#i love Bill Cipher btw

[rabbitindemun]

Yhellow!

Well I've finally decided to post something here, I'm new so… Idk what to do or what I'm doing, help-

[squidflavoredsoup]

me n bill

oops all bill!

[cultofcipher]

Bill Cipher thoughts (BoB Spoilers Ahead)

I'm really sitting on how Bill's displayed so much of himself indirectly in the BoB. How during the Love section he denies having exes, marking them out. How said exes show up SEVERAL times scratched out or are regarded with this bitterness of someone who did NOT do the breaking up part. Bill got dumped. Every time. And is desperately trying to bury his feelings.

And that's something I think the Book of Bill really highlights in a way. The fact that Bill has feelings. That deep down he's a broken triangle. It's all over the book's writing. Him pointing out how to use denial and rationalization and other bad coping mechanisms to basically ignore and lie to himself (and show us how to do it) and basically convince himself that he is as heartless as he tries to be. Him avoiding his exes. The tone he uses and the avoidance really giving the "I don't handle breakups well and I'm still petty about it". Him constantly telling himself that he's fine. He's not fine. Him crying over Ford leaving and getting wasted. Him being bitter about the henchmaniacs not calling. His regret over what happened to his world. His loneliness. GOD his loneliness. His self-hatred. His scathing remark about definitely NOT having some tragic backstory that humanizes him and how he's not an "I can fix him case". Calling himself a monster. His longing for home. The "Last one breathing". The "I tried to change the past". The "my hands shaking, as I realized I could never undo the". The "until there was no one left but me, covered in blood, alone in the universe". The goddamn "I don't want to die alone" Valentine's card. The last few pages. Just, the last few pages. That isolation, his pained "I'M FINE". The almost sad plea for someone to let him out.

Bill cares. He's fucked up, unstable, violent. But he does care about people he gets along with and he feels understand him. For every "I'm just playing the bit" and using people with nice gestures, I think a fraction of that is somewhat genuine. And he hates it. He hates his own vulnerability. He hates his lack of apathy. He's denying himself his own emotions constantly under so many layers of distractions, eldritch horrors, and repression. He can't think about home, about failure, about how every relationship he's ever had, platonically or otherwise, ended. And it wasn't on his terms.

Him talking about/to his mom when he's drunk. How his mom called him Billy as a kid. How his home life sounded simple. How Bill as an individual is anything BUT simple. And how his drunken state holds such fondness for that simplicity, yet it was suffocating. How he would've broken free eventually, inevitably, because he knew that's who he was. It's his nature. He was destined for more.

How it cost him everything.

How he's constantly chasing insanity like it's a drug. Like he needs the power trip to stay high. To not think too hard. To drown out his emotions and his self-reflections and everything he hates about himself.

How in Gravity Falls he still tried to get Ford to side with him after everything, cause that was his vulnerability showing, for the slightest glimpse of a moment. Cause he doesn't want to do it alone. Him reaching out to the reader in his book, because he doesn't want to do it alone. Can't do it alone. Even when he eventually betrays that person, I think him offering Ford that cushy spot alongside his henchmaniacs makes me think that yeah, Bill actually would've upheld his end of the deal.

He thinks he wants multiversal domination. He thinks Weirdmageddon is his Magnum Oppus. His purpose. But he's so lost. If he ever does get what he wants, he won't know what to do with himself. He'll be faced with the "Now what?". He'll hit the end of the road and realize how unsatisfying it is. How this isn't what he wanted.

How lonely it is to be God.

I think the Axolotl sees that in Bill. It's why he doesn't try to destroy him or attack him or anything. He sees that inner self of Bill. Sees him for what he really is. Someone who needs a LOT of therapy, a true, honest to goodness friend or partner in his life, and maybe a more sustainable life purpose or hobby. He has so much potential and in a way his pursuit of power, rather than being an actualization of his abilities, is a waste of them, because it gets him nowhere.

And he needs help, even if he doesn't think he does. He's a depressed alcoholic frat boy trying to drown his misery in a way that hurts and kills worlds. He's a girlfailure, a bisexual/pansexual disaster (he's at LEAST canonically bisexual or at MOST canonically pan cause this guy has dated both ways).

Bill's book is so incredibly amazing for what it is. All the lies, all the unrealiable narrator parts of Bill's facades and flaws and him being himself and all of his genuine thoughts and feelings bleeding through the lines and showing themselves but only in a way that you can really understand if you understand him and can tell when he's lying and when he's not. To see the real parts of him, and everything else. This book was perfect, and it was perfectly imperfectly him. This truly is Bill's book. It's so him in such a raw and genuine yet dishonest way. I'm gonna cherish this damn book forever.

[misterpseudonym]

you said forever / tell me why can’t you stay?

[bug-hearted]

theyre matching!!!!!!!

[terrimavr]

Guys don't you just love that story about a town where weird supernatural things happen all the time and one of the antagonists is a eldritch yellow god with goat-like eyes/eye that is a wee bit too obsessed with one of the main human characters

[thenamesmobu]

@donniipao

THAT TRIANGLE HAS TAKEN OVER MY MIND

SEND HELP.

[vizabel]

we can't keep doing this bill

[mofsblog]

I just think they're friends

[a-fangirltrash]

People (and Ford) see the geometric shape as a sexyman and nobody bats an eye, i say that the Old Man McGucket is my babygirl and society goes wild!!!

[beartitled]

Do the parents have their own henchmaniacs or did they decide they only needed themselves?

And what would happen if they found out what happened to canon bill, the pain, suffering, and his eventual demise?

In this AU they are on their own

Lovers agains the world type of scenario 🔺🤝🔼 💕

But if they did

The person from reblogs™️ had a perfect answer for this, couldn’t agree with them more ✨

I think they are delusional enough to just straight up ignore/don’t believe what would’ve happened with Bill if things stayed the same

The just love their littol baby that much

*litterally see their child destroying the worlds* “aww look at him go, they grow up so fast 🥹”

[avuck]

when you find out your crush likes someone else

[bluefox-xp]

Spoilers for the book of bill & thisisnotawebsitedotcom.com

I have no idea how to make it go "read more" sorry

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I forgot the exact code in the website, but there's a code that gives us the silhouettes of Bill's parents holding Bill. Bill's dad (i assume) is wearing a top hat. What if he's wearing his dad's clothes. I know he said that the last bit of the dimension was that one dust spec but technically he's also one of the last little bits of his dimension, but he didn't say that because that's kind of obvious. What if he can't bear to take the clothes off. What if its at a point where he sees it as part of himself because it just hurts him to take it off. He DID make it into flesh alongside the rest of him. I mean, think about it...

[awanderingrat]

‘Human Bill with an eye patch!’ ‘Human bill with hair over one of his eyes!’ WRONG. Three eyes for three sides of a triangle 😁 3️⃣

do you ubderstand me

ALSO Arcade/movie carpet pattern tailcoat/overcoat whatever that thing is 🙏

(MASSIVE OLD ART JUMPSCARE WARNING UNDER THE CUT. ITS REALLY BAD)

chat have I improved

idk why the image quality died on the new one :/

[kai-nyktos]

Who’s stopping me from drawing human Bill Cipher with an androgynous hourglass body type. Because two triangles. :3c

[aria-greenhoodie]

HEY DO YOU GUYS EVER THINK ABOUT HOW ABIGALE BLACKWING, A VERY INDEPENDENT INVENTRESS, SUDDENLY WENT AND MARRIED A RICH MAN (implied to be a Northwest) AFTER THE COLLAPSE OF THE ANTI-CIPHER SOCIETY? DO YOU EVER THINK MAYBE THAT MARRIAGE WAS OUT OF A DESPERATE NEED FOR SAFTEY FROM BEING INSTITUTIONALIZED? DO YOU EVER THINK MAYBE ABIGALE FEELS SHE TRADED AN ASYLUM FOR FREEDOM OVER HER LIFE? HOW SHE’S STILL TRAPPED IN A CAGE BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY? DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THAT!? BECAUSE I DO!

Anyway uhhhh Click for Quality.