#i hsut. i need a break.

[catholicjinx]

it has just been bad day after bad day huh

[angstyclowns]

Tamaki needs some love, so how about a continuation fo the rule fic you made with the cookie? How about after that he hsut breaks and you get all the sweets you want?

People really seemed to like that fic and I completely forgot about it and had to go back and re-read it lmao.

Did I do another oc insert? Yes. Please don’t come for me... 

Dragon! Alpha! Tamaki Amajiki x pregnant! omega reader

Your alpha was tired.

Not because of you though.

No, you were handling this pregnancy like an absolute champ, especially with it being half dragon. 

You understood his rules and abide by them-- most of the time. 

Tamaki never understood how you did it. 

You were a beacon of a queen that much was certain. 

He nowhere near a king. 

He had been searching high and low for the birthing jewel he wanted to give this hatchling 

But found nothing

He’d been coming up empty for the past five months. 

You always reassured him that you still had plenty of time, but that time was running out. 

And Tamaki was tired. 

There had been rumors that hunters were getting much to close to the dragon lands, startling their omegas. 

A younger dragon, an emerald one named Izuku, nearly went on a full on rampage when a hunter attempted to go after his mate (A sweet wolf shifter named Adaliah) who was two months pregnant. 

So on top of finding a birth stone for the hatchling, he was helping the other dragons keep the hunters back. 

And it was exhausting. 

No matter what though, you were there. 

You were always there. 

Putting away the final dishes, Tamaki felt his back muscles tighten in anxiety as a familiar paper bag caught his eye. 

You deserved so much. 

So much more than him.

Grabbing the bag, Tamaki made his way to your nest, where you were perched, a book in front of you as you mindlessly rubbed your belly. 

You greeted him happily chirping excitedly before going back to your book. 

Your dragon simply walked over to your nest, wrapping you in a wing before handing you the bag wordlessly. 

You quirked a brow before going through the bag, excitedly purring as you took out a cookie, nibbling on it.

Tamaki allowed his eyes to close, one of his hands going to your baby bump as his eyes closed and he laid on your shoulder. 

He was awoken however when you nudged something into his hand, his eyes peeking open to look over to you. 

You were smiling up at him as you handed him a cookie, purring before you nuzzled your head into the crook of his neck, allowing him to lay his head on yours. 

He may have been beaten, tired, and ready to crash.

But he had you by his side and that’s all he needed.

[lyeox]

tw emotional abuse, suicidal mentions, overdose mention

dunno who’s all gonna see this but yeah. whatever. need to get my thoughts out somewhere and there’s probably going to be typos

haven’t been in happy in... gods i haven’t been happy in a long while. i was happy with my ex fiancee for a while but then before i knew it, the relationship began turning toxic and i was too invested to leave. i still remember some of the stuff she did or said and it. it fucks me up. i tried so hard to make things work but she didn’t. she didn’t want to put the effort back. one night i was feeling really suicidal and she ended up half ignoring me and when i asked her if she would rather me die, she got really mad and threatened to break up with me if i said that again but yet... she tried to overdose when i said i wanted to take a break. by taking all of my sleep meds that i desperately need due to insomnia. i haven’t gotten a decent nights rest in the past month and i am, so so tired. 

i remember when i got a flat tire, she’d always tell me to figure out myself. whenever i was short on rent or osme bills, she’d always say, figure it out. whenever i said that i was so anxious going into work at dominoos, she said to find another job.

i got no help from her. 

she treated me like an emotional punching bag. she wasn’t good about taking her estrogen shots on time and it messed with her moods and she’d.... take her anger out on me most of the time. but would apologize, because that makes everything better right?

i was struggling to deal with the fact that we got kicked out of our now ex friends house, booted off the lease. (which, she was the reason we got kicked out and i still remember tha tnight clearly. i’m so scared of cops) and she woudln’t hear any of it when i tried to talk to he rabout it 

she hsut down, shut me out. it was like talking to an emotional wall

everything was always my fault

everything always fell on me

i was struggling and i know she was too, and i tried whatever i could to help her and didn’t recieve anything back

i was alone

most nights i’d spend in the room alone, listening to her laughing with her friends in voice chat, while i’d cry at my desk or get slammed with anxiety attacks

any attempts at spending time were forgotten. i’d end up in the room again, by myself, listening to her game on with her friends...

i spent my birthday mostly alone this past year. i cried a lot. she forgot to take off and got mad at ME when i said that i didn’t ask off for her. it wasn’t my responsibility

missed a concert to go see my favorite band because she forgot to ask off...

there was so much hurt and no matter how hard i tried to reach out, i got a cold shoulder. nothing. she’d act all lovey dovey and just... it would vanish. 

we tried dating again but i just saw too many things repeating themselves, even though she got therapy. it was too much. i’m too broken from what happened and honestly pretty fucking traumatized from everything. there wa sa lot more that happened but i can’t handle talking about it anymore a tthis point 

i thought i found my soulmate. but your soulmate isn’t supposed to treat you like that. 

i want to be okay but i’m not 

i’m super fucked up from what happened and broken

i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to love again

[gayconfessioncas]

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