#i think id keep it a secret from anyone who couldn't actively see me

[zickmonkey]

Gonna say some semi weird shit lmao sorry

[remembering-angels]

I have something to confess about my spirituality and reincarnation journey…

hello,i took some time off to think about everything, but now I am back, I feel like I have to share things, things that been sitting heavy on my heart for a very long time. when I first started this blog last summer I promised myself that id be open and talk about whatever I want regardless of what people say, but I chickened out. I couldn't, I always worried about what people would say, would they call me crazy? delusional? disrespectful? but ive also been told that keeping secrets isn't healthy, that keeping secrets is bad for my heart, and maybe they are right, If I cant even speak openly on my own blog where can I? I've been advised to share …

I hope whoever is reading this will keep an open mind.

well here it goes, my spirituality and past life.

some people that follow me might already know about my soul origin of an earth angel and me being part of the angelkin community which i am still very much part of so shout out to you, i promise do be more active in that space in the future, i might write a post about it after this one.

but that's funny enough not the life that i am worried about sharing with you today. the life i am worried about sharing with you is one of the many reincarnations I've head on this earth, especially this recent one, the reincarnation i had before this life.

so… back in 2022 i did past life regression, past life regression is basically when you use hypnosis to access a previous life you've had. the thing is that what i saw in that regression session would turn my world upside down and burden me with a terrible secret. you see i saw myself getting murdered, attacked by a man you might have heard of, my past life killer's name is Theodore Robert Bundy or Ted Bundy in short. i have never been so sure of anything in my entire life ever. and i wish , i wish i could tell you that i am trolling or insane or something ,and i wish i could say i am doing this for fame and attention, but i have nightmares monthly, i feel this sinking feeling in my stomach almost daily. I wish i could say i am doing this to ride off his fame and name ,but if i could choose not to associate my name with his ,i would but alas i am here tying my name to his in a twisted horrible way.

Im writing this from the need of every victim and survivor to share their story, to be heard, to raise my voice above his, i have to share this to not be hostage to him, to his secrets and lies and every second im silent i feel hostage. And of course i am writing this out of an incredible feeling of loneliness, i dont fit in any world, if i share my story with people in the true crime community they would call me insane or disrespectful, just another woman claiming to know him, there are plenty of those, i wish there was a way for me to explain the constant state of trauma and fear i lived in when i first discovered this past life of mine, the tears I've cried for days on end and still cry even writing this. i wish i could tell you how strongly i feel it in my bones.

yes i am a reincarnation of one of ted bundy's victims and i know i might end up in a sort of cringe compilation or as a screenshot in a group chat on some discord server full of people calling me delusional (if so ,hi people reading this as a screenshot haha).

i am not trying to claim anyone's story or speak above any survivor or victim, i am just trying to add my own voice to the million other brave voices that deserve a platform just as much. i swear to you if i could choose a past life it wont be this one.

he killed me in 1974, its 2024 now and i still remember as if it happened today. I have mututals that are true crime blogs, i love them a lot, and i love the other girls and survivors , so so much,i care for them and ill never dare to disrespect them, but i cant help this ache in my chest. i wish you knew how sincere i am , i wish you know how sure i am of what happened to me and who did this to me.

This might be my own way of reaching out for understanding and help . I already shared my story plenty of times on reddit but tumblr is more close and dear to me so i wanted to bring this here before you.

if you are still reading and believe me ,i hope you know i am healing and i am alright and ill live regardless of what happened and who believes me. ill live the life that was taken from me all those years ago, there is no other way for me, this incarnation is my biggest revenge, my ability to write this to you and to share this with you is my biggest victory.

so this is what i am going to do from now on ,on my blog and everywhere else, ill be posting about my experiences openly and honestly, no more vague posts, no more secrets, no more worries , no more trying to be sneaky about it. ill post about my experiences both in the angelkin space and the reincarnation/spiritual space openly because that's what i feel is best for me.

be healthy whoever is reading

love and hope

J