#i need a new personal tag

[juriyuna]

Pixiv allows people to add tags to other users' posts, which is a helpful idea in theory, but in practice, it ends up feeling like PVP mode half of the time. Artists vs. the random people who keep adding filler tags or things like "what the fuck" to their posts. Imagine if tumblr or Ao3 let us do this. It'd be like back when we could edit text in reblogs to make it look like OP said something heinous except worse because the tags would stay on OP's post until they noticed and deleted them

[gatoraid]

Year in Fandom 2023

Seeing people posting their recaps made me look back a little on my own year too. 

2023 marked the year I came back to tumblr with full force after leaving my account mostly unused for abt five years. Twitter was my fandom home for a long time (and for jp language stuff it still is to some extent), but it has become such an awful place I really wanted to have an alternative.

This year I also resumed a lot of fandom activities like writing and reading fanfic, from which I had unintentionally taken an almost three year break from. Finding the joy in writing and sharing it with others after a long time has been really nice, especially since a big part of this year has otherwise felt like a struggle. There were a lot of times when I needed escape or comfort and found that in fiction, fandom or writing.

I also made a conscious effort to lurk less and let artists and creators know how much joy they have brought me. Messaging the translators and authors of my fave stories, reaching out to artists via asks or making the conscious effort to comment on fanfics a lot more than I used to have all made me happier in the process too, so I really want to keep doing that in the new year too.

My biggest fandom obsession in 2023 was definitely The Radiant Emperor book series by Shelley Parker-Chan. Out of the five fics I published this year, three were for this fandom so I think that alone says a lot. I read She Who Became the Sun in March, and when He Who Drowned the World came out in August, I was ready to be blown away and haven’t recovered since. It’s still hard to articulate all the reasons why these books spoke to me so deeply, but I’ll just accept that this is my life now. 

I think I’ve been almost equally blown away by how much fun I’ve had in the Radiant Emperor fandom. It’s been so inspiring to see all the beautiful fanworks and reactions to them from the small but dedicated crowd, and to be able to discuss and build upon each others’ meta and headcanons. Whether we’re mutuals or have exchanged thoughts via comments, tags or dm’s, I really look forward to obsessing over these books and characters together in 2024 too!

Shoutout to the other fandom-related things that also kept me sane in 2023: Loumand Paris romance, all the fics I read about Lee Yut-Lung, and playing and analyzing Love Shore.

[wonkyjaw]

I just realized that I fully have no idea what one of my OCs looks like. I’ve been obsessed with her for years and yet I just caught myself thinking “wait, but what color is her hair?” and realized I haven’t the slightest clue.

[moriarteaparty]

hey guys my name's elliott. two ts bc it's more fruity. also because elliott gould made marlowe bisexual and jewish in the long goodbye

[ajemmys]

augh.

[elizbit]

Excited to take my new, higher dose of quetiapine tonight and immediately pass out

normally meds that affect sleep have no effect on me but a dose increase of quetiapine is the one exception (when I’ve been on the same dose for a while instead I just am unable to sleep without it, but taking it doesn’t cause me drowsiness)

this is exactly what I expected from this psych appt and which is exactly why I pushed it three weeks early but I am somehow simultaneously like “ugh, why, ew” as though I did not literally bring this upon myself.

[gasmeros]

Get to know you tag game! tagged by @transboyzuko !! hello :3 hope your trip to america is going well so far! if you're still in america. idk, dont expect me to process the advancement of time

Answer the questions and then leave a question for your tagger.

1. Last Song: idk ive got the animal crossing new leaf island song stuck in my head agdnhfd

2. Favorite Color: blue and green!! but not blue-green

3. Currently watching: kitchen nightmares reruns ._. this last week was a lot and the angry british man calms me down

4. Sweet/Spicy/Savory: savory! sweet can feel repetative, and spicy hurts and im a whimp

5. Relationship Status: Single by choice. i mean i would marry a friend if they wanted but i am aro/ace

6. Current Obsession: Atla! i can feel it altering my personality at this point

7. Last Thing Googled: "dark soy sauce vs black soy sauce." i was lookin on the wrong shelf and kept finding black instead of dark, and i needed to know if i could swap em out. i could not.

question for transboyzuko:

8. if you were a horse, would you want thin little dexterous hooves or strong clonky ones? i was gonna ask as zukka question cuz that seems much more relevant to your interests, but the aro/ace obliviousness struck,,,, what,, kind of hooves would zukka want...?

thanks again for the tag!! welcome to the tag game deadend :)

[thetheatregang]

I know this is all I talk about lately, but I’m really nervous to send my pilot to my close friends or even literally tell them I wrote it? Like I think it’s good enough for people to read it. Does anyone wanna know what it’s about? Maybe I’ll post a little synopsis if people wanna hear about it.

[healersadjust]

6. Illusion :)

Thank you so much for the ask!! I had a lot of fun with this one.

Aki was certain it was him. The shade of red in his hair was unforgettable.

She was stunned in place, too terrified to move and shatter this perfect scene. There G’raha sat on a stump, his hair let down. It flowed in the gentle breeze, a song on his lips.

She feared breaking the beautiful scene in front of her. The sun shone through the breaks in the leaves, casting a golden glow around him. He was ethereal.

She knew the moment she looked away, he would be gone. Their story was one of loss and tragedy, and was always destined to be that way. She leaned up against the stump he sat on, looking up at him.

Though she couldn’t see his face, she stayed there for what felt like forever, listening to his soft humming. She felt the world move around her, but she stayed still. Days and nights could have passed, but she couldn't, she wouldn’t, move.

Eventually, her eyes closed without her input. When she awoke, the glow of the moon illuminated the stump. G’raha was gone, but she was unsurprised. It was a sweet illusion while it lasted.

[wineonmytshirt]

my first release experience on here was Red TV and i feel so blessed and lucky to be here again with you all for Midnights ~ i truly can’t wait to hear your reactions and see what it inspires you to create ✨ LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH 💜🖤💕♥️

[gigagasp]

Waffling between being terrified for my first observation and also not caring because what could they even do 😭🤔

[wonkyjaw]

I am in hell.

Meaning I just finished reading The Sunshine Court.

But also I was reading it at the same time as I was reading The Burning God by RF Kuang and I finished them both around the same time. And I’m also sick. Like so sick.

Who decided any of this was a good idea??

[king-direwolf]

When it comes to art and creating stuff in general, I very much WANT to be a self indulgent motherfucker. I WANT to create things for no one but me and put it out into the world. I want to just put all of myself into what I make and not care what anyone thinks of it.

But I'm tired. So fucking tired all the time. I don't have the energy to put into making things for myself. Art and stories that only I care about. My brain and body won't let me.

I wish so hard that I could take the advice that I love seeing. I love seeing people telling other artists to just make what makes you happy. Make what you want to see. I can't make the art I want to see, and it kills me.

[ajemmys]

bf just offhandedly remarked that i have a charming and distinctive laugh and i'm gonna ride this high for the next several weeks

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

[soufre-de-paris]

i am so tired that at the sight of something beautiful, i burst into tears. there is too much feeling within me, and my little fragile bodyself is too weak to navigate these waters.

the older i get, the more slights against me—both intended and born of a simple yet cruel disregard—leave me cabisbaixo instead of enraged. i hadn't realized i could lose my anger. sei lá.