#i miss drawing Olli tbh

[ollyollyaxe]

are ppl still talking about chubby adam?? anyway here's a bunch of adams wearing shirts I owned in 2004

(closeups and shirtless pic under the cut)

[sojutrait]

Sorry if this has been asked before (i looked but couldnt find anything) When will you be bringing back the halabis legacy?

just missing them <3

UHHHHHH short answer: never say never

long answer: GUHHHH BUHHH BUHHHH

it’s not really a priority for a myriad of reasons.

this might be a random ass reference but it lowkey started feeling like the netflix show elite where all the main cast is gone and they’re just beating that dead horse till it’s glue. like if the whole save combusted after ollie’s gen i genuinely would’ve been satisfied. i’ve never been one to like to draw something out id rather a piece of media die with dignity rather than fizzle out until it had to be taken out back like old yeller

another reason is gus’ gen was sort of formed around growing together and exploring that but i kinda did that already independently from them? so it would just sort of be redundant. once your sim got pissed on once you’ve seen it a thousand times

third, the save is like. extremely bloated hejrjdkd. a billion townies (i’ve since changed how i deal with npcs so it doesn’t bug me much like in my current household file) that need makeovers and a billion and one cousins i need to keep track of. it’s just a lot of work to even get the save right before i can even play

SO YEAH that’s all sad but tbh, i wuv them so who knows? i’ve turned around ideas in my head for how i could bring them back. maybe a time jump into a new save, maybe something else i haven’t thought of tbh if y’all have an idea i’m all ears. but like i said it’s not really a priority and i don’t wanna force myself into doing anything just for the sake of posting them bc i’m too hedonistic for that. i only do things that give me that sweet sweet dopamine

in the meantime i like how there sort of. canonized? on my blog ehehe. like using nadine and dante for my barbie and ken poses, i wanna keep doing stuff like that! like treating them like little ocs bc i could never just abandon them on the side of the road im not THAT much of an absentee parent

[playstation-lichenthrope]

Hello Hello! I've spotted the Deck of Phoenix tag enough times on my dash now that I HAVE to ask. Whats it about? Care to share the cool oc universe story thing? If you're interested in doing so of course! I would love to hear about it (:

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'VE GOTTEN YOURSELF INTO FRIEND /pos

This is going to be long and barely coherent/word salady but here you go friend Merin :)

Okay so... Deck of Phoenix. Prefacing this with with the fact DoP's message is about finding your own way to deal with trauma of all kinds. All of the characters have their own trauma and deal with it in different ways for better or worse LOL! LMAO! The main 6 we have for the cast are Neptune, Vikki, Teresa, Twilip, Ichigo and Salem. Salem is Ollie's OC that got absorbed into the story and became one of the linchpins in Ichigo's backstory (Childhood friends who were kinda romantic then shit happened and then OUAHGAHFDHGgeF anyways)

The magic system in the story is really complicated to explain because it really only makes sense in my brain at the moment and it's supposed to be universal across many different alien worlds :) Hehe! Did I mention this is a fantasy sci-fi? In the way of a fantasy world in a sci-fi setting!!! HEHEHHE!

Every person/soul is born with an ability that aligns with two sigils (magic types) and it can range from something extremely powerful and useful to something that never even manifests. An example of the latter would be a character we have; she seemed powerless until she died because her power was to revive permanently when brought back by a necromancer. Back to the main characters! Neptune canonically has schizophrenia, he has the ability to see the future of someone when he looks them in the eyes, which is how the story starts and also how he finds out he saves the universe from an evil tyrant called Paradox (Name might be temporary, idk lol) But yeah he has a character arc that might be spoilers so i'll explain on discord but it makes his schizophrenia so so soooo much worse <3 <- Projecting my problems onto him. (Also he is the only human in the group)

Vikki's powers are under construction but! She is basically the glue holding the crew together and is a satyress :3 She likes ballet and is the sweetest person you'll ever meet unless you get on her bad side HFGJEHFVQ Also she's built like a centaur and it's so cool to meee cuz I love drawing non-human characters

Teresa is like if Doc was a Loverboy and also a necromancer >:) I'm thinking about giving her the weird gender swag just to make one of the others the only cis person in the group TKYURLF (Twilip) Xe's an alien from a desert planet and is kinda a cyclops lynx/kangaroo mouse and she kinda looks like a vortigaunt now that I think about it..

Twilip. How do I even explain... He's like if Boomer (bubby x coomer) was a person tbh.. Cranky old man who gives tutorials and worked at a library and he misses his late wife so so much :( BUT he has a swag ass pen that can make drawings come to life and he's about the size of a cat btw if you even care <3 /ref

Ichigo... WHERE DO I START. Ichigo's been our OC since we were a KID! So they technically have the deepest lore due to sheer time scale soooo.. They use any pronouns with a preference for they/them and ze/zir and zir sooo everything to me <3 Imagine Leading Light with cloud's buster blade and soooo many more insecurities... Yea :) I can't even begin to dive into their backstory because I will be here FOREVER but long story short, canon system allegory with being 3 souls meshed into one body by the US government to be a super soldier (A human, an alien, and an inter dimensional being) and the alien part is destined to destroy the universe but that's beside the point! Teehee!

For Salem I suggest asking Ollie because I don't wanna misinterpret anything about him <3

That's all I have for now because my fingers are starting to hurt from typing /g /lh I hope you enjoy!!!!! >:)

[year2000electronics]

headcanons about the legion and any toads they interact with a lot/the most

colored pencils & overlook tower staff:

- it’s mostly the same w all of them since copen sees them pretty much the same. annoying little beasties biting killing violence.

- most of the toads fear him tremendously as he personally rampaged through the entire tower (and i mean RAMPAGED. the holes in overlook tower are literally notorious for being ridiculously huge) but a lot of them are intrigued by his art and amazed by it, despite their best interests

- i imagine the overlook chef would hire him in the postgame au though, as the art brings in GREAT business

- the one toad they stuck to a drawing of a toad has a bone to pick with them. copen is taken aback by this and although at first he brushes it off as just another hater that toad actually has always dreamed of learning to draw. he finds it endearing but he’ll never tell

rubber band & shogun studios staff:

- rubber band treats the toads like theyre his best friends and adoring fans until theres even one notion that rb ISNT the big star. that’s when she goes all bridezilla

- again mostly fear here but it’s a lot less than copen bc those toads legit think he’s some kind of monster. the fear here is more the fear if you were kidnapped by a batman villain

- the mc toad is the one who had to come to all of rb’s rehearsals, and evidently became rb’s ‘shoulder to cry on’- he only chose to work at the theatre bc it’s air conditioned and most other jobs are either outside or require a lot more running, so he’s honestly not that passionate about acting. at first he thought rb was scary to be near esp since he was the one who had lines to flub, but along the way he’s actually found that acting with actual passionate people is... fun? rb and him definitely have a kinship and he’s like her fucked up little apprentice. tbh when the toad asks mario to get back on stage bc his parts not done yet it’s half bc he’s scared of what rb might do and half bc HE SPENT WEEKS PREPARING MARIO. DONT RUIN IT

hole punch & shroom city residents:

- hp is maybe the second worst one here with toads. little fucker

- the toads don’t really remember much about the crazy disco evening just how a silhouette faster than light cornered them and then some really good music came on. most of them are relatively unphased by hp because of this

- dj toad is hole punchs personal stress ball. honestly i think the only way hole punch really likes the dj is that he likes making the dj squirm bc the face stealing bit ALWAYS gets him el oh el. much like dj is frustrated by hp’s outdated banter, hp is frustrated by dj’s refusal to play Good Music. dj would much rather hang with prof and ode bc at least then he can make fun of them for being old

- hp doesn’t see much of professor toad but he does know he’s angry bc he missed a toad! dammit! he thought he got em all.

tape & the sea toads

- every toad stuck to the sea tower doesn’t even know it was tape. that’s how good he is at ‘cleaning up’

- ode mostly sees tape as another obstacle just bc well. Tape. but if he got to know him he’d probably be like ahh i was reckless once too. and tape would be like now what does that mean

- tape begged olly to let him free the craftsman so he could intimidate him but olly said no. he then proceeded to freeze the mushroom house for good measure

scissors & the shangri spa toads:

- they mind their own business... she minds hers.

- most of the toads are unaware of what scissors is doing in bowsers castle

- they complain about minions disappearing every now and then... that’s bc scissors got bored

- sometimes she books appointments at the spa though to polish her blades!

- shed still cut any of em in an instant though. just for fun.

[aeroplaneblues]

New manga volumes I've read in September/October: Given vol 6, Shirayuki vol 15, Witch Hat Atelier vol 8, Blue Period vol 1-4, Jujutsu Kaisen vol 9-12. Spoilers ahead!! ⚠⚠

Given vol 6: every time I read this manga im like "ah yes I wanted to start a band with no musical talent" haha aw to be young😂 I like how different the bfs relationships are, because usually you get the same trope "the sunshine and the sushine protector" which i don't mind if the story is only about them, but Given is not like that. I love Hiragi having his very intense inside monologue of how much he is in love with his bff. Not enough akihiko tho😪

Shirayuki vol 15: so much plant talk.......at least NOW i understand, no shade to fan translators I bet this was hard to translate. But I get the rocks now!! Rata and Lillias still bothers me lol not that LATA was any better, a can or a rat 🤷‍♀️ what an unfortunate name either way. Zen and shirayuki were cute here, but....and i might be bias.....why does it feel like Zen is starting to let go of shirayuki even tho its an inch, how he is a little frustrated that he isn't there when she makes decisions for her future or the "idk where those two will land in 2 years" almost like obiyuki are a set, do not separate👀 lol i still dont know what izana is planning with those two tho.

Witch Hat Atelier vol 8: OH THIS WAS A GOOD ONE, absolutely love how the pointed hats magic is so restrictive that it doesn't entirely sit well with some of them, it makes a compelling argument for the brimmed hats' magic! And a little closer for Coco to find things on her own where she can have the best of both worlds?? idk I like the conflict feels grounded. Absolutely mad that olly's creation wouldn't be accepted and LOVE the dagda and ink bottle comparison, reminded me of the teacup scene in hannibal😂 I can't believe vol 9 is releasing in 6 MONTHS, sigh i might read the chapters online bc if not i'll def forget.

Blue Period vol 1-4: this manga made me feel EMOTIONS haha the level of anxiety I felt when yatora was taking his exam oh BOY did i hate taking entrance exams but also his joy/fears about art are very relatable. This is a good manga to read if you have any level of interest in art, either for making it or admiring it, it gives you a perspective of why we are as we are😂 Not enough yuka or mori in the last volumes, hopefully they show up more! The anime adds where this manga doesn't, and that is color, there are some pages that are colored but not the ones where you'd need it as a narrative tool. So I know I'm gonna nitpick the anime but I think consuming both do give you a better perspective of the story😊

Jujutsu Kaisen vol 9-12: LOL PAIN😂 these where the last chapters of hidden inventory AND the beginning of shibuya arc, so FULL ON SATOSUGU ANGST. And choso😊🥰. I want to point out that at the end of vol 10 akutami writes something along the lines of him not contributing much to society with jjk since that vol came out in 2020, tbh I really hope he knows how grateful fans are for this series giving them something to escape to! At least it is in my case, I started jjk with the anime a year ago exactly which made the rest of my 2020 a lot better, it helped me draw more again, I'll always love this manga bc of it no matter the spooky/dark subject of it😂it was really bright fun thing to consume at such shitty irl circumstances. Anyway I miss nanamin😪

[dearemma]

season 2 of greys anatomy, or as I like to call it -- the best thing to ever air on television, thanks very much

izzie: look, i’m usually an izzie apologist. i love her. i think she has great moments and is a very well developed and interesting character. saying that, i don’t like the denny storyline and it doesn’t do her any favors

derek: ok, so, in this rewatch i tried to love derek shepherd more than usually and it fucking worked. he is a mess but that makes him a great layered character tbh. i will probably hate him by the time season 4 rolls around but god i’m riding the derek shepherd train right now, he is beautiful and wonderful.

richard: season 1 didn’t have a lot of richard so i loved to see him slowly becoming the character we know now. OLLIE SHOWS UP!!! I LOVE HER. adele! camille! his affair with ellis coming to light, he was incredible. 

callie: from the moment she shows up in my screen, i love her. she is fantastic. she is so lovely and small. i have never related to a character so much. 

burke: before season 3 starts, i have to say -- burke is one of my favorite characters, he has amazing character development, he has great interactions with every single other character on the show (except alex who can’t interact with another male character properly). his season 2 arc is excellent. 

addison: i love her, can you even deal with her awesomeness? she is kind, and intelligent but she is very emotional as well. a mixture that’s rare to see.

meredith: as you all know, meredith is my main bitch, i adore her. and she looks so cute this season!! all the best looks!!! and she deserves the world tbh. PICK ME. CHOSE ME. LOVE ME??? considering we see in the episodes just before that that ellis was abusive??? meredith was breaking the cycle and choosing to love instead of hate and resentment.

merder. i cannot believe that at the year of our lord 2019 i became a merder shipper again. but i did, they are excellent and the chemistry??? HELLO!!! THEY INVENTED CHEMISTRY. miss pompeo and mr dempsey, i salute you. also that soft porn scene? still the hottest thing to ever happen on tv.

episodes: THE LAST TWO EPISODES. THE BOMB EPISODES. EPISODES 4 AND FIVE. THIS WHOLE SEASON IS POPPING HOW DID PEOPLE DEAL WITH THIS?? THIS AMOUNT OF QUALITY EVERY WEEK, ITS TOO MUCH. THIS SHOW IS TOO MUCH. SHONDA RHIMES IS A QUEEN AND YOU ALL BETTER KEEP HER OUT OF YOUR NEGATIVE POSTS BECAUSE SHE IS EXCELLENT.

fav scene. richard interviewing each intern and their wildly different responses. cristina struggling with her decision and richard trying to draw out the best in her by saying he is not going to help her become less human (lowkey approving of her actions). alex saying that while you don’t choose your teammates you stand by them. george deliving one of the best speeches in greys. AND THEN MEREDITH! MEREDITH JUST GOING -- did you have an affair with my mother. LIKE SHE WENT THERE. BITCH WENT THERE. anyways i yelled.

CAN MEREDITH GET ANOTHER DOG PLEASE? SHE AND MAGGIE AND AMELIA GO TO THE POUND AND ADOPT A DOG, THAT’S WHAT I WANT.

[ofcaramelandcoffee]

i can’t find the motivation to cook, clean, write, or draw

i have a strong passion for cooking, always experimenting with recipes and trying new ones. but i can’t even find the motivation to cook scrambled eggs? i have to drag myself to the kitchen with the thought of, “ollie’s hungry” or else i don’t do it. i love writing like no other, i aspire to be a novelist, but i can’t even get a word down. i’ve been wanting to draw both commissions and personal pieces, but tbh? i can’t even plug in the tablet, and all i can do is become frustrated with myself and entirely unmotivated to even try. and the kitchen continues to be a mess, i haven’t swept the house like i wanted to, i keep forgetting to shower or do even the simplest chores like hanging the laundry. fuck, walking the dogs is hard, and that takes what? 15 minutes?

all i can do right now is play video games. i finished all the missions on ffxv. i’m just bullshitting around now, collecting every item i possibly can. 100% completion i guess, i still don’t know wtf i’m doing. i just can’t focus on anything else

i’ve never cried so much. it’s so hard to make me cry. to even tear up. because i just... can’t. i don’t keep myself from it, it just doesn’t happen for me. but i feel so much goddamn pain, i can’t help but to cry, and everything feels like it wants to spill over

all the other deaths i’ve been through, i knew were coming. i was able to prepare for. but not this one. this one was so damn sudden and i don’t know what to do. i don’t know how to handle it. i don’t know how to be okay. it hurts so much, and it won’t stop. i don’t hate that i’m crying. i hate that i have to cry, that he was taken away

i can’t help but think about how i’m not ever going to see him again. how i’m not going to be greeted by his happy wiggles, his whining, his high pitched complaining bark. how i’m not going to be able to sit down and just hug him. how he’s not going to sit on my lap or give me cuddles

i fucking miss the big lug, and i hate that i have to. i wish i could only miss him because i’m far away. goddamnit, i wasn’t supposed to miss him because he’s dead

i’m so afraid that life is going to take someone else away. that cancer is going to take another family member away. it’s taken everyone else that died, what’s stopping it from taking someone else? my mom, my dad, my brother, my aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents... me. it follows our family like the plague. even if someone isn’t biologically related to us, it takes them away apparently

i’m terrified, because i know i’m at a much larger risk than most people. think of a cancer, and my family’s probably survived  or died from it. a hysterectomy and mastectomy would greatly reduce my chances, and i want to get them away, but fuck...

i just. goddamnit... i want him back. he was supposed to be there. we worked so fucking hard to give him his life back. we spent so uh time, money, effort, dedication, and devotion trying to make sure he could go back to his youthful puppy days when he could run and play without pain. and for what? for the gods to play some kind of sick joke on us? punch us in the gut and rip our fucking hearts out?

he survived through so much. so many health problems. why couldn’t he have survived through this...? why did it have to take him?

...i’m not okay... i’m so far from okay...

[honeypotpreschool-blog]

application (๑ˇεˇ๑)•*¨*•.¸¸♪

what is your name? Oliver or Oli or Ollie or Olipop or Ver or whatever!!!

what are your preferred pronouns? They/them/maybe him but tbh I like they more (つω-｀) thank u for asking

what are your hobbies/interests? I like drawing and coloring a lot, I like writing goofy songs, cute skirts and the color pink and stuff like that, uhm I’m engaged and I love all my partners, uhhh.. I have a lot of Lisa frank stickers

why would you like to join the preschool? Bc I feel small all the time and I haven’t ever been in one of these before and I’m a little anxious to be myself in front if other people but I hate ignoring the fact that I feel like I’m small yknow? II’m autistic and I had a bad childhood but now I’m adult and I don’t wanna miss out on the positive parts of my childhood just because I had a rough start. I wanna have fun.

hi there oli, i love your adorable nicknames so much!! thank you for joining us, i’m sorry you had a not-so-great past. i hope we can provide a safe place for you to be a child like you deserve 💞 also, forgive me, but i had to censor your application a little bit to avoid triggering other honey bears... there’s nothing wrong with what you said, just that we try to be mindful since we’ve had a few incidents with that before... i hope you understand~ we love you and WELCOME! 🌹

~ mod euphie

[wannabe-pinterest-mom]

I haven't drawn/wrote in my bujo since May and the reason is that I'm just flat out exhausted and drained pretty much 24/7. It's become less of a creative outlet and more of a place where I can just write down appts and move on with my life because, as much as I enjoy it, I just don't have time to draw all the fun little boxes and banners and things. I miss having fun organization spreads and being able to have all my shit together in one place and tbh I miss being extra with washi tape and stamps and stickers. I expressed this to C tonight and lamented the fact that I NEED a planner because my memory is shit and if I have more than two things to do during the week my anxiety spikes because I'm always afraid to forget something but I don't have the time to sit and draw out each month and week and box and word and he just kind of looked at me for a second and said "Babe, why don't you just get a regular planner? You can still put stickers and shit in it or draw in it, but it'll already have the months and weeks laid out so you just fill it in." Y'all. How did I not think of that??? How was I getting worked up about staying organized with school next year and bills and Ollie by myself while C is deployed and I didn't just stop and remember that bullet journals aren't the only way to plan things. I feel like an idiot 😂 but I am now excitedly shopping for a new planner (and also probably more washi tape lmao)

[zorialdiamond-blog]

Thoughts of Runefest reveals and all the odd numbered questions!

You asked a lot, Anon, so get ready for a LOOONG post!

I like how realistic the reveals were this time around - while last year’s seemed more hype, at the same time it seems more likely we’ll GET everything talked about in the reveals this year, and I think that’s what matters. I like clue scrolls (THAT SECOND AGE ARMOR THOUGH) and quests. I want Wallace badly. Solak looks interesting even though group bossing isn’t my thing and Hostilius sounds like a neat fight idea. Zombie apocalypse seems cool as well. Overall it looks pretty cool, but I want more quests...

1. My favorite track in the game is Champions of Sliske, that song is SO GREGDARN HYPE and reminds me of my favorite quest fight in the game...because Greg. Though honestly anything by Mod Bond is a delight for the ears.

3. While there are a TON of awesome things, I would say Sunspear is my favorite. Awesome weapon from my favorite quest line, one for all three styles fo combat and one that fits WG Zorial like a glove? Count me in!

5. Like a sizable portion of the player base (according to the poll at RF 2017), I like Slayer the most, but Invention is kind of an addiction of mine because I like customizing my weapons and all the machines (it’s like the Enchanting skill in Skyrim all over again!)

7. I’m gonna go with an expected answer and say the Heart of Gielinor, and Sliske’s Necropolis more specifically. The place is so dynamic, and of course, home to Best Boss. Honorable mentions include Morytania, for hte

9. Probably getting my quest cape back in 2010 - thanks to Nomad’s sudden appearance I thought I’d never get one, but then I beat him with the help of new clanmates (a clan I have been with for over 7 years now) and did!

11. I like to do creative stuff. Drawing, writing, now a bit of indie game development....I do lots of things. Though TBH I’m usually AFKing something ingame when I’m doing creative things. XD

13. Mod Ollie! He’s a joy to talk to and is all around a nice guy, has made some awesome quests and was one of the minds behind GWD2! Mod Osborne, Raven, Deg, Shogun, and Cake are cool too.

15. I would have to say magic. It’s what I have the best gear in and use for high-level PVM. But it’s only marginally my favorite.

19. I mentioned creative stuff, but I also like listening to podcasts and multitasking boring IRL stuff.

21. This one is VERY obvious, but Gregorovic. Only boss pet I have and over 3k kills at this point and scads of art and fic? Yep!

23.  I’ve spammed a bit about WG Zorial but here’s some more facts:

a. Zemouregal was basically her starter villain; she thought he was a menace, but now considers him a laughingstock.b. Zorial tried to befriend Moia during DAT. It worked out for a while, but after Endgame the friendship kind of fell apart due to Zamorak not liking Zorial’s alignment to Seren.

c. Due to her Icyenic voice, Zorial is quite good at crystal singing.

25. More GWD2 related lore/quests, particularly about dear Greggles!

27. Technically I have an Ironwoman but I’ve discovered one account is more than enough fun for me at the moment.

29. Priffdinas, bothering Morvran for a new Slayer task.

31. Way too much, by most standards. XD

33. itsDVarin for favorite streamer, a tie between SaxSpieler and Prezleek (both cool people and great artists), and I like Will Miss It’s videos still (I don’t watch a lot of RS videos on Youtube, TBH.)

35. According to Hans and some calculations, I started on March 31, 2005, so it’s about 12 and a half years old.

37. Buff Girl586. Not my current account, but the first one I made that I gave up on after I died once on it.

39. Reading. Spacebarring the quest dialogue is HERESY.

[kitjoy]

This could be fun or extremely sad

1: Name: Jess 2: Age: 17 3: 3 Fears: Wasps, Small spaces and idk 4: 3 things I love: My dogs, My cats and movies 5: 4 turns on: Hair pulling, Dry humping, Kissed against a wall, Moaning lol 6: 4 turns off: Dirty Talk (not a big fan), Feet, Cockiness, Guys who STOP TALKING TO YOU STRAIGHT AFTER YOU GOT OFF WITH THEM  7: My best friend: Meg and Emily  8: Sexual orientation: Um probs like Bi or something but 90% attracted to boys 9: My best first date: Aint had one tbh 10: How tall am I: 5′5 11: What do I miss: Not having responsibilities  12: What time were I born:  3pm 13: Favorite color: Yellow 14: Do I have a crush: Nah 15: Favorite quote:  A lot of movie quotes 16: Favorite place: Home 17: Favorite food: Italian food 18: Do I use sarcasm: No(!) 19: What am I listening to right now: Hold on- SE22 Mix 20: First thing I notice in new person: Usually mouth or eyes 21: Shoe size: 7 22: Eye color: Hazel 23: Hair color: Naturally Blonde/Brown but Grey atm 24: Favorite style of clothing: Oversized jackets are my shit 25: Ever done a prank call?: Yeah when I was like 12 27: Meaning behind my URL: Just liked the sound of it 28: Favorite movie:  Die Hard 29: Favorite song:  Changes all the time 30: Favorite band: ^ 31: How I feel right now:  Eh 32: Someone I love: My Momther 33: My current relationship status:  Singleeee (and have been for abt 4 yrs??) 34: My relationship with my parents:  Ok I guess 35: Favorite holiday:  Either Halloween or Christmas 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: Arrow of my hip, Something to do with my zodiac of my ankle, Ears pierced 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: A drawing my mum did when she was my age (The dragon on a The Clash CD cover) 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: Don’t remember 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?:  Barely remember him tbh 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: Nope 41: Have you ever kissed the last person you texted? Nah 42: When did I last hold hands?  Agesss ago 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?  Depends if im late or not 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?  No but I need to goddamn 45: Where am I right now? My bedroom (as always) 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Myself I’m pretty responsible when drunk imo 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Fuckin loud hell yeah 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Yep 49: Am I excited for anything? V festival and a J Cole concert I’m going to :DD 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? FUCK no 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Not so much nowadays 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Last weekend 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Wouldn’t care lmao 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? Yup 55: What is something I disliked about today? Nothing yet but it’s still early 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Ri Ri or Chance the Rapper I lov them 57: What do I think about most?: Probs my future 58: What’s my strangest talent?:  Can crack almost every joint in my body 59: Do I have any strange phobias?: Nah I think they’re all valid 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: Behind 61: What was the last lie I told?: That I didn’t have weed on me lol 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: Who even talks on the phone anymore 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: Yes to ghosts, idk to aliens 64: Do I believe in magic?: Nah 65: Do I believe in luck?: Not really 66: What’s the weather like right now?: Sunny but windy 67: What was the last book I’ve read?: 1984 (and still haven’t finished it) 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: Only when I have a full tank in my car  69: Do I have any nicknames?:  Used to be called Jep 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?:  Ripped my toenail half off once (: 71: Do I spend money or save it?: Try to save it 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: Yeah 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: Yeah my candle jar 74: Favorite animal?: Hmm dogs and cats are cool but I love leopards 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: Playing Sims 4 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?:  Probably Trump or something 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: Freedom By George Michael 78: How can you win my heart?: Be attentive to me and don’t be fake  79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: Baddest bitch there ever was 80: What is my favorite word?: Goiym 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr:  Don’t really have a top 5 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: Waddup wanna hang? 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?:  Apparently I do I found out recently 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: Either invisibility bc I’m a nosy bitch or levitation 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: How are you feeling? 86: What is my current desktop picture? Deadpool 87: Had sex?: Nah 88: Bought condoms?: Nope 89: Gotten pregnant?: No 90: Failed a class?: not yet luckily 91: Kissed a boy?: Yah 92: Kissed a girl?: Yah 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: Nope 94: Had job?: Yep 95: Left the house without my wallet?: I do it all the time 96: Bullied someone on the internet?: No way 97: Had sex in public?: Nope 98: Played on a sports team?: Does a school team count 99: Smoked weed?: Hell yeah 100: Did drugs?: Only weed 101: Smoked cigarettes?: Yeah 102: Drank alcohol?: Ofc 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: No way couldn’t like without bacon 104: Been overweight?: Nope 105: Been underweight?: Yeah but that’s just my body type 106: Been to a wedding?: Yep 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: Literally everyday :/ 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: Probs when I was younger 109: Been outside my home country?: Yah 110: Gotten my heart broken?: No 111: Been to a professional sports game? Don’t think so 112: Broken a bone?: Luckily no 113: Cut myself?: Yup 114: Been to prom?: Yeah 115: Been in airplane?: Yeah 116: Fly by helicopter?: No I wish 117: What concerts have I been to?: Olly Murs and JLS concert (I’m cool), and V festival 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: Nope not yet 119: Learned another language?:  I’m ok at German I guess 120: Wore make up?: Yep 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?: Not yet but I’m working on it lmao 122: Had oral sex?: Nah 123: Dyed my hair?:  Multiple times 124: Voted in a presidential election?: No 125: Rode in an ambulance?: No 126: Had a surgery?: Yep 127: Met someone famous?: Nah 128: Stalked someone on a social network?:  Who hasn’t 129: Peed outside?: Yah :/ 130: Been fishing?: Yeah 131: Helped with charity?: Yes 132: Been rejected by a crush?: Not directly 133: Broken a mirror?: Nope 134: What do I want for birthday?: Erm probably like money or a sick 18th party when I can then drink (legally)

[ehlersdanlo]

All the questions you want to answer

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? spotify duh

is your room messy or clean? my room is horribly messy

what color are your eyes? green

do you like your name? why? my name is okay, i guess

what is your relationship status? single

describe your personality in 3 words or less. stubborn and curmudgeonly

what color hair do you have? dark brown!

what kind of car do you drive? color? i normally don’t have a car, but when i’m home, ya girl drives a beige toyota avalon

where do you shop? i mostly shop online and at aerie

how would you describe your style? i would describe my style as comfy/casual art ho! my usual outfit consists of a pair of black leggings, a graphic t(or a plain t shirt), w a long sweater, colorful socks, and black doc martens

favorite social media account? tumblr probs

what size bed do you have? at home, i have a double, at college i have a single

any siblings? i have one sister

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? probably amsterdam, paris, madrid, or barcelona!!

favorite snapchat filter? the star one!!

favorite makeup brand(s): concealer: narsfoundation: urban decay nakedmascara: diorbrows: anastasia beverly hills eyeshadow: too faced

how many times a week do you shower? probably 5-6 times

favorite tv show? futurama, rupaul’s drag race, mystery science theater 3000, stranger things, planet earth, htgawm, etc.

shoe size? 9

how tall are you? 5"5

sandals or sneakers? neither! boots

do you go to the gym? no, but i’m gonna start!!

describe your dream date! we smoke weed, order pizza, then we have sex tbh

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? i have no money i’m poor

what color socks are you wearing? tie dye

how many pillows do you sleep with? as many as possible

do you have a job? what do you do? nope, i’m a student

how many friends do you have? 7 that i love

whats the worst thing you have ever done? my dad and i got in a fight and some things were said by both of us and i still think about the result of that fight all the time

whats your favorite candle scent? vanilla, lilac, and apple!

3 favorite boy names: Simon, Leo, Max

3 favorite girl names: Ava, Mollie, Zoe

do you have a nickname? what is it? my friends call me liv and ollie, my cousin calls me kickflip

how many times have you been to the hospital? twice

top 10 favorite songs? not in order btw1) cocoa hooves/glass animals2)springtime in new york/watsky 3)sugar water/cibo matto4)two weeks/grizzly bear5)diamond heart/lady gaga6)the less i know the better/tame impala7)buzzcut season/lorde8) don’t be nice/watsky 9)surfin/kid cudi 10)blue/marina and the diamonds

do you take any medications daily? zoloft, luvox, zyrtec, and adderall

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) i have extremely dry skin

what is your biggest fear? spiders, i hate cliffs/edges w no railings, that everyone i love will stop loving me

how many kids do you want? currently none

whats your go to hair style? i leave my hair down or in a messy bun

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) my dorm is tiny, but my home is average size

who is your role model?

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent? i texted @artichokemesexuallythat her niece is gonna have good music taste

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? 8 years old

what is your dream car? a red/black rav4 with good gas mileage

opinion on smoking? i’m fine w it, i understand that people need the habit, and i’m not gonna judge anyone who does it

do you go to college? yep

what is your dream job? ideally i would help charities or possibly political candidates get their message across

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? i’d rather live in the city but if i have to choose i’ll live in the suburbs

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? yes

do you have freckles? i have a couple of them sprinkled all over my body

do you smile for pictures? w family yes, w friends, no

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 524

have you ever peed in the woods? yes lmao

do you still watch cartoons? yes

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? mcdonalds DUH

Favorite dipping sauce? ranch bc i’m white

what do you wear to bed? a t shirt and undies

have you ever won a spelling bee? yeah i was that kid

what are your hobbies? i draw!

can you draw? yeah i think so

do you play an instrument? nope

what was the last concert you saw? tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? starbucks

do you want to get married? not really

what is your crush’s first and last initial? i don’t have a crush

are you going to change your last name when you get married? idk if i’ll get married

what color looks best on you? black, gray, and forest green

do you miss anyone right now? yes! i miss riley so much!!

do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed

do you believe in ghosts? i don’t not believe in them if that makes sense??

what is your biggest pet peeve?

last person you called? my mom

favorite ice cream flavor? cake batter from coldstone

regular oreos or golden oreos? both

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? rainbow

what shirt are you wearing? my el coyote restaurant shirt

what is your phone background? my dog 💕

are you outgoing or shy? i’m outgoing when you get to know me

do you like it when people play with your hair? YES

do you like your neighbors? yeah they’re cool

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? night 🌙

have you ever been high? … yes

have you ever been drunk? yeah but i don’t have as much fun compared to when i get high

summer or winter? winter

day or night? night

dark, milk, or white chocolate? milk

favorite month? november

what is your zodiac sign? capricorn

who was the last person you cried in front of? either laura or riley i don’t remember

[fucckingprincess-blog1]

#3 - 12/01/2017, Friday

Dear Tumblr.

Today was so fucked up. I had like 2 mental break downs and I almost killed myself or at least I almost cut my holee arm open in my lunch break. School’s hell.

Today it was even more hell that usually. I’m just so fucking done. I’m already stressed out by the simple thought that in two days it’s Monday again. Just. Nope.

My Spanish teacher wasn’t at school today so I didn’t have Spanish first blog. But after that little peak of hope everything got worse. Geography was hell. Socials was even more hell. French was the devil in person.

Don’t get me wrong, I adore hell and the devil’s my role model but.. today was like the “bad” kind of hell. Ya know? The kind of hell they tell children about to make them be religious and nice and to kill all their personality.

Lunch was. Wow. I can’t describe it. Just. Wow. And not a “positive, I am impressed”-Wow, more like a “why am I still on this goddam world?”-Wow. I live kinda close to my school so I drive back home in lunch. It started with my mom being at home an not at work. I was already annoyed. I love my mom, but.. I’m just not in the mood for talking and she does not realize. Lunch is my time of the day I can really breathe and just calm down for a sec. But not, when she’s there. I talked with her about how much school sucks and.. I actually told her my problems, my thoughts, how unbelievably fucked up and exhausted I am.

The first time in my fucking life I allowed myself to talk. To scream for help. And not this silent scream. An actual, a real “wow.. I.. just can’t.”. And how did it end? Exactly. With me crying alone in my room and driving back to school with my face full of tears. I never saw someone acting that.. I can’t even describe it. Just so insensitive, blind and.. and.. stupid. I almost cried in front of her just taking about all the weight that’s on my shoulders.

My minds just.. broken. As broken as my personality is. As broken as my spirit is. As my hope. My life. As broken as I am.

And no one sees. No one cares.

And that just breaks me more. Everytime a little bit. And slowly I’m running out of glue and tape to fix myself. Slowly I’m running out of colors to draw this pretty fake smile of mine on my face.

My little highlight was the horse. I’m with the horse like 3-4 times a week and I wouldn’t be alive anymore without her.

It’s so hard to believe how she just makes my life so much better every time I see her. When I’m with her the world stops for a second and everything falls off my shoulders. My thoughts stop for a moment.

I can breathe again.

Weird what love does to people. She makes me feel so free and.. loved. Wanted. She does the things no one else can do. She does what no human is been able to do for years. Without saying a world. Just with being her lovely self.

I am so afraid of the moment I’ll lose her. Cause if I lose her… I lose every last bit of Sence in my existence.

The is no glue. She is my needle and she stitches me up. Closes my wounds. Opens my eyes. She gives me hope. She stitches me. So silently. With no word, with no concerns, with no judgement.

This horse is more important to me than most of the people I know. Most of the people in this world. This horse does more for me than anyone. I love her like I never loved before.

She isn’t just a horse. She isn’t JUST anything. She is everything. Everything to me. Everything I need and everything I will ever need.

It might sound weird but.. she is my best friend. ..and tbh she’s way better than all my human friends right now. Especially my best friend.

I don’t really wanna talk about Phine right now it’s just.. does this even make Sence? I can’t do this anymore.

Every pillar holding my life up is breaking and the one person that promised me to put every single piece of marble back into it’s place if it needs to, just stands there. Looking everything falling down on me und suffocating me. Laughing. Enjoying the show. Why do you do this to me? I am so scared that you and me will end but.. I can’t do this anymore.

It feels like you’re slowly becoming more toxic to me and slowly poisoning me. .. and then sitting next to me, while I’m dieing of your poison, holding my hand and apologizing for trying everything​ but not find a solution. We know both that I will never fight you. But I will fight myself. I already am. Everyday. For years. There’s nothing I can lose anymore.

I already lost my pride. My life. My love. My feelings. The person I loved most. My hope. I lost my face. I lost my smile. Years ago. I lost the stars in my eyes.

The one person I trust anymore is Olli.. and I miss him so badly. I crave him. I need him. I miss his warmth. His body sleeping next to mine. I miss this happy feeling I got everyone I looked at him.

I hate distance.

..and I miss my home. Canada. I wasn’t born there. But I lost my heart there. And I feel so empty here without it. I just want to go back. The time I lived in Canada was the best time of my life. The time flew by and I didn’t worry.

I miss Canada.

The spot where my heart used to be is maple leaf shaped. And there will always be a spot for a hockey puck. There will always be time for a hockey game.

I miss Canada. I miss home.

“If home is where you’re heart is then we’re all just fucked.” ~ Fall out boy.

..but not like I thought cause the spot your heart is is bad. We’re fucked because we are not there.

We are not home.

I am not home.

Bye Blamily. I already miss you, hun’s!

~ Fucckingprincess