#i just think it woukd be such a funny reaction

[zickmonkey]

Gonna say some semi weird shit lmao sorry

[gotafewtricks]

Thinking of a Dog!reader, they have dog ears and a tail, and they act exactly like the type of dog they are. Like a golden retriever is happy or how a Saint Bernard is lazy, you know? Just thought it'd be funny with genji having someone like that 😭

★ Bark bark (... literally)

I personally love these silly requests like this, because they have me think more creatively :3 I may not do it aboslute justice, but gosh... I love dogs <3

With you having these dog-like traits, Genji, in general, would note a mental comment on your appearance; but woukd not push not pressure you about it. You were still a person, and no matter how you had such cute ears and a fluffy tail, the ninja was in no place to judge. He would have some strange (yet, somewhat valid) questions about your anatomy—are you colourblind? Do you eat dog food? Can you bark?

No matter how you responded to him, he would be sitting with you; nodding his head affirmatively with each of your statements. Please tell Genji that he's merely being curious, and to also set boundaries with him, if a topic is too much for you. Making you uncomfortable was something he'd hate to ever hear. He would do his very best to help you accommodate towards things as well, if you do need the assistance.

Along with different dog breeds, I'd like to imagine he'd have the most fun with... maybe a Shiba Inu, Chihuahua, or a golden retriever?

The Shiba Inu is a rather iconic pick, plus, fitting for Genji—considering its place of origin. At first, judging by the looks of your animalistic features, he would try to guess what breed you were at first—then, ultimately settled on you being a Shiba, as he saw your personality unfurl. Plus, that curled up tail gave it all away. Your confident yet more reserved, cat-like demeanor amused the ninja; as he was then excited ro see what you'll do next.

With being friends together, Genji would like the refreshing change of pace that was brought by your attitude—loyal and compassionate, whilst still being individually independent. You'd often hang out with him whenever he is practicing his blade, considering that's what he often-time does in his free hours, anyways. You'd give him a pleasant surprise if you showed off your escape artist skills; able to somehow contort yourself around various, high-scalling nooks and crannies. Genji would joke that you were a better ninja than he was!

If the two of you were to ever be in a relationship, Genji would love to feel his hands around the softness of your ears; smiling to himself, seeing how lovable you were. Even though you had so much energy, he knew keeping up such a big personality to-boot had to be exhuasting; he'd note. Based off of memes, he'd go get you random items—like, y'know that one meme where it's a Shiba, and its wearing a piece of bread? He would have very loving pet (haha get the joke haha get it) names, such as Doge. He'd apologize for how terrible he was at these types of things.

For a Chihuahua, he'd have fun with that one. Stereotyped for their small frame but big temper, he would make jokes about your height; comparing you to different objects, and ask if you could even reach them. Genji would open doors for you, since he'd "worry" that you were too short. Everytime you were to snap back at him, you could tell that he'd roll his eyes—adding that reaction as more ammunition that he could use against you, so that he could tease you further in the future.

He understands to take you seriously, and just because you happen to have a canine appearance, he knew you were still a person at heart; even if you acted like a little shit sometimes towards him. Genji is pretty used to being either around the same height as others, or relatively shorter, so he'd like to think of that as a win for him. If you were to challenge him to a fight, he'll say that you with your ankle-biting tactics may be the formidable enemy against his blade.

He knows how exhausting it must be to have such an attitude like that, and to be so cute, so, if you're uncomfortable with his teasing, please do tell him! He wants to know if he is ever pushing boundaries, and would rather you tell him if he is, rather than for him to accidentally upset and hurt you any further, if he has. Genji knows when to lay off if needed, and he will have more creative jokes, rather than just teasing you about your stature or supposed high ego—as he knows that there is far, far more to you than that.

With a golden retriever, he'd be pretty pleasantly surprised! I feel like Genji's a dog person (self-projection), and he has a soft spot for retrievers and labs! With how contagious your smile and energy was, he couldn't help but love the change of pace that he was getting, since often times, he would talk to people who would only have a sour, pessimistic view. Of which he understood, as he once fell into that hole too. Jealous of how people could be so easily idealistic about the world, he would've shunned those feelings, and felt uncomfortable with sharing. With his newfound enlightenment, he understood that peoples' intentions were not to be idealistic—but to put a positive spin on a rather harsh, sinking reality.

It might take him a minute to try and keep up with your pace, but know that if he were to ever get overwhelmed, he will tell you! He found it interesting that your tail would be swishing back and forth constantly, worried at first that you were trying to communicate something—as dogs communicate with all kinds of gestures, and a wagging tail does not equate to a happy puppy. Once he realized that you were just affectionate and loving naturally, he really understood!

Genji was one to not deny someone of their creative expression, and that is also their love language! Wether that maybe platonic or romantic, he will not take it the "wrong" way, as he has difficulties at times with processing his emotions. Don't be affaid to be all excited; he enjoys seeing you happy, and those ears of yours perk up—too!

... also have this 😭

[clanwarrior-tumbly]

I see u write for spree.. >:] noice,mind if I request something? So like that Eddie and his ghost friend was adorable,and then I thought..what about Kurt meeting and befriending a ghost child headcanons?the ghost child is a famous arsonist and a chaotic gremlin so they help him avoid the cops and stuff,woukd be funny to see his viewers reactions to a ghost

You were a very young Youtuber who recorded tutorials on how to make homemade molotov cocktails. 

Yeah chaos is your specialty. Especially when it involves fire.

Something goes awry and you die in a fiery explosion....or so you thought.

Now you were just a ghost with burn marks, still obsessing over fire and being chaotic as you were when you were alive. And you decide to cause trouble elsewhere instead of moving on like normal spirits.

The murders caused by Kurt get your attention and you find his car, manifesting in the backseat while he’s parked somewhere.

Your presence makes his cameras glitch as his viewers take notice and start spamming ghost emojis and “look behind you!!!!!!”

Kurt is confused as he sees you and didn't hear the door open. Then he wonders if killing a kid on stream would raise his viewer count. He hasn’t done that before.

As he turns back to his phone to consult his viewers, you suddenly reappear in the front seat, smiling and waving to the people who were going crazy while Kurt is frozen in shock.

However he recognizes your face and immediately changes his mind.

“Hey! You’re [username] from Youtube, right??? Kurt Kungle. Big fan. My social is-”

“Oh, I know you, kurtsworld96.” You smile. “I was following you for a while.”

“Really? That’s...wait, what do you mean “was”?” He frowns in confusion.

“I mean I’m..dead. So I can’t exactly leave any comments or likes or shares. But I know what I can help you with.”

“..arson?” 

“Bet.” You both grin and fist-bump (or at least the best you can without your hand phasing through Kurt’s), and that’s the start of a great alliance between two chaotic killers.

You help him evade the police several times and eliminated witnesses. Once you possessed a bystander who accidentally saw what he did and let them go just in time to get run over by a bus.

All while jamming to Gummy Bear or one of his mixtapes. You say they’re pretty fire, pun fully intended.

Burning bodies also became Kurt’s new primary method of disposal.

Any perverts or creeps who got into the car earned a slow death--with you sealing the backseat A/C and causing them to sweat bullets or grinning as they accidentally chug boiling-hot water bottles that burned their throats.

Kurt’s just chilling in the front seat with a mini-fan and ice pack, making peace signs to the viewers.

Nonbelievers of the supernatural still think he’s using tiktok or snapchat filters.

Oh well, you’re helping him get popular so screw them.

[candlewaxandp0lar0ids]

im sooooo excited for iicngyp its the best written peice of work ive ever read but with all due respect please dont humiliate yn that much🙏🙏🙏🙏please dont make her show jealousy before jk does because i simply woukd not be able to take it🛐🛐🛐🛐sorry for the unwarranted request💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

Okay, so, uh, bear with me, there’s a bunch to say here. First of all, when I read the first ask, my main reaction was essentially “YN showing literally any emotion before Jungkook? Now that would be funny.” I would have mainly replied that YN is nowhere near getting jealous, nor do I see her as a jealous person in general. Jungkook, on the other hand, is the jealous type and I think some people noticed it when the chapter came out, but he’s already shown some degreeof jealousy over YN when she's around Fred Lucas in chapter 6. YN just didn’t realize that’s what it was for a variety of reasons lol. So, you know, you don’t have to worry about her showing it first!

Jungkook would be super into it if she ever got jealous though. He’d be super annoying about it but it would also deeply move him and he might end up being the one who’s embarrassed.

For the kiss, I know people interpreted it in two ways, and I intended for the passage to be ambiguous, so, you know, that was good. I will say that I YN is not not justified in her reaction, but she is mistaken in thinking that Jungkook is some kind of master manipulator in that moment. He didn't kiss her with the intent of humiliating her, that wouldn't have crossed his mind, but he did get some satisfaction out of her reaction.

With all that being said, Jungkook basically wears his heart on his sleeve. YN is just not used to that at all and will interpret whatever's going on with a 'logical' perspective, not realizing that he doesn't work that way. So I can say that generally, he's the one who's going to be showing how he feels first, even if YN doesn't see it that way, you can keep an eye out for that 👀

I hope you'll enjoy what I have in store for the rest of the story 😊

[ererokii]

Brain empty, only scenarios about you sitting in their lap only to just watch their beautiful eyes 🥺. LIKE I CAN’T GO ONE DAY WITHOUT IMAGINING THAT, AND JUST THE CLOSENESS TO OUR BELOVED??? OR MAYBE I JUST LOVE EYES DUDE, LIKE, WOW I LOVE ALL THE TINY DETAILS THEY HAVE AND FBWODBWKXNSK

Like:

Reader: *proceeds to sit in Zhongli’s lap* Hello, I’ve come to just stare and maybe touch your beautiful face for 2 hours

Zhongli: Sounds good to me

BDKSNSKSNS IT’S ALSO FUNNY THINKING HOW THE REACTIONS MAY VARY, LIKE, maybe Diluc, Dain and Albedo would be like uhhh honey I’ve got work to do but they let you stay nonetheless, Kaeya, Venti and Childe are going to be little shits about it (“oh, didn’t know you wanted to be so close to me) and Xiao would THROW YOU BECAUSE NO THANK YOU TOO MUCH CONTACT (eventually he would let you sit, but it would take a lot of time)

Also, I woukd have given the same scenario but with the girls, and I’ve come to realize that THE MAJORITY OF THEM ARE ALWAYS SO BUSY THAT IT WOULD BE NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE TO DO IT, LIKE, NING, GANYU AND JEAN?? THEY ARE ALWAYS WORKING 😭🥺

-💫 (I will totally fail my test tomorrow, but I’m slowly accepting it and it scares me)

NAH BC IM TURNING THIS INTO MINI SCENARIOS RN LMAO THANK U BB FOR THE FOOD🥰🥰

zhongli: he doesn’t care if he’s busy or he’s just lounging around. If you decide to come sit on his lap out of the blue, automatically he’s going to wrap his arms around you. When you stare into his eyes, he can’t help but let out a small laugh that sounds so adorable it could make you squeal on sight. He’ll ask why you’re staring at him for a period of time and you’ll simply state that you’re trying to get mesmerized by his eyes. He’ll let you and hold you close, kissing your head as he reminds you how adorable you are.

Diluc: man will be working and you’ll be like “mmm right now,” and decide to sit on his lap. When you do, he stiffens just a little as his hands are preoccupied holding a pen and paper in each of them. He’ll let out a huff and mutter something into your ear, something along the lines of telling you to wait until he’s finished. But you whine, shake your head and impossibly scoot closer to him in his lap. With defeat, he’ll wrap an arm around you and work around you, enjoying your company nonetheless

venti: ABSOLUTELY LOVES WHEN YOU SIT ON HIS LAP. He LOVES holding you close no matter what. So when you surprise him by sitting on his lap, he’ll like out a noise of excitement and immediately smother you, burying his head in your neck as he places sloppy kisses, listening to your laughs and failed attempts at shoving you off. “Ah but darling you came to me first! I’m just returning the gesture is all!”

Childe: ah I don’t even need to explain this one LMAO. This man right here, he would beg for you to sit on his lap. It brings him a sense of comfort having you near him and for..other purposes but that’s besides the point. If you sit somewhere that ISNT his lap, he’ll whine and pout, patting his thighs as he calls for you. He has to convince you to sit down by saying it’s comfortable, even if you know that but you love getting him pouty.

Xiao: xiao xiao xiao...poor baby is touch starved to the point where he’s still unused to being shown affection :( holding hands is bit of a struggle but he eventually got used to it. Of course you didn’t just sit on his lap, only brought up the idea to which he turned down instantly. Instead of being upset, you simply nodded and hoped that in the future it would happen. Well it did and it was the best thing xiao experienced. It made him feel warm and fuzzy

albedo: now this man will persistently try to get you off of his lap while he’s working. His job takes 100% of his focus and with you around, he’ll never get it done. But since you’re so stubborn, you refuse to budge. He can only sigh and maybe ask you one more time, more sternly but with a soft voice. You still say no and snuggle into him. He doesn’t get mad, only pats your head and decides to take a break because maybe working for 5 hours straight isn’t good for the human body.

kaeya: HA. This man takes everything up a notch. He’s touchy and just loves feeling your skin underneath his hands. He’ll mock you and say there were plenty of other places to sit but you chose his lap? Something ain’t right there but he doesn’t question it, instead relishing in the warmth you provide. His hands will wander up and down your thighs, your back and even your arms. His kisses are nice too🥰

[hee4won]

exploring an abandoned building w/ bffs!en-

warnings: horror? maybe one bad word but other than that none.

a/n: hopefully i’m posting this after i’ve already made a masterlist 🤔 thanks for the likes on my first post btw!! <3

heeseung

i rmbr during i-land when everyone was scared of that “ghost” + heesseung was super relaxed but since debut he seems to have softened up so i think he wouldn’t mind showing his fear around you guys!!

so.. his heart would be pounding before u even get to the building

and it’s not like it’s a scary place either it’s just old and run down .. like a rlly empty old mall

HOWEVER! being the eldest he can not show his fear!! right?

wrong.

that boy will literally stay sandwiched between you and niki because

“you’re both really young and still have a lot of fight left in you” ??? Ok Heeseung.

for some time he actually eases up and enjoys going to different areas w the guys

and that’s when you and niki go “missing”

in reality you guys just snuck off to the old food court to come up with a way to scare the living crap out of hee

you two definitely were not trying to see if the frosty machine still worked 😇

details abt scaring hee will be under niki!

jay

you know what

i really don’t think jay would be that scared

scratches head

you know that little smug grin he always has on his face ?

yeah he’d have it the whole time bc hes the “least scared” out of everyone there

jay is actually in need of a hand hold, a back rub, literally ANYTHING

he just can’t show his weakness in front of you guys

sunghoon would be sneaky bc he can sense jay’s bluff and come up behind the poor boy

jay would flinch so hard he pulls a muscle LMAOO

and all of you were actually watching bc

there’s no way jay was pretending to keep his cool the wholee time right

yeah looks like you’re wrong again. 0 for 2

jake

holding your hand the entire time he has ZERO shame

he’s only glued to you bc sunghoon got tired of him

jake just woukd not let go no matter the circumstances

it was almost as if his senses became advanced when he was scared..?

like his eyesight would pick up on the tiniest piece of lent and he would flip

ALSO HIS HEARING ?

this boy could hear the rain coming in an hour before the weather channel 😑

overall he’s terrified and he won’t deny it at all he doesn’t care

if you complain he’ll say it’s your fault for inviting him in the first place (which is true)

sunghoon

oky i know everyone says this but he’s cool as a cucumber

UNLESS!! he hears something or “sees something staring at him in the corner”

we all saw him playing the vr horror game during i-land okay we know he’s a chicken

but if he gets scared he’ll freak out then act like it never happened HELP

he will literally scream and flail like a little baby then deadpan and say “why’d we stop? let’s keep going”

EVERYONE CAUGHT HIM IN 4K

but you guys know it will hurt his pride if you tease him so you let him be aww besties 🥺❤️

sunoo

why would you suggest something like this

it’s not like he was freaking out he was just confused as to why you would propose an idea like this in the first place

he said he wasn’t gonna do it 😭

sunoo is like.. “do i look like i want to throw my mental stability out the window?? i’m not going y/n.”

but you begged and begged and he agreed to RIDE THERE

he was staying in the car though

he actually lasted a while just sitting in the car until it started getting dark and he realized that he couldn’t drive

so he texted you guys to let you know that he was coming in

the whole time he was trying to find you guys he was humming to himself bc it would “make the ghosts too happy to be mean” ...

jungwon

had no reaction when you were letting everyone know about your idea

he was just like “okay, let’s do it”

nice enthusiasm jungwon 😒

i think he would have the best time honestly

and not bc of the exploring

he just enjoyed seeing everyone older than him freak out about literally nothing

and you better believe this boy has his phone out recording the WHOLEEE thing

on the way home he puts all the vids and pics together in a small comp w bg music so he can show you guys when you get to the dorm

it was very funny btw

ni-ki

oh boy

you two had the best time

also not bc of the exploring part

you guys had actually been coming up with a way to scare heeseung for a while now

bc he woke you guys up after you two had pulled an all-nighter

so yes this was actually niki’s idea

but he made YOU tell the guys bc no one would agree if niki had asked

poor kid 🙏

THE PLAN: scope out a bathroom -> you feel sick so you need to find a toilet -> heeseung goes w you bc hes the oldest -> niki is secretly following behind u guys -> you trick heeseung into checking a stall -> niki sneaks into the stall furthest from hee -> you slowly creep out of the bathroom and slam the door shut -> niki scares hee while he’s in there (keep in mind it’s pitch black in there once the door is shut)

and well the rest is history 😇

it was very successful btw heeseung couldn’t sleep alone for a whole week

[soysaurus]

recently, i was reminded of dabee (never really forgot about him tbh, he will always have a special place in my heart), but that did lead me to want to grace my sketchbook with dabee doodles…and then i found myself rifling through the many barry bee benson images on pinterest (why are there a weird nu mber of adrien from mlb images in the more like this section???? puh-lease, plagg is raising someone better,,,,*looks at the mlb love square* or maybe not).

anyway, i started to think about a valid and reasonable (or, as reasonable as i could get) way to include a bee movie au in bnha,,,,and make it dabihawks bc somehow that just happened. typomachine is me k0dzuken is @purple-haze-bunny​

transcript of dms under the cut!!

typomachine:  but also I had this big dabihawks bee movie idea that’s like Got an actual reason for the bee movie

k0dzuken: WHAT ARE U EVEN SAYING💀 Also plz go on😳 Would hawks also be a bee or ?😳

typomachine: Hehehehehe ok so

k0dzuken: what have i started

typomachine: The lov finds this guy who’s making money in the underground with his quirk which lets him basically kind of snatch things from the past And dabi is curious and somehow ends up with a copy of the bee movie And bc he’s dabi, he forces hawks to watch it with him and it’s horrible and he makes a joke any quirks not being the worst thing to grace humanity But then the next day Hawks is regretting his life choices bc really he’s spying on a highly dangerous villain organisation only to spend his Thursday night watching the fucking bee movie But then there’s this minor villain but he’s nearby and hawks helps out Rumi is also fighting this villain and ngl he seems kinda weak But then he calls on his wee gang and they still are no match for the furry bffs (letter F emoji reaction on this message)  Except in this au Hawks and rumi don’t actually know each other that well bc like they’re both kinda loners tbh But then as the villains are getting arrested One of them grabs them both and activates his quirk as a kind of last minute revenge thing to fuck shit up and also try and escape

k0dzuken: WAIT WHY AM I SO INVESTED💀

typomachine: But his quirk is that you get transported to the world of the last movie u saw HEHEHE And u end up taking the place as one of the characters in that movie Rumi is a busy gal and she actually hasn’t seen a full movie in a long time So somehow they’re both in the bee movie and hawks is like oh no what the fuck no this cannot be happening While rumi is like ok we’re in a movie what’s so bad about it

k0dzuken: Its one of the worst movies ever thats whats bad😔

typomachine:  Except the movie also kind of casts people that you have talked to recently and seen the movie with in the roles of other characters (flushed emoji reaction on this message) ITS GLOROUUS I need to rewatch it honestly And then fucking dabee appears with the ya like jazz line

k0dzuken: Okay but thats actually such a cool quirk😔

typomachine: PFFFT It would be so good for game nights And hawks is traumatised bc omfg

k0dzuken: > ITS GLOROUUS I hate that i read most of the scenario and memorized the start of the movie💀💀💀

typomachine: He’s in the role of that girl and that means...he has to fall in love with a bee KABDJSJSSJAKKSSJS

k0dzuken: HORRIBLE FATE REALLY

typomachine: HEHEH so, the first time he’s really just focused on getting out and like...hoping the quirk would wear off on its own so he kind of doesn’t do what the girl in the movie would do And it ends with the world burning bc there were no bees and there’s lots of blue fire

k0dzuken: Yeah cause hawks isnt that stupid💀 ODJSKSSISNSSMLSJSKSJSJSB OH DID DABI SET THE WHOLE WORLD ON FIRE

typomachine: But then the entire thing restarts and hawks is back with dabee and the ya like jazz line and he and rumi figure out tg at they need to play out the movie so the world ‘ends’ and they can leave PFFFT THAT WOUKD BE SO FUNNY JUST THIS ONE TINY BEE SETTING THE ENTIRE WORKD ON FIRE

k0dzuken: > But then the entire thing restarts and hawks is back with dabee and the ya like jazz line and he and rumi figure out tg at they need to play out the movie so the world ‘ends’ and they can leave OH NO HE HAS NO CHOICE💀

typomachine: And then they do that and hawks is back in the normal world and rumi is just like,,,.going to forget that ever happened she was curious abt why it was dabi in the other mc’s role but now that it’s over she just doesn’t care and wants to not even ask lol

k0dzuken: Honestly i believe in dabee

typomachine: PFFFT beelieve in dabee amen

k0dzuken: Rumi really said : 👉🏽V👄V👈🏽

typomachine: PFFFT YES

k0dzuken: I give that scenario a solid 8/10 tbh

typomachine: and then dabi actually is an ass and calls a meeting with hawks and hawks cannot even face him bc omg dabee

k0dzuken: -2 points cause i feel bad for hawks😔

typomachine: LMAOO PFFFFFT valid he’s traumatised honestly wow thank you for reading all that. here’s a cat to cleanse your soul uwu

[ecl1pse]

that “aww i hope you find her” post really got me thinking about the fact that i never really been in a real “relationship” bc not only am closed off to almost anyone but also the fact that even if i like someone, the moment they show any sort of interest right back, all of mine disipates like dirt on a windy day. and there’s this couple of perfect examples i keep thinking of lately:

a long time ago, like almost five years ago wow im getting old a friend i talked pretty regularly back then asked me if i had any sort of crush on another mutual friend we had. i was pretty close to this friend, even closer the than first. i met him way before i met the friend who asked me, and when she asked she said that she was just compiling a list of people who had little crushes on our mutual friend bc he’s super nice and she wanted him to know that he was well loved. which, aw. wish someone would do that for me, but im awful. so.

n e wAYZ. she asked if i liked him and just. panicked. i did have the smallest crush on him at the time. he’s one of the sweetest persons i’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting and interacting with, like, ever. he always made me feel super comfortable and was hilariously funny. but i wasn’t about to tell my other friend that bc feelings are gross and admitting to them is ew. thankfully for me all these interactions were online, so it was easy for me to say no like the fucking pathological liar i am. i was just like, “haha, ew. no! he’s like, my best guy friend! nooo!” til this day idk if she bought or told him what i said. we all grew apart as school and life got busier for them and i descended deeper into my depression. but i do remember him making these little remarks thru out the years saying i was pretty whenever we’d trade selfies and i was so nice. and i’d just. squirm. and idk if it was bc i had that lil crush on him or bc i hated myself so much that i couldn’t take a compliment, but i woukd just shoot him down every time he’d show any sort of interest on me. so we grew distant. my crush on him died. and he will never know about it.

so flash forward to little over a year ago, once again i’m talking with friends online, and i’ve grown closer to this guy i’ve known for years, but lately we have discovered we have way more things in common than we ever thought. one night we’re talking, and he says “you know what, i think i have never seen your face.” he sends a photo of himself so i dont feel to uncomfortable. my years of self hatred have made just not take selfies for a while. so i sent him a photo of me destroying a piñata at my birthday party, and then a few photos of me w my family during the party bc i just don’t know how to take photos of myself. that’s just not a skill i have. he says i’m pretty, i thank him. hours and many jokes later he says i’m so cool and he could easily fall and crush on me bc i’m just his ideal type, pretty and funny. i shut him right away by reminding him i’m the worst and i tend to ghost on people all the time. he’s like, yeah, you’re the worst. but i could still like like you. and i’m like, first of all, thanks for the compliments but i really would not advise you to do that bc like mentioned before i am the worst and second, you’re younger than me, so ew. my moral compass could never allow me to see you in a romantic way. the damage i could do would be catastrophic, especially considering his previous relationship was not very good and my emotional maturity is mostly me pretending i know shit. which i don’t. he wasn’t in like, vulnerable state or anything. in fact he was doing better than he’d done in months. but still. all i could think was my little sister and if a guy my age allowed her to pursue him i’d kick his balls. and like, the age gap wasn’t even that big. he’s just a couple of years younger than me (my sister is 4 1/2 years younger btw).

the point is. any time anyone shows some interest, even if i did have some beforehand, my gut reaction is to just shoot them down right on the spot. cuz idk. i guess im too stupid and think they’re just being too nice, or my interest just wanes down cuz i like to joke around, and i like to make people feel nice, so i give them compliments and they compliment me back — which feels nice — but people tend to think i mean something by it and i’m being flirty. usually i’m not. i just wanna make them smile a lil cuz they made me smile too, so it’s only fair i do the same.

idk where this post is going now other than ig i’m still emotionally stunted and idk if i’m capable of romantic love, but i’d still like to experience it one day. everyone makes it sound so nice and i’m tired of missing out.