#i started this today and couldnt wait til it was finished!!

[westywallowing]

wondering why he jumped out of the way,,

(a prelude for a new au I'm making :))

[ally-writes-many-things]

Secret Voight S2 Part 9 Finale

Summary: The team finally knows that Y/N is Voight's daughter. One secret is out but theres still one secret that's not out. Y/N and Jay's relationship. Will that stay a secret or not? I mean Voight always finds out about things, right?

Words: 3232

Requested: yes

Prompts: no

Warnings or A/N: This was a pain in the ass to write with writer's block and getting hit with the bad case of a Sinus infection. I apologize as this isnt the best. I hope you guys enjoyed Secret Voight. It had became longer than I orignally wanted but I had fun writing it.

  By the time, Jay got home you had already took a shower and put on one of his shirt that was bigger on you. You were scrolling through your phone on the couch when you heard the knob twisting open, you turned your head and wa Jay walking in. "Hey baby,"

    You got off the couch and walked over to him and kissed him. "Hi,"

    He moved his arms around your waist and pulled you in for another kiss. When you pulled apart, he smiled at you. You smiled back.

    "Where were you?"

    "Visiting a friend,"

    You nodded and lead him over to the couch. "You mind telling me who this friend is?"

    He nodded. "Yeah. I was visiting Ben's grave,"

    You weren't sure what to say so you didnt say anything. It was a few minutes of not talking until Jay broke the silence. "I think its time,"

   "Time? Time for what?"

  "Time to tell Voight,"

  You looked at him. "Are you sure?"

   He was silent again for a few seconds. "When I was at Ben's grave, it got me thinking that life is too short and anything and anyone can take your life and I dont want to spend anymore time hiding that I love you,"

    Your mouth dropped, this was the first time you heard Jay say this. You felt like you could cry, you felt you heart beating. You felt butterflies fluttering all throughout your stomach. You felt all the good emotions all at once. "I love you too. Let's tell him tomorrow,"

     He nodded and smiled. You moved closer to Jay and straddled him.

    ---

    You and Jay acted like normal when you arrive at the precinct, you two had decided to tell him at the end of the day when everyone else had left. You would occasionally give him a smile and he would do the same to you. You don't know about Jay was feeling but since he was freaking out about Voight finding out a week ago, you knew he was freaking out inside and so were you.

     You had just looked up from your computer and you saw Jay walking into the break room, so you got up from your desk and walked in after him. You walked over to the coffee pot and poured you some coffee. "Are you sure you want to do this today?"

     Jay doesn't hesitate to answer you. "Yes, I'm ready not to keep this a secret anymore,"

      You heard footsteps walk into Intelligence and then Ruzek's walked in. "We got a case,"

    You nodded and put your mug in the sink and walked out to the lobby as Voight was taping a picture to the board. He turned around and looked at all of you then pointed at the board. "This is Raven Jenkins, 18. Jake Harding. 19 They were found murdered in an alleyway,"

    You noticed a file on your desk, you grabbed it and started reading it. "They also had a strain of a substance that is unknown in their system?"

    Voight nodded. "Yes, when the did tests they found a substance in their  stomach that they dont know what it is. The same substance in both stomachs. They also found a bag with a rat on it. They think it is a bad batch of coke but they arent for sure whats all in it, they will call me when they find something out. Reach out to your C.Is,"

     You knew exactly who to talk to

     --

    "Come on, James. I know you know something considering this happened on your block,"

    You have had this C.I since you first moved back to Chicago and you worked for the other precinct. James looked like he didn't know what you were talking about. You got him on a minor drug case. "Just cause it happened on my block doesnt mean I know what happened,"

     You rolled your eyes. "You dont know what happened. Bullshit, what was it that you told me the first time I arrested you? Oh yeah, 'this is my block and I know everything that goes down on it,' or are you scared of this new player?"

     He just looked at you and shrugged.

     You werent having this. "You want to play this way, fine,"

     You walked over to his car and looked in the window and saw a bag of white powder on his floorboard. You reached for his door handle and opened the car. You picked up the bag, opened and smelled it. "Jay,"

     Jay walked over to you and he smelled it as well. "Coke,"

     "Either, you can be straight with me or I can arrest you for this. You choice,"

     James looked at the bag in your hand then back to you. "Alright fine, I truly dont know much, honestly. There keeping this secret. The name Darin Wentz has been thrown around,"

    "Is he the supplier or is he the one selling it?"

    "I dont know. Ive just heard the name, its been hush hush. But I think the seller,"

    You reached in your pocket and hand him some money and walked up to him. "Next time I catch you with drugs, I will lock your ass up and make sure they throw away the key got it,"

     Jay looked at him. He held up the bag. "We'll be taking this,"

    ---

    You walked up to the board and taped a picture up "This is Darin Wentz,"

    Jay walked up to the board and pointed at him. "He was multiple charges including drug possession, selling it, armed robbery, assault, battery, you think it, hes done it,"

    Kim walked up to the board and tapped another picture and it looked like it was from a pod camera. "Okay so me and Ruzek went through pod footage and we saw the murder. It was a drug deal gone bad. But towards the end of the video, theres this,"

     She tapped another picture on the board and it show what looked like was a female arm with a tattoo on the wrist and it was your name. Every one turned and looked at you. "I don't know why you guys are looking at me for. I don't know anyone with a tattoo like that,"

    But in reality, that tattoo does look familiar. "My name is common,"

    Voight walked up to the front of the room. "Do we have an address for this Darin Wentz guy?"

    You walked back over to your desk and picked up the file and read it. "Yes, 2354 west point,"

    Voight nodded. "Alright suit up! We leaving as soon as we get the warrant,"

    ---

    The team was all a little ways down the street, almost ready to hit the house. "Halstead and Dawson I want you to hit the door. Burgess, Ruzek, Atwater I want you in the back. Y/N, you  go in after to clear the rest of the house. Got it?"

   "Yes sir,"

   The guys quietly walked up to the door, Jay grabbed the doorknob but it was locked and Jay kicked the door down and as soon as they went in, you went in after them. Check room after room with Voight. You heard a few shots but not many. "Boss, living room,"

   You had just finished checking the last of the room when Dawson said that, you put your gun back in its holster and walked towards the living room. The team was surrounding something but you couldnt see who or what it was. Voight saw you trying to push through but stopped you. "Y/N. Don't. Wait,"

    You gave your dad a confused look but pushed past him and the rest of the team and once you saw who was sitting on the couch, it was as it someone punch all the air out of your body. You felt yourself stumble but sturdy hands steady you.

     The person on the couch was your dead mother alive. "Y/N,"

    You felt tears wailing up as well as you couldnt breathe, you pushed whosoever hands were holding you steady and ran out the door. You walked over to Jay's truck and slid down on the ground. You closed your eyes tightly, trying to not let the tears fall.

      How is she alive? Did your grandma live to you? All these years, she was alive and she didn't try to contact you but yet has your name tatted on her wrist?

    You jumped at the feeling of someone's hand on your shoulder, you opened your eyes up and saw that it was Jay. At this point, you didn't care what Voight saw or heard or thought. You just wanted to be in his arms. You threw yourself at Jay and Jay didnt hesitate to wrapped his arms around you. "What happened in there?"

    You didn't move an inch while replying to him. "Shes my mother,"

    ----

    "Where's my daughter?"

    The team had brought your mother im for questioning and you were sitting on the other side of the glass watching Jay and Voight do it as you didnt want her to see you.

    Jay knowing what I wanted ingored the question "What do you know about these deaths?"

    She ingored that question. "Where is my daughter?"

    Your dad who was silent at the table was getting more pissed. Jay ingored that. "What are they mixing in these drugs?"

    She ingored it. "I want to see my daughter,"

    It was your dad who answered. "Yeah that's not gonna happen,"

    "I have a right as shes my daughter,"

   Voight abruptly slammed his hand on the table. "She's not your daughter. She's mine,"

     "The hell she isn't,"

     "Was she your daughter when you overdosed? Was she your daughter when you disappeared? Was she your daughter all this time when you didnt care to reach out to her?"

      "Im not talking til I see her,"

     "Then you can sit here for the next 48 hours,"

      With that Voight and Jay walked out of the room, you walked out into the hallway and met them and then together you walked into the lobby. Voight looked at everyone in the room. "Does anyone have any leads to why Wentz could be?"

      Wentz wasn't as the house.

     "No, we looked through his social media accounts and all throughout his house and nothing. How did it go with you know,"

    "She's not talking,"

    Before I could say anything, Trudy walked in looking grim. "What's wrong?"

    "They just found three more overdoses and they had bags with rats on them,"

     You went to the scene and the place was absolutely wrecked. Trash everywhere, dirty dishes, broken plates, glass. It was disgusting. The victims were one sixteen year old, and two eighteen years olds.

       You shook your head at the bodies that were slummped over. "Screw it, I'll met you guys back at the precinct,"

     Jay called after you. "What are you doing?"

     "Talking to her,"

     -

    Voight and Jay decided to come with you as the rest of the team finished up with the crime scene.

    Your hand was on the doorknob and you took a deep breath. Right as soon as you were about to open the door, Jay comes up to you. "Are you sure you want to do this?"

    "Yeah, as much as I dont want to her to see me, shes the only connection we got to Wentz,"

    You opened the doorknob and walked into the room, Jay following. She sat up when she saw you. "Like father like daughter, huh?"

    You held up on your hand to make her stop talking, you walked to the table and sat down. "Don't do that,"

     "Do what?"

    "Talk to me as if you didnt disappear,"

     "I-"

     You held up your hand to stop her from talking. "Yeah, I don't care about your lame excuses right now. All I care about is the case,"

    Your mom opened her mouth but shut it for a few seconds then opened it. "Fine, what do you want to know?"

    "Where's Wentz?"

    "I dont know, I haven't seen him in a few days,"

    You rolled your eyes. "Come on Carrie, I know youre lying. You were saying at his place,"

    She didn't answer about that. "You look just like me when I was your age,"

    You scoffed. "At least I didnt become a drug addict and abandoned her child,"

    You grabbed the file that was on the table and placed the pictures on the table. "Raven Jenkins, 18. Jake Harding, 19. Your friend killed them and we just found more kids that overdosed on this drug,"

     She looked at the pictures for a few second then shoved them away. "I don't want to talk about them. I want to talk about us,"

     "Yeah, I don't. There's more important things to discuss,"

     "Y/N please-"

    Before you could say anything, Jay beat you to it. "She said she didn't want to talk about it. All we give a damn about is getting Darin Wentz off the streets and for kids not to be overdosing on a bad batch of dope,"

    Your mom sighed. "I truly dont know where he is. I had just met him a month ago. I only knew where the house you pick me up was,"

    You nodded. "How do you contact him or who does he contact you?"

    "My phone,"

    Before you could say anything, you heard the door open and you saw Voight come in. "Can you set up a meet?"

    She looked at Voight confused. "What do you mean?"

    "Call him text him whatever ask him to met and we'll talk to him,"

    You and the team were at the club that Wentz regularly goes too. You, Jay and your mom were standing at the bar waiting for him to show up. "Hes here,"

    Atwater came over the earpiece. "Hes walking from the left side,"

   You looked over and saw him walking up. "I see him,"

    "Darin, hi!"

    Darin looked at your mother and then back to you. "So youre the person I spoke to ont the phone?"

   "Yep, I'm Sera and this is Jake,"

    ---

    You were walking out of precinct by yourself after you gotten back from the club, you and Jay made plans with him to meet tomorrow. You didnt get a chance to tell Voight about you two as today was a busy day. You were always to your car when your mom steps out. You rolled your eyes. "What?"

    "Look, I know you dont want to hear this but-"

   You were going to answer but Jay walked up to you and beat you to it. "No, she told you already that she doesnt want to hear it. Youre the one who fucked up, not her. She only needs you for-"

   You placed a hand on Jay's shoulder. "Its okay, if her telling me why she left gets her to leave me alone, then good,"

   You turned from Jay and looked at your mom. "Lets hear it,"

    Jay nodded as he walked away. "Alright, call me if you need anything,"

    Your mom looked at Jay, you and then sighs. "You guys are clearly in love,"

    You rolled your eyes. "Not gonna talk to you about that,"

    "Alright, your grandmother paid me to leave,"

    You rolled your eyes. "Oh really now?"

    "Your grandmother paid me a lot of money to abandoned you so she get custody,"

    You scoffed. "Regardless of what grandma did, you still CHOSE to abandoned me. You chose not to reach out after I turned eighteen,"

    "I thought you wouldnt want to see me,"

    "You never gave me the chance to figure that out, did you?"

     "Im sorry, I didn't think i had a choice in the matter. She was threatening me to get me locked up if i stayed around,"

    "Once again, couldve came and saw me when I turned eighteen. Look, thanks for tell me what happened but it still didnt change anything,"

     -----

     "Everything is clear, no sign of him,"

    You and Jay were standing in the middle of a warehouse waiting from Wentz. He's ten minutes late. You held up your speaker that was in your sleeve to your lips. "I'm about to say screw it. Hes not coming,"

      Things were quiet for a second before Ruzek came over. "Black suv coming from the right,"

    Voight came over it this time. "Remember, no one makes a move till we get a view on the drugs,"

    You didn't say anything as the suv was pulling up. Jay had walked up beside you. You getting the vibe that he wants to protect you but also knows that you can handle yourself.

     The door opened up and it revealed Wentz and two others. Wentz walked up to us empty handed but one of the other two had a briefcase. "You got the money?"

     Jay grabbed the dufflebag and showed them the cash. "You got the product?"

    Wentz snapped at the guy and pointed at the table. The guy walked over to the table, sat the suitcase on it and opened the briefcase. It had revealed the drug with a rat on the bag. You picked it up and held it up in the direction you knew Burgess was at taking photos. You placed the bag down on the table."Got the rat,"

     Voight came over the walkie. "Take them,"

    "CHICAGO PD!"

    Wentz and his associates looked back and then looked back at you guys and you had your guns pulled out. "You're under arrested,"

   ----

   You had decided not to tell Voight yet but you had also decided that you didn't care if he found out or not. You and Jay werent gonna go out of your way to hid it anymore. You and Jay were laying on the couch at Jay's laughing about some stupid thing Jay said after work when you heard someone knock on your door. Jay pushed you off him as you were laying on top of him. "Dick,"

     Jay chuckled. "I have one,"

     Jay's smiled didnt fade when he saw Voight, he moved to the side so he could be let in. Your dad eyed you laying on the floor but it didnt seem to surprise you. "Hey dad,"

     Voight looked at you and then looked at Jay. Jay opened his mouth but you beat him to it. "Yep, we're dating and I really don't care what you say. I'm older enough to make my own decision,"

     Voight chuckled. "You guys really think I didn't know? Come on now, Intelligence is my unit. I know everything that happens. Plus, I saw you guy kiss the other day,"

      You and Jay both said oh at the same time. "So what are you gonna do about it?"

     Voight shrugged. "Youve been handling dating and working together for a while now so nothing. Just tomorrow go and fill out the proper HR forms,"

     You both looked at Voight shocked. "Like you said Y/N you are older enough to make your own decisions and I know Jay is smart enough not to do anything stupid. Plus, I just want you to be happy,"

     Voight looked at you two more last time before leaving.

     "That was...."

     "Unexpected," You finished.

     Jay looked over at you. "But that means i can kiss you whenever i want without worrying if Voights gonna catch us,"

    Jay walked over to you and attacks your face with kisses.

[pbandjesse]

Jess is here!! I am really glad to have a friend. Today was a good day. 

It started out very very tired. And also I got on tumblr first thing and all the super natural stuff?? And drama?? And 2012 memories? Crazy. And then I had no way to really explain why the Twist and Shout post made me have this full body shutter. That memory was torn from inside my heart?? And then I had no one to like express what was happening to so that was hard. I didnt have time to explain to James before work and explaining to Jess through text was going to be way to much. So I would just wait til she got there later in the day. 

I left for work and today was an excellent, but quiet day. I brought felting stuff and some sewing things and honestly I just listened to a podcast with one head phone in. We only had 4 kids and and 3 adults (later 5 adults) so honestly it was just super quiet. 

I spent time working on frogs. But then I wanted something else so I brought out the felting stuff to make a christmas tree for Jess. Something I had started last year but had trouble with so I had stopped. But I finished it today! And the kids were fascinated. I ended up teaching two of them how to do it by we accidently broke some of my needles. But that was okay. It was still a very fun time. 

The day went well though. I worked on things. I talked to the kids. I had a nice day. 

The last hour of the day I specifically worked with one kid who apparently had been lying to us about how much work he did or did not have. It was frustrating because he was just. Not having it. But we did complete three assignments but. Jeez. It was hard. He's failing so many classes and I feel bad but I just wanted to be like. Just do the work?? Putting something is better then putting nothing and I know how smart you are. He probably needs an IEP. 

I left pretty much right at 3 to try to get into a zoom meeting but then I couldnt get in and was very frustrated so I headed home and stopped for cheese fries. 

Which is when Lana called me and filled me in on everything I missed in the meeting. Which wasnt much. Except that I now have kids at my originally assigned site!  So I will be heading there on monday. And I may have to wear a polo which I hate but whatever. 

I got home and had my fries and played animal crossing while I waited for Jess to get here. 

And then she was here!! In her new car!! Which is so cute. I went down to help her bring things inside but I sat in her car for a few minutes. Its very cute. 

We have been hanging out all night. We ordered dinner. We worked on store stuff. We talked. We played animal crossing. Its just been so nice. I missed her. Just talking through text is hard. But this is great. 

Tomorrow we might go to the park with James in the morning. And then the plan is to thrift all afternoon. I hope its just a lovely day. 

I hope you all sleep well and keep taking care of yourselves. Be safe!! Goodnight!

[snexy-the-snail]

Dangerous Games

Full disclosure, I haven’t seen any episodes so I am just gestimating their personalities

Also holy shit this took waaaaay longer than expected- at least my job is fun~))

Aziraphale was extremely careful in planning things out, one wrong move and Gabriel would find out he had been lying to him the whole time which quite frankly would be awful. He rather liked his wings, and the fear of damning the demon to suffer at the hands of heaven was terrifying.

“So you want to meet here at five at night?” Crowely asks him, not seeming to bothered by the schedule. Despite being fussy most of the time the demon seemed rather complacent with him all things considered.

“Yes that would be ideal, Gabriel is going to come around six, that gives us enough time to plan and for you to get away before he arrives.” He says with a small smile. They had a lot to do to keep the end of times from happening and most of it was sneaking around. He shifts slightly watching Crowely carefully, taking in all of the demon. He really was sweet despite what he was.

It was disturbingly easy to hide things from an archangel, like for example meeting with a fallen angel several times a week. He shudders and smiles slightly finding it oddly amusing when Crowely sighs dramatically as if he was suffering from everything.

“It would be ideal, oh come on angel just say what you want.” Crowely mocks him with a slight grin. Aziraphale would never grow tired of the demon’s sass. He smiles slightly and shakes his head fondly at his demon before sticking his hands in his pockets.

“You’re so dramatic dear.” He says watching Crowely get flustered by the nickname. Sense creation it had been an odd goal to make some of the most embarrassing nicknames they could for each other, sadly Crowely was in the lead.

“I’ll see you then, at 6 then my sweet slice of heaven.” Crowely practically purrs back at him. Aziraphale was too flustered by the nick name to properly process that the demon had gotten the wrong time, didn’t even realize it when they walked off to report back to their respective masters.

When five rolled around and there wasn’t any sign of Crowely he had to admit he felt a bit betrayed and disappointed. He didn’t want to think lowly of his friend but.. he was a demon.

“No no, he probably just got stuck in traffic, England is known for that.” He says to himself pacing by the playground nervously. Surely the demon hadn’t forgotten about their meeting, they just spoke today! Maybe he planned for tomorrow? About five minutes til six he felt hands on his shoulders. He whipped around ready to punch the lights out of his attack but relaxed when he saw the familiar grinning face.

“You look a bit disappointed angel, who do I have to run over?”

He would’ve been relieved if not for his superior arriving in four minutes. There was definitely no time for Crowely to run, his presence could be sensed from up until a mile, and he loved the demon but Crowely still wasn’t the fastest thing to exist.

“Oh dear- Crowley it appears we’ve had a bit of a mix up.” He says shakily. The sun was setting casting the area in a beautiful orange. The demons hands still on his coat felt heavy like the weight of the world. He was going to get his friend killed if he didnt do something, and fast.

He could practically hear Crowely’s worried frown. If he had messed up the demon knew it must’ve been bad, like the time they tracked and taught the wrong kid for many years, bad.

“What’s the mix-” Crowley didn’t have time to finish before his angel spun around. He takes a step back with a small frown. Oh..oh shit they had messed up the meeting times. He curses under his breath running a hand through his hair. Definitely not good.

“So, what are we going to do? I doubt you want to get your wings fried.” Crowely asks shifting as his angel looked him over. Hr was so formulating a plan. That’s what he liked about Aziraphale, he always could come up.with a plan on the spot.

“I need you to..condense your form, smaller..like a bit size.”

That wasn’t the strangest request he’s gotten, his presence would be a lot harder to detect if he was smaller but it would be hell, literally, if Gabriel found him. Still he listened to his angel and started forcing his form down, giving Aziraphale a slight grin when the angel picked him up when he was small enough. Was he supposed to go in the pocket? That seemed like a stupid plan, fabric couldnt fool the host’s senses. He gave his old friend a questioning look, resting on the hand as he waited for his angel’s nervous response. Two minutes until six. Whatever Aziraphale had to do it better be soon.

“Now this is going to seem strange, but I’m going to tuck you away in my form, that should cover your presence and keep you safe.” Aziraphale explains. Well that was not the plan Crowely was thinking of, at all. Wow. It took him a few seconds to process it all. He didnt have any time to oppose the plan, it was the only and best one they had so far.

“Well, what are we waiting for, eat me angel.” He says sitting up a bit. Was this intimidating and blood curdling terrifying? Possibly, he wouldn’t tell anyone. He might not have been human but seeing a mouth larger than him opening was utterly terrifying.

“Tic tock.” He mumbled under his breath pocketing his glasses quickly. He sighs heavily and slides in, being mindful of the teeth, getting hurt sucked even if it would heal. He didn’t want to put anymore guilt on the angel anyways. He supposed it was his fault for not getting the times right anyway.

It was warmer than outside at least, very relaxing if not for the context on why this was happening. Crowley rolls his eyes as the area get dark fast when his angel closed his mouth, the click of teeth sealing him in.

“Next time we communicate better, ey angel?” He calls out before sighing heavily. He was going to have to bathe after this, and change clothes, ugh they were so ruined. He grumbles under his breath as he was pushed around by the slick muscle, thick saliva coating him from head to toe.

“Stop dawdling! We only have a minute left.” He snaps noticing this part was taking longer than necessary. Everything stilled for a few seconds before a load swallow pulled him down, he couldn’t help but to cross his arms impatiently, he hated waited more than anything.

“Finally!” He says sighing dramatically. He huffs as the flesh around him squeezes his down lower. It was soft and slick, and despite being utterly slimy it was rather soothing. He smiles slightly as he was dragged past his angels heart the loud pumping of the muscle working was oddly calming.

He was squeezed slightly before popping into a much larger area, the light simmering of the galaxy swirling around on the muscle. The sight took his breath away, small twinkling star like lights illuminating the area. He didn’t bother trying to move, the muscles constantly shifting under him was nearly impossible to find balance on.

He honestly forgot that Angels were composed of light..truthfully it was a sight to behold.

“Crowely…are you alright?”

Crowely shudders slightly. The concern in his angel’s tone pulled at his nonexistent feelings. He wouldn’t ever admit it but it always made him slightly giddy inside that the angel truly did care about his well being.

“I’m fine, just don’t act weird during your meeting angel.” He says patting the flesh above him, hoping to comfort his old friend is nothing else.

“I’ll try, it is strange to have a demon in my s- Oh dear here he comes.” Aziraphale says clearly nervous about this meeting. He had no idea if Gabriel could still sense the demon or if his own presence covered his friend. Judging by the laid back expression his superior wore the plan was working like a charm.

“Just stay calm you nit wit.” Crowley hisses back out. Aziraphale could tell he was just anxious and brushed the tone off, deciding to smile as Gabriel walked up to him, the sun nearly behind the trees at this point.

“Hello sir.”

And thus the meeting began.

[tumblunni]

M A X I M U M C O Z E

Morning update from the bonn! You guys will be happy to know i slept great and feel so much happier! I actually managed to sleep thru the whole night from 6pm to 10am the next morning. Still feel a lil groggy cos i mean one good nigt's sleep doesnt cure a whole three weeks of bad sleeping patterns. But maaaan i feel so much more good in the brain and soul. Fell asleep in my clothes tho cos i didnt unpack the pyjamas yet, lol!

Ok plans for today is just to unpack and be happ and try and get back to a good mental state. It was so damn surreal and sad when i got to visit here for a few hours last week and it was like i barely recognized it and i still couldbt caln down cos i new it was only a temporary visit home. And my brain was still kinda stuck that way yesterday, i couldnt believe i was really here and really got to stay here again. Emotional numbness to prepare for imminant sads, i guess. But waking up in my maximum coze bed with my dumb beautiful collection of cuddly plush pokemons has really helped me believe its all real, yknow?

ANYWAY! plans for today!

Might not actually do all of these today cos yeah take it easy and become the happyness again and get some more sleep yeah yeah. But this is what i need to do this week yeah!

Unpack the big ol pile of suitcases! Just pretend its like unwrapping birthday presents! Really big cumbersome ones that dont contain any presents!

Pack everything back away where it belongs uuuuugh tiresome

Un-hide the computer, tv, etc. Basically gotta move all the furniture in every room cos i was paranoid and wanted to hide every valuable thibg in the place a hypothetical burglar woukdnt look (under the bed etc)

Hook up the pc again and transfer all the stuff back over from the laptop. I feel bad that i spent so much money on Big Chonk Laptop and hardly even used it cos i wimped out after three weeks...

Cleaning! Cos not everythibg stayed frozen in time, alas. Gotta (ugh) wash out the stinky moss from the fridge and freezer. I got all the food out before i turned them off, but there must have been crumbs somewhere.

Do all the dishes i didnt have time to do before i left. Lol im surprised that didnt get moldy! Seriously its like half of my kitchen covered in dishes cos i was rushing to clean and pack everything and thats just what got left til last.

Introduce new build a bear workshop plushie alolan vulpix to the rest of plushie kingdom. His name is bubblegum! Im sure i shall always look at him and have fond memories of how i conquered this hellish experience.

Hopefully at some point today the internet repairman will call, so i have to deal with that. Atleast being scared of bigger things helped me become less scared of talking on the phone, lol!

GET FOOD. GET FOOD FOR BONN.

Generally go out and walk around le neighbourhood also because I MISSED EVEN THE LAMEST SCARIEST PARTS OF THIS PLACE! But lol that means i need to unpack my shoes and binder first, i wish i could remember where i put them but i was just kinda flailing wildly in a GET HOME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE trance

Put some credit on the electric bill stick thingy. Could maybe manage to put 5 quid on the heating one too cos seriously the weather keeps flipping between hot and cold and im sure actual winter is gonna start soon.

But make sure to still GET FOOD FOR BUNN! consume sustinance upon this fine morn. Aaaa i only have 15 quid tho but i can get basic Bread n Juice and i just have to wait til friday now.

Actually ehh dont get the heating. Cos the minimum credit is 5 quid and i could use that for foods. Heating is a friday thing! I have all my cool hats to cover up my greasy hair if i dont have a shower for a few days, lol

Go see the new library finally aaaa!!! I hope it was worth the wait!!!

DO LETS PLAYS! or just some kind of recording somethingy! Ive missed being able to even do that, cos i mean no privacy in the hospital and stuff. And again, less scared of that right now cos im still riding the wave inbetween a bigger fear and being safe from that big fear, yknow? Perfect time to try and practise all the social anxiety stuffs! Iwas thinking fibally do that dramatic reading of the bootleg kingdom hearts thing, or that years old accent meme or something

Be happy at a well spent day of good privacy and being myselfness, and have a good sleep again. Woo!

So yeh those are PLANS and for now im gonna go scour the cupboards for the slightest food related thing cos i need to take my meds with food. Then maybe finish off the last of that energy drink just so i can shake off the sickly sleep deprivation funk and go out to the shops while the weather is still good. By the power of scarier bigger things, i am conquer my fear of basic shops sociality!! (..probably)

[shytiff]

September 2021

1 - MTBS 0 pt. tried out kopsus from jannor coffee with gofood pickup promo (10k). it tasted nutty and yummy even though it seems to use regular milk. but its kinda hot. the ac was not satisfactory. finished up the word for Prof. bought jasuke on the way back. filled out IDI form since i still have energy. 

2 - mtbs again but this time its 3 patients at the same time. vcalled with kris. bought some snacks in hypermart. exercised a bit and played badminton with renata. watched 3 eps of nanno. 

3 - my body aches and it will be wonderful to sleep again but its already 6:40. usila today. the ac in kamar jaga was no longer cold. finally finished moms box of brownies from like 2 weeks ago. read dear benjamin. got to enjoy some silence because i napped before maghrib and the others slept early. 

4 - vaccine in GCD with teh fitri, teh fany and teh rahmi. about 440ish patients. gossiped about cibeber lmao. watched the hitman’s bodyguard. samuel and ryan was hilarious. 

5 - morning walk with renata. saw cilegon’s cfd. cleaned up the room accompanied by howl’s soundtrack. made spaghetti with instant bolognese sauce, egg and cheese. o seven with tri nagita. just saw prof’s email from 2nd sept, shit. tried to get some headspace to do ppt.

6 - bp with nessa (originally kia/ugd). except therere some patients in ugd lol. did excision for clavus (1st timer!) and hecting. fried tempe (1st timer!) using someone’s leftover oil lmaooo

7 - BP with zihan. had spaghetti combined with cheese egg and mom’s chicken for lunch. instant bloating :). drank hot matcha to curb the bloat. planked. ate muesli lol. did not do anything significant today :( started the origin of species. 

8 - vaccine today except it starts at 10:30 since we’re waiting for the mayor. so i hung out on the screening table since the doctor room was hot. vaccine with dr lutfi. watched homcha and nanno. fell asleep

9 - vaccine with bang esa and other staffs in smp 8 cikerai. its apparently the highest point in cikerai. finished at 12-ish pm and we ate buffet lunch lol. made matcha latte again. this time with almost 1 spoon of sugar so it tastes good. i missss matcha. read 1 webinar ppt so i guess thats a little but its something. rip attention span

10 - usila. tried A BIT of duren from bu Tur for dr isip but its enough to make me retch lmao. was given labbaik chicken by bu oo. Some exercise. rly tried to make some progress but my brain just cant seem to muster

11 - kia/ugd. Some ugd patients. Spaghetti for lunch yay. Originally intended to go to cafe but i ended up falling asleep :) tried to get some progress for PPT. Involved a lot of staring into nothing. Slept at like 00:30ish am

12 - morning walk slash jog. The jogging track was finally open. Went to jannor. Ordered kopsus and meatball potato dish with gofood takeaway promo (spent a total of 30k) . The staff kindly asked whether i want to eat there or to actually takeaway lol. The meatball truly tasted like meat. The mashed potato was a bit dry. The weather was grey and cloudy, exactly my favorite. First time cooking kangkung

13 - vaccine today. 20-ish patients. Alone in kamar jaga since nessa went to mass vaccine. Zoom call with Prof. Dyed my hair blue in flow salon (1200K). got free manicure, It took 5 hrs 😅. another firsts in life. both the nail tech and hair tech said my hair was dry lmao. arrived in mess at 9ish pm. ordered nasgor in front of mess

14 - mi rebus for bfast. not too much patients for vaccine so i finished at like 10 am. napped at kamar jaga. got free rice box from dr arief etc yay :)))) got mochacinno at jannor. tried to do sumn useful but cannot. still no ppt progress aaa. watched homcha ep 6 together

15 - vaccine in al hanif. tried chicken-cakwe porridge near the school. the school was an all girls school, with ppl wearing long veils. tried to fit the placement test from cakap (12-1 pm) during the vaccination lol. had to excuse myself to the ssaem during photo sesh. napped so i could see the 17 pm cakap class but i ended up napping until close to 18 :) saw the 19 am class with lukas ssaem

16 - spaghetti for bfast. usila today. this dumbass forgot to wear komin and wore her rubber slip ons. turns out theres some money from al hanif vaccine. which is great bcs there’s literally no paper money in my wallet lmaoo. rested a bit. dr eva called and she gave me a ppt and chapter book job. sheeet theres no progress yet of Prof’s ppt. a wake up call. whatsapped with frends that planned to go to cilegon this weekend, but it ended up being the next weekend. thank god, because dr eva’s ppt deadline is 24th sept. set myself up on a spot in the vanity table so i can work in a chair (i frfr find it difficult to work on my own bed)

17 - some patients in UGD. Slept while waiting for 2 pm. Held off my sleepiness for zoom with dr Eva. 5pm cakap class. Matcha latte. 7pm zoom w dr eva. Fell asleep after that

18 - bp. Turns out teh imey also dyed her hair. cakap class abt bts' spring day lol. Worked on dr eva's ppt

19 - jogged a bit. had kopsus (20K) and fish fillet rice (27K). finished dr eva’s ppt with the given material so far. napped in mess. dr eva also revised the ppt on the same day so there’s 2 slides left (patient clinical profile and conclusion). took some time for me to get the headspace to work on ppt so i started prof’s ppt at like 7-ish. only got 1 slide. stayed awake until 11ish but i basically stopped doing useful stuff at 9 TT TT

20 - vaccine today, finished at 10 am. lounged around. went to bni to check on m-banking, still system error. transferred 3mil from my BNI atm to muamalat. tried nasi goreng roa and cakalang with added chicken shreds (20K). so goood. conversed with nessa zihan. did not open my laptop at all :) stopped by at rodalink bcs nessa wanted to buy a bike. drank matcha latte in an effort to curb sleepiness. worked on Prof’s ppt. fried the frozen kebab (35K) i bought from teh Rahmi. 

21 - vaccine P3K w teh yeni teh rahmi mas oim. 3 patients. Ate some gorengan and talked lol. Did the abstract and ppt for dr eva. Worked on Prof's ppt.

22 - usila w mas oim. Had banana, bolu and protein for bfast. Ordered nasgor roa cakalang from bakuku for lunch. Felt suuuuper sleepy afterwards. Wanted to sleep again in mess but couldnt. Washed my shitton of clothes with washing machine. Heavyyy. Worked more on PPT. Too much denial this week

23 - picked some groceries @ bu rum. Kia/ugd today. Its been a while since i last checked DJJ. Successful first attempt but fail in the 2nd bcs the baby is still floating. Cooked meat and veggies with nessren. Jannor and kopsus again. Worked on ppt til my head hurts. Its a little bit more to gooo.

24 - bp. Made myself bento with nugget and left over veggies. Finished the smol details of the ppt and finally sent it. Watched shangchi @ transmart w chillegone. The film was fun! We cooked soup at mess and tri made perkedel. Watched homcha ep7. Slept

25 - Vaccine but there was no vaccine, so I went to UKK @ villa ternak cikerai with pkm peeps. its like opening a clinic but somewhere in hills area. got treated to bakso and tempe mendoan afterwards. lazed around in my bed, with no info from jkt friends who wanted to visit but suddenly they arrived lmao. went to amaris to catch up with them. thankfully it was not hourly parking. ate at saung bonang near the billiard place with heri joining us. total bill for five was 126 lmao its rly pocket friendly. heri borrowed my motorbike bcs his friend’s place doesnt have car park. thank god we brought the bike

26 - me and racheel went downstairs to get the hotel bfast. packed fruits, tempe and bread upstairs lol. put our stuffs in royal krakatau. took maxim to pulau kecil. turns out pak asep changed his number. it was raining there, so we sat a bit and got mie rebus. had lunch at amirang (my treat). there was only us inside. the food was okay but the meat was rly overpriced for its amount. went back to the hotel. went to indomaret and mess with racheel to get my stuff. my stupid impatient ass dropped atikah’s brand new iphone while pulling the hotel towel from the bathroom rack. im sorryyyyy. racheel and i swam until maghrib. atikah told us abt her boy “friend”. slept early at like 9-10ish with the usual width but longer leg space

27 - and suddenly its time to go to puskesmas. asked nessa to bring my shoes. said goodbye to friends. BP. there were a lot of patients. kanayam for lunch. i bought shades lol bcs i commute against the sun in the morning. cakap club. watched homcha. fell asleep

28 - vaccine. finished at like 10:30. tried to go to bni to install mbanking but the queue was like 20 ppl. did the outline for the red book. liqo with kak kartika. zoom meeting with dr eva. fell asleep again

29 - vaccine in sma 3 cilegon (cikerai) with bang esa and others. finished at like 2-ish pm. got 750K hehehe. mentoring with dr. Arnadi about KKD and HHS. bought rotbak with nessa. showered and cleaned and fell asleeep

30 - cooked tempe with leftover kanayam chili sauce. bp again. saw interesting cases today, such as fixed drug eruption. bought phd from gofood promo. went to jannor and got the usual kopsus with added espresso (since the min amount for gofood pick up promo was 25k). tried to do prof’s script but cannot, so i searched the literatures needed for dr eva’s project

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SHE'S NO YOU - Ch.6

A/N: This chapter is when the truth starts to unravel... do you think you have figured out what happened? Have a good read! P.s Loooooong chapter :) -- CHAPTER SIX: DON'T LISTEN TO THEM -- RAE POV: "How do you know Olivia?" I had just put the kids to bed and now I was sitting next to a tense Gregory awaiting his answer. "Well about 2 years ago I sold her sister a house. She was there of course, but I didn't know she was Finn's Girlfriend". 'It was interesting to know that he could still remember his clients sisters from 2 years ago, especially on a first name basis' I snickered to myself. It was a simplistic reply that was used as a deflection. It was obvious he was uncomfortable talking about her, and I was curious to know why. But for right now I was exhausted beyond belief. "Ohkay" I smiled. It wasn't worth a fight, it was bad enough that I was dealing with Finn, I didn't need to add Greg to the mix. "You seem close to your ex-husband's family" You could hear the bitterness in his voice, and internally I chucked. He didn't really have a reason to be mad at me over that, when he's the one lying right now. "Greg". "It was just a simple observation Rae. The man seemed very fond of you, if I must say". "We were very close when I was married. I cut all ties with them when I filed for divorce. It was the first time seeing Archie- Finn's brother in years" I sighed. "Mhm" he nodded. His hand lightly pressed against my naked thigh. "Hon, can I stay the night?" I was not prepared to hear that on a Wednesday night. He never stayed over when we both had work in the morning. "What about work your work tomorrow" I said stating the obvious. Gregory lived more towards the CBD, where traffic was lethal at anytime of the day or night. It was easier for him to get to work in the morning because he only lived a block away. It would take him a good two hours extra to drive home and get ready, then head to work for his 8am start. "I have a later start tomorrow. So I can just leave when you drop the kids off for school" he smiled; grazing his fingers more into my inner thigh. For some reason the intimate touch felt foreign. His hands were softer then I was use to, not as callous and rough. This was not good. "Ugh- sure" I encouraged myself to smile. We got off the couch and headed towards the bedroom hand in hand. Just as we opened the door to my bedroom and saw the state it was in, I froze. Clothes littered the floor in an unattractive manner. The bed, the same bed where I let Finn take me the night before had disheveled sheets, after not sleeping a wink last night. "You go have a shower and freshen up and I'll give this pig-sty a little clean. You don't really want to be smelling three day old Rae do you?" I tried to joke, I was embarrassed he had to witness this. "Don't worry about it to much hon" he laughed, then kissed my forehead. I didn't watch him walk into my ensuite. I was to busy glaring at my bed. There was no way I was washing those contaminated sheets, no they to be burnt. -- Anxiously, I hurried to get the last details added to the final sketch before the meeting in two hours. Chloe had organised for the board at 'Taylor industries' to come in and confirm the sketchs before signing of on the build. The new multi-million dollar mall has been a top priority for my team and I, for the past year and a half. I was glad that we were finally having the last meeting before I could watch my work come to life. When it was lunch time; or so my stomach reminded me. I checked mobile messages before leaving the office. I had turned it to silent, not wanting to be disrupted. Which I regretted once I saw the miss call from my children's school. Dialing the number on my office phone I waited for an answer. "Columbia Grammar and Preparatory School, Mary speaking, how may I help?" "Hi my name is Rachel Nelson-Earl, I'm the mother of Ruby and Joshua Nelson. I have a missed call, and I was wondering why". "Hi Ms. Nelson. Yes I have a message here for you referring to your son Joshua. It seems that he has had a altercation with another student. He has been stepped down for the rest of the day. We are in need for you to collect him as soon as possible please". 'Shit' I thought. Joshua had never been a kid to ever get into any sort of altercation, physical or not. This was completely out of character for him. Checking the time I noticed I had 30 minutes to til the meeting started, a meeting that could potentially sink my career if I didn't attend it. "I'll have to ring his father to collect him. But someone will be there as soon as possible" I replied. It was the only other solution I could think of. I just hoped Finn wasn't in a meeting. "Certainly. I will let his teacher know". "Thank you". As soon as I hung up the phone to the school, I dialed Finn's office number. I was put through to two different receptionist before i was finally directed through to Finn's office. "Finn Nelson's office, Olivia speaking" the nasily voice spoke. "Can you please put me through to Finn" I said in a rush and slightly paniced. I was not in the mood to talk to this bitch, time was against my side and I wasn't going to let her waste it. "And who's speaking?" Her cheerful demeanor forgotten. No wonder why Finn couldnt get any other pussy, she was the ultimate cock block. Clearing my throat, I continued speaking. "Its Rae, now can you put me through to f-". "Rae? Why would you possibly need to talk to Finn?" Olivia barked- like the true dog she was. "Olivia I don't have time for this! I need to talk to Finn about Joshua!" "I'm sure this is something that can be discussed outside of office hours-" "But y-" "- unlike some Ms. Earl, Finn is a busy Man and I can't possibly interrupt him!" "Fucki-" "Good day Rachel!" *Beeeeeeeeep!* That donkey nose airhead, wannabe-fucking-heiress, man-stealing bitch! I quickly dialed Finn's mobile, praying to God he actually turned it on for once. One thing Finn and I had in common was that we hated being disturbed from our work. No mobile, no hassle. "Rae?" "Finn! You need to put a fucking leash on that crackhead girlfriend of yours! I tri-" "Calm down Rae!" Finn sighed, I could only imagine him raking his hand through his hair. "Tell me what's going on? Slowly. And calmly". "I called your office to talk to you but your lovely assistant hung up on me! But that's not the point, the point is I rang you about Josh". "Why? What happened? Is he alright?" Finn rattled off questions. "He's fine, but he has been in a fight with another student. He's been stood down for the rest of the day.. Finn I need you to pick him up, please. I have a meeting in 15 minutes and my career depends on it. I know your busy bu-". "Of course I'll pick him up Rae. You don't need to explain yourself, he's my son too. I need to take responsibility for him too. But really, fighting?" I could hear the disbelief in his husky voice. "I know Finn. I don't know what's going on with him? He's never gotten into a fight before" My voice broke, but I managed to pull myself together. This was not the time to do this, especially whilst on the phone to my ex-husband. "Rae it will be Ohkay, I'll pick him up and take the rest of the day off. I'll get Archie to pick Ruby up for me when she finishes". "Ohkay" I breathe. "Thank you". "I'll talk to you tonight". For the second time today, I was hung up on. My phone was still pressed snuggly pressed against my ear when Chloe pranced in, smile beaming, and excitement lighting her eyes. "Are you ready?" She came around the desk to stand beside me. Her eyes flicking over the mountain of blueprints and sketches I had rolled up in a neat pile. "Is this all of them?". "Yes, there is a detailed plan of every floor, shop location, public area, toilets and even parking. Name a room and and I am certain it's here" I smiled at my friend. "This is why I love you Rae" Chloe beamed. Collecting a stack of scrolls, she took off towards the board room. I had a lot of people's jobs in my hand in this moment and all I had to do is impress 4 billionaires. Easier said then done, taming one was hard enough. -- FINN POV: I saw red the moment I ended the call with Rae. To whom my anger was directed towards was a mystery, because i couldn't narrow it down to just one person. Multiple people where now on my radar. Including a women only metres away from me. Grabbing my jacket, wallet and keys I threw the door open in a haste. I didn't even care about the looks that were directed towards me. Not that my floor was full of people, it was only a handful. But those select people obviously found my fury more interesting then their work at this moment. "Cancel the rest of the day, direct all my calls to the front desk with a note saying I'm away for the rest of the day and send sorry notes with chocolates to whoever I'm cancelling on" I spoke as I walked. I didn't even look in Olivia's direction, my main goal was getting to the elevator as quickly as possible. "But Finn where are you going? You can't just cancel ev-" "Do not tell me what to do Olivia! I am your boss and you are my employee. Start acting like it for Christ sake" I hissed, my voice was raised and no doubt our audience were enjoying the show. By the look Liv's face was portraying she was livid. Not that I cared. "Will you at least tell me where your going?" She asked, grabbing my arm just as I reached the elevator. "I'm going to collect Joshua from school" I said keeping all conversation to a minimum. Olivia snorted. "Really Finn? Your leaving work for that? It's only 1 o'clock, why on earth would you be picking him up now for? I bet you Rae is only doing this to trick you into some stupid pla-" Not being able to take her rant anymore. I closed my palm over her mouth, stopping the bullshit. "Enough! Enough for once Olivia! My son needs me, and not you or anyone else is going to stop me getting to him. Im his father first and foremost. So next time when Rae rings do not hang up on her. Do you understand me?" She nodded, my hand still firmly clasped over her sticky lips. "Now if you'll excuse me, you have work to get back too and I have a son I have to see. And maybe you should go see your sister after work for a bit. I need some alone time with my children". I didn't wait for her reply. Stepping into the elevator I immediately pressed the ground floor button. And just like in the movies the elevator doors closed that two seconds, too slow. - Joshua had remained quite when I spoke to the principle in his office. Mr. Horne was a rapacious man. When he needed money, I was his life line. When the music program needs to upgrade out of season instruments they come to me. In order to keep his bulging budget, he needed to keep me happy. Joshua had gotten away with barely a slap on the hand and a day off school. Nothing was going on his permanent file, and after much hesitation on Mr. Horne's behalf the name of the other student was given to me. I knew his parents, they had been an acquaintance of my company for some time, due to my shares in theirs. The matter will get sorted, quietly. We had been home for the past 20 minutes and still Joshua had barely looked my way, only nodding and shaking his head when I spoke. This sort of behavior was unusual for my 8 year old boy. He was never one to fight, or act up. Unless it was against his sister. But after being fly tackled by a pigtail wearing 6 year old, you would get mad too. The silence finally got the best of me, when I found myself sitting across from Joshua. "What happened?" My tone demanding, but I felt desperate. "He pushed me, so I hit him". Joshua would have to be kidding if he thought he was getting away with an answer like that. Raising an eyebrow. "You expect me to take that for an answer son". "I don't know" he shrugged. "Why did he push you?" "Because". "Oh come on Joshua just tell me!" My son slammed his hand down on the couch and stood abruptly. His face was glowing red, tears threatened to spill. Something was wrong. "You want to know why dad! It's because he was talking about you and mom and I told him to get a life. He pushed me and I just hit him... I don't know why" he cried. "I just couldn't help myself". "Son" I stood, walking towards Josh and sat him back on the couch, with me right next to him. "What did he say about your mother and I? You know you can tell me right?" Nodding, Joshua pulled his knees up against his chest. "He was saying that mom wasn't good enough. That- that's why you left us". My heart shattered. I knew kids could be cruel these days, but this was nothing that I would of expected. I didn't know how I was going to explain myself to Joshua. How do you tell your son that it wasn't me to walk away, but it was her? You don't. "Josh.. Josh look at me please" cupping his chin I turned his face towards me. "Your mother was never 'not good enough' for me. She is the most lovely and courageous women I know. We didn't break up because I got sick of her son". "Then why did you break up?" Shit! "We just grew apart, but I will always love your mother". "Then why are you mean to her dad? Why does she still cry at night?" It was my turn to start tearing up. I couldn't beleive I was having an adult conversation with my 8 year old son. My heart hurt more the longer he spoke. I never knew he could hear Rae and I's conversations. He heard me when i stupidly degraded his mother, everytime i opened my mouth. Did that mean Ruby could hear too? I felt like a monster, but i was hurt. Rae had broken me to the point where hate started seeping in, leaving me with fragments of my old self that I reserved for my kids. "I'm sorry Joshua. I should never of talked to your mother like that. Please promise me you wont ever speak to your mother like that". "I wouldn't. I actually love her" he declared. "Josh. Don't talk to me like that! You are not your mother so I don't have to explain anything to you, alright? We are getting off topic and I want to talk about you hitting another student Joshua". "Colton said that his dad got to touch mom" Joshua softly spoke. My heart skipped a beat with his words, then plummeted to the pit of my stomach. "What? When?" If I wasn't sitting my knees would've already buckled by now. He was talking about Mr. Davis and Rae. How many other men has she fucked while being with Gregory, or better yet me. "He said a few years ago his dad saw mom coming out of the bathroom of this big fancy ball... And touched her. The- then he said. He said his friends laughed when Mr. Davis said mom was fighting him. What does he mean dad?" I tried to remember the last ball he had attended with Rae. It had to of been at least 3 years ago. I remember vaguely the lacey number she wore. The neckline plunged deeper then usual, teasing my eyes, and many men around him. After thinking about it, I do remember how she had been the perfect plus one. Floating around from person to person, saying her hellos. Between dancing and chatting she was spreading her happiness. Well until half way through, when she insisted they went home early. Her mood sombre, but she insisted she was due for her menstrual cycle. Unless... Something happened between Mr. Davis and Rae. Something sinister, and degrading. That son of a bitch! "Joshua. Promise me you won't tell your mother. I want to be the one to speak to her about this. And I will tonight, Ohkay?" Nodding, Joshua leaned into me as my arm draped across his shoulders. My son was hurt and it was all my fault. I didn't help Rae, but I didn't know. If something happened during that ball without my knowledge I don't think i could forgive myself. I pray that the kid was feeding Josh bullshit, but somewhere in the back of my mind I felt like something did happen. The door softly opened to reveal my beautiful daughter and brother, walking through the entrance still unnoticed to Josh and I's presence. Until Ruby looked up and make eye contact with me. "Daddy!" The click of her polished leather shoes echoed the foyer. "Hi princess, did you have fun at school?" "I did! I did! We learnt our 4 times tables today daddy. They so easy, but Mike said that I was just a smarty pants. I told him that my daddy always said I should have my nose within a book, then a boy on a hook" she declared proudly. My glorious daughter reminded me so much of her mother. The light in her eyes shone brightly, just like Rae's. "Well done baby girl. Did you have fun with Uncle Archie?" I asked. Looking towards Archie I smiled, mouthing 'thank you'. I had phoned him the moment I jumped in the car to pick up Josh. He, of course agreed. Our work was close to Ruby's school, plus Archie had informed me that Ben is quite able to pick up Sophie daycare. "Yes we organised a play date for Mommy and Uncle Archie. He said he wants mommy, Joshua and I to come see them. It's going to be fun!" Archie and Rae must have rekindled their relationship after we interrupted her dinner. With Gregory. "That sounds great sweetheart. How about you and Josh go to your rooms for a second whilst I talk to Archie, ohkay". "Ohkay daddy! Come on Josh, I can show you what I did today in art class with Crissy" she pulled on her brother arm in a haste. Finally, when they went to their rooms I turned to my Brother. "What happened with Josh?" he asked, moving towards the love seat next to me. "He got into a fight with John Davis' son today. He punch him when Colton started to talk about Rae and I's relationship". Sighing, I ran my hand through my thick hair. I knew I could trust my brother with my life, so I knew what I was about to tell him will be kept confidential. "What about your relationship?" Quizativley he moved forward. "Apparently she wasn't good enough for me so I left. But that's not all..." "How could a kid say something like that! How would he know what was going on with your family? Hang on there's more?" I told him everything that Josh had just told me, down to what I remembered about the night. I could see the empathy in Archie's eyes. The more I talked, the more my throat constricted. The words left a bitter taste in my mouth, if only I had been there. I could of done something. "Finn you don't know for sure if anything happened that night. John could of been telling a bullshit story to a punch of people. Don't beat yourself up about it". "Archie, you don't understand. After that night Rae started to become slightly distant, I didn't notice it until she left though. She didn't seem like herself, but originally I thought it was because of the kids. Then 6 months later, she fucking left me with divorce papers". "Finn-" "What if this was the reason. She couldn't bare to look at me after I let my work associate molest her!" "You didn't know!" "I should of asked her what was wrong. I should of followed her or something. I can't stop thinking what if..." "Talk to her. Finn, you need to go around and talk to her. What time are you meant to drop Joshua and Ruby back off?" "7.." I breathed. "Its now 4pm, go talk to her now. I'll stay here with the kids and if your not back by 6.30pm then I'll drop them of there. That gives you 2 and a half hours to work out what the fuck happened, Ohkay?" Nodding like a scolded child I got up of the couch. "Are you sure?" I asked. I was unsure about leaving the kids with him, but I needed to talk to Rae immediately. I couldn't wait til i dropped Ruby and Joshua off tonight. "Of course Finn. I'm your brother, I'll do anything for you". "Thank you". I pulled Archie in for a hug, then ran out the door. I hope Rae is ready for me. -- As quickly as I could I drove to Rae's house. When I arrived, I threw the gear into parked and hurried to her front door. After knocking I waited very patiently for a very confused but equally beautiful Rae to open the door. "Finn?.. What are you doing here? Where are the kids?" "We need to talk Rae. Josh and Ruby are fine, they are with Archie" I said. The truth will be revived tonight. What really happened the night she walked away... No more waiting. -- I hope I haven't forgotten anyone! Sorry if I did!! @luly310 @milymargot @eveerez @I88cym @lily-pop-2 @mmfdfanfic @milllott @i-dream-of-emus @arathewallflower @tinakegg @hey1tskat1e

[parkjiminie-95-blog]

I'm Back [Jimin Imagine]

Title; I’m Back Genre; Fluffy, Angst Pairing; Jimin x Reader

- honestly there wasnt any real plot i was just bored and wrote this - You were out playing on the playground with all the other kids, You ran around attempting to tag another kid while laughing, a smile on your face that never seemed to disappear…you had lots of friends and for that little Jimin envyed you, but at the same time he kinda liked you, you were so nice and cool, the most popular-est girl in first grade!!

While him….Jimin was a loser…he was a transfer from korea so kids made fun of his accent the only person who ever hung out with him was this kid in preschool named jungkook….but he wasnt here today…. He sighed as he watched you run after some guy named Jason, He huffed wishing you would chase after him instead……he sighed and continued to watch you boredly…

You chased after Jason, Jack, Trevor, and Travis. Giggling and laughing, it was all fun and games til Travis got hurt and a yard duty took him to the office and made you guys stop running….you pat Jack’s back as he cried because they couldn’t play anymore……after that you guys just played hide n seek every recess And of course Jimin stayed on the bench and watched you with his preschool friend Jungkook..

….

Middle school was tough, you had 6 classes and no recess like you did in elementary, it was tough on you but you tried your hardest…

Jason walked over and tripped you purposely with a smirk on his face as he just kept walking, you squeaked and wincedcas a heavy textbook you were carrying landed on your stomach..

Jimin saw this and rushed over “H-Gey are you okay!” He said quickly, you werent close with jimin you guys just talked every so often….

“Y-Yeah..” You muttered as he helped you up and picked up all your stuff “um…here” he said awkwardly handing you your books and stuff, you nodded

“Thanks, See you 4th period Jimin!” You smiled and scurried off, Jimin sighed gently and smiled, feeling giddy inside….his crush just spoke to him!! And he touched her hand!!! He chuckled as he went to his own class, ‘i should try and talk to her more….’ He thought excitedly

….

After you finished your awkward preteen stage in middle school, highschool came and everything just seemed to get harder and more drama…

Jimin grinned, as you walked next to him humming gently

“What sing are you humming?” He asked, you giggled “It’s a song by this new kpop group called bigbang! They are totally cool!!” She said happily

Jimin raised an eyebrow “You know korean…?”

You shook your head “no but the songs are cool and their voices are so ugh yes please take me to heaven g-dragon!”

He blinked…so you liked kpop huh……..he’d have to look this group up later, he chuckled “you know i speak korean…”

You giggled “That’s cool i always wanted to learn a different language maybe i’ll learn korean..” You said humming lightly again and he smiled “Yeah…that’d be cool….”

…

And just like that highschool ended and you and jimin were college kids

You squealed “LOOK JIMIN! LOOK! G-DRAGON IS SO AWESOME!!”

Jimin grinned excitedly “I know right! Hey you never know maybe i’ll become a kpop star!”

You rolled your eyes “mhm sure”

Jimin pouted “What you think i cant?” He said a bit hurt, you shook your head

“I mean i doubt it whats the chances of my best friend being a kpop star?”

Jimin pouted more but then his face lit up “Hey if i do become a kpop star you gotta be my girlfriend!!”

You choked on your own spit and blushed “WHAT! Well thats never gonna happen if you betcon that! How about if you clap twice ill be your girlfriend!” You laughed and blushed

He happily clapped twice but shook his head “Nope to easy, i want it to be a challenge so you know ill do anything for you….”

You smiled and nodded “if you say so…..”

…

Jimin soon became a trainee, and after that a kpop star, he was surprised to see Jungkook be in the same band as him, he was really happy…

And you watched him from afar with acgrin, you went to any of the concerts if they were in america but you couldnt go to all of them across the world….you sighed and smiled a bit as you watched a bangtan bomb, you hadnt forgotten of the promise he made but you bet he did, he had way morecpretty girls in korea now who would do anything to be with him.

Though jimin hadnt forgotten about the promise but sadly bighit had them on a two year dating ban so he couldnt say anything yet…. 'Wait for me Y/n’ he thought desperately wishing you heard but he knew you could not read thoughts ecspecially all the way from korea…

…

A few years later rumors started going around that he hated international fans and he started getting death threats, a concert in anaheim, california was canceled because of it and he left bangtan, he felt insecure, depressed, broken…..he was scared you didnt like him anymore and that you believed the rumors…he was scared you forgot about him……he was scared that maybe he was going to die maybe that person was going to shoot him….

The only thing he could do was look for you hoping that you didnt forget

…

A few days later you opened your door to find a man sleeping on your porch…not just any man but Park Jimin. You panicked, you had heard about how he left and then the entire group disbanded, Min Yoongi became a soloist, as did Kim Namjoon and Jung Hoseok, Kim Seokjin started a cooking show, Jeon Jungkook partnered up with Kim Taehyung and they joinedca different company…

You dragged Jimin into your house and shut the door,shaking.him awake “Jimin..Jimin…..” You had tears in you eyes when he didnt respond…..you put your mouth onto his, closing your eyes gently, but they snapped open when his lips pressed against yours gently and he pulled you onto him, you pulled away “Jimin! Your alive!!! Omg!” You hugged him tightly and he smiled gently

“I’m back…” He whispered and kissed you again

[mrss-whenfithitstheshan-blog]

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Updated 2/13/2019

Hey Parents,

Did you ever notice that the concept of time is really tough for kids to understand– all the way from birth up until they are like 7 or 8?

It’s a real problem, because we use time to manage everything in our lives!

When to wake up,

when to go to daycare or the babysitter’s,

when to the store,

when to eat,

when to nap,

when we come home from work,

when to celebrate holidays,

when to go to parties,

when to take a bath,

when to go to bed….

And through all this, our poor children don’t even know what we’re talking about when we say, “We will get to have bath time at 7 o’clock. Please wait til then.”

How can we help kids understand what’s coming next in the day?

It’s no fun to be thrown into things without any warning or understanding. What would that feel like to have NO IDEA what is going to happen next until someone else decided for you? And you HAD to do it?? 

I would throw a fit too!

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Case in point-

I was feeling so sad for my poor daughter the other day. She was getting so frustrated because she couldn’t understand why it wasn’t time to eat dinner.

Having a family dinner is very important to us, so I was hoping she would wait until dad got home from work. We do this every day, but those last 15 minutes are always a battle! 

There’s got to be a way to fix it. I’m done fighting this every single day! 

I did what every mom does- I complained to my friends about our problems. My awesome sister-in-law Monica (an amazing mother of four who I really look up to) gave me the best idea!

She said that she had heard of a tool that you can make at home, DIY, for less than $20 that will help children better understand time and routines.

Ummm…. YES PLEASE!!!

I took her suggestions and added my own twists. I call it our “Routine Clock.”

I’m focusing on two parts of our daily routine- eating times (snacks and meals) and sleeping times (nap and bedtime) by marking those events on the face of an analog clock for my child to see.

Do you have any great ideas on how to improve this “Routine Clock”? Tell us about it! Comment below!

Step 1: Gather materials.

Here’s what you’ll need:

A cheap analog clock

Mainstay Sterling & Noble Wall Clock – Black

Sharpies

Sharpie 30078 Permanent Markers, Fine Point, Classic Colors, 8 Count

Scissors

AmazonBasics Multipurpose Scissors – 3-Pack

A screwdriver

TEKTON 2796 6-in-1 Screwdriver

Stickers, paint, or any other fun decorations your child might like!

RENOOK Stickers for Kids 1500+, 20 Different Sheets, 3D Puffy Stickers, Scrapbooking, Bullet Journals, Stickers for Adult, Including Animals, and More,Christmas Stickers for Kids. Crayola Washable Kids Paint, Classic Colors, 6 Count, Painting Supplies, Gift

Not required… But there were tiny screws that are easy to lose, so my husband’s magnetic tool tray might have come in handy. I wish I had thought of it beforehand.

Titan Tools 11061 Mini Magnetic Parts Tray

Step 2: Remove the minute hand (or at least mark the hour hand).

The overall goal with this clock is for my child to watch the hour hand approach a marked time for a snack or a meal or nap time in order to visualize when those events are getting closer.

The problem is that the minute hand crosses each of the marked time slots every hour of the day, while the hour hand only crosses them once per day (once per day during the hours that my child is awake anyways…).

So I really need my child to watch the hour hand, not the minute hand. By removing the minute hand or at least marking the hour hand, my child knows which one to keep an eye on.

You’ll have to remove the clock face for this step. It was super easy to do- just take out the screws on the back of the clock.

The minute and second hands were easy to cut with scissors. I did leave a small bit of each hand so that I could set the time on the clock.

If you would rather not cut the minute hand, just mark the hour hand with a sticker or by painting it or using a sharpie to change its color. This will help it stand out so that your child knows to watch the hour hand.

Step 3: Use a sharpie to mark the times of various daily activities on the face of the clock.

Replace the face of the clock. Again- so easy, just screw the face back on.

I tried light-colored sharpies so that my child could still see the numbers under my markings.

As my child practices with the clock, I would like to start teaching her how the numbers correspond with the time, which corresponds with our daily activities. I really didn’t want to cover up the numbers with dark colors.

I found that the light green and yellow sharpies were TOO light. You could hardly see the color. But the darker pink and darker green were perfect!

****Idea- One limitation of this clock is that it still only works to help my child understand the daily routine, not to prepare for curve balls that life throws when the routine is thrown off.

If you want the clock to change based on what your plans are for the day, don’t use sharpies. Try using dry erase markers so that you can add different tasks or activities based on what new things are going on for the day!

Then just erase your clock at the end of the day so that you can put the next day’s tasks on the clock!

For my purposes, I color coded the clock using green and pink. Pink marks are for meals and snacks. Green marks are for naps and bedtime.

My child usually goes to sleep at 7pm and wakes up at 7am, so I marked from 7 to 7:15 in green to mark bedtime/wake up time. Her nap is around 1-3, so those times are marked in green.

Breakfast is between 7:15-8, lunch is between 12-12:45, dinner is between 5-6, and snacks are from 10-10:30am and 3-3:30pm. Those times are all blocked out in pink.

Marking a range of time during which we generally eat or sleep rather than marking one specific time allows some flexibility.

For example, we start lunch any time between 12:00 and 12: 45.

Step 4: Decorate it!

I have not been blessed with a talent for drawing, especially on a curved surface like the face of a clock, so it was surprisingly difficult to make my clock look cute!

In the end, I decided I’d better go simple. I outlined each different task in black sharpie to make the time slots nice and defined, added a boarder around the face of the clock, and called it good.

But let’s be real- kids aren’t judgmental. They love you no matter what, and they’re excited about new things with pretty colors. So I had nothing to worry about.

If my little one were a little older, I would probably invite her to decorate it herself.

Oh, and I also added labels on each routine so that my awesome husband knows what’s coming up next. He always wants to help but doesn’t always know how. Win Win!

Step 5: Set the time.

Just follow the directions on the package!

Step 6: Put your new tool to work!

Well, we completed our clock about a week ago.

My daughter is catching on fast. I make sure to show her the clock each time a snack, meal, nap, or bedtime comes up. She is starting to point to it all on her own when we are getting close to one of those times in our day.

I chose not to hang it on the wall. Rather, I keep it on the counter.

Giving My Daughter a Heads Up

When a meal or nap is coming up, I hand it to my daughter (she loves to hold it) point to the color coming up. I ask her, “Do you know what’s going to happen soon?” or “Do you know what’s coming up next?”

Then we talk about it and I give her a 5-minute opportunity to finish up whatever she’s doing before it’s time to transition.

Helping her Understand When She Needs to Wait

It’s so much easier to tell her that she needs to wait to eat! (She doesn’t mind waiting to take a nap….)

If she’s getting hungry just a few minutes before dad gets home from work, I just show her the clock and say, “It’s not time for dinner yet, but look how close it is! Almost time!” 

Then she can hold the clock and check back to watch as dinner time gets closer and closer.

I have noticed frustration levels for both me and my child decreasing every day! It’s so nice to have a simple way to help her look forward to what’s coming up next in her routine.

Did you try out this “Routines Clock”? How did it go?? Comment below!

Do you have any great ideas on how to make these clocks better? Tell us about it! Comment below!

I hope this resource helps some cute kids out there!

And parents, as always, keep up the good work!

(As a total side note, I recently learned about another amazing tool to help children with time! This one is a clock that lights up green when it is “wake up time.” If the child wakes up too early, the light is off so he knows to keep resting or engage in a quiet activity until the light turns green signaling that he can begin his day! AMAZING!)

Click on the image below! Mirari OK to Wake! Alarm Clock & Night-Light

Sincerely,

Mrs. S

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Does your child struggle to understand time? Time is an abstract and difficult topic for young children. Here's an amazing DIY resource that will help you and your child! And the best part- it's less than $20 to make! Click here! Photo by Elena Koycheva on Unsplash This post may contain advertisements and/or links for products and services that I value.

[ubereyezconfessions-blog]

2/8/19-2/9/19 Riders

#ThemToo

I dont want to assume it, But I seriously think I over heard my passengers speak on being raped. Its not a far trip at all, but i assume they were talking about it prior to getting in the car. But they get in, the first of the two ladies that are in the trip, finishes a story. But its a story of having nights were shes went out, and got blacked out drunk. Im already thrown off because Im more sober than I aint. But she continues. A story of being drunk, having to be carried on a mans shoulders cause she wanted to get into another club. Saying she woke up with bruises and her friends said she was “fighting a curb”. Even at one point of being black out, she was told that a cop approached her friend and asked if she was alright and couldnt get into clubs being that intoxicated and not being able to walk. And having to be took home and tucked in.

Now heres where things gets bizarre. The next girl begins her story. Begins with telling that shes had her experience with blacking out. But slips that she thinks she was drugged and the other girl thinks the same for herself. She runs on with a story that her friends did it to her. That they got her “fucked up”, blacked out to the point where she wasnt coherent of what was going on. To where her “friends” used her credit card and ran up a $500 dollar bill on a credit card of hers. Took her car and left her stranded, even as far as throwing her luggage out with her. Woke up with bruises and the thought that she was drugged cause couldnt remember any of it. At this point she says she at a airport and calling her parents that she had a crappy relationship with to save her. Back and fourths and being stranded without a clue of how to get out the situation. And at no expense her parents did get her out of it. Said that her “friend” was there the whole time and she knew the people they were with were sketchy but she was around them. According to her, she was drugged, beat, and I can only hope that the worst thing in mind didnt happen. But at many points on her trying to get through the airport and home, many people told her to get to hospital which she never did.

In my head, as fucked up as it is, I knew what kinda happened just with my upbringing. Basically her friend got to know her and behind her back probably hated that she probably never had a want that wasnt met. Of course sucks to assume, but these were white women that probably didnt come from homes where money was an issue. But the characters she was around more than likely did. So they probably used her for her money and the sketchy characters were probably in the other womans ear having her play the role til they could make that night happen, or even being the mastermind to it all. You dont get drugged in a house of friends without some inside job happening.. Of course thankfully shes alive and all good today. But what a story to overhear. These women were speaking on potentially being assaulted like it was a run of the mill thing.

Perhaps Im not aware of just how dark the human can be, or I just have such a respect and awareness for another human that I cant fathom hurting another or taking advantage when things can just happen if you let them fall in your lap.

Succubus

Which brings me to my next story which is a polar opposite. And that is 4 lustful women that couldnt just admit what they wanted. Which i find these cases very funny and this was actually a first that was an ego boost. So this trip takes place in Long Beach-Huntington Beach borderlines. Its some 80′s rock night so you can guess the crowd attending. All american lol. But anyways, I pull up and a group of women approach the car. This Blonde that ordered the ride and led the pack, She approached the car with this look in her eye that was filled with lust. I can only assume they dont see many young black males around those parts. (Im learning America isnt as intergrated as it preaches). So they all get in, greetings follow. And they start getting ditzy. But its a smooth ride, were Its ever so obvious the blonde is diggin me. Yet, As im learning, younger women dont express their wants or attraction while. As in my story with “The Cougar”, Im very aware that if a woman wants you, she will let you know. Lifes too short for all this thats happening in this ride. But anyways, so in the backseat are her friends, which Im assuming are the cockblocks and overseers of if their friends go home with anyone when they go out. But she kinda narrates the trip. And with this running need for a toothbrush to spend the night at her friends. Which brings up this conversation where the blonde states she has a toothbrush for her. To which we all have a laugh because it sounds rather bizarre that she just has toothbrushes to give out to guest. And then she ask me would I find it creepy if a woman had a toothbrush for me if I stayed over. Which kinda felt like a indirect way of asking me to stay over. But not being bluntly stated, no bite on my end. I tell her that yeah it could be weird but its all on context. To then this point her friend begins talking about she needs vitamin D and a facial mask of some sort. If you ask me, she meant some very sexual things. But once again, not bluntly stated - no bite. Even with the toothbrush conversation that same girl told that blonde, “dont sound like such a hoe”. Which reviewing the trip, its obvious that this is something that isnt out the normal of these chicks. Which among being a good ego boost. Kinda glad I didnt pursue anything thrown out there with any of them. Even more a nod of the right choice, the chicks went from plans on going home to another bar, which it was a little after 12am-ish then. So about a hour and change to drink before last call, or rather find someone with vitamin D and a face mask lol.

All-Americans

This is a very quick trip but a conversation on hindsight that makes me go “hmmm”. Anyways this is directly after the prior trip with the Succubus. And I pick up 3 white guys in Long Beach, like 2nd street where its nothing but bars and nightlife. Im aware of the area being at the beach with an ex near there. Which riding through, it kinda hit me that she probably spent times there for her experience of the nightlife which give her awareness of the beach there. But anyways im going to the pick up with “This Is America” playing. Obvious what that is, if youve ever watched the video or heard it. But I pick them up and its the greets. The guy that sits passenger is the only one talking. The other two or weirdly quiet or maybe offended because with the rate the first guy got in, I only got a introduction to him before they jumped in the back and it was probably a quick “whats up” or something. But anyways we hit the light to turn thats maybe 2 blocks away. So they notice a bar across the street and speak on how packed it is. Which i myself was wondering why this bar had a line to get in it when its many bars in the whole street that didnt. Part of me recognized it was a urban crowd, but it slipped out my mouth that I didnt understand why people wait that long to get in a bar. Which its approaching 12:30am and some of them wouldnt get in til 1am and then it leaves 30 minutes for that. Which the passengers say, “not worth it, right?”. To which I agree. Hindsight i feel he meant its dumb of urban folks to go to bars and wait around for that we just saw. So then he starts asking me am I from the area and i tell him Im from LA. Then he ask where in LA do i visit, bar wise. To which i tell him I just spend my time at home and working that job. To which he calls me a Iron Introvert and then he ask me this really urking question when I look back. “Do you read?”. I chuckled but in my mind im thinking, who the hell doesnt read. Or perhaps he wasnt used to people like me reading. To which he goes in on if ive ever heard of David Goggins. to which he calls a introvert that does crazy shit. amongst the accolades he preaches he tells me about his book. and I ask him whats it about. So he tells me about his growing up and he started with “he grew up in indiana and he was the only...”. Didnt finish the sentence, which i knew exactly what he was gonna say but I was gonna let him say it. So he explains first that his dad had a roller rink and was the first black man to start a business there or thriving business i suppose. Which he abused his son with a lot of beatings. But he becomes who he is and is the only black in the vicinity or that he spoke on. The guy was fascinated by him but kinda was a obvious observations that they dont run into many black folk in that side of the city. And dont truly understand the us, but what they read and see.

[lorenbufeteramos-blog]

back on tumlr

Hello, So I guess im back on tumblr. What's new? TONZ. I think the last time I was actually really active on this thing was like 4 years ago when I used to write stuff everyday. But life happened and we all cant always keep track of all the apps we have on our devices. What made me want to come back? Well i guess one of the reasons is that im actually using my tablet for this lol and i purchased a bluetooth keyboard for it so now its literally a mini laptop amongst all the other laptops i have that i hardly every use. So why not put it to good use. Another reason is that I guess I now have a little more time to just reflect on my day to day lifestyle. So lets talk about my day.. I woke up today at 5am to get ready for work. I didnt get up til 5:15am though. I literally snoozed through 4 different alarms. Typical me. What makes it even more funny in that I woke up to a wake up phone call instead which was nice. So I got up took a quick shower, threw some scrubs on, fixed my hair, made my coffee and left. I get to work and theres literally 10 patients outside the PSC already waiting to get their labs one. -_-" the start of my Monday. Thank god i started at 6am so that I could get off earlier and still have the rest of the day. Drew several patients. Did a stat call. Layed in my car dduring my luch. Vaped. And towards closing I had a mess of specimens I still needed to manifest into the system. I totes fucked up though becaus I had scanned the stat tubes and left the window on stat. So when my co worker went to scan regular tubes for the lab they all ended up being scanned under stat. SOOO i had to delete them all and rescan everything. Woops.. Finished the day around 2:30 and drove home. It was already traffic and hot and I was already tired. I think I only had 3 hours of sleep last night after a long weekend of activities and helping Gerry put together her new loft bed. So now we both our lofting it in our bachlor pad. Super effecient living btw. So I got home and the first thing I did was pack clothes for the week because ill be staying with gf for a little bit. Once i got everything packed i made a shake and ate a protien bar and left the house. Ofcourse at this time it was still traffic. I finally got to gfs house around 6ish and the moment I got there i passed out on the couch. I woke up to her cooking us dinner and she made baked salmon with salad no dressing and asparagus on the side. Damn. That dinner was heaven. We watched a few shows on tv on the couch and i started editing a new video from the weekend i had witht he kids in SF. We started getting sleepy so we migrated over to the room. Gf took a shower and I layed in bed still editing videos. Afterwards i put the laptop down and got up to take a shower. Let the dogs out cus they started barking and wanted to pee i guess. We watched some modern family. and gf called it a night. So shes literally passed out next to me. Haha. Its cool though she does have an early start anyway. Oh crap so do i. And thats pretty much my day. I guess ill talk more about everything else later on down the road. I think tomorrow might be the same thing anyway. I live a pretty boring life during the week but the weekends are a lot more interesting. I have a 9 day vacation starting next week. So i guess i booked a flight to socal. I originally was suppose to go to mexico. But my passport was still locked in the safe in my room with a dead battery so i couldnt get into it in time to book the reservation with them so i decided on a lowkey trip to LA with my cousin and his family. TURNup. So now im off to bed. Its about 11:17pm. And its crazy how early it still may seem but im soo tired and sleepy already. Goodnight everyone who is still on Tumblr. We'll blog about it more tomorrow. - Loren Ramos