#i mean i'm not sure it's really critical more like picky i suppose

[yourebeingsilly]

it's been more than a month yet thinking about how Neil said season 2 is a bridge to what was supposed to be in the book sequel still keeps me awake at night 'cause the math isn't mathing for me

you see, i can’t see how it was supposed to work, taking into consideration Aziraphale's book personality. i mean, Aziraphale's final s2 decision, in my humble opinion, wouldn’t at all work for his book!version (and radio!version, obviously. I'm still not really sure if it works for me even in terms of his show!version), since book!Aziraphale, how do i put it? yeah, i doubt he’d give a single fuck about the idea of reforming heaven and making it better and stuff. like under no circumstances whatsoever

because — though I might be wrong — I always thought the point of Aziraphale's character is that he doesn’t believe in heaven being right. it's evident from this part of the book when he interferes in a TV program while on a search for a body. he calls heaven propagandistic here and says it doesn't matter who wins, hell or heaven, because humanity loses either way

and it's not, in fact, the first time Aziraphale shows disapproval of heaven and its methods. he has already said himself that hell and heaven are practically the same before here, while discussing their head offices with Crowley

so he knows for a fact that heaven is just as thirsty for blood and cruel as hell. they are not the side of the light. he knows it from the start, and the fact that heaven wants war just as much as hell does is not an insight for him. it just reassures him of what he's known before. and he's quite strong in his beliefs, too

and i just keep trying to figure out how we were supposed to get to book!Aziraphale not only going back there but also taking up an archangel position — and if we ever were, really

i honestly can’t find an answer to this in my head, so i thought i might share it here. i can’t be the only one thinking about this on repeat, and maybe someone else has found an answer or a loophole they’ll want to share so i can find peace again

[sir-subpar]

Small HB/HH Rant

This musical number.

Though it's far from the worst one in these shows, it does annoy me.

It starts off as another pop song, which, while not my thing most of the time can still be good, it's just overused in these shows.

I'm picky about pop music but that doesn't mean I can't acknowledge when a good song is still a good song.

It just wouldn't hurt to have a little more variety.

But besides that, the song starts off pretty decent in my opinion, gets pretty good just after the rap bit-

And completely fumbles over itself, falling down three flights of stairs towards the end. The flow just seems to be entirely halted and replaced with the "I'm a clown, bitch"

Not only is it once again Viv being overly obsessed with over using swear words, it feels extra silly here because... Obviously??

The line makes it sound like it's supposed to be some sort of showstopper, but in a competition where everybody is competing to be clowns, how is that any different from anybody else who has been on that stage?

Literally everybody at the show was trying to be a clown of some sort. The episode was taking place at a circus.

Personally, the idea of siren-style fish demon clowns- is awesome.

It's a fun idea on paper.

(Although the original sirens in Greek mythology were bird people, I don't really mind the fish/mermaid interpretations because I've seen some really good designs and I think it still makes sense for ocean creatures)

It could have also made some really good commentary and World building. Criticizing the "sex sells" culture and the influences we have surrounded people (particularly women, but not exclusively) that make people self-conscious.

The type of extreme standards people are held to can be exaggerated or made more horrifying in a Hell setting.

It would have been really interesting to see how Glitz and Glam build up these personas because they live in an environment where they have to.

Like I said, this song is mostly just annoying to me. I just wanted to ramble about it real quick.

Before I get into a song that really irks me...

Not sure when I will post about it. Might be today might be 3 weeks from now. My motivation about discussing this show has been fluctuating wildly

Especially since there are far worse things in these shows. Things this below par musical number pales in comparison to.

[lesbiansanemi]

I know you said you will spare everyone from your essays, but I kind of want to read them (specifically the demon slayer ships that are popular [giyuushino,obamitsu,zenezu,tankana, etc])

Obviously, you don't have to write the essays, but if you were to write them, I would be the first one to read /nf

☀️🌻

Oh yeah! Sure! I'll take any excuse to get up on my soap box lmao

I want to preface this, as the ships you've specifically listed are popular m/f pairings among the fandom, and three of which are actually canon, that I am very picky with m/f ships. I don't dislike them by virtue of being m/f, but it does take an extremely interesting dynamic to get me to like them, and for them not to feel like people are just smashing the characters together because they're a guy and a girl and they should be together literally just because... they're a guy and a girl.

I'll start with Obamitsu and Tankana as I'm a lot less critical of them than Zennezu and Giyuushino

To be honest, I don't actually dislike Obamitsu. I just... don't really care about it, and I find that most people who ship it don't seem to care about any of the more interesting or nuanced aspects of it. They get boiled down to "mean angry man is only soft for his sweet bubbly gf" which is... not a trope I'm super fond of. I think there's a lot of interesting aspects to explore with the ship, like the angle of Mitsuri initially wanting a stereotypical masculine man to take care of her and provide for her, eventually falling in love with a physically smaller and weaker man who doesn't know how to function in society at large, leaving her the much more "competent" of the two, forcing her to examine gender roles and her own internalized sexism as well as her supposed preferences. There's also Obanai's fear and trauma regarding women, and the fact that Mitsuri is about as stereotypically feminine as you can get. I think these are somewhat interesting things to explore, but most people (and the manga itself) never explored these things and wanted to paint them as a very straight forward cutesy (and tragic, but only in the sense that they both die young) romance like "look! Obanai can be nice and soft sometimes! And Mitsuri fell in love like she wanted!" with nothing else. The relationship makes sense to me, writing wise and why people would enjoy it, but ultimately does not do enough to make me genuinely care about it beyond going "yeah it's okay I guess." All this being said, it becomes a lot more fascinating if you add the angle of transfem Obanai, or add Shinobu for Obashinomitsu, but obviously this is not canon nor what ppl want or expect with the ship at large

Tankana is kind of similar in the sense that I just find it really boring. Kanao is a very layered and fascinating character to me. Given her childhood and trauma, I get why she would latch onto Tanjiro and admire him in the way that she did. She was a character who never experienced kindness or even being treated as a human being until Shinobu and Kanae found her. To be honest, I think her relationship with the Kocho sisters is incredibly complicated, and immediately being entranced in the Corps lifestyle also affected her in an extreme way. To meet someone like Tanjiro, who is so unabashedly kind and genuine and immediately sees her as a person with agency (not that the Kocho sisters didn't do this, but that Kanao has had more time to adjust and process her trauma by the time she met Tanjiro so he's more... separate, in a way), like I said, it makes sense to me that she would latch onto him.

So it makes sense, and I don't hate that they became canon, but again, it's just a bit boring to me. I also personally think that Kanao and Nezuko's storylines and personalities compliment each other a lot more from a writing perspective, so I much prefer Nezukana. So yeah, it's a ship that makes some sense to me, I can understand why people like it, but I don't care about lol. And it does have a little bit of the "they get together because they're a boy and girl omg" angle, though it is a little less egregious than some.

And oh boy alright here we go

So Zennezu. The ship's only basis in Zenitsu's overplayed crush on Nezuko. I already don't like ships like that, where the whole thing is "one of the characters has a crush on the other for shallow, usually physical, reasons the entire series and the other character never acknowledges it/returns it until suddenly they do at the end of the series." Like, imo, that's one of the laziest ways to write a romance ever, and also just feels very unrealistic. Maybe that's the aroace in me, but "crushes" portrayed like that are just not realistic or compelling to me.

Beyond that, I think the ship kind of negates a lot of Zenitsu's character arc and development. He ended up in the situations he did because of his obsessions with women and wanting a wife, and a lot of him needing to learn to live and do things for himself, not because he wants the stereotypical image of a wife, and not letting his anxieties control him. Instead of getting that development, seeing him settle down with Nezuko at the end of the chapter feels... idk, out of place? Odd? I can't think of the right word, but just for a character development perspective it just doesn't make sense to me. Also. Nezuko deserves better lol

And for Giyuushino.... Yeah. The epitome of "guy and girl get together because they're a guy and girl and stood in the same frame so that means they're canon." (Because no seriously, I would be less bitchy about this ship if the shippers could acknowledge it has no canonical substance or backing but so many of them fully act like it's based in some kind of canon feelings or implications)

I just truly don't understand what is so entertaining about two characters who work together, who, conceivably, if they were ever going to even be friendly with each other, would have done it already. One of their few interactions is Shinobu telling Giyuu how much everyone hates him, and also Giyuu really never gives an indication whatsoever that he wanted to be close with Shinobu. He treated her the same as he treated all the other Hashira

Also Shinobu is a lesbian and anyone who disagrees just fundamentally don't understand her sorry not sorry she hates men

But yeah! That's the gist of it! Idk, I just tend to really dislike popular m/f ships as I hate the way ppl as a whole approach m/f shipping and the dynamics they go for for it. So much of it is "mean and/or emotionally stunted guy really likes girl and she fixes him and also we'll ignore a lot of the female character's nuances and flaws" but. You know.

[luveline]

I just admire your writing so much. The emotions that come with reading your work makes it feel like I’m in your story—which I figure is the point of fanfics, but I enjoy it so much.

You really inspire me to write, but how do you even motivate yourself to keep writing? Especially because when I do it, I’m so nit picky about what i typed and think it’s not good enough. I know a lot of people say that’s normal. Everyone is overly critical of themselves, I suppose, but I feel I won’t get anywhere like that.

Thank you gorgeous, I'm really happy you do!!

I think I'm quite motivated by how much I enjoy the process, like I really love actually just sitting down and watching something I've managed to make unfold, or just fold — I think if you're looking at what you've written and worrying it isn't very good right away, it helps me to visualise it as like origami. For lots of the complicated pieces, you make lots of folds that you can't really tell were made originally but you can't make the jumping frog without them, in the same way that you may not always love what you've written as you start, but it's all part of a bigger process, and eventually you get an end product that looks good

Being nit picky isn't necessarily a bad thing because reading our own stuff critically allows us to assess what we need to do to make something better, but maybe I would suggest nit picking at the end, that way you're still taking measures to improve, but you're also giving yourself space to just write and get it out there first! I know that's not easy to suddenly just stop critiquing yourself, but it ties in with how I stay motivated: I'm not not critiquing myself, I'm critiquing myself constantly, but I also try not to give myself a hard time about mistakes, or to see a mistake in a piece of writing and think that the whole piece is now bad because of it

I know this isn't true for everyone and everything but I think that practise is my best friend, I spent more than a year writing in every minute of my spare time and personally felt like I saw so much improvement, I'm still learning of course!

and so my point is that the best way I've found to stay motivated is to try as hard as you can to accept that your writing may not be perfect but that doesn't mean it won't be good or interesting or fun, and that by making something not perfect you're getting closer and closer to making perfect because you're learning as you go

Also I'm motivated of course by my love of telling stories, my love of the characters I'm borrowing, and my love for the people who support and enjoy my writing, so I really recommend writing exactly what you wanna write every time and just having as much fun as you possibly can

I really really hope this wS helpful, and that none of it comes across as anything but friendly advise, I can't know for certain how to motivate you and i don't mean to imply anything about how you operate as a writer, I'm sure genuinely that what you're making is heaps better than the voice in ur head tries to tell you ♥ I hope you can go on to write so much stuff!

[judgement-free-sideblog]

Ghosts from the rain forest

Summary: A simple rescue mission will bring him back to a place full of nightmares, and maybe this time he could find redemption. Situated in 1975, 2 years after the events of Skull Island.

James Conrad x Reader

Warnings: Violence, blood, wounds, mentions of war, cursing, implied smut, angst.

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 2: Hilmi

Even when you were more than happy in the jungle in the middle of nowhere, and not having to deal with people, you couldn't deny that Bandar Seri Begawan was in fact a beautiful place, and the market of Tamu Kianggeh was always nice to walk through.

You have chose to take one more day in the city before your medicine shipment arrived tonight, and see the city some more, you even had chosen to dress up different and use one of the many dresses you bought but never use, it was nice to play the tourist for a change, even when the last time you were there you end up picking up a fight with some vendors and being stubborn enough that they end up humorously calling you Himli, that means peaceful or polite.

That's when you saw him, trying to buy some fruit from one of those sketchy vendors you have a love/hate relationship with, he was to put it on one word stunning, his dark blonde hair, perfect baby blue eyes, or maybe was the shirt he was wearing that make them bright that much, and the afternoon shadow over a perfectly sharp jawline. American maybe, after they left the country alone three years ago they have been popping up everywhere as tourists.

"That's a lot of money for a simple piece of fruit" He said to the vendor in a perfect British accent.

"Liying to tourists again Zikri?" You said in an authoritarian voice approaching them "You really are a menace"

"Ah Himli" He said part annoyed part happy to see you. "One can no longer make a decent way of living because you have to come and criticize me"

"Ten ringgits for a mango is decent?" The man said and you loved Zikri's shocked face.

"There there Prince Charming" You said winking at him "I'll buy your mangoes, just stay away from this man" you gave Zikri the 20 rn, and give the two pieces of fruit to the stranger. "Consider it a welcome to the island gift."

"Thank you, Himli was it?" He smiled at you with what of course was a perfect smile and you forgot to tell him your actual name "James Conrad" He offered you his hand.

"I prefer prince charming" You smiled back at him and shake the hand he offered you. "Aren't you a little far from your island?"

"A little, not as much as you, are you american?"

"From birth maybe, but haven't been there in ages, is way better here" You said honestly. "First time?"

"I have been before, actually, but it was not that great then, although 'm quite enjoying my visit so far this time" he gave you a look that you haven't recieved in a long time, a more than welcome look by the way.

"Do you want a beer?" You said to him and point to a near bar that you like, it was 5:00 pm and you have time until 10:00 at least, to pick up the cargo, "Do British play darts?"

"I'm better at pool, but sure let's go" he said and you walked him to the bar.

A couple of beers later and a lot of bad jokes next to the pool table and you were already cursing yourself because you have to go back to the middle of nowhere the next morning, and he was going to stay there with al his beautiful self alone.

A couple minutes later he was teaching you how to play, and the electricity that run through your back when he hold you in his arms was enough to make you lost touch with reality. By the time your mind tried to wake you up, you were already kissing against his hotel door, and by that time there was not much else to do, apart from opening the door and let your burning clothes fall to the ground and follow the pure instinct that was driving you.

"James we are ready" a young man voice said from the other side of the door hours later and make you wake up from the sheets you were covered with.

"Thanks Slivko, I'll be out in a minute" James said and make a shh sing to you with his long perfect finger.

"What time is it?" You said quietly, smiling at him and the sweet puppy eyes he have trying to make you stay in bed.

"Hey Reg, what time is it?" He asked the boy on the other side.

"Almost nine man, we are waiting, I'll be at the lobby."

"Fuck" you said standing up and quickly taking up your clothes "I'm so sorry, but I have to leave, this was... amazing. Thank you"

"You have nothing to thank for, if anything you have become my single happiest memory from this place" He said with dark shadow crossing his eyes and you were dying to ask what he mean but your seller was a dick and you had to flee.

"If you are still here tomorrow I promise you I'll give you a couple more happy memories" you kissed him one more time and walked out of his window, thankfully his room was on the ground.

You ran as fast as you could to put on work clothes, something your seller would respect and not that ridiculous dress. Noah was neither a good nor a bad man, he only followed an strictly business ethic, and for a man who robbed big hospitals to sell medicine and vaccines in the black market he was quite picky about punctuality and respecting previous arrangements, maybe it was just a British thing, you would have to ask James later. You smiled thinking on how well that have gone down, it have been quite some time since you feel like a normal woman, able to have a little romantic afternoon with a handsome man, he was definitely a nice change from the mercenaries you usually hang around.

This was definitely not what you have planned out of your life, you could still remember the you from ten year ago, that who believed she was helping shape the world into a better place by making cultivation practices more efficient, it was a dumb dream now, with all the devastation humanity had caused, especially with all the damage your government had created by using their precious Orange Agent, that's what have finally driven you apart from the big man, the idea that some day one of your creations could end up killing and damaging innocent people. You have seen personally the mutations and illness those substances could produce, and how men only following orders caused that damage without any remorse, that kind of men you truly hate, if there was anything that you couldn't tolerate in this world was soldiers, all of them pretending to be heroes when they were only glorified murderers...

You shake those thoughts out of your head and took the money for Noah in a bag, and walked into the night to the peers. Like always you wanted to be there before he and his man arrived.

"Always a pleasure making business with you Y/N" Noah said counting out the money "And as always my boys are ready to help you carry this precious cargo to its destination" He always made those fake ceremonious remarks that you didn't like. The boys as he called them were already packing the medicine into your truck and would scort you back to Borneo the next morning.

"You are a life saver" you smiled at him as fake as he did.

"Boss we found a rat" one of his man said suddenly appearing from behind one of the many containers that were at the peers, he was using a large gun to push a young looking man towards you, with his hands behind his head.

"What? Who is this little shit?" Noah said suddenly losing his charm "Y/N what are you playing here?" He took you rather harsh from the wrist and start shaking you.

"I haven't see him in my life" You said honestly, trying to make sense out of that bizarre situation. "You are hurting me Noah what the hell?"

"Well then he is just some nasty nobody, kill him" He said to his man, still not letting you go, and you were about to scream him to stop when an angry voice talked from the shadows behind you.

"I wouldn't to that if I were you, we have you surrounded so let the boy and Dr. Y/L/N go" you turned around in shock immediately when you recognize his voice.

"Captain Conrad?" Noah's voice sounded terrified and he let you go immediately and signaled his man to release the boy and then he turned at you total panic "You bring bloody SAS on me Y/N?"

"What? Of course not, wait what do you mean SAS?" You said looking confused at both men, James had come closer to help the young guy.

"Y/N? I thought your name was Hilmi" Now it was Conrad's turn to look confused.

"Would someone explain what the fuck is happening here?" The guy, Slivko was it? Said as confused as you.

"I don't bloody know, but I know this, I'm leaving, boys let the nice Dr. take care of her medicine alone." The five men with the cargo let the boxes on the ground and start walking towards their own vehicle "Please don't call me again" He said looking at you one last time. "Captain" he made one solemn bow to James and almost run out of there.

"What? No, Noah please wait!" But he was already away. "What the fuck is going on?" You turned angry to face Conrad "Did you have any idea of what you just did? And how in hell you knew I would be here? Captain" you said putting a lot of hate in the last word.

"Beg your pardon? How was I supposed to know that you were buying drugs from a bloody mercenary?!" Why the fuck was he angry? He was not going to stay waiting for medicine for a month "And by the way Doctor" Oh very mature Conrad "I thought your name was Hilmi"

"Oh excuse me, your majesty for not going around giving my profession and full name everywhere I go" Then the realization hit you like a lightning "How did you know I was here? You work for that annoying man from DC right?" Oh you were absolutely furious now. "I don't go peacefully when Mr Houston snap his fingers and he send a militar party to get me back, is that it? What if I said no? Are you going to put a gun on my head and force me to walk??"

"I work with Brooks Houston that's true" He started making his voice soft trying to de escalate the situation making you more mad. "But I believe we can found a way you can come back with us"

"Well is settle then" you said sweetening your voice too. "Reg was it?" You said at the boy that still looked pretty confused "Lift with your knees son, some of those boxes are heavy" you pay him on the back and then look back at Conrad "Tell the rest of your men if they are actually surrounding us that we leave at 5" He was about to say something but you were not going to allow it "If I have to come back to America at least I'm going to finish my work first, one month tops, is all I'm saying" He nodded angrily and made sing in the air with his hand and suddenly another 4 men appear and started loading the truck.

You walk away from them back to your hotel furious about the situation, of course he was not really interested in you, he was being paid to lure you back home, how could you be so stupid? You got in the shower and turned on the hot water so you could wash away his touch from your skin, this whole day was a mistake, one you would never make again.

[icharchivist]

what you think of killua I think he overrated yes he had great character development and trying his best being good brother to alluka but I hate when I point out his flaws I'm get called out for being hater like people find it cool dishing hate to gon but when I've points out killua not as perfect as they tell everyone they make me feel like the bad guy

Oh nonny….

… okay under cut because there’s a bit of salt. Just for info before that I love Killua, and i don’t think he’s overrated at all but ye I have some. Bitterness to talk about.

I can’t blame you to be completely frank. I love Killua, I really do, and I completely see why people relate to him or at least feel a lot for him. His storyline is great, he has a wonderful development, and since he’s the character we hear the thoughts of the most, he’s also the character we, as the audience, tend to trust and love a lot. And we can therefore see things from his sides of things.

Killua was my second fav when I first watched the anime but I admit now i’m probably interested the least to him, out of the main four. Which was mostly a fandom reaction ye. 

I wouldn’t go as far as saying he’s overrated, but there’s no doubt he is the fandom’s favorite character (again, for good reasons that are perfectly understandable, i love Killua too) but it can be brought at the expense of the others characters, especially Gon.

At some point, I was seeing so much hate toward Gon after the CA arc I couldn’t help but feel extremely bitter toward Killua. I became extremely judgemental of a lot of things he handled wrong.  And it’s true people seem to overlook those flaws a few time. 

After multiple rewatches and re-read though (and mostly trying to be as disconnected as possible from that part of the fanbase) I found back my appreciation for Killua.

He’s a complex character, who fucks up sometimes. And his fucks up are understandable. Most of them are rooted either on his reaction to the abuse he grew up into, or into the most unhealthy part of his devotion for Gon. 

The thing is that, I can’t blame him. His childhood was traumatizing, Gon became everything to him, and he was a kid, and all he handled wrong in the CA arc were his attempts at making it right, but ultimately failing because of a lack of comunication that he didn’t know how to bring up, and the fact he’s just a child who just recently got into that whole “caring for someone” stuff, a child put into a war situation, and a child who completely lost control of a situation he thought he could handle.

I honestly can’t blame him, even if he did wrong. 

I love Killua. He’s a multi faced character, with a lot of interesting and deep moments. and some fucks up here and there that we can completely excuse, because he’s a kid and  he’s still learning.  

And like I said he’s a relatable character, he’s the character we hear the most thoughts of, so as a result, the audience connect much more with his point of views of things. Hell, we barely ever hear Gon’s own thoughts in comparaisons, especially in the CA arc when things go wrong, so while Gon’s suffering is obvious, Killua’s is voiced and often pointed out. Which imo, is great, because the hardest blow of Gon’s storyline was of how much he internalized all of this and isolated himself, only for it to collapse completely on him.

So I can’t say i find him overrated. He’s great. I understand why people love him. I love him. For his ups and for his downs. And I guess even more than before because I had to relearn everything I ever loved about him.

But it’s also true the fandom has a major bias toward him. Which again, I understand, he’s a popular and likeable character. The problem is when it demonizes the other characters because they don’t treat Killua the way the fandom would want them to.

All those “Gon is toxic and abusive” rants are extremely misguided. I saw people get mad at Gon because he doesn’t know how much Killua loves him, that he doesn’t know Killua is ready to die for him, that he almost died for him (which like… why you’re mad at Gon for not knowing while it’s Killua who never, ever told those things? Gon can’t guess. Gon and Killua already have a lot of unsaid understanding, but at some point you can’t expect Gon to pick it up all the time, especially at a time he was emotionally unstable.)

And tbh, for diehard Gon fans, it can be even harder to hear, because say, when Gon snapped at Killua against Pitou, it was after a long while of everyone, including Killua, telling him to focus only on killing Pitou and only that. Killua legit says a few minutes later that Kite is a “magic word” (read, trigger word) to stop Gon, and he used it on Gon before Gon snapped at him. Killua knew he was trying to use Gon’s affect to calm him down, and he was right. He had to calm Gon down as he could. But he used something he acknowledge himself as traumatic for Gon to get that, and it’s no wonder Gon turned it back at him at that moment.

And the worst part? It was the fault of neither of them. Things are just complicated like that. Things don’t have easy answers, things are hard to handle. They were children, forced into a war, left alone bathing into their respective trauma, never being taken care of by anyone who could, only with people who always used their trauma to push them forward, pushing them both into unhealthy patern neither could exactly overcome on their own.

HxH is a great manga because nothing is black and white, and the situations are tragic for everyone involved. 

But the fandom bias can be extremely frustrating. 

I never exactly tried to adress Killua’s flaws because I don’t exactly feel like discussing about it. He’s great, don’t get me wrong, but i’m sure many, many other people have a better judgement on him that I would ever do. And besides, I find his storyline to be the most self-explainatory of the manga. And if not, a lot of other, more qualified people, can tell you a lot about Killua in a way i couldn’t do it. 

So I understand the frustration with the fandom’s bias that ends up just throwing shits at the others characters. 

But also………………

I know that a lot of fans actively acknowlegde those flaws and just don’t like it when other people point it  out because they don’t know if it comes from a place of love or a place of distain and dislike. I personally have this problem with Kurapika, while i find him not only understandable but also relatable, I have a lot of interests in his flaws, and I often joke or call him out about it, I can be really critical of his actions. 

But if I see someone throw bad stuff about him out, if it’s not worded correctly, if it’s not clear they have an affection for him, I can get extremely bitter and biased. Because I l just don’t know if they mean well, or if they are completely disregarding the rest. 

So at the same time, I understand the fans’s defensiveness when one points out the flaws of a character they love. People are willing, for the most part, to admit the flaws of the characters, they just need it to be presented in a way that doesn’t seem like you’re ignoring everything else about this character for that.

so it’s a really hard subject to talk about, especially for me who couldn’t stand to see Killua for a few months after too much people using him as a weapon against other characters.

Now, I personally made peace with how I was seeing Killua, and I really love him a lot. Can’t say if it’s as much as before, but I really do love him, he’s important, he’s a great character with great development, with great qualities and great flaws, he’s extremely important for people, and imo he’s extremely important for people who had to overcome familial traumatic experience and abuse, because Killua is a wonderful representation of someone who suffered a lot from what his family wanted from him, and a good representation for how a character in this situation is able to heal, recover, to find a better place, to take their time to look for what they exactly want, to come at peace with themselves, and most importantly, which is extremely important for abused children, to be able to see that the way your parents treated you doesn’t determinate your worth and it doesn’t mean you’ll be like your parents when you grow up. 

For that and for more reasons, I can’t say he’s overrated either. He’s a fantastically written character, and he deserves the love he gets.

I would just prefer if this love didn’t come with a bias against other characters or completely ignoring his flaws. 

As much as I try not to, fandom bias can make me dislike a character that I love if you keep pitying them against a character i like more or a character i have very strong feelings about. 

I always loved Gon, less than Killua at first, but I considered all that shit the fandom pulled at Gon to be so unfair it accidentally backlashed on Killua. And I was aware of that. I was completely aware that my distain for Killua came from how protective I became of Gon and because of how the fandom used Killua against him.

I just tried to hold on to not let the fandom ruin something I genuinely love and care about. Even if I have to not actively look for Killua’s content anymore and by being extremely picky about the kind of content I want to see coming from him.

At the same time, ye i can understand fandom’s defensiveness. But it’s not cool that you get to feel really bad about it ;;

SoI guess that’s my opinion on the topic? Rather controversial i suppose but well, it happens.

Take care!!