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Hello 👋. I hope you take requests. I have just a little tiny one. I would give my arm and leg to see someone being brave enough to call us a MUDBLOOD in a way Ominis and/or Sebastian could hear. Ahhhh, the angst and drama would be perfect for a crippling insomniac reader (like myslef) Thank you so much in advance. Love your work btw

One, I'm honoured you'd say that, so thank you! Two, absolutely! Writing violence is kinda foreign to me, so this is short and I'm sorry if it's awful haha. Also, I hope you don't mind but I took this as an opportunity to play around with present tense a little. Here's what I came up with. Hope you like it! :)

Tainted - 1,014 words - contains graphic violence, read below the break or here on AO3.

The library’s floor-length windows cast the last of the sun’s light across Sylvia’s table. The dusty smell of books and sound of pages turning surrounds her, lulling her into a stupor. She’s yawning, diligently scratching the last of her essay onto parchment. Plans for a night spent by the fire with her friends Ominis and Sebastian form in her mind when a malicious voice speaks behind her.

“Can’t believe they let that filthy Mudblood into Slytherin. It’s like this school doesn’t stand for anything anymore. What’s the point of being proud of your house when they’re allowing any old trash in now?” The voice is cruel, mocking. Clearly, he wants her to hear.

The bitter words cut at Sylvia like a blunted knife. Mudblood? Yet another thing to learn about this strange new world. Compared to the orphanage she spent her life in, Hogwarts is another beast entirely. Coming in as a fifth year has been intimidating enough, but the politics and prejudices of wizardkind mystify her. She assumes she’s supposed to feel insulted, but it’s difficult when she doesn’t even know what the word means.

Sylvia turns around to see two older Slytherin boys leering at her and sniggering. Probably seventh years, she guesses. She meets their eyes, an eyebrow raised. “Sorry, Mudblood? Care to explain?”

They stop laughing and glare. “We don’t speak to subhumans,” one retorts. Venom drips from his voice, and Sylvia’s a little surprised at the overt malice in his eyes. She hasn’t spoken to them once, yet they clearly hate her. “Do all of wizardkind a favour and go back to the muggles. Your kind isn’t wanted here,” the other boy says. They rise from their seats, passing her in a huff, the latter knocking his bag roughly against her shoulder.

She stares after them, bemused. Insults are nothing new to her; she’s more than used to hearing things like “worthless”, “peasant”, and “pity case” from muggles. They stopped hurting a long time ago. Growing up in an orphanage quickly taught her to fend for herself and stay out of petty arguments. Sylvia shrugs, returning to the last words of her essay.

Later, she relaxes in front of the fire with Sebastian and Ominis. The warmth is comforting as they joke and share a box of Bertie Bott’s Every Flavour Beans. Sylvia has a soft spot for Ominis and picks the nastiest beans out of his pile, furtively puts them in Sebastian’s for a laugh. His expressions when he tastes the earwax flavour are all the reward she needs. It’s a comfortable dynamic the three have built in the months since Sylvia came to Hogwarts, marked by a love language of banter and trust.

She’s about to open another box when a hand grips the back of the sofa, knocking against her shoulder. “Dirty fucking Mudblood, already getting cosy with Slytherin boys, huh? Bet you’re as easy as your blood is filthy.” She turns back, meeting the eye of the older boy who taunted her in the library. She’s about to tell him she doesn’t know what a Mudblood is, but Ominis is already on his feet and facing the boy, his wand out. His face contorts into a livid scowl.

“Pardon? Care to elaborate, Williams? Or perhaps you’d prefer to fuck off.” His voice is icy.

Williams sneers. “No surprise that the Gaunt blood traitor would defend the Mudblood. Is it just the two of you, or do you share her with Sallow?”

Sebastian barks out a laugh. His arms are crossed, a defiant look on his face. “Why? Are you interested in joining?”

Sylvia leans over to Sebastian, whispers. “What on earth is a Mudblood, anyway? He called me that earlier in the library, too.” He looks back at her, the humour gone from his eyes.

“It’s pretty much one of the worst things you can call someone,” he mutters back. “Means someone who has magic but was born to muggles. It’s supposed to imply their blood is dirty.”

Sylvia laughs. “Wait, that’s supposed to be hurtful?” She turns around again, tilts her head up proudly and meets Williams’ eye. “Why should I feel insulted by something I have no control over? If you wanted an excuse to talk to me, you could have just said hi, you know.”

Williams’ jaw clenches, his eyes narrowed. “Know. Your. Place. Mudblood,” he spits. His fists shake at his side for a moment, and then he slaps her, hard. The crack of his open palm against Sylvia’s face stuns her for a moment, and when she gathers her wits, both Ominis and Sebastian are already on top of him.

Ominis holds the boy down by his robes while Sebastian lands blows on Williams’ face. “Call our friend a fucking Mudblood, will you? How’s this feel?” William’s head smacks against the stone floor with a loud crack as Sebastian lands one last punch. Blood trickles from his mouth, bruises already blooming across his cheek.

Sebastian stands up and spits on him, his face a mask of utter disdain. “It’s filth like you that taints the name of Slytherin, not muggle-borns. Fucking disgusting.” He looks at the crowd gathering to see the spectacle. “Anyone else want to call anyone a Mudblood?”

No one speaks.

He kicks Williams’ side and returns to the couch, grabbing the box of sweets from Sylvia. Ominis joins them. “I’m sorry you had to witness that,” he murmurs. “Utter pettiness. If that happens again, come to us. We’ll take care of it.”

Behind them, Williams crawls toward the exit to the common room. Sebastian turns his head casually. “By the way, Williams, you tell anyone about this and they’ll hear all about what you’ve been calling Sylvia!” he sings. “Hope you have Wiggenweld handy!”

“You guys really didn’t need to do that, but…thanks,” Sylvia says. She feels warmth spreading in her chest. It’s a little foreign to her, but not unwelcome. Maybe it isn’t so bad to depend on others, she thinks. She picks out the grossest beans from Sebastian’s pile and tosses them into the fire.

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nightlix07 · 9 months

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༆Maze of memories༆

Character(s): Reo Mikage (Blue lock)

Reader type: Not specified(Gender-Neutral Pronouns)

Warning(s): mentions of suicide, depression, self-harm, ED)

Genre: Angst, Fluff (Hurt/Comfort), Happy ending(?I mean I think it is...)

Word count: ~5,3k words (I think the site lied to me, maybe)

Author's note: Did I not see enough angst with him and I did it myslef? Yes I did. Did I go too hard on how depressed Reo can be?...maybe. Enjoy! <3

It was a warm sunny day. Maybe too sunny as you had to keep a bottle of water close by if you wished to keep running on the field without fainting. Keeping up with Reo's stamina was tough, playing against him on a 1 on 1 was like running for the Olympics. It was like this boy had no limit.

"Come on Y/N! I know you can do better!~" You heard Reo coo teasingly.

Oh, how he annoyed you... You pushed yourself further, running to block his shot and stealing the ball. His eyes widen slightly seeing how focused you became. He smirked and ran after you, trying to block your shot as well but to no avail. You scored with a powerful blow. You heard Reo clapping as he smiled warmly.

Nagi looked up from his phone to just nod at you as to congratulate you. Then he went to continue his game again... You were wondering what game was so captivating. Maybe an open-world RPG? Or something that required more thinking? Your thoughts were cut off when you heard Reo's voice.

"Impressive, yet easily noticeable by the opponent team. If this was a real match...." You sigh and take the water bottle he was offering you. You were thirsty after that amount of effort under the scorching sun. The water felt divine, it was cold, bringing your body temperature back to normal.

Reo was still rambling about all the other ways you could have stolen the ball, scored and whatnot. You didn't mind it. It was kind of cute seeing how he was able to ramble for hours on end about soccer.

"Hmm, but what's more important is that I beat you so don't be a sore loser~" You say, taking revenge for how much he has teased you while playing.

Reo scoffed and crossed his arms over his chest while glaring at you playfully. You both liked to annoy each other and somehow those banters never escalated into a fight. It was some kind of mutual understanding. On filed it was no different, people said eyes talk and they weren't lying as with just a glance you two could understand each other. Nagi understood those 'signals' as well. It was like a strange string connecting you three, fate most likely as you liked to say. Other schools feared Hakuho High School's soccer team because of your trio. And they feared you for a good reason. This is how every day looked for you: Reo challenging you to try the tricks he learned and Nagi sometimes taking part just to absolutely destroy both of you at soccer.

Today was no different: training, running, laughing and joking...until a teacher brought over some weird-looking envelopes.

"Blue Lock?.... It sounds like a prison. " You say unimpressed.

The three of you studied the weird-looking letters. Reo's full of enthusiasm at the new opportunities that just opened up. His eyes twinkled with joy...until he saw you and Nagi looking at the letter in disdain.

"Oh come on, it clearly says they want us to join to get better at soccer...! It's an opportunity we can't pass!" He was trying his best to get you and Nagi to agree.

You didn't like the sound of the so-called 'project' and Nagi...

"It's a hassle... Too much work."

Reo sighed and wrapped his arms around both of your necks smiling brightly, bringing you two close to him.

"Come on, we promised to become the best! You can't back out now!" Reo was always good at tying the team together. After all, he was the one who 'created it'.

You remember how the school's team came to be. You were tasked to ask students around the school if they wished to join the school's soccer team. Most of them weren't interested and you were ready to give up...until you met Reo. He started acting like his life depended on it, following kids until they agreed or just plain ol' threatening them....subtly.

"Join the soccer team! The best team ever! " Reo shouted with vigour. You barely knew him... Why did he care this much?... You sigh and pay it no mind.

"Hey...we don't know for sure if the team will be that good-" You try to reason with the purple-haired boy but your words were cut off by him almost instantly.

"I'll make sure it will be!" He said proudly and you couldn't help but burst out laughing. He scowled at your reaction but after a bit, he couldn't help but burst out laughing as well.

After that ordeal, Reo said he knew the perfect last candidate: Nagi. Making the white-haired boy agree to join the soccer team...was harder than proving your homework wasn't stolen off of another classmate to the teacher.

From that point onward, you three were inseparable. You still remember the night you two had to practically shove information down Nagi's throat so he would pass, or when Reo refused to talk to either of you because he messed up a shot. You chuckle with fondness at the memories. You liked them. If it weren't for this small group, life would be boring, wouldn't it? A life without Reo nagging you, without Nagi explaining the tactics he needs to use to win the game's next level. A family.

And so you decided to join Blue Lock.

"There are so many people..." You look around in curiosity, walking close to Reo and Nagi, not wanting to get lost in the crowd.

"Means the selections will be hard." Reo mutters in slight concern while looking at the stage up front.

The project's logo stood proudly on the big screen. The rest of the scene was awfully empty, the only 'decoration' being two plants. Nagi was also looking around, meaning it was a fascinating situation if it made him look away from his phone. The lights cut out around the room, and the ones on the stage shine brightly, almost blindingly. You squint your eyes to adjust to the light. On the stage, a tall, slim and weak man appears...Ego, your so-called new coach. He looks like he hasn't slept in decades! He goes on and on about this project, talking about how soccer isn't about a team, how you should be egoists and other uncanny things. It looked like it was a cult! It was weird at best. After Ego finishes his speech, the screen opens up, creating an entryway. It was filled with thick fog, the entrance looking like it was straight out of a horror movie.

"So who is ready to be an egoist should enter at once, the other weaklings can leave!" The man yelled as he glared at all of us.

People started talking between them, whispers of disapproval and fear. Some trying to hype each other up to join. I was looking at the doorway. Who in their right mind would go? It sounded and looked like a cult! ...And of course, Reo was ready to go, taking both your and Nagi's hands, dragging you to the giant doorway. Did he have no survival instincts?! Maybe his basic survival skills somehow dispersed into thin air but yours were in full swing.

"Hey, hey! Let's think this through! It sounds suspicious Reo!..." You try to pull back but to no avail. Reo's grip on your wrist was firm. No way you were going to be freeing yourself from it.

The first few challenges were easy, more like child's play for your trio. Even the first real match was easy. Reo helping you and Nagi connect while the other team couldn't even tell which one of you will strike thanks to the constant passing between you three. Your team won with 5-2. You breathe deeply to catch your breath after all that running.

"We did it! If the next teams are so weak we're set! Good job Y/N!" Reo says enthusiastically.

Again, how did he have so much stamina? He ran around the field, dribbled, passed, scored. And somehow he was still able to run to your side to ruffle your hair. You push away his hand as you shoot him a warning glance. Reo laughs softly. Your team was happy, celebrating. You, Reo and Nagi rambling happily about the match. You hear someone crying and you look at the other side of the field. It looked like a battlefield.

People laying on the floor, crying, yelling. It was weird seeing all those other kids' dreams be crushed. The looks of pure despair, disdain, hatred even. You decide to walk away before one of them tries anything to take revenge. Before the next match, you had time to prepare and rest, so you decided that a quick meal would give you some energy and prepare you for the next hours of training. Of course Nagi and Reo tag along. Where you went, they went too and this was kind of an unwritten rule.

You sleepily lean your head against the cafeteria table after finishing your food. You look up only to see Reo trying to make a deal with Nagi to eat. You chuckle at the sight as Reo glares at you. You also train for a while before heading off to sleep. You lay in your comfy bed, close your eyes and wait...and wait... Why were you so restless...? It was only a match, an easy one on top of that. Still, you couldn't sleep. You move around, try different positions, count sheep, any old trick in the book but still nothing. You decide to sit up and look if anyone is also awake. Nothing. You sigh annoyed and you move to stand up. If you can't sleep you can at least train. Your stamina needed some training anyway so why not- Well that's what you wished to do before your master plan was stopped by Reo pulling your hand down. Again, his grip on your wrist was like being held down by some of the strongest chains known to man. How does he even manage?! You try to argue with him but he tiredly opens his eyes to glare at you.

"But Reo I can't sleep anyways, I can at least train!-"

"Sleep."

"Reo-"

"Y/N." His eyes were stabbing daggers into you.

Without any place to dispute this, you lay back down. After the effort of trying to break free from the inhuman hold Reo had on you, you fall asleep quite quickly. Somehow his grip on your arm never faltered.

It was time for the match. You were against team Z. Both teams take their specific spots on field, waiting for the kick-off. Reo quickly starts the game, Nagi sprinting forward while you and Reo were using the give-and-go technique, confusing the other team.

"Reo, off to Nagi!" You shoot the ball to Reo after you broke defence.

He quickly catches your pass and sends it to Nagi. Our quick understanding of each other's position on field made the other team lose the first three rounds. They were getting desperate and it was easily noticeable. Some glared at us, others threw insults yet once again you could only see that eerie landscape...despair. You hated that look so you turn to search for Reo's cheerful eyes to shake off that odd feeling. And so you find them, purple eyes filled with nothing other than the most beautiful things in this world: fondness, kindness. He smiles warmly at you and the feeling of fear and pain disappear like they were never there in the first place.

"What, missed me?~" Reo says teasingly while tilting his head to taunt you. He was back to his teasing demeanour.

"Not that much really."

"Oh so you missed me-" You cut his words off by gently flicking his forehead at which he groans and pouts. You pat his head as to say sorry and you go back in position.

And so your eyes leave him and focus on the view in front of you. Misery, anguish. You get goosebumps from the chillness and brutal glares the other team had. You prepare yourself to mark one of the other teams' attackers. The first touch moves towards you, you look at the yellow-eyed boy in the eyes as he smiles insanely. He dribbles past you and all of your team. You watch it wide-eyed as you see him move closer and closer and...he scores. His team welcomes him back with open arms while you look at Reo for any kind of comfort or help but you only see fury. He just...stared at the other team.

"Reo?-"

"They got the taste of victory. Now they'll act like dogs teaming up on us..." His words were pure venom. His usual soft eyes were now void of emotion. He wasn't even looking at you, he gazed yonderly at the other side of the field. His eyes seemed to go past your like you weren't even there in the first place.

"Reo!" You say a bit louder trying to get his attention and maybe calm him down.

His eyes seem to snap back, focusing on your figure. He smiled weakly as his eyes retained some of their usual warmth.

"Ah sorry, I was talking out loud wasn't I? Don't mind it, you know I get mad easily Y/N." He tries to lure you away from the truth with small lies yet you knew him better.

You decide to not push him too far and just pat his head as encouragement. The match starts once again. Reo loses the ball and you're forced into defence. They score again. You see Reo's eye twitch as he stares at Team Z, more precisely, the player that marked him the whole match. The other player notices Reo's hostile look so he walks closer with a teasing grin on his face.

"What is it genius, huh? Never lost a match? I'll make sure you taste failure you-"

Before he could finish his sentence, Reo hits the player with his elbow. You run to Reo's side to pull his hand away and stop him from hitting the guy again. This action earned him a yellow card yet Reo didn't seem to mind, his eyes were calculating, almost predatory while watching Team Z help their stumbling teammate walk to a nearby bench. After you shake him slightly Reo's eyes move to study your figure. They were frigid. He pushes you off while glaring at you.

"I know what I'm doing do stop treating me like a child. If they keep scoring they'll think they're strong...like some strays scaring off some weaklings." His voice was loud and harsh, his demandour aggressive.

You just stare at this whole ordeal. You knew he didn't like losing but still... You notice his eyes faltering when he notices your slightly scared look. He eventually gives up arguing and hugs you closely while hiding his face in the crook of your neck, trying to forget about this whole competition, trying to remember how playing soccer as just a game was.

"Sorry..." That's all he mutters before he looks up to see any sort of reaction. He wanted to know if you were mad at him, startled, sad, anything. Reo just wanted to protect you from those destructive emotions as best as he could and being the cause of them wasn't something he wanted.

"Are you done acting like a maniac? We'll win. I'm sure of it." You say reassuringly while tying his now messed up hair back up.

You see Reo's eyes light up once again. Even if the game was 4-4, a gamble at best, you still had hopes. You were strong enough, you could do it. The first kick starts the game, everything seems to be distorted. The other team was moving rapidly along the field, your eyes were never able to find all of Team Z. You run, you try to block, mark, anything yet it was useless. You hear a whistle. The one that you heard whenever you scored, whenever you won.

"Team Z won! Congratulations, next repartisation will be calculated...-" You don't even hear the rest of the announcement as you just stare at the big screen depicting your failure. Everyone looked at it like it was some kind of painting with some strange untold stories.

You...lost? What was this weird feeling? Why wasn't our team happy? Why was that look of despair spreading around your team? Was this the feeling the teams you beat felt? You didn't like it and neither did Nagi or Reo.

"I don't like this. Why am I sad? This is what losing feels like. I don't like it." You hear Nagi mutter while standing close to you, gazing at the other celebrating team.

Reo was on the opposing side of the field. His gaze was cold, he wasn't looking at the other team, he just stared down. You decide to walk closer to him just for him to look up at you with a shattered look. Like he lost all motivation. You didn't like the look of anguish in his eyes, you only wanted to see his usual joyful look.

"I'm sorry. It's my fault-" Reo's voice was a bit shaky.

You didn't like him being sad. You never wanted to see him lose again if it meant he would be like this. Why were you feeling this way?... You felt like you could do anything to 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐜𝐭 his cheerful personality. You decide to gently smack his head at which he looks up scared.

"Our fault. We're a team." You smile softly at him while Nagi gives a thumbs up as approval. Reo smiles and nods. You appreciated the way your friendship was pure love and support for each other, no matter the case.

Your team still moved to second selection. Before you could move to that stage you had to train for a week straight. You thought it would be easy yet every night, as soon as your head hit the pillow you were out cold. After that week you finally got moved to second selection where followed only...more training. But it was worth it to pass that big door to see Reo and Nagi again. The room was bustling with life. You run to hug both of your friends. You didn't even know you missed them! You were ready to move to the next stage, this amazing trio had a bit more to fight to get to the national team-...

"Nagi?" You turn to see Nagi staring in the distance. Why wasn't he coming?

"Come on Nagi, we'll lose the head start." Reo sounded anxious.

But Nagi wasn't budging. Where was he even looking at?! You finally turn fully to scout the area. Isagi's team? So he was worried about what his team will be like?-

"Isagi, I want to join your team."

Oh, who would even want to join that idiot's team, you think scoffing before you recognise the voice. The voice that used to always nag you about games or deny any training.

"Nagi, what are you saying?" Before you could even react, Reo speaks.

Nagi was only walking further away from you. Where was he going? Was he pranking you? He never did that. Was he testing you? Did he want to see if you really cared? What did he want? Why would he leave? You feel like you're breaking down. The stable walls you had built alongside those two. The pillars of love, trust. Falling. Your face quickly loses all light, all hope. 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫. It was taking you over. Eating away at all your feelings and emotions. Why was Nagi getting farther away? Why was he leaving? You turn to Reo for support, help, care yet you only see a crushed soul. It felt like the soccer player you loved to annoy was gone. Everything was 𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐞. This was a dream all along, wasn't it? No way everything would be destroyed this easily. Nothing was real, was it? Nothing really happened. Nothing-

"Nagi, we were supposed to be a family, a team!" You don't even know who said it. Was it you, or was it Reo who dared to shout those words?

You heard the door open. Those doors reserved for your small team of three. The small team meant to go to nationals. You stare at it like it was alive, like it took away Nagi, like that inanimate object was the one making you feel all this pain. You snap out of this spiral of doubt, feeling a weak hand taking your hand. Reo. What was supposed to be Reo, what remained. He was almost crying, almost, as always. He was staring at you, begging.

"Y/N. You won't...leave, isn't it?... I'm still of use to you." His voice was weak, shaky. It missed all the force and happiness it had.

You bring him closer and hug him. That's all you could think of. You wanted him close, you wanted to comfort and feel comforted. You feel Reo cling onto you like you would just disperse into small particles of dust if he lost his grip on you. It felt like he was holding onto the last piece of the dream he had. This was surreal.

"Y/N. You didn't respond. Why do you keep looking at those doors? Do you want to leave too? Please...don't..."

His voice. His embrace. It lost all past meaning. It was just pain. The despair you despised.

"I won't leave Reo. Why would I? You're everything I have." It's all you manage to say. You wanted to be strong. To help him yet you were as terrified as him.

The whole room was looking at you two, like you were putting up a show for their pleasure. Your pain, entertainment for them. You hated this place. You wanted to get out. You decide that you have to be the one helping. Some pieces of you still standing while Reo didn't have anything left. You take a deep breath. This was your role now. Build him up to build yourself up. Now how could you help him? Water? Maybe. He's dehydrated... You decide to get to the lounge and get some water.

"Don't...leave. Y/N please don't...I can't anymore."

You immediately turn to hug him once more, trying to soothe his pain. He muffled his cries in your shoulder while you were trying to hide his exhausted body. The others were preying on pain like it was their only source of energy. If you could, you would take out every single one of them...

This went on for a while until Reo calmed down. You both sat in a corner of the room. People were still whispering about what happened. Those useless...

"Y/N, you can leave me if you want to. You know that don't you? Maybe I've lost use or talent. That's why he left isn't it?" He was saying you could leave yet his tight grip on your hand was saying otherwise.

"I said I'm not leaving. I need you. You're talented Reo. Stop putting yourself down"

"..."

"Reo, please."

Silence. You turn to look at him. He was tired, worn out. A shell of what he was. But no worries, you would help him. You're going to always be there for him. You smile at the thought and move to stroke his hair. He just looks up at you, too weak to even react. You were calm yet your mind was racing. Nagi left, Reo is giving up on everything, you need to move forward but you can't push him too much.

"Hmmm, the geniuses fell? Where's the other one?"

You turn to look up at the one talking to you. The redhead from Team Z. Chigiri. You stand up, trying to protect Reo.

"What do you want?"

"Where is the white-haired one?"

"Not your problem."

"He left, isn't it? That's why the so-called genius is weeping."

His tone was sarcastic. You grit your teeth at the smug expression on his face.

"Not your problem I said. I advise you to stop."

Your tone was menacing, bloodthirsty even. Chigiri stopped and just glanced at Reo who was now standing behind you.

"I want to join your team. The white-haired one left you and my own team left me. We're on the same page aren't we?"

Oh, so he meant business. This is your chance. He was strong and his talent was of use. If you managed to forge some new reactions...you didn't need Nagi anymore.

"Very well. Welcome to the team, Chigiri." You shake his hand.

And so you could move to the next stage. Reo was clinging onto you and Chigiri was just walking next to us. He didn't seem to care about what Reo was doing which was perfect. You could rest before choosing who to fight against. You needed it, Reo needed it and by the exhausted look on Chigiri's face, he needed it too. The room was small yet comfy. Chigiri went out to train or just manage his thoughts as well, away from his new companions. And so you were left alone with Reo. He was just standing on the edge of the bed, staring at the floor. What was he thinking? He looked like instead of the floor he saw the replay of all his life. Of all that went wrong. You decide to bend down in front of him to grab his attention. He looks up slowly, his eyes red from crying.

"Reo, want me to bring you something from the cafeteria? You didn't eat today."

"No."

"Reo, you need to eat."

"I said no Y/N."

You couldn't even get through to him. He didn't leave the room. He didn't eat, he didn't train, he was rarely speaking. You move to gently comb your fingers through his hair. You wanted to help him, you wanted to bring his joy back yet it seemed like this was the new Reo. You sigh and move to lie on your bed. It was late anyway, you needed rest and he didn't seem like he was in the mood to talk anyway. You couldn't close your eyes though. Images of your happy memories with your friends flash in front of you if you do. It made you sick seeing how Reo has just gotten worse in just a few hours. You saw his strong figure, his smile, his laugh, yet across from you, you saw how he lost his pride, his everything, even himself.

You finally got to sleep for a while. You toss and turn...yet you somehow manage. It was mostly quiet yet you jumped at any little sound. The board's creaking, Chigiri moving around, anything. Even the quiet steps, the gently closed door, the muffled cries. You knew it was Reo. You wanted this to end. Why was 𝒇𝒂𝒕𝒆 plotting to destroy everything? What did you do? What did Reo do to deserve being torn apart like this? You walk up to the door and gently knock. You couldn't wake up Chigiri yet you couldn't let Reo alone.

"Reo. Open the door."

"Leave, I'm fine."

"You aren't, you're sick. You've been throwing up for at least 5 minutes. Open the door."

You were getting annoyed. Not at him, at yourself. You let this happen, didn't you? You didn't keep Nagi close, you didn't try to push Reo to eat or talk. You left him alone. You're a horrible person- You hear reluctant steps and a quiet click. That's everything that was holding you back. As soon as the pale bathroom light crept through the barely open door, you swung it open and leapt into Reo's embrace. You hug him as close as you can. You try to give him your warmth. He was cold, and fragile yet that made you want to 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒄𝒕 him even more.

"I'm sorry I'm like this Y/N. I don't think I can continue anymore. I don't want to play soccer anymore. I don't want to live anymore. Too much..."

"Shh... I'm not mad. I will never be Reo. Please don't cry. It's fine..."

His arms were frail. He was crying uncontrollably while shaking. You could feel your shoulder get wet because of his tears. You didn't like it. Scouring the bathroom you saw a blade discarded on the floor. It felt like the little hope you still had crumbled. You move his arm up and gently kiss his wrist before moving his hand to cup your cheek. You try to smile while seeing the harrowing sight in front of you.

"It's fine. I'll help you, Reo. You're going to be fine. Please..." You were just pleading. Begging like your life depended on it.

"I don't want to continue. Too much pain. I feel sick Y/N."

His words were pure agony. At that very moment, you lost all composure. You felt like he was slowly slipping away from you. He was leaning against you, searching for support so he wouldn't fall. His hug wasn't strong like his usual ones. You couldn't do this anymore as well. You wanted this to end. You wanted to wake up, to wake up and see Reo and Nagi look over at you as they giggle at how you managed to fall asleep in such a silly position yet the daggers that were taunting your poor heart were real.

"Reo, wash your mouth and drink a bit of water to freshen up all right?" Your voice was soft and caring. You could see a small and broken smile form on his lips. Hope.

Reo did as you said. It was like he was a puppet, he didn't want to do anything yet he still listened to you. You were the only thing he had left. 𝑯𝒊𝒔 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈. After he drinks the water he looks up at you again, waiting for a new command.

"Y/N, I'll get better. For you." He sounds hopeful, his eyes glistening with adoration.

This was your new reality. Yet you didn't mind it if it meant he would get better. Even if it took years, decades, you will help him find himself again, you'll help him become the best player in Japan. You smile at the idea, it was foolish yet your immature reasoning couldn't stop you.

"Are you better, Reo? Think you can sleep?"

"Mhm... But Y/N, you don't mind what I've become? You don't see me as sickening?"

What question was that even? Reo, sickening? You saw him as the most beautiful boy. He was talented, caring, and loving. His voice was soft and sweet. His eyes were enchanting. His hair was soft and smelled of strawberries which he always denied with a small blush. He always knew how to make you laugh, he always protected you. How could he even ask that?

"Y/N?... Ah, I knew you saw me that way. No need to hide it."

"No."

"Huh? What do you?-"

"I love you."

Why did you let those words slip? You're stupid... He'll get even more scared. This is it, you're done-

You hear him...laugh. Ah, so it was funny...good enough... His arms snake around you, holding you close to him. His eyes were gloomy yet a small flicker of fondness fought its way through.

"I love you more Y/N. I'm not in the right state to give you all my love yet...- Y/N I'll be me again, I'll be even better. Just please, wait for me."

That sweet smile you cherished, it was back. Even if it was only for a split second... It's all you need.

"I'll wait for you."

Hope you enjoyed it! If you have any tips on how to improve please do tell. ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

#reo mikage #reo x reader #bllk reo #angst #angst with a happy ending #bllk #bllk x reader #blue lock

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artthroughmme · 2 years

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You made me angry, but also u cared about me. You read my thoughts and still ask me if im alright and that s what it ll always make you special into my tiny heart.

You are such a good soul and i ll always love any part of you, your smile, your laugh, the way you care and i cant thank you enough for every text even if we fight and im so sorry because all i can do it s to offer you back the bad parts of myslef which i wished u wouldnt see.

I wished that you ll remeber me of someone u loved once, someone which reminded you how love was felt but rn all u do remeber it s me being rude w you. Im sorry for every push i take on you, every time i push you away, every time i say "go away".

It hurts me every time but all i can think is that maybe we are better without eachother, but ur text u ll bring a lil smile on the corner of my lips. Where u used to kiss me last time.

You are my defintion of love and how you have to fight for love and it s breaking me the fact that i cant be with you.

You ll always be the happiness of my soul and that s a truth i accepted since the day we met, the day i knew u ll drive me crazy, u ll made me madly in love, the day i knew how s to be "in love".

Every part of me wishes you to meet someone else and by this wish i know that my heart it ll break, it ll be like someone it would stab me in the back with a knife but i ll suffer and i ll let you to be happy.

It hurts to be in this mood i am, always in a full agony, in the middle of the day or in the middle of the night, but for you i can take this agony.

Always reminding you at that sunset, in our last day we held hands, kissed, had sex and told each other "i love you".

"ly 2, cartofi"

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eru-san · 3 years

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You know what I've been thinking Funnily enough, something that I think had really an impact on my behaviour and thinking process is how my parents reacted to emotional scenes in movies. Whenever there was a character having doubts, feeling paralyzed, being impulsive, crying, laughing for the happiness, opening their heart or whatever else...My parents would always criticize it, rolling their eyes at this seemingly overdramatic nonsense, as if normal people didn't act like that, as if that was embarassing and stupid and the emotional baggage that the characters bear were only a burden to the plot. And I think that now I am carrying this belief inside of me that everything I do has to be logical and calculated, there is no time and space for feelings, for behaving accordingly with what I feel instead of what is right. Emotions are meaningless, an obstacle even, and I should just discard them for the sake of success in life. I am in fact quite "in control" of myself. I rarely cry, barely display emotions through actions or behaviours, never take time to consider and explain how I feel, always thinking about what I am supposed to do. And in the end I am very hard on myself, punishing myslef constantly for wanting things that rationality wouldn't allow, putting myself in situations that hurt me, physically or mentally, and I'll just "deal with it" in a cold and detached way.

#personal

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ververa · 4 years

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“I wanna be your girlfriend”

A/N: So, I don’t usually write about real people, bc I don’t feel okay doing it.Though this one time I made an exception, bc my dear friends GLORIA STEINEM IS AN ICON AND ROSE BYRNE DID AN AMAZING JOB. I just love them both!

I still haven’t seen all episodes of Mrs America, bc if you decide to be a linguist you basically have no time to live lol

I was planning on starting with something about Alice Macray, but oh well my brain came up with something different.

This definitely isn’t how I imagined my first work about Gloria would be, but it was a hard day and I figured that maybe some writing could help. I let myslef use a few of my favourite Gloria’s quotes. And as always there’s a song, bc that’s the tradition.

Hope you will enjoy it!

Gloria Steinem (Rose Byrne) x fem!reader

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Gloria was that kind of woman whose presence could be felt as soon as she entered the room. She was captivating. With self-confidence and power radiating from her she could easily blow everyone's mind. And she did. She definitely blew yours.

Gloria was your hero since you could have remembered. You were a young feminist, a daughter of great believers, who criticized you for your beliefs, which for them were unacceptable. They turned your life into hell, just because you turned out to be different from what they wanted. You weren't a good, obedient girl that they wanted you to be. You were you. A strong woman, who wanted to achieve great things in life. Despite everything, you tried to follow your principles, because they were all you had.

For almost half of your life you felt like a misfit, a sinner - just because you were different. Their venomous words were hurting you more and more witch each passing day. They caused so much damage to your wellbeing that you were almost sure you would never be able to recover from it.

They implanted the idea of you being "broken" so deep in your mind that it seemed impossible to reverse it. Yet Gloria did it. She took care of you. She pulled you back together and made you feel more whole than you had ever felt in your life.

"You're an amazing person Y/N" she said stroking your hair as you cried "Don't let anyone make you feel worth less than you actually are. And you, my dear are worth so much more than you think" she kissed your temple

"I don't want to marry him"

"You absolutely don't have to do that"

"B-but they s-said t-that if I-I won't..." you cried way too hard to talk

"Shhh. It's okay. You can stay here. With me. With us" she smiled reassuringly "We'll find you something to do. And for now just take some rest. Close that pretty eyes of yours and get some sleep"

"B-but what if they're right?"

"Making you marry him? Excuse you, you can't be serious! Y/N, deep inside you know it's not right. And they're so wrong. Look at me and listen. A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle"

You laughed at her words.

"You're worth more than this. You're worth to fall in love and be with someone that you truly love"

"It's not that easy. I can't control it..."

"Oh, honey, the art of life is not controlling what happens to us, but using what happens to us. The truth is we can't control it. We can't control what happens to us, but we can use it"

Deep inside you knew she was right. And so you stayed with her. You were working and living together, because she let you stay at her place after your own parents kicked you off. You never regretted the decision you made. Though what happened then wasn't planned.

You didn't realize when you actually started falling for her. You found yourself admiring her, but not in the same way as you used to. Gloria for sure was the icon of feminism, though for you she was something more. She was you savior and the person that you actually truly loved.

You didn't want to be her friend. You wanted to kiss her until your lose your breath. You wanted to feel her lips pressed against yours, even if just once. You wanted to feel her close and look at you the same.

You were ready to follow her anywhere. You didn't care where you were as long as she was there with you. When she was around you felt empowered. You couldn't help, but wanted her more and more.

It was hard for you to keep it all inside. You felt as if you were lying to her and you just couldn't take it. It wasn't possible to keep pretending you were just her friend, when all you could think of was how bad you wanted to touch her. That's why you decided to tell her.

You were well aware that she may hate you after that, but you were tired of pretending. You had to act your whole life. And just that one time you wanted to be who you really were.

It was on your birthday when you finally got the nerve up. It was late evening, when you made it to her apartment after a long day at work. And there she was - waiting for you with a chocolate birthday cake, which she knew was your favorite.

"There you are!" she smiled seeing you "I have a present for you"

"I... umm I need to tell you something"

"Okay, but first my present" she light a candle on the cake "Make a wish"

You smiled before closing your eyes.

"I wanna be your girlfriend" you said to yourself as you blew out the candle

Gloria clapped enthusiastically.

"Happy birthday!" she embraced you in a hug

You hugged her back and squeezed her tighter than necessary

"Thank you" you said feeling the tears in your eyes

You weren't sure if telling her was a good idea anymore. You didn't want to lose her after all.

"Hey! Why are you crying?" she asked worried when she pulled away

You shook your head.

"I'm just sensitive..." you lied

"Don't lie. I know you too well. What did you want to tell me? Did something happen?"

"No"

"So, what's wrong?"

"I..." you hesitated "I just love you"

"Aww. I love you too"

"No, Gloria. Not like that"

"What?"

"I don't love you that way..."

She looked at you confused. She was an incredibly intelligent woman, but even she wasn't able to figure out what was going on in your head.

"Wha-" she didn't finish as you cut her off with a kiss

"Like that... I love you like that" you said, tears flowing down your cheeks

Gloria looked at you shocked. Her silence was unbearable. It was breaking you heart and you couldn't take it, so you moved. You were ready to run away, but she grabbed you by your wrist. You looked first at her hand and then into her eyes. A small smiled appeared on her face, as she gently pulled you closer to herself and kissed you.

It took you by surprise, but after a moment you completely relaxed and give in into her arms.

You smiled as she wiped your tears - thinking to yourself that some wishes do come true.

Tag list:

@midnight-lestrange

@natasha-danvers

@stopkillinglilyrabe

#gloria steinem #rose byrne #mrs america #mrs america imagine #gloria steinem x reader

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iillusionsxbay · 4 years

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𝑩𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝑰 𝑮𝒐 ||𝓞𝓲𝓴𝓪𝔀𝓪 𝔁 𝓡𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓼𝓽 ||

𝐓𝐲𝐩𝐞: 𝐀𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭

𝐓𝐰: 𝐒𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞, 𝐃𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡

𝐋𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡:

𝐒𝐨𝐧𝐠: 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐈 𝐠𝐨 𝐁𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐄𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡

Y/n pov.

The constant sound of the life support beeping was the only thing that managed to keep my mind occupied. my clothes stained with the color red as well as the open cuts and brusises adding to the collection of the ones I self Implanted. I found myself pondering of what went wrong. My parents were great ones, supportive, always there for comfort when needed. Was it the time I was bullied? Or could it be the First year of my highschool life, where I met him. The tall guy with dark brown hair that managed to sweep perfect to the outside, his eyes were brown as well, I probably always managed to find myself lost in them. I Can't tell what I liked about him the most. His stupid smile, or his cocky grin, his narcissistic attitude that nobody could really handle, all of it I found attractive. It was by the second year he started to notice me, I watched all his games, seeing how much he adores the sport filled me with admiration. I wanted to be something or someone as amazing as him, so I signed up for the manager position. That's when we grew closer, I always found myslef staring at him, and him staringn at me. Was there something on my face perhaps? I never knew cause he never seemed to have wanted to approach me. That was until the school festival. When all of his teammates weren't arround he pulled me aside, and said the 3 words I never thought I would ever hear In my life time "I like you" My heart honestly never raced so fast before I felt like it was going to pop out of my chest.

Then before my very eyes we were a couple. The team supported it with a few teasing here and there but it made us laugh in the end.All the dates we went to, the things he bought me for my birthday, our first kiss, all these moments felt my heart and filled me with joy. So what went wrong? We never fought, that was until I felt myself growing insecure. With his popularity growing, I felt us getting more distant, him hanging out with his fangirls more then his own girlfriend. I started to believe I was going to be replaced and began staring at the mirror, and began eating less. Soon my parents noticed, of course they would when their daughter is slowly begining to look as equivalent to a bone, so I began eating again, but everything I ate I threw up. In hopes to look "beautiful" to him again. We walked home together one day, hand in hand and went to his place. He seemed to notice my pale face and asked. "What's wrong? You look sick" which I only replied with "nothing im alright" trying my best to smile. But he wasn't having it. "You're not you look like a zombie y/n." I felt a attacked, so I naturally darted back. "Well now you seem to notice, cause you seem to be so busy dealing with those fangirls of yours then!" This seemed to taken him a back, he frowned and looked at me, with probably one of the looks I'll never forget. "Im sorry but I cant just ignore them! You knew this was going to happen anyways, if you don't like it then leave!." When he said that, I felt mt heart shatter into a million peices completely withered away with a single sentence. The tears that trinkled down my face as I smiled sadly and ran. I went to the school and ran up to the rooftop, I didn't care if my feet hurt, or if i was out of breath, I wanted it to stop, the tears, this feeling, all of it. So I took a deep breathe before standing on the ledge gazing at the sakura trees, where we had our first kiss. The only feeling that washed through me was remorse and pain, I grabbed my note book and ripped open a peice of paper an wrote a note.

𝓢𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓬𝓪𝓷'𝓽 𝓼𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝔀

𝓢𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓱𝓸𝔀

𝓢𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮'𝓼 𝓷𝓸 𝔀𝓪𝔂 𝓸𝓾𝓽

𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓭𝓸𝔀𝓷

𝓒𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶

𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓘'𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶

𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓘'𝓶 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓼𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂

𝓒𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶

𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓘'𝓵𝓵 𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶

𝓢𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂

- y/n

My fingers trembled as I held it in my hand, slowly placing it on the ledge, taking my shoes off palcing them down neatly to the side. I went back to the edge and stood there, closing my eyes and breathing in. Feeling my whole body tremble with fear, hearing the tiny voice behind me telling me "it's not too late" and "you can always turn back" I took one last look at the view smiling humming the soft tune to the song I loved so dearly and jumped.

Everything went black, all I heard was the ambulance, and screams as everything faded.

And thats how I'm here. Taking my last breaths. I know this, but the doctor wont tell me. My mother and father beside me crying their eyes out, asking me where they went wrong. But it wasn't them. They did everything in their power to raise their daughter, It was me, I could never live up to the expectations of beauty, and it killed me. I slowly turned my head to them and squeezed my mothers hand tight "I love you both so so much, it was not your fault but my own, im just glad your here with me" I could hear my mother sobbing, but I couldn't look her in the eyes the pain I already feel is too much seeing them would be unbearable. My fathers voice hitched, I knew he was trying not to break into tears, for my sake and moms. I closed my eyes and felt my fingers grow numb, as my whole life flashed before me again. I heard footsteps, so quick it caught me off gaurd. I kept my eyes closed untill I heard a familiar voice. "Y/n?" I slowly opened my eyes and saw him. The boy that I fell so hard for. The one that made me feel like I was on cloud nine. All I could do was smile, in attemtps to make him smile. Knowning that it wouldnt work, he made his way beside me cupping my cheek with his hand ever so gently. "Im sorry" he painfully spoke I felt something wet and warm hit my cheek as I looked him in the eyes, seeing him crying

"I didn't mean it, I didn't know y/n please don't go" he was trying notmto break infront of my parents that are already in pain. I weakly reach for the hand that touched my cheek and said "Sorry can't save me now, sorry I don't know how, sorry there's no way out" he shook his head, "that's not true you'll be fine y/n I promise you will be, and I promise I'll never leave you I'll ditch the fangirls. They don't matter, we can play volleyball together like we used to and go on dates, just please dont go" I felt his tears drop on me at a rapid pace, making me tear up too, maybe if I talked to him this wouldn't have happened. But thats too late. I pulled him in for a kiss, his lips were still so soft, but dry. I felt his hand he placed on my cheek begin to shake. I pulled away and smiled before weakily closing my eyes and taking a breath, forcing out my last words

"Call my friends and tell them that I love them And I'll miss them, I love you mom and dad, and Oikawa, dear I love you, and im so sorry" I felt my whole body grow numb and heard the life support grow silent I could hear Oikawa, scream for me, in hopes I would wake up and hug him. But sometimes fairytales don't come true. The light was soon replaced with darkness as everythingnwent quite

So this is it.

#haikyuu oikawa #Angst #oneshot #haikyuu!!#oikawa angst #SoundCloud

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nad-zeta · 4 years

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Match-up Compatibility Request🌈^o^

Hello, I loove your writing! I have a big request! I know you do splendid match-ups.

I have unusual ask for you. I would like to describe myslef and than I would love to see how would you describe a realtionship compatibility with Mitsuhide and Yoshimoto. What would be the weak and strong points? If you think it wouldn’t work out, I’m fine with it too.

I’m very gentle and have fragile health. My immune system isn’t strong and I get tired easily. On the other hand I am very diligent, stubborn and strong willed. It’s difficult for me to cope with stress. As a reaction I can get depressed, panicked, or ill. But I’m working on it and I’m resolved to strengthen my stress resistance with meditative and relaxing techniques.

I tend to be immersed in what I’m doing and I experience my feelings strongly. Because of this sensitivity I’m a good artist and a teacher. I have good intuition and a strong empathy. It allows me thrive at my job but it cripples my mental health endurance. I’m confident in my skills, but insecure about my physical strenght.

I love art, reading, pottery, tea ceremony, poetry, philosophy, but also dancing, laughing and being spontaneous. I also love animals, and I’m experienced dog trainer.

I hate feeling like I’m a burden to someone, but I appreciate if my partner is doting on me. I’m definitely not your normal girl, being week and strong at the same time. I’m used to overcome hardships in life. I also found a way to cope with ADD. But it saddens me when people only see my weaknesses and not my accomplishments.

Thank you in advance for your writing. It means so much for me!

Hi, there love! I hope you are doing well! Hehehe I hope this is more or less what you wanted <3<3! In my opinion, you would match great with both of these cuties! Hope you have a wonderful day and keep well! ❤❤😆🔥

Mitsuhide

Pros of dating Mitsuhide

He is incredibly sweet and caring and will definitely be by your side in an instant if you need him

Panic attacks and depression is no problem for sneki boi! He will pull you into his lap and just hold you there, while stroking your back and caressing your hair and face for hours and hours.

He will let you talk it all out, and just sit and listen while kissing your temples and hair to encourage you to tell him all about what has caused his little mouse anxiety or pain

He knows there is little he can do to help you with your battle against anxiety and bouts of depression, but anything and everything that he can do, he will. If you need him to just hold you while you cry it out he will, if you need him to reassure you, he will tell you exactly how much he loves and adores you, and if you just want to sit in silence, he will sit with you in his lap, head resting against his sturdy chest and let you listen to his heartbeat to calm you down while he soothingly pulls his finger through your hair

He knows you have fragile health and immune system and will take on the role of doting lover, he will make sure you don’t push yourself too hard and will make sure you get enough food and rest.

He will scold and lecture you like Hideyoshi if he sees you are pushing yourself and working too hard, he can’t bear to see you in such a fragile state and will just take your small hand in his and gently guide you to the futon where he will trap you in his arms and lull you to get some well-derived rest

“Dearest me, it seems you have turned me into our very own castle’s mother, little one.”

Mitsuhide will see you doing some meditation to help strengthen your stress resistance. He will join in and light some calming incense to help you further relax and destress

His room is always filled with the gentle aroma of lavender, he has found out on a trip with Nobunaga to the Portuguese traders, that lavender acts as aromatherapy and helps promote, calmness and wellness while reducing stress.

It seems to work, as every time you enter his room or take in his scent whenever he hugs you or drops sweet kisses on your forehead between meetings, the sweet scent of lavender instantly washes away the stress and fatigue of the day

Loves your strong sense of intuition and empathy, as you can feel whenever your sweet kitsune is feeling tired or upset.

Thanks to your intuition, you can easily tell what’s up and comfort sneki boi. It also helps you feel danger when the two of you are in the markets together which has saved you from being kidnapped more than once. It also makes sneki boi rest easier knowing you have good intuitions as it lessons his worry of you when he is away on business

Loves your empathy, it is what first drew him to you, your sweet, sensitive, gentle side. Your ability to look past the worst of his crimes and love him with your whole heart.

Looking at him to see not his crimes and heinous acts but his gentle, loving heart and soul. For that, he will be eternally grateful.

Love that you know how to perform tea ceremonies, and will often just watch you in awe

Definitely love the fact that you have taught his little fox some tricks, he will bring his lil fox along with him on missions to steal vital information right from under enemy noses, thanks to you

Loves to slow dance with you in his room, most of the time though it will start off as a sweet slow dance, but turn into a playful tickle fight

Mitsu is incredibly doting! He loves to spoil and bring a smile to your face

Love to tease you and make you laugh, the sound of your beautiful laughter is like music to his ears

Cons

Two of you definitely clash as both of you are pretty stubborn

I would say the fact that you experience emotions so strongly, are both a blessing and a curse for sneki boi, as this boi love teasing. He loves seeing that beautiful blush spread across your face and loves that you feel emotions so deeply. Although it turns to a negative, when he takes his teasing a bit too far leading you to tears “Sorry little mouse, I didn’t mean to push you over the edge with my teasings.”

Loves that you have a strong empathy but, it is an arguing point for the two of you, as he is the torturer of the oda forces. And sometimes he just can’t understand how you could have empathy for even the worst of criminals.

It especially hurts him when he sees you beautiful empathy for others, cripple your mental health, like when the two of you walk past a homeless person. “Little mouse, you cannot save the whole world, even if you would like to.”

You actually make this sneki boi a bit more empathetic towards others which is negative cause his job requires him to put feeling and emotions aside and do the job, to kill and betray, no questions asked, with no remorse for his actions, especially if it is betraying and killing people for the sake of protecting you and his oda friends. Empathy should have no role in his life working in the shadows

Speaking of working in the shadows, even though he wishes he could spend every moment by your side, his job requires him to travel and spend weeks at a time away from you.

He is one of the biggest causes of your stress in life, because you can’t help but worry about him when he is away

Sneki boi doesn’t take very good care of himself and you can’t help but bust into tears when he comes home filled with small cuts and bruises, injured from missions

Gets super jealous super fast

Worries about your well-being way too much

Relationship points

I score your relationship as 4/5

I think the two of you are definitely compatible. Although the two of you may not always see eye to eye on some issues, you can always rely on Mitsuhide to have your back, and love and support you no matter what. He is incredibly doting and will remind you every second of every day just how much he loves and adores you. Because his love language is physical touch and acts of service you best be sure this boi will trap you in his arms the second he comes back from a mission to the second he is sent on the next. He will spend the rest of his life loyally devoted to you, the love of his life.

Yoshimoto

Pros of dating Yoshimoto

Will come back from a meeting to find you in a corner of the room, shaking in the midst of one of you panic attacks

He will be by your side in an instant, he will pull you into his arms and guide one of your hands over his heart “It will be alright love, just breathe in tune with my heartbeat, there you go, in and out, in and out” His other hand will be drawing sooting circles on your back while you try and get your breathing under control. Once you come down from the panic attack, he will be there kissing away the tears and whispering words of reassurance

Will stay by your side the whole time tucking both of you in the futon together, just holding you tightly against his chest while gently caressing every curve of your body until you fall asleep.

Yoshimoto has also had to find ways to cope with the stress and the pressure his vassals put on him to rebuild his clan, so he can definitely relate to you on that level. You find comfort in the fact that the two of you can talk openly about the things that stress you out in life

Because he is the master of the arts, he is well practised in the art of meditation and will teach you meditation, breathing and yoga techniques to help calm the mind body and soul

The two of you would often do meditation and yoga in the mornings and evenings together, to dispel any anxieties and stress of the day and to get your minds and emotions into a good space to face the day

His cousin (sorry for the spoiler if you didn’t already know this) Shingen also has some immune system illness, so he is used to caring for people with a weakened immune system and making sure they don’t over work themselves.

He will see you for you and your strength, not your illness and will constantly remind you how amazing and strong you are

When the two of you are out together having tea or buying art supplies together, and you start to get fatigue Yoshimoto will crouch down in front of you and offer you a piggyback ride “Please my sweet little bird, I can’t bear the thought of you pushing yourself so hard.” You might feel a little embarrassed at first, but he loves the feeling of you resting your head on his shoulder and feeling you near. Otherwise, he will always insist that the two of you hold hands or that you lean on him for support if you get tired.

He knows you are diligent and strong-willed, so he will keep a close eye on you to make sure that, you take a few small breaks in between work, to ensure you don’t overwork yourself. He will never restrict you or try and control you. He will simply come up behind you and envelop you in his warmth, whispering in your ear that It is time to take a break. And then he will whisk you off to the garden for some tea before you get back to work.

He like you is a fellow artist and loves all things art and creativity. He loves to watch you paint. He will often set up an easel next to you and paint alongside you, keeping you company

The two of you will definitely send poems back and forth to each other during the day, its an easy way to gauge the other mental and emotional state. If one of you are having an off/difficult day, the other will rush to their side.

Just spending time with each other puts a smile on both your faces

The two of you also sit together, discussing philosophy for hours and hours.

Absolutely loves doing pottery with you, he can’t help but comes up behind you and place his hands on yours as you form your newest creation. Then, once it is done baking the two of you, will have a paint off to see who can paint the prettiest design.

The two of you will engage in light banter, joking and laughing while you paint. Afterwards, he will always sincerely complement your beautiful work of art and shower you in a flurry of little kisses

He is so proud of his little bird’s art that, he displays it all over his manor.

Love how empathetic and intuitive you are, your intuition comes in handy when helping him weed out toxic vassal in his service, who doesn’t have his best interests at heart

He, like you, is also a pretty empathetic person, so the two of you will often work together helping people in need, working in soup kitchens and helping the homeless.

Your intuition and empathy also helps you to understand Yoshi’s depression and the best way to pull him out of the dark and back into the light

He is absolutely inspired by you and your strength, you make him want to become stronger for your sake.

When you tell him about your hard life and how you have risen above all that, he can’t help but hold you tight in his arms. He is amazed that even though your struggles you don’t give up or lose yourself but remained strong, and push through, remaining the beautifully kind, gentle person in his arms.

Cons

He also has is prone to anxiety and depression, especially depression, which often means, that at times you will need to bring him back from the edge

He like you, hates feeling like he is a burden on other people so he will need you to reassure him every now and again

He can’t dance to save his life even though he loves watching people dance, so if you want to dance with this cutie you may need to give him the puppy dog eyes “How can I say no when my princess is making such a cute face”.

Will clumsily dance with you leaving you in a fit of laughter at his stiff movements- he doesn’t mind embarrassing himself if it means putting a smile on your face

He loves being near you but is not as doting as Mitsuhide

He is extravagant and over the top when it comes to most things

Relationship points

I would rate your compatibility as 5/5

I think the two of you are incredibly compatible, I think the two of you could help each other heal mentally, and physically. He sees you for the beautifully strong woman you are not as some weak, fragile woman. The two of you have loads in common, especially considering both of you love the arts. Even if Yoshi isn’t as doting as the rest of the warlords, he still showers you with endless amounts of love and affection. I see his love language as being more acts of service and quality time as he loves to paint and do pottery with you. He loves to just spend time with you, whether it is just simply being in the presence of each other or nestled in each other’s arms, there is no denying that this man is genuinely smitten with you.

I hope you enjoyed it love <3 And I hope you have a good day^_^ @nairil-daeris

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juminsmysticmc · 5 years

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RFA + Minor Trio have an argument with a pregnant Mc who feels a sharp pain afterwards

Okk so I recently searched up KPop x reader and there was this request. The HC was well written. I don’t know how you feel when you read a good Hc but my heart grew warm and ugh! I decided to write a good HC about this too! Enjoy and tell me your opinion!!

Jumin

,,I DID IT FOR YOU!“ you yelled as you shed warm tears.

,,THANK YOU but I don’t need you to do this!“ he snapped.

Yes, this was his reaction when he saw that you fired one of the maids.

Actually she was steeling money but you didn’t tell him.

To compensate the staff you decided to do the housecleaning.

And you did everything, really everything.

,,If I would have wanted to marry a maid, I surely would have married someone else.“ he snapped again, turning his back to you.

His words were like a sharp stab in your heart.

Even the baby felt his dad‘s rude and cold hearted words.

Out of the blue a sharp pain in your abdomen hit you, making you bend and clutch your belly.

You could press a soft ,,Jumin“

A ,,Help“ afterwards before the nausea hit you.

,,You don’t need to-" his words silenced as he saw you.

You, his wife, his pregnant wife, who was trying to support her body with an arm as the other one hugged her belly.

,,Mc...? What’s- what’s wrong?“ he asked you before realizing that your face turned pale.

,,HELP!“ he screamed immediately after he ran to your side.

Jumin took your body and hugged you, so that you could support your head against his chest.

,,It hurts....“ you cried and whined after moaning once again.

Jumin felt pure guilt.

It was his fault that you got agitated.

It was his fault that you were in pain.

He was responsible for your current state.

Luckily the bodyguards quickly called a doctor who exclaimed you.

By the time he arrived you however were already asleep.

After Jumin was sure that you were well and talked to the doctor he laid next to you and hummed soft excuses.

Zen

,,Why!!! Why can’t you come home sooner?!“ you cried.

,,Because I have other responsibilities?! Mc! I want to work! I don’t want that the baby or you decide when to come home!“ he yelled once again.

In this argument it was already visible that you lost.

You decided to shut up as he turned his back to you but out of the blue you felt a sharp pain in your tummy.

You grumbled in pain but Zen thought you were faking and didn’t turn around.

,,Mc, stop it. It’s childish to use the baby to make me feel bad.“

You couldn’t say anything as everything around you began to spin.

You were losing balance and so you tried to hold into something while hugging your belly.

Although you grabbed the chair.

This was a fatal mistake because in the next moment you fell over, tossing the chair with you over your body.

Zen wanted to turn around to ask you what the hell you were doing.

When he was ready to scold you he saw you on the floor.

Your brown hair over your pale face, the chair over your legs and tummy and your hands lifeless on the ground.

His heart stopped beating.

It took him a few seconds to react, to go to you and try to wake you up and call the ambulance.

He did everything the medical support told him while he was waiting for them.

He even advertised the RFA who told him that they would meet him in the hospital.

While you were in the Emergency room, a man next to Zen cried into his mom‘s chest.

Zen thought that it was odd that a man still cried into his mom‘s chest.

Zen shivered as he listened to his words, the man crying over his lost baby while he was at work.

,,She did so much for me and gave up so much. This time she won’t forgive me. And I won’t forgive myslef either.“ the man sobbed as his mother patted his back.

,,Zen, you were there when it happened. She is save thanks to you. Both of them.“ Jaehee tried to comfort him as she noticed his scared eyes.

Zen stayed silent. He was embarrassed

If they would know what you were arguing about....

He regretted his words, would his baby die because he said these words?

Because it wasn’t true. He was just stressed and overworked.

He was scared.

,,Mr. Ryu?“ the nurse softly called him and let him enter the room.

,,It was luck that she came punctually. If you would have been here a second too late....I can’t guarantee that this would have been good.

She‘s currently asleep, perhaps it was stress. Please look after her, stress is really really bad for her and the baby.

We just did an ultrasound, congratulations! It's a girl!“ the nurse smiled as Zen cried.

After a few ,,Thank you“ the nurse left Zen alone on your right stroking your hand.

He promised to take care of you as from now on.

Yoosung

,,Haha! If it’s a girl, do you want to call her Rika?“ he asked you as you patted your belly.

,,No.“ you responded making his eyes grow in surprise.

,,Why not?“ he asked you with an annoyed tone.

,,Uhm, because everyone is already sad enough about Rika? I don’t want that they say my daughter’s name and think of her? And besides, you saw me for Rika in the past. Do you really think that I would let you do the same with our daughter?!“ you asked him.

Yoosung’s green eyes looked at you, he was annoyed, it was written all over his face.

,,Maybe I did a mistake, you’re really different than I thought!“ he snapped.

,,Are you kidding me?! We already talked about this! I‘M NOT RIKA!“ you yelled.

,,YEAH SADLY!“ he yelled back.

Of course he felt bad for his words.

It wasn’t like him but he was angry.

But in the next moment you grabbed your belly and touched your back as everything was aching.

A sharp pain, getting stabbed must feel like this, you thought.

,,Avoiding the topic like this is tasteless.“ Yoosung mumbled as he observed you.

You looked up, your teary face hit him immediately as he noticed that you weren’t faking at all.

,,Oi! Mc, wh-what‘s wrong?!“ he panicked, tearing up himself.

He quickly supported you.

,,Ahh...Yoosung....Yoosung something is wrong....it hurts so much I think I‘m going to die....I feel so sick!“ you cried as he tried to bring you over to the couch.

,,Mc, stay with me, yes? I-I will call...help!“ he mumbled now crying harder.

The first person he decided to call was Seven.

,,WHY THE HELL ARE YOU CALLING ME?! STAY WITH HER I WILL CALL THE AMBULANCE AND RUSH OVER!“ Seven panicked and cut the call.

Yoosung rushed over to your side to take your hand.

,,It’s going to be alright, yes? Nothing will happen, yes?“

,,Yoosung...if we die....don’t forget us....please.....“ you sobbed and groaned in pain.

Yoosung cried even harder at your words.

,,None...is going to...die!“ he snapped and kissed your front noticing that you were burning.

Why didn’t he notice sooner? Why didn’t he notice that you were ill? Why did he say these words?

You were completely different from Rika and this was good.

He didn’t want you to die like her, you were different after all.

The ambulance came and transported you quickly to the hospital while Yoosung went behind them with Saeyoung.

,,It’s my fault...“ he sobbed in the car.

,,Näh, she‘s strong.“ Seven tried to comfort him.

,,You don’t understand...I wanted to name our baby Rika and we argued about this and then she....-"

,,YOU DID WHAT?!“ Seven asked him, stopping the car as he almost ran over the red light.

Seven slapped Yoosung on his head as he mumbled idiot.

,,That’s a reason more why she will be fine, afterwards she will beat you up properly!“ Seven tried to make him laugh.

,,What?! She was almost in labor?!“ Yoosung asked.

,,But she‘s only 28 weeks along!“ Yoosung mumbled.

He knew what a prenatal labor could mean.

,,It’s okay now, it happens sometimes.

We will leave her here for a few days and afterwards she needs strict bed arrest, moving around too much or stressing over something could be fatal.“ the doctor said.

Yoosung nodded as he understood.

When he was allowed to come in he took your hand and kissed it.

,,Why...?“ you asked him.

,,I love you...I‘m sorry...I just thought....I don’t know either but let’s name him or her different.“

You nodded.

,,The doctor said it’s a boy. How about Jihyun?“ you teased him making him speechless.

,,Pretty pissed, huh? I felt the same.“ you pouted.

Yoosung kissed you and promised you to think of something else for sure.

Jaehee

29 Weeks passed already ever since you got pregnant.

The sperm you got was perfect and you got pregnant at the first try.

Now Jaehee and you were more than happy to welcome your newborn in a few weeks.

Although this morning you felt weak.

However you didn’t say anything and instead decided to help your girlfriend in the shop.

But after you did a mistake and a guest argued with Jaehee, she wasn’t as happy as before to see you in the shop.

In the kitchen the two of you argued and at some point you yelled at her, saying that the shop was more important to her than you.

,,MC! JUST DISSAPPEAR IF YOU SAY THESE DUMB THINGS! I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU!“ she yelled, deeply hurt by your accusations.

You wanted to answer but in the same moment you felt a sharp pain in your abdomen, making you crumble.

Jaehee looked at you, she didn’t understand what you were trying to do but when she heard your painful groan she began go get worried.

,,Help....“ you whined before you fell on your knees, screaming in pain.

Jaehee’s thoughts began to go crazy as she looked at you.

,,HELP!“ she immediately called.

Luckily a few customers entered the kitchen, seeing what was happening.

Jaehee felt blessed when she saw that people were helping her.

A few hours later the both of you were in the hospital, you in your bed sleeping and she by your side crying.

Luckily everything was fine but Jaehee was so scared.

Your girlfriend observed you breathing, her words came over and over into her mind.

What was she even thinking? Disappear?

This was the last thing she wished for.

And she promised to herself to make sure to tell you as soon as you would wake up.

Saeyoung

The two of you were two years married now.

You were 35 weeks pregnant now and it seemed that you weren’t the only one with mood swings.

The birth due was in five weeks and Saeyoung seemed to get angrier and angrier.

This wasn’t like he was normally and today when the two of you were arguing you understood.

He just got scared.

,,JUST LEAVE YOU‘RE BETTER WITHOUT ME!“ he yelled at you.

,,Ufff. Saeyoung. Don’t yell, okay? Let’s talk normally...“ you tried to comfort him.

,,YOU‘RE NOT SAFE WITH ME I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!“ he yelled louder.

He walked out of the room and left you alone.

Your eyes got teary, this was supposed to be a beautiful time but why was he always like that?

You thought that after the two of you saved Saeran everything was getting better.

But you guessed that now that he was becoming a father, he got reminded about his own childhood.

Before you could follow him you felt an odd pain.

As if you were having period cramps.

You felt sick because you were in so much pain.

Tears landed on the floor as you cried.

You had no strenght to get up or even call Saeyoung.

All you could was calling him in your thoughts as everything became black.

Luckily he entered the room not long afterwards.

He didn’t remember why he entered the room again, he just did it.

When he saw you there on the floor Saeyoung thought that Jihyun was helping him out as an angel.

,,Mc?? MC!“ he called you and immediately approached your body on the floor.

,,Hey! Hey, what’s wrong?!“ he asked you.

But you couldn’t give him a response.

Saeyoung put his hand on your belly.

Perhaps he was so scared that he touched the wrong part.

But whatever he did, he was sure that there was no heartbeat.

,,SAERAN!“ he began to cry.

Saeran immediately entered the room.

At the sight of you and his brother his heart stopped to beat for a few seconds but luckily he still reacted quickly.

,,Shit, shit, shit, shit….’’ Saeyoung began to sob as he waited in the hospital.

,,You were surely mistaking.’’ Saeran said as he looked at the red sign, showing them that you were in surgery.

,,No no no no….I didn’t….It’s my fault…I left you and you were in pain all these years and then I left her, and look what happened….I’m a devil…..I always thought that most of it was Rika’s fault but it’s my fault after all!’’ Saeyoung sobbed harder.

Suddenly Saeran slapped him, glaring at him with his deep eyes.

,,Shut the fuck up. Mc is strong and now wait for her and be a better father from now on!’’

Indeed you were strong, you were still asleep when the boys were allowed to meet you.

,,It was really dangerous. Keep an eye on her from now on. I will meet you tomorrow to explain everything to the two of you. For now let her rest.’’ the doctor said, leaving the room.

Saeyoung didn’t leave your side.

He sweard that he would stay stuck with you forever.

Saeran

You even forgot what you were arguing about with Saeran.

You just knew that the both of you were screaming at each other right now.

It seemed as if he began to become his old him again.

You were really tired about this by now.

You began to stroke your big belly since you felt an odd pressure on it.

Although you decided to ignore it since you were still fighting with Saeran.

,,YEAH, DO THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO, STROKING YOUR BELLY!’’ he yelled, making you shriek.

,,WHAT DO YOU WANT TO SAY? THAT I CAN’T DO ANYTHING?! LISTEN TO YOUR OWN WORDS! YOU WEREN’T EVEN ABLE TO SAVE SAEYOUNG YET!’’ you yelled, regretting your words right away.

Saeran’s eyes looked at you with a shocked expression.

You covered your mouth, what did you just say? How could you?

,,No… wait…Saeran I didn’t mean to say this…I’m sorry….I just got hurt because you said this to me…’’ you mumbled and approached him.

,,Don’t come near me, Mc…..you….I really thought you were different….I regret choosing you!’’ he snapped making your heart break in tousands pieces.

,,No…Saeran don’t say that!’’ you cried and tried to stroke his arm.

,,DON’T TOUCH ME!’’ he yelled and slapped your hand away.

You shrieked and got a bit scared and so you went a few steps back.

Although you lost balance and stumbled, falling on your butt.

Saeran shrugged at the thud and looked at you.

The both of you looked at each other.

You didn’t say anything as you tried to get up, immediately feeling a sharp pain.

,,Ahhh…’’ you groaned in pain and stayed on the floor.

Your hands began to tremble, you never trembled so hard as you touched your private part between your legs.

You looked at your hand who was covered in blood.

Your hiccups echoed in the room as you looked at Saeran.

,,I…..I think I’m loosing the baby….’’ you whispered as more tears left your eyes.

,,What?’’ Saeran asked you, he still didn’t understand.

,,I SAID THAT I’M LOOSING THE BABY!’’ you yelled, holding your tummy with your bloody hand as another sharp pain hit you.

Saeran immediately called for help.

He didn’t know why but his first contact was Jumin who quickly called a helicopter over.

,,Saeran….if this baby dies…let’s break up….’’ you cried harder as he looked at you.

,,None will die…not even our relationsship….’’ he cried with you.

Saeran stroked your hair a few hours later.

The doctor did his best and was able to save you both.

But still, Saeran was almost dying with his thoughts, it was partly also his fault.

When you finally woke up his first words were ,,None will break up…didn’t I tell you…?’’

,,Make sure that I won’t regret this decision…’’

Jihyun

,,Jihyun! You can’t go to Paris while I’m eight months pregnant!’’ you told him.

,,Mc, I need to go. I can offer you a better life, now we have to take care of Lucy and the baby.’’ he told you.

He was already sure that he would go.

,,Jihyun Kim?! Are you honestly going to leave your family behind?’’ you asked him.

,,Mc, I will be gone for three weeks.’’ he explained.

,,Yes, of course. Last time you left you didn’t come home for three years.’’ you snapped.

Jihyun didn’t respond, you however weren’t finished yet.

,,Are you even listening?!’’ you raised your voice.

,,Don’t get too agitated.’’ Jihyun begged you.

,,Oh, now you’re caring about me?’’ you asked him.

You looked on your right, seeing your adopted daughter sightly scared.

,,Come on Lucy, let’s get away from this man.’’ you said and took her hand as Jihyun called after you.

You were playing on the ground with Lucy when she asked you why the two of you were arguing.

,,You know, baby, Mommy and Daddy have different opinions and so mommy tried to wake daddy up from his bad taste. But he didn’t listen to me.’’ you explained.

,,Maybe daddy thinks the same about you, mommy?’’ Lucy asked you.

,,Aigoo, how intelligent this girl is.’’ you chuckled and ruffled her hair.

Suddendly you felt a sharp pain in your tummy.

You flinched at the odd feeling.

,,What is it mommy?’’ she asked you worried.

,,Nothing….ugh….’’ your breath got heavier as you clinched your belly.

You curled together on the grass you tried to stay calm.

You felt that something was wrong.

Your sight became fuzzy.

You wanted to say something as your daughter jumped up and ran away.

,,Don’t leave me….don’t leave me….’’ you mumbled.

You sight was still fuzzy when you saw Jihyun in front of you.

,,Don’t go…’’ you mumbled and collapsed when he tried to get you up.

,,Oi oi oi!’’ Jihyun screamed.

,,Lucy! Call Uncle Jumin now and say that mommy collapsed and that daddy needs help now!’’ Jihyun ordered with a firm voice.

The girl did what her daddy told her.

At the hospital the RFA got to know what Jihyun planned.

,,Are you crazy? Do you think that Lucy will always be able to call one of us when her mother gets sick?’’ Zen asked Jihyun.

Jihyun didn‘t expect Zen to say anything.

He looked at Saeran.

His face got softer ever since he found him but right now he was glaring at him.

Everyone knew that you and Saeran had a special bond after what happened.

When Jihyun was finally allowed to enter your room he was perplexed how ill you looked.

If something should happen at home it was only naturally that Lucy wouldn’t be able to help you much.

At that point Jihyun decided that he would reject the offer.

After all you were the one who gave him so much, now he wanted to give you something too, love and support.

Vanderwood

,,HOLY SHIT VANDERWOOD I ONLY FORGOT TO CLEAN THE BATHTUB!“ you yelled when he glared at you.

,,WELL, TO ME IT‘S A BIG DEAL SINCE I DO EVERYTHING EVER SINCE YOU GOT PREGNANT!“

Well, it was true that ever since you got pregnant you were mostly sleeping or eating.

It was also true that since your tummy grew so big, he mostly did the hard work.

Well, he always did the house chores but somehow he was pissed.

,,Know what?! I will just clean it!“ you yelled and walked to the bathtub.

You didn’t expect that he would stop you but you thought that at least he would follow you.

And so you began to scrub the tub, your belly always touching the edge of the tub.

,,Ugh...“ you mumbled as you tried to support your body while holding the slippery edge.

,,AH!“ you shrieked when you slipped.

Unable to support yourself you fell with your head in the tub.

You laid upside down, your body was aching as you felt a sharp pain in your abdomen.

You were only able to sob, luckily Vanderwood decided to enter the bathroom to check on you.

,,Wha-? MC?!“ he snapped when he saw you.

,,Aia.....Vanderwood....“ you cried.

Vanderwood immediately helped you up and checked you if you had injuries.

Although he didn’t expect you to fall in his arms on your knees.

,,Oi?! What the hell are you doing?! Are you hurt?!“ he snapped.

,,Yes...Vanderwood my belly hurts....help me....please help me....“ you sobbed louder.

Vanderwood quickly reacted and in bridal style he transported you to the car, driving to the hospital as quickly as possible.

,,What?! Cleaning the bathtub?! At that state?“ the midwife asked Vanderwood.

,,Oh dear...okay...“ she mumbled.

,,She‘s giving birth, we need you.“ a nurse called the midwife.

,,Wait! There are six weeks left!“ Vanderwood called.

,,Well, guess the baby will get to experience a clean bathtub at home!“ she snapped and went to help you.

Vanderwood thought that he was dying with regrets.

Was there really need to make you clean the bathtub?

Five hours later the midwife came with a blue bondle in her arms.

,,Congratulations. Mommy and son are healthy.“ she whispered and handled him over his son.

Vanderwood cried as he approached your sleeping figure.

,,Thank you and sorry...“ he whispered as he kissed your front.

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screechingdreamercollectorsblog · 4 years

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To all my followers, I Need help.

I am gonna start saying that i have a very unite family, even though my unts and uncles are a Little bit bitchy sometimes and Always try to create trouble.

I mean, my aunt, the sister of my dad, since She was young Always found herself covered in debt that her mother ,my grandma, Always paid since She had no Money left in her bank account, and then She died for alcool abuse.

In the house we live there Is a part where I live with my sisters, mum and dad, and there Is another part where She used to live before She died with my grandfather, where before them lived my Grand grandfather and mother.

In the act of succession my father paid my aunts the value of the house in Money as they renounced It. Now, with all the coronavirus crisis, with no job left they are architecting another scheme of them to cause trouble. Even if She has no claim anymore on the house.

But the fact Is another.

Even if even in the past they tried to take us down, he never refused to still call her sister because She loves her and She Is Blood.

But right now I am starting to doubt myslef if the family i have now Is Just a dream i created for myslef.

We have Always been closed, and even when my uncle died by the maternal side, we Always stood against the mother of my cousin Who tryied to scheme too.

We have Always got along with each other well me and my sisters, as I would die for them. But I asked myself a question, would they die for me too? Do they love me the same way and the same amount of love that i feel towards them?

Right now i am not so sure.

The fact Is I have Always had trust hissues, mostly with myself. And even now I doubt myself if I am worth all of this, even the drama.

In High school i never had many Friends and the ones that i had never stayed, and now i am alone.

In the last year of High school, i found myslef relating to another person in a way i never imagined myself. All our school experiences brought us together, but never so close as the last year. She had home issues with her mother. She end up in a community After beign recovered in the psychiatric Sector at the hospital for four months as She escaped her home.

But i Will talk about that in the details another time.

The fact is that After High school i found a job in the fashion industry, and that brought me down as hell to a level of self trust that amounts to -100, if It can be mesaured. People in there made me feel less of myslef in general, and the mental.abuse started to became fisical as a syntom of depression and psicosomatism. So when my concract ended and they wanted to renew It i said no, and i went home to a family dissapointed by me. I Remember my mother words saying:You really are a delusion.

It took me a year to reconnect with the reality and overcome It, as maybe It was depression or some kind of It, i don't know, but still sometimes i have nightmares about that Place and those people. Anxiety followed in My Dreams too.

Then i found this job, the One that i don't like, again, and i am afraid to leave It because i am afraid to hear those words from my mother.

From the Place where i quit my job i found myslef in a state of self esteem issues, for example, when my sisters try to joke about me they Say that not in a serious way, but at the end It Always annoys me. You are right, i shouldn't listen to.people judging me but all i hear is:

Are you stupid? Why do you have to talk so loud? Why are you asking me that, why do you care? Why are you Always laughing like that? You are childish, grow up. Nothing, don't ask that! You are not worth It! You are useless, leave me alone. You are touchy and sensitive, you Always cry! Stop crying! Now She Will walk out the Door and starts crying. You are ugly, you are too thin, too slim, your butt is inexistent, your breast too, you worry toomuch, you are not smart or good enought at this, you have no strenght.

I mean, it Is simple things that accomulating they create a reaction by me. And i think its normal, and i think that this Is the way i am going to live the rest of my Life. Sometimes i think that the world Is Just done with me, and sometimes i Just want to.dessapear. I want to go far away where no One knows me and start over. But at the same time It feels like i am giving up on everything i believe. The only thing that kept me going Is my family, not for the love and trust they have for me, that never expressed because they are cold, but for the love i have for them and the integrity It has. I mean I was lucky to find myself living in a family like this.

I would take a bullet and die for them, but would they for me? And Is love mesaured by that fact? I don't know.

Please guys let me know what you think i have to do.

Be aware, as i can be depressed i would never hurt myself in any way intentionally, or attempt at something. Please let me know.

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raider-rae · 4 years

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my side hurts because i’ve been making myslef laugh and now it hurts that side when i breathe

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mavmerry · 4 years

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Evelyn's Pov:

I stuffed my backpack with some essentials and swung it over my shoulder. As soon as I got ready Stefan knocked on my door.

"Someone's ready for their sleepover." He sang as I glanced at him and shook my head.

"Come on I'll be late." I shouted while exiting my room. I was about to leave the house but saw Damon in the wine chamber pouring a bourbon.

Typical.

"Hey just in case you decide to go all ballistic again. I'm having a sleepover with Caroline, Elena and Bonnie." I said as he didn't even regard me. Who does he think he is?

"Excuse me! Hello?" I waved my hand at him as he ignored me. Fine.

"Whatever." I muttered and left him in his self wallowing. Stefan dropped me off and Elena's house as I knocked on the door.

"Hey!" She smiled as she saw me and gestured for me to come inside. Fuck.

"Can I come in?" I nervously asked and times likes these I hate being a vampire.

"Of course you can come in silly." She said looking at me weirdly as I stepped inside the house.

I went inside and saw Bonnie and Caroline making something in the kitchen.

"Hey Evelyn." Caroline shouted while taking something out from the oven. "Hi I'm Bonnie I would greet you properly but Caroline would have my head if I left these wings unattended." She said smiling at me as Caroline rolled her eyes.

"Fine whatever you guys can go upstairs me and Evelyn will bring the food. You ungrateful humans." Caroline said scoffing as Elena and Bonnie giggled and went upstairs.

"Help me with the potatoes would you." She asked as I nodded and got to work.

"So Evelyn any boyfriends?" She said wiggling her eyebrows as I blushed deeply.

Hey don't blame me, I'm kinda shy to these things when I'm taking them seriously.

"Uh No. What about you?" I said chucking as her eyes lit up.

"Oh yes. I have a boyfriend and his name is Damon. He's like super hot and dominant and you know like one of those bad boys to die for." She said fawning as I cringed.

"Yeah, I Guess good for you." I said a bit irritated. Damon could have compelled her. Making her his slut. Really?

"I'll go check up on the others." I quickly said trying to escape the awkwardness in the room as she nodded.

I ran upstairs and opened the door and what I saw next surprised me.

Elena and Bonnie were sitting on the bed and Bonnie was controlling these feathers all around them. As soon as they saw me they both paled.

"Evelyn-" Bonnie hurriedly tried to explain but I cut her off.

"You're a witch!?" I shrieked. Of course I already knew that but she didn't.

"You don't have to be scared and how do you know I'm a witch?" Bonnie weirdly asked.

"Why would I be scared this is so cool. And my mom was one." I said as she nodded slowly.

"So you know about witches?" Bonnie excitedly asked me as I nodded.

"Yup, I can maybe even get you my mother's grimore and help you practice some spells. I always saw her doing them when I was little." I offered as she got up immediately.

"Yes please! That would be amazing. Oh my god thank you so much Evelyn." Bonnie said hugging me as I akwardly hugged her back.

"We'll start tomorrow Ok?" She excitedly said as I laughed.

"Wow, you're sure you're not a witch?" Elena asked me as I immediately shook my head.

"Of course not. If I was one I would have already graduated high school by now." I joked as we all laughed together.

As friends.

And it felt nice.

Damon's Pov:

I stood outside the Bennet household as Sheila Bennet opened the door.

"What do you want." She spat. Okay, so no first impression I guess.

"Well, I want you to do a spell for me. No need to beat around the bush." I said smiling darkly as she scoffed.

"And I would help you why?" She asked raising an eyebrow.

"I'm exchange for your life." I offered nicely.

"Go to hell." She said as I smirked and leaned forward.

"Why don't you come outside and say that." I threatened as she paused for a second and then stepped outside.

"Didn't expect me to do that?" She triumphantly asked as I smirked.

"On the contrary, I have you right where I wanted." I announced as she looked at me confused.

I sadistically smiled and the dark veins under my eyes started to show. Before she could conjure a spell I immediately bit into her neck and started drinking until she blacked out and fell limp in my arms.

I did offer her a deal.

Evelyn's Pov:

The next morning Elena dropped me back at the Slavatore boarding house. I skipped inside and saw Stefan picking up his keys.

"Hi. Going somewhere?" I asked him as he nodded.

"Yeah I have to make sure that the council isn't planning something against us. I think they might suspect we're vampires." He explained.

"Hey by the way, who does know about us?" I asked.

"Only Elena is the one I know of." He said as my eyes widened.

"She knows?" I asked shocked as he shyly rubbed his neck. Guess they were pretty serious. It was the Petrova history happening all over again.

"Well about me and Damon. If you want I could tell her about you." He offered as I shook my head.

"I'll tell her myslef. Well bye and Goodluck." I wished him as he left. I was about to return to my room when I saw Damon come out of the Basement.

What freaked me out was the apron tied to his waist which had a huge amount of blood spattered on it.

"What are you doing." I immediately demanded while crossing my arms over my chest and looking at him with narrowed eyes.

"Just doing my part of the plan." He said smiling sarcastically as I rolled my eyes and was about to head to the basement but he stopped me gripping my arm.

"Don't go down there." He ordered. I glared at him and snatched my arm back.

"You don't tell me what to do." I snapped and descended the stairs. I opened the door to the cell and what I saw made my jaw drop. I could feel Damon's presence behind me as I looked at the scene.

Bonnie's grams was hung up from the ceiling and in a very bad state.

"What is wrong with you! I told you to win her over, not discover what her insides look like!" I furiously snapped at Damon as he looked at me unamused.

"She wouldn't listen and besides it's not permanent I just need to drain the vervain out of her system after that I'll just compel her." He said as I looked at him in shock.

"Damon you may be a psychotic serial killer but I'm not. I swear if you hurt her again you will be sorry." I threatened as he looked at me with dark eyes.

I went towards Bonnie's grams and started to untie her.

"Are you stupid, as soon as she's conscious again she'll hurt you with her witchy do-do." Damon snapped.

"I'll take my chances." I said as he roughly pulled me up by the arm.

"Look I don't think I made myslef clear. I'm in charge. You're only here so you can help me with Kathriene nothing more. You have no other purpose. What makes you think you can interfere with what I'm doing." He angrily said to me as I stared at him in disbelief.

"Listen here you son of a Bitch. Yeah I maybe here for that but you don't get to treat me like shit. You are not going to hurt an eledery woman. So suck it up." I snapped breathing heavily as he stared at me for a few Minutes.

"She doesn't leave the cell." He barked before slamming the door shut as I pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration.

"Thank you." A voice croaked from behind me as I saw grams looking at me. I immediately untied her and helped her lay on the rugged mattress in the corner.

"Thank you for standing up for me." She said as I politely smiled.

"I don't know why you're hanging around with the likes of him but you seem like a good person. I'll help you with whatever spell but only you. I give you my word." She said as I looked at her in shock.

"Really?" I asked in disbelief as she nodded.

"I don't remember anyone talking to Damon Salvatore like that and live to see the day. You've earned my respect." She said as I politely smiled.

"Thank you grams for helping me. Well, in the future technically." I said.

Grams was in, now I just had to Train Bonnie according to my will. I will finally get what I came for in the first place in this horrid town with its not so horrid people.

#tvd imagine #tvd fandom #tvedit #the vampire diares icons #the vampire diaires rp #damon salvatore #dark #stefan salvatore

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imagine someone just going 1-200 and you have to answer 200 questions for a stranger

well u better strap up becuase im about to do it

200: My crush’s name is: i dunno who do u think my crush’s name is199: I was born in: a year which is 2004198: I am really: a homo sapien197: My cellphone company is: i think its samsung196: My eye color is: brown195: My shoe size is: 9 or 9.5 i think just 9194: My ring size is: WAIT RINGS HAD SIZES????? i dunno193: My height is: 5′4 ISH but i just say 5′4 because im actually really sensitive about my height and the less than an inch that brings me to 5′4 makes me somewhat happier with myself192: I am allergic to: maybe dustmites 191: My 1st car was: not yet190: My 1st job was: NOT YET189: Last book you read: technically a book called Dad Jokes theyre really funny jokes but if you mean story with plot then probably Grand & Humble unless if you include everything then yesterday i peeked in some books188: My bed is: a bed which i sleep in and that’s pretty much it actually i havent really made my bed in a while 187: My pet: jax and nibsy r the family pets jax is a shih-poo shihtzu poodle mix and nibsy is a cat186: My best friend: my brother185: My favorite shampoo is: shampoo184: Xbox or ps3: hard choice there’s xbox overall and little big planet this is actually a very hard choice lksiiro3jedsklmf,gsda little big planet is great........................183: Piggy banks are: piggy banks. theyre great182: In my pockets: I DONT HAVE POCKETS IM A WOMAN181: On my calendar: whats a calendar lol!!!!180: Marriage is: marriage 179: Spongebob can: dodod od odo dodooo178: My mom: IS GREAT i lov her shes a good mom177: The last three songs I bought were? i dont buy songs i listen to them176: Last YouTube video watched: i mean im listening to boyfriend big time rush on youtube right now but if you mean actual watching its snufkin saying “hi moomin” to moomin a quick 6 second clip175: How many cousins do you have? i duno174: Do you have any siblings? yeah173: Are your parents divorced? yeah172: Are you taller than your mom? probably not :(171: Do you play an instrument? i play the trumpet i did it today and it was really boring i dont want to go to any more graduations not even my own170: What did you do yesterday? things[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: not really but somewhat and i like it because its a fun little thing to put in fiction 168: Luck: yea im very lucky167: Fate: its my destiny to die someday . . .. . in the futuuuuuuuuuuure

166: Yourself: as far as im aware no165: Aliens: yeah probably164: Heaven: i know it probably isnt real but i cant help believing163: Hell:i know it probably isnt real but i cant help believing162: God: only to blame them for stuff161: Horoscopes: yea theyre fun to read160: Soul mates: ehehehehehhe fun in fanfiction and would greatly b ok with it irl159: Ghosts: who else would hold my hand at night...... not even a ghost :) (but yea i do believe in them when i grow up i wana be a ghost)158: Gay Marriage: why wouldnt i believe in gay marriage 157: War: what is it good for156: Orbs: borb155: Magic: i like magic so i will believe in it [ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: yes153: Drunk or High: probably high i guess152: Phone or Online: ONLINE151: Red heads or Black haired: black haired 150: Blondes or Brunettes: BRUNETTES dude blondes r ok but i personally like darker hair149: Hot or cold: hot148: Summer or winter: SUMMER I HATE WINTER SO FUCKIGNT OASJKU*($@IRWJKOSDIUOKLJEZUDIFLK:LDSK:LKF:LJIODSKZVDJFKL mostly becuase i hate being cold and i hate snow becuase i have to shovel snow and its so cold147: Autumn or Spring: either one 146: Chocolate or vanilla: choc o late145: Night or Day: night144: Oranges or Apples: apples143: Curly or Straight hair: curly but i guess straight is ok142: McDonalds or Burger King: burbger king good milkshakese141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: idk uhh milk chocolate140: Mac or PC: pc139: Flip flops or high heals: neither......138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: ugly and rich i can just buy surgeries to make me prettier lmao137: Coke or Pepsi: coke136: Hillary or Obama: i dont wanna answer this :(((((( i dont like being bullied135: Burried or cremated: cremated babye put me in the flames ;3c134: Singing or Dancing: i like singing i like dancing i like trains 133: Coach or Chanel: what132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who are these people131: Small town or Big city: im just a mere small town babye ;3c big cities sound scary 130: Wal-Mart or Target: target has the good cheeseballs129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: i only know adam sandler128: Manicure or Pedicure: i dont do my nails 127: East Coast or West Coast: uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhh both are coasts126: Your Birthday or Christmas: birthday i get more gifts then uwu125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate124: Disney or Six Flags: disney because idk what six flags is isnt it a restaurant or something123: Yankees or Red Sox: a baseball bat [ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: what is it good for!121: George Bush: idk 120: Gay Marriage: yeah gay rights119: The presidential election: im not that into politics so i dont understand the elections and i dont think their fair since i get all my facts from adam ruins everything this isnt even a joke118: Abortion: pro choice i dont giv a crap about some lifeless baby. its only alive if it can properly move its arms or cry or feel.117: MySpace: haha dead116: Reality TV: idk 115: Parents: theyre parents 114: Back stabbers: ow my back113: Ebay: website.... money112: Facebook: lizard man111: Work: what110: My Neighbors: idk who they are but my old neighbor was one of my best friends i should talk to him this summer109: Gas Prices: probably too high108: Designer Clothes: clothes107: College: something i dont plan on going to any time soon106: Sports: something i dont plan on doing any time soon105: My family: a family104: The future: spooky. very scary. idk what my job will be[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: idk (update it was today)102: Last time you ate: 4:13 ish i made ramne101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: i duno100: Cried in front of someone: today i suppose i almost cried???? maybe my dentist appointment a few weeks ago??99: Went to a movie theater: lego movie 2 i think98: Took a vacation: 6th grade im in 9th grade now its been like 3 years97: Swam in a pool: over 1 year i dont go to the pool anymore96: Changed a diaper: NEVER AND I NEVER PLAN ON IT95: Got my nails done: i duno94: Went to a wedding: i also dunno its been too long93: Broke a bone: not that i can recal92: Got a peircing: never and never will91: Broke the law: i duno90: Texted: just now i told my mommy to pick me up it wasl ike 1 hour ago[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: me88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my momy and nibsy and jax and probably zach but he’d already move out by the time i leave87: The last movie I saw: i dont remember probably lego movie 2 or osmething on tv86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: next year drama club85: The thing im not looking forward to: dying?????? idk man 84: People call me: moto moto (not really idk what they call me)83: The most difficult thing to do is: the most difficult thing82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never though i probs will someday81: My zodiac sign is: aquarius sun leo moon aries rising80: The first person i talked to today was: probably kiley79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten i think78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: myself77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: idk76: Right now I am talking to: nobody 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: *has a crisis over my future plans as i do not know*74: I have/will get a job: im gona work at target or burger king next year maybe it depends on if they like me73: Tomorrow: 5/20..............72: Today: today71: Next Summer: in a theater near u70: Next Weekend: my first summer weekend 69: I have these pets: I ALREAD YSAID WHAT PETS I HAVE I LOVE NIBSY WITH ALL MY HEART and jax with some extra parts of my heart68: The worst sound in the world: a sound67: The person that makes me cry the most is: me66: People that make you happy: me65: Last time I cried: ealier today64: My friends are: online63: My computer is: on62: My School: is a school61: My Car: nonexistent 60: I lose all respect for people who: are really mean and seem to hate people for being happy. people who make jokes that make me uncomfortable. i generally avoid them.59: The movie I cried at was: all of them58: Your hair color is: brown57: TV shows you watch: idk56: Favorite web site: idk probs youtube55: Your dream vacation: nowhere 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: A FEW WEEKS AGO I GOT STITCHES IN MY MOUTH AND IT REALLY HURT UGHGTUERIJOKFLDc53: How do you like your steak cooked: edible52: My room is: a room51: My favorite celebrity is: myslef..... just kidding idk any celebs 50: Where would you like to be: where i am 49: Do you want children: no 48: Ever been in love: hoo ha hoo ha i duno how love feels exactly47: Who’s your best friend: MY BROTHER46: More guy friends or girl friends: guys i think 99% of my friends are my brothers friends so45: One thing that makes you feel great is: being happy44: One person that you wish you could see right now: nobody right now but sometimes kiley43: Do you have a 5 year plan: 5 years??? haha no i only plan on using savings accounts to make a bit more money and MAYBE moving to kiley but idk for sure since i like my parents and my brother and my parents plan on driving around in an rv but idk man moving to another state would be HARD and im kinda lazy and i’d have to get a whole new driver’s license 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no41: Have you pre-named your children: lmao all my ideas are jokes40: Last person I got mad at: probably myslef39: I would like to move to: my bed???????38: I wish I was a professional: personer. talker. socialer. [ My Favorites ]37: Candy: probably snickers or a salted nut roll36: Vehicle: big car. tahoe shape. tahoe size. idk. something like a tahoe thats my only reference35: President: I Don’t Care34: State visited: probably florida its the only one of 3 states i’ve been to33: Cellphone provider: what32: Athlete: WHAT31: Actor: idk 30: Actress: idk29: Singer: not me? me? idk28: Band: taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally hall??? ? ?? ? ?? ? ? ? I DONT KNOWIJ DSKJZLFKSJKLDSHDLfjklskl;fdkl;sfk;laf 27: Clothing store: i legit have like no faves god this is the hardest part26: Grocery store: target probably25: TV show: maybe the simpsons???24: Movie: idk ive seen a lot of movies23: Website: one of them22: Animal: one of them21: Theme park: universal studios20: Holiday: none of them theyre all ok but ??? meh19: Sport to watch: none.18: Sport to play: idk i dont like being competitive but??????? gym class is a fun sport! :)17: Magazine: none of them16: Book: one of them15: Day of the week: wednesday sounds like a good day. maybe sundays. 14: Beach: what13: Concert attended: frankly the only concerts i’ve been to are my own12: Thing to cook: probably ramen11: Food: cheeseballs??????? burger king milkshake, a drink?10: Restaurant: buuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrger kiiiiiiiiiiing?9: Radio station: 101.9 kelo eff emmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm8: Yankee candle scent: what7: Perfume: what6: Flower: what5: Color: red or purple4: Talk show host: wha

3: Comedian: i duno2: Dog breed: one of them1: Did you answer all these truthfully? yeah i tried but i kinda gave up slightly after i came back from a graduation party though i also kind of gave up from the start so

#ohrat

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