#i took screenshot of this picture randomly from Instagram

[fairydrowning]

Posting this here for everyone!!

[witness-lessme]

TEXT 7

My last and final text is taken from Facebook, which is a platform that I know is very very popular still in Singapore but I don't personally use. Therefore, it took a while before I finally came across a post that my friend shared onto my feed that provided a glimpse into Singaporean Facebook.

The original post from the page called Heritage SG Memories seems to serve a phatic function by using an old picture of the local bookstore Popular to spark a conversation among the community. The caption also serves as a stimulus for this discussion, "the place that u will go when weather is hot". The omission of the preposition "to" in this sentence emulates the grammar of Singlish when spoken verbally.

The second top comment by Sky Wong tags their friend Hariesh to get Hariesh to look at the picture. This is the same as in Text 4 when I explained how tagging someone has evolved beyond a marker to indicate a conversation thread, but a communication tool to "send" a post to somebody else. In the case of Facebook, the @ symbol will disappear once the tag has inserted, and the name of the person tagged will be shown in bold letters instead.

The use of emoji in these comments suggest to me a crowd that is older than Gen Z as in most of these comments, the emoji choices seem less creative and dissimilar to what Gen Z might use. Take San Santo Rex's comment for example, they share a funny anecdote and then follow it with "laughing with tears" emoji, "pleading eyes" emoji and "sunglasses" emoji. The latter two are not very relevant to the topic of the comment or discussion, but seem more like the type of emoji an older person might randomly choose. A quick Google search revealed to me that as of 2023, about 75% of Singaporean users on Facebook are older than Gen Z. Furthermore, by nature of the field of this discussion being nostalgia for the 90s, it can be safe to assume that most if not all of these commenters who are sharing their own anecdotes of the time are well older than Gen Z.

Another element of CMC that I notice in this is the use of reactions to comments. Granted that this feature is not given as an option to users on Reddit, Instagram, etc. within the comment section, so it would be unfair to say that users from these platforms would not also use them given the chance. On Facebook however, users can "react" to comments using emojis such as the "thumbs up" emoji to represent liking, the "laughing" emoji to represent humour, etc. In this screenshot it seems that the "like" is the most favoured since it is the default reaction on Facebook. This is a form of non-verbal CMC that Facebook users have become accustomed to for expressing their support toward another person's post or comment.

[qingxintea]

➼ chongyun || hiraeth

tw: mention of knives (no violence), kidnapping, explosion _______

you angled your camera to catch your face and upper body correctly and adjusted your blinds for the correct lighting. you put thin pieces of yellow and pink paper over your lamp to give off a sunset lighting sort of aesthetic in your minimalist room. your tiny cacao tree sat in the corner of your room, setting some sort of simple beach vibe.

then, you began to stream.

you watched as majority of your followers came to view as you sat in your rolly gaming chair. the greetings came rushing in and you noticed two of your friends had came along too, xingqiu and chongyun.

"hey gang, it's kingexplosionmurder here with your weekly sunday stream," you smiled and watched as comments came in asking you to notice them. beginning to select randomly, you flicked a short strand of hair behind your ear. "you have been noticed, yourlocalsugardaddy," you blessed them. and you swore you chose randomly.

on the other side of the screen, chongyun's face slightly flushed before eating his popsicle again. yes, that was his username, selected by xingqiu after the guhua heir was somehow able to trick him into selecting so. the situation must've been that he accidentally consumed some jueyun chili's, that was also xingqiu's doing.

he watched you smile as you explained your schedule for this stream, when he noticed you suddenly began laughing. it sounded genuine, he wanted to believe it was genuine, but there was a trace of disappointment in it. he observed your face, noticing you were looking at the chat box. "i agree too, scarymoose."

scarymoose: this streamer's kinda dog shit ngl 😐

by instinct, his fingers grazed over the keyboard as he analyzed the tone. this kid wasn't joking around with himself, he was really out to bring you down. he exhaled, shaking his head, wondering how you would deal in the situation.

yourlocalsugardaddy: miss karen this isn't yelp 🙄

he wasn't content with that yet, things could've gone onto more serious matters, but he knew you liked to keep your chat clean and peaceful. you went to the farther extents to keep that from happening, agreeing with rude comments yourself as a said joke, but actually have it sometimes harming you.

so chongyun tried his best to keep you happy.

redrumreaper: yo moose chill 😳

he recognized his friend xingqiu also trying to calm the situation as you just laughed it off and attempted to continue, sooner enough just beginning to ignore all his comments. some other viewers came up to your defense but in all honesty, you wanted to move on.

"s-so, i found some silk flowers outside of wangshuu inn yesterday, aren't they pretty?" you took a tiny bouquet of the said silk flowers and presented it to your viewers, holding it next to your cheek. the pink tone of the flowers matched the color of your cheeks and made for a nice picture. chongyun would've screenshotted it, but he respected your privacy.

yourlocaldumba$$: yes they're so pretty we love you 😍

13lue13erry: yes ong ong 💕 thiccer than my granny

Straw13erry: don't bring madame ping into this 💀💀

colino: are you sure it's alright to take from someone's legally owned property ?? much less from their garden

Straw13erry: u mean ur neighbors don't harvest ur flowers every day? 🙄 privilege spoke 🤚

yourlocalsugardaddy: vv pretty 😳

redrumreaper: simp 💀

you slightly choked over on your side and xingqiu calling chongyun a simp, for you. quickly clearing your throat, you regained your composure. your viewers could see that your cheeks had been dusted with a darker shade now.

13lue13erry: 👀

Straw13erry: 👀

yourlocaldumba$$: 👀

redrumreaper: 👀

sireluck: 💀

bazinga: 👀

dandelionn: 👀

poetichoe: 👀

"okay- anyways," you pushed that aside, watching the chain of 👀's coming in. you weren't too sure at what they were referring to, but just assumed that they were interested in xingqiu exposing chongyun. but, there was no way chongyun really felt like that, right? it was just a friendly compliment from what you believed. "just a tiny flex but y'all guys, i am so cracked at apex, not gonna lie. for all the new followers out there," you randomly commented. 'and to change the subject.'

"actually, you know what? fuck the schedule, let's go to trolling little eight year old kids posting selfies on instagram. due to certain reasons i'm just not gonna be blurring their usernames out, but please don't spam these people, i don't wanna be cancelled 💗" you sweetly smiled as you pulled up instagram and started streaming on your phone.

of course your sus notifications ruined it 🤡🤡

because xingqiu took advantage of the situation, sending messages to your discord. nothing mentioning your romantic life because he knew better than that, but just trolling. 'HEY GANG. ITS ME, TONY, AND TODAY WE'RE GONNA SEE IF IM FASTER THAN THIS MOUSE TRAP.' 'TURNS OUT, I AM NOT FASTER THAN THIS MOUSE TRAP.' 'AN UPDATE, IT HURTS. ALRIGHT. BYE GUYS.' you tried hard to contain your laughter, but certain giggles came out in the end, giggles that made chongyun's heart flutter.

xingqiu just kept spamming without a stop, to the point that you accidentally clicked into the notification instead of someone's username on a selfie post. so now everyone could see your group chat with xingqiu, chongyun, and a few other viewers that were actually your other friends.

13lue13erry: oh no 🤡

Straw13erry: 🗿

yourlocaldumba$$: HAHAHAHA WE'RE EXPOSED 🤡👌

just water support boy 😔: image.png

oh my god he's sending chongyun catboy edits. you made this concerning noise, glad no one really seemed to know who chongyun really was on twitch. you went back to instagram, beginning to dm a random kid, ignoring the situation that had just happened.

chongyun choked, slight heat running to his cheeks. what the fuck was xingqiu doing- how did he even get those pictures? maybe it was that one time xingqiu forced him to go to a furry con, but how did he ever get the time to photograph these? he nervously fidgeted and played with his fingers.

13lue13erry: 🤡

Straw13erry: 🤡

yourlocaldumba$$: 🤡

redrumreaper: 🤡

<— oraoraoraor

kingexplosionmurder: chav check

oraoraoraor: what

kingexplosionmurder: chav: check 😹😹

oraoraoraor: bruh

oraoraoraor: who tf are you

kingexplosionmurder: hope you like baddies cause i'm bad at everything 💗

oraoraoraor: bruh ok i'm blocking

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: 😐

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: wtf

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: wait wait UR that one twitch streamer?

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: ig ur fans gonna be so disappointed in you

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

oraoraoraor: hahaha wtf i'm gonna post this and tag you

kingexplosionmurder: stop dming me

afterwards you sent a barrage of really cursed images and left the person on read when they tried to complain and get a reaction out of you. you chuckled, extremely satisfied with yourself. this is what your viewers followed you for. you went on hunting for another user, "GO Y/N GO" filling up your chat.

you were just about to dm this other kid until you heard a ring from your doorbell. "oh what the fuck, i didn't invite anyone. but you know what, i'll pull something up to entertain y'all guys while i'm afk." searching on youtube, you typed in 'banana fish ep. 1' and clicked on the longest video you saw. then you got up from your chair, making your way to the front door.

you didn't mute yourself before because you thought there was really no need to, and you underestimated your mic sensitivity. god did you wish that you could go back and time and do just that.

twisting the doorknob, you opened your door and was met with... a certain, someone.

someone that you recognized and has caused you so much pain, and it was all so fun and games before they had to come along. "bruh. aight what you here for fam?" you played it super chill, though you were really sick and tired of this person's shit.

"(y/n). we need to talk," her stern voice made you flinch as you just stared straight into her eyes. you simply nodded your head and crossed your arms, shifting your weight onto your right leg. "we're thinking of taking you back home."

your froze, your breath hitching as you just stood there, waiting for her to go on. clenching your fists and looking down, you stayed silent for a little moment and questioned, "...why?"

"well, you have a stable income source, right?" she asked, putting her hands on her hips. "you can finally be of use to us," she clasped her hands together, a bright smile on her face. your finger twitched, awaiting an explanation. "you're a streamer, yeah? so you can be a useful asset to our family name."

"...you only want me to come back so i can make you all seem... good?"

and here you thought, just for a second, that you would be accepted back into the place where you really belonged. your shoulders slumped, as small tears began to well up in your eyes. "and for our profitable gain of course, it would be a shame to not acquire that from you."

you composed yourself and looked up. "im afraid my profit can only cover for one person, and it would be myself that i focus to make a suitable and independent living out of. you've kicked me out ever since i've graduated from college and had me fend for myself, now inviting me back once i have a stable job?" you breathed, fiddling with the sleeves of your black hoodie.

"oh, not inviting, dear. taking."

confused by her words, you let your guard down as she suddenly pushed a warm cloth over your mouth as you let out a constrained scream. you tried to break free of her grasp, reaching for the switchblade in your pocket, but the drowsing chemicals from the cloth took control of you and you felt disoriented. "you... bitch..."

your head hit the floor.

》●✿ time ● skip ✿●

silence.

thats all you heard when you awoke.

pure, unfiltered silence that overwhelmed you as you were completely lost. what was happening?

you tried turning to the other side of your childhood bed, the moon casting light shadows into your 'room'. there was a rope around your wrists you noticed, so you brought them up to your lips and starting gnawing on them until it broke apart. (guys we feral its not a furry instinct ok?/ ??  ?)

the material had irritated your skin, but you put that aside for now. escape- thats what you really needed to do. it was fairly dark, but you didn't have a good estimate of time. the analog clock was broken and set to a different time that displayed 11AM. you sat up, your fingers running along the frame of the window next to you.

for a moment, you stopped, thoughts rushing into your head. what if you could start a whole other life here where things could finally be peaceful, what if you didn't have to feel so isolated anymore, what if you could- ...

no. (y/n), get yourself together. what has happened will anyways stay there, and there is no healing scars. ...still, you couldn't shake off the feeling of missing this home so much when you had an amazing childhood, though full of fake actors who had manipulated you.

opening all the cabinets silently, you grabbed things that you assumed would come to your aid. a tiny backpack, which you then stuffed with other things around it. a first aid kit, a spare knife just in case, along with a clean oversized sweater and a couple dollar bills. all that, along with a compass.

you turned towards your window, stepping on your bed.

pushing open the sides of your window, your stepped on, the brown coldness of the frame coming in contact with your feet. you shivered just a little bit before stopping to think. what would you do once you were out of here? you barely knew your way here. and not to mention, your devices were still left at your other house, so there was no way of contact.

...

did your stream ever end? even if it did, had you muted yourself before leaving? no, you didn't, and you could remember in precise detail. someone out there, anyone, would be willing to help, right? you couldn't possibly be here forever, not when you're basically blown up all over your socials?

your friends, yes, your friends! xingqiu and chongyun were watching the stream and had made obvious interaction in doing so, and they'd be willing to protect you. if they just had a lead...

but... what lead was there? all they heard was the woman's voice and, that was probably it, wasn't it? only a voice with no other clear features that could identify her. it looked like you were doing this on your own.

you came in contact with the blades of grass tickling your feet and conveniently found a pair of sneakers outside. it definitely wasn't yours, and it smelled like the scent of your old room. most likely, it belonged to someone from inside your house, lavender and mint, but who inside there was in the age range to wear modern day sneakers..?

brushing that question aside, you unhesitatingly laced them on and they were just a bit too big, but you could manage.

you breathed, inhaling the freedom intertwined air, a much needed factor of bringing you back to your lost sense of happiness. then, the fear struck you once again, because you needed to improvise now. you needed to run, but which direction? you barely knew this place at all.

you dug around your pocket for the compass you had and it was pointing east. you remember that stepping out of your house was facing west, so you were going the right way... but who knows how messy the path was? it couldn't have been an exact pathway, but going directly ahead was your simplest option.

you heard a pair of footsteps coming from inside the house, probably a few seconds away to opening the door. you sucked in your breath and ran, ran as far as your legs could take you. your intimidating speed and played into your advantage, and taking one last look, you saw the lights on, before continuing.

a few minutes into it, you felt some elemental energy. it was a sense you learned to develop since you were young, giving you the upper hand in a variety of situations. you followed the trail of glowing lines, the air starting to get colder and colder. you shuddered, the crisp coldness nipping at your skin.

you sat below a tree, taking your backpack off your shoulder and took out the oversized sweater. you put it on over your black tee and light blue skinny jeans, its nostalgic aroma filling your sense of smell.

it was... warm.

it shouldn't be warm.

the warmth proved as a sign that someone had worn it before, but this size was from what you knew, too small to fit the woman you came across again, and you absolutely did not recall any other beings within the house. it was a small household.

suddenly, you remembered what she said.

we're thinking of taking you back home. you can finally be of use to us.

plural. you should've noticed it before and you shook your head, slightly disappointed in yourself. you didn't remember any other birth siblings. could it be the fact that during the time, they had, in a way, replaced you?

you sat up, then suddenly went drowsy. your eyelids were getting heavy as your back hit the same tree. ah, that clever bitch. you chuckled to yourself, but still unsatisfied how this was gonna end. reaching inside your pocket, you grabbed a bomb that a little kid gave you, and threw it as far as you could. it wasn't as far as you hoped, but it was exceptionally far considered your sleepy state.

in a few couple seconds or so, it was going to explode. you did that to divert the attention of her and slowly ran as far as you could. a few seconds in, you gave in, hoping that your efforts were enough. 》●✿ perspective ● shift ✿●

chongyun heard an explosion.

he raised his head in the direction smoke was coming from, and made a run for it, then stopping to think. no, you're smarter than this. he gathered his shit together and remembered that one day klee gave you a bomb. he deducted that you had used it as a diversion, and began to search around the area.

and finally, he came across your sleeping body. to ensure your living state, he crouched down and let two fingers travel across your neck, searching for a pulse, and was relieved when he found one, pulsing at a normal rate.

he then carried you on his back, picking up the pace since he deducted someone was out for you, would you need a distraction. he remembered some details of the woman, she had ended your stream with your sleeping form in her hands, a dirty smirk coming across her lips. she had dark hair with some natural highlights, but that was all he saw because the rest was concealed by a cloak.

a few minutes, maybe half an hour later, you began to stir. chongyun decided that he ventured far enough to liyue and slowed down for your comfort. he wanted you to get some well deserved rest. but slowly, you woke up, but only the tiniest movement was made. your eyes were still droopy and you wanted to return to sleep.

but the sight of pastel blue hair kept you from doing so.

you felt the familiar silk coming in contact with your arms as he kept on trudging forward at a more consistent and smooth pace. "..chongyun?" you muttered out weakly, earning a small smile from the male. he hummed in response, continuing forward.

your mind was cloudy, unable to interpret the language of the world. but softly, words effortlessly escaped your lips, "... did i do the right... thing?" blinking multiple times, you awaited his answer.

"yes, yes you did," his soft voice reached your ears, making you smile a bit. you nuzzled deeper into his shoulder, clinging onto him tighter, unwilling to let go.

"thank you," you whispered.

he chuckled a bit before responding, "anything for you."

_____

bro ending is a little off because i'm wrote this at 2:53AM and so my brain has went ⬇️⬇️ also i'm just hungry

copy and pasted from my wattpad,, @ppeachtea_

[vb-hcs]

warriors on instagram !!

hii ∩｡• ᵕ •｡∩ ♡ i wrote a little thingy about what i think the aot warriors would be like on instagram !! ive been watching aot season 4 and am really enjoying it ! i only did reiner, porco, pieck, and colt and i’m still brainstorming for the others •u• also !! this is kind of a modern au (?) just an fyi !! thank you for taking the time to read <3

warnings: possible spoilers for both anime & manga, modern au, brief mention of food, swearing

reiner braun

this guy never posts on instagram, it’s actually startling to come across one of his posts like “who the fuck is tha- ooooh”

he probably has like ~1k followers but it’s all people he knows or knows of

he maybe has like 37 pictures but half of them are from when he first made his account and he’s just never deleted a single picture (maybe has deleted one or two that saw and said “ew”)

gabi has “hacked” he like eight times and posted a bunch of goofy pictures of herself and he never deletes them 🥺

his content mostly consists of pictures of himself/friends that he absolutely didn’t prepare for (vv spur of the moment but still look p good)

this man has never used or clicked on an instagram story in his life

porco galliard

he’s the type of guy to post “nobody cares about your sunset pictures 🙄” and then post a video of himself at the gym

his posts are like half gym videos/pictures and half pictures of himself that he took hours getting ready for w a few photos with family and friends sprinkled in

he probably posts once or twice a month, not super often but you aren’t surprised to see him

he also posts hella instagram stories !! at least a few per week, mostly either a screenshot of whatever he’s listening to in spotify or more gym pics

he has like 2k followers. it’s mostly people he knows or fellow gym people

he has reiner blocked but won’t admit it

everytime reiner asks him about it he says something like “idk it must be a glitch or something” and then won’t respond or will change the subject

reiner knows it in the back of his mind and it hurts 😔

pieck finger

she doesn’t post a lot (once every few months or so) but she’s on instagram a lot !! she’s that one person who likes your photo within 5 mins of you posting it everytime you post

she has like 1.5k followers, mostly people she knows but also a few random people who she decided to follow back for no particular reason

(probably to dm them weird questions and memes)

she also leaves really thirsty comments on all her friends pictures (only people she’s really close w and knows it doesn’t make them uncomfortable) to hype them up

piecks posts are either selfies that she spent 3 hrs getting ready for or silly pictures with her friends

she has one picture of her and annie going 😔👉👈 and annie would very much like for her to delete it

she never posts instagram stories she’s still on snapchat

colt grice

this man has never deleted a picture in his life he has like 400 posts

he has soo many pictures with falco 🥺🥺

falco has also “hacked” him once or twice and he never deletes the posts 🥺

he’s a little bit instagram famous, he has like 3k-5k follows for NO REASON (people think he’s cute. that’s why)

(he gets so many dms)

he also posts soo much !! at least a couple times a week

almost all his posts are like life updates “at the carnival 👨‍👦🎡🎪” “stuck babysitting :p” “pancakes for breakfast 🥞” he wants to keep the people updated

randomly will have really long captions out of no where (probably just rambling or telling a story or being appricative of the people who suddenly followed him and were nice 🥺)

his account was absolutely a meme account before his face pics blew up. it still kind of is but they’re more snuck in every few posts or mixed in with his slides

[one-gold-sunflower]

Reposters, and a thread on why they are more harmful than anything especially on Instagram

First off, let's put the bases down: what is a reposter? A reposter is someone (usually on Instagram) who will take a screenshot of the art and repost it on their page, crediting or not the original artist. Their page will so contain only artwork that isn't from them, and will add captions to fit their theme.

So, how is harmful?

Because unlike what you might think, it doesn't bring any attention to the artist. Nor help them grow in popularity. What they are doing is stealing likes and popularity on the back of artists to fit their theme because they usually don't want to draw and are a roleplay account, and like to repost art they see on Pinterest.

The artist barely get any view from this, actually. Because a majority of people finding the post of the reposter won't bother following the artist and just like and follow the reposter and thus, not giving the views to the original artist.

Reposters also may not credit, or may not want to credit the artist because of laziness, usually, or because they think crediting the rightfully creator the art they stole and reposted is wrong and that they are in their right.

A small example of this.

Here the first picture is from a repost account I took completely randomly from the eddsworld hashtag. You can see it has a lot of attraction. The account is near 10k which is quite a lot. They took the time to add credit, which is a good thing, but it won't sadly solve the biggest issue.

Which is that the original artist has half the views and interaction as the original post. Which is very alarming, don't you think?

(Art rightfully owned by the talented @dditjmej , and I really ask you to follow and support their content if you appreciate it)

This is the biggest problem about repost, the reposter gets more interaction than the artist and the artist only has a small portion of the reposter's followers that will actually like the original post. Because why bother following each artist when there's someone stealing art and reposting it for you to like on the platform you're on?

People might say that it is necessary to bring art on other medias than only the original one where the artist post, but if you really liked and supported the artist you would promote their page and invite people to follow them on the platform, not repost it.

This is literally like website stealing content from small creators and making money off of them and still saying "But we are crediting! We are doing nothing wrong!" It doesn't help the artist and actually harm them more than anything.

And I will add that some artists don't want to see their art reposted or don't want to see it on internet anymore for any reason, and reposters, often finding it by Pinterest and not caring, will repost it anyway and be even more wrong because they clearly went against the artist's will, and you cannot pretend you support someone while going against what they say.

This is the end of the thread, and for those who read it til here, I hope it taught you something, if you already didn't know.

[pri5cillasanchez]

11/23/21

Yesterday was my first official therapy session where my therapist and I delved deep into what I am currently going through right now- the relationship and ultimately its breakup. I explained to him how the relationship dynamic was, the events that led up to my actions, and how it’s been going/how I’ve been feeling since then. Initially, I believed the hardest pill for me to swallow was the thought of you moving on to another woman and forgetting about everything we had together. To my surprise, this therapy session was an even bigger pill to take in. 

I started off by explaining to him how I perceived our relationship- I believed we were absolutely perfect together, beyond compatible in every aspect. I told him about the adventures we’ve had together, the way we rarely if ever fought about anything, the way you took care of me when it came to a lot of responsibilities in life, such as cooking meals for me, looking out for my health choices, taking care of me financially and when it came to stability and grounding me. As I explained to him all of these things you did for me throughout our time together, it made me wonder: If I believed everything was so perfect between us, why did I cheat? I then continued to tell him that there was one thing that you lacked in providing me as time went on in our relationship- you stopped connecting with me emotionally. The things you used to do to make me feel so loved and secure, started to lack tremendously. I explained to him that there were so many attempts I made to try and beg you to connect with me emotionally again, but you never took it seriously. I would screenshot old conversations we’ve had and send them to you remind you how much I missed you speaking to me the way you did, how you used to tell me I was the love of your life, how you would tell me you knew you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me and marry me someday, how you used to compliment me on qualities about myself that you loved not solely based on looks, how you used to actually use Instagram to send me heart eyes on pictures of myself and comment on pictures and videos I posted showing how proud you were of me, how you used to surprise me with flowers just because, how you’d take me out on dates to just to see me smile, how you would randomly text me to tell me you missed me or just to let me know you thought of me, how you would take me out on adventures because you knew those moments together meant the world to me, how you would not only tell me you loved and cared for me but rather showed me through your actions, how you would let me cry to you while you held and comforted me in order to be my safe space, my home. Over time, those kind of things you did for me that made me feel emotionally validated and acknowledged, stopped. I would even try to beg you to meet me halfway somehow but it was almost like you had no motivation or need to anymore, because you knew you already had me and knew I would stay no matter what. You never reminded me anymore of the reasons why you loved me, and instead I would just hear that you loved me- almost like it was just a routine to say it. You stopped being attentive to my emotions as time went on, stopped making me feel acknowledged or even wanted by you as you used to make me feel before. I would remind myself of these moments and try to convince myself that part of you is still there with me, that the person I fell in love with was still there deep down and that you would do these acts of love and appreciation for me again someday. That’s why I held on for so long, until I realized they weren’t coming back. I told my therapist about the phone calls we had last week and how much they surprised me because I thought I would’ve never heard from you again, and I explained to him major parts of those phone calls that I could recall. You said you were aware that you were emotionally pulling back from me and becoming frustrated with me when I would try to ask you to connect with me again, because you said there was only so much you can do to help me when I would not even take the initiative to help myself and that I became emotionally dependent on you to fix me. You finally explained how much it also bothered you how I never took an initiative to make sexual first moves, something I honestly had no realization while we were together that it probably affected the way you perceived me and yourself in our relationship- in which I will explain more into depth later in this journal entry that I've realized. 

My therapist made me realize as well that the way we never fought anymore, as much as I believed it to be an amazing thing and that we were so compatible in that sense, was not always a good thing in reality. He said fights throughout a relationship are totally normal and necessary because that is how you learn to work through your problems with that person instead of just avoiding conflict altogether. Arguments in frequency actually strengthen the relationship in the long run, so because the two you never really fought anymore was almost like a tiny red flag waving that you could not see at the time. I realized in that moment how right he was- that throughout the beginning and first year of us being together, we cared to have those arguments with one another and made the effort in doing so in order to learn each other. As time went on, we almost never fought anymore about anything. Both of us felt indifferent to anything the other did, which ultimately ended up with me feeling as though you did not care anymore, that nothing I did ever got a reaction out of you, that there was nothing left to fight for with us. As much as I want to believe that is a great quality to have to be that reactionless and indifferent about everything, it also made me feel bored or insignificant even. The more I began to think about it... I realized I stopped opening up to you about any problems or struggles I felt inside because of what happened from the Mammoth incident. I know you have tried to get me to help myself many times during that difficult time in my life I was experiencing, but that was not what I needed from you at the time. At first I thought that me needing emotional reassurance from you was a personal problem due to my trauma but after the therapy session, I realized that no I did not need from you at the time a response that was strictly solution based- to go get therapy on my own and fix myself while you needed time away from me because you could not deal with the emotional baggage I presented. I opened up to you about how I was feeling, and instead of trying to be there for me emotionally, you wanted to separate yourself and even told me that you could not see yourself spending the rest of your life with me anymore if I continued to be the way I was and you could not even say that you even felt you were still in love with me or felt anything for me anymore after that trip. Knowing now the way I need to feel loved by another person, you have absolutely no idea how deeply those words from you hurt me to my core. Looking back, I should have taken that time to step back from the situation and re-evaluate and ask myself: Is this truly someone I can see myself spending the rest of my life with either? Someone who only does not know how to, but also makes no more effort to meet me emotionally anymore, when that is a quality I place so much importance on in a life partner? Instead of considering that to myself, I was so consumed romanticizing the good in our relationship that I was willing to pretend your words did not hurt me and pretended I was okay and that I was not torn inside by it, just so you would not leave me. When that should not have been the case at all looking back at everything- that is how I did realize now that I was co-dependent on your approval of me because I was willing to push aside things I look for in another person that make me feel loved, in order for you to stay. I realize now how unhealthy it was of the both of us the way we handled that situation and the outcome of it. Because of that, I stopped feeling that I could be open and vulnerable with you, because I was afraid it would just push you further away from me on top of the emotional disconnect from you I was already feeling. I was scared to “rock the boat” and ruin everything we had together. All I wanted was to have serious in-depth conversations with you about our relationship and everything, but I felt as though you did not want to have those with me because it just drained you. I understand we talked everyday, as if it became a routine to talk to each other from morning to night talking about our days saying I love you to one another, but the depth in those conversations lacked as time went on which I needed from you but did not know how to ask without feeling like I was asking for too much. It made me feel so terrible inside that the person I just wanted to speak with honestly and openly about everything did not reciprocate that feeling back. As a consequence, I masked those negative feelings down with alcohol just to avoid conflict from ever happening, which ultimately led my emotions to come to surface subconsciously in an uglier way. 

I explained to my therapist that the last time you and I talked on the phone and even in the journal entry I sent you, was that we believed the root of what caused me to cheat was this lack of emotionally security from my childhood trauma growing up. I believed that because I never really received love growing up from my parents, that I was incapable of giving love to someone else. That I have nobody to blame but myself for what I did. He then told me, “You have to stop placing the blame on yourself and being so hard on yourself for what you did in the end. Yes- the fact that you cheated was not the best way to handle the situation, but there were many factors that played into it. Not just the trauma you went through growing up. You have to start looking at the relationship you had with Tom through a different lens, the one where you can step back and see everything at a bigger picture and not just fixate on what you did wrong and   only the good moments in the relationship. And you need to be honest with yourself about what led you to cheat, and I’m going to tell you right now it’s not just about the childhood trauma. When someone cheats on their significant other, from my experience in dealing with married couples, the reasoning is because they felt that they were missing something with their partner. So let me ask you this and be honest with yourself about it: What was it you felt that you were receiving from Phil that you no longer were getting from Tom?” At first, I was confused because I truly believed my need for emotional reassurance and security was because of my trauma. He told me that as it does play a role in my attachment style to another person, it is not the entire reason for seeking certain qualities in a life partner and the way I need to feel loved. He said, “There is nothing wrong and even normal with needing emotional security and reassurance while in a relationship, and you even attempted to communicate with Tom about this yet he didn't really put the effort into working on that with you. You know what you need in order to feel loved by another person, and yes although that self-love and confidence partly comes from within, that also has to be communicated with your partner so they know how to love you and that will help you build confidence in the relationship as time goes on. Couples think of a relationship like it’s a contract of some sort, that you have to stay together until the end no matter even if your partner does not fulfill your needs anymore- that is not how it should be and people make that mistake. Relationships should be viewed more as a yearly lease, and as each year goes by you decide whether or not this relationship is still for you. Does this person still meet your needs in a relationship by the end of that lease? If they do, then continue. If they don't, you both need to discuss what needs to be worked on together and if you both are unable to meet those needs, then be free of that lease. If you both would have just sat down and had a serious conversation about your needs in a relationship and what you both needed in order to feel loved by the other, there would have been the possibility of you both putting the effort in working it out and it would have helped you feel more confident in your relationship with him instead of having a to seek out that emotional connection with someone else. This is why you ended up doing what you did with Phil, because he ended up showing you more of what you needed in a relationship as Tom began to pull back in that aspect.” My therapist then continued in saying, “You seem like the kind of woman that really places a lot of value in passion in a relationship. This is where you need to be honest with yourself too Priscilla in what you want out of a relationship- did you feel as though you got bored with Tom? You seem as though you like the qualities of risk and chaos in a relationship every now and then. Did you feel that you stopped feeling that way with Tom which led you to cheat on him with Phil?” At first when he asked me that, I felt almost ashamed and guilty for even thinking that because in reality I knew he was partly right and this is what he was talking about when he mentioned I needed to be honest with myself about how I felt throughout our relationship. 

The last time you and I spoke on the phone, you asked me what I saw in Phil that led me to do what I did and what I did not see in you anymore. You told me that I did not have to answer that question yet if I did not have an answer, and I did not really explain it in its entirety at the time because I really haven’t pondered enough about it until the therapy session I had. You told me to let you know sometime when I figure out the reasoning as to why. I wanted to write this to you because I was reminded about that question throughout the therapy session, and I want to let you know in case you decide after this 3 month no contact rule to never speak to me again. I want you to know because I still care and know you want nothing but honesty from me from now on, and I do not want you to be left wondering that there was something wrong with you or that you are physically not as attractive as Phil- when honestly that was not it at all in my eyes. As I’ve mentioned before, I loved the way you provided me with security, stability, groundedness, the way you just know how to navigate through life responsibilities where I lacked because you've been on your own for a while, the way you took care of me in many areas of life. However, what my therapist shed to light was a cold hard truth for me to accept- although I loved those qualities you provided me, I place a huge importance on passion and excitement and emotional stimulation in a relationship as well. My therapist made me realize that these are what I need in a relationship to feel fulfilled- both the factors of stability and passion, not just one. You and I had both these things throughout the first year of our relationship I realized, which is why I used to be entirely present earlier in the relationship with you. However, as time went on, it just became stability and reliability from you. The things you used to do that used to excite and attract me- the flirting with me, the compliments that made me feel wanted, the way you used to look at me and speak to me, the endless adventures we had together when it was just you and I getting to know one another and spending time together and no one else to disrupt that, the fighting we used to have together that went away completely as the relationship went on- it all stopped. This is when I would start begging you to connect with me again in the ways I feel loved, but you couldn’t. And it always made me wonder.. why? (which will be explained later this entry). My therapist was partially right when he attempted to bring to light that I was somewhat bored. I wouldn’t say I was entirely bored, but more so I felt unseen from you as all of those things stopped. As you pulled back, here comes along Phil out of nowhere and started making me feel seen again. He started to show me that interest and making me feel wanted and attractive again with the months of flirting, looking at me constantly, teasing me, complementing me on weird quirks he noticed about my personality, always being next to me and protective of me for some reason when we were all out, his attention always towards me even when other women were around, how excited he would get just to be around my presence for some reason, little things like riding that Byrd with me on my birthday when you didn't want to, being willing to belay each other at the climbing gym and looking at me in admiration and supporting me as we bouldered together there too while you stopped doing that with me, and the way he was willing to converse with me deeply about my emotions and took the time to read the things I journaled when I was struggling while you did not want to hear it anymore- these little things you stopped doing for me, I began to notice him making an effort to do so. It felt like the relationship I had with you became almost platonic-like, as if we were best friends that participated in many life experiences together, but I still needed that romance factor to be alive too, but it wasn’t anymore. I wanted to continue being treated as if I am the love of your life, not just like one of your guy best friends which is what it felt like for me as the relationship went on. I do not want you to be left wondering if I cheated on you based off looks- that was not it for me at all. It made me realize too that because of the lack of communication about how each other needed to feel loved in a relationship, if we had continued to stay together until death did us part, I may have never truly been happy or fulfilled in the long run because these are major qualities in a relationship I look for in a life partner- that you stopped giving me as time went on. It may have not been issues for you because you do not place high value or importance on these in a relationship. However, they meant very much to me and ultimately if we continued our relationship the way it was without any communication about it, these issues I shoved down thinking they weren’t big ones- even though they honestly were to me- would have gotten to me one way or the other and the outcome may have not changed or I would have ended up leaving you because I honestly would not be able to go the long run with another person without having these needs met. I was not fulfilled in our relationship solely from the stability you provided me, and I was not being honest with myself about it at the time until the therapy session helped bring that truth out. As I started to realize this hard truth, it made me start thinking to myself- I knew I was feeling this way. But it led me to wonder “But how were you feeling throughout our relationship... Was I doing something as well to make you feel unloved or that I was not attracted to you anymore, which inevitably caused you to pull back and become emotionally distant from me?” That was when another cold hard truth slapped me in the face.

Throughout the therapy session, we discussed what I needed to feel loved by another person. However, after talking more with Alisa and Keana, it made me realize that maybe I was doing something to make you feel unwanted and less attractive as well. And then it hit me what you said on the phone- you told me many times throughout the relationship that you wanted me to make the first move during sex, and I now realize that this was your way of trying to tell me how you feel loved and wanted. I did not realize at the time how much this bothered you, how it probably brought your self-esteem and confidence in me and us down, how it probably made you feel that I was not attracted to you and maybe even made you feel rejected. I didn't realize physical touch is probably your first quality when it comes to your love language. After talking with Keana who’s love language is also physical touch, she explained to me how that is a huge and important way someone with that love language needs to feel wanted by their partner- through touch and making those first sexual moves, or else it really does not make them feel good in the relationship, and she explained to me that is partly the reason as to why you pulled away emotionally from me as well because I wasn’t providing you with how you needed to feel loved either. I’m going to be completely honest here Tom- I haven’t been in a relationship before where I ever needed to make the first move sexually. I am not experienced when it came to that which is why throughout the first year of us dating besides the first time we had sex, I never initiated because I was used never doing so and I did not have the experience nor confidence in doing so. Keana continued to explain as well that even if we do both value physical touch or whichever love language we place more importance on, that it’s important to talk about what kind of physical touch or whichever makes us feel most wanted and loved. For example, in regards to physical touch- I place most importance on intimate physical acts, such as hand holding, forehead kisses, kisses, hugs, and cuddling to help me feel more connected by you. Meanwhile, your importance in physical touch due to the nature of being a male, is initiating the first move in sex to help you feel more attractive and desirable by me. I wish we just sat down and talked about how important that was to you in a relationship and how that makes you feel wanted and attractive, then I would have really taken that to heart and tried a lot more because I loved you. I was not aware how much it actually hurt you because physical touch is not as important to me as quality time and words of affirmation, so I never took it seriously just as how you never took my need seriously for emotional connection in order to feel wanted and attractive. For me, I become attracted to another human being when I feel that emotional connection with them, then that will make me feel more sexually attracted to that person. As time went on in our relationship, the more emotionally disconnected you became towards me, the less attractive sexually I became towards you. And I assume it was vice versa for you, the more I did not make sexual advantages towards you, the more emotionally you pulled back as well. As you mentioned on the phone, it was like our sex lives became routine, lacking that passion and excitement we once had. If we had simply took the time into learning one another and about ways we needed to feel love from another partner, I feel as though the outcome would have been so different because we both would have put in the effort into making it work between us. Instead of rushing into a relationship the way we did simply because we shared similar life interests, we should have taken the time to learn that a relationship is more than just having similar hobbies and getting married someday- it should be about learning each other’s love languages, how to communicate our feelings properly and openly, how to set boundaries, our attachment styles, and how to maintain attractive to one another. That is how you build a relationship with another person, not just based on initial attraction and same life interests. 

You are right about something I admit- I wish I did start going to therapy while we were still in a relationship because honestly learning what I did just in that first official session, could have prevented many downfalls from happening and saved the relationship. After taking the time to step back from remembering all the good in our relationship and romanticizing those moments only, I realized our relationship was not all glitter and gold, and I was not as happy and fulfilled as I really wanted to believe so and I’m sure you were not either. If I knew the information I know now though, I honestly believe we could have made the effort together to work through our differences and meet halfway to grow with each other. What my therapist said was that all we had to do was communicate how we both felt with one another- that was the key to prevent me from cheating and for you to realize how much emotional connectedness meant to me. That even though those kind of in-depth conversations are incredibly scary and nerve wracking to have in a relationships, they are necessary in order to figure out your differences and grow with each other throughout the process. I wish things had turned out differently than the way it did, and it kills me inside that it had to take something like this for me to see and hear that part of you again that I knew was still there- that you are still capable of emotional depth and felt that way towards me. I want you to read this not to convince you to work things out with me again, but because I feel that it will also help you understand as it did for me what a relationship really consists of in order for a couple to grow together in the long run. That it is not just telling one another we have potential to grow and believing the person can get there themself and come into the relationship whole heartedly on their own while idealizing this image in our heads of the perfect couple we had the potential to be- it is so much more than that. It’s actually valuing the person in front of you for who they are and knowing absolutely no person or couple is perfect, but being there for each other in a way that they feel loved that helps them feel more confident in the relationship and grow together that way. You always talked about how you wanted me to grow into this confident and independent woman you have always imagined me to be, and after our breakup I wanted that for myself too and felt the need to prove that to you. However, when I thought about it, I realized I was those things before you even met me and I am still those qualities internally. After having no choice but to be strong and confident almost my entire upbringing to get myself through difficult life experiences, it simply felt nice and comforting to be with another person who was willing to be my safe space and take care of me for a change. I do not believe confidence and independence/loving my own company will be things I will grow into someday now that we are not together- because I know I have always had those qualities within myself all along, with or without you. I wish you saw those things about myself and believed in them too, instead of being in love with this idea of a woman I had the potential to become. I want you to know this because if by the end of your grieving process over the loss of our relationship that you decide you really do wish to never speak to me again, I want you to really understand and see the many factors that come into play when choosing your life partner so that in the future whoever you decide to be with, you will know just as I understand now that relationships take work and communication, but if you truly love that person, you will make the effort in learning them and never stop reminding them of that. I want you to read this in case you forget throughout this grieving process and the choices you will make to cope with your sadness, that there was more to the story of everything that happened within our relationship instead of simply the end result of me cheating. I want you to read this so you understand my side of it all, in hopes that you will not be entirely persuaded and convinced by everyone else and your own mind that I am a bad person that deserves to be cut off completely. I made a mistake, but as I said before in the previous journal entry I sent you, a person will either let it destroy them or grow stronger and wiser from it. Lastly, if we do choose to try again sometime in the future- we would have to put in a lot of work in order to understand each others’ needs and fall in love with each other again. I used to hold onto this false hope that you will be certain to try with me someday again down the line, and I always imagined my response would be yes of course let’s get back together no doubt or questions about it. But now with this deeper understanding of our relationship, I realize that response would have been out of an attachment for you. If we ever chose to be together again, we would really need to sit down and deeply talk about these issues and how to work on them and be able to overlook the mistakes we’ve made and build that trust and connection once again, because I do not want to go back into the same relationship with nothing changing knowing we would consequently fall back into the same outcome, and I’m sure you would not want that either. And if we do not end up trying again down the line and we choose to be with other people, then I do hope this journal entry that I decided to share with you helps you to understand how to become a better partner for that other person, as it helped me. Before the first milestone of holidays that we will no longer spend together and everything we had becomes nothing more but memories, this is my last letter to you in hopes that we will both grow stronger and wiser from everything with no regrets of the time spent together.

[cali-holland]

Friends or More?- Harrison Osterfield One Shot

Pairing: Harrison Osterfield X Reader

Requested by anon: Hi your writing is so cute!! Can you please do an imagine with Harrison where the reader is the boys best friend and staying with them durning quarantine, and she’s had a crush on Harrison forever but has never told anyone but the boys start to see it and try to force her to admit it? And maybe Haz overheard and spills his feelings too? Thank you sm in advance

Prompt: Quarantine with your crush/best friend- is it everything you’ve ever wanted or is it your worst nightmare?

Word Count: 1700

Warnings: maybe swearing??

Masterlist   Harrison Osterfield Masterlist

*Pic is not mine*

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If there was one thing you had learned from living with Harrison, Tom, Harry, and Tuwaine for the past year, it was that everyday was a new adventure- and quarantining together only amplified that experience of basically consistent chaos. You weren’t complaining about that part though because they were your best friends and you enjoyed their company, but some days you hated your living situation. Those days were the days when Harrison would just hang around the house shirtless or when he wouldn’t leave your side all day or when he’d just look too damn good- which is pretty much every day. It was a blessing and a curse. This was all mainly because your crush on Harrison was growing exponentially with every day in quarantine, and, not wanting to ruin your friendship with him or the other boys, you suppressed those feelings. 

“Hey, Y/N,” Harrison said, leaning up against your bedroom’s door frame one afternoon.

“Yes?” You hummed as you looked up at him from your laptop in front of you. You bit back a sigh, realizing that today would be another one of those rough days- he had decided to show up randomly in your room, in nothing but loose basketball shorts.Fri

“I was going to do an Instagram live. Wanna join me?” He asked with a hopeful smile.

“Um, sure.” You replied. Harrison never really invited you to join his lives beforehand- he’d always just shout at you to come over once the camera was rolling.

“Sweet, see you outside in like five minutes?” He didn’t give you time to reply before he ducked out of your room, hopefully to go put a shirt on- you didn’t want to think of the chaos he’d create from streaming shirtless.

You cleaned yourself up a little bit, wanting to look presentable because you knew fans would be recording and screenshotting bits of the live, and you made your way downstairs and outside. Harrison smiled at you as you stepped out onto the back patio. You were thankful he had the decency to actually put on a shirt, you weren’t sure if you could handle an Instagram live with that sort of distraction.

“Did you invite the others?” You asked, sitting in a chair beside him while he set up his phone. You noticed he had a couple water bottles already sitting on the table with some snacks, and you wondered just how long he expected this live to be- but yet again, it’s not like you had anything better to do.

“Yeah, they’ll come out when they can. I think Tom and Harry are working on their script, and Tuwaine’s facetiming family.” Harrison explained, “Are you ready?”

“Yep.” You nodded and he started the live. He had his phone propped up on one of those outdoor napkin holders, but it didn’t do much to actually get the two of you in the picture. You laughed as he tried to adjust it, “I’m not even in it, you div.”

“I’m trying!” He whined, but no matter how he angled his phone he couldn’t get it to have you both in the frame, and your chair was already right beside his, so there was no getting closer- or so you thought. He offered, casually, “Sit on my lap.”

“What?” You asked, not sure if you heard him properly.

“Come here.” Harrison grabbed your hands in his, pulling you closer to him with a laugh. You stood from your chair as he tugged you into his lap. You sitting in his lap wasn’t an uncommon occurrence; in fact, you sat in his lap just yesterday as he walked you through how to play Call of Duty. It just wasn’t a common occurrence to be so touchy on an livestream. With your back pressed to his chest, his arms went around your waist to scroll through some of the comments, “Wanna answer questions?”

“It’s your live.” You teased.

“So we’ll answer questions.” He laughed, the vibrations came through his chest to your back and made you blush. “First one, ‘are you two dating?’ Well, no, we are not.”

“Just friends.” You added, even though you felt your heart hurt at the words. You could’ve sworn you felt Harrison tense a little underneath you, but he laughed it off. 

“They always think we’re dating.” He said quietly, as if he didn’t want the phone to pick it up. You had to admit it was a common thing that the fans asked because, well, you definitely weren’t as touchy with, say, Tom as you were with Harrison. You thought nothing more of it as Harrison continued with a few more questions. “‘Is Monty there?’ No, he’s back home with my family.”

“I miss him. He’s clearly the superior Osterfield.” You joked.

“Hey,” He pouted, squeezing your arms lightly, “We both know I’m your favorite.”

“No, that’s me.” Tom laughed, coming out into the backyard to join the livestream. He stood behind Harrison’s chair and leaned down so he could be in the camera.

“You can’t be the superior Osterfield.” Harrison stated.

“Can I be the superior Holland?” He asked.

“Tessa’s the superior Holland and Monty’s the superior Osterfield.” You said, definitively. “You two can be second best.”

“‘Who’s the superior roommate?’” Harrison laughed, reading off another question on the live. “Clearly it’s me.”

“It’s absolutely me.” Tom argued.

“I’m not satisfying that with an answer.” You replied, shaking your head at them.

“C’mon, it’s totally me.” The blonde smiled as he held you tight against his chest. You couldn’t help the small blush that found its way onto your cheeks- damn Harrison for being so cute.

“Next question!” You changed the topic, scrolling back through the livestream feed. There were a few comments that gave you butterflies- ‘Y/N and Haz are so cute together’, ‘can they date already and adopt me’, ‘I ship it #Y/NandHazforever’, and “they’re so in love’. You froze reading that last comment, what the hell was Harry playing at commenting that?

It wasn’t until a couple days later that you felt like finally confronting Harry over it. Honestly, you had been dying to ask why he’d comment that, but you couldn’t ever find a time when it was just you and him. That was until today at least.

“Hey, Harry, can I talk to you about something?” You asked him, quietly coming into the study where he was alone, working on editing some pictures while he waited for Tom to return from a phone call.

“Yeah, what’s up?” He replied casually, and you fiddled with your fingers nervously.

“Well, you remember when Haz and I did that live the other day?” You started, and he nodded, wondering where this was going, “I just wanted to ask you about your comment.”

“It was just a joke.” Harry laughed, “You two are so blind though, I thought you wouldn’t see it.”

“Blind?”

“Y/N, you and Haz have been sending each other heart eyes back and forth for months now.” He explained, still sort of laughing, as you stood there, blushing and confused. “I mean you’re so in love with him, it’s obvious.”

“What? Harry, that’s-“ You stopped when Tom reentered the room.

“What’d I miss?” Tom asked, taking his seat at the table beside Harry.

“Y/N’s lying about being in love with Harrison.” Harry stated, making Tom laugh.

“You’ve both got it bad. It’s just funny to watch the two of you act around it.” The older Holland chuckled as he shook his head.

“I’m not-“

“You’re in love with Harrison.” Both boys said simultaneously.

“So what if I am?” You caved out of annoyance. “He definitely doesn’t feel the same, no matter what you two say.” You turned to leave without another word, and you jumped when you saw Harrison standing in the frozen hallway, blue eyes wide. You ducked your head down, rushing past him to go hide in your room for probably the rest of your life.

You’d just admitted that you loved your best friend, and he overheard it- you were too embarrassed to try to think about ever speaking to him, Tom, or Harry again. Hearing a knock at your door, you couldn’t bring yourself to get up and acknowledge it. Instead, you just groaned, hiding your face in your pillow, wanting your bed to just swallow you up and erase you from existence.

“Go away.” You mumbled, hearing someone open your door and make their way into your room. You didn’t have to look to know it was Harrison. He wordlessly laid down in the bed right beside you, mimicking your current state.

“You’re not the only one embarrassed, you know.” He said softly, his words slightly muffled by the pillow. You turned your head to finally face him and found that he was already looking at you. “I’m so stupid, Y/N.”

“Haz, if you’re here to let me down easy, then just go. It’s alright, I’ll get over it.” You stated, trying to make him believe you, but not even you could trick yourself into trusting those words.

“No, it’s not alright. You love me, and I’m an idiot for not seeing it sooner. I’m in love with you, too, and I’m embarrassed that it took me so damn long to figure out that you feel the same.” Your breath caught in your throat; your best friend was lying in front of you, telling you he loves you.

“You’re really in love with me?” You asked.

“I’m really really in love with you.” He laughed lightly.

“Are you gonna kiss me or not then?” You smiled as he leaned in to kiss you. Maybe you should thank Harry for that stupid comment.

[ratboydantereciepts]

Accusation 6: the final straw

Again, a video with baseless accusations with absolutely no proof provided. not even fake screenshots. just another video with a picture background and text over the top. Who is this person? what year did this take place? are they still 14? how old was i when this so called event took place? why make an accusation with such little information? because its easier to make a lie believable if you give as little detail as possible. a compulsive liar does that.

Firstly, I dont become friends with random 14 year olds who “reach out” to me? My dms on instagram and tiktok (the only social medias i use regularly) are set to friends only. I dont accept random message requests. and before i found out how to set my dms to friends only i ignored message requests, here is the proof:

I’ve only ever answered a handful of message requests from people who had an issue with something I posted or people thanking me for something i did. I DO NOT randomly befriend people who dm me, especially not people under the age of 18. thats fucking weird. 

it would not be logistically possible to “sneak” someone into my place of living. I live with my parents, my sister and my girlfriend. I SLEEP IN THE SAME BED AS MY GF, HOW WOULD SOMEONE GET PAST HER???? where would I sneak them into, my house is tiny, there are only three bedrooms, mine, my sisters and my parents. my girlfriend studies from home and doesn’t like leaving the house without me? where would I sneak this person in? my girlfriend is always in our bedroom, would I put an invisible cloak on them? I SHARE A ROOM WITH MY GF

whats with the “snuck me into his place of living” and then suddenly we’re in a park. why would I take the time to sneak into my own house and then decide to go to a park, wouldn’t i choose the park first instead of having to sneak into my house? logistically it makes no sense? who does that? also “i am not going into detail” again, using a flimsy excuse to not provide more detail cause THERE IS NONE. this person is lying out their ass, they provide no detail because there is no story, they’re a liar. 

[jse-egopocalypse]

2016 Egopocalypse Detailed Timeline

now that you got the gist of the egos, we’ll get to the 2016 egopocalypse (from FNAF sister location to Say Goodbye)

so again, i’m putting every video (with time stamps and links to the said video) on this post and some pictures and screenshots that are important and from varies of social media.

(video playlist for this entire timeline is at the end)

Click keep reading to view

1st video: THE START OF THE NIGHTMARE | Five Nights At Freddy's Sister Location #1

timestamp: 4:28

this is the first video anti appeared in. it was for a few minutes until he showed himself in the video.

more anti apperances timestamps:

8:20, 15:29, 20:19, 26:25

31:27

he also said his first line: “Get the fuck back there or i’ll fuck you back there”

33:23, 34:10, 35:29, 36:52, 39:27

and then the outro music was very distorted.

in the description though, there was a weird zalgo text.

“You’ve waited a long time Now I wake”

2nd video: THEY HAVE AWOKEN... | Five Nights At Freddy's Sister Location #2

timestamp: 0:01

the first second of the video and anti already wants to pop in to say hi.

timestamp: 1:19

there’s a very subtle face behind jack.

more anti apperances timestamps:

4:00, 9:09, 9:13, 9:20, 12:55, 16:27, 17:09, 17:12, 18:08, 19:01

then the outro music is still distorted

and another zalgo text was in the description

“Follow the signs release me”

3rd video: SOMETHING INSIDE | Five Nights At Freddy's Sister Location #3

timestamp: 0:02

2 seconds in and anti’s already showing up.

more anti apperances timestamps:

1:13, 2:35, 5:27, 5:31, 8:22, 8:25

8:36

anti either said: “I am near” or “I am here”

10:43, 10:46, 14:31, 14:42, 17:27

and yet again, the music is more distorted.

there are more zalgo texts and it looks like it’s getting out of hand

“I see you understand now keep watching https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfgFNd6D408″

and you see that link right there?

4th video: Sͮ̏̿ͯ̈͐̈́̚̚͏͖͔͞ǫ̆͋͂̈ͯ̂̉҉͕̪͈͎̙o͊҉̛̜͔͚͓͔͈̗͠n̾́͂̾ͦ̓ͥ͏̪̖

it’s just this with creepy noises and MORE zalgo texts:

“Very good you may be worthy”

and then anti put up a comment:

“I’m glad I have your attention now”

5th video:  The Temple Of No!

the first 10 mins was very chill and fun until...

timestamp: 11:12

anti-left

and sean looked into the camera and said: “we all know about anti don’t we?” and the facecam glitches.

in 20:37, there was no glitches but he did say “god, there was a weird sound...ticking in my ear. I thought it was in my room...now im weirded out.”

6th video:  PLEASE DON'T KILL ME | Hello Neighbor #2

just almost 10 mins in the video, he showed up randomly.

timestamp: 9:45

and then the game crashed twice.

7th video: MERGED TOGETHER | Five Nights At Freddy's Sister Location #4

timestamp: 0:00

and not even a second, anti already glitched the facecam.

more anti appearances:

1:18, 2:40, 3:15, 5:14

timestamp: 7:30

and he said: “I’m near”

10:05, 10:12, 10:24, 20:11, 22:00

and then the outro...again. was more distorted than the last one.

after the outro, he said: “oh, i don’t feel so good”

the facecam slightly glitched and...

he just appeared in full screen in a few frames.

and the description still has the zalgo texts

“We are together as one now in Five Nights At Freddy’s Sister Location”

“It’s almost time I grow stronger”

8th video:  CHOOSE YOUR OWN GOAL | ClusterTruck #16

timestamp: 12:41

anti appeared when sean said “thank you to everyone who made a level for me or in commemoration of me...commemoration sounds like im dead”

9th video: GRANNY DAB | Stuntfest #1

timestamp: 8:34

sean said: “im out, im free, im d e a d”, anti appeared.

10th video: SWIMMING IN POOP | Pipejob (HTC Vive Virtual Reality)

timestamp: 12:17

“hi there, my name’s jack” and he glitches then smiled.

11th video:  ROBOT WARS | Manual Samuel #3

timestamp: 21:33

the orphange house in the game got blown out and you could hear laughter as he glitched.

12th video: ALONE AND AFRAID | Layers Of Fear - Part 1

timestamp: 20:30

there was a bit of a glitch...

timestamp: 20:33

“i don’t like the double face thing”

and there’s anti

more anti appearances:

20:39

timestamp: 22:08

the facecam glitched as the rat ran into the fire. anti laughed and sean said: “what the hell was that weird sound?”

there’s something in the description though

it says: “it’s time to say goodbye”

13th video: SORE FROM LAUGHING | Stuntfest #2

timestamp: 2:19

anti showed up as sean coughed and asked: “the hell was that?”

timestamp: 5:00

as anti glitched, sean said: “ah my eye is twitching.”

14th video: BULLETPROOF CHEST | Mr. President #3

anti appearances:

1:09

timestamp: 11:15

the WHOLE game glitched out including the face cam whilst anti was chuckling

after the outro music

timestamp: 15:50

he appeared with that iconic grin as sean said: “i like how it gives you smooth jazz in the background, so you don’t wanna kill yourself anymore.”

15th video: SCARIER THAN IT LOOKS | The Cubicle (HTC Vive Virtual Reality)

timestamp: 1:40

timestamp: 3:47

anti appeared in a single frame...

timestamp: 3:49

and then anti turned around to look at sean

timestamp: 7:26

timestamp: 7:27

after sean said:“what just happened to me?” anti sang: “one...two, anti’s coming for you, and he’s dead” and then the facecam disappeared

timestamp: 7:32

again, anti appeared just for a split second and disappeared.

timestamp: 9:16

and then, he just faced us and said: “i have come” and jack just said: “i could have sworn i just heard something.”

there’s another zalgo texts that says: “tomorrow ends him”

16th video: THE SIGNS ARE THERE | Layers Of Fear - Part 2

timestamp: 4:39

more anti apperances:

7:51, 7:55, 10:21

timestamp: 13:03

anti winked at us

20:12, 26:03

another zalgo text in the description that says: “it’s almost time”

17th video: S̺͍͉͔͉̞̪Ḁ̸̰̮͝Y̶̪ ̳͇̭͍̥̭͉ͅG̕҉̡̦̲O̤̫͖͎̗͜͞ͅÒ̴̬̠̺̪̥͉̳͉̥͝D̨̺̦̯͙͙͔̯͚͠B̸̬̻̝͉͍̻̀͝Y҉̫̝̖̹̝̠͠E̲̩͟͝ͅ

timestamp: 2:19

sean heard a weird sound, stood up and said “the fuck was that?” and strated to slightly glitch.

he opened the door to his far left and said: “hello?”

and then he appeared...

more anti apperances:

2:32, 3:18, 3:41

timestamp: 4:22

sean said: “this smell isn’t making me feel well” and he got a nosebleed.

4:32, 5:32, 6:35

timestamp: 8:07

“it’s time...to die!”

timestamp: 8:28

he got quiet and listened to the thud sounds he heard. stood up and said: “i swear to god, i’m hearing something. that is fucking freaking me out.”

timestamp: 8:43

he appeared again but with black eyes.

and then proceeded on saying: “maybe it’s just the neighbors i’m hearing. sounds like something’s walking around or something like stomping or banging, christ. maybe i’m just paranoid ‘cause it’s halloween” 

timestamp: 9:09

the video slightly glitched when sean said: “but if you wanna make him look like he’s rotten or decayed”

timestamp: 9:49

the video slightly glitched again before anti’s shadow appeared

timestamp: 9:50

and then sean glitched

timestamp: 9:51

timestamp: 10:36

before sean finishes his sentence, anti cuts him off and took over him.

- tw: blood and gore -

timestamp: 10:47

anti slits sean’s throat and killed him.

timestamp: 11:03

and now, anti has fully taken over sean...with a voice saying “help me”

and then he proceeds with his monologue that we have to say goodbye to sean.

in the description though, it says: “You wanted me.....well here I am”

- E N D -

moving on to the other social media, before the ‘say goodbye’ video, anti has been taking over sean’s instagram and twitter.

i know he also took over his tumblr but it has the same vibes as his twitter. (bloody icon and zalgo bio)

and that ladies and gents, is how he died and now he’s in a coma.

coma? i’ll tackle more about that during the 2018 egopocalypse post soon!

HERE’S THE PLAYLIST TO THIS POST: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5wG46uK8MEOkOZFY4k9x9tSGECzF9l8z

i hope this is helpful to anyone who didn’t get to experience this or just forgot about what happened during that time of year.

[hardtchill]

Some fans are just so creepy. Some frisbee team from Portland spotted Chris and Tobin at the airport and took a picture of them without them knowing and posted it on their instagram. Along with screenshots of people in the chat asking all kinds of questions. Then later went up to them and gave Tobin a hat of their team, can you imagine Tobin or Chris looking up the Instagram by the name on the cap and seeing the stories (i mean i would do that if someone randomly gave me a cap with a sports team name on it)? 

The picture itself was just random, nothing special but it's so intrusive to just go and sneakily take their picture without them knowing and post it online. Why not just go and ask for a picture, if you’re going over anyway to give them the cap? Come on people, be respectful and just ask, they never seem to make a big deal out of it when they are asked, it’s the respectful thing to do. 

[artificialqueens]

king of the world (Branjie) - ohhthereuare

AN: We thought the picture Vanessa posted (and then fastly deleted) was in a drunken, sad haze. But what if it wasn’t? A conspiracy theory based on the screenshot Brooke posted on Twitter proving they’re happily together and both in on the shadiness.

I– My dumb ass thought my laptop randomly didn’t save this fic after I wrote it exactly a day after their exchange on Twitter, turns out I just saved it in a different folder and found it today while looking for my resume. I hope it’s still not too late to share my conspiracy theory about this “drunken” picture posted by V. Let me know what your thoughts are!

AO3

The phone was pretty much already glued to Brooke’s hand for the past ten minutes, vibrating non-stop with the endless twitter and Instagram notifications, so when she got an incoming FaceTime call, she answered comically fast.

“Hiiiiii babyyyy! You busy or somethin’?” Vanessa’s blurry face appeared on the phone screen and Brooke’s heart automatically started beating a little faster. She must’ve just finished her gig, a bright yellow wig, and sparkly makeup still on. Brooke had already gotten rid of her stage persona and was already getting ready for bed. The not-so-harsh time difference made it possible for them to catch up.

“Hi, Papi. No, just winding down after the show. What’s up?”

“Just missed ya stupid face, that’s all.”

Vanessa was still in the club. The music was playing somewhere in the background, mixed with incoherent conversations and laughter. Her smile was so broad it was contentious. She was swaying a little bit and her words were slurring together from alcohol no doubt. There was a sheepish glim in her eyes.

“I’ve seen the picture that you posted of us. And the song.”

“Mmm” Vanessa looked away from the phone for a moment, trying to look like she was looking for something, distracted, not paying too much attention but Brooke caught how the corner of her lips quivered when she tried not to smile. It must have meant more to her than what she tried to let on. Sometimes words weren’t their strongest suit but they already knew each other to well to not know how to read the signs.

“I really liked it. Why did you delete it?” Henry settled by Brooke’s side, purring with his eyes contently closed while Apollo laid in a bread-like position by her feet. She was late-night snacking on some sweet potato chips, that she had found in the cupboard, and the crumbs were getting all over the bedsheets.

“The management was all up my ass the second that it went up, these hoes. Keeping tabs on us 24/7 and shit. They told me to take it down. So it don’t mess their whole theme of—”

“—keep watching the show. Yeah” they finished in unison. There was a slight bitterness to their tones, but there was not much they could do. They were already bending the rules and the money mentioned at the bottom of their NDA contract was good enough for them to make it through just a couple more months.

“I meant it, y’know. The song I mean. The lyrics and shit.”

Now it was Brooke’s time to look away to hide her face, afraid of revealing too much. It’s been over a year. A year of feelings so new and wonderful sometimes it felt like her body could not contain all of them with how her heart swelled in her chest and made it hard to breathe. A year of being so happy but having to keep all of that a secret when all she wanted to do was scream it at the top of her lungs for the world to hear. There was a reason why every single time someone as much as mentioned Vanjie during the interviews Brooke instantly turned into a grinning, blushing, lovesick puppy.

“Would you, um… Would you send me the picture though? The one of us that you used with the song? I don’t think I have it and I’d like… I mean I didn’t really get a chance to look at it before you had to take it down.” The whole two minutes that it was on Instagram she kept refreshing the Story time after time to stare at it just a bit longer. Beside the point though.

This time neither looked away. Despite the shaky connection and blurry vision, the two queens locked eyes and the moment felt strangely intense, as if that gaze conveyed everything that they didn’t know how to put in words. They were already past the point of having to prove something to one another.

“Yeah, I’ll do– do that when I get home. I gotta go now though. Other people want to get some of Miss Vaaaanjie.”

“Okay, just remember that that ass is already taken.”

“Not like I could forget. Taken and taken care of. Okayloveyabyeeee!”

“You, too.”

Almost two hours went by and Brooke kept tossing and turning in her bed, reaching for her phone every five minutes. When it finally binged with a new message she reached for it so hard she almost pulled a muscle. The top notification read “Jose” with an orange heart and a bunch of their favorite emojis that they loved to use and confuse the fans with. Maybe they’d explain it during the Reunion episode. Or maybe not.

Did u get it

Under the message, there was a blank, grey square indicating an incoming picture.

Still loading, Brooke typed back.

Fuckit

A second later it finally got delivered and Brooke had to close her eyes and hide her smiling face into the pillow before she could look at it again. She remembered the night that it was taken during their stay in Toronto. How comfortable, happy, at home she had felt. Vanessa’s back warmly pressed against her arm, her neck smelling like fresh hotel sheets, menthol cigarettes that Brooke had kept smoking, and cologne. Brooke’s hand placed at her waist, keeping her closer. Vanessa’s own palm resting on the Canadian queen’s thigh and their pinkie fingers linked together, a little detail cut off by the picture frame.

She reached for her AirPods and opened Spotify, looking through Natalie Grant’s discography until she found the right song. The melody filled her headphones and she took a last look at their picture before closing her eyes and smiling like an idiot. God, she couldn’t wait for when they’d be able to openly talk about all of it. For now though, you’d just have to keep watching the show.

[ivyjjk-blog]

Taekook Tension Part 2~

This is the second part of my response, for those who have not yet read the first part please do so before readig this. (https://ivyjjk.tumblr.com/post/172278083355/taekook-tension-a-response-part-1)

So moving on, after using jhope's video shoot to conclude there was 'obvious' tension between taekook, you proceed to examine run episode 35 to further solidify your narrative. "Taehyung randomly plays with Jungkook’s hair, it causes a large portion of the TaeKook shippers to call it a moment and confirm their ship as real". Why wouldn't they? Have you ever been in the jikook tags? Them merely standing together invokes a celebratory toast from their shippers and there's nothing wrong with that. Shipping is completely fine when done within it's limits, there's nothing wrong with taekookers taking that moment to support their ship. I've already outlined that going by what ship accounts and ship videos say is not the correct route, to come to an unbiased conclusion you have to investigate the whole video as well as taking the situation into accordance without flimsy affects and romantic songs in the background. Those are simply used by shippers for entertainment which again is fine as long as they learn to differentiate between fantasy and reality.

Ofcourse not everyone has that mindset but it's not "millions" of people taking that as "proof". There will always be some who take things too far on BOTH sides and since taekook is a bigger ship, it's more apparent. Shipping culture has existed for decades even as early as 1990s and the whole star wars rage with teenagers, you can't just group taekookers together saying they're being misguided by such moments because I can confidently say just because someone see their ship interacting and claim "boyfriends" does not mean they actually think they're boyfriends. It's simply a way for them to express their love for the closeness those 2 individuals share. Will there be some people who take it too far? ofcourse there will be but that has been the case in approximately every single ship, it's not something to highlight because it's a minority, there's nothing anyone can do about that since it will always exist, all we can do is try to educate as many people as possible about reality vs fiction. Also isn't it a bit arrogant and condescending to think there's no way taekook could be real thus their moments are midleasding? Doesn't this contradict what you're saying about how shippers shouldn't be misguided by moments on screen and start thinking their ship is real since that is exactly what you're doing with jikook? Sure jikookers like to claim everything "makes sense" for jikook, it's "consistent" but that's what some taekookers also think so who's to say you're right and they're wrong?

We can continue debating all we want but at the end of the day you don't know any more than any other shipper and vice versa so lets stop with this arrogant behaviour. Then you latch back onto your point about how you're only saying this since taekookers “contacted you” and think they're being “misled" since there's "no way" such jikook moments would happen if taekook was real. I still stick by my point of you simply lying about taekookers coming to you because you have failed to show any proof and by briefly examining your social media platforms as well as asking around, I’ve come to the conclusion it's a lie. Sure some taekookers feel unsatisfied and might feel confused by some jikook moments (all explainable to me) but that's the case for both sides. Go on any YouTube ship video, any instagram account, twitter thread etc. I have seen plenty of jikook shippers type comments like "my jikook heart is hurting", "why would jungkook look at tae like that" etc. That does not mean we have the right to demand a specific ship stops interacting because it does not correlate with your narrative that's simply idiotic. "TaeKook shippers have complained about Taehyung and Jungkook being separated" as have jikook shippers. These type of shippers will always exist, on both sides, all I have to say to them is go outside, breathe in some fresh air then actually analyse their relationship from beginning to end to form a coherent conclusion rather than jumping on isolated events (like you pretty much have).

You go on to analyse how bighit have been separating taekook ( quick note it's so amusing to me how when taekookers came up with this theory they were laughed at but as soon as it was in favour for jikook, jikookers jumped on it and took it as the ultimate truth). "There are many times when Taehyung is interrupted from doing an action that would be inappropriate if Jungkook wasn’t single" like when? I'm sorry but you can't just throw around statements without any backing. No, run episode 35 is not proof and I'll get to that but when has tae ever been stopped from initiating skinship with jungkook? Sure it's cut sometimes just like jikook is, jungkook might pull away sometimes (very rare) just like with jimin because it's basic human nature, sometimes when someone is touched suddenly their CNS triggers a reflex response such as flinching from a sudden sensation. Ultimately those isolated events prove nothing since we have significantly more moments when jungkook warmly leans into tae's touches and even initiates them.

For your analysis on episode 35, I'm not even going to bother with a long essay like I did for the jhope video because that's how ridiculous your claim is. I would  post screenshots but that is not possible right now so I'll indicate the time frames. At 27:24 before tae goes towards jungkook, the member’s reactions are exactly the same as to when you claim they get pissed off at tae in the 2nd to 4th picture after he ruffled jk’s hair since you claim they're worried shippers might "misread it". First of all if they were worried about that they simply would cut it out of the episode. Also watching the whole video you can clearly see the member's expressions were not caused solely due to what taehyung was doing. There were many nuances contributing to the progression of their facial articulation such as savouring the food, listening to each other talking, commentary about the task, slight disagreements about the food taste etc.  Of course innocent fans fall into these traps since they don't bother fact-checking and that creates a horde of misunderstandings

Moving onto to 27:38, I’m sorry but jungkook wouldn’t look so content, he even smiles before he averts his attention back to the person speaking. What kind of boyfriend is he to enjoy such intimate affections from his "friend" knowing how shippers will take it whilst his boyfriend is in the same room? exactly it makes no sense because that's not how things are. Also if what you claim was the case then bighit would most definitely cut that scene out. further more if you actually watch that part, jimin doesn't even once turn to look at them directly other than when he's casually taking in his surroundings, clearly showing through his body language he isn't the least bit affected. 

"It is disrespectful to the stylist that did Jungkook’s hair", no it just goes on to show the level of intimacy and comfort between tae and jungkook for taehyung to do that without even having the need to ask permission and jungkook going pliant under his touches. 

"RM realizes the tension, and walks across the room and he successfully stops it. In the free video, RM appears there and the editor made note of him moving and he said, “It takes some time for a man to mature” again wrong information and manipulation of the situation. RM says that after the moment with taekook takes place, he does nothing to dissuade the supposed tension you speak off, this brings me back to my original point which is that if jikook were actually a thing it would be highly disrespectful of tae to do that and for you to indicate he's so childish and uncaring is frankly disgusting and straight up untrue. 

"They opted to not only leave the moment in, but show where clearly the three are not on the same page". You honestly without any bias think bighit is aiming to show the fans that there's something wrong between maknaeline? I'm actually astonished at your naivety to think a company such as bighit who keeps everything under wraps and dissuades minor rumours as quick as possible would risk the image of their brand for... what exactly? To show how a specific relationship is real and fans should not be shipping the other one? What kind of idealistic world are you living in? Quick note but shipping is actually beneficial to them. No the bond between bts is not fan service but it's not a secret that bighit benefits from it. However if it was causing problems between members then they would approach specific members to not do things that could be suggestive, they would never try to show "tension". That would be extremely hazardous to their careers. The fact that taekook continues to have suggestive moments (backhugs, head scruffs, intimately touching each other's necks, "you're mine", "oh you're sexy", " we act out romantic scenes", "tae putting his head under jungkook's head" etc. strongly implies there's nothing romantic between jikook because those moments simply would not happen, it doesn’t make sense if they were a thing. Jikook moments on the other hand pertain nothing suggestive, they're rather playful, teasing and have familiar skinship much like jinkook in that aspect. I've always considered jimin to be someone jungkook looks up to due to how much effort and work he puts in to achieve his goals and aspires to imitate him on stage. I frankly see nothing that could suggest something romantic but ofcourse everyone is entitled to their own opinion.

To conclude you  can't use stop frames to prove a point, you have to take the situation into consideration and all the nuances that could've led to certain expressions and for that you have to watch the whole video and analyse the person's expression throughout the episode. I haven't acknowledged some of the statements you made in this section simply because they're so silly, I don't even feel the need to analyse it, anyone with some modicum of sense can work it out themselves. Also your analogy at the beginning about a,b,c was good but what on earth makes u so confident it's true? I could also use solitary events and make my own inaccurate conclusions based on another analogy but would that make it true? not at all. remember kids correlation is not causation.

So basically your whole post on ‘taekook tension’ was based on a taekook shipper supposedly "feeling" tension between them and then using two isolated events to prove your point? Doesn't seem very reliable if you ask me. They're on a break, there has been a lack of interaction between all ships which has put some shippers on edge  (i'm still not buying taekookers coming to you tho) but it's simply so idiotic to use subjective viewpoints of shippers and claim to construct an objective situation and that too based on only 2 events which you also wrongly analysed.

"What if you told C to stop and it kept happening?" if you know tae you'll know he would never do that to his close friends especially as some one who jungkook claims "helped me come of my shell" and "made me free" simply not realistic. "Replace AB with JiKook and C being Taehyung" and on what basis? where's the proof? where's the consistency and the timeline? "once a member is no longer single, any ships regarding that members are fake no matter how real it might seem" that's true no doubt but again where's the proof jikook is real? or taekook for that matter. We can analyse as much as we want but at the end of the day we don't know any more than other fans. Sure we can delve in and use interpretation skills to come to a conclusion but if you've ever take any English literature classes then you know how much interpretation a single extract can have which might all seem accurate but at the end of the day it's up to the person and how they perceive things. My problem here is how carelessly you have painted taehyung as a child who does not know any better.

Any jikook shippers reading this simply ask yourselves, if jikook was real and taehyung knew, would he seriously do the things he does with jungkook knowing what response it would elicit from his fans? be honest. Not to mention all the times jugkook backhugs him, pulls him in, agrees to live with him in the future, plays romantic skits with him, what kind of a boyfriend would do that with another man? From what I know jungkook is not an inconsiderate asshole so please drop this reasoning. I've noticed so many jikookers saying jungkook doesn't initiate anything with taehyung to placate themselves but boy are they wrong, Infact I would go as far as to claim jungkook is more attentive and initiative towards taheyung than any other member (I will explain this in a separate taekook post).

As you can tell this was a hastily written analysis that I haven't proof read since I'm so busy (I keep saying SIGH) but I hope my point comes across. The last and most important part in my opinion will be uploaded soon, whenever I get the time.  

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Hey - Pat from StarterStory.com here with another interview.Today's interview is with Zach Katz of Framed Tweets, a website that sells framed tweets.Some stats:Product: Framed TweetsRevenue/mo: $25,000Started: May 2017Location: NYCFounders: 1Employees: 0Hello! Who are you and what business did you start?Hi! I’m Zach Katz, and I started Framed Tweets to give people a simple way to beautifully frame their favorite tweets as art, to remember and enjoy forever.You can frame any tweet you want, or pick one from our gallery of tweets from Twitter icons like Kanye West), Donald Trump, or Elon Musk. They come in three styles: Ornate Gold, Sleek Black, and Giant Canvases (which fill an entire wall)!We launched in May of 2017, grossing about $20k in our first year, followed by $110k in 2018. We’re on track to double that in 2019 as we continue to scale our advertising.Our productWhat's your backstory and how did you come up with the idea?I dreamed up the idea for Framed Tweets a year prior to starting it.It was December 2015, and I was holed up in my room, avoiding the New Year’s party my parents were hosting downstairs. I was scrolling through Twitter, when suddenly, I thought, “what if you could frame a tweet?” (Honestly, that’s how most ideas come about, at least for me. They just randomly happen.)I looked all over the internet. I couldn’t believe that there was no website that frames tweet. Excited about a potentially great idea, but with zero intention of ever starting a business, I wrote it down in my notes app as one of those funny “what ifs,” and completely forgot about it.Later that year, after graduating from film school in Boston, I worked on a food truck for a few months, until I eventually got tired of making sandwiches and wanted a change of pace. That winter, I moved to Portland, Oregon.I didn’t have a job. I just walked around and worked on music all day. I had a few thousand saved up from my previous internet ventures (I had a large YouTube following and monetized some Twitter accounts, which I sold), but money eventually started running out, so one rainy day in February, I set out to find a job. I printed out my resume and took it to a bunch of restaurants, hoping to be a busboy or something. Unfortunately, I didn’t have any experience in the industry, and although there was a brewery that seemed sort of promising, I felt awful. Getting a “normal job” felt like giving up. I walked home dejected and unsure about my future.On my way home, I encountered a man on the sidewalk who was selling homemade Sudoku puzzles for $5 each. After my near-resignation to a life of transporting dirty dishes, seeing this man on the street selling something he made—without permission from anyone—was striking. With more curiosity than I’ve ever had in my life, I asked him if he was making a living selling these puzzles. He told me he makes enough to get by, and that was all I needed to know.I walked away with a new outlook on life. Before talking to that guy, I had never, EVER dreamed of starting my own business, and now, I was 10,000% confident that I could make a living selling something myself. If some guy selling Sudoku puzzles on the street could eek out a living, anything was possible.I opened the notes app on my phone, tapped on my ‘Ideas’ folder, and the first thing I saw was a note that I had written a year prior, which simply read: ‘framed tweets.’ I hurried back to my apartment and started working on Framed Tweets that afternoon.Take us through the process of designing, prototyping, and manufacturing your first product.I knew I wanted to keep things simple. I didn’t want to overwhelm people with twenty different styles of frames. I wanted to start with one beautiful, ornate gold frame that suits tweets perfectly.At first, I considered buying from an American picture frame company, but I couldn’t find any ornate frames that were sold in bulk. I did some research and found that Alibaba was a good place to buy a wide variety of picture frames in bulk. I requested samples from a few companies, picked out the one I liked best, and ordered 500 of them with the last of my savings.Good thing my building had a freight elevator.Note: the frame wasn’t completely off-the-shelf. We paid extra for a few custom nuances, like using real glass, a thicker backboard, and adding an easel to allow for propping. We also designed it with rotatable tabs to make it extra easy to insert tweets (a style that’s surprisingly uncommon in American picture frames).Describe the process of launching the business.At first, I had no idea you could easily sell stuff online. Inspired by the guy selling the puzzles, and eager to make sales right away, I started selling them on the sidewalks of Portland.I found some used frames at a thrift store, picked out some funny tweets, printed them at FedEx Office, and lined them up on NW 23rd Ave.The business was nice enough to let me use their staircase.I didn’t sell many—maybe six or seven, total—but the response was overwhelmingly positive. Groups of teenage girls Snapchatted them. Dignified old men carefully studied the tweets, as if it were the MoMA. Some people scowled. But almost everyone laughed. That’s how I knew I had a good idea on my hands.Tired of unsuccessfully hawking tweets on the street, I decided to try selling them online. My first mistake? Spending two months and $2,000 trying to get some guy on Upwork to build an e-commerce site from scratch, because I had no idea something like Shopify existed. Lesson learned!My first mockup.Once I discovered Shopify, I spent about two months getting the site ready: Taking product photos, curating tweets, organizing them into categories, writing a FAQ page, etc. Finally, it was ready to go.Working on the website.I launched the website on May 5th. That night, I tweeted the link to some random people who I found by searching Twitter for “frame this tweet.” The next morning, I woke up to find Framed Tweets featured on Product Hunt, Mashable, Uncrate, and a few other websites. (My favorite article came out a few months later, in which I had some fun embellishing to Portland’s Willamette Week.)While that press led to about 100 initial sales (~$5,000 worth), the traffic eventually fizzled out, and I was back to square one.Fulfilling orders from my apartment.Since launch, what has worked to attract and retain customers?The #1 most important thing you can do is find a way to consistently get people onto your site. Press is no substitute—even if your store gets featured in the New York Times, the traffic is still going to wither away a few days later, and then you’re back to square one. Which is why a “scalable marketing machine” (Facebook ads, Instagram ads, Google ads, etc.) is so important.Instagram AdsThese have been our bread and butter, and 90% of our sales are attributed to them (in fact, we’re not even advertising on Facebook at the moment, because the return on Instagram has been so much better).One of our best-performing Instagram ads.Just regular ol’ InstagramJust posting to Instagram has worked pretty well. Sometimes I’ll post a photo of a product and we’ll get three or four sales. Other times, nothing will happen. Instagram is unpredictable like that. But I also haven’t been putting as much effort into crafting beautiful photos, which the algorithm loves—that’s been on my perennial to-do list.TwitterI’ll let this screenshot do the talkingPressWe’ve been featured on a few big sites, like Mashable, Hypebeast, and GQ France. We didn’t do any PR outreach—it all just happened randomly. I’d love to get some more press, so if you write for the New York Times and want to write a story about how tweets are changing the art game, hit me up :)InfluencersWe occasionally send free framed tweets to people with lots of followers on Twitter or Instagram. Sometimes, they tweet about it, although we don’t ask them to.It’s hard to know exactly how many sales this kind of thing yields, but I feel like it’s a pretty good long-term strategy, building awareness and whatnot.Email marketingThis is something that we haven’t invested much in yet, but are looking to build up soon. If you’re interested in working with us on this, please get in touch!Other sales channelsOur Etsy store makes up about 5% of our sales. What’s nice is that they’re all organic sales from search (in other words, people searching for “Kanye West gifts” as opposed to ), so since we’re not spending any money on marketing there, profit is higher.We occasionally get sales from Amazon and eBay too, although our presence on those sites isn’t built up much yet.How are you doing today and what does the future look like?Things are going pretty well!Sales are steadily increasing as we scale our Instagram ads. We’re grossing about $20k per month from Instagram ads, spending about $300/day. Our ROAS hovers around 2.Operations-wise, we now work with a fulfillment center that prints, frames, and ships all of our products, so I don’t have to handle any of that myself anymore, which allows me the freedom to work from anywhere in the world.I’m also working on growing my other business, Memes On Canvas, spearheading the internet-content-turned-IRL-art industry :)Through starting the business, have you learned anything particularly helpful or advantageous?Working with a marketing agency has been huge. At first, I spent weeks trying to figure out how to run Facebook ads myself, but I honestly didn’t have the patience or experience to do them myself. Once I hired an agency, it made a huge difference, and sales started to really take off in a reliable way.Broadly-speaking, there are always going to be new and unexpected challenges. For example, the exact day I started Framed Tweets, Kanye West deleted his Twitter. Which meant manually re-creating all of his now-deleted tweets people were buying. Or a few months later, when Twitter changed the entire design of tweets, and we had to re-upload hundreds of product images (this will probably happen again soon). Or the many times we’ve failed to order inventory on time, and had a hundred upset customers pissed off about not getting their order in time for Christmas. There are always going to “speedbumps” on the road to success in any endeavor, which I view as a way the universe “teases” you, simply to prove your dedication to achieving what you want.I’ve also learned that business isn’t some boring thing that involves just filling out a bunch of forms, which is a misconception lots of beginners seem to have. It’s actually more like a form of art. Essentially, every problem can be solved with creativity, which is why I think that being open-minded and thinking expansively are two of the most valuable assets that you can have. I believe that everyone is fundamentally creative in their own way, which means that anyone can succeed at business if theyDo things “the hard way” first, then look for easier ways as you goIn the early days, I printed all of the orders at FedEx Office, took them back to my apartment to frame them, then carried the boxes to the post office. When that started taking too much time, I bought a professional-grade printer and discovered that USPS will pick up from your home, for free (!).When that started taking too much time, I found a fulfillment center to print/frame/ship orders, which now allows me to run the business from anywhere in the world, and scale it up to the moon.Don’t bother keeping your amazing idea a secret.Before I started Framed Tweets, I was scared to tell people about my idea, because I was afraid they would steal it. Now, I can’t believe how silly that was. Over the past year, there have been a few copycat businesses, but they’ve all given up. Execution is everything.Honestly? This is the first time we’ve published our revenue publically, and now that we’ve done so, I hope people compete with us. I think people are starting to get tired of looking at screens 24/7, and will appreciate more opportunities to bring the internet content they love most into their physical, tangible world. The more the merrier.What platform/tools do you use for your business?I’m always experimenting with new apps, but here are my tried-and-true favorites:Shopify. I wouldn’t even consider using anything else to run an e-commerce store. Worth it for the 3 A.M. support calls alone.The Shopify theme Turbo. Blazing fast, looks amazing, tons of features, constantly being updated.Hypervisual for landing pages, and to spruce up the collection and product pages. I tested DOZENS of landing page builders for Shopify, and Hypervisual is by FAR the best. I love it so much.Klaviyo for emailFera.ai for checkout page adjustments, social proof pop-ups on the site, and “get it by” shipping countdowns.Okendo for customer reviews.Onlinejobs.ph for hiring Filipino virtual assistants. $2 USD/hr is actually a competitive wage there because the cost of living is so low.Lucky Orange for heatmaps, to help with improving our conversion rate.LiveRecover for texting customers who abandon their cart with a coupon code. We just started experimenting with this, but it seems promising.Snappic - Automated retargeting ads for Facebook and Instagram. Has driven a consistent ROI for us.What have been the most influential books, podcasts, or other resources?The War of Art - The Bible of creative productivity.Derek Sivers’ blog - Wisdom that applies to both art and business.My Uncle Oswald - Did you know Roald Dahl wrote books for adults, too? This is one of the most entertaining stories I’ve ever read, and it contains wildly potent lessons in entrepreneurialism.The Millionaire Fastlane - This book is aimed at people who want to break out of the 9 to 5 world, but I’d recommend it solely because it made me completely rethink wealth, and what it takes to become rich.The ONE Thing - When I was trying to do a bunch of things at once and was having trouble deciding what to focus on, this book helped a lot.The Philosophy of Andy Warhol - “Making money is art and working is art and good business is the best art.”Advice for other entrepreneurs who want to get started or are just starting out?Find amazing people to work with.One good way to run a successful business is to outsource everything to people who are better at it than you. How to find them? Talk to people, and they’ll surprise you. Some examples from my life:A few months after starting the business, I made a post on reddit asking for help marketing Framed Tweets, and I met a guy named Max, who runs a marketing agency called Paradise Growth. He’s not only been running all of our ads campaigns ever since, but has also taught me almost everything I know about business along the way (for example, without his guidance, I wouldn’t have even known to look for a fulfillment center, and I’d probably still be packing orders from my apartment!).Last summer, after emailing a customer apologizing for his order being late, he referred me to his friend’s fulfillment center that could handle our volume. We’re still working with them to this day.I even met a girl on Tinder, and instead of going on a date, she ended up helping me with an influencer campaign!With the entire world at your fingertips, and with basically zero effort or risk in chatting someone up in the DMs, you might as well talk to as many people as possible. You never know who you might hit it off with and end up changing your life.If you don’t have traffic, you won’t get sales.I used to freak out when I wouldn’t get any sales all day—despite only getting like, 30 visitors—and think “what the hell am I doing wrong? Maybe no one likes my product. Maybe changing the font will help. Or maybe making the logo cooler…”Turns out, I just wasn’t getting enough people onto the site. That’s where the scalable marketing machine comes in (Instagram ads in our case).I forget where I heard this quote—and I’m definitely butchering the phrasing—but it goes something like:No marketing leads to no sales. Some marketing leads to some sales. And lots of marketing leads to lots of sales.Success isn’t always overnight, and it usually takes a hell of a lot of problem-solving and persistence than you expect. I truly expected Framed Tweets to be an overnight sensation, and to make millions of dollars immediately. That didn’t happen, and two years later, it’s basically just starting to be profitable. Patience is key. But it’s easy to be patient when you enjoy the challenge. Which leads me to...Do something you actually like doing! This might be obvious to some people, and it might not apply to people who can easily tolerate anything in the pursuit of money. But personally, I can’t fully invest my time and energy in something unless I love it. I’ve always been a huge fan of Twitter. It’s my cup of tea, and selling tweets is the most exciting business I can imagine.Are you looking to hire for certain positions right now?We’re hiring for a few positions (all paid):Facebook ads managerFacebook funnel strategistPart-time marketing data analystEmail marketing strategist and (short-form) copywriterWhere can we go to learn more?Website: framedtweets.comEmail me, zach@framedtweets.comIf you have any questions or comments, drop a comment below!Liked this text interview? 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