#i think im finally clean

[ldrvioletsforroses]

[belog-grada-crna-princeza]

I think I'm finally clean.

Hoću te(be).

Droga si i ja te hoću. Svaki tren sa tobom mi budi vrelu krv u žilama. Samo sam s tobom živa. Sa drugima je smrt. Mrzim ih jer me ubijaju prazninom, jer ne znaju da me ubiju, a da ponovo oživim. Igram igru. Pretvaram se da postojim, ali nisam među njima. Igram(o) igru, predvidljivu, znam im sve karte, svaki potez, zamka i šah mat. Ti si moja droga, gubiš dejstvo. Imam moć da te ne uzmem, sada ne deluješ. Neću ravnicu. Gurni me u provaliju ili podigni na vrh nebodera. Moje zenice ne reaguju više. Statua sam, to je i moja kazna, kao i tvoja. Pokaži mi da umireš bez mene i biću tvoja za tren. Ako ti nisam potrebnija nego kiseonik koji dišeš, onda je to glupa igra, a ja glupe igre ne volim. Samo one sa prevelikim ulogom, na život i smrt. Samo te igram. Samo te se računaju. Samo te su zanimljive. Hoću te(be), ali te neću. Odlazim, klizim, iseći ćeš me iz svake ćelije svoga bića i to će te ubiti. Bez tebe me nema, bez mene te nema. Ratuješ, ali ne sa mnom. Šteta. Poginula bih za tebe za tren i to nikad nećeš doživeti. Svaka suza koju ne puštaš uliva se u more ispred nas, ti i tuđa ruka i ja i tuđi svet. Našeg nema. Više ne. Destrukcija svakog drugog podseća me na destrukciju jedinog stvarnog, a više ga nema. Game: on. Osmeh. Gest. Prava reč. Pravo pitanje. Položen test. Pogrešan.

Ti si moja droga i hoću te, ali te vene odbijaju. Ne strujiš više, truješ. Ja se za tebe trujem, dopuštam ti, a trebam i ja tebi. Na drugačiji način.

Ne igram se - ne predajem se, ne pobeđujem. Jednostavno ne igram glupe igre. Možda te pobedim nekad, možda nekad postanem tvoj ubica. Ili ti moj.

Za sada ne živim. I niko to ne zna.

Niko, osim tebe.

- Katarina

[lesbiandarvey]

MAJOR GIANT GARGAUNTAN OCD HURDLE CLEARED!! I FEEL GREAT!!!!!!!!

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

[theygotlost]

🤘 FROM THE LADLE 2 THE GRAVE 🤘

[deoidesign]

Sketching

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

YALL HOLY SHIT

LOOK WHAT SOMEBODY DROPPED OUTSIDE MY HOUSE

[kitteecassee]

add me on snap? c: housecatcassee

[trashcreatyre]

Get these gay people OFF my screen >:/

[marxism-transgenderism]

..

[puppyeared]

Jitterbug

[crow-quet]

so ive been listening to sky for the first time,

[good-beanswrites]

I wanted to bring up a silly ship idea. Just for fun.

03, 06, 09, 10

Was this before Kotoko attacked them? After? I dunno.

Thoughts?

YES the cringefail 20yo polycule 👏👏👏 Thank you for the request! I've seen a lot about the individual pairs, so it was really fun to think about all their dynamics together! I have a set of hcs that could work in the current canon Milgram, and then a normal au set because it's so fun thinking about them :3

Milgram-focused

The I’m-a-loner-who’s-doing-it-for-justice-don’t-TOUCH-me pair finally meet their match when confronted with the I-loved-someone-so-much-and-don’t-plan-on-stopping pair. They all go into the relationship with grand ideas of love: they think it’s all heroic acts of saving, massive gestures or love, and dramatic confessions. Over time, they realize the real heroism/romance is in the little things. 

Mahiru has her hands full with three people who neglect themselves for the sake of their work/interests, but she always loves feeding them and helping give them what they need. In turn, they can give her more affection and attention than she could ever ask for. They make sure someone is always around to spend time with her.

Each of the three is a perfect match for dealing with John’s reveal. Mahiru is calming and helps tone down Mikoto’s initial stress. Fuuta is honest and will help Mikoto finally confront his own situation and move forward. And since Kotoko can match his strength, Mikoto doesn’t need to be afraid of accidentally hurting anyone. Mikoto becomes less stressed with the overall situation as well as more accepting of himself/John.

I always love the idea that Fuuta is secretly starstruck by Kotoko and John’s strength. He’ll never admit how much he admires their ability to stand up and fight. He feels really safe around them. He’s glad to have the opportunity to fight for someone else, too – he likes to be Mahiru’s self-proclaimed protector and hero. (Even though most of the time she can stand up for herself, she still likes letting him take care of her.)

Kotoko’s experiences let her hold solid conversations with everyone. She’s similar enough to Fuuta where they share some interests (social issues, schooling, etc.) She understands hard work and burnout to earn Mikoto’s respect. She understands physical strength to earn John’s. She has a lot of people-knowledge, so she can gossip and talk about Tokyo life to Mahiru (Mappi’s doing most of the ‘gossiping,’ but Kotoko has solid additions). She's a good listener and has a good memory, so everyone feels heard by her.

They start to rub off on each other. Mahiru and Mikoto learn to be a bit tougher in standing up for herself. Fuuta, John, and Kotoko learn to take a breath before jumping right to violence. They stay very much who they are, but pick up on just a few habits that make their lives easier.

Their styles also influence one another: Fuuta gets pointers from all three about piercing his ears (though it takes him a long time to get up the nerve to do it). Mahiru helps the others dress more trendy and boost their confidence, and they teach her to worry less about her appearance and relax more. 

If they get together T1, Kotoko is shocked by the T1 verdicts. She might pull away from everyone in initial horror, but after developing a relationship ahead of time, she doesn’t follow through with her attacks. If not, then maybe in T3 when Kotoko is suffering from her guilty verdict, Mahiru and Mikoto are able to bridge the gap and develop a friendship, leading to more. Fuuta would take longer to come around, but I think seeing Kotoko got through the same pain as him, his hero instincts would kick in and he’d gradually help. 

Normal-au

Mahiru once again tries out her lovers’ interests, and gets a bunch of new hobbies. Fuuta teaches her to game, she works out with Kotoko, and she tries out photography with Mikoto. She becomes close with Fuuta’s beautician sister, and enjoys bonding over fashion and hair. She helps redye Mikoto’s hair, and give the other two pointers on style now and then. When going to nicer events, she and Mikoto have to step in and stop the others from their sneaker/hoodie combos. As the only one with a license, she’s the designated driver at all events, but doesn’t mind. 

Fuuta uses his tech skills to set up social media accounts for the others. He helps Mahiru network her flower shop, fighting anyone who leaves a bad comment/review. He helps set up a complex online portfolio for Mikoto. He and Kotoko still have a passion for justice, and he becomes the tech brains behind her vigilante operations (very Ron Stoppable - Kim Possible) It’s not necessarily healthy growth, but they’re happy with it lmao

Mikoto is the only full-time worker, the others are all still in university, and he makes sure to keep them all on track. He knows the most efficient tricks and cheats about getting papers done, pulling all-nighters, and cramming before an exam. The others have learned to spot when he’s burning himself out for others, and will stop him when he tries to take on too much. They’ll take care of him and force him to rest. While he can still get into a bit of trouble, John learns to call them first and get some help. 

Kotoko has trained herself to find people and information easily to catch criminals, but she finds use for it in much more mundane ways – she tracks down clients for Mahiru, snoops around Mikoto’s company to make sure he’s being treated right, and keeps an eye out for the people Fuuta is calling out and/or hanging out with. She goes on runs with Mahiru, and bike rides with Mikoto. Fuuta tags along sometimes to strengthen his legs for soccer. 

There’s definitely potential for them all to have their murders pre- or mid- relationship, and they help one another improve themselves and heal. I’m also a sucker for the relationship itself to cause them to change their ways and narrowly avoid the murder in the first place. (For the latter, Mahiru would ironically be the last to join the relationship, since she’d still be with her bf until the other three inspire her to break it off with him gently.)

[suntails]

i'm spinning in circles and giggling maniacally. i'm working on a super SUPER ambitious silver animatic and i've made so much PROGRESS i'm so EXCITED!!!!! i started it just abt a week ago and i finished the full rough pass in 2 days and by now, i have 40/60 shots fully sketched out. i want. blinks. i want to fully color it. i'm GIDDY

[lupismaris]

I'm coping with being back in the Chesapeake just fine thanks for asking pay no mind to the crockpot of stew bubbling on a 91 + humidity day while I nurse this fuckin heat/pollen induced migraine with even more water and weed