#i shouldve fixed the credit at the end =_=

[cozystars]

Stay on, Falin. ( an extended, and frankly superior, version to an earlier edit/amv! enjoy )

[ind1c0lite]

I literally got art related to it in the queue rn but GOD Phoenix and the 7yg is SO fucking interesting to me, Im so interested in how he got up to that point in aa4 and the events that lead up to his final trial with Zak and just OUGH- he should've stayed more cryptic in every game after aa4 why didn't they keep at least that aspect of him!! I'm so mad

[kitsuvil]

i tried to do the character.ai bot thing eith cloud strife and it literally felt worse than a roblox roleplay

it wejt smth like

"hi cloud"

"GRRRR BARKBAIRBAKRBSRBOEBAJTBJS GET AWAY YOI LOWL6 PEASANT OR ILL BEAT YOU UP 👿👿👿 IM AN EX SOLDIER WOOROROEOEOW9OFOWOR RAOEOOSOSS"

and then after thst you literslly csnt do anyrhing to fix him anf st the end it like "thats it GRRR im turning into my fINAL FORM 🤓 YOU SHOULDVE ONOWN NOT TO MESS W ME HRGRGRGRGRRRR *kills you*" and then "screen pans out and fades to black, credits start rolling" i mean at least i know i was the main character since it couldnt continue w/o me

this is the worsy thing iv3 ever written im.so sorry

WHO BROKE CLOUD PLEASE THEY TURNED HIM INTO A FERAL MIDDLE SCHOOLER i eant to try it now.

[bloodbankzz]

i just dropped the invisible kingdom: reimagining chronic illness at 83% read because i am fucking furious with it. within the first few chapters i immediately had a bad feeling about her penchant for pseudoscience and i shouldve trusted my fucking intuition. instead i foolishly thought she would tie it all into how desperate populations can fall into the hands of grifters under the uncaring gaze of a "healthcare" system under capitalism and in the usa especially by the end, and FOOLISHLY, FOOLISHLY, FOOLISHLY recommended it TO AN ABLED PERSON to help understand the mental toll it all took even in the most ideal of circumstances. just to fucking watch this woman pile on dubious science after dubious science while she jet sets AROUND THE FUCKING WORLD spending what would easily be hundreds of thousands of fucking dollars AND NEVER EVEN BEING FIRED FROM HER JOB DUE TO DISABILITY? she just keeps her fucking dream princeton fuckin writer job the whole time. interviewing quacks because she was scammed, and she was scammed a lot. and im sorry to her for that. but not really because fucking ozone blood whatever and flying to england for fecal transplant and supplements and supplements and supplements and obvious orthorexia were clearly very within her budget. can you imagine a world where you rack up thousands and thousands and thousands in credit card debt and it just ends up not fucking mattering? oh my god i could be mad for so long at how much this rich woman got to see top doctors (without insurance!) and experiemental procedures and this and that and that and that with EXTREMELY sketchy conclusions because ~ shes a poet at heart ~ (?????????) AND THEN PUBLISH IT LIKE SHE SPEAKS FOR ANY OF US? reimagining chronic illness?????? for who????? no i can QUITE easily imagine that rich people do indeed have the ability to buy their way into health no matter what stupid path that leads them through. that happens all the time! remember the son blood infusion guy? god. im so fucking angry and its all of this but i really was gonna fucking put up with it and just add caveats but do you know what she fucking does?

after months of antibiotics, her lyme disease is seemingly cured. great for her. she reflects on how freaking awesome it is to have a body that works again! my body was broken and now its fixed and i can have a baby. im human again.

now this whole time, as someone who has been sick my whole life and will never have the money or life she has, i had been listening, and feeling seen by her emotional plight (if extremely skeptical of her... favored... choices?) but the whole time i will not lie to you i was simmering with this now exploding anger due to a deep envy. i am envious of a lot of people though, specifically because of my disabilities. so i was swallowing it. she got to make it to adulthood before she was dying. she got to establish and keep her career of choice. she could see any practioners she wished. i was so painfully jealous, but again, i was still recommending it on the basis of "this is how bad it is for the luckiest one of us." the betrayal i felt, when this book that kept SAYING it was about finding the ability to live in uncertainty brought on by mysterious illnesses, which i put up with through so many fucking red flags, ended with her literally fucking fine? pretty much fucking cured of the big thing causing her problems? AND IT TURNED OUT? THIS WHOLE THING? WAS ABOUT HOW MUCH IT SUCKS TO EXPERIENCE CHRONIC DISEASE FOR SOME YEARS AND HOW GREAT IT IS WHEN YOU DONT ANYMORE AND YOU GET EVERYTHING YOU WANT?

she gets to feel human again. thats so fantastic for you. do you know what that makes me?

this would not be a big deal in a memoir about one womans decade(?i think) long struggle to get better and happy ending. neither would the glaring lack of real social justice & meaningful critique of a system aside from how it sucks for her specifically with a tiny bit of lip service for the rest of us with MASSIVE, GLARING BLINDSPOT OF PRIVILEGE unescapable in everything she fucking says and does. however. i would not have read that book. i picked up a book called Reimagining Chronic Illness. and i expected it to be about reimagining chronic illness. perhaps, starting from an empathetic touchstone of personal struggle.

0/5 all i wish is that i had trusted my fucking gut or that this book wouldve had the decency to show me what it was SEVEN FUCKING HOURS AGO. i can tell why an ableist society showered it with praise.

[radiation]

did finish inscryption earlier today though. one of those games you can seriously discuss for hours on end and i will if given the chance but ill just write smth small. spoilers

all in all loved the game, act 1 was phenomenal and perfect, but made the flaws of 2 and 3 stick out like a sore thumb. they just could NOT live up... at all. still enjoyed them for the most part but absolutely needed some changes -- some gameplay but honest to god? a lot of my grievances were actually visual. the art in 2 left a lot to be desired, nice but underwhelming pixel art and uninteresting level design. 3 was just so barren which i get makes sense with p03 valuing mechanics over lore -- which is opposite to leshy’s sensibilities -- but it got to a point where it sometimes felt miserable. needed more flavor, more of the cool aesthetics, colors, varieties in of its boss fights (which i have to give credit as some of the best parts of the game, up to par w act 1). i think its sparse narrative and design outside of battles were a big reason why it felt so damn looooooooooong like little visual distinction and narrative direction makes it feel like youre just doing the same task over and over again. even if its “deliberate” because of p03′s personality, it makes the game a drag so i dont think it can really be justified

mixed feelings about the metanarrative stuff, some stuff i really liked but even more head scratchers. for a game where the creation of the game and the old_data shit were the driving forces behind everything, they felt very much tacked on rather than interwoven with the game. i think the metanarrative stuff shouldve been either reworked or scrapped entirely. i liked some stuff w luke and i thought his actor was convincingly an annoying ish youtube guy. but i think everything about the creation of the game, the old_data, the mystery behind kaycee couldve been better told entirely within the game itself, through the scrybes, npcs, environments, battles, etc. for real though i really do like the idea of a game being a means to contain something very sinister and keep it at bay but uhhh wasnt well executed

oh yeah also the arg stuff is actually so fucking unbelievably dumb WHY HITLER like for a game that had so many incredibly well-thought out, beautiful, poignant, amazing moments i cant fucking believe the same people decided on that??? what???? at least it confirms p03 is still out there. i like him. but aside from that actually what

like. idk all of the poor writing decisions cant even sour my opinion of the game too much, i still love it, and its endlessly inspiring and thought provoking to me which honestly its flaws ARE a part of, but man it really can get frustrating when the biggest issues that are a total disservice to the game are things that could be fixed easily and i could probably come up with better alternatives for within like. minutes

but i really do enjoy talking about this game, hearing discussion, etc. it has seriously inspired me and made me think, lmk if you have any thoughts about it as well, i wanna hear what everyone thought!!

[worstloki]

i feel like instead of having 2014 thanos come to 2023, endgame shouldve had the avengers on the run from the TVA throughout their heist.

they should’ve thrown elements of cuts in the movie where it feels like parts have been thrown out (*cough* multiple scripts anyway *cough*) kinda like with wandavision so only if you were paying attention would you realize the hints at the beginning but as the heist progresses the characters realize stuff is up and at the end there’s a time fight where all the realities are collapsing because steve wasn’t able to return the stones and the movie ends with the TVA AND the Avengers like “wait... you dont have the stones?” “you guys finally got steve who was going to return them, of course we don’t” “...we don’t have him” and then a huge cut where everyone left has returned to their regular daily scheduled activities and is happy and the TVA fixed the realities and left them, right? and then end-credit could just be. like. steve waking up in the sand (like loki in the show trailer) except that is very distinctly loki’s muzzle/cuffs in the sand and the people who walk to him are from the 60s -- and then with loki’s show he’d wake in the sand with TWO space stones, wanda’s false reality? she doesn’t know the reality stone was helping, where are the rest of the stones? no one knows. the mind stone MIGHT be being used to reanimate vision. the mind stone MIGHT be responsible for loki’s loss of memory. 2012 Ancient One MIGHT stare in horror as the time stone is returned to her... when she still has one at her neck. the thanos that was meant to time travel MIGHT find the power stone in his grasp early. the soul stone is returned to red skull who MIGHT find his soul back to earth but in the 21st century and that MIGHT be why the fatws show happens. the audience MIGHT only be told these things bit by bit and be left to figure things out until then. but also. [cue Multiverse of Madness]

[catnippackets]

have you seen/would u recommend pacific rim 2? ive heard some things about newt and idk lol

I feel like Im in the minority that actually did think pru was fun but that being said it ended SO abruptly and with like three separate plotlines completely abandoned that I was really frustrated for days after watching it until I had processed everything and had time to think deeply about it lol it just seemed rly unfinished?? it feels like it was deliberately made as 1/2 of two sequels and there needs to be one more to tie everything up. actually I’m gonna ramble abt this bc I have a lot of thoughts (obvs spoilers under the cut)

the thing about the second one was that I genuinely was enjoying it right up until it ended because I swear to god the moment the end screen went up I yelled "what the fuck, that's it?" out loud into my bedroom bc I was so SHOCKED that THAT'S how it all ended, because it just seemed so incomplete?? Like it seemed like one half of a story, that will only be made whole if there's a third one to tie up all the plotlines that they didn't go through with in the second and if that's the case then I will be completely fine with it but if it doesn't or if they dont have a third one at all I will stay so frustrated lol. one silver lining to this is that the vibe of this movie was so different from the first that it almost feels easy to separate it and just imagine it as an AU if you prefer which is sort of nice; usually if a piece of media I like does something bad I feel all gutted and anxious and terrible that this is the canon I have to accept, but something abt this movie just made it feel like it was sort of a totally separate deal. maybe cuz only 3 of the original characters were in it idk

to start off: I felt like there were a couple of plotlines in it that were just sort of introduced and then never seen through which was very ????? Amara & Vik's weird hate-rivalry thing was one of them; Vik instantly has it out for Amara bc she’s jealous, which is a very interesting concept, and then this prompts Amara to become hostile right back at her, which is also a very interesting concept, and then it never got resolved at all? like they couldve done something really cool with those two but it just never went anywhere. and then there was sort of a weird love triangle thing happening between Jake and Nate and Jules that felt so weird bc it had no significance to the plot at all and it felt like it was only thrown in there for the sake of having ~romantic drama~ idk maybe I wasnt paying too much attention and there was more to it than that but it really just seemed like they wanted to put romance in there and didnt want to bother to put any work into it

BUT the thing about romantic sub plots is that THERE ALREADY WAAAAS OOOOOOOOONE which brings me to the biggest frustration I have w this movie because--and DISCLAIMER, this was also my favourite plot point of the movie bc it was by far the most interesting, the biggest reason for me enjoying the movie at all, and the bit I feel like should have had WAY more attention--Newt and Hermann were like legitimately in love in this movie I swear to god I was watching it and thinking “this is GENUINELY the most blatantly gay thing I’ve ever seen in a feature film and I know that straight ppl are very talented at writing gay romances completely by accident so it’s possible that they just accidentally did it this way but also it is REALLY goddamn obvious oh my gooood?” (and then I did a lot of frantic googling and found out that I was right and Charlie Day & Burn Gorman knew what the fuck they were doing and I felt so validated lol), and yet despite this, the movie had them speak for the last time almost at the halfway point of the film and then spend the entire second half apart and not talking at all and even at the post-credits scene where Jake and Newt talked for a bit Hermann wasn't there?? not even behind Jake to give Newt any searching glances?? Nothing??

dude...Newt being possessed by the precursors is a HUGELY interesting concept that actually makes sense and I wish it had had more attention. I’ve seen a lot of ppl say that pru butchered Newt’s character and I don’t 100% agree bc like...being possessed will change you lmao so while yes I’m obviously sad that he wasn’t himself, I feel like it made sense that he had a slight personality change, because it...wasn’t him anymore. we don’t really see the Newt we all fell in love with in the first movie. we THINK we’re seeing him, but halfway through we find out we’re wrong.

my critiques with that plotline are basically that I wish the reveal had happened a little bit later on, and I wish that it had been a little more obvious I guess?? like, we definitely get hints of it (when Hermann excitedly asks Newt to help him with a dangerous unorthodox project and Newt says “dude why are you doing something so risky when we’ve already got a good plan in motion? just wait for that to be done, it’s fine” and Hermann IS us, he IS the audience when he reacts, because this is a completely insane thing for Newt to say. Newt, who, in the first movie, was so obsessed with finding knowledge that he went behind the marshall’s back to literally risk his life doing something incredibly dangerous just to see what would happen? being given the opportunity to do the same kind of dangerous frivolous act and refusing? this is blatantly out of character, and Hermann is all of us when he’s shocked, “what, you mean you...won’t help me??” which means it wasn’t bad writing on their part, it was purposefully supposed to stand out as something that was wrong and something that we needed to pay attention to. that was a really good scene to hint that something was Not Right with Newt), and I wish there had been a bunch more like it. I think the reveal should have been saved for the end of the second act; I think that should have been the moment that act 2 of a story usually has, that dreadful event that happens that leaves the main characters feeling completely hopeless and unsure what to do.

I also wish that he had managed to break through more than That One Scene, I think it would’ve been more dramatic if he’d had a few moments where he managed to take control for a second to remind us that he’s still in there and still fighting, and I’m sad they didn’t do that. I saw a fan comic that touched on this idea and I think it’s brilliant, even the idea of him suddenly getting a nosebleed and acting distracted to show that that’s the Real Him trying to fight through would have been sooooooooo good.

I also feel like it didn’t make any sense for Nate to be the one to subdue him in the end, I dont even think those two interact at all so like, why was it him?? it would have been so much more dramatic and heartbreaking if Hermann had been the one to confront him so they could’ve had a little conversation on the roof where Newt could once again break through for a second before getting taken over and then Hermann could like idk have a taser hidden behind him that he uses to subdue him and THAT wouldve been a way sadder and more interesting way to do it. I also think Hermann shouldve been the one to speak to him in the post credits scene, or to have him in the background behind Jake just watching him sadly so we can get a couple shots of intense eye contact like UGH I just wish there had been more interaction between the two of them after the reveal happened!! When the movie was over and I realized they never spoke again I felt so upset!!! they're soulmates!! they're literally in love!! this has been CONFIRMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and segueing in from the soulmate thing, another thing that made me sad was that nobody came in pairs anymore :( aside from Newt and Hermann, they were the only ones gjdfk but in the first one every character had another character that they were paired up with, both for drifting reasons and just for plot reasons (except Chau and Tendo but I’m pretty sure there's actually significance to that too), and in the second one it just sort of felt like everyone was drifting with each other with no strong connection needed and that made it feel way less special. granted, the movie takes place ten years after the first one so in that time maybe technology advanced to the point where you didn't need a strong neural connection to drift anymore, but for the sake of the story it would have been way better if they'd kept the whole soulmates concept from the first one, it made it way stronger and more special

so yeah in conclusion I did think pru was enjoyable and I probably would watch it again some time but also it definitely pales in comparison to the first one and I’m desperately hoping we get one more so they can tie everything together and FIX THINGS KFGH it’s not too late!!!!! I wish I could write Pacific Rim 3 I genuinely think I would do a good job I love storytelling and I’m very passionate about these characters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kamikui]

Onmyoji Movie

HI so I watched the Onmyoji Movie based off of the game last night and . . . . that sure was something!

In all honesty despite the weird path they decided to take, I actually enjoyed the movie. The music and detail in the scenery was amazing, I LOVED the costuming for a lot of the background characters esp in the Demon Realm, and a lot of the easter eggs that were hidden were nice. 

BUT. but. As someone heavily invested in the lore of the game (especially concerning Ibaraki) how they decided to deal with the movie was like. really confusing. It genuinely felt as if NE gave the directors a cast of characters and let them do what they wanted from there w/o any prior knowledge of the game.

(spoilers down below)

Before I really pry into that though, I’ll kinda note some of the characters.

Seimei/Qingming was actually my favorite. I think this is sort of an unpopular opinion right now, but his characterization was so nice even if it sorta leans into the basic drama hero type personality. In the game Seimei is supposed to be you/the player, and not everyone is going to have the same interpretation of him-- and that’s what the movie felt like, a different interpretation. I will say I didn’t really like them making him related to their version of Orochi. I believe the snakes name was Xiangliu? I can’t remember, but I didn’t see the reason in that. 

If anything, keeping him a fox and having a version of Tamamo no Mae popping up to offer advice to help with the situation would’ve been nicer, and that’d keep more of Seimei’s backstory kept in tact-- because asides from him becoming an Onmyoji apprentice at a young age we literally do not know shit about him. And legit I wouldn’t necessarily mind bc it’s a movie, you’re not going to get everyone’s backstory within 2 hrs, but we can’t really get attached to him.

Yao Bikuni/Baini was. Hm. I like her as a character in the movie, but I don’t like where she’s placed as a character in the movie. She’s a Seer? in the game and tbh it should’ve stayed that way, like I honestly can’t see her willingly working for one clan. “But how would she--” In game she is also influenced by Seimei pretty heavily, as in the in game chapters she believed he would be able to kill her. Up until she got manipulated by Orochi, she stuck to his side. With the Stone plot in the movie, if it put him in danger she would be there in order to try and help him, OR, try and pull him to join Orochi if they went that route. And they KINDA tried to hint at it when Seimei “died” with Orochi using her image, but like. come on man. Let Yao be evil for a little bit.

That being said I didn’t like the Master & Shikigami bit with those two, or the implied romance they tried to pull with them. Canonically Seimei legit brushes her off and when shes like “ohhh you’ll kill me right” hes like “lol sure” and thats IT. Literally any form of romance that’s tried at Seimei he brushes it off. he’s not into it he’s an amnesiac.

The “Oh if you become my shikigami you won’t become evil” thing was :/ to me as well because again, canonically, even though Seimei is being taunted he can contain the Kitsune part pretty well even when he wasn’t aware he was kitsune. Like I think the part as a kid was a good bit to add since it’s when he’s first being exposed to Onmyoji type stuff, but like. idk idk I couldn’t vibe with that power dynamic while they were trying to hint romance.

Continuing on with Hiromasa/Yuan Boya and Kagura/Shenle, again considering this is a movie, I’m somewhat content with their characters.

I really liked how energetic this Kagura was, and given they weren’t able to do her actual backstory, I liked the one she was given. Her introduction in the movie was really great too-- and compared to Hiromasa I felt they gave her a little more attention? Which like fine, but not so good for Hiro.

They didn’t even. Discuss his archery skills at any point which was disappointing. The most plot relevance he (and honestly Kagura too) had was finding Seimei while trying to arrest him but that’s it. And yes they showed some of his skill while he was fighting Kamaitachi, but that’s the extent of it. AGAIN i’ll consider the fact this was a movie and they didn’t have enough time to fit EVERYTHING in, but since they gave Yao and Seimei so much attention you would think they’d be able to spare some for the other two protagonists in the game. 

Before I leave those two tho I’m still trying to figure out what the fuck happened in the end. Like did hiromasa get promoted in some form? was he given credit for what happened between the demon realm? Why did he separate from Kagura since they got close during the movie? I guess like bc work duties but still. I have no idea tho like i was sitting there not processing a single thing. Regardless I did like Hiro and Kags acting like siblings despite in this canon them not being related (at least it’s never clarified).

Ok so before I dive into the whole mess that is the Cimu/”Ibaraki” character, stuff on side characters.

While I didn’t like the outfits for Sakura(? Momo? Both of them?) or Chocho, I liked the roles that they held as sort of trainers for the rest of Seimeis shikigami. In fact I liked the whole courtyard ordeal in general. I have my own worldbuilding thing that has a similar theme so seeing it being used canonically was pretty nice. I do wish we could’ve seen more SSRs or even SRs though. Like, why couldn’t Aoandon be hanging out in the courtyard to give gossip to Hiro & Kagura? Yamakaze or Shishio hanging out in the forest, or like. bruh even Jikikaeru as the boss in the Showdown considering he runs that in game. 

I did like the fish man! I really did, but literally everything about him could’ve been Jikikaeru, I don’t think it’s that hard to make a frog man. 

Also as mentioned previously it would’ve been nice to see Tamamo make an appearance considering he makes random ones every now and then. The Mujou Brothers could’ve helped the shikigami when they were escaping Seimeis courtyard, Shiranui could’ve been an entertainer while they were traveling through the demon realm, HAKU??? couldve been one of Seimeis shiki?? literally anyone. They have all these misc characters in the background but barely any of them resemble in game characters.

GOD EVEN KOSODENOTE COULDVE BEEN THERE . . . . at the scene where Kagura was messing with jewelry and clothing . . . Koso couldve been the seller. Aobozu could’ve worked at the shrine . . . . I just. Man.

ANYWAYS . . . pulling from that and going into whatever the hell Cimu is. god.

So according to casting, Cimu is supposed to be Ibaraki. But the thing is. There’s only like. 3-4 Elements about Ibaraki that goes into him. Everything else is Shuten which i honestly find pretty funny?? Take away the homophobic jokes and combine the gay coded character into his love interest. Which I mean that’s better than making them brothers but at what cost.

anyways. Cimu previously being an onmyoji but turning evil -> shuten previously being a monk and turning evil. The design of the hand that Cimu uses as transportation -> SP Shutens design where he sits on two hands. Red hair -> shuten. The horns, eye color (minus scleras), arm getting chopped off, and his ambition to grow stronger are really the only parts of Ibaraki that’s in the character-- and even then you could say Shuten has a similar ambition of growing stronger. It’s just so scuffed. 

ALSO IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE. literally it doesn’t make sense when you look at the characters.

Why couldn’t they just stick with Kuro Seimei considering the fact that this Ibaraki works with Ootengus and Yuki Onna/The Snow Queen? They could’ve given Seimei a twin brother to work off of this. But like if they really wanted to keep Ibaraki and Shuten, they could’ve made it that Shuten was being manipulated by Orochi and Ibaraki was serving him, because there’s a LOT of shit you could do just with Shuten by himself. Legit no reason to combine the two since they’re BOTH heavily marketed characters. 

Legit like, Shuten being controlled, given Ibaraki’s loyalty to Shuten he would most likely follow him no matter what, and even like. Have a form of Momiji to kind of help out-- probably at a heavy expense of Shuten doing something for her, but still. like i LOVED the snow queen, I loved this interpretation of yuki so I wouldn’t want to get rid of her, but they shouldve went with Seimei 2 instead of “ibaraki”. It’s just so much and it doesn’t make sense. 

Now orochi himself and how that was handled was like. Okay I guess. If anyone was being talked to through their head at the time it should’ve been Yao Bikuni considering she allies with him in canon at one point. but like whatever. I did think the end was neat where Seimei forced him into becoming his shikigami, like I liked that whole process. Otherwise all antagonists were pretty underwhelming.

I also was not fond of the ending where like Seimei just turns away at the broken bridge. Like does this mean the Demon realm is completely cut off now? just fix the bridge. Also does Seimei just fuck off?? I know theres a scene where he’s standing on the roof but. i dont know. 

Regardless the movie was great, I had fun watching it. When ibaraki came in I accidentally paused the movie a couple of times while spamming screenshots. Even tho hes like kinda ugly but that’s ok. There WERE some angles where he was hot as hell but otherwise they did his actor so dirty. The horns were just. God I won’t delve into that bc this post is long as hell BUT. BUT. THE MOVIE WAS GOOD. just not if ure into the lore for the game LMAO.

Ok that’s it for now bye

[darisugawa]

Hi!! if the askbox is still open may i request "Can we kiss? I just really need to be kissed right now." for ramuda please? make it spicy? ;) thank youuu

figured i’d start with ramuda bc i want to space out some characters that i’ve already written for a;slkdjASL;DKFJ

also this came out more Suggestive than Spicy but yeAH

Nepenthe

     ↪ Ramuda/Reader

You don’t have a name to put to your relationship.

“For someone who came all the way out to see little ol’ me, you’ve been awful quiet this whole time,” Ramuda says, an unreadable smile on his face as you see him in the mirror. You break away from his reflected gaze as he continues fitting you into a off-shoulder shirt he’s made. You don’t answer him right away, but it doesn’t deter him in the slightest.

“It’s not even like you enjoy modeling and fitting for me all that much, right? You keep telling me to find someone else with your height!”

“… You’d strongarm me anyway, wouldn’t you? You’re too stubborn, Amemura-san,” you retort.

“Ah! You know me pretty well, don’t you?” He grins up to you.

“… Nobody knows you that well. You make that very clear.” You hear Ramuda laugh and you look down to him from the podium he has you up on–he’s focused on a seam at your side with a number of pins still in the cushion at his wrist. He meets your gaze, offering that sugary sweet smile and your mouth turns downward in response.

“But see, you know there’s more than what you’re seeing, and yet you never ask. It makes me wonder if you’re a coward or a genius!”

You look forward again. “… What’s smart about it? It's… not as if you’d tell me, even if I asked.”

“See! Right there. You know better, even when you want to figure it out so desperately. It’s cute, seeing you struggle so much,” he says, with the same bubbly, bouncy tone he always does–mismatching between his voice and his words. “You must like me a whole lot, huh?”

“No,” you say immediately, but it doesn’t feel as if it’s the right thing to say. Ramuda looks to you in the mirror again, donning a smile as if he knows something you don’t. Perhaps he does, to some extent–or maybe you’re just in denial. You don’t want to think about it and you keep your mouth shut as Ramuda hums to himself, finishing off the seam he’s been fixing. He moves to stand in front of you, putting his hands on his hips and looking rather proud of himself.

“There we go! I knew you’d look cute with something that shows off your shoulders!”

“… You say I look cute every time you fit me.”

“What? It’s the truth, you know.” You stare at him, suspicious, but his smile never falters.

“… You’ll have to understand when I say I never really know what the truth is from you.” Ramuda grins at you.

“Oh no, it’s wise of you! Though I do think you’re the cutest–honest!” he says, before narrowing his eyes as the rove down the front of you. “… Though admittedly, you’re much cuter with nothing on at all.” You flush bright red and Ramuda looks far too pleased with himself. You look to the side, indignant–even if you can’t hide it, you never want to give him any credit because he’ll take it and run with it.

“Wow, you look like one of my strawberry candies!” he says, feigning surprise as he approaches you, stepping up to the podium to stand right in front of you and he tugs at the bottom of your shirt that he’s pinned up at the sides. “But you like this sort of thing, right? When I get to tell you what to do, or how I like to see you?”

You bring up your hand to hide your face a little, though you know it’s futile as he leans closer. “… N-No one ever said anything about that–”

“Hm? Really? You seem pretty excited all of the sudden, though,” he says, reaching to take the pins back out of the shirt and placing them in the cushion at his wrist again. You know where this is going and you feel like you should stop… but you don’t.

“… You’re the one who got close…”

“You’re gonna put all the blame on me? How mean!” he says, but the smile is still on his face as he finishes undoing his work–his eyes hooded as the fabric falls loose against you. “After all… if I remember, you’re the one who came here all on your own didn’t you? I didn’t even coax you this time or anything.” You sputter when his hands come to wander under the shirt, pressing them against your stomach. They’re cold, as they always are, and you shiver despite the warmth at your cheeks. Ramuda looks up to you again, quirking eyebrow at you as he waits for an answer.

… In the end, it’s not as if he’s wrong.

“You wanna know what I think?” he asks as one hand roams upward, brushing over something sensitive and you gasp for it–slapping a hand over your mouth.

He smirks at you. You look to him, your eyes pleading.

“I think you like having my attention–but you’re scared to admit it, right? After all, you don’t want to trust me. You know better, right?” he asks, each question hitting every button he possibly could. He takes his other hand and brings it up to push yours away, cupping your cheek. If you were more naive, you might think he’s being gentle–sweet–but this is by all means a manner of asserting himself.

“But isn’t hard to run away from? I’ve gotten to touch you so many times now, y'know,” he says, grinning as he watches your cheeks grow brighter and brushing his thumb over the flush. “You like this. You like how I can make you feel… How I can make you forget and mess you all up, right?”

“Ame–”

He clicks his tongue at you, frowning. “Oh come on. Ra-mu-da,” he says, telling you by the syllable. “I know you’ll say it. You especially do with my fingers inside you.”

“–Ramuda, please…”

“Oh, there’s my favorite,” he says, smiling sweet as he brushes his thumb across your lip. There’s an anticipation building in your very core, knowing what’s to come from this. You hate that you rely on him like this–that you’re willing to let him be so close when he’s such a risk in and of himself. Maybe that was his plan all along and you should’ve stepped out before he could get this far, but…

Even if it’s your downfall, do you regret it?

“Can I kiss you? You look like you need it.” Ramuda comes close enough that your noses touch and you let out a shaky breath.

“… Yes. Please…”

“Good,” he says. “I’ll help you forget, just like you want…” He leans forward to press his mouth against yours and you melt, despite your better judgement.

You don’t care if it doesn’t last forever if maybe, just for now, he’s yours.

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so a rather odd trope i ran into several times in previous fandoms is a fic where character gets magically turned into a dog and the only way they can turn back human is if they learn to love/trust others or love/trust themselves. now on that note i propose a concept: fic where jeremy gets turned into a dog 

now hear me out. 

post-squip or no squip, either works so long as 1) the gang is all friends 2) things are generally going well in the grand scheme of things and 3) jeremy’s self-esteem and generally his outlook on himself is still absolute shit. 

theres a lot of ways to spin Jeremy’s Terrible Self Esteem. if it’s post-squip, he’s better and things are better but he still harbors so much guilt inside of him. he still resents himself for so many things he did. if it’s no-squip, theres that realistic subtle tragedy of being surrounded by people who love you but never actually believing it. jeremy’s brain can convince him of the wildest, saddest shit, like for example: people dont actually like him and/or want him around and theyre just being nice. all aboard anxiety nightmare train choo choo.

anyway, jeremy gets turned into a dog. how isnt really important (okay i guess it IS but i cant really figure it out yet. magic curse? a witch? a really, really weird side effect of having had a squip? WHO KNOWS. HE’S A DOG NOW) what is important is that jeremy wakes up on a sidewalk where he passed out and for some reason his line of sight is way lower, he cant see the difference between all three lights on the stoplight, and when he tries to say “what the fuck” what comes out instead is a garbled bark. 

jeremy is now a dog and thats not fucking normal at all.

he freaks out. he totally freaks out. he catches his very much not human very much canine reflection at a storefront and he runs, panicked and scared and freaking out. he tries to go home. he claws at the front door and barks up a storm and when he sees his dad through the window and jeremy is so relieved until his dad just shoos him away and he remembers that his dad is deathly allergic to dogs.

jeremy tries to say “i’m jeremy!” but all that comes out is a pitiful whine. his dad looks sad for a moment before drawing the curtains and leaving jeremy alone on the porch.

terrified and alone, jeremy finds himself at michael’s house because thats always where he ends up when he doesnt know what the hell to do next. michael (and michael’s family) is not allergic to dogs and michael basically “adopts” jeremy. as a dog. because no matter what jeremy does, he cant communicate to michael that hes his best friend and not just man’s best friend. michael just thinks jeremy is a really noisy and anxious dog. michael loves him. michael names him something dumb and pointedly not jeremy. maybe one of the pacman ghosts. jeremy rolls his eyes. 

so heres where a bunch of shenannigans can happen because jeremy is a dog but he very obviously doesnt want to be one so hes….pretty shitty at being a dog. theres no way in hell hes eating dog food, hes so fucking clumsy because four legs, and maybe three days into his dog-existence he just gets so frustrated and ends up gnawing something to shreds. michael is kind and he loves dogs but jeremy can see the disappointment in his eyes sometimes. 

all dogs are good dogs unless theyre jeremy.

THIS WHOLE TROPE IS BASICALLY ONE VERY PAINFUL JOURNEY THROUGH SELF WORTH. jeremy has a crisis by the 4th day about how maybe hes more useful to people as a dog than as a human. jeremy thinks about his place in the universe. jeremy watches the world go on without him but—

but it doesnt really. because the entire time jeremy is a dog, jeremy the human is missing. and everybody is affected

now i told jenny @listentotheshityousay this concept and she started to mercilessly kill me with these words

this is such a prime opportunity for jeremy to finally find out what others think about him when he’s not there. the one time where somebody will say sth about him and he can’t think they’re lying they’re just trying to make me feel better they probably don’t like me that much anyway 

he hears jake’s voice through the phone. yeah we’re worried. he’s smarter than he gives himself credit for, he’ll be okay. if anybody tries anything with him I’d fucking break them. christine visits and hugs michael, worry brimming in her eyes. oh I miss him, I want him to come back safely. jeremy’s dad stops by, looking tired and worried. I don’t know what to do, he’s all I have left.

and then there’s michael, who curls around jeremy on the bed, stroking  jeremy’s belly. I bet he’d love to meet you. he’s always had a soft spot for animals. michael laughs, a warm, wobbly sound that makes the tiny heart in jeremy’s canine-ribs ache. I always teased him about being a furry. his fingers tighten in jeremy’s soft fur. I’d never tease him about it again if that would bring him back right now, he says, his voice cracking on the last word. even on my worst days, seeing him smile made me feel like everything was going to be okay. I don’t know if I’m gonna be okay without him.

michael tells jeremy everything about the jeremy heere he’s grown up with for twelve years. about his kindness, his wicked smiles, his competitive nature revealing itself during their gaming sessions. a jeremy heere that jeremy himself has never seen and only sees now, through the lens of michael’s stories, and the realization of how much michael loves him, how loved jeremy is, it’s too big to fit into his chest.

AND

“I shouldve told him I loved him,” michael whispers, burying his face aginst jeremy’s side to hide his tears. “I wish I’d told him that he could always come back to me.” 

I’m here, jeremy wants to say. I came back to you. I always come back to you. he wants to scream and instead whimpers, nosing against michael’s shaking shoulder. I want to come back to you, I want you to tell me, I want to, I want to, please

when they start looking for jeremy, jeremy cant help but feel little bitter about it. even when hes missing, all hes doing is causing trouble and being an inconvenience. but then this painful scenario of feelings happens and jeremy starts to see how much people care but in the most painful way possible. it feels like being flayed open, watching people mourn him when hes right there. when that happens all he wants to do is go back. he needs to change back.he doesnt give a fuck about himself but for everybody else, he needs to come back but he doesnt know how to

michael breaks down and jeremy has to watch. it hurts jeremy so fucking much to see his best friend like this, to know that it’s his fault but he tries to help how he can in the form hes in. he doesnt leave michael alone when hes looking rough. he cuddles next to him (even though somehow that feels wrong, like hes taking advantage of the situation but for fuck’s sake hes a dog). jeremy is getting used to the feeling of shaking fingers threading through his fur. and it fucking kills him

i actually dont know how to fix this. eventually jeremy is gonna find a way to communicate to michael, maybe he knocks over a scrabble set. and then they work together to figure out how to change him back (and guess what it’s through the power of SELF LOVE) but uh yeah. 

so thats my oddly depressing concept where jeremy gets turned into a dog. thanks for reading

[bookandcranny]

and heres a secret little sequel post im not gonna put in the tag. i sincerely regret a couple of the times i gave free feedback for allistic ppl writing autistic characters because i was so so gentle with them in ways they didnt really earn.

one of these interactions turned out well overall and i feel okay about it even tho for the amount of work i put in i really feel i should have gotten some compensation or at least some credit but whatever, but the other time this happened i definitely sugarcoated my feedback in the end because every time i tried to rly tackle the harmful tropes they were portraying they got defensive and tried to like explain their way out of it and by the end i was just Tired. i do feel bad about that. i shouldve stood my ground and told them to figure out an acceptable fix or else scrap the project. i shouldve told them if they wanted me to spin their poorly conceived plot into something passable they should be prepared to get my venmo on the way out.

if im a little more blunt and a little more demanding in my interactions now, its because i dont intend to make that mistake again.

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Premier League 2018/19 Tactical Analysis: Wolves vs Newcastle

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Premier League 2018/19 Tactical Analysis: Wolves vs Newcastle

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Another stoppage-time goal for Wolves meant that they earned a late point against Newcastle on Monday evening. This was the fifth time this season that Nuno Espirito Santo’s side have scored after the 90 minute mark this season, a league high.

On previous occasions, some goals have mattered, others not so much. Most recently, the winner in the 4-3 game against Leicester obviously mattered. The second against Bournemouth in December was less crucial, although it did kill the game completely.

Of the other two, one also came against Newcastle earlier in the campaign as Matt Doherty got the winner at St James’ Park. Last but by no means least was Adama Traore’s goal against West Ham at the London Stadium which gave the Black Country side all three points.

As we touched on in the preview, Wolves have struggled against Premier League sides in the lower echelons of the table. With time running out on Monday, it looked set to be much of the same. In this tactical analysis, we are going to compare Wolves’ performance against Newcastle to that when they faced Huddersfield and Crystal Palace. On paper, Wolves should have picked up nine points from those three games. In reality, they only picked up one.

Team news

Credit: Wyscout.

There were no surprises from either Nuno or Rafa Benitez when it came to personnel. Positionally, the only real shock from the Newcastle manager was the Isaac Hayden was deployed slightly further forward than usual which meant that at times, Sean Longstaff acted as a single pivot in front of the back three.

Despite the similarity in formation, the average positions of the home and away side couldn’t be starker as you can see below.

Credit: both images are from Wyscout.

Jonny Castro Otto (Wolves’ #19) and Doherty (#2) were much further forward than Matt Ritchie (#11) and DeAndre Yedlin (#22) on the away side.

Whereas as Ruben Neves & Joao Moutinho (#8 & #28) sat in the centre circle, Longstaff (#36) did that job on his own for the Toon Army as Hayden (#14) and Ayoze Perez (#17) pushed further forward to almost create a front three with Salomon Rondon (#9).

Furthermore, Wolves completed almost 200 more passes than Newcastle. However, it was the away side who took the lead.

Willy Boly fixes his error… eventually

For all of the plaudits that Boly got for scoring the late equaliser, there is no question that he was at fault for Hayden’s goal. Before I go into detail with it all, you need to have a look at the below image taken just before Fabian Schar slides the ball through.

Boly’s flat-footedness gifts Hayden half a yard.

Moutinho can’t get to the ball quickly enough. All the same, it shouldn’t be a situation that raises too many issues as Boly is relatively close to the eventual goalscorer. Even though Boly is practically within touching distance, his body shape lets him down as instead of being side on and ready to go, he’s facing the ball which means he needs to turn to chase Hayden.

As the late, great Brian Clough once said: “It only takes a second to score a goal.” That’s precisely what happened. Coady’s path follows the white line as he presumes Boly has got Hayden’s run covered, but he doesn’t. If he had followed the red one, he would’ve stopped Hayden dead in his tracks. Fine margins, indeed.

Considering all of the above – Boly’s body shape, Coady thinking he has it covered etc – none of that should’ve really mattered. Rui Patricio, in the Wolves goal, has to be doing better. He thinks that Hayden’s going to shoot across him, but the Newcastle man goes for the near post and Rui effectively ends up pushing it into his own net.

Boly’s redemption

Deep in stoppage time, Boly rose highest to head home Adama Traore’s cross. Martin Dubravka completely misjudged the flight of the ball as Boly headed it into the empty net. In some quarters, there were questions of a foul on the Newcastle keeper, but it was just a case of Dubravka getting it wrong, Boly getting it right and the spoils being shared. Nuno’s side should’ve put the game to bed long before that moment, before Hayden even put Newcastle into the lead.

Wolves’ third biggest ‘win’ of the season

Wolves’ domination in the game is emphasised by the xG scoreline: Wolves 2.41-0.44 Newcastle. Or, an xGD (expected goal difference) of 1.87 in Wolves’ favour. The only two xG results which eclipse that are when Wolves hosted Sean Dyche’s Burnley and Manuel Pellegrini’s West Ham respectively.

From the Burnley match, Wolves ended with an xGD of 3.18 (the final score was only 1-0 in Wolves’ favour). Against the Hammers, the xGD was only marginally better than that of the Newcastle game at 1.89. The timing chart from the Newcastle game can be seen below.

Credit: understat.com

As is evidenced above, Wolves were always ahead of Newcastle on the xG front, apart from the first 16 minutes or so. To illustrate this even better, let’s take a look at the respective shot maps.

Credit: understat.com

Wolves had 22 shots compared to Newcastle’s nine, and double the number on target, but a combination of wastefulness and Dubravka playing well up until Boly’s equaliser kept Wolves at bay. How does this compare to the aforementioned games when Wolves faced Crystal Palace and Huddersfield at Molineux?

Steps in the right direction

When Crystal Palace visited the Black Country on 2 January, they came away with a 2-0 win courtesy of two goals in the last 10 minutes of the game. It was thoroughly deserved as the xG scoreline from that day was 0.66-1.88. No complaints can be had from that game.

When David Wagner brought his Huddersfield side to the Midlands, few people gave the Terriers a chance of getting a positive result. Just like Crystal Palace, they won 2-0. The xG scoreline? 0.70-0.63. While the final score might be unfair when you take xG into account, there’s one common denominator from the Palace and Huddersfield game that can’t be ignored. Wolves’ xG from both of those games is under 0.75.

So, with the 3-5-2 formation in place for the first time against a supposedly lesser team, Wolves created more than three times the number of chances. If that’s not progression, I’m not sure what is.

Conclusion

Before the game, Benitez’ side would’ve been much happier with the final score. After the game, Nuno would’ve no doubt been the cheerier of the two coaches. Wolves remain seventh, while Newcastle leapfrog Cardiff to 16th.

Until the next time.

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Tragic, fascinating, bright- living for’ wild progeny’ Zelda Fitzgerald revisited

Two films and a TV line out soon portray the life of the jazz-age novelist and spouse of F Scott Fitzgerald

She is thought of as the original wild child, a pearl-twirling defendant girl who died at the age of 47 after a ardor broke out in the North Carolina sanatorium where she was a patient. Now Zelda Fitzgerald, the southern belle grew jazz-age heroine, dubbed the first American flapper by her husband and partner-in-drink Scott, is to have her own Hollywood make-over two films are in the pipeline and a television series will air on Amazon Prime early next year.

All three activities have starry appoints fixed: Jennifer Lawrence will take the lead in Zelda , a biopic directed against Ron Howard and based on Nancy Milfords best-selling biography; Scarlett Johansson will bob her fuzz for The Beautiful and The Damned ; and Christina Ricci will play young persons and impetuous Zelda in the Amazon series Z: The Beginning of Everything. The designation of the TV serial comes from Scotts awestruck provide comments on meet Zelda: I love her, and thats the beginning and end of everything.

So what is it about Zelda that fascinates nearly 70 times after her sad discontinue? In persona it is that the turmoils the couple lived through find an echo in our own hectic times.

Interest in the Fitzgeralds will no doubt been on the projected increase is not simply since Baz Luhrmanns film of The Great Gatsby in 2013 but too from the many parallels between their lives and production and the period were living through right now, does Sarah Churchwell, author of the critically acclaimed Careless Parties: Slaying, Mayhem and The Invention of the Great Gatsby .

Its a narrative of thunder and bust and it resonates as “were about” grappling with our own boom and failure, our own concern about the cost of our extravagances and our own social lacks. The lives and lucks of Scott and Zelda peculiarly mimicked their periods: in the 1920 s they were roaring for all they were value, but with the clang in 1929, everything descended apart.

It helps, too, that Zelda was so vibrant a digit. It begins with her beauty, does Churchwell. But likewise with the floors told in the 1920 s about the high jinks and recreation she and Scott seemed to have. Beings really liked her: she was surprising, intelligent, astute, amusing and adoration a good defendant. She too liked to be the centre of attention, and so had her detractors very. These occasions combined to draw her a legend.

Scott repeatedly returned to their relationship in his myth, most notably in his second novel, The Beautiful and Damned , which details the exhilarating early days of their union; and his mournful fourth, Tender Is The Night , in which the gilded daydream has faded into a more tawdry reality. Zeldas simply novel, Save Me The Waltz , presented the relationship from her side.

They were arguably Americas first fame pairing: a carefree golden couple who wrote their course into the spotlight, composing their own myth of gin-soaked days and fun-filled nights, simply to linger too long once the light-headed had started to dim. Their recklessness sees the fib exciting and dramatic, announces Churchwell. But they paid a the highest price.

After a few giddy times, all the youthful promise deteriorated away, leaving Scott a perplexed and drunk jobbing hack in Hollywood and delivering Zelda to breakdown at the age of 30, a diagnosis of schizophrenia , now widely thought to be a bipolar illness, and a life in and out of sanatoriums.

Her story is both fascinating and unfortunates, announces Therese Anne Fowler, on whose novel Z the Amazon series is based. Here we have a woman whose flairs and vitality and ability “shouldve been” became her a brilliant success, who was determined to be an accomplished creator, columnist and ballet dancer in an age where married girls were supposed to be wives and fathers, period. Her devotion to Scott was, in many ways, her undoing[ although] he was just as imprisoned as she was. Had they adored each other less, they might both have come to better ends.

The idea of Zelda as a bright girl caught by her period has gained traction in recent years, with a number of pieces re-evaluating her through the prism of feminism although it is not always the most wonderful of fits. As early as 1974, the couples daughter Scottie refused such affirms, writing that to make efforts to vistum her baby as a classic put-down spouse, whose efforts to express her quality were frustrated by a normally male chauvinist husband were no longer accurate.

Writing in the New Yorker in 2013, Molly Fischer agreed , mention: Saving Zelda Fitzgerald is no easy-going proposition …[ she] does not want to be anyones baby, and theres something mortifying about the literary readiness to domesticate her, to alter an irritating girl into an appealing heroine.

The new films may well further Hollywoodise Zelda, sanding away her bumpy borders and reinventing her as a relatable heroine for our modern times. The molding of Lawrence so often was regarded as Americas Sweetheart in the Howard biopic is no accident.

A report about the upcoming Johansson film in the Hollywood Reporter suggested it would draw on previously unreleased cloth to indicate that her husband stole his wifes ideas as his own.

Mark Gill, chairwoman of Millennium Films, the production fellowship behind The Beautiful and The Damned , agrees : She was massively ahead of her time and she took a defeat for it. He plagiarized her ideas and gave them in his notebooks. The wedding was a codependency from blaze with a jazz-age soundtrack. The movie has, nonetheless, secured the co-operation of the Fitzgerald estate.

Fowler agrees that there is a thriving propensity to utilize our own concerns to Zelda. We do anoint her as a kind of proto-feminist heroine, even though she didnt visualize herself as a feminist and didnt fully attain at anything, she supposes. But her original honour is based on conventional paternalistic standards of what the status of women, baby and bride ought to be and do. Her desires and her insistence on prosecuting them were considered inappropriate and undesirable; after her psychopathic crack she was literally told that this insistence had created her divide psyche and that the path to a antidote lay in giving up all passions that didnt conform to the paternalistic ideal.

Scarlett Johansson, Jennifer Lawrence and Christina Ricci are all set to play Zelda Fitzgerald in the forthcoming yields The Beautiful and the Damned, Zelda and Z: The Beginning of Everything. Composite: Getty Images

The backlash against this image is understandable considering the fact that popular opinion of Zelda was initially driven by Ernest Hemingways notoriously corrosive descriptions in A Moveable Feast , produced posthumously in 1964, in which he dismissed her as insane and accused Scotts flourishing dependence on beverage on his wife.

Our perception has very much changed, mentions Churchwell. We have come to sympathise with her frustration, to recognise her endows and has become still more fair-minded about her alternatives. That mentioned, she cautions against attempts to create a Team Scott/ Team Zelda divide, as is so often the subject in famed literary partnerships. Its important to say that they always desired each other and wouldnt have appreciated beings taking slopes Fitzgerald wrote a few years before he was dead that it was a moral obligation that their friends understood they were a pair, a component and would abide that behavior, even if her illness necessitate they couldnt live together.

Churchwell is also scathing about attempts to suggest Zelda had a larger role in her husbands make than previously presumed. There are people who want to credit Zelda with Scotts work, which is just silly and doesnt do females any prefers, she mentions. Its not a zero-sum competition: we can recognise both of them for who they were.

Zelda had many aptitudes, but where writing was pertained she was probably extremely ill when she started to hone her gifts, and while it is true that Scott didnt especially want her to write partly out of territoriality but partly because medical doctors told him it was bad for her its also true-life that her work isnt in the same class as his. Her individual sentences are often lovely, and she can create a humor and has clever comes of phrase but her makes tend to be sketches rather than full stories. If they had acquired different selections, perhaps she could have been an important scribe, but current realities is that she wasnt.

Perhaps, then, the real key to Zeldas resumed pull on our imagination lies not in her design but in her modernity. I dont want to live I want to cherish firstly and live incidentally, she extol and it is that verve and desire for all of lifes know-hows, both good and bad, that unfolds down over the decades, granting each generation to see something new.

Z: The Beginning of Everything will air on Amazon Prime early next year

THEY SAID

I have rarely known the status of women who uttered herself so delightfully and freshly: she had no ready-made words on the one side and no striving for outcome on the other. Critic Edmund Wilson

I fell in love with her fearlessnes, her honesty and her flame self-respect, and its these happenings I would believe in even if the whole world pandered in wild surmises that she wasnt all that she should be.

F Scott Fitzgerald

I did not have a single inclination of insignificance, or shyness, or disbelief, and no moral principles.

All I miss is to be very young always and very irresponsible, and to feel that my life is my own to live and be happy and croak in my own direction to delight myself.

Other families ideas of us are dependent predominantly on what theyve hoped for.

Read more: www.theguardian.com

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