāt have to do all of this, love. Youāre incredible. I love you so much.ā It was as if she just realized that you had been taking care of her throughout all the celebrating. Even though you could barely understand her, it instantly made you soften as she looked up at you with eyes full of sincerity.
āIām happy to do it, Pats. Iām so proud of you. And youāve worked so hard to get here. I will gladly watch after you while you celebrate all this, you deserve it.ā You had gotten closer, now standing between her legs while she remained seated on the bed. Your fingers ran through her hair gently while she just looked up at you in admiration.Ā
āIām so grateful for you, you know that?ā she leaned her face into your body in a weird attempt at a hug. Her words just made you chuckle lightly. She was constantly telling you how grateful she was and how much she loved you, it was borderline impossible for you to not know that.Ā
āI know, baby,ā you leaned down to kiss the top of her head. āNow let's get you ready to go and weāll see if we can get any more of that tea from Olga for your voice.ā Patri nodded against you and started to comply.Ā
You knew youād be doing the same thing the next day after they had their home celebration, but you couldnāt complain as she would often do the same for you when you needed it. The two of you would always be willing to take care of each other, even if it meant you spent your morning making sure she had extra sunglasses on hand at all times and didnāt throw up again on the plane ride home.
Requests and feedback always welcome and encouraged! Hope yall enjoy! Can't believe it took me over a week to finally get out any content on the CL win
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I DIG YOUR CINEMA (2)
harry styles x yn aspiring filmmaker ā social media AU
I know Iām just starting and donāt actually have much experience with this, but Iām actually having a lot of fun doing it and already canāt wait to post more.
About the smau: yn starts posting videos on youtube and is trying to build a career as a filmmaker. Things are going pretty well for her and she starts getting more attention when she creates content about shows she goes to. Sheās also a fan of Harryās music and some of his fans start getting suspicious when his team starts interacting with her.
Disclaimer: The story itās set in 2021 and it will follow their relationship through the LOT leg in the US. Since this is nothing but fiction, I will be following some of the real timeline but also adding my own stuff. On top of that, I wonāt be basing myself on Harryās actual posts.
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PART 1 ā MEET YN
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I DIG YOUR CINEMA (PART 2) ā LAS VEGAS
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yourinstagram HELLOOOOOOO FABULOUS LAS VEGAS NEVADAĀ
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user1 sooooā¦ a new full time job that took you to las vegas? š
yourbrother Please behaveĀ
bestfriend donāt get (too) drunk without me pls
harryfan STOP FIRST LOT SHOW ITāS IN VEGASĀ
ā³ harryfan2 Sheās going to the show right???? I mean it canāt be just a coincidence anymore IT JUST CANāT
ā³ harryfan NO I KNOW THIS IS IT I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES
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yourinstagram youād think a lady in vegas would be out there getting wild but this one actually has been locked in her hotel room for the last 27 hours overthinking her ideas and freaking out about this new job lol if any of you could send me a pizza or something id appreciate it. thanks.Ā
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user1 nooooo youāre so talented whatever it is i know you can do it!!
bestfriend yn āš»Ā
cuteguy Should I give you a call? š
harryfan17 I would too be freaking out if I had to work for THE harry styles lol
ā³ harryfan16 we still donāt know if she is thoĀ
ā³ harryfan17 Cāmon sheās in vegas and molly and jeff are following her
ā³ harryfan16 still š¤·š»āāļø tour doesnāt start for another few days so this could be just about something elseĀ
ā³ harryfan16 also maybe sheās there because she wants to be and not bc sheās āworkingā for him. sheās done videos about several artists and she isnāt working for any of them is she?Ā
ā³ harryfan17 Well yes but she literally just said she was starting a new job so š¤·āāļø
ā³ harryfan16 so everyone just assumed HARRY, out of all people, hired her? cāmon guys lol she could be working for just anyone and STILL go to a show. one doesnāt have to be related to the other.
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yourinstagram fun fact: if you post something on the internet people around you might see it š«
guess im lucky this lovely group who still donāt know me at all cared enough to drag me out of my room and show me around the city. sometimes i get so caught up inside my mind that i forget how important human connection is ā which is funny if you think most of my videos are exactly about that lol. so plssssss make sure to surround yourself with (nice) people. also get some sleep, drink water and feed yourself. itāll do wonderful things for you!!!
anyway my mom was worried about my ānot leaving the room postā so this is just me saying everythings good!! (i also already called her of course <3)
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bestfriend LOVE YOU
harryfan the new followers the new likes š itās happening i knew itĀ
user1 so true bestie!! this reminded me of your 2nd video i think
ā³ yourinstagram omg yesssss!!Ā
ā³ user1 ahh i missed your interactions <3Ā
ā³ yourinstagram i knowww! promise iāll try my best to keep interacting even if itās not as much as before š
lookitsnyoh my belly still hurts from all the laughingĀ
ā³ yourinstagram and my mind is still rushing from all the talking
ā³ anthonypham go to sleep you twoĀ
harryfan9 I DONāT KNOW WHATāS HAPPENING BUT OMFG IāM SO HERE FOR IT
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yourinstagram sightseeing left me speechless. but hereās a picture from tonight.Ā
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user1 omg youāre feeding us this week! iām so happy youāre being active again <3
harryfan78 POST A PICTURE OF YOURSELF I WANT TO MEET YOU AT THE SHOW BUT I DONāT KNOW WHAT YOU LOOK LIKEĀ
ā³ user4 calm down pls? we like to behave as respectful human beings on this profile
bestfriend ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
bestfriend iām losing my mind but iām also so excited and proud!
user7 I miss your videos :(
lookitsnyoh when was this? where was I? bummed that I missed it!
ā³ yourinstagram sorryyy just a last minute decision after dinner :(
ā³ lookitsnyoh ohhhh makes sense now! Glad it left you speechless
ā³ yourinstagram i mean the city is beautifulĀ
ā³ lookitsnyoh sure thing it is š½
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fanwhometharry GUYS I JUST MET HARRY IāM SHAKKNG I DONāT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE NOWĀ
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harryfan64 omg where did you meet him??
ā³ fanwhometharry AT THE BELLAGIOĀ
ā³ harryfan64 is he staying there???Ā
ā³ fanwhometharry NO!! I MEAN IDK?? I DONT RHINK SO I JUST MET HIM OUTSIDE AT THE FOUNTAINSĀ
ā³ harryfan74 hmm not tryin to be rude or something but that sounds like a weird place for him to be tbh
ā³ fanwhometharry I FUCKKNG KNOW THAT?? I MEAN MY PARENTS WANTED TO SEE THE WATER SHOW SO I TAGGED ALONG BUT NEVER EVER THOUGHT ID BUMP INTO HIM THERE
harryfan62 youāre so lucky!! was he alone???
ā³ imetharry I DONT KNOW?? I DONT REMEMBER I WAS SO NERVOUSĀ
ā³ imetharry I KNOW THERE WAS A GIRL NEARBY BC SHE HANDED HIM A PEN WHEN I COULDNT FIND MINE BUT I DONT KNOW IF SHE WAS WITH HJIM OR NOT
ā³ harryfan62 who was this girl? Anyone from the LOT crew?
ā³ imetharry IDK I JUST SAID I DONT EVEN KNOW IF SHE WAS WITH HIM OR NOT š
harryfan15 Hi hun! Donāt listen to people, they're just jealous. It was really sweet of him to sign that for you! Hope you have a great time at the show š
ā³ imetharry THANK YOU šš HE WAS THERE JUST WATCHING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON SO I DIDNāT WANT TO TAKE A PIC IF PEOPLE DONāT BELIEVE ME THEN I DONāT CARE I KNOW ITāS REAL šš
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yourinstagram having to keep this secret from the world was the most cruelest thing that anyone has ever done to me. but whateverā¦ itās fineā¦ iām okayā¦ iām just gonna pretend this wasnāt a big deal and i didnāt just watch one of my favorite artists perform my favorite songsā¦ and then iāll just casually say: pls stay tuned for next wednesday when my new video will be up š
(iāll be back and share more details once my serotonin levels have normalized again)
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bestfriend i love you so much thank you for representing us so wellĀ
harryfan I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT OMFG I CANT WAIT I KNEW IT
harryfan2 YN KASDHUHHD PLS OMFG YOU CANāT JUST SAY THIS AND LEAVE
user1 š² i canāt wait for this one!
harrystyles sozĀ
ā³ harryfan OMFG HARRY
ā³ harryfan5 ??????????????????????????
ā³ harryfan3 AUIDHIAUSHDBAJH WTF
ā³ harryfan9 ARE YOU F KIDDING ME WHATS HE DOING HERE
cuteguy Nice! Glad youāre having a good time darling.Ā
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PART 3: DENVER
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If you happen to read and enjoy this, pls let me know? š thanks!! it would be nice to know if this is working, or what else would people would like to see.
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i love you.
pairing(s): jack hughes x fem!reader
summary: in where yn finally tells jack and she loves him.
warning(s): completely fluff! a little suggestive towards the end!
wc: 1.4k
an: hiiii loves!!! writing for jack again, i missed writing for him sooo much. so enjoy this is little cute fluffy piece I wrote, i have nooo idea where this came from, like most of my ideas i pull them out of my ass LOLL. working on other works later today, more will be coming this weekend, to make up for my lack of posting. i honestly missed writing soooo much. okay i'm done, for now lol. hopefully you enjoy, like and reblog if you do. much love as always<3
happy reading <3
Tonight was the night, tonight I am going to tell Jack I love him. Jack and I have been dating for 8 months today, and neither of us have said those 3 special words to each other. I've loved jack for about 5 months now, i mean i how could i not? Jacks been the best boyfriend I can ask for, caring and sweet, loving, all of the above. So why was I so scared to say I love you?Ā
Saying i love you for the first time in a relationship is a big thing, deep down i know jack loves me, well i hope he does. The fear of him not feeling the same why back scares me, but im not letting the fear of his response hold me back anymore. Tonight is the night.
It just so happens to be our 8 month anniversary, Jack insisting that we go out to dinner at a fancy restaurant. So here I am standing in front of my mirror smoothing and looking at every piece of myself. Making sure my hair falls in the right places, that my dress all fits in the right places. Over analyzing my makeup, constantly fixing the already perfect lipstick I applied 5 times again.
My phone dings, picking it up with shaking hands, seeing Jack texted me saying heās down stairs waiting for me. Typing a quick response, I grab my bag from my room, and take a deep breath before I head out my door. The walk to the elevator and the ride down the elevator feels like a lifetime. I'm starting to think I just scrape this idea completely and just head right back up.Ā
The door opens in the lobby, walking out I send a quick smile and wave to the doormen in the lobby. Pushing open the door, I see Jack standing outside his car, his phone in his hands reading something. As soon as he hears my heels click against the sidewalk, his head pulls up imminently, his eyes wide as he flashes me a smile, shoving his phone in his pocket as he begins to walk towards me.Ā
āHoly shitā is the first thing Jack says as his hands reach my hips, his cool fingers running along the fabric of my dress. āYou look beautifulāĀ
āThank you, you look very handsome too.ā I saw my eyes running over his body, taking in the dress pants and shirt he had on, even swapping his air forces for a dresser type of shoe.Ā
āAre you ready for dinner, pretty girl?ā he asks, making his way to the passenger side of the car, opening the door for me.Ā
āYes I am, lead the wayā I say , saluting him once he gets into the car. a laugh rips through him as he starts the car, a smile playing on his face as he turns to me.Ā
āI can't get over how pretty you areāĀ
āJackāĀ
āWhat i'm just stating the facts' ' he says with a chuckle, i can feel my face heat up with blush as he continues to look at me.Ā
āYouāre so pretty when you blushāĀ
āJackkkkk '' I whine playfully out,Ā turning my body away so he can't see the smile that breaks out across my face.Ā
āDo you plan on leaving anytime today?ā i ask jokinglyĀ my eyes locked on his
āAfter i do thisā he says
I didn't even register what he had said to me before I felt his hand sliding around my jaw pulling my face towards his, capturing my lips into a sweet kiss. Our lips moving in sync my hands moving to cup his jaw pulling myself even closer to him.Ā
āI've wanted to do that since I saw you tonight,ā Jack says as he pulls away from my lips, his hand still cupping my jaw. Our eyes remained locked for a few more moments, tension, and heat filling the car as we stared at each other.Ā
Jack clears his throat before pulling his hands from my face, my body already missing the contact.Ā
āI think we should do that again.ā i say look at him
āBaby if we do that again we won't make it to dinner, my control is already being tested by how you look in that dress.ā he says as he pulls out of the parking spot, his hands holding the wheel tightly as he begins to drive.
I turn to look out of the window as my face begins to heat up with a blush again, smiling as I look at the city lights as we ride past them. My mind slowly reminds me of what I planned on doing tonight, saying I love you to the man that I love. Might be the scariest thing I've ever done before. The devil on my shoulder starts to control my thoughts as I ask myself, why hasn't Jack said I love you first? What's stopping him, then again what's stopping me?Ā
āAre you okay?ā Jack asks, his voice breaking through the silence of the car. āYou've been very quietā he followsĀ
āI'm okay, sorryā I replied, my hands twirling nervously in my hands.
āYou're doing that thing with your hands, somethings upā jack says, i can feel his eyes on me, as he stops at a red light.Ā
āWhat's on your mind baby? You know you can talk to me right?āĀ
āI know i can, i just can't say this to you, i'm scaredā i say softlyĀ
āDid someone hurt you, did I do something wrong? Baby look at meāĀ
Tears threaten to fall from my eyes, as I turn my face towards him, feeling mad at myself for making him feel like he did something, just because I can't express how I feel for him, because I'm scared.Ā
I no longer want to be scared, I love him. I want him to know that I love him, no matter his response.Ā
I take a deep breath before saying ācan I tell you something?ā I ask as he pulls into the restaurant, turning off the car before turning to face me.Ā
āYes of course, alwaysā Jack says, giving me a small smile, waiting for my next move.
This is all getting to real, i can feel my hands start shaking, my heart beat increasing by each beat.Ā
āOkay, i don't really know how to say this, but i'll just say it i guess. I- i love you." I finally said. āAnd I've loved you for a while now, I never knew how to say it to you. I've been so scared of your response, and i didnt know if you felt the same way. Its okay if you don't feel the same-āĀ
My rambling is suddenly cut off by the feeling of Jack's lips on mine, his lips dancing with mine, I struggle to keep up with him as he tangles his hands in my hair pulling me harder against his lips.Ā
Jack pulls away first, our chests rising quickly, he stares back at me with wide eyes.Ā
āSay that againā he saysĀ
āThat I love you?āĀ
āYes fuckā he says brining his hand to my cheek again holding it softly, looking at me with love and adoration. āI love you.ā he finally says.
āI love you so much,ā he says, kissing my lips after every word.Ā
āIm sorry, i know i should have said it a lot soonerā i say looking at himĀ
āNo, I should have said it first,ā Jack replies. āBut i'm happy you said it, i truly mean it yn, i love you.āĀ
My heart melts at his words, Jack loves me, he loves me. I couldn't help but smile brightly at him, Jack returning the same smile to me. Suddenly I feel the car being turned on as Jack pulls out of the restaurant, heading the opposite direction.
āJack, where are you going? I thought we were going to have dinner "I ask, looking at him as he continues to drive away from the restaurant.Ā
āWeāre going homeā he saysĀ
āWhy are we going home?ā I am still very confused about the sudden change of plans.
āBecause I want you in my bed, naked. I want to make love to the girl that I love. Is that okay?ā he asks, turning his towards me for a brief moment.Ā
āmore than okay with meā i sayĀ
āI love you.ā
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It's June! It's Pride! It's (my) Birthday!
The Introduction Spiel:
Hi, I'm Reyah! (any pronouns! no really, go for it!) On June 21st, I'm turning 32, an exciting and mysterious age to be!! (So I've heard)
Warning: This is a post asking for financial help, and if there's one thing I would ask is that if you read the whole thing: please reblog.
I'm a multiply-disabled queer person of color, a writer, artist, and photographer. I live with three of my best-good-pal-friends, (@renthony, @kryptidkhaos, and @natalieironside) and our collective army of pets.
We all know it's damned hard to be all these things at the same time under the capitalistic hellscape we're living under, and we/I am always in need of a lot of help with the existing.
I ended the month of May with some smaller bills left still to pay, but am thankful to say that June already had fewer bills than usual due, and the amount I need to start the summer off right is actually less than I was afraid it would be! Woohoo!
What I Make
I mentioned my artistic endeavors, let me show you them!!
Writing
I write less often than I'd like, but I share poetry and shorts, when I have them, on my Patreon!
You must be over 18 to pledge, as I have, can, and will again share Adult Content occasionally. Patrons pledging at least $1/month get access to all content. But most posts becomes free to access eventually. :)
When I do longer form content, I primarily write fantasy with a focus on queer brown characters with disabilities, mental illnesses, and disordered attachments. Because therapy is expensive, and writing is free.
Photography
I do wildlife and landscape photography, primarily, but you can also check out my portrait and event work on my website! You can purchase PRINTS HERE.
And because it's my birthday, I'm offering a 32% discount code for all my prints! The code is good from June 1st to July 1st!
A Note, if you purchase a print:
first off: thank you. (please feel free to send a photo of wherever you display it!!!)
secondly: this will not go towards the received totals on my financial need because Pixels doesn't pay out until nearly 2 months after the purchase. Funds made from sales will go towards future needs.
CODE: PDHHTR
Artwork
I've been exploring art, both analog and digital, a lot more lately, and have shared both process photos and final drafts on Patreon! Here are just a few examples:
I admittedly don't post on patreon as much as I wish I had the energy to, but I try to make at least one thing a month, provided I have the spoons and time.
Creativity is, like, a level 5 spell slot when you're disabled and impoverished, and I appear to have exactly One (1) of those available at any given time.
The Needs:
The Bills: $1,100
Yeah, we had to get here eventually. Since this post is already pretty long, I'm putting the rest under a cut.
More than half of this, as always, is just for the car payment and insurance that keeps the regular day-job-haver getting to said job, and all our medical appointments, errands, etc.
I still owe around $13,000 total on Johnny Car, but I think we all know that's just not a real number.
The rest of the funds would go toward paying the small subscriptions, for my various medications, and the regular attempts to whittle away slowly at the $4,300 worth of other debt.
($2,200 of back taxes, and $2,100 of credit card debt, and gods, do I mean slowly. Interest piles up so much faster than I can seem to whittle.)
If you're able and willing to help with paying the bills, direct donations can be made here:
PayPal | (link)
Venmo | (dovesndecay)
Cashapp | ($dovesndecay)
If you can, and only if you can.
The It Would Be Cools:
Since every dime that comes in goes primarily towards food and bills, there's little left afterward to be put towards other life necessities like clothes, toiletries, let alone things I just think would be nice/neat/nifty to have.
I have a High Priority wishlist. It's mostly art supplies, bulk toiletries, etc.
I'm woefully low on clothes, being short, fat, and trans, so very little of what I own actually feels good to wear so much as it simply covers my body. I have a wishlist of clothes that would be nice to have.
For everything that firmly lands under the "I just want it" category, I have an Enrichment list. It's mostly stuffies, but also games, room decor, hobby supplies, books, and stim toys.
Our household keeps a big wishlist for things we need, want, groceries, accessibility products, and everything in-between.
Okay, now what?
Well, now, I'm gonna ask that if you got to this point, and if you can't/don't want to do any of the things listed above, then please reblog this post.
The more people that reblog it, the more likely I'm able to pay my bills for one more month this year.
But if you don't, it's not like anyone's gonna know. I'm not omniscient, I swear.
Anyway, I don't expect anyone to do anything if you can't or even if you just don't wanna, but if you can and you're willing to, it means the world.
I didn't think this is where I'd be at 32. But I never really expected to get here at all in the end, and it's a lot nicer than I thought it would be. Mostly because I am surrounded by amazing people who have the capacity to be so much kinder than I will ever have the words to describe.
Thank you, and to all, a happy pride!
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So I think we all understand at this point that much of the Fairy Tales of Remnant and various other in-universe folktales and legends that have been told or otherwise mentioned up to now are IMPORTANT. That these stories, particularly the ones that are given some kind of focus, are meant to relate to specific events or characters and generally foreshadow things that will happen or be revealed in the show. Whether in the direct sense of āthis story is actually relating real events that are significant to charactersā like The Story of the Seasons to the Maidens and Oz, or in more indirect, symbolic fashion like Oscar and Ozpin idly discussing The Girl Who Fell Through the World in Volume 8.
Suffice to say, fairy tales in RWBY clearly MEAN something. Especially if a fairy tale is clearly being connected to a character or characters.
To that end, going forward I think we should really be looking at The Warrior in the Woods, and in-particular the animated short, as being narratively tied to Summer, Raven and Taiyang. And specifically meant to foreshadow what Taiyangās relationship with Summer and Raven was REALLY like.
For one, the connection the animated short draws is not exactly subtle. The short is flat out framed as Tai reading the story to Ruby and Yang for bedtime, with the boy in the story looking like a young version of Tai while the titular Warrior looks literally like a combination of Summer and Raven. And to top it all off, the story even broadly reflects what we already know about the relationships of the three; with the young man losing the woman he so admired and loved just like Tai lost Summer and Raven. Again, the connections are not in ANY way subtle here.
So with that base established, what more can we potentially glean as foreshadowing here?
Well, as Iāve stated in previous posts, I think it is telling that while the Boy in the story did love the Warrior, it is ultimately a tragic, doomed love that was never meant to be.
And more than that, the story notably only gives us the perspective of the boy, and never the Warrior. And likewise, we never learn how the Warrior truly felt about the boy. She clearly cared about him, enough to consider him something of a friend, but did she feel about him like he felt about her? The story never makes this clear, and I think that in and of itself is rather telling: Despite the boyās attempts to reach out to her, the Warrior maintains her distance. Whatever growing care or affection she might have felt for the boy, it clearly wasnāt nearly enough to get her to break her isolation or duty to safeguard the village in secret. While the boy may have loved the Warrior, it was a love that in all likelihood, could not and was not returned.
So when we apply this to Taiyang, Summer and Raven, a rather bleak picture emerges: That Taiās relationships with Raven or Summer were NEVER going to work out. Or that neither Summer NOR Raven actually loved Tai in the same way he loved either of them.
And the thing is, this IS supported even by what little we have seen of Tai, Summer and Raven. Just like in the story, we have been told of Taiās love for Summer and Raven, yet told precious little of how either of THEM felt about Tai. And what little we HAVE been told or shown has left it rather questionable how either of them cared for Tai.
Raven has made it clear that she cares little for Taiyang in the present, which really raises the question of how or if the two were ever in a relationship in the past. And while the existence of Yang might imply some kind of relationship, letās also consider the possibility that Yang was actually an unplanned pregnancy. The result of a possible drunken, one-night-stand between Raven and Tai. Which would certainly put Ravenās reluctance to be a mother in a VERY different context.
Then we have Summer, and thanks to Rubyās tree-vision, I think we can count her feelings for Taiyang as being at best āambiguousā.
For one, as Iāve stated elsewhere, Summerās scene with Taiyang is curiously lacking in especially overt romantic gestures. A lack of noticeable flirting or particularly romantic physical acts like a kiss. They do hug, but as Iāve said before, RWBY has used these close, intimate hugs just as much if not more often to convey platonic or familial affection. Note also that Taiyang is the one to clearly initiate the hug, not Summer
More than any of that, itās clear that Summer is putting on an act for Tai in this scene. In the scene she is clearly pensive and uncertain and maybe even afraid, but the moment Tai walks in, Summer immediately adopts a mask of āeverything is normal, donāt worry about anythingā. Which calls into question how much of anything Summer does/says in this exchange is truly genuine, and how much is simply an act for Taiās benefit.
Summer clearly does not trust Taiyang with the truth of what she is ACTUALLY doing. And the clear ease with which Summer assumes this mask implies that this is likely far from the first time Summer has done this.
Just compare Summerās scene with Tai to both her previous scene with the sleeping Ruby and Yang, and her following scene with Raven; both showing Summer not putting on any kind of act for anyone else.
Most notably, despite whatever resentment she might feel towards Raven for leaving them (or perhaps just leaving her), Summer clearly trusts Raven, more than ANYONE, with helping her on this mission she considered so vitally important.
Summer certainly cared for Taiyang, that much is clear. Otherwise she wouldnāt put so much effort into reassuring him that everything was fine.
But did she love Tai in way that he loved her? Or was it simply a role she went along with for his, and possibly more-so Rubyās and Yangās benefit? Given the clear emotional mask and barrier we see her put up when around Tai, I would call the answer, at BEST, ambiguous.
Which all ties perfectly into what we see in The Warrior in the Woods.
The boy in the story, who is presented as looking just like Tai, loved a mysterious but noble warrior, who is presented as looking like Raven AND Summer. But the love the boy felt could not or was not returned and the warrior would instead vanish into the night. Just like Summer and Raven did.
Oh, and the ending of the story match-cutting a shot of the ācross between Summer and Ravenā Warrior to a shot of Ruby who likewise has a lot of visual similarities to Raven as well as Summer MIGHT be hinting at something tooā¦
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Am I the asshole for checking my friend's blog after they cut contact for our whole friend group without saying anything?
This happened near the start of this year, I (21f) had gotten home after a very upsetting personal matter and decided maybe calling some friends would help me feel better, but I noticed one friend (23x) in our shared server had a white name instead of green in the server, so duh I was worried cause it's not like we had any recent fights (we called the night before and had fun, it was like normal) so I naturally went to dm and ask if they were alright, discord said I couldn't dm them and I saw it's cause they also unfriended me.
I was getting a lot more worried so I checked Tumblr, and it said their blog was deleted. So I went to our shared friend and told them about it, and they said the blog was still there cause they used an alt account to check. And then they noticed they were also unfriended, and basically the whole group of us realized we all got blocked on tumblr and discord.
Some of them reached out on whatever contact they still had cause we were all really worried since this friend has attempted before. A few days pass and we finally get a response, I'm not gonna like..say word for word what was said cause that feels kind of a breach of privacy. But basically it...did not make things better! It just made us all feel like our friend of nearly 3 years didn't trust us enough to say "hey I'm taking an internet break" or "I'm going through something I may leave discord"
A few more days pass and here's where I think I'm an asshole or like. Weird and creepy or something. I check my friend's blog, I scroll through and see if there were any posts that were like ..this was a planned thing (like, posts talking about needing a break from friends or discord) or if the "taking a break lol sorry I didn't tell you guys and just blocked you on everything" was a lie and this *was* an attempt or something.
And then I saw a post of our friend saying (from my memory) something along the lines of "these bitches do not know how much I can ruin their life I need to make an aita on reddit ugh" and like...I already naturally have very bad paranoia so that kinda full on put me in a panic attack.
I vented about it, and it turns out some friends brought that up to them and they got super mad and said I was being a stalker and that they didn't want anything to do with any of us anymore. Was I am asshole/in the wrong?
I'm really sorry for making this super long, this was my first aita so I hope I didn't like..make this too venty? It's something that's been bugging me for months.
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It might be worth it for once
Fernando Alonso x Reader
A/N: English is not my first language, apologies for the mistakes! This was inspired by the song Slut!, by miss Taylor Swift! Enjoy!
You had just posted a picture on Instagram of Fernando driving you took when you were in the passenger seat, on your way to date night. You thought your caption was hilarious: āshut up and driveā, quoting the song by Rihanna. An hour later though, as the hate comments poured in, it suddenly wasnāt as funny.
Leaning on the railing of the hotel room you shared with Fernando, you scrolled through endless comments calling you names, criticizing you and your relationship. Of course, the classic āgold diggerā was there. Even after four years of being publicly in a relationship with Fernando, people still didnāt get it. Even though you were used to it, it still hurt.
āMi sol,ā Fernando joined you on the balcony, pulling you into a hug from behind. He noticed that you were scrolling through the comments, āSame old, huh?ā
āAlways. Donāt they get tired of hating me, hating us together? It must be exhausting, after four years.ā You replied, sighing.
Fernando took your phone away from you and put it in his pocket. He spun you so you were now facing him, with your back against the railing.
āYou cannot let them get to you, mi sol. None of what they said is true. These people donāt know anything about us or our relationship. I love you, and thatās the only thing that matters.ā
He tucked a few loose strands of your hair behind your ears, trying to comfort you. He could see that the comments had made more of an impact on you than they usually did.
āI know, baby, and I love you too. Itās just that weāve been together for a few years now, and I had expected the hate to slow down. So what youāre older? That doesnāt change anything!ā You were getting frustrated.
He kissed your cheek, wanting to calm you down.
āYouāre right, it doesnāt change anything. We are just a normal couple, doing things the right way. We moved together, weāre gonna get married someday, have our own family, grow old togetherā¦ā He laughed a little, āWell, Iām gonna get older earlier than you, but who cares?ā He shrugged it off, not noticing your eyes were as big as saucers.
āFernando, did you just say we were going to get married someday?ā
He looked confused, and almost hurt.
āWhat, did you not expect us to get married someday? Or do you not want to?ā He asked insecurely.
You were quick to respond: āNo, no, I mean, of course, I want to get married to you! Iām just surprised that you would want to marry me!ā
āMi sol, why would I not want to make you my wife? He asked, genuinely surprised.
āWellā¦ Itās just that I expected that you would grow tired of me one day, realize I was too young, not mature enough for you, or something like thatā¦ā You replied, looking away.
He forced you to look at him by pulling gently on your chin.
āHow can you believe that I will ever get tired of you? Mi sol, I could never have enough of you. I always knew I was going to be proposing to you one day. It has been part of my plan ever since we started dating.ā
You were blushing, ashamed of yourself for being so insecure: āMaybe one day you will start to believe the comments on my Instagram posts, and you will leave me because you think that I am a gold digger, or that Iām only using you for fameā¦ Even though none of this will ever be true, of course!ā
Fernando took both of your hands in his, then he exclaimed āI could never believe lies like this! Frankly, I am a little disappointed. Do you not have faith in me or our relationship?ā
You gasped, realizing you had hurt his feelings: āIām sorry baby, I did not mean in that way! I know that you love me, and I love you too. I promise, Iāve always imagined us being together for the rest of our lives, I just wasnāt sure if you shared my plan. If you didnāt, baby, I would be crushed to death. In fact, I have so much faith the future of our relationship that I already have a Pinterest board for our wedding as well as a list of potential baby names that suit the last name Alonso!ā You admitted desperately, but also sheepishly.
Fernando immediately softened at your words.
āMi sol, you have a list of names? Which ones are at the top?ā
You turned a deep shade of red. āRight now, itās Santiago for a boy, and Marisol for a girl, because it reminds me of the nickname you have for me.ā
āDon't be embarrassed. These are very nice names, all in Spanish tooā¦ Youāve really thought about this huh?ā He stroked your cheek, then pulled you closer to leave soft kisses on your jawline. He was clearly pleased to learn you had planned ahead.
āOf course. Itās not a simple task, it cannot be rushed.ā He could hear your smile in your voice.
āYeah? I kind of want to put a baby in you right now,ā he whispered in you ear. You immediately shivered at his words.
āMe too. God, it would be so hot to walk around the paddock pregnant by a man fifteen years older than me. Everyone would know it was you that knocked me up. Everyone would know how good you treat me.ā You were getting turned on by this fantasy and the trail of kisses Fernando left all over your throat. He was getting worked up too, and you could feel it on your thigh.
āI can do all of that, mi sol. Multiple times, even. I would love to see you at the races with a baby or two in your arms, and another one on the way.ā He left your throat to give the same treatment to your shoulders, pushing the thin straps of you dress to the side. His hands were working efficiently too, getting access to your thighs by lifting the hem of your dress.
You brought him even closer to you by pulling him by the loops holding his belt in place.
āBaby, go ahead then. We would be the talk of the town. Oh, the scandal it would cause, especially since weāre not married.ā The thought was thrilling.
Fernando went back to your neck, one hand lifting your leg and the other one on the side of your boobs.
āOh yeah, I forgot about that part. I want to make you my wife before I get you pregnant. I want you to have my last name before I give it to the baby.ā
You were conflicted, but also pleased. On one hand, you really, really wanted to get pregnant as soon as possible. But being his wife before being the mother of his children was also really tempting. You teased him: āSounds like you are ready. Pretty please, tell me, do you have the ring already?ā
Your boyfriend smiled against your neck. āIn the first drawer of my dresser, hidden underneath my socks.ā
You shrieked: āNo way!ā Fernando laughed at your excitement.
You hugged him tightly. He really was serious earlier.
He answered simply: āYes.ā You kissed him, and he kissed you back immediately. The kiss was soft and tender and had a thousand words hidden in it. It was full of I love you, no I love you more. It was the kind of kiss that creates buttefly. It was the type of kiss you remember forever. After a few minutes, or maybe a few hours, the driver pulled away.
āMi sol, I know I havenāt even proposed to you yet, but what if we went inside and practiced for our wedding night?ā
You laughed and followed him inside.
A year later, it was his turn to post on his Instagram. This time, it was a picture of your wedding. Multiple songs by Rihanna could have been fitting for the caption: We Found Love, Only Girl, Love On The Brain, and many more. Ultimately, he chose a simpler one: Mi sol.
And when you welcomed your little girl, his caption was similar: Mi sol y mi Marisol. This time, the comments were pretty nice.
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what do you think of the comments on mdl of my stand in calling ming a cheater?
hi nonnie []~(ļæ£ā½ļæ£)~* that's actually something i've been thinking to write about because i saw those remarks as well but it is such a controversial thing to discuss. if you don't mind, this discussion post will be filled with mild spoilers of the novel.
!!!!!! novel spoilers warning !!!!!!
alright so first of all, @ineffable-opinions wrote an excellent post about the danmei tropes in my stand-in (which i highly recommend everyone to read). this is a great post as they discussed the white moonlight trope presented in my stand-in.
i don't consider ming, a cheater because as i see it, tong was simply ming's white moonlight. ming never established a physical nor emotional connection with tong, throughout his time knowing joe. tong was always an idealised fantasy, he's mistaken it for it to be love. in other words, i see it as ming looking up tong like a delulu fanboy with an idol crush than him actually having any substantive feelings for tong ever. i mean if you had a partner that looked like a kpop idol, and sex with your partner makes you feel like you're achieving your sexual fantasy, are you cheating on your partner? maybe? maybe not? probably controversial and debatable question but for me, i don't consider it 'cheating'. i do think ming took for granted joe's genuine feelings and did not fully appreciate joe's affection (ming you ungrateful bish, repent).
during their time together playing pseudo 'not boyfriends', ming showed that he could be an okay partner. whether it's caring about joe's day at work, how hard joe's job as a stuntman, accepting joe's invitation to accompany him to his wrapped filming party.
i mean it's really bare minimum but that's already quite a lot coming from the dude who's afraid as hell once joe started mentioning the 'faen' word, triggering his self-defense mechanism, depreciating himself trying to claim that joe wouldn't be able to stand him.
i think one of the most obvious example of how afraid ming was to lose this relationship, was him using the word 'faen' in the last breakup fight with joe. this line was very ironic of him to say, because i'm sure even ming knows this line applies more to himself (how in this life, ming won't be able to find a better boyfriend than joe).
i absolutely love ming's emotion progression in ep 4 because it encapsulates perfectly his 21 year old spoiled brat attitude. he was confused when broken up over the phone, then mad and started throwing tantrum trying to get joe to coax him (like joe always does), until he realized it wouldn't work this time and he started frantically begging for joe to stay so they could go back to playing house and being happy.
personally, i don't consider it cheating because by around ep3/4, you can already started seeing ming settling down with the option that makes him "happy". some may even argued that by this point, he has 'recognized' his feelings (not me though, i think he just wanted his simple happiness/domestic bliss back, i still think it's during the period he lost joe 1.0 that he learned what love truly is).
now the most important question of all: is ming cheating on joe 1.0 with joe 2.0 or vice versa?
to quote chapter 63 of Professional Body Double (My Stand-In novel), i think the author puts it best how ming views joe 2.0.
He has fallen to the point of looking for the shadow of that person in a substitute. This is his punishment. When he thought that he was using [Joe] as [Tong]ās substitute, he was not aware of the actual person who had entered his heart.
He had failed miserably with this method but still could not help himself from wanting to try. There are no other reasons. Just that he was in too much pain. He canāt endure anymore.
He was adamant that [Joe] is not dead but no one could confirm it. That little doubtful voice in his heart is getting louder and louder, but is roughly suppressed by him time and time again. To continually be persistent with this thought, he needed a lot of willpower. He knew better than anyone else. Even if this [Joe] could bring him a little comfort, he wanted to be close to him, just like a long frozen person wanting to be close to a matchstick.
This canāt save himā¦ but he couldnāt stop himself from taking that little warmth.
i LOVE this metaphor and this little inner thought of ming we got because we can see how he's very much aware that he's falling right back into the bad habit that got him into trouble in the first place but... he's a fucking fool... who resorts to spiritual shamans for hope...
but also the familiarity he got from joe 2.0 is way too strong to joe 1.0. so for me, i'm seeing it as ming is using joe 2.0 as a means for comfort and relief as well as keeping him close to observe the similarities between him and joe 1.0, rather than viewing joe 2.0 as a replacement for joe 1.0 (because keep in mind, at this point he doesn't know they're the same person yet).
so !!!!!!!!! BIG WARNING of spoilers from the novel !!!!!!!!! if joe had considered joe 2.0 to be a direct replacement of joe 1.0, i don't think he would have had this conversation with joe 2.0 about joe 1.0.
Ming spoke right at this time. His voice sounded very faint and very soft, āJoe, are you hiding something from me?ā
Joe didnāt know what Ming meant by this. He asked cautiously, āI donāt understand what Khun Ming means.ā
Ming, āThe feelings you give me is too familiar. Itās as if Iāve known you and have lived with you before. Why is this?ā
Joe forced himself to responded, āMaybe this is fate.ā
If it wasnāt because they are fated, they would not be in the predicament of todayā¦with a relationship that is so unclear in both past and current lifetimes.
āJoe. Tell meā¦.If a person had been missing for more than two years, do you think he may still be alive?ā
Joeās tensed up and smiled, āMost likely impossible. If still alive, he would have come back already.ā
āWhy canāt he be alive? It could be that he didnāt come back because he doesnāt want to come back.ā
Joe is silent for a moment, āKhun Ming, are you talking about the other Joe?ā
Joe clearly felt Mingās body stiffened. Then Ming asked, āHow much do you know about him?ā
āI donāt know anything at all. I just heard from what others have said.ā
Ming quietly asked, āThen do you know what relationship I have with him?ā
Joeās heart tightened, What relationship? You say, what relationship?
He clenched his teeth in the dark, āI donāt know.ā
Mingās voice is like the rising of the quiet abyss, cold and empty, āI feel that heās not dead. He just doesnāt want to come back.ā
Joe heard his own voice dissociated from his thoughts and automatically asked, āWhy wonāt he want to come back?ā
Ming didnāt respond to his question, instead he tightened his arms around Joe.
i like that in the 2.0 timeline, we got ming learning but also not learning his dumbass mistakes at all. ming learned that he should be upfront about his feelings and be straightforward with his sexual partner, but at the same time he's still impatient, hot tempered and say hurtful things easily.
so i think through and through the second half of the series, you'll see his fidelity to joe (the soul) only. while perhaps it was the shadow of a back that mesmerized ming in the first place, but it's the kindhearted soul of joe that ming truly fell in love with, the person that showed him what love means, the only period in his life where he felt happiness.
Ā© gif courtesy of the talented @alienwlw
you can also check out @befuddledcinnamonroll and @ineffable-opinions discussion on matters of transmigration, attachment of the soul with the body in their excellent posts, here and here. to sum it up, i think up kinda succintly puts it here in this interview.
of course, this is not to excuse dating/fucking anyone who resembles your missing ex but then treating them like they're your object ;_; like i'm just saying i don't think what ming is doing with joe 2.0 can be categorized as cheating (for me). it's something scummy, foolish, dumb, really stupid but... not cheating ā( Tļ¹T )ā.
also if you notice, ming doesn't sleep around. surely he could have slept with dozen of nice looking man with similar physique to joe 1.0 to "keep the warmth" if he was that type of dude... but he doesn't... so for me, i see this proposal he has for joe 2.0 is not simply because of a physical attraction/similarity to joe, but it's the vibe/the aura/the āØenergyāØ that joe 2.0 radiates that is too similar to joe 1.0, drawing ming to him again.
tldr: ming is a lot of things but for me, i would never characterize him as a cheater. ming is a scummy, spoiled, arrogant, entitled, hot tempered hi-so brat but also a foolish little crying bag with zero wife-chasing skills. his only tactic is begging and getting his waterworks flowing.
ps: i'm not sure if this ask actually answers your question at all but hopefully some of my thoughts made sense ą²„_ą²„
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since everyone in this fandom and their mum seem to be giving their piece about the āupdateā coming to Hogwarts Legacy on the 6th, i figured id give my piece even if no one has asked
ive been seeing a lot of posts and replies about how āwe should just take what we get and be gratefulā and āthe devs are working hard, do you know how hard game development is?ā
im very aware of how difficult game development can be and how mentally taxing it is. i dont doubt that theyāve been through the mill.
the update is trash. its that simple. weāre allowed to feel upset about it, and for people saying that its not fair to be upset ā it is fair. we shouldnt have to expect the bare minimum from a game that sold 22 million copies and reached nearly 2 billion dollars in revenue, a game that had 14 nominations for awards and 3 wins.
we were told we were getting a summer update alongside the Haunted Hogsmeade quest ā the quest they promised to release to PC and Xbox in march when the game celebrated one year of release. they said, and i quote;
āAs we near the one-year anniversary of Hogwarts Legacy, we wanted to let our community know that the Hogwarts Legacy PlayStation-exclusive content will be available on other platforms later this summer, along with additional updates and features for the game. Stay tuned in the coming months for more details on whatās coming to Hogwarts Legacy this year.ā copy and pasted straight from Hogwarts Legacyās official twitter page. along with additional updates and features to the game.
yes ā i know, thats a very vague statement. it could have been taken in any way, but typically when additional updates and features ā plural ā is put into a sentence, you assume that there will be more than one new feature. it wasnt wrong for the community to assume that there was more than a few new additions coming to the game.
okay, we got photo mode ā thats great for console players, but it isnt new for us PC players. im happy for my console buddies that finally get to bring their mc to life in the way ive been able to. im looking forward to seeing the uptick in photos upon the updates release. PC and Xbox got the new haunted hogsmeade quest, and thats great, considering the release of it was delayed by 3 months, but atleast weāre getting it. but basically. PS5 was fucked in the process, because everything minus photo mode is stuff they already had, and honestly, thats not fair. and double honest ā thats not an update. thats the release of exclusive content plus a new addition.
for several months a summer update was hyped up, and the result wasā¦. ps5 getting fucked, a photo mode that im going to bet my ass on will be buggy as all hell, and some cosmetics. so no ā i wont be grateful. especially when we keep getting promised things and then getting fucked by a hot iron in the process. because i havent forgotten the documentary that was supposed to come out, and i still remember during September when they hyped up a digital surprise for Back to Hogwarts day and it ended up being 30 percent off on a game most of us already had, only for the game to go on sale for half off the following Nov/Dec for the holiday sales.
since the release of the game, modders have been basically picking up the slack by working their asses off to create bug fixes, better cosmetic options, enhanced schedules, companions, and so much more to keep the community somewhat entertained. this as well as the file miners that are constantly digging things up that we were robbed of, like the relationship list for companions, gaunt manor, other house specific quests, more quests concerning Isadora, on and on. on top of this, ive seen first hand how much of the outer parts of the map was developed only to be cut out. i spent a solid hour and a half today using free cam to fly around the outskirts of the map ā buildings, caves, entire areas laid out for towns or poacher camps, all thrown out on top of all of the discarded quests and content.
and while im at it ā ill be one of the few to say it, but Hogwarts Legacies storyline was not well thought out, or at the very least it wasnt very well portrayed. there were hundreds of questions we were left with upon beating the game. where did Anne go? what happened to the keepers after the final battle? why wasnt Isadora in her portrait? what were the keepers hiding? did inhaling the magic actually make a difference or was it just for shock value? how much of Isadoraās story did we miss? how was the undercroft tied in with Isadora when it was apparently a Gaunt secret? what even really was the undercroft?
yes, i know ā āwell arent they making a second one?ā and yeah, im pretty sure they are, and maybe thats why weāve gotten nothing more than a pile of bricks in the last year and a half. but, they should probably finish the first game before starting on a second.
this doesnt mean i dont love Hogwarts Legacy. i love the people ive met, the stories ive read, and i love capturing the screenshots i take from that game. the entire situation is just frustrating to no end.
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I finished Moby Dick. So, to continue my former post(s) documenting my thoughts, here we are (spoilers ahead):
captain ahab: i am once again asking hast thou seen the white whale
Narrator, for the 5 millionth time describing captain ahab: "MONOMANIACAL. MONOMANIAC. MONOMANIA."
I was thinking "the homosexual themes everyone talks about are really exaggerated apparentlyā¦" and then I got to the chapter about sperm squeezing
Stubb meeting with the French in chap 91 had the exact vibe of a filler episode on a comedy sitcom
there are a lot of moments that reminded me of The Office ngl like i could just imagine stubb in the little interview chair just talking. so much meme material. he's seriously just doing his own thing. the little random characters like the blacksmith and carpenter just talking shit and side-eyeing ahab in the background lmaoooo
Saint George didn't kill a dragon, it was a whale #THETRUTHREVEALED #WHALETRUTHERS
It would have been hilarious if the British people told Ahab that they already killed Moby Dick already before he could get to it. I was so hoping that would happen. Bonus points if it was the Rachel after he'd turned them away.
Ahab discusses the topic of madness a lot. It's almost like he'sā¦ mad...
I vote Ahab for the most Byronic hero to ever Byronicā¦ Heathcliff and Rochester have nothing on himā¦ The origin of the Byronic hero, Byron's titular character from the narrative poem Childe Harold, is literally mentioned by name in the novel and had to be a blatant inspiration - it could not be more obvious! (I have yet to encounter the famed Byronic heroes of Russian literature, most notably Eugene Onegin, a work where Byron is also blatantly name-dropped).
Everyone thinking Queequeg was dying and having a coffin made to his measurements and filled with grave goods at his direction and then him literally climbing into the coffin to test it out and then waiting silently to dieā¦. then all of a sudden getting better and saying he chose to recover bc he remembered he had something on his to-do listā¦.. iconic
Ishmael referring to Queequeg as "my Queequegā¦" omg. Queerqueg
Queequeg drawing figures like the ones on his tattoos omgā¦ au story where Queequeg is an artist/tattoo artist when???
I was literally saying "AWWWWW" out loud when Ahab and Pip were having their little moments
The irony of Ahab abandoning the Rachel then it coming back for Ishmaelā¦ the coffin lifeboatā¦ etcā¦ good stuffā¦
okay ahab is my man but yeah he was an asshole to the captain of rachel.
also feel bad for tashtego. he wanted that gold doubloon so bad and ahab was like SIKE, MOTHERFUCKER! umm tashtego did not get cut out of a whale by queequeg to deal with ur shit ahab!
Once again wanting a Black Sails/Moby Dick AUā¦ I found this essay about the similarities between Flint/Ahab https://ijms.nmdl.org/article/view/22389/14361
They only have like 2-3 little moments together but likeā¦ Starbuck/Ahab kind of outdoing Ishmael/Queequeg there for a momentā¦ chaps 132/134ā¦ oh my godddddddddddddd whyyyyyyy
Captain Ahab's moments in chapters 36/37 AAAAAHHHHH you will see me being normal about this
I noted some of my favorite Ahab moments/chapters and they are 36/37/41/70/99/108/109/113/115/116/119/125/129/132/134/135. Like I may seriously just re-read those chapters (no offense to Melville's whale facts, Stubb's jokes, & Pip's insanity)
the end is kind of similar to the great gatsby in the sense that you finally realize the entire novel was actually written for him to cope with his grief-related trauma & then suddenly it all makes sense. the lingering, the sentimentality regarding seemingly insignificant details or people, the meandering/digressing/procrastinating getting to the end, etc.
there are actually several moments -- i don't know if he actually referred to ahab or the others in past-tense specifically, but there were several moments where i felt like i kind of thought he was giving away the end before he did (it wasn't a shock to me bc i read about the end prior, but still)
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What A Gentleman
Pairing- Billy the Kid x Femme readerĀ
Warnings- Drinking mentioned, drunk people, reader gets hit on, unwanted flirting, unwanted touching, Billy says reader ābelongsā to him, allusion to smut
A/N- um, this is kinda shit writing, but I like it. lmk how you feel abt the allusion to smut. also, SEND REQS
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You and Billy had been seeing each other for a while now, but considering that you were a sweet lady, he didnāt want you to be associated with him.
Well, that was until tonight. You had decided to go out, making your way to a nearby bar to enjoy the night. You werenāt someone to be messed with, although Billy thought you were all fragile, you were far from it. Youād grown up learning how to fight, and although you were underestimated as a woman, you could protect yourself quite well. Because of this, you figured youād have no trouble turning guys away that night, until a random young man, obviously drunk, made his way to you.
āHello there, pretty miss, whatācha doinā here alone?ā He drawled, his speech a little off thanks to the alcohol.Ā
āJust tryinā to get a drink.ā You replied with confidence, a little surprised he had approached you. I mean, you didnāt exactly look like the kinda girl most men went for, I mean, you had gotten away with wearing pants instead of a skirt for fucks sake.
āA pretty thing like you shouldnāt be here all alone. Why donāt I take you back to your home and you can show me what you can do?ā He said forcefully, left hand landing on your waist, causing you to startle. In that moment, you became aware of the breath of someone else fanning down your neck.
āYou leave her alone, sheās got a man.ā A familiar voice says from behind, without even having to look, you know itās Billy. The manās eyes widen and he scampers off, head hung in defeat. āHere, Thisāll keep āem away.ā He murmurs, firmly placing his hat on your head.
āYou sure?ā You ask, wide eyes looking up at his. Everyone would know who you belonged to now.
āOf course, Doll. I donāt want you havinā to deal with that.ā He plants a kiss on your forehead after he finished speaking, then reaching down to take your hand. āCāmon sugar, letās get you home.ā
He leads you home, making sure that you didnāt trip over something as you looked up at the stars.Ā
āBilly, can we watch the stars from my backyard?ā You ask in a tone too sweet for him to resist.
āOf course, sugar. Iāll watch the stars with you.ā He murmurs as he slings an arm around your waist.Ā
Once back at your house, you get a blanket from your bed and wandered into the garden where Billy already waited. You lay next to him in the grass, a blanket pulled over you two.
āBilly, will you stay with me tonight? Please?ā You plead, already knowing it was going to be a no.
āMāsorry sugar, it just isnāt safe for you.ā He murmurs as he plants a soft kiss on your head.
āPlease? Just tonight?ā You beg, and the way you look at him, the way you beg even though you knew heād say no, breaks him.
āFine baby, just tonight though.ā He murmurs, a little hesitant. All his worries melt away as he sees your face light up. Nothing was better than the sight of his girl, in his hat, grinning like she had won the lottery.
After a bit more stargazing, he leads you back up to your room, helping you change before crawling in bed with you. He makes sure the covers are just how you like before moving in to kiss you. Every time he kissed you, your heart fluttered, it was always like the first time. He poured so much passion into the way he moved his lips, and you could feel that in the kiss. He eventually broke away, leaving you gasping for air.
āYou need to rest Darlinā.ā He whispers, pulling his hat off your head and hanging it off a bed post. You complied quickly, tucking your face into the soft skin of his neck while his rough hands pulled you closer. Although you were supposed to sleep, things didnāt stay like that for long.
In the morning, he helped you out of bed, legs still shaking from the previous night. Being a gentleman, he had made breakfast for his girl, because after all, even if you could barely walk after a night with him, he wasnāt one to be impolite.
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cold kisses
part 0.3. USER 7193
PLAYING FROM KODZUKEN'S STREAM . . . feels by calvin harris
maybe he should have expected this.Ā
nearly all of his posts have been overrun with questions about y/n in the comments. the comments range from simple āwho was the girl in your cooking stream??ā demands to extremely specific ones detailing her exact hair color, height, and voice pitch as if heās had another mysterious girl on a stream that heāll confuse her for.
heās been doing his best to avoid questions about her but it could only work for so long. now thereās only questions about y/n left in the chat and heās not sure what to do. it was easy to ignore the questions when he wasnāt doing an entire question and answer live stream but heād promised to do one soon and he thought having shoyo with him was going to help.Ā
it did for the most part, and everything seemed normal but he was at a loss for words when the chat started to flood with questions about y/n.
shoyo leaned closer to read a question outloud, āāgirl from the cooking stream?ā i keep seeing that, do they not knowāā
a reflex kicks in and he slaps a hand over shoyoās mouth, pushing him away from the screen again before removing his hand trying to act normal.
the ginger looks at him, a mix of surprise and confusion on his face. āsorry,ā kenma apologizes quickly, shocked by his own actions. āno, they donāt know anything about her,ā he answers, trying to make it clear that he wants to keep it that way.
but the chat is already too far gone, using this one mention to run wild with theories. he canāt blame them, really. sometimes theyāre a little over the top and unnecessarily pushy as if they have no sense of respect but in this scenario what else could they talk about besides a mysterious person that just entered the picture? but that didn't mean he enjoyed dealing with it.
messages transition quickly from asking what they ādonāt know aboutā to inferring that he has a secret girlfriend. he groans, looking away from the screen. his mind working fast to try and come up with an excuse or explanation; a single mention of her and they already think heās dating someone. heās sure that the internet would go crazy with this information as well, fabricating stories, scandals, and everything in between.
his phone starts to buzz.
speak of the devil.
itās a notification from twitter, some unofficial update account thatās tagged him about having a secret girlfriend.
he needs to think.
he can see shoyo eyeing him out of the corner of his eyes and he knows heās been silent for too long on camera.
god, someone was going to find out who she was soon, right? werenāt fans supposed to be good at doxxing each other?
but how does he play off being roommates with an olympic athlete? an olympic athlete whose currently being shipped to the max with the most typical copy and paste guy everyone has the hots for?
maybe itād be better for him to leave it to a random fan to find out who she is and announce it to the worldāno, then heāll just look bad for hiding things after so much has already come to light. itās best for him to come up with an excuse right now. if he said she was his girlfriend maybe he could ask them to leave her alone. maybe theyād listen to him.
it sounded like his best option but he couldnāt just make that decision on his own without talking to her.
but he also couldnāt stand up and the leave the room for an unprecedented amount of time after keeping quiet for so long.
he looks at the chat one more time, seeing the word girlfriend in nearly every message. if they already think theyāre dating it canāt be that bad, right?
ākenmaā¦?ā shoyo breaks him out of a trance, touching him on the back.
kenma looks at him, unsure of what to say. he feels dizzy and his mind wonāt stop whirring with thoughts and worries.
āyouāve been really quiet,ā shoyo lowers his voice so that only kenma can hear him, āi think you need to say something.ā
he glances at the chat again. still stuff about y/n.
sheād be okay with it, right? maybe if she isnāt heāll just tell twitter that his girlfriend broke up with him because his fans are pushy little shits and heāll agree with her word for word and then his fans will cancel him and he can move to another country and live a happy little life working in a cat shelterā
no. he likes his life the way it is now. heās winged everything so far but heās grown quite a small community for himself this way. he can do this. if y/n doesnāt agree, heāll figure something out later.
āokay,ā kenma finally speaks, dropping his hands that heās been running through his hair absentmindedly. āsince none of you guys are gonna leave this alone, yes. the girl from that last stream is my girlfriend, happy?ā he watches his chat run wild with numerous exclamations. he thinks finally about his poor moderators. heāll definitely have to give them something after this stream. āiāve been trying to lay low about it because i didnāt want the world to freak out but now itās out. just try and be respectful, okay? i love her a lot.ā the words arenāt hard to say when theyāre about her. he can say them honestly and play them off as a joke later, but for now he enjoys how nice it feels to say it.
he can see that shoyo has frozen up out of the corner of his eye. he needs to end this stream before either of them say something else they shouldnāt. heāll answer a few more questions and slowly ease into a goodbye so that he can end the stream and debrief shoyo.
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extras <3
this is a long chapter i'm sorry š literally there's more but i tried to split this evenly into two chapters
kenma was literally just going through some random person's account who made edits of ice skating partners to self sabotage himself
yn wasn't sure when they'd be releasing partner pair ups and really freaked out when they were announced
she was texting everyone and tweeting a ton
she messaged her media girl like "hey i'm not comfortable with people sending me writing shipping me with atsumu can we please do something about it" and the girl replied, "what do you want me to do?? report them?? write you a message that you can tweet about your boundaries?? (yes) if that's what they want to write deal with it at least they like u"
and they wonder why she just posts whatever she's feeling on her main unless iwa tells her otherwise
noya has gotten distracted from the main topic of a chat to reply with a <3 to something nice y/n says multiple times
they're fr just best buds holding hand in the middle of a warzone where iwaizumi reigns over all
(the only two soldiers are suna and tsukishima)
suna's a lot softer without tsukishima around
he just feels like he needs his guard up around such a salty person
do not ask me why i made rofltropper an antagonist for no reason
kageyama was really just trying to finally do his english homework while waiting for hinata to come home and then he heard kuroo and oikawa start to yell
he was a little scared but then was like "if they can't reach me i'm safe" and they they slammed the door shut and his room shook a little
someone on the floor probably wrote up a complaint about them
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